/sci/ - Science & Math

>be me
>24 year old brainlet
>barely graduated HS
>been in community college for 5 years (failed classes because lazy alcoholic)
>took intro to inorganic chem (hs level course) 3 times and failed it in the past 18 months
>very upset because i like chemistry
>always get stuck on reaction stoichiometry, lewis dot structures, ionization, etc
>3rd time taking class with same professor
>guy is a doctor in chem and very nice person, humble and caring for his students
>every semester I tell him 'I really love chemistry I'll do better this time!'
>2 months ago
>barely passed exam 1
>Coronachan happens
>decide to buckle down and study like a madman, I'm an adult, I should understand this high school level bullshit by now if I just fucking try
>take exam 2
>get 98/100
>professor e-mails me

"Hello anon,

I know you have been working on chemistry. It is very encouraging to you greatly improved with your test score.

Please keep up the efforts so you can finish the semester strong.

Regards,
Professor gigachad"

;_; wtf i love science now, I wanna cry, this made me so happy

only thing is, i really hope he doesn't think I'm cheating since I've failed his class for almost 2 years and now all of a sudden when the tests are online I did good... That really worries me, I feel if he had that thought it would disappoint him greatly. I've expressed deeply to him before how badly I want to get better with science.