Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.19165743]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fa5LZEpjZLk

[Anonymous No.19165783]

>>19165743
I never had any trouble concentrating while growing up. As a kid, I could easily keep focused on one task for hours, and I rarely got distracted while on class, despite the noise that my classmates would make. However, since I started actively using the internet, I've found my ability to focus affected, to the point that I can't even watch a movie, read a book or listen to music without checking something else. It has also affected my academic performance, because I can barely concentrate during classes now: my mind just wonders around, I feel the need to watch something else, and I need to put way more effort to pay attention. Of course, the pandemic has only made this worse, because before, while I was on highschool, I could force myself to be away from the computer, and after a few days I found my attention slowly going back to normal, but now I need to use it, and since most of my social interactions are online too, I find myself in a complicated situation.
Even my memory and thinking have been harmed by this. I had always had a great memory, could easily recognize patterns, and had a quick mind, but now all of that seems to be gone: I can barely remember things that just 2 years ago, before the pandemic started, I could easily retain, and my brain seems to be numb, have trouble thinking, or finding the correct words for something, as if I had brain fog.
My imagination has been severely affected as well during this lockdown. I haven't written anything since all of this started because I find it harder to come up with ideas, when I used to write compulsively before.

[Anonymous No.19165844]

been thinking about suicide a lot. don't know what method I'm gonna use, but I'm certain that I'm gonna do it pretty soon.

[Anonymous No.19165850]

>>19165783
Internet use is a symptom, not the cause. You are looking for quick and easy gratification and loosing site of the long term good. Most likely you have never been good at looking at the long term, you were just surrounded by new thing to keep you involved and engaged because you were young an inexperienced, you are older and less is new and you can not rely on that easy engagement. Set a long term goal and work towards it for an hour or two every day without distraction.

[Anonymous No.19166043]

>>19165844
which methods are you considering at the moment? i’m too cowardly to suicide, but if worst comes to worst i’ll just take an electric saw to the neck.

[Anonymous No.19166058]

It sounds odd but listening to a lot of the Serbian nationalistic music from the Yugoslav wars (and after) has gotten me through some really hard times. I think because in some of the songs there is a self-awareness about it's own drudgery or degeneracy and it's a style totally beyond what I know within my own culture and where I live. Not sure how to explain it

[Anonymous No.19166086]

>>19165743
I can't find my place in this world

[Anonymous No.19166103]

>>19166043
>>19165844
the one I think of the most is jumping off a bridge. I know exactly which one, too.

[Anonymous No.19166111]

>>19166103
sounds like sheer terror for several seconds
won't you be too scared to jump?

[Anonymous No.19166114]

I love you all

[Anonymous No.19166245]

>>19166103
I know a bridge too. It's like 30 minutes away from my house in a car. There have been other suicides before in that same bridge. It is like 20 meters tall.

[Anonymous No.19166573]

>>19165743
trannybusters!

If there's something strange

In your neighborhood
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
If there's something weird
And it don't look good
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
If you're seeing things
Running through your head
Who can you call?
trannybusters!
An infeasible man
Sleepin' in your bed
Ow, who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
If you're all alone
Pick up the phone
And call
trannybusters!
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
Ooh, I hear it likes the girls
Hm, I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
Mmm, if you've had a dose of a
Freaky tranny, baby
You better call
trannybusters!
Ow!
Lemme tell ya something
Bustin' makes me feel good!
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
I ain't 'fraid of no tranny
Don't get caught alone oh, no
trannybusters!
When it comes through your door
Unless you just want some more
I think you better call
trannybusters!
Ow! Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
Uh, think you better call
trannybusters!
Ha ha, who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
I can't hear you
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
Louder
trannybusters!
Who you gonna call?
trannybusters!
Who can you call?
trannybusters!

[Anonymous No.19166589]

manifesting my dream life

[Anonymous No.19166651]

>>19165743
Real life doesn't feel real anymore

[Anonymous No.19166678]

thinking about what an amazing life I have and how wonderful it will be to wake up tomorrow and feel the blood flowing and run my hands through my hair and breathe in the air outside.

[Anonymous No.19166680]

I hope I find a job soon.

[Anonymous No.19166689]

havent gotten laid in a while. kinda wanna start a sex cult so I can ritualistically fuck alt girls.

[Anonymous No.19166697]

If it weren't for love, my life at the moment is pretty close to what I could reasonably want it to be. All my family is healthy, I have friends, I am doing studies that I like and that assure me a pleasant job, I will soon have a car, I work well on my culture and my spirituality. And yet I have never had so much sorrow and affliction as I have today, everything grieves me and except for seeing this woman and for the masses I have a great desire to cloister myself and to be alone with myself to make a long recapitulation. I spend my days beating my heart and I don't know what's eating it. For the past few months I feel like I'm at an inflection point in my life but the inflection goes on and on and I don't understand how. I think I'm going crazy. I feel like I had always virtualized life and it is becoming real and inexorable again.

[Anonymous No.19166714]

Fuck me, Morrowind modding has finally turned the corner I was waiting for it to turn back when I played video games. Some of this shit on this channel
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCW-HBBzxn7URXPHzWiZTq_A/videos
is incredible. Tamriel Rebuilt has made huge strides and there are other mods of similar quality for Cyrodiil and Skyrim either released or near release. It's exactly what I wanted as a kid when I played Morrowind, just "this but more." Towns that actually feel like full towns, gigantic areas to explore.

Not the usual TES modding shit either, like 4 billion polygon fully animated cocks for dragons and gay ass combat mechanics, but actual RPG content. Making the best use of the things that fan communities have over commercial developers, time dedication and love.

I wish I had time to play them all but I just don't. I'm old enough that I'm aware of how time works now, and I know how it works is that I'd be sinking a year and a half of my life into this. This would become "that year where I played Morrowind x20." I don't have that mid twenties illusion anymore, that time is infinitely elastic, instead of a scarce resource.

Some of the other RPGs coming out like Kenshi look great too. There's a 25 hour Fallout 2 mod that has been translated from Russian for the first time. This is the kind of shit I would have made a part of my heart and soul if it had been coming out when I was younger. It's kind of a surprise golden age for CRPGs. I was just unlucky to be living through the dark age of mid 2000s filler crap like Mass Effect 2.

[Anonymous No.19166719]

Oh Christ, oh Lord, oh my God, I am in thanks to you forever. Bless you, my Lord.

[Anonymous No.19166725]

I need to meet girls asap to get over this last one but knowing my luck it will probably take a while before I meet another that captivates me as much as she did. I fear she's going to live in the back of my mind for the upcoming months ahead as the last girl that made me feel something, always hoping that she will come back to tell me that she's ready for a relationship now.

[Anonymous No.19166749]

>>19165743
>be me
>be strayains sadly
>police came during the week looking for me mom
>now this saturday I went binge drinking with me lads and came back home offroad to avoid checkpoints
>get home in the morning
>wake up mom is not there
>sunday mom is not home
>just woke up monday
>mom is not here
did the copperdogs just took in me mom? Mates I love me mom. I want her back I am starving and I got no clean shirt to wear

[Anonymous No.19166762]

I really need to lose weight.

[Anonymous No.19166764]

>>19166725
What do you see in girls anon? I find little interest in them. They're oftentimes shallow and offer nothing. Those that do pique any interest are entirely disconnected from me romantically. How does any of this work?

[Anonymous No.19166765]

>>19166725
>>19166764
also, get well soon buddy

[Anonymous No.19166766]

>>19166697
Beautiful picture

[Anonymous No.19166782]

>>19166764
I can't even remember what I liked about women back when I liked some things about them (or did I ever? I can't even tell).

I guess I wanted the validation of knowing I could get women, and I want sex. But what else do they bring? I've had enough stable relationships now that I don't glamorize relationships. Having a girlfriend for the sake of having a girlfriend is suffering, and most women are slightly stupid room-mates who are more likely to be messy slobs than to clean or cook.

I'm not knocking real love if you can find it. And we all like sex. But aside from those, what do women have to offer on average? I used to like women, on average, I used to want to date women, in general. I used to want to "be in a relationship" even apart from the sex and even if it wasn't quite true love. Whatever that everyday affection for women was, it's gone and I can't remember it. Aside from the rare uniquely loveable ones, I just see them as stupid, slow, annoying men with tits.

[Anonymous No.19166789]

66Nothing's on my mind99 he said.

[Anonymous No.19166847]

I’m a bureaucrat who is wondering if he should join the military.

[Anonymous No.19166888]

>>19165743
What a hack ripoff artist!

[Anonymous No.19166927]

I want to give me life for something. At the moment, I'm meaningless, taking up space and consuming resources. What is the purpose of doing these things if one has no purpose? The weight of the world is on my shoulders, and I've never done a thing. It's time to leave home, and search out my destiny. Even if I die in the winter's bite, to try and rise above is worth dying for.

[Anonymous No.19166967]

>>19165783
then just stop using the internet as much and do some concentration meditation anon

[Anonymous No.19166970]

>mfw the girls in my social are posting their "husbandos" for 'international boyfriend day'
If a dude did that shit, he'd get ridiculed to hell and back

[Anonymous No.19166971]

>>19165844
try doing a vipassana retreat than taking 5 meo dmt every day for a week first

[Anonymous No.19166993]

>>19166114
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_2HaVGvXdg

[Anonymous No.19167034]

>>19166764
>>19166782
I get you guys point of view somewhat but I don't think the sentiment is reserved to women only. You guys seem to judge girls on a higher standar than men. Personally, most people I meet, both men and women, tend to leave me very indifferent.

And to answer your question, what do I see in girls? Sometimes you meet someone that makes you feel very comfortable, you're relaxed in their presence, you enjoy every minute you spend with them even the most mundane one and you wish time would slow down when you're with them so you could savour the moment even more. Now combine all that with sexual attraction and you get romantic love, you get this desire to express your affection towards this person in a diffferent way. In a way it's a very simple feeling but one that is great to experience.

