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>>14595379
I only like talking anonymously.

Here I'll explain:

Have you ever tried smoking a joint or two or something? (Don't recommend too many though, it seriously fucks your brain if you do it too much and causes stroke.)
My problem was with that shit is that it made me realize that I am in a permanently high state (to where people end up being after a joint) and have always been that way. Others finally see my point when they get high. To some people that's cool, to me it's annoying as fuck.
Getting high for me is a fucking nightmare though. I stay away from that shit now.
It's like staring diablo in the face for me, though with no visual audio hallucinations - just thoughts. To me my surroundings are horrifying, always. I see death in every bit of everything around me.

I used to wonder why kids never got my terrible jokes at school and now I realize "they don't see the context".
So generally I try my fucking best to detail it in order to just talk normally. I hate it. People get high for fun and I'm just here trying to ground myself to the floor. And the floor is also lava.