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I started drinking heavily the past year to numb my depression (after a poorly judged prescription of Paxil threw me into a suicidal state).

I admit that regularly exercising does wonders for my emotional state, but more than often I don't take that route. My biggest issue with depression is that first step (getting out of bed, leaving the house, etc) seems insurmountable most days.

Others in this thread mentioned that humans just aren't built for this cushy lifestyle we all enjoy, and in my experience that's probably the most accurate theory. I have a good job, a good home, and i never have to worry where my next meal is coming from. But it seems like it's all at the cost of socializing.

I've been diagnosed as bipolar but I can't help but think it's just because I can't fit into the mold I'm being forced into. My moments of mania are an attempt to break out of it, and my bouts of depression are my forfeiture to the overwhelming pressure of "being responsible".

I've been to countless therapists, and none of them seem to get what I'm saying. Am I all alone?