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>>11615192
Because i have other goals i am fully absorbed in. Also i have settled with the fact that I am autistic. It keeps the burden off of you for not being able to emotionally connect to others. What makes me feel usefull is what I do in my field.
You do not have to try if you do not want to. Dont get me wrong i would fuck a normal pretty female if it was not worth so much commitment and trying from my side, where otherscseem to get it just by being themselves.
I remember days passing by where all my efforts, everything I said was done with a purpose of fitting in. It wouldnt work, the situations are just too dynamic and without some intuition what to do, you are going to suffer.
There is no feeling of blame on others or myself also. Some people just do other things and its fine.
I wish i realized that earlier.
I do not know what i will do when i will be an old fart. Luckily i have close relations with family that is younger than me, but being old and sick is shit either way.