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I'm fucking done being a doctor.
I went through 6 years of med school even though every instinct told me this isn't any sort of life for me and I should quit. I started off my internship and within 2 weeks I wanted to kill myself every single day. Within 4 months I was hospitalized for weeks with a clostridium difficile infection that nearly killed me. They kept insisting I go to work even though I kept telling them I'm sick, so I worked until my body literally started shutting down. And then when I was lying there with sepsis they were still phoning me screaming abuse at me to come in and do my shift. I hate everything about it. I hate watching patients get screwed over again and again by fucking god complex losers. I hate how much shit gets swept under a rug and you can be an incompetent lazy fat cunt who sits in the breakroom eating KFC while the baby you were supposed to monitor dies of hypoglycemia, as long as you've worked there for a while and are somebody's friend. I hate being treated like shit and being told I'm worthless and a liability if I so much as spell a senior doctor's name wrong. I hate being forced to work subhuman hours and to be shat on because I forgot one tiny irrelevant thing after being on my feet for 28 hours. The healthcare industry breeds literal sociopaths. These people are incapable of actual empathy, they simply emulate it for their own gain like fucking dogs standing up on their back legs for a treat. Some of them are actual sadists who get off to seeing people in pain. The rest are even worse because they don't do anything out of malice, they just do it out of fucking braindead desire for money and dopamine, they'd eat their own shit on camera if they could get the same fix out of it, but instead they hurt vulnerable people.
Fuck this shit. I'm gonna get a masters in something biomedical and live a normal fucking human life. I don't even care if anyone reads my stupid blog but it sure felt good to finally say all this to someone.