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>>14741021

3 DAYS UNTIL FINAL PEA

>>10759013

>19 years old
>not very disagreeable personality
>living a hedonistic life
>also kind of nihilistic world view
>can't relate to 99 % of the people
>don't feel strongly about anything
>act a certain way in the public that seems like the appropriate behaviour
>socially isolated outside from school
>yet acting like a social person when in group situations
>pretty boring life spending most of the time on the internet
>academically slightly above average but far from gifted
>interest in medicine but not making the neccessary sacrifice to achieve this superficial goal
>don't know what job I would actually like

basically I don't commit to anything in life

how can I find something that I literally don't care about anything else, something so important that I fully commit? suicide?