[Anonymous No.19167045]

how can god exist if a child dies before its parents?

[Anonymous No.19167046]

I wish there was a place to discuss literature without a single f*male poster.
I wish there were male-only gyms also

[Anonymous No.19167076]

>>19167045
This has been answered millions, billions of times.
God
Is
A
Dick

He isn’t a pleasant loving god. He’s a shit-hole.
Be glad he isn’t real

[Anonymous No.19167087]

>>19167045
>if god real why bad thing

[Anonymous No.19167112]

Should I quit my job if it’s got me doing very little work? I was going to work this for a while and then switch jobs so I can move before the remote work period for this job ends but they have so little work for me and a decent paycheck I’m thinking I may as well keep it and just put up with living where it is when it goes back in person.

[Anonymous No.19167113]

Stolen from /adv/:

If you look at it, secular groups, regardless of race, are doomed to die out. They just don't reproduce enough. The best example of this is Israel. The secular Jews have a much lower birthrate than the Ultra-Orthodox, and projections point to the Ultra-Orthodox becoming the plurality (if not the majority) in Israel within the 21st century. What will happen to secular Israelis then? They are screwed.

It's the same in Europe and America. Whites are more-or-less guaranteed to die out, outside of fundamentalist Christian and Muslim groups. Secular non-white groups are the same. The only people with a healthy birthrate in the entire world are sub-Saharan Africans, and there one can point to Christianity and Islam as reasons for their success.

In short, as things go along, the secular/atheist groups are doomed to die out, and religious groups will win the evolutionary game. The races are just along for the ride.

[Anonymous No.19167118]

>>19167113
i think so too

[Anonymous No.19167119]

I keep fantasizing about having an affair, specifically with a cute trap. I'd take her into the city and make her feel like a cute girl and then we go back to a hotel room and have hot sex where her balls gently tap against mine and then I let her lay her head on my chest as we enjoy the last time we are ever together.

[Anonymous No.19167121]

>>19167113
Always a whitepill to remember

[Anonymous No.19167128]

First day at job after being a neet for 3 years.

[Anonymous No.19167141]

>>19167113
Anytime you consider people as statistics and make predictions, you’re missing something important, the most important thing actually. You can take that as a general rule.

[Anonymous No.19167154]

>>19165743
eating rn, I have to hurry up to arrive at my wagecuck job
I hate it

[Anonymous No.19167156]

not looking forward to unravelling the memories of abuse

[Anonymous No.19167159]

I'm going to work.
7 am to 7:30 pm
Wish me good luck bros.

[Anonymous No.19167163]

Do you think it’s detrimental to writers to not be based in cities?

[Anonymous No.19167176]

>>19167163
Sucks to say, but the stress and sensory overload is a huge motivator. When I was living on the edge of suburbs next to the country, my mind was very peaceful, and I had no gripe. I did write poetry though, which wasn't all that bad. I needed that thrust though.

[Anonymous No.19167198]

>>19167141
I don't follow. Individual people cannot be predicted via statistics, but trends involving hundreds of millions or even billions? There, statistics is very useful.

[Anonymous No.19167218]

Did that trannie's thread get prune?

[Anonymous No.19167238]

Why is this talentless dead junkie faggot so spammed by the art establishment? I mean, some of his drawings are neat in a graffiti kind of way, but I see better shit on the wall made by teenagers all the time. And the only reason I even found some of his work that I like is because he's spammed all the time.
Is it white guilt, just the art scene scoring brownie points by looking out for the little guy? The kid was clearly a pretentious hustler who greased hands and sucked dick his way to fame.
If I have to hear another art scene loser squirm their way and pretend to like Basquiat, I'm gonna lose it.

[Anonymous No.19167250]

>>19167238
OOGA BOOGA BOOGA BOOGA!!!

[Anonymous No.19167253]

>"His symbolic use of the crown challenges notions of race and power."
Oh, fuck off! I swear these art historian wankers just write this shit in their sleep, and then get a pat on the back for "POC visibility" points, total career move.

[Anonymous No.19167340]

>>19161246
>Everywhere online is so heavily fuckng moderated I can't open my mouth without getting banned. What the fuck is going on. I even get banned from here sometimes. Fucking coward though police.
This isn't exactly a good place to discuss anything either. It is an autismocracy where the most annoying retard gets their way.

[Anonymous No.19167352]

>>19167113
I'd say that a lot of it has to do with the absolutely unnatural way secular people live their lives and their atomization. The religious have community, purpose, structure and love. Secular life cannot compete.

[Anonymous No.19167411]

>>19167352
Without exception, I can point to any number of atheists I know personally and show you a lonely person. Their atheism is simply one point among a complex of anti-social behavior. Forsake your family, forsake society, forsake God. It's part and parcel of the atheist to avow anti-social attitudes in the same breath as their supposed thoughts about God. It's so transparent it's embarrassing.

You're not getting the message if you know an atheist, someone with contempt for 85% of the humanity, and not suspect they are just hateful cunts. By the most of them are not actually atheists, but guilty of misotheism. Listen to their tone. Many such cases. Sad!

[Anonymous No.19167473]

>>19165743
I skipped a class this morning because when I woke up, I felt like I had to take a huge shit so I sat in the toilet for half an hour but nothing happened. Trying to take a shit in mornings when I have a class makes me anxious because there was that one time where I said "fuck it I'm going to be late" and left my house without taking a shit, the rest of the day felt like torture. I don't know how I'll survive when I eventually get a job, I can't just hold it in for the whole day.

[Anonymous No.19167492]

HAHAHAHAHA IM A CRAZY MAN AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

[Anonymous No.19167495]

>>19166573
not trans but how are do you guys think you'll ever scare anyone like that off 4chan when there is an /lgbt/ board?

[Anonymous No.19167508]

>>19167113
I want to start a religion based on Eugenics where people are categorized and matched by certain traits like IQ and told to breed as much as possible to being about the birth of the master race.

[Anonymous No.19167513]

>>19165743
I am deeply confused about who I am. Just a deep sense unease at not knowing my place and my own character, yet lacking the will to embrace a path of my own.
I'm horribly isolated but lack the means to connect to others in large part because I'm terrified of other's judgement. In denial about my need for others affirmation I present the opposite showing a cold exterior because I'm in truth afraid and feel as though others can sense my weirdness. I believe much of my confusion stems from my lack of typical formative experiences in youth. I never connected to anyone in high school and passed by unnoticed. For four years I faded deeper and deeper into the foreground until at last years later I am left with a sense of my own unreality. For a brief period this deep resentment found expression in radical politics but eventually the fad passed leaving me cynical of political idealogies and once again entrapped within myself with no escape except trivial distractions. I waste my own time, engulf my mind in a stream of social media and entertainment so as to distract myself from the complete emptiness of my life.

[Anonymous No.19167515]

what's the point in doing anything intellectual when you know the high IQ masters will mog you completely, better to just leave STEM, philosophy and so on to the Aryans while I eat pizza and jerk off

[Anonymous No.19167526]

>>19167513
You have no excuse to not get a job, which will beat many of these silly feelings out of you. You feel useless because you are useless. Do something about it, and quit using your pity as a form of self-entertainment.

[Anonymous No.19167528]

>>19167526
jobs are gay

[Anonymous No.19167530]

>>19167528
Rot

[Anonymous No.19167531]

>>19167530
Thot

[Anonymous No.19167532]

>>19167526
I do have a job. I work 18hrs a week on top of college. You're projecting. You know nothing about me.

[Anonymous No.19167537]

>>19167532
why do you have a job

[Anonymous No.19167540]

>>19167532
I'm trying to give you some of my thoughts, you dumb cunt. Without exception, you people are hopeless, and I'm sorry to myself that I wasted words on you.

[Anonymous No.19167549]

>>19167540
look at this faggot ass nigga HAHAHA

[Anonymous No.19167550]

>>19167537
? Because I like earning money. It's a fine job, back breaking but it's just to earn a little while I finish up my last year in college.

[Anonymous No.19167556]

>>19167550
what degree
and dont even tell me its some chud ass shit like stem

[Anonymous No.19167558]

>>19167540
You're the one being a cunt. Not sure who is "you people". I was just sharing my genuine feelings and you come in with nothing useful to add other than accusing me of being useless.

[Anonymous No.19167562]

pls cease the hostilities
this is a safe space to discuss feelings

[Anonymous No.19167569]

>>19167562
shut yo ass up white boy

[Anonymous No.19167572]

I have to wake up at 7:30 for a 9am class that takes 40 minutes to get too. I did all my homework for the next two days on Saturday so I just spent the entirety of Sunday doing nothing and it was dreadful. I'd say I'm a workaholic because I really do love working for like 12 hours straight, but I also like to have a lot of free time for solo-travel/hiking/backpacking (usually one in the same for me), so its a bit of a give and take; but spending 11 hours watching tv just because I didn't have to do anything else was mind-numbing, I don't understand how or why anyone would do it unless they were too weak to do anything else.

>>19167411
"From the deepest depths rise the tallest mountains."
>>19167034
I had that but then she stopped wanting sex and the relationship imploded. Also this kinda describes the honeymoon period whereas >>19166782 I think is closer to what a long-term relationship usually looks like.

[Anonymous No.19167580]

>>19167556
English. Kind of ended up settling with it. It's actually fine but I have no clue what im going to do once I finish.

[Anonymous No.19167585]

>>19167580
work the railroads

[Anonymous No.19167595]

>>19167585
Not a bad idea. I'm considering taking job like that. Might join a cruise ship.

[Anonymous No.19167603]

>>19167595
Cruise ships are totally fucked industry after COVID. They're going to have to drop prices so much to have people willingly go on those disease ships.

