/sci/ - Science & Math

>havd untreated ADHD since childhood
>brains going into 10000 directions per minute deconstructing everything that happens in my 10m radius, while engaging in conversations and reading their mimick, etc.

>play soccer where I breathe my lungs out and have no problem concentrating
>brains suddenly calm and my semeanor focused/peaceful

As I grow older I realized I have to physically exhaust myself to calm my mental state down, but it gets worse and worse year by year. There was a month I was running 20km+ per day to keep my mind in relative peace and feel grounded.

the fuck I do bros, my mental state is forcing me to run 30km+/day in next 2 years, just to stay sane

I have to redirect that ADHD insane energy into somethinf else that will keep me peaceful

maybe drawing for 3 hours straight might exhaust me the same

>have to do mandatory research so i can graduate
>systematic review, have to think up my own question
>think of some convoluted ethics bullshit, advisor says it's okay
>procrastinate, finally do research, turns out there's literally one relevant study
>too late to change topic

I already wasted a month, I have another month at most if I want to actually graduate on time. Fuck this retarded shit, fuck research, every paper I've read so far is some bum professor sucking his own dick. Goddamn dude.

>tfw too dumb to be an embryologist and create productive human clones for post-industrial society just like in brave new world

This.. Sucks.

>>10271186
I just tried to banter /g/ but I got absolutely fucking destroyed its not fucking fair bros >>>/g/69232755

>>10136654
W-with or without a coke s-s-sir