Write what's on your mind.

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Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:45:53 2018 No.11926776 [Reply] [Original]

Write what's on your mind.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:47:42 2018 No.11926785 >>11926776 I started nofap right now. Gonna keep the days count in this thread. see ya tomorrow

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:48:47 2018 No.11926789

As to the NPC meme:

Everyone wants to feel superior to someone. It's nearly a fundamental drive of human nature, even, to say to yourself, "I might have gotten the short end of the stick but at least I'm not that sorry sod."

Who do you condescend to when you are at the bottom of the food chain yourself? A social plankton, grass to be mowed? Why you scorn the normal everyday person, the statistical average composite of the contemporary mass cultural expression. Because in your wretchedness at least that decrepitude marks you as unique. The outcast takes a bile-filled, acidic bitter pride in otherness.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:49:29 2018 No.11926792 Anyone got the muscular virgin coper who watches jordan peterson videos vs chad meme?

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:52:12 2018 No.11926803

>>11926785
I just came for the 3rd time today and am going strong. Is your mother Caucasian? Does she where glasses? How old is she? I hope your fathers dead or else I'd feel a bit homo about this. Is she a heels woman and do you still have her scent on you(From her unmentionables). She can ride me. I'd like her to be so mean to me. Wouldn't you like a new daddy?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:53:24 2018 No.11926811 >>11926803 sorry fren she died when I was 4 yo

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:54:36 2018 No.11926816 >>11926811 I am profoundly sad now. Maybe I can find a shoe to grind on. Thanks anyways son.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:55:58 2018 No.11926820 >>11926816 no worries, I doubt that thought. My father got rid of everything.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:57:45 2018 No.11926829

>>11926789
I agree. This meme is fucking idiotic, and relevance they give it, just because they weren't around to hear annoyed reactions to other slurs invented by them is laughable.

>>11926776
People who actively write, share your secret: what makes you believe that the words you fill sheets of paper with are valuable and/or original enough to actually write them down, not to mention trying to release them believing someone may find your thoughts worthwhile? I am not trying to belittle your work, I do think we hide at the very least few talents here, asking merely about your mindset, motivation for this.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 14:59:24 2018 No.11926834 >>11926820 No, you misunderstand. I didn't mean her shoes(Though that would be nice). I meant a neighbors. There's a laundromat down the street. I'll attempt to swipe one from one of these housewives.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:01:23 2018 No.11926842 >>11926834 Anon this lore is fucked up

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:02:54 2018 No.11926849 >>11926842 Life is temporary. I believe it's best spent doing what one loves. There is no shame in this.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:03:08 2018 No.11926850
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In my normal day to day life, I must put a lot of effort into to normal interactions with other people. When I'm at home alone I usually think about why I feel like an outsider and how everyone else knows how to act naturally in most situations. As a result of not being able to read people well and get into social situations I have never gotten romantically involved with anyone. I often contemplate about the meaning of my own life, why I am like I am, and if there is any greater meaning which I should strive for. Do you guys have any advice as to improve my state of mind?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:03:21 2018 No.11926852 >>11926785 In the end you'll fap to the OP pic

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:03:54 2018 No.11926855

>>11926776

"Most guys cannot fathom what its like to be a woman in 2018. Its hilarious, but its also kinda sad. Let's imagine one single day in the average woman's life. Her day commences in the haze of whatever free drugs and booze she imbibed, boofed and snorted the previous day. She can barely make out all the notifications from thirsty dudes literally from all over the world. There's a vast underclass of swarthy men stretching from here to bumfuck Bangladesh who like, comment and follow a girl like this, and she needn't ever interact with them. Are these men even real? Not to her, no. Plus, in all likelihood she is waking up next to one or several sleeping studs, the ones who the night before gaped and glazed our girl until their rigorous fuckings broke her fickle female reality and she suddenly saw before her the roastie dimension: a yonic realm where tesseracts of turgid, tumescent phalluses are powered by the aggregated orgasmic energies of all women worldwide who in that same moment shared delivery to this phantasmic space by way of the same sort of jackhammering fuckfest induced hallucinations. She'd have forgotten her name, number systems and become psychically disembodied somewhere during the double penetrations. But after enough rest, our girl will be ready to text one of her orbiters for coffee, another for lunch, one lucky guy to go shopping with and another for transportation to dinner. Time with girlfriends, also financed by another doting beta, blends seemlessly into another libidinous evening dank with debauchery. Sometimes she'll have time to shower, other times she can purchase one of many commercially available "feminine wipes" to "clean" the cum and smegma and who knows what Chad-deposited detritus sprayed and smashed into her dangly clam meat. And after a few judicious wipes of her snatch, she'll be ready to mount the next stallion rounding the turn of the Cock Carousel. I don't know, guys, can you relate?" -Aziz Ansari Unauthorized, 2018

