/sci/ - Science & Math

>tfw grade 3 internal haemorrhoids
>proctologist said the only option left is a haemorrhoidectomy

I don't want my anus resected dammit, but it's got to the point where it's become an unbearable debilitating hindrance on my life. I've been reading some post-op recovery horror stories, and I'm seriously considering just ordering some veterinary nembutal from Mexico and ending it all. Sometimes I'm convinced that this is all some hellish nightmare that I'll eventually wake up from.