/sci/ - Science & Math

>that fucking moment when you realize there's no turning back from getting a B and you have to stop deluding yourself that you're gonna get that really good grade on the final that'll put you at that A-
>tfw this happens with the fucking B and now you're looking at a C

shoot me

This is depressing.

I am only a freshman at some random university and already struggling every day. So even if I somehow manage to graduate I will only have average grades. It will probably take me one year longer than usual. Then I will go to grad school and if everything goes well I will get a Masters after 6 years of hard daily work. But then I am still a nobody. What then? Do I have to get a Ph.D if I want to do research? Will I have to be an assistant for years?

I don't want to do anything but research. I don't want to work at a job I hate or be some workdrone at a company. But it looks like the alternatives don't look better. I have average intelligence, am not the hardest working guy and I won't graduate from a top 10 university. Should I even bother with research? Should I just try to get some decently paid job and keep my involvement in science to reading articles and doing DIY projects in my free time?

>>6854267
Man it's really fucked up when you bust your ass on something for so long, feel you achieved something and no-one gives a fuck just because you're new. I'm glad I dropped out of university, fucking pecking order man. You're gonna call me big-headed but I really do think that science lost a useful person because I was by no means a genius or even the highest achiever but damn I had a fuck ton of enthusiasm for science. While everyone else was chilling at parties and clubs over the summer I was making this model solidly for 6 hours a day for no reason what so ever other than my love for chemistry. I feel heartbroken to have just been thrown onto the trash like this.

Anyone here ever come up with an idea that was completely ignored just because you were just a student with no real qualifications?
>Be chem student
>Learning about gas laws
>Come up with wacky theory where gas molecules can only be one of four distances apart
>The percentage at each distance apart tells the critical temperature, boyle temperature etc
>Do calculations, It's actually closer to experiment than Van der Waals/virial derivations
>Show it to professors asking what they think
>Ignored
>keep trying to get an audience for the next year
>Just wanted some feedback, if it turned out to be bullshit I can still learn from the experience
>Ignored
>Eventually sperg out on the grounds that it's course related and I'm paying for their time to discuss course related things
>They turn on me and I get bullied out of the university
I'm doing engineering from now on. At least if I come up with an idea I can make and sell it and all those bearded pretentious fucks can go fuck themselves if they cba to take any interest. I know they are busy but cmon it was a whole fucking year to just look at one piece of paper.

>150 word essay due in 3 months
>haven't started

should I just kill myself?

grad school please respond

that feel when no offers

oh god it's happening, i'm going to become NEET

I know that feel. We might be recognized as the dumbest generations of human history.