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:05:28 2018 No.11926863 >>11926852 That would be a plot twist

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:06:32 2018 No.11926866 >>11926855 Women really shouldn't be considered as people.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:11:32 2018 No.11926884 The economy as an IQ laundering engine to assuage the ressentiment of the stupid.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:17:51 2018 No.11926910

this chick on facebook was complaining about native americans not being able to vote and i was like “i’d rather get drunk with badass native americans than vote anyday, voting’s sad” and she was said “i don’t see the purpose of your comment and reducing indigenous people to alcoholism is not the move” and i went way too far and responded with this: the native americans’ arcane longing for spiritual definition in a world that only gave them materials is remarkable. in a society where materialism is worshipped, and even worse—ironically, destruction of enemies has been replaced by the destruction of self. my comment was dumb and so is this comment but native americans are really damn cool and that shouldn’t be appropriation to say. their way of life should be respected more because it offers an antidote to our hyper conscious society and our government should have more respect for them obviously. it’s just that our modern voting system is a waste of time for anyone concerned with the alienation of a native people—their people, because it forces them into the stream of mundanity. i don’t think native americans are too interested in voting but i could be very wrong. hit the kinnikinnick—https://youtu.be/h6h3JNOCTYc

i’m such an embarrassing creature

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:19:25 2018 No.11926922 >>11926849 Is this the master morality?

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:28:28 2018 No.11926961

I don't know what's on my mind, I don't know what I think or believe.
I wonder things about the world or myself occasionally but can never pin anything down, except one thing, I want to ignore the world and for it to ignore me. I just want to be left alone, but I'm always here so that's impossible.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:28:44 2018 No.11926964

>>11926829
>People who actively write, share your secret:
In a word, compliments. Teachers and friends and other readers of my work were praising it as early as my teens. My English teachers gave me rewards and said I should be a writer. And I've never lost my edge.

The only wrinkle is that I've lost my literary imagination in favor of a more analytical and expository style. I used to crank out great fiction and very decent poetry. At least I'm making my comeback after having been on hiatus for a few years.

I'm facing down my thirties, which is prime novelist years. So here's hoping.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:29:56 2018 No.11926970

>>11926855
Girls arent actually like that. I probable have a skewed sample of girls being that im a mess myslf and only sort of damaged girls would want to be with me, but all the girls ive known have been vaguely mentally ill. They aren't machiavellian schemers, they dont know what the fuck theyre doing in the slightest.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:31:03 2018 No.11926979 >>11926776 I had an abnoxiously good day, everyone was nice to me, I laughed a lot and had a good time with some cuties. That's disgusting but luckily tomorrow will bw another day filled with misery and self pity.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:33:14 2018 No.11926987 >>11926979 Tell us about your day anon. Did the girl you were lusting after finally put out? Did you find a lucky penny?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:37:40 2018 No.11927018 >>11926987 Neither, I just had some human interaction with members of the opposite sex but it felt so unnatural that I almost felt like gettin up and walking up in distaste.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:43:29 2018 No.11927042 wow I want a Muslim girl to suck my dick

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:43:44 2018 No.11927048

>>11926785
Don't count the days, don't view it as "No fap". View it as freedom from a bad habit that drains your energy and focus in life. If you practice mental chastity, it becomes easy and you'll soon notice your sexual urges will abate. If you do falter, never resort to the videos. They are the absolute worst as they replay in the inner subconscious recesses of your mind over and over again without you even realizing it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:44:54 2018 No.11927053 >>11927048 thank you, will take that advice

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:56:18 2018 No.11927099 id like to believe in god but im a horrible person and not strong enough to become virtuous and follow in the footsteps of jesus so id just be condemning myself to life of even stronger self loathing than what i already experience

