/sci/ - Science & Math

>>11382223
>tfw not intelligent enough to do cannot understand grammar

> Be me
> 19 y.o
> High School ends
> Math teacher: "You're very good at math and computers anon, you should try physics at uni"
> Passing the university test for physics
> Uni starts
> Anxiety, low self-esteem and depression strikes me after the first lecture
> Realize I'm not that good, however I could give it a try as anyone here
> Social anxiety strikes me
> I can barely exit from home. I'm a afraid of being hit by cars and train during the commute to uni
> I always need to puke and shit because of anxiety and fear of uni and the future
> Can't concentrate on study because anxiety
> Retired from physics uni after 3 months
> Going on medication with Anti-depressant and SSRI
> Brain got fried by those drugs
> Trying to find a decent job in my shitty country (Italy) without success
> 22 y.o, decide to go to university again
> Because of low self esteem choose Physical Therapy
> Graduate, become DPT
> 26 y.o, currently working and studying post-grad
> I don't like it.
> 33% of all I earn from work goes into taxes because muh leftist italian constitution
> All collegues are pseud, they do biased things, such as manual therapy, myofascial release, osteopathic shit
> All of them are literally brainlet and normies
> Italian DPT can't do all the interesting stuff that US DPT can do (because of the law)
> Not a single opportunity for scientific research as DPT in Italy, compared to US or other country
> I have to pay 3000€ each for multiple pseud, non evidence-based courses because none would hire me without them
> Medication gave me chronic pain and impaired attention.

Fuck anxiety, it ruined my fucking life and made me a total brainlet.

>>10605734
I'm a guy at /vg/ using a game engine, not a math guy.

would you give me some kind of code for this pls?

>tfw IQ demotivation has affected me so much, I have done basically nothing productive for the past 2 months

I always got great results in secondary school and university during the first few years. I even got a prize for my results. But the IQ meme has crushed me. Why fucking bother doing anything when someone with a higher IQ would've done everything quicker, more intuitively, just everything in a superior way?

Why even bother?

Are there health benefit to having your dick cut as a child?

How do I learn ML?

Just self teach calculus, linear algebra and statistics then try to learn tensorflow and implement some paper?

>So far I failed my first exams in math, physics, chemistry, computer science, electrical engineering, and biology

>Carleton University
>601-750
>Studying meme CS and suck at higher level maths

>>10213907
>exercise ruined

>>10190065
>It doesn't. But it makes you happy. Presumably.
But then they leave you and you're a mess for weeks.

is 32 too old to enter college and make friends with people of 16-18 years old?

>tfw work with many PhDs but don't have one myself so eternal inferiority complex

I have around the same intelligence as a math undergrad.
Not sure what is my current IQ (online test give me 130) and I got tested when I was 11 and got 117.

In any case, I live in a fucking spic shithole and the average IQ here is 85.

How the fuck do I fucking socialize with dumber people?

All my life people bullied me for some reason and then I just locked myself in my basement when I was 22 back in 2012.

Anyone here has also troubles because they were born in a brown nations with low IQ?

Mfw I have a master's degree in electrical and electronic engineering but university has sucked all the enjoyment out of the subject, and now I never want a job on that topic.

Why couldn't I have done economics instead...

>tfw came here to enjoy a comfy CS thread to feel good about myself
>mfw weebs and anti weebs ruin everything
>again

I started taking sertraline (zoloft) again. I have severe general anxiety that I can't seem to get rid of.

Is it bad for me to take these for a prolonged time?

Pluto

Hi /sci/
I dont usually come to 4chan alot and when i do im usually messing around but i need seriously help please, i reference to what could be the most important article for my research paper due tommorow but i can't find the actual article from the citation. I dont know what to do to find it!!!!

Can someone please help?
Cohen A. C. & Meyers, B. C. 1970. A function of the horn in the sidewinder rattlesnake Crotalus cerastes, with comments on other horned snakes. Copeia 3, 574-5.
This is the citation

I couldnt help myself and I looked at the sun for a second and now there's a blurry dot in my vision that wont go away

Is it reversible?

Imagine the sex the world's first genetically enhanced couple will have.

>>8926081
>translator
>>8926086
>english teacher
it's not fair... deep down inside i wanted to help humanity with something...

>looming sadness when you realize the class is over

>always been smart kid. Got top grades and one academic events up util 5th grade or so when studying became a thing
>never learned the value of studying because was always more interested in personal pursuits
> start to accumulate failing grades, just barely passing classes because I wouldn't even think about my classes once the bell rang, just follow personal pursuits
>always thought next year was when I'd turn it around
>never do, always fin more and more ways to hide my grades. Would design convincing excel sheets that looked like a report card and wouldn't edit HTML on online reports
>come high school, discovery debate and let it become obsession all 4 years. Win tournements and competitions all the time, but again only ever cared about it and not classes
>finish high school either 2.5 GPA and didn't finish foreign language requirement, so couldn't get inot even bottom tier universities.
>apply for community college, do the same thing. Always just read to myself or watch theoretical physics videos or play video games, while failing Spanish and lit classes. Think I'm good at math so always fail the basic classes because I again refuse to study
>eventully stop going, essentially move out of parents while working while they think I'm attending school.
>a year later reapply and get an A in two classes I failed
>now taking precalculus, discover /sci/ and their moking eventually gets me to start self studying math and nt actual classes.
>Suddenly start getting As on tests for the first time since 5th graze
>Feel so confident, actually feel like I'm putting my intellect to use
>realize I'm still at community college sitting on a 2.3 GPA, best I could do is transfer to third rate school

What do I do? Will I ever be able to realize my potential? Or did I take the "lazy genius" meme too far and am destined for mediocrity. My goal is eventual PhD in computer science but not sure if it will ever be possible.

>>8712306
Any further than this and I'll be surrounded by female professors in their mid-30s.