/sci/ - Science & Math

Serious question, why is insanity or madness so common among mathematicians?
Assuming the genius mind is merely a thing that exists, then why is it in mathematics where is becomes most vulnerable to insanity?
I think of the movie [math]\pi[/math]. Like somehow knowledge becomes dangerous not just externally but internally.
The schizos on /sci/ are all obsessed with math.
I was once seduced by mathematics and it terrified me to the bone. It was not something for the sane minded, I knew that well and so I abandoned it so that I might remain somewhat bliss. Yet, I am still scarred by it. It haunts me ever, as if it were a curse.
It allures you with beauty, but when you traverse beyond the pale you are meet with a black ocean. I stood there and turned away.
So I stayed in finance, pretending none of it happened, like everything was normal.
If God is anywhere he is within the vast of that stygian ocean where no man belongs.
Am I a coward for being a afraid of mathematics? I don't want to become shattered like even the greatest mathematicians. I am made humble.
Even if it's just the insane drawn towards it (which it cannot be uniquely) then why?