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:56:35 2018 No.11927101 >>11926849 What we know as life is temporary. Perhaps it is the shoe that is sentient and you that are not.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 15:58:04 2018 No.11927107 >>11926776 I love walking my dog, it's a lot of funb taking him to the country side and loooking at him go when we play fetch

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:01:19 2018 No.11927126 >>11927107 same senpai i love watching him swim and carry sticks around. seeing him having so much fun warms my heart

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:01:57 2018 No.11927128 File: 148 KB, 332x332, 1539460917535.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11926776 Okay, as you wish: FUCK NIGGERS AND KIKES

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:09:00 2018 No.11927173 >>11926910 Nah, nibbuh. You aight.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:11:46 2018 No.11927190
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I don't know myself. Do I control my desires or do they control me? Are my thoughts genuine or filtered for self-deception and censorship? Is the facade I think I put on when I speak to people actually a facade? Is drive just misdirection from one's loneliness?

People look like they have such fun. How? Sometimes I think it's because they don't think about the stuff I do, but I am not that special, am I? Is this a genuine thought or am I deceiving myself to rationalize why I don't have fun like that? Am I actually incapable of connecting with people emotionally or is that another rationalization?

I thought the girls I would meet at university would be more appealing to me than the girls I meet at bars, but they're not. Everyone seems so concerned with such dumb shit. Their motivations are so simple. Am I like that and just think myself special? Do I have all the problems I think everyone else does?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:16:36 2018 No.11927224 File: 57 KB, 500x500, 1977075A-C1C4-424F-8717-3B50990BB4D0.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] That fucker who circumcised me is running for office locally. Writings an outline is harder than writing a novel surprisingly

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:20:05 2018 No.11927241 File: 3 KB, 234x181, the main face.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] My girlfriend's on her perion

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:26:09 2018 No.11927267 File: 24 KB, 540x417, 1527217332707.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11926776 >Post a not safe for work image as the start of a good general writing thread I hope this one is over with soon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:35:02 2018 No.11927315 I'm 24. Haven't spoken to anyone in 6 days. Saturday night eating pizza and watching anime. I'm gonna finish a book tonight.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:45:12 2018 No.11927373 >>11927315 what anime you watching

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:46:49 2018 No.11927383 >>11927315 I'd talk to you if I could

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>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:52:33 2018 No.11927401 >>11926785 relapsed my no fap fuck

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:54:02 2018 No.11927406 >>11927373 Labirynth Tales

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 16:57:49 2018 No.11927418 >>11926910 World needs more people like you, anon, keep doing what you do

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:01:05 2018 No.11927427

>>11927315
im 24 too, and also isolated. I have two friends but they live in a different city and i had almost stopped seeing them before I moved anyway.

I cant really believe I used to be a person with girlfriends and social circles and etc. Strangers see me and think i am just another person, they talk to me like Im a member of society, and not a completetly alienated mentally ill hermit. The cashier girl smiles at me laughs at something i say, nobody understands that im a repulsive monster. It's surreal honestly, everything is so dreamlike, im watching the trees move about in the wind and light, im on the third floor of the building, and i dont even understand what is happeningor what year it is, i feel like im 8, and then 15 and then 20, and then 10 or 12, i dont know. Everything was just a dream, and the past isnt real

I feel like there is a world, a place of light and feeling and experiences and stuff, normality, and then there is this massive bleak desert surrounding it and for 8 years I ahve just been walking out further and further into that desert, i cant even see the oasis anymore, there is just black night above, and grey ashen fields around me, and i continue to walk out further every night

I used to be upset and try desperately to get back to the oasis, but it's been so long that it,s like ive been drained of blood, im just limp white flesh being pulled along further into some abyss

maybe this post seems overly dramatic but this is what it feels like, it's so confusing

the weird thing is i feel like i was in that desert when i was young as well. ANd then i got out of it briefly, maybe ages 12-16 which is the only time i can remember being happy, but then i fell back into it. ages 20-22 were delirious and like religious, i was in the desert but there were apparitions of sorts, a dreamworld, my actions in it reverberated in the real world in a way, i was speaking to people like in code i guess

the past two years are just empty, completely empty, not real

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:01:16 2018 No.11927428 >>11927315 What book are you going to finish tonight?

