/sci/ - Science & Math

Space advancements should give me hope but instead I can't help this unshakeable anxiety, like it'll never get off the ground in my lifetime. Why do I have such a crushing sense of dread? It feels like this is really the only hope for a future, and the only thing to even look forward to anymore. I'm already in my 30's and I feel like I'll just get left behind if it ever even becomes feasible to leave Earth by the time it becomes accessible to non-billionaires. This planet feels like a fucking prison. It was bad enough having all my retard youthful delusions about life and the world shattered when I went to war, but now it just feels like every year is more locked down, claustrophobic, and controlled than the last with literally nowhere left to run. I want to escape. I NEED to escape. This SpaceX bullshit feels like my last hope but it's crushing because I know that hope is childish and naive. At least humans in an older time could be pioneers and run away to start over.