/sci/ - Science & Math

>failing group theory
fuck math, should have never studied this shit, I want off this ride but it's too late now

>>12758705
Not really related but I got the results from a module back today:
>overall module comprised of 60% exam component, one piece of coursework work 10% and another worth 25%.
>get 70% in first piece of coursework
>get 79% on covid conditions exam
>get 47% on second larger coursework
>overall mark: 69.65%
>tfw I missed out on a first by 0.35%
fucking cunt lecturer fucked me again.

>>12758229
So wish I bought some when they were worth pennys.

I feel so subhuman for not having done a math or computer science degree at a prestigious university. I was browsing LinkedIn last night and saw lots of people with these applied math / programming investment bank jobs and I feel so subhuman compared to them.

I did a boring degree I disliked, at a college below my potential. I have a good job now, but nothing technical.

>apply for a PhD
>required: 2-5 recommendation letters
>directly submitted from academics only
>have to email & beg tutors from 3 years ago
>"can you send me your CV?" aka not sure who you are

mfw

>>12606225
OP here. My story
>Graduated for a Golden triangle uni in the UK with a first class in a STEM field
>tired of the "cold, grey UK" (after only 3 years)
>decide to do my PhD in Greece, my home country
>Pick the "best" uni in the country
>they welcome me
>i accept because why not
>1 month in
>"What do you mean you expect a contract?"
>Stipend is subject to change every 5 months, can range from zero to 900 euro max
>no stipend in the summer
>total earnings are sub 9k euro a year
>no contract specifying the duration, meaning the professor can exploit me for up to 8 years
>absolute and rampant corruption, clubs associated with political parties have the answers before the exams (and want your vote to give them to you)
>equipment fails or isn't used
>secretaries never answer the phone

I want to re-apply for a PhD in the UK.
Do I tell them the truth (I quit my previous PhD because the institution was bad) or will that make me seem like an unmotivated quitter? I can try and sell myself as a "research associate" instead.

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>>12505377
OP here, just fucking kill me already. I fell for the chemistry meme. It is not a marketable science at all.
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>>12504973
I looked into this, it is not easy to move in the US for work. I have an EU passport and graduated from a top British uni, still impossible.

Imagine being OneWeb and seeing this after just three Starlink launches.

https://streamable.com/id92l8

Can someone link me to an accurate online IQ test so I can know if my dreams are possible or not? I'm tired of worrying about this.

>>11552922
Jesus Christ imagine having to make a tank to contain and cryocool that much LH2 at high pressure. Oh and of course it's got to be a specially molded tank too because normal spheres and cylinders would leave precious internal volume wasted that could have been used to cram in more propellant. Of course they'll have to be COPV tanks too to absolutely autistically minimize dry mass as much as humanly possible while keeping such a giant hollow space from imploding under it's own weight with minimum structural support.

FALSE MEMORY IS NOT THE SAME THING AS THE MANDELA EFFECT SHUT THE FUCK UP, ESPECIALLY THE RETARDS WHO GO "LE MANDELA EFFECT" IN RESPONSE TO FORGETTING LITERALLY ANYTHING

FUCK

>>10427775
>>Well you're supposedly and engineer, you should be able to fix my car.
DELETE THIS

>tell myself I should go through 8 MOOCs at once because I have so much free time
>know MOOCs are simplified and I'll feel like a brainlet for doing them
>tell myself I'll learn from textbooks instead
>know I'll feel guilty for skipping most of the textbooks


>tell myself I should learn or relearn some basic maths (linear algebra, statistics, probability) and go through SICP to stop feeling like a brainlet and so I can then do what I really want
>do the textbook exercises
>still feel like a brainlet
>go through most of SICP
>it's boring and isn't giving deep insight like people say it does
>still feel like I need to go through it or else I'm dumb

How do I stop worrying about everything all the time? I worry about what I do, don't do, and how I do things.

I feel like such a brainlet pleb for not going through 8 MOOCs but I know MOOCs are simplified versions of courses so I will feel like a brainlet pleb for starting any of them.

And there are at least 50 books I feel like I have to read or else I'm a pleb.

Doing well in education and having a good job for someone my age changes nothing. I feel bad for not working in multiple jobs as well.

I don't have the balls to follow my own intuitions and interests. I am most of the way through SICP but it is boring. Of course lots of people say you have to go through it and love it or else you're dumb and everything you program is codemonkey shit.

I feel bad for not spending all day on one thing. I feel bad for not doing multiple things. I believe in free will but don't trust my future self at all.

I have regularly browsed pol (as a non white), fit, biz, lit, and r9k (I'm blackpilled). But nothing has fundamentally crushed my motivation for life other than the IQ meme and sci. And I did great in education when I put effort in and have many immediate relatives who have achieved stuff.

Whenever I get stuck at anything I wonder why even bother when some autistic 15 year old nerd has already done it. I think of all the people who would find whatever I'm currently working on at that moment easier than me. And how they probably chose to learn it more rigorously (like learning linear algebra from a pure maths textbook instead of an engineering textbook and they would find it child's play to apply it).

I stopped putting effort in to my stem degree after realising that maths and physics were the only worthwhile ones. They teach the fundamentals. Everything else is brainlet shit.

Why even get a job as a programmer when it is extremely IQ sensitive? Even if you're smart, you are still 10x less productive than the autists.

I can't harness my nofriends loserness in to autist motivation. How the fuck do people do that? How do you sit at home and do shit when you know you are ugly and Stacey and Chad have easy lives and are out partying?

How do I stop feeling like a pleb for not knowing lots of stuff?

I feel like there are 10 MOOCs, 100 books, and 10 introductory textbooks I have to go through (and doing all exercises) before I can even begin to do anything.

>>9552196
>tfw sub 100 IQ

I have regularly browsed pol (as a non white), fit, biz, lit, and r9k (I'm blackpilled). But nothing has fundamentally crushed my motivation for life other than the IQ meme and sci. And I did great in education when I put effort in and have many immediate relatives who have achieved stuff.

Whenever I get stuck at anything I wonder why even bother when some autistic 15 year old nerd has already done it. I think of all the people who would find whatever I'm currently working on at that moment easier than me. And how they probably chose to learn it more rigorously (like learning linear algebra from a pure maths textbook instead of an engineering textbook and they would find it child's play to apply it).

I stopped putting effort in to my stem degree after realising that maths and physics were the only worthwhile ones. They teach the fundamentals. Everything else is brainlet shit.

Why even get a job as a programmer when it is extremely IQ sensitive? Even if you're smart, you are still 10x less productive than the autists.

I can't harness my nofriends loserness in to autist motivation. How the fuck do people do that? How do you sit at home and do shit when you know you are ugly and Stacey and Chad have easy lives and are out partying?

>if I spent even a quarter of the time I spent on 4chan in the past 3 years learning things, I'd be so fucking genius and successful

tfw eternal brainlet