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>>9692414
sinx = cosx-1
Please help I am trying to solve this 2 days now, no shitposting

>be le smart kid but le lazy meme
>had several scholarships in surplus cuz went to mediocre state school that gave me $$
>mom lost house + all monies
>give her all my funds because trusted her as she's in a legal battle over the house
>lawyer fucked us over in the end (aka probably figured we ran out of my funds)
>be in middle of uni
>suddenly have to worry about things like food and gas and shit
>be homeless for a while
>scholarships demand a certain courseload
>have no more funds because gave it mom
>stressing for cash because I realize she's not good with money at all
>GPA tanks
>sleep in random places
>depressed as hell
>bipolar as hell
>gf constantly breaks up with me because I get autistic a lot over nothing
>I swear babe it's just 3 hours of sleep is making me like this
>lost all scholarships
>gf cheated on me
>to be fair I cheated too from her constant break ups
>still get destroyed because I'm a hypocrite
>hate mom and lost all trust in her
>hate exgf because fucked with my mind at the worst time of my life
>at the last year of my math degree
>doing abstract algebra and zfc set theory class among others
>it's the hardest class I've done
>love it but miss classes from either not wanting to sleep in the same bed as mom because all we can afford is shitty efficiency from her shit job
>failing even harder
>becoming borderline suicidal
>abuse adderall to constantly have enough motivation to work + study + avoid falling into suicidal void
>no luck, too brainlet to handle it properly
>future destroyed
>wanted to get a high enough GPA and GRE to maybe get into CMU or something for either philosophy in mathematics or something interesting
>lowered it to financial engineering because at least make money
>lowered it to applied CS because hey math + CS is fairly demanded
>lowered it to circus performer and youtube meme explainer like memesauce or asap science
Sorry for blog post, but pls convince me that I still have a chance in higher academia.
Please convince me.