/sci/ - Science & Math

I'm on the verge of suicide right now, this semester was my last chance to make something useful and actually learn the essential subjects like abstract algebra and analysis. I had an entire week to study those subjects, but all I did in that week was play videogames, read manga or just browse this cursed site randomly. I'm already too old and my grades are not good and I can't even study properly, the first thing I do when I wake up is turn on my phone and start reading random shit on 4chan and this goes on for 10 hours straight, until it's time to sleep. I'm not asking for advice, nor am I trying to make people feel sorry for me. I dig my own grave, I'm just leaving my thoughts here, perhaps my last ones. I can't see a light at the end of the tunnel for me anymore, only darkness and I was the one who made that choice, damn this is frustrating. I wish time travel was possible, but even then I guess I would end up making the same pathetic mistakes, that's how fucked up I am. Now it's too late for me, classes are going to return tomorrow and I didn't study a single thing, this will be again another semester of failures and terrible grades. It's the end for me, I had a good run I guess though. I hope everyone here can succeed in academia from the bottom of my heart, failing the way I did is very pathetic and the worst feeling of all.