/sci/ - Science & Math

I'm almost 30 years old. I've been in school all my life for STEM. I have a phd. I'm going to work medical accessions cause that's all I can do.

>tfw.majoring in a discipline(Math) I enjoy but I have no aptitude for
>professor finds it so perplexing that I work so much harder than all the other students but don't even do better than the students who don't care or are forced to take the class
>thinks I have a metal disability
>forced to retake nearly every test I do
>everyday just feel like shit knowing I'm objectively not smart enough for this and shouldn't have stuck to it with sunk.cost fallacy back in first year
>regret falling for the do what you love meme

I don't know what I'm doing with my life
It's not fair. Why did I have to be born like this

How do I not blow my brains out? I graduated high school I was so good at chemistry and history but instead of that I chose to do Math because that's what fascinated me

Well fascination isn't enough. My brain is too fried to ever do chemistry again either after all these proofs