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>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:04:49 2018 No.11927449 >>11927428 Cioran's Temptation to Exist

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:04:51 2018 No.11927451 >>11926922 yes

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:05:49 2018 No.11927457 I wish I could meet up with these lonely anons at some cafe and just talk

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:06:05 2018 No.11927460 NPC Meme was a mistake

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:10:01 2018 No.11927472 >>11926776 I want to lick her feet.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:18:43 2018 No.11927498 >>11927457 Against my best judgment and common sense, i wish I could too, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:21:25 2018 No.11927504 File: 37 KB, 313x500, 51NVkWbrQhL.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11926776 Reminds me of the cover to my book.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:21:55 2018 No.11927506 >>11927457 >>11927498 /soc/ ?? (I don't know, never been there)

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:25:13 2018 No.11927517 I have finished my beer, and I crave another. Yet I'd be taking in too many carbs.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 17:42:39 2018 No.11927613 I'm freaking the fuck out because I need 1 or more primary texts for my senior thesis and I haven't picked any yet. Research proposal due soon. Cannot decide. >>11927457 >>11927498 Go to a /lit/ meet up, or start one for your city

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:02:17 2018 No.11927693 File: 296 KB, 1003x1334, children's britannica ghosts.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I'm really obsessed with finding old books my school library used to have. I've tracked down four so far.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:07:05 2018 No.11927715 >>11927457 >>11927498 If lonely anons felt comfortable meeting strangers, they wouldn't be in this position. Not that you shouldn't try. It's just a lonely vicious circle.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:13:38 2018 No.11927736 File: 67 KB, 700x526, 1538589173739.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11926785 I'll join you anon. Maybe It'll change me for the better.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:17:03 2018 No.11927753

>>11927715
i dont have a problem meeting people or making friends, i have a problem with maintaining relationships because I do psychotic shit and am almost always in a state of low level psychosis

taking to strangers is actually cathartic for me because they know nothing about me. part of why i like this website so much actually

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:17:40 2018 No.11927755

>>11926850
It is necessary, if you want to find purpose, to look for it. It may sound intuitive, but many intelligent people become defeated by a lack of purpose and clarity and fall to addiction, time wasting and doing something sub-optimal with their lives. It is absolutely necessary to grind your way through life reading, learning, searching for meaning. It takes some individuals decades to find it. But then, how could a purpose in life be worth anything less? Remember this, fren.
I haven't shared this yet, but I wrote my thoughts down about 5 years ago. It more or less is an expansion of what I said, with more doubt. I did end up finding hope after all, mind you.

"I don't expect to know what the purpose of the universe is and what my place in it entails. It would be viciously unreasonable to expect such a thing.

1/2. Stole this from another /lit/ anon

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:18:42 2018 No.11927758

>>11926850
But this uncertainty breeds pessimism. When one encounters a cross of paths, yet is unsure of which to follow, he will probably choose one at random. But what if that choice influenced something as important as your life? I would think one would take a moment to listen to those advising him to follow a certain path. However a conclusion cannot be reached, as in truth, no one knows what lies at the end of either path. So, what do we do? Often, in the process, we will be defeated by the prospect of having to choose a path. We ironically end up guaranteeing our demise by not making a choice, and at least giving ourselves a chance. I find myself watching days pass by and feeling a profound unease that I am wasting my time. I have not made a choice.

But how could I possibly make a choice? Should I guess? Have faith?

By doing so, I would at least have a chance. I would at least be able to live my live with some purpose and certainty. But, when I walk down a path, it is too easy to turn around, because I am not convinced that the path I chose is the right path. So I find myself returning to the crossroad, and again discussing which path is the correct one. I return to where I came. I am not certain, so do I wait? Waiting is wasting life, so do I guess? Guessing is not sustainable, so do I return?

I don’t know."

2/3* whoops.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:19:44 2018 No.11927760
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>>11926850
"It’s because I don’t know that I am so profoundly at odds with myself. It because I don’t know that I consistently find myself spending extended amounts of time doing something that will not benefit me further than immediate gratification. I believe this is the reason people fall to drugs. Develop addictions. Become basely animalistic and commit suicide.
It is what leads me to choosing to do unimportant things with my finite time instead of working on my degree, my family, my dreams. It is why I am writing this text.