[Anonymous No.19167611]

>wisdom cannot be obtained by reading but by enduring long years of torture and struggle
BRING IT ON

[Anonymous No.19167617]

are the people who study theology, do they mog everyone in all of academia? because ive begun to get that impression

[Anonymous No.19167625]

>>19167603
The pay can't any worse than what I get at my current job. Also free housing and food.

[Anonymous No.19167711]

>>19165743
I'd bust her clouds if you know what I mean, and you probably don't because you haven't read Reich as an instruction manual, not as a warning.

[Anonymous No.19167718]

I wish everything felt as good as reading does

[Anonymous No.19167748]

>>19167513
high school is a terrible social environment t b h, you didn't miss out on much and it's not your fault
try not to feel pressured and find your own happiness ig
here's hoping your future gets nicer

[Anonymous No.19167753]

>>19167711

[Anonymous No.19167757]

Tits or ass, what is more /lit/?

[Anonymous No.19167758]

>>19167753
I hate to say this but she has a problem with her penis, it is almost as if the artist has never seen a penis before.

[Anonymous No.19167759]

Rate my list of favorite writers please
Miguel de Cervantes
Fyodor Dostoevsky
Leo Tolstoy
Gustave Flaubert
George Eliot
James Joyce
Charles Dickens
J.R.R. Tolkien
Herman Melville
F. Scott Fitzgerald
Jane Austen
John Steinbeck
Vladimir Nabokov
Virginia Woolf
George Orwell
Lewis Carroll
Homer

[Anonymous No.19167765]

>>19167758
It’s not a penis

[Anonymous No.19167769]

>>19167765
Well it is bloody oversized for a clit. Golf-ball sized. Haven't even seen one pumped that big.

[Anonymous No.19167782]

>>19167759
It's a perfectly fine list. Post your favorite work by each

[Anonymous No.19167827]

Suavementes

[Anonymous No.19167912]

My mood is heavily influenced by my consumption of drugs, alcohol, unhealthy foods etc. A day after drinking (even one beer) I feel miserable, uncertain, scared, disillusioned, depressed. By contrast, on days when I have slept will, eaten well, worked out, no alcohol or drugs in my system, I feel clear-headed, calm, contented, ambitious, and less filled with doom.

It is useful to be aware of this. When I was a lot unhealthier, I thought that my general doom-filled worldview was "just who I was". But it is not, in fact it is not even the 'normal' me. I had confused the unhealthy version of myself as the "true" version of myself. But I was wrong.

[Anonymous No.19167922]

>>19167912
You need to drink six to eight.

[Anonymous No.19167978]

>>19167912
I can relate, I will try to cut it all out completely at least for some time to see if it improves my general state of mind.

[Anonymous No.19167993]

>>19167128
Good luck anon. Recently got a job after 2 years of NEETDOM. We're all gonna make it.

[Anonymous No.19168144]

>>19166111
>>19166245
>>19166103
too scary for me. I just wanna die in my bed.

[Anonymous No.19168221]

Does anyone have a crypto trading guide? I'm not giving an exchange my pers details just to buy with fiat

[Anonymous No.19168232]

>>19168221
here
https://markets.businessinsider.com/news/currencies/hamster-trading-cryptocurrencies-rigged-cage-goxx-bitcoin-price-ether-doge-2021-9

[Anonymous No.19168278]

>>19166058
Could you send some examples anon?

[Anonymous No.19168299]

I think I've lost the ability to want sex. It's been going on for months and just ruined a relationship. I feel catastrophically miserable, but antidepressants apparently WORSEN your sex drive. Everything seems a matter of life and death to me. I can't get over the breakup I've just had. I imagine the world is full of casual, fun people shagging each other and getting over it, while I decline into pseudo-religious neuroticism like the idiot religious husband in that Decameron story.

Help me out of this pit anons

[Anonymous No.19168313]

You know, I had my first date in over literally half a decade and now I'm beginning to think my inceldom is a blessing in disguise. The girl was not actively malicious, you know, you could tell that she wasn't deliberately being a bitch or whatever. It was all too naturalized. The entitlement, the expectations, it was so deeply ingrained in her that I don't think I could even call it a part of her personality. We didn't have much in common, neither in our interests nor in our sense of humor nor in our temperament; it was not as if I couldn't tell what she was interested in - it was more as if she herself didn't quite knew and was expecting me to give out options for her to pick from.

I don't think I'll be seeing her again, and I don't mind. I feel kind of relieved again, and am not looking towards trying dating again. Gonna just read instead.

[Anonymous No.19168319]

>>19168299
why?

[Anonymous No.19168324]

>>19168319
Why help me? Suppose I have to appeal to your generosity

[Anonymous No.19168359]

>>19167492

[Anonymous No.19168582]

>>19165743
Tis not what i'm thinking of now -- since now i don't think of anything at all due to a moderate sleep deprivation -- but an ideas that have been forming in the past few days.

i'd like to first attempt to define love, or, actually, to borrow the buttered word from the common sense and redefine it, for the purpose of this reasoning, as the feeling of "pre-regret". As a period from the discovery of some Openness, of an Offer, of Transparency of an object that _has_ to be desired, that is, is desired by a presupposition, to the moment the possibility is closed and is no longer Offered. The remembrance of the Offer i call Regret.

Since the word "love" has already been used, it will be no great deal to sacrifice the abstract-ish manner of this reasoning for sake of an example. The strongest argument to support this definition i found in the cultural reflexion of love. Take for example, poetry and literature and the modern culture. The great deal of poems, novels, movies and, even, memes are describing this very period i'm talking about.

A desired object is offered to the protagonist and the narrative is unleashed singlepurposedly to tell the story while the offer can be taken:

Psyche is offered to Eros by Aphrodite, the myth goes on while they struggle to be together and then abruptly ends.

Juliet is offered to Romeo, the story goes on while the Openness, the possibility of their happiness is combated for, then ends with a death, and the reader is delegated the regret they would have felt. The story's last part -- the regret -- is to be felt by the reader.

It is not necessary for the narrative to contain the tragedy in it. The end can be a happy one. The tragedy is the loss of the possibility, not matter have the protagonist used it, wished to accept it or not. From this point of view it is obvious to me that a happy marriage and the death of doctor Zhivago are the same. Continuing the examples, this can be best shown on the example of television and films:

How many movies are there about the dull life in happiness? "In the mood for love": they struggle to not to miss each other, to keep opened (alert on this word!) cleavage of the possibility. The movie "Serendipity" and countless other movies of that type released in between 90's and 10's follows the same pattern as well, i hope no explanation needed. Same goes for love story animations.

At last, you, anon, i bet, i swear, you know the feel. The asphyxiating sensation of the missed opportunity, because you didn't have the balls to approach her. Or the moment, when finally holding hands with your fiance, you are, oh no!, still not happy.

Now when love is defined a few corollaries follow: (and some of them may seem quite radical and, in fact, they are, especially to the traditional ear or for someone with little to no experience)

1) There is no such thing, postmodernistically speaking, as a happy marriage or a happy relationships.

2) A love can only be addressed to a stranger.

[Anonymous No.19168591]

I don’t know what to do or what I want…

[Anonymous No.19168602]

I can't seem to be productive during the afternoon. I have no problem doing things in the morning or evening/night but in the afternoon I feel extremely lethargic and would much rather slack off. Could it just be my habit from my academic days?

[Anonymous No.19168608]

>>19168582
>1) There is no such thing, postmodernistically speaking, as a happy marriage or a happy relationships.
>2) A love can only be addressed to a stranger.
That's not postmodern. That's basic grandiosity, which is a result of a kind of stripped down modernism which regards the world as black and white. That's why you're coming up with not just one but two overarching statements about abstracts at the end; the point of modernism is to form those statements which postmodernism would posit the obvious question of how much of the few billion people you polled.

[Anonymous No.19168657]

>>19167515
I think a better reason not to do any of these things is because we’ve erected enormous monolithic systems which line individuals have little to no power to change or even influence. In the realm of philosophy, you can forget about it entirely. As for scientists and STEM researchers, they often give the impression that they’re chipping away bit by bit and flaking the rust of the steering wheel of an enormous and slow to move ship, but in reality, they effect little change as well. Even technological and applied science innovation has ground to a near halt over the last decade. Applied technologies are refined, sure, but they are more or less the same as they were when they were “invented”. The only people effecting change anywhere are the software developers and they’re effecting change in particularly insidious ways which only amplify the systematization. You can only feed the beast and make it grow bigger. You cannot control it or direct it. Meanwhile, the totalitarian nature of said systems are hostile to human refuges such as religion, metaphysics, art, and more. It’s bleak but it’s the reality. We’ve enclosed ourselves in enormous social-scientific-technological systems which are resistant to change save for those changes which amplify their reach and power and as such, it reduces everything it touches to those things or else it renders them futile regardless of how smart the individual in question is.

[Anonymous No.19168680]

>>19165783
I suggest turning every screen you use to monochrome.
No colors, just black and white.
Worked wonderfully for me. Only took a week of adjusting.

[Anonymous No.19168689]

>>19165844
If it's the only option I'd suggest going to the woods when it's cold and drinking a lot of alcohol.
Freeze to death without knowing it.
Or the helium method that's been popular.

[Anonymous No.19168694]

>>19167473
i always poop on the clock, no one cares in the work place.

[Anonymous No.19168715]

I’m at a total loss as to what to do. I need to move, but I don’t want to get the same job somewhere else. I don’t want to go any job somewhere else.

[Anonymous No.19168726]

Do you think it’s strange for someone to move to a big city for the first time in their 30s?

[Anonymous No.19168797]

>>19167159
How was it?

[Anonymous No.19168826]

>>19165743
>visited my brother at college for vacation
>partied with him and his friends
>even made out with a random girl at the bar on Saturday night and almost brought her back to my place
>realize how much I miss college
>now I have to fly home to my boring ass wage cuck job
>want nothing more then to get a little tipsy, go out and talk to women

Damn. I need to gather some confidence so I can start going to bars alone, because I know most of my friends won’t be interested in going on a weekly basis.

