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>Hot takes thread
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This thread JUST got deleted cause an angry janitor has aphantasia
Seriously, I can think of no other reason to remove it. WTF mods

There are often threads about aphantasia here. Pic very related. But just today I realized that when people say stuff like "Wow, I read that in [actor/character]'s voice" they ACTUALLY "hear" the words in their head with that particular voice. Meanwhile, I thought all this time that they meant they were just imagining the character/actor saying that particular line, because that's how it is for me.
Honestly, all this aphantasia and IQ stuff on the internet just makes me feel pathetic. I've never taken an IQ test because I'm scared of the result but I know that I'm average at best. When you know that IQ is THE predictor for success in life, and you can do nothing to change it, it sucks hard. Same for aphantasia. I've tried some "imagination exercises" but they are all total bullshit. I'm studying CS (no bully, I'm too retarded for math) and this might be one reason why I'm struggling with implementing abstract exercises. When one student can literally build up and imagine a whole project in their head and another can't, then it's obvious who has the advantange.
Now, where am I going with this wall of text? There's no real point, I just wanted to vent. But I guess a question would be: is there actually anything I could do? Studying complicated stuff outside of CS is just such a chore, because I'm sitting there trying to understand a passage that anyone in the 120+ spectrum would understand intuitively without ever having heard of it before. There's simply no motivation for intellectual self-improvement within me when I know that it's basically pointless, as in the same time, my peers will learn twice or even thrice the amount of knowledge. This kind of thinking has at least made me start getting /fit/ because that's an area where I genetically lucked out in, but muscles in 2020 are literally irrelevant.