/sci/ - Science & Math

>>15659685
>I just got my undergraduate physics degree.
Congratulations. You have achieved something. Let that be your starting point.
>I'd like to save up for grad school but I feel so incredibly hopeless.
Physics is a good study but as the FAQ points out, you really need a PhD to get the interesting jobs. Plenty do a PhD and with the state of the world you should expect more will go for PhD studies.
>I've been rejected from grocery stores, fast food, retail, etc. so many times that I can't even bring myself to apply to jobs I would actually enjoy.
Why apply for grocery stores? Get internships in programming, electronics or the like.
>What can I do? Should I legitimately just kill myself?
Most people feel like this once or twice in life, this too will pass. Get an intrenship or two, apply for grad school, build a Github portfolio if possible, network with people. You are a physicist, you are able to go places.

>>14819123
>I'm not looking for revenge,
My point is that you don't have to, it will come to you. Or, a bit more poetic: “If you wait by the river long enough, the bodies of your enemies will float by.” ― Sun Tzu
>I'm just looking for happiness,
Same here. What "the meaning of life" is, depends on each of us. To me it has been to experience new things. This made me do a PhD, it made me do studies and postdocs around the world, and while it didn't make me a lot of money at the time, it nevertheless gave me a great time, for which I am happy. It is quite possible it is something else for you, though I will hazard the guess that it won't be far from my view since we are both here on /scg/ discussing this topic. It is also worth thinking about the fact that few discuss this seriously and without beaing drunk.
>and I don't believe it's real anymore.
It is. You just have to think about what it is that brings happiness, and also enjoy the moments. Far too often people talk about "the golden age" in the past tense. Yet it can be the here and now, even in the fellowship that is /scg/. WAGMI.