[Anonymous No.19169130]

I realized today that resentment has been eating away my soul from within like cancer. Resentment not about something particular mind you, but towards the world at large, the kind you see in gnostics and pessimists. If I didn't have this resentment, I would be a much better person, but as it is, I don't know what to do about it.

[Anonymous No.19169187]

>>19168689
helium method? how exactly does that work

[Anonymous No.19169191]

>>19169130
Something that found that helped was to make an active habit of trying to see positive qualities in myself, other people, places, things, etc however minor. The whole thing felt anathema to me, and all I could think about was how fucking gay trying to do that was. I had to get over the aversion to positivity because it felt uncool. Like there was this whole tyranny of coolness I was implicitly living under, the worst thing in the world was to do or think something 'lame'. Had do break through that.

[Anonymous No.19169221]

>>19169130
I have similar bouts of cosmic world-hate, which in a way I view as profound and mystic amounts of a single emotion that it verges on the holy. Holy in the wrathful sense, as if it were a manifestation of Yama, the Hindu god of death and the personification of the Dharma. Such emotion, like its opposite universal love, is so powerful when sincerely felt by a mortal that it warps the fabric of the collective unconscious and alters the universe.

Although this universal wrath I speak of is superior to mere resentment, as it is constructive rather than corrosive. It is a call to dispense justice, to right wrongs, set the wayward back on the right course .

Is this really true? Of course I can't know, but it's better to imagine and feel than to suppose all that I feel is disconnected from everything else and exists only in the isolated prison of my skull.

[Anonymous No.19169226]

I make up stories in my head about either pain and grittiness towards an imaginary loved one of myself
for example I'll think of a scenario before sleeping like a wife and I'll either be crying to sleep because she died or I died
It doesn't seem normal idk why I do this

[Anonymous No.19169228]

>>19169187

[Anonymous No.19169231]

yesterday in this here thread >>19162030 i said i got bored by a Wagner album i listened to (Klemperer Conducts Wagner), Wagneranon was pissed. But today i listened to another Wagner album, picrel, and it was really good.

[Anonymous No.19169233]

I honestly cannot take this work anymore. These uncomfortable meetings, pretending to care about these things, scrutinizing nonsense which does not truly matter. It’s hell. No admirable author (this is a literature board) would do this. Could you imagine Cormac McCarthy in some bureaucratic meeting explaining ways to derive “strategic insights” and “efficiencies” or “cost savings”? Emphatically, no.

[Anonymous No.19169241]

>>19169233
Just quit you dumb bitch. Get another job.

[Anonymous No.19169248]

>>19169241
This is America. How many jobs do you think aren’t like this? They are few and far between.

[Anonymous No.19169259]

>>19169233
I'm allergic to any and all office talk. It's chilling to see people use it without the slightest discomfort or awareness of its awfulness.

[Anonymous No.19169308]

>>19169259
Same. I made the mistake of getting an economics degree. This is all I do…

It’s fine. I’m probably going to just quit soon. I’ve given up on life.

[Anonymous No.19169321]

What’s a job where I could just clock in, do my work, and clock out?

Programming?

[Anonymous No.19169340]

> profoundly miserable and don’t see a way of changing, even coping to alleviate the misery
> want to kill myself
> believe in God and hell
> can’t kill myself
> just have to continue my miserable existence

[Anonymous No.19169363]

>>19169321
>programming
doubt it as you have to be constantly learning on your own and projects might get delayed. Working after hours/bringing job home is exteremely common practice.

[Anonymous No.19169397]

>>19169233
>>19169308
Give up their idea of life and get back to something real and meaningful

[Anonymous No.19169402]

A few minutes ago I caught myself looking up internships in Japan I could do before I graduate, and then I realized, it is funny that I live in America and it's the tech capital of the world but for some reason I would go out of my way to do something in Japan more. It's kinda dumb I guess

[Anonymous No.19169418]

>>19169402
Better learn Chinese instead

[Anonymous No.19169460]

>>19169397
I need money to eat and pay rent (and pay student loans)

[Anonymous No.19169473]

>>19168726

No. Do it!

[Anonymous No.19169510]

I have 'psychosis' and sometimes believe everyone knows who I am. Someone give me some music, a book recommendation, anything... It will have meaning to me

[Anonymous No.19169523]

>>19169460
I know. You’re paying a debt to the laziest people in the world. The idea that educating someone to go out into the world to make the economy hum needs so much cash is ridiculous. Getting out from under their thumb is tricky.

[Anonymous No.19169607]

>>19168726
Not really but im going to rent a room in apartment with other people as almost 30 year old. Now thats strange.

[Anonymous No.19169649]

>>19169607
Not anymore it isn’t. The economy is only going to get worse and doubling up, tripling up rooms is going to become more common.
At least you’re not a car sleeper yet.

[Anonymous No.19169666]

i'm paralyzed and can't move. i can see my doom impending but the fear is not great enough to force me to act. i wiwll die a gentle, easily avoidable death (figuratively). its like the trolley problem but all you have to do is roll over off of the tracks. everything is at stake and it would be so easy to stay alive. but i wont do it, and worse yet i dont know why.

[Anonymous No.19169694]

>>19169666
>i'm paralyzed and can't move.
>666

[Anonymous No.19169847]

>>19169418
Working in china probably sucks

[Anonymous No.19169860]

my mission changed from getting a girlfriend to figuring out how to not lose a girlfriend

[Anonymous No.19169904]

>>19169523
Well, I was retarded and they took advantage of me. When I was 20 I ran out of money due to financial hardship and I couldn’t get anymore federal loans, which are bad enough in themselves. So I considered dropping out, even joining the military but everyone scared the shit out of me so I felt like I had to find a way to finish. I took out high interest student loans from a private lender that won’t allow me to refinance or consolidate. They won’t even allow me to defer in the case that I lose my job. And since I’ve graduated I’ve barely made enough money to scrounge together any savings at all.

[Anonymous No.19169919]

>>19165743
I think I'm a future loser. I'm starting a meme degree (linguistics) next week. All I will have going for myself will be my uni's name if I graduate. All I can hope for really is to land a five day 9 to 5 but I just might be unemployed. College will be my first time away from home as well. My parental relationships aren't flawless but we made it work. I'd have preferred to stay with them but I guess that's not going to happen for now. I will also miss the comfy lifestyle of playing video games and browsing here, cooking, visiting my cousins etc. I also feel kind of disassociated by the whole thing. My advisors/tutors keep sending these e-mails with smiley faces at the end as if there's anything to be happy about.
I understand some of these feelings are not the most unique. But I feel people are usually upset about things like not having a gf or not having an exciting life etc. while I'm upset about not having a mundane life in my parents' house.
Usually when I write things down it helps but this time didn't. Maybe it'll pass in time.

[Anonymous No.19169934]

>>19169919
In retrospect, I would’ve become a teacher and I think you should too. If that turns out to be an absolute disaster you could always join the military.

[Anonymous No.19169942]

>>19168299
Sounds like a hormonal issue, also casual sex is bad.

[Anonymous No.19169953]

>>19165743
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[Anonymous No.19169962]

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I wish I did. I could have achieved greatness, but now I never will.

[Anonymous No.19169987]

>>19169934
>teacher
never liked my teachers. and I knew I had no shot at teaching since middle school. I couldn't ever explain how I solved a particular math problem to classmates.
>military
not obedient at all. I'd get kicked out or shoot myself within a month.

[Anonymous No.19170026]

>>19169987
Well, you’ll like corporate working life even less than both so don’t say I didn’t warn you.

[Anonymous No.19170043]

>>19170026
>>19169987
join the Taliban

[Anonymous No.19170046]

I want love but not sex. Yet one is not achieved without the other. Sad life for me.

[Anonymous No.19170150]

I’m really doing as little as possible and I’ve still not been fired.

[Anonymous No.19170159]

>>19170026
Have you done linguistics in undergrad? If you don't mind me asking, what do you do (for work)?

[Anonymous No.19170171]

>>19169919
>linguistics
You can learn all the basics of phonology and grammatical terms by fucking around on YouTube and Wikipedia. If you're legitimately curious how languages work and didn't just throw a dart, you'll probably find something about linguistics you'll find pretty interesting.

If you're curious about linguistics and want to have a silly stupid worthless hobby around it, look up something called "conlangs". A conlang is a "con"structed "lang"uage, silly shit like Na'vi from Avatar or Klingon from Star Trek, and some autists like to make their own as an obscure art. NEVER join any conlanging communities unless you don't mind a bunch of trannies and communists and other radical leftist demons; they're all over the hobby for reasons I still don't know. I've learned to live with keeping the hobby to myself for that reason.

As far as jobs go however, good fucking luck finding anything aside from translating or interpreting.

t. had an autistic interest in linguistics since middle school

[Anonymous No.19170214]

>>19169919
>>19170171
Oh, one other thing I should mention is that stupid conlanging hobby can help you out with your writing if you want to do fantasy/scifi autism.

[Anonymous No.19170236]

>>19170150
Others slack even more.

[Anonymous No.19170272]

>>19167141
Ah yes, the criminology/sociology get out clause for when the nigs make yet another quantitative per-capita stink.

[Anonymous No.19170315]

I'm thinking of downloading tinder, but I have no social life so that could be a real bump in the road of romance.

[Anonymous No.19170323]

I think the only person on this earth that ever loved me in any sense now most likely despises me. It is not that I haven't earned it. It is fucking crushing that I have earned it. I've been crying a lot. My behavior toward them was based on a cruel misunderstanding, and now they despise me. It is.. very, very hard to think that the only person that ever gave a shit about even such a thing as how I'm doing, probably will also not care about this over time.

