/sci/ - Science & Math

OP here. I agree. I liked his videos on physics/ chemistry and when he debunks stuff. But as much as I value his content I think his fixation with Musk has gone too far, to the point that it's boring, predictable and not informative anymore. It's just flogging a dead horse now.

if there is an effect it is hard to view in retrospect
t. lost all *friends* (they are not as emotionally capable as me) 5 years ago at minimum.

maybe I cope well, maybe I stick mathematical probably exactly in the sore spots and I never notice my childlike hopes and dreams disappear. Maybe I do. Maybe it doesn't matter anymore because I'm nearly thirty and the truth is my parents didn't want me to dream, they wanted me to stop getting my ass beat by my father, but he enjoyed it so there's no getting past that. I accept my fate and I think in this lifetime that's healthy. I only hope that whatever force is God sees me as my strings of fate and the drive of my next life is the antithesis of all of this.

My spine was damaged by my dad and its not the lack of sex which hurts as much as this worlds indifference to anything besides that. Having witnessed it, it is indeed the end of all natural things.