I myself have not come up with an answer for this problem, but my father gave me some advice which lifts my unease.
He said that it is alright to not understand or know where I am, or where I am going. A lack of knowledge should not discourage you from pursuing it. However, chances stand that I may come to a conclusion later in my life. I may reach a higher perspective on life, and will be able to make a personal and definite decision in which I have full confidence. It is necessary, however, that I continue my hard work in order to make that fate possible. I will not reach any conclusion if I lay down and die like a dog. However the chance stands that I may reach a conclusion if I pursue it.

It seems I require to at least give myself a chance.

So that is what I will do. I will continue to pursue knowledge and ponder these fundamental questions, until I die. If I never reach a conclusion, so be it. But at least I tried, and I used my time in a way which gave me the best chance at enlightenment.
If I die with doubt in my heart, let it be not because I did not look, but because I did not find"

3/3 I hope this helped you as much as it helped me, brother.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:21:01 2018 No.11927773
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>>11927753
>taking to strangers is actually cathartic for me because they know nothing about me

I get along well with other painfully shy introverts. But we're always too introverted to ever find eachother. Oh well.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:23:51 2018 No.11927786

I struggle to learn how to interact with people. Not on an acquaintance level, but as friends or in serious relationships.
A coworker is obviously interested in me, and I in her. And that's where it ends. I don't know how to progress. Any recommended books?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:31:57 2018 No.11927826 >>11927760 Saved all 3 posts

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:35:28 2018 No.11927846 >>11927190 I feel like that too anon. I don't claim to be some special snowflake but I think a lot about how people live their own entire lives. It's so hard to fathom.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:38:51 2018 No.11927870 >>11927457 You already are, my son.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:39:49 2018 No.11927877

>>11926776
Around 6 this morning I felt a presence creeping around my bed and it held me at my bottom and at my neck. It didn't speak, but I could feel it ask if I wanted it to please me. Being a retard, I gave it some sort of affirmative and it proceeded to give me an erection and put me in some lucid like state where it felt as if I was having sex with a disembodied vagina. It forced me to cum all over my pajamas and then I felt that it left me in a way that its energy dissappeared by phasing out rather than leaving the room by going in a literal direction. Am I going insane lads? Everything else feels normal. Was it just a really realistic dream?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:40:05 2018 No.11927879 >>11927517 Legenadary quote.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:40:27 2018 No.11927882 >tfw have aspergers >have had two jobs before but had to leave them because interacting with people so often gave me paranoid delusion inducing panic attacks >dont know how im supposed to survive like this

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:43:11 2018 No.11927897

>>11926785
I’m trying to ween myself off it gradually. I’ve just started nofap video edition so I’m only fapping to drawings or pictures. If I can maintain this for a while I’ll jump to only tapping to drawings and then to text. After that I will try to only fap using my imagination and see if I can’t cut it off completely. Cutting it out all at once never seems to work for me and I think porn is the biggest issue in regards to fapping anyway.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:44:06 2018 No.11927903

>>11927846
There's wisdom in them. I've decided that at all times I will actively be pursuing any road until I wish to no longer. Gearing up to be a deckhand for any old merchant mariner company. Reading Moby Dick has kinda reminded me how much I love the sea and miss being on the East Coast.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:47:00 2018 No.11927924

>>11927877
I think you just stole my ghost wife :c

She's harmless. Just be nice to her and read quotes aloud before you go to bed.

You might feel something rubbing your shoulders but that only happened to me once. Don't get freaked out by it or she won't do it anymore. Or maybe I'm retarded.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:48:02 2018 No.11927930 >>11927903 meant for >>11927826

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:49:53 2018 No.11927938 Any Glasgow man in?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:50:59 2018 No.11927944 >>11927938 sup senpai

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:51:20 2018 No.11927947 I don't know why, but Mormon bicycle duos really piss me off

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:52:07 2018 No.11927953 File: 985 KB, 500x446, 05d2c5f0c108a2d693685be5b1d5f51e4a14bdc5f661d8fd31a0a1311b90f6e3.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I can't stop simultaneously having horrible fantasies about dropping out and procrastinating on all of my studies

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:52:17 2018 No.11927956 >>11927944 What's good boyo?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:53:31 2018 No.11927965 File: 648 KB, 1024x1024, junko swing.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11927877 >>11927924 I felt a ghost get into bed and lie down next to me once. It was nice, I wish she would come back.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:54:03 2018 No.11927970 >>11927956 nothing really, what about you