[Anonymous No.19170330]

>>19170150
A few years ago I had a job where I did the bare minimum and spent most of the day reading or fucking around and they thought I was one of their best employees

[Anonymous No.19170407]

>Posting from your IP range has been blocked due to abuse

Come on mods, I haven't done one single thing. I'm just trying to create a thread.

Being unable to make a thread for no apparent reason is senseless.

[Anonymous No.19170422]

>>19170323
How do you know they despise you? Maybe things are not as they seem.

[Anonymous No.19170602]

The single worst part of professional working life is feigning interest in meetings.

[Anonymous No.19170606]

>>19170330
That’s my situation right now. I literally lied and said there’s too much work so that’s why I can’t do any of it and they said “coming from you, that means more” like I’m some work horse.

[Anonymous No.19170614]

>>19170159
I did not. I’m just trying to give you friendly advice. I work in academia now.

[Anonymous No.19170618]

>>19169228
blatantly obvious fake but still funny

[Anonymous No.19170663]

>>19170422
I guess I don't really know, but I have behaved reprehensibly. We have drifted apart, which isn't strange, but.. what kills me is thinking there may come a day when I would mean very little to them. There will not come a time when they mean very little to me. Tbh there are a lot of memories and emotions about this that have kind of flooded back quite massively in the last couple of weeks. I literally woke up from my sleep at 2am this morning pretty much just to cry over them for 2-3 hours, cry for what I've done, cry for how that happened, cry desperately to God that they will be saved, that they will be allowed to enter heaven. I was tossed out of my sleep for this. I've considered writing them a letter but I don't want to bother them, and besides.. My feelings should probably cool off first. I've had a lot of problems with my health, and I think for many years I simply haven't been strong enough to feel these feelings.

[Anonymous No.19170712]

How do become a degenerate hedonist? It seems to not align with my personality.

[Anonymous No.19170728]

>>19170712

What doesn't align exactly?

[Anonymous No.19170742]

>>19170728
I think my temperament.

[Anonymous No.19170748]

>>19170742

What is your temperament?

[Anonymous No.19170781]

>>19170748
Static, stoic, bored, boring. I’m the guy that girls and parents ask “why don’t you smile more?” and who doesn’t dance at weddings.

[Anonymous No.19170802]

>>19170781

I am all of those things, plus a degenerate hedonist with drugs + alcohol. I think people just think I'm a cunt. Stay sober! Other forms of degeneracy may be OK

[Anonymous No.19170804]

When do we start admitting Hitler was right?

[Anonymous No.19170826]

>>19169510
Here, anon. Listen to this.
https://youtu.be/0sDleZkIK-w

[Anonymous No.19170854]

>>19169510
are you being treated? it's better the sooner you can cut it off. it is worth taking meds
t. have been psychotic and know full well it will have meaning to you, did not take meds

[Anonymous No.19170925]

I am a faggot

[Anonymous No.19170928]

>>19170804
It's coming with how much antifa is antagonizing the populace. They're going to help make National Socialism rise again just like they did when they tried to start their revolution in Germany.

[Anonymous No.19170976]

>>19170826

thank you

>>19170854

yes I'm on anti-psychotic and anti-depressant. The symptoms of psychosis don't really both me - I am lucky - I just find them interesting.

That's why I dont, sometimes, consider it an illness

[Anonymous No.19170982]

>>19165743
Every day it passes, I become more sympathetic towards North Korea and Juche

[Anonymous No.19170996]

>>19170928
The reality is that antifa and the elite which support them are winning and will just keep winning. I can’t imagine a fascist ever arising in the West again.

[Anonymous No.19171034]

>>19170996
If they were winning they wouldn't need to pump out fear mongering propaganda 24/7.
They wouldn't need to have cheated during the 2020 election.
And they would have pushed these mandates without so much as a backlash.
I could go on and on give more illustrations but i'll leave this quote here

>Doubt is a poison greater than that of cyanide. It festers inside you, sapping your strength and will; It eats away at your resolve until you're second guessing yourself and others constantly.

[Anonymous No.19171040]

>>19169942
I feel like casual sex is bad, but I suspect that's a cope. What should I do about a hormonal issue? Get a blood test?

[Anonymous No.19171044]

>>19170976
>yes I'm on anti-psychotic and anti-depressant. The symptoms of psychosis don't really both me - I am lucky - I just find them interesting.
>That's why I dont, sometimes, consider it an illness
that's good. I did find it very enjoyable in some ways, it's just that when it ended that was really not enjoyable. But if you're medicated and everything I'm sure it will pan out completely differently.

[Anonymous No.19171051]

>>19170982
NK is just as degenerate as the west but with fewer material resources. Read Without You There is no Us by Suki Kim

[Anonymous No.19171323]

Would I be able to get a job as a low level programmer with a few months of learning?

[Anonymous No.19171326]

>>19167782
Don Quixote
TBK
Anna Karenina
Madame Bovary
Middlemarch
Dubliners
Great Expectations
LOTR
Moby Dick
Great Gatsby
Emma
East of Eden
Lolita
Mrs. Dalloway
Alice Adventures
1984
Iliad

Pretty generic.

[Anonymous No.19171395]

a late night dinner of boiled eggs. I don't have to tell you what happened, but I do

[Anonymous No.19171425]

I hate religious fanatics so much. God should have left us alone, if we were all atheists there would be so much bloodshed and misery avoided.

>inb4 fedora
I am religious. But I hate how people turn religion into a weapon to torment other people. If everyone was just allowed to follow the beliefs which rung the most true to them, the world would be a happier place.

[Anonymous No.19171545]

>>19171425
>I am religious.
Not even in your wildest dreams are even close to God. You're just another cultural "Christian" that would rather cower in fear of judgement then dare to defend your faith like your ancestors did and died for

[Anonymous No.19171549]

i am an unrepentant sinner

[Anonymous No.19171554]

>>19171545
Are you even*

[Anonymous No.19171575]

>>19171545
Well, I’m not a Christian in any case, although if you ask me Jesus was an enlightened man. I am not a pacifist, but there is a difference between defending oneself and using violence to force others to obey your way of seeing the world.

[Anonymous No.19171582]

>>19165743
I'm a poorfag, I need money, and the only thing I enjoy and that I'm good at is writing. Could I make some money writing shit like YA and erotica? I don't care what I have to write, as long as I can make some money, and make a living off my writing.

[Anonymous No.19171594]

>>19171582
>Could I make some money writing shit like YA and erotica?
Memes aside, you have to be good at both writing and marketing to make it in YA. If you find some niche fetish, maybe you could make some money in erotica. But that can be pretty gross.

[Anonymous No.19171640]

I made pumpkin chocolate chip muffins and I'm trying to decide if I should give one to this qt RA or not. I'm a phd student in university housing and my RA is probably 9 years my junior (she's a sophomore, so assuming 19, and I'm 28).

[Anonymous No.19171652]

AAAAAAAAAAA WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER WHEN WILL IT STOP GOD HELP ME IM LOSING EVERYTHING LOSING EVEN THE TINY SCRAPS I THOUGHT I HAD I HAVE NOTHING, NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.19171674]

>>19171652
Literally who

[Anonymous No.19171683]

>>19171652
To go forward we must go back, obviously marrying for love is dumb and we must go back to arranged marriages for political/monetary gain to battle the capitalist bogeyman.

[Anonymous No.19171705]

Squid Game got me thinking about how easy it is to make money by introducing an unknown genre to a western audience. Hunger Games kinda did this too by plagiarizing BR, and Undertale did it to some extent with "game knows it's a game and messes with save files."

Wonder what else is just waiting to be copied and introduced to the west?

[Anonymous No.19171722]

>>19171705
Based modern Orientalist.

[Anonymous No.19171740]

>>19169233
dude i cannot wait to quit my job. i wish my boss gave me more spreadsheets to analyze and shit, but i spend like 80% of my time dealing with chuds. oh and yeah i can't remember the last meeting that was actually necessary and wouldn't be handled better by a one on one phone call or an email thread.

[Anonymous No.19171747]

>>19171705
The most obvious one to me is for hollywood to adapt the Fate series, but ungenderbent- so the original Fate that Nasu wrote when he was in high school. There is a mass appeal to Fate and power level circlejerking over historical/mythic heroes that would just print money. Even moreso if you cast them as beautiful people. You could even get some actors who have played the roles of the heroes in other movies, e.g. Guy Ritchie as Arthur, The Rock as Hercules, Sam Worthington as Perseus. Keep some of the romantic elements and you can get a lot of girls into it too because they self-insert as the qt hapa master who can fuck King Arthur and Gilgamesh (and pretend to boss them around)

[Anonymous No.19171755]

>>19171640
I guess I'm just asking what you guys think about age gaps and how big is too big?

[Anonymous No.19171784]

the only good thing about my job is there are some true catholics who really believe the shit no larp and showed me the way.

[Anonymous No.19171831]

I’ve tried to reconcile Christ in my heart but the older I get, the more I live, the more I just hate the world and hate life. There’s a deep loathing and simmering anger over the world I was born into, what it offers, and how things are, how they turned out.

[Anonymous No.19171865]

Is there a name for paintings within paintings?

[Anonymous No.19171887]

you have no idea my god im going mad! mad mad mad mad im losing the world ive gone mad its slipping away ahahahahaha thoughts fade to thoughts fade to thoughtsa mind is like a fading gaslight in a storm

[Anonymous No.19172017]

>>19171594
About the marketing stuff, I'm an absolute autist, so I guess that I would do bad in that aspect.
On erotica, I don't care how gross the fetish is, as long as it doesn't get me into jail.

[Anonymous No.19172023]

>>19171865

a certain kind of this technique is called mise en abyme, where a smaller version of an image is embedded in a larger version of itself. not sure what it's called with other images tho

[Anonymous No.19172029]

>>19171652
Please stop talking about or linking to Twitter. That website just makes me angry. Absolutely insufferable people.

