/sci/ - Science & Math

From the perspective of one lurking sci on 4 chins
I'd like to avoid a "biological explaination", as I find this wholly unrooted in tangible existence.

When I take a high dose of adderall on occasion, say once a month or so, things feel as they ought to be.
My compulsions are essentially eliminated. There is no more compulsive behavior.
Adderall, to me, is not an "appetite suppressant", but it is eliminating compulsive consumption because 'something else' is being increased.
Rumination is eliminated. People will say something like "adhd problems with executive function" but again, this is absent existential tangibility.
My thoughts become more of a choice, and my 'intuition' is doing all the work. When I'm not on adderall, I have trended into thought-spam as a way to make sense of what it is I ought to do. When on adderall, that's not necessary. Things become a 'knowing'. I know exactly what I ought to do.
To materialise the bodies sensations into a thoughtform thus becomes a choice or a tool to assist in my lived experience. My thoughts and imagination projections become a tool to utilize on top of what it is I am actually doing. What it is I feel inclined to do, based on what I would call a heightened self-attunement.