/sci/ - Science & Math

>>11034502

Man... I have a more broad amount of interests (but less depth in all of them too). This past 3 years at uni I have only had good conversations with some of my teachers (the best ones, most of them suck as much as my peers...). I have been even mocked when I shared with the class some of my thoughts about our field and stuff, what you usually talk with those people but in my case I am really passionate about it (and most of them not) so as soon as I start to show any kind of "talent" I overheard some sarcastic comments about how smart I think I am... Honestly I would not give a rat ass if that was the case but I HATE seeing any kind of narcissistic behaviour on me so, even when I really try my best to be "normal" It really hurted me to be mocked and perceived as a smartass when I am only really interested and passioned about my field... Most of the time I am alone in class and I don't dislike it but the reason is because of the huge gap between me and my peers...
So yes, talking to my professors are one of the most stimulating things I have done here... I am not complaining but sometimes I wish I was as everyone else and were able to fit in without faking a completely different personality... (I did that until high school, when I started college I just saw more interesting to be alone with my thoughts). This is one of the things that I would love to talk openly with my group of "friends" but I know I can't...