[Anonymous No.19172088]

>>19172029
>That website just makes me angry.
That’s the point
If you get angry, you might go on Twitter and browse it because it feeds your emotions. You might even make an account and start posting! And boom, Twitter wins

[Anonymous No.19172120]

>>19172088
not really. there’s a lot of cool stuff on twitter beyond getting angry at something

[Anonymous No.19172138]

>>19172120
I am not convinced a website for public self-promotion with a 200 character limit can offer anything of value. It is by design shit.

But I also do not have an ADD brain.

[Anonymous No.19172143]

Man, I’m really conflicted over what to do regarding this work situation.

[Anonymous No.19172155]

Many (not all) trans people claim to have been born with the wrong gender's brain - e.g. a 'female' brain in a 'male' body. I even see a lot (again, not all) trans people claim that there is scientific evidence that trans people's brains are 'hardwired' to that of the opposite sex, causing body dysphoria. Ignoring the obvious point that this invalidates the notion that gender is a social construct, I wonder why we accept the idea that changing bodies is preferable or even easier than changing one's brain.

The assumption is that for a MtF, the brain is female, so you must change the body to match the brain. Why not change the brain to match the body? I'm not trying to be difficult or argumentative, I just think that it is interesting that we accept our psychological state as more "real" and therefore authoritative on the issue on what our "true" identity is, rather than the body.

[Anonymous No.19172157]

>>19172143
What situation

[Anonymous No.19172166]

Fantasizing about what I'd put in my suicide note again

[Anonymous No.19172171]

>>19172155
The more you think about it the less sense it makes. Just do not worry about it. Do you!

[Anonymous No.19172173]

>>19171755
In a vacuum, I don't think any sized age gap is a problem as long as both are over the AoC. However, we don't live in a vacuum, and you have to balance how you feel with how friends, family, society etc. feels about your relationship. Unfortunately, many people subscribe to completely arbitrary standards and this can make perfectly normal relationships difficult, depending on how much value you put in the opinions of others.

But if you don't give a fuck what others think, then go for it.

[Anonymous No.19172198]

>>19172157
Ah. I’m sure you wouldn’t care much. I hate my job, don’t know what else to do, how to do it. Pretty typical predicament I guess.

[Anonymous No.19172206]

I finally have a girlfriend after years of being alone. But I dont really care. I keep thinking about a girl I was talking to a couple months ago. What is wrong with me.

[Anonymous No.19172209]

>>19171640
It's completely fine if you intend to treat her well. The only problem I can see with an age gap is someone using the inherent power disadvantage to take advantage of the other.

[Anonymous No.19172211]

>>19170663
You have my sympathies, anon. I do encourage you to write that letter. I'm sure they will understand your regret is genuine. May I ask what happened?

[Anonymous No.19172292]

>>19170996
The elites are the fascists. No they do not support antifa. If there’s an antifa that does something pro elitist, they’re fakes. Holy fucking shit dude. This isn’t a football game.
Antifa isn’t even an organization. It’s a perspective. You stray from the perspective, you aren’t that thing. Doesn’t matter what you’re wearing.
The secret services take full advantage of the fact they’re not an organization.

Stupid stupid fascists

[Anonymous No.19172299]

I met up with some old friends a few months ago, one of whom was a 2nd gen chinese girl I orbited for a few years. I only hang out with them once or twice a year since I moved, and this time she was noticeably fatter. This was a shock to me, but it gave me a boost of confidence. So I had a fun time hanging out with my old friends. I felt I did good, but it was a 3 day weekend so I lost some steam towards the end. I know they only invite me as a courtesy, but I have to take social interaction where I can get it.

But anyways, on the drive home from the trip, I suddenly thought to myself "We're going to go feed the Chinese whore until she blows up". And this shit still cracks me up. Its such an absurd string of words. I think it's humor comes from the ritualistic element. "After class, we're going to feed the Chinese whore until she blows up." "I have 15 minutes free from work, let's go feed the Chinese whore until she blows up." "Pick me up at 8:30, then we can go feed the Chinese whore until she blows up". I had to decline going to her birthday party this december, because I'm sure I was going to laugh at her face. Especially if she got any fatter.

I never had the confidence to ask her out as a teenager, and of course I beat myself up about it for a few years. I can only interpret all of this is a sign of growth on my part. I felt like sharing, obviously I can't tell those guys so there you go.

[Anonymous No.19172317]

>>19171705
>Hunger Games kinda did this too by plagiarizing BR,
No no no.
https://youtu.be/pkAN5rGGP1M

[Anonymous No.19172339]

>>19172292
>The elites are the fascists. No they do not support antifa
Disregarded everything you said after that bullshit rationalization.

[Anonymous No.19172412]

>>19172292
>The elites are the fascists.
I dunno how anyone can seriously think this when the defeat of the Nazis is quite literally the foundation of the current world order. "The elites are liberals" is self-evident, "the elites are communist" means you don't know what communism is (unless you're talking about Chinese elite I guess). But to think "the elites are fascist" just means you are deluded.

[Anonymous No.19172422]

I live in a major city and enjoy abusing strangers. I like to pick a random person and subtly bully them. Not larping. I'm very attractive and charming, but despise normies, so I walk around and pick a target. Sometimes I flip off other drivers, especially sojboy looking guys who I know won't do shit about it, and laugh when they freak out and start driving erratically in sheer anger and rage. If crossing at a crosswalk I'll walk sideways so that I cut someone off and make them stumble. If I have to wait at crosswalk lights I walk up and stand extremely close to someone else, especially a maskie, and they get jimmy rustled and either cave and move or stand there getting enraged and anxious. I also make fun of other drivers or passengers. The other day I mocked a woman wearing a mask in the passengers seat by holding my hands over my face in a stupid manner and obnoxiously laughing at her. I pissed her off and she wouldn't stop staring indignantly at me while freaking out. Then I flipped her off. She was the kind of haughty cunt who has never had anyone tell her to go fuck herself before, it was likely the first time anyone had been rude to her in her privileged little life. I play walking chicken with them and force normies out of my way on the sidewalk. I've sent a few stumbling into the mud or the road. I also get off on shoulder-checking people, especially cunty looking women in high heels. I hope they stumble and break an ankle. I've told people to kill themselves, including beggars. Some woman was on the bus coughing and I got up and told her she was a dirty bitch and moved seats. I'm not even germophobic at all and think the virus is bullshit, but I could do it so I did. She was extremely offended and shocked and made this stupid, "oooh!" noise at me then shut her mouth cowed due to the virus hysteria and thought better of acting up. Dumb asian whore was probably terrified she was gonna get lynched.

Not even larping. My greatest pleasure in life is aggressing at strangers, and the more pussy wussy they are the more hilarious it is. ruralfags and small town poorfaggots will never know the pleasure of being an IRL anonymous asshole.

[Anonymous No.19172433]

>>19172339
Because you’re unaware that fascism comes into power whenever capitalism is in crisis and the working class start to revolt.

You probably believe Hitler was a socialist

[Anonymous No.19172472]

>>19172422
Okay Mr. Bateman, do your 12 step Korean night time routine and get some beauty sleep

[Anonymous No.19172473]

>>19172433
>still more bullshit rationalization even after what happened during 2020 when everyone, the media, the military, the police, even Trump capitulated, and didn't do anything to stop antifa dead in it's little tantrum
You're not the oppressed in any way shape or form and you're definitely not the good guys no matter what you call yourselves. Let's not forget all the people that were maimed and killed in 2020 alone because of what you domestic terrorists did.

[Anonymous No.19172477]

>>19172412
Have you ever heard of operation paperclip?
Are you at all familiar with Kurt Vonnegut?
Did you know Israel is fascist?
The US not only supports fascist puppet governments, it is, ever more so now that capitalism is slipping into crisis, a fascist state.
Some say “corporatist” some say “neoliberal”. Some see it as more of an oligarchy, but the truth of it is that it can slip into authoritarianism quite easily, what with its huge military, militarized police, and multiple spy agencies trying to keep tabs on us with both taxpayer funded hardware and willing tech billionaires.
It’s pretty fucking fascist. I donno how you missed it.

[Anonymous No.19172481]

I'm fucking amazing and I'm going to ace this test tomorrow.
Nothing can stop me, the pain and the struggles, I'll overcome it all and acheive greatness.
Just watch me.

[Anonymous No.19172502]

>>19172473
You of all people I would expect to fall for that obvious false flag operation. Just like your left liberal counterparts.
The cop riots of 2020 were a distraction to push the wildcat strike organizing out of the way. “Woke capitalism” and cancel culture is a fucking government campaign
> you're definitely not the good guys no matter what you call yourselves
Ho ho ho. Preemptive dismissal because I know shit you don’t. Real smrt move, professor

[Anonymous No.19172511]

>>19172502
>I know shit you don’t
More like you find shit online to suit your bias in that fascist boogeyman you want to be real.

[Anonymous No.19172542]

>>19172511
I piece things together independently from multiple sources over the course of my life.
I am indeed biased against authoritarianism.
Did you know about the memo from (I think it was the pentagon) designating anymore opposed to capitalism and anyone who hates minorities are all considered “domestic terrorists”. This of course means they’ll be able to gitmo anyone in the US for these things. They won’t really care if it’s the DNC or the RNC in office. They share power.
Where do you stand on the rampant censorship, the persecution of the Jan 6th rioters, and the CDC lying for big pharma?

Do you wanna call it soft fascism now? Partial fascism?

[Anonymous No.19172562]

>>19172299
I laughed at this more than I wanted to. Very Houllebecqian.

