/sci/ - Science & Math

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schizoaffective bipolar type here
this will be told from my own perspective and the third person perspective of me observing my schizo family members

as long as you've been told your whole life to prepare for this inevitable schizo* that will be happening to you weather you like it or not, like I was, as well as having a natural curiosity for psychosis spectrum disorders, chances are you or anyone for that matter would believe what is happening to you is real.
the delusions don't pop up one day put of the blue. it's a series of events unique to you that build up your unique to you delusions. it's a slow process, sometimes the events that build the foundation for your psychotic beliefs take months or over a year. they're always triggered by an event of high stress, like college finals, drug abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, etc.
so your beliefs do usually start from something grounded in reality, yes, your notification light is turning on at random, yes you're in a science field doing something important, perhaps it does mean the via is recruiting you. heck, it might even be really cool to work with the cia. I doubt they're only gonna look at you through the camera so we better be on the lookout on the streets. hmm maybe I should actually call the cia and ask. oops they said no and laughed at you, that must mean it's malicious. and now you've quit your science field, gone full hermit, no internet, and are starving yourself to dodge poisoned food from the cia, all because you saw your phones notification light light up one too many times.