/sci/ - Science & Math

>>14997843
I don't have any money. I don't really like thinking about or handling money because it is confusing so I never try to get it. I would rather have a meal or an item. Usually when I have money, it gets spent on books, computer equipment or a style of very old American candy that has things like a lot of fruit and nuts or a honeycomb or something. Candy peaked in America somewhere between WWI and WWII. After that it is too much refined and not enough things like fruit. Sometimes also Mexican candy because a lot of the time Mexican candy is just a nice fruit someone put chili powder on. They do this a lot of times with mangoes and pineapples and something called a hawthorn?

>>14997952
I wake up a lot of times randomly. I sleep when I get tired and wake up when health problems make me. It can't fit a regular sleep and awake times so sleep or awake time is somewhat randomized naturally.

>>14997978
I only remember this sensation one time. It wasn't long ago, but I can't remember exactly when. I remembered the dream some when I got up, but now I can't remember anything about contents or length. Just that something different happened. It was a different feeling than usual because when I wake up usually the first thing I think is go get a drink like a water or a shasta or something. There is no dream information to think about in this case.

>>14991217
>Crying Loop
A lot of times I have a problem with a lot of bad memories and then start crying. Memory somehow loses form and then can't remember the memory and stop crying. Later somehow bad memories come again and start crying more. I don't know is it the same one as before or not because I can't remember the one before. Between events I can't remember crying and maybe become happy so it makes a wave with a lot of being sad and crying. I am writing this directly following crying and I am sure it is not the first crying of today and I can't remember why was I crying? I don't know how many times this loop has happened or what starts it or what it contains?

>Anti-Clown Hell Box
I am in Clown Hell. It is a big jail run by Evil Clowns. Clown Hell has mean tricks like crying that can derail my tasks. I have to immune myself to Clown Hell without becoming a Hell Clown myself inside the Clown Hell. If I can't do this I will have problems making technologies for the maid. I might get a big cardboard box and spend my time inside the box with nothing but a computer and the book vampire maid from touhou told me and tape pictures of maids to the inside of the box so the only things I see are the Science Computer and the Jech book and a lot of maids in the box and nothing else so whatever is causing crying either can't operate because nothing makes a bad memories or I discover it is one of those three things. The box has to be big enough to stand in and walk in place some but no bigger probably. Anti-Clown Hell Box can also have some music playing.

How can I better mitigate the problems caused by living in a Clown Hell?

Thank you /sci/entists for reading my post.