[Anonymous No.19172579]

My friends and peers do this thing where they just collectively scream I guess but instead of crying or screaming like a primal scream they just all get in their online group chats or discord servers or whatever and send each other sad songs in between spamming the laughing crying emoji and I guess its therapeutic for them who am I to judge but I can’t help but feel like we’re all living in hell, and our generation is going to witness the titanic go down so to speak, and I don’t know how to reconcile that with my dreams for the future and what I want to do. Because no matter what, it’s not loud, it’s not noticeable, but deep down in the back of my head there’s always this whisper: what’s the point? And I can’t tell them.

Anyway, goodnight.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19172586]

I wasn't planning on smoking weed this week but its almost 12 and i think I'm just going to bite the bullet and have another degenerate week.
https://youtu.be/VecunpIqlg0

[Anonymous No.19172592]

>>19172542
That's not fascism. That's bolshevism revised for the 21st century. Also
>Did you know about the memo from (I think it was the pentagon) designating anymore opposed to capitalism and anyone who hates minorities are all considered “domestic terrorists”
Source?

>Where do you stand on the rampant censorship
If it was my side, Fascism or National Socialism or the Far Right, I wouldn't have a problem with it anymore than what the Nat Socs did to magnus hirschfeld's works. I'll be truthful about that.

>the persecution of the Jan 6th rioters
I feel the same way about it like I felt on Charlottesville, if they had better organization the persecution would have never have reached the level it did because fear of retaliation would have been a reality. There would be no suicides or doxxings to the degree there was.

>the CDC lying for big pharma?
That we could agree on. Fuck the CDC and fuck big pharma.

[Anonymous No.19172611]

>>19168278
https://youtu.be/9muJXQCxOAI

[Anonymous No.19172612]

>>19172579
Can I ask you to at least consider your age and experience and comprehend that men, women and children have survived World Wars 1 and 2, as well as lack of plumbing.

[Anonymous No.19172620]

>>19172592
>The US is doin Bolshevism
Hahahah that’s a new one.
>source
Search it out. It was recent, Biden era thing.

[Anonymous No.19172625]

>>19172620
>read gulag archipelago
>stop and look outside
>now this is podracing
it's bolshevism you faggot. prepare for the famines.

[Anonymous No.19172628]

>>19168313
did you meet off a dating app? that's what it sounds like

[Anonymous No.19172635]

>>19172625

[Anonymous No.19172653]

Papa is the greatest writer of all time. What kind of person am i?

[Anonymous No.19172663]

>>19172477
>Have you ever heard of operation paperclip?
Defeated fascists were used to further the aims of a democratic nation
>Are you at all familiar with Kurt Vonnegut?
Slaughterhouse Five author? I admit I am probably uninformed here.
>Did you know Israel is fascist?
A Jewish state is by definition opposed to fascism, or at the very least Nazism, the only form of fascism which mattered on a historical scale.

You seem to be living, for lack of a better word, in a storybook world where fascism is something which still exists outside of a history textbook. Today, the only authoritarian nations left are either Islamist or Communist. Fascism is extinct. Fretting about a fascist elite makes about as much sense as doing so for a feudal elite.

[Anonymous No.19172670]

>>19165844
be strong man, your enemies will be taken away little by little

[Anonymous No.19172671]

Let's say you are a NEET who does nothing but read difficult books and exercises all day. On the days when your head is muddled, your stomach hurts, and you're too sore to exercise, and you've already slept your fill---am I able to force myself to read and think critically? I'm just being a bitch, right? If I force myself enough will my head start pumping again?

[Anonymous No.19172678]

I have no clue if the chinese in my institution actually understand what they are saying when they talk or if they communicate entirely in plagiarism and google translate. How do you possibly grade such a student in a manner consistent with national students, especially when they're taking a course online from mainland china?

[Anonymous No.19172688]

>>19172678
>taking a course online from mainland china
21st century education, thank goodness we aren't in those backward dark ages!

[Anonymous No.19172694]

>>19172688
I'm not racist but I think we need to destabalize internet access, road networks, prevent literacy and revert to fuedalism

[Anonymous No.19172714]

>>19172663
>a democratic nation
“Western democracy” hahaha. It wasn’t just scientists fyi
I guess my Vonnegut reference is more about the antiwar Hitler supporting faction of the US and how they served in the army. Like Patton. He’ll whoop kraut ass, but he wanted to push on into the USSR and slaughter every last red.
>doesn’t understand what’s happening in apartheid Israel
You seem to be living under a rock with semantic blinders on

[Anonymous No.19172734]

>>19172714
>and slaughter every last red.
Meh. Given the amount of damage communists have caused and continue to the West, I think a harsher treatment of the USSR would have gone a long way in securing the safety of the world.

>You seem to be living under a rock with semantic blinders on
Fascism doesn't mean "thing I don't like", you know. What Israel does to the Palestinians is messed up, but then again the Chinese do far worse to the Uyghurs and no one here thinks they are fascist.

[Anonymous No.19172738]

i dont know much about Christianity or fedora v christian debate so excuse my ignorance, but i was thinking about the "if god real why bad happen?" problem Ive seen discussed plenty of times here and the thought occurred to me, isn't this kind of somewhat addressed in genesis where we see that mankind is living east of eden specifically because we were tempted into learning the realities of both good and evil, thus here we are? and could you consider it necessarily and entirely bad thing for humans to be given the option of knowing the contrast of good and evil?

[Anonymous No.19172750]

>>19172714
>apartheid automatically means fascist

good fucking lord i cannot stand you people. you know when you look at some redneck trump supporting crying about how paying taxes and having basic social programs is literally communism and you chuckle to yourself about how ignorant they are? this is literally what you people do with fascism/national socialism, you are on the same level as those people

[Anonymous No.19172752]

>>19172734
>Fascism doesn't mean "thing I don't like", you know
You condescending idiot. It’s authoritarianism, and holy shit, no the Han are not genociding the Uyghur. They’re stomping on the culture certainly, but they’re not doing what the Eurojews are doing to the Palestinian natives. I don’t like either. I don’t stick up for China. You however pick sides of authoritarianism because you buy into the game . Team red versus team blue

[Anonymous No.19172762]

>>19172750
>redneck
American socialists fyi
As is Star Trek a depiction of a socialist utopia
>Muh brand of authoritarianism is super speshul!

[Anonymous No.19172772]

>>19172752
holy fuck you absolute slime of a human being. not only is israel barely scratching the surface of authoritarianism, but being authoritarian does not in any way automatically equate to fascism. how do you people post shit this stupid unironically. i guess the real irony is that people like you honestly justify authoritarianism and especially fascism with your existence. cretins like you dont deserve rights and you certainly cant be trusted with democracy

[Anonymous No.19172777]

>>19172762
>>19172762
>>redneck
>American socialists fyi
>As is Star Trek a depiction of a socialist utopia
ok? and this relates to the content of my post how exactly
>Muh brand of authoritarianism is super speshul!
words do in fact have specific meaning, is this concept new to you?

[Anonymous No.19172779]

>>19172752
My point, which you have yet to really address, is that fascism is literally dead. There are LARPers on this site, sure. But out in the real world? It's dead. It died in a bunker in 1945, and the West will have to become unrecognizable before it rises again.

[Anonymous No.19172782]

feels very reddit in this thread rn

[Anonymous No.19172841]

>>19172772
Explain. Stop flipping out trash talk like they were pancakes and EXPLAIN. Why is fascism so super duper special that China isn’t actually doing it. And the US would need a little Hitler mustache on the president.

>>19172779
>is that fascism is literally dead.
It’s transformed. Yes LARPers, sure, but also, in power, sometimes very well hidden. I don’t care about the term so much which is why I keep saying AUTHORITARIANISM. It sure as hell isn’t dead

[Anonymous No.19172845]

>>19172299
Mate, I'm currently failing to sleep because I can't get over a stunning Chinese girl that messed me around. She eats too much and this was extremely soothing to read

[Anonymous No.19172851]

>>19171652
If you read or post anything from twitter you're a subhuman divorced from reality, it's that simple.

[Anonymous No.19172860]

>>19172841
its not "special" it is literally just a specific ideology with specific economic structures and policy, social policy etc. what are you not understanding here?

[Anonymous No.19172867]

>>19172779
>and the West will have to become unrecognizable before it rises again.
We're nearly there.

[Anonymous No.19172881]

>>19172867
Yeah, nothing will happen. The modern whites are not what their ancestors were, and they will do nothing. I am more worried about a Black or Latino fascist coming to power than I am about a White one.

[Anonymous No.19172892]

>>19172138
Not him but I use it to follow artists. Mostly anyone non-american and it's comfy.

[Anonymous No.19172901]

>>19172860
https://youtu.be/nxNjyE65IS4

[Anonymous No.19172903]

>>19172892
yeah i'm >>19172120 and once you get past the american shit it's p good
this applies to social media in general t b h

[Anonymous No.19172909]

>>19172694
Don't force the fates. There is a time for everything. A time to plant and a time to uproot. A time for war and a time for peace. Work for the present. Mourn the inevitable Collapse. Yes, feudalism will return and road networks will be obliterated....but at what cost? Hope that it will not be the at the cost of the innocent

[Anonymous No.19172950]

any good books based in prison? looks like i can't avoid it any more because of covid

[Anonymous No.19172988]

>>19172901
what am i supposed to be getting from this exactly?

[Anonymous No.19173005]

>>19172988
A history lesson

[Anonymous No.19173010]

>>19172950
Mein Kampf was written while the author was in prison

[Anonymous No.19173028]

>>19173005
so what you are saying is you got BTFO and have nothing to say. given that you are literally Mr. "bro slightly less liberal liberal democracy is literally fascism!" i think you're the one in desperate need of a history lesson.

[Anonymous No.19173051]

>>19173028
Are you watching the history lesson?
Are you afraid of the history lesson?

[Anonymous No.19173073]

>>19173051
just out of curiosity, since everything resembling any tidbits of authoritarianism is automatically fascism to you, including less liberal liberal democracy, do you also refer to feudal monarchies as fascist?

