/sci/ - Science & Math

am I a big wasted potential, I have a neurodegenerative illness

last year in fall I finished my biochemistry class in college with an A and I could see that my grades were the best because the professor posted our student ID next to our grades. I have returned to college this fall despite great difficulty with my painful fatigue and heat intolerance.

If I stay outside too long in college i will get extremely sick from fatigue, insomnia, and heat intolerance. I have been unable to hold my weight and also have shortness of breath, my body is failing all over, the only thing that isn't failing is my grades not yet it seems.

most of the time I am unaware of how happy everyone else is in life I'm not emo but I feel indifferent to my existence after getting brain damage this is typical of brain disease, it is called apathy and it makes me suicidal.

tI must have had a huge potential for science, that was robbed from me by the horrible disease, I assume it is almost like a child prodigy who is smarter than all the teachers despite being handicapped by their young age, I am a good student despite the massive handicaps imposed by the aphasia and the dementia from the disease.

It might be true that I had amazing potential for science that was never found because the disease struck at a very young age of 16 and destroyed the genius or any potential for success that existed.

I have measured my corpus callosum and it is extremely large it must have some meaning or effect on my cognition for my brain to be so much differently shaped