/sci/ - Science & Math

this is fucking awful
i'm a math major and i'm doing relatively well in my classes, but only because i spent the whole summer studying beforehand
one proof i proved during my summer studying took me almost a whole day
several other proofs took me multiple hours
and monday i was supposed to do 8 proofs for homework, due wednesday
if i hadn't studied over the summer i would not have been able to recognize how to work those proofs
and even with prior experience, it still takes me a very long time to complete proofs
it's been this way since the start of the semester
i'm terrified that i'm going to run into a few problems i can't solve
i've also been unable to leverage study time with work, and end up falling behind on one or the other

to top it off, my GPA is already pretty low because i did so bad with some humanities classes

how do you deal with being mentally deficient
i'm seriously considering suicide

How useless would it be for me to go for a phd in condensed matter physics after i finish my undergrad

Is depression curable?