/sci/ - Science & Math

>predicted AABB
>rejected before interview by Oxford, also rejected by Imperial, Durham and Warwick
>achieve A*A*A*A*
>have to leave abusive shithole of a home so can't even reapply

>valedictorian, 2300 sat, at good state uni (but considerably less prestigious than where I could have gone)
>physically intimidating
>chat up beautiful women effortlessly
>Usually take leadership roles in group activities/sports
>generally extremely brave/fearless, always stuck up for the betas
>Doing academic presentation
>All insecurity comes up, remember parents calling me a retard who should work at McDonald's, stuttering mess, can't keep eye contact, paranoia they're all mocking my voice

It's ridiculous and struggle with it so much. Who else grew up in a completely unacademic environment?

>tfw nignog
>tfw about to submit a publication
>tfw it's sort of groundbreaking
>tfw i know if it gets accepted my uni will play it up for prestige
>tfw if my uni plays it up the local news will pick it up
>tfw if the local news picks it up, mainstream media might also pick it up
>tfw if mainstream media picks it up, forums all over the world including your favorite 4chins will be jam-packed with angry neets protesting, saying it was an easy and obvious next step, giving you <1% of the credit, doxing you and your family, trying to prove you somehow plagiarized it, and making memes with your face in them
Should I just publish it under a pseudonym?

I got my first job lined up straight out of college this spring in EE, but i'm pretty sure it was only because i'm black. Not sure how to feel bros.....

Where do races come from?