/sci/ - Science & Math

Why are you all such lonely faggots, /sci/?

Pygmalion made a waifu for himself, so what's stopping you engiqueering faggots?

/sci/, how do you get through the day?

In the face of overwhelming self-doubt, how do you carry on?
Is there a point at which you can stop and say you're content or at least feel alright with your current abilities, understanding, knowledge, place in the world?

For me, nothing is inviolate. I don't believe in the inherent x-ness of anything. Prevailing social dicta seem savage and primitive to me, and the existing knowledge that offers an escape from it all is either inadequate or beyond my comprehension.

I'm violently introspective, uncontrollably self-loathing, acutely critical of everyone and everything, and just not analytically smart enough to overcome it all with technical achievement. I try, and I'm told to relax, because science is supposed to be hard, but the thought of so many pitifully small, close-minded fools before me having mastered the thing I struggle to do with relative ease makes it so that I can never be reassured.