[Anonymous No.19173087]

>>19173073
W a t c h y o u r h i s t o r y l e s s i o n

[Anonymous No.19173101]

>>19165743
Every day I become stronger and the world becomes heavier still. I will not carry what wishes not to be supported. But then why did I come to the place where lifting is life?

[Anonymous No.19173102]

>>19173087
why arent you answering the question? are you afraid of answering the question?

no, im not watching an hour long russian state government documentary just because you posted it in lieu of an argument, and im 100% certain you knew that would be the case beforehand

have a little self respect and just say "i was was wrong and learned something new today!"

[Anonymous No.19173120]

>>19173102
Kid. I asked you a question first
>No I’m not trying to learn anything here.
The question you keep asking me has already been answered above. And the documentary will flesh it out with facts and references you could follow up on.
>uhg. Me won argument. Me winnar
Once again, anon is either trolling or extremely stupid (or both).

[Anonymous No.19173126]

>>19173120
He's right. You lost bitch. Now go cry on whatever site you came from you God damn tourist

[Anonymous No.19173131]

>>19173120
>I asked you a question first
which question was that?
>The question you keep asking me has already been answered above

no it wasn't. link the post where it was answered

[Anonymous No.19173147]

>this bracingly stupid
>>19173131
If you had watched your history lesson.
I told you what fascism is, I told you were it is. The history lesson fleshes this out. Now watch it. Scream at it, but take notes and research it. It’s the truth

>>19173126
Really ironic coming from the asshole who doesn’t read. Get off my board

[Anonymous No.19173155]

>>19173147
>Get off my board
Funny shit newfag. But seriously it's past your curfew and mommy's going to take away your nintendo switch again if you don't go to bed right now

[Anonymous No.19173158]

>>19173147

you literally didnt do any of these things. like to where you did these things

[Anonymous No.19173163]

>>19173158
*link

[Anonymous No.19173238]

>>19173158
https://youtu.be/nxNjyE65IS4
https://youtu.be/nxNjyE65IS4

[Anonymous No.19173421]

>>19173238
so you didnt actually say any of those things, just as i thought. you just sperged out and claimed "anything authoritarian is fascist...because i said so!" as can be seen in a few posts here >>19172752 here >>19172714 which forced me to insert myself into this conversation in the first place

[Anonymous No.19173429]

>>19173238
>maybe this video can do the talking for me

[Anonymous No.19173434]

Was tolstoy one of the pioneers of a particular kind of novel that allows people to enter the mental state of the characters in the books. Which helps to foster this self reflection.

[Anonymous No.19173436]

literature courses can be seen as an attempt to put a use value on reading fiction

[Anonymous No.19173438]

>>19173429
>>19173421
Given that 99% of commies dont even understand marx and how communism fit into his ideas, you cant really expect them to actually know anything about other ideologies

[Anonymous No.19173445]

>>19173434
he didn't create the realist novel genre

[Anonymous No.19173451]

>>19173445
Did he pioneer anything?

[Anonymous No.19173456]

>>19172750
>this is literally what you people do with fascism/national socialism,
No, you're just a sophist. You people, a lot like a socialists, don't have a cohorent world view. Yoiu're just interested in being a cunning blabber. You people merely just do rhetorical tricks to make special pleading arguments as to why your special interpretation of fascism is the "real" fascism. Its utterly abstract non-sense.

[Anonymous No.19173464]

>>19173456
Based

[Anonymous No.19173466]

>>19173456
lol what an absolute non argument. care to actually step in the ring and actually defend the asinine take that "fascism is literally anything authoritarian!" or are you just going to stand around talking the same nonsense you accuse others of doing like the greasy rat you are

[Anonymous No.19173475]

>>19173456
how is saying "fascism is an ideology with specific economic and social ideals" a rhetorical trick? ideologies are literally defined by social and economic doctrine and fascism is no different

[Anonymous No.19173476]

>>19173466
>Its not a non-argument.
Nobody takes you seriously. You're a clown. You are literally no different those autistic communists that you critcize. Nobody respects your beliefs, your opinions, and nobody ever will. You need to stop treating your politics like some sort of hobby. Because its clear its just an internet persona for you. You are not a serious person whatsoever.

[Anonymous No.19173479]

>>19173475
No, kid, you're just a sophist. You don't have an consistent idealogy; you're just blabbering. Its not what you say that matters; its what you do.

[Anonymous No.19173480]

>>19173476
whew i really struck a nerve with you didn't I. its ok anon, feel free to continue venting your frustrations on me

[Anonymous No.19173489]

>>19173480
You have to be autistic because you think I'm the same person as him. You're both fucking retarded dweebs and psueds.

[Anonymous No.19173493]

>>19173479
>my position in indefensible, therefore you are a sophist!
interesting! that almost sounds like the same meaningless blabber and rhetoric you are accusing others of committing, you wouldn't happen to be projecting in lieu of your lack of reason would you?

[Anonymous No.19173498]

>>19173489
i really i dont care, this conversation alone is proof that I am your superior

[Anonymous No.19173505]

>>19173493
You're merely a pathetic idealist, mate. You're so retarded you think philosophizing is how you draw answers to solve problems. You're just a psued seeking self-validation because you don't have any confidence in your own views.

[Anonymous No.19173520]

>>19173498
You're under this strange apriori assumption people have to respect you, or value, your views. You're just a clown, and /lit/ is a circus for people like yourself. You're so mentally challenged you think debating people on 4chan is some form of proof of intellectual poweress. Just acting like you're superior here is the icing on the cake when its blatantly obvious you're a lolcow with an social media addiction. You couldn't even be sadder if you tried.

[Anonymous No.19173525]

>>19173505
haha jesus my man, what does ANY of this have to do with the fact that fascism is an ideology, which refers to specific economic and social doctrine? that is LITERALLY the only position ive taken this entire time, not edgy or controversial in any way, and youre losing it making post after post of every angry insult you can come up with because of that? you're losing the plot my friend, you sound like you're going to have an Aneurysm.

if you dont reply to this post with an argument stating why you think its appropriate to label anyone who isnt anti-authority a fascist, im going to bed. if youre going to keep sperging out, then make it an entertaining one to close the night off with

[Anonymous No.19173545]

>>19173520
lol mate literally all i did in this entire thread was point out that referring to a relatively liberal democracy literally fascist is a bit silly, where the fuck are you pulling these paragraph long rants from?! im getting the definite vibe that this about more than just me lol

[Anonymous No.19173548]

>>19173525
>haha jesus my man, what does ANY of this have to do with the fact that fascism is an ideology,
This is utterly meaningless. Like a sophist, you'll say anything and everything. You will push goalposts. You're not just capable of being honest with yourself. You're so autistic you can't do anything, but make claims about my mental state when its just clear you're a psued. You're just loving an easy to way wesael out of this discussion while keeping your already poor self esteem intact. You're just not an intelligent or informed person. You shouldn't act like one either because you're not doing a great job here.

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>>19173548
how is it meaningless? why are you so angry that a word has meaning? why can you write these paragraph long sperg outs, but you cant explain how israel conforms to the economic and social doctrines of fascism?

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>>19172734
>Chinese do far worse to the Uyghurs and no one here thinks they are fascist.
*raises hand* China is fascist as fuck.

Fascism is a hyper-authoritarian state that enslaves all private industry to the "good of the state". That's China, in spades. Well, aside from those unregulated wet meat markets they seem to have laying about.

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>>19172292
the only thing antifa and their ilk are is the very epitome of useful idiocy. a tool to further agendas through manufactured social unrest among the youth. revolutionary ideas that truly threaten the established order will not be allowed to have anything like such prominence - and practically have no existence, thanks to all the movements and ideologies manufactured, which is an art that by this point has been perfected. not dissimilar to the overabundance of conspiracy theories to distract from the real conspiracies.
The Matrix is the kind of movie the Matrix would make. your tiny peanut brain glows in the dark

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>>19172292
>Antifa isn’t even an organization. It’s a perspective
predominantly the perspective of retarded undergrads with rich parents, as it happens

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>>19172851
subhuman detected, please cease your posting activity immediately

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>>19168680
How does this help exactly?

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>>19165844
I am almost certain that, if I don't die to some freak accident, I will not die a natural death. Only a death by my own hand. My natural defense to suicide is wearing down.

It makes me bitter that, despite all of my success, I feel I have failed at life. Meanwhile I see other, actual failures, and they are so ignorant and happy.

It has made me redefine success to realize I was failing all along.

I am only 24 with my doctorate and more money than I could have imagined growing up. I moved from americas to switz into the mountains, my dream home. I research the most intriguing sciences imo and I still feel completely dead. Where do I go from here? What more is there to gain? I have tried every hobby, I have talked to as many people as will listen. Listened to as many people as will talk. I am tired of the old friends, the new friends, the women. Its all so worthless.

I wish to marry and have children, but I can't be a father and a husband knowing I will someday kill myself and hurt my own flesh and blood. So I remain alone until I finally build the courage to take life away on my own terms.

Good luck to you anon, youre not alone.

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>>19169187
Dont do it, its like venting car exhaust back onto the car. So many people fuck this up and just end up lobotomizing themselves and living the remainder of their life as a vegetable. Even the drunk in the cold method, if you survive you go full retard. It happened to my uncle who spent a night in -11deg. Its more gruesome than actual death. Just use a shotgun so you don't end up a tard

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>>19174369
Give religion a try. These problems are caused by godlessness. I wish you peace of mind, anon.

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>>19173891
>I know thousands of them

My point is that there are some feds masking up and knocking chuds down to anger your boys into action.

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>He thinks this is profound

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>>19173421
>Afraid to learn
I have already said what you need to hear, but you are not here to learn. The documentary is further proof. Refute it. Go on. But you can’t
You have not won an internet argument by refusing to listen. You have not been talking with a Marxist even.
You’re proudly stupid and sad.