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:54:36 2018 No.11927975 >>11927903 Wish you the best. I'm finishing my schooling this year and have no idea where I am or where I am headed. Why didn't you go Coast Guard?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:55:38 2018 No.11927982 >>11927877 >>11927924 >>11927965 anyone else bundle up a blanket beside them in bed to pretend someone else is sleeping there just did it with a pillow in a hammock finishing notes from underground. only realized it because of Liza

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:56:08 2018 No.11927986 >>11927970 Shitposting around and procrastinating on school work. Fucking rain though.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:57:40 2018 No.11927997 I keep buying video games hoping I will enjoy them, but I never do. I wish I could fall into a coma until my mind is cured.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:57:46 2018 No.11927998 >>11927947 Same here, I can't help but glare at them whenever they pass by

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 18:58:46 2018 No.11928003 >>11927986 yeah i got soaked by a car racing through a puddle in the rain earlier kind of want more of that massive snowfall we had back in like march desu

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:00:45 2018 No.11928010 >>11928003 Hated that shit, uni closed couldn't revise in the library. Also tesco was out of milk. What degree are you doing?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:10:55 2018 No.11928049 There was an irish female author, who used to get shilled a tonne on this board about 3 years ago. Now that I've finally caught up on my backlog, I can't find any trace of her on the Internet as I can't remember her name.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:13:47 2018 No.11928058 >>11927173 >>11927418 i’m glad you guys see it that way, but the chick i ranted to probably thought i was being a “problematic,” i don’t doubt it at all

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:34:15 2018 No.11928131

>>11926776
Sitting in my Volkswagen Golf VI, I envision myself getting hit from the right side as I wait in line to pressure clean my vehicle. I can virtually feel my lumbar and thoracic spine brutally twisting into one another, ripping and squeezing apart their respective discs as my pelvis is too heavy to move from the seat quickly enough. The sheer force of the impact and my core’s inability, to properly stabilize my cervical spine as well as support the inner stability of the entire nervous strain, would most likely result in a severe trauma, which would none the less be preferable to life long spinal damage, excruciating pain and possible debilitation. I can almost feel the impact and I brace myself slightly but I don't panic, remaining calm I try to remind myself that it is merely fantasy. It’s working...

With a sense of slight relief I drive off after having thoroughly rinsed off the cleaning foam, my clothes, dirtier now than they were before. I want to drive slowly so that the water that has soaked the profile of my tires, doesn't immediately ruin the effort I put forth moments ago...To no avail, I know this even without looking. What a pointless waste of time. I am headed toward the highway, the sun is unusually hot and the sky is beautiful and tinted in a vivid pastellish light blue. Parking, I notice the distinct need to release pressure off my bladder and plan on doing so, knowing that my gym is just a three minute walk from here, I head there.

Working my way through the masses of so called people, is always a horrible experience, one simply should not set foot in the city on a Saturday afternoon, everytime I enter the pedestrian zone I feel a sense of dread, knowing, that this would be the most likely place for a terrorist to detonate his belt propped with plastic explosives. I wouldn't mind being killed, in the end, what would it matter - being exterminated from this Earth like an ant, who gets crushed by the left shoe worn by some chubby school kid, even if the insect could sense the foot of this gigantic amassment of matter, it would not be able to even come close to assessing the threat it is under - could there be a more merciful death?

People are enjoying themselves, to them, these thoughts are as foreign, as their seemingly endless desire to be as much of an obnoxious hindrance to everybody coming their opposite way, are to me. I want to be noticed, I think, why do I not remove my shirt, right here and now, what difference does it make? To me, being stared at, by people, their faces contorted, their thoughts and brains all locked onto me and deep inside somewhere in their brain, buried under every other visible and invisible display of awe, disgust and contempt, there are three words: “I Hate You!”

1/2

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:34:33 2018 No.11928133 >>11927982 I cuddle a pillow every night. Sometimes I put the pillow against my back so it feels like somebody is cuddling me.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:35:18 2018 No.11928136

>>11928131
“I am a narcissist, so what, we all are, nature wants us to be.” I think to myself but at the same time I am not completely certain of that. I am trying to buy a whetstone, my first address is an old interior's store, very traditional, moving to the first floor I am quickly and massively disappointed as I notice that they don't have any kind of whetstone, let alone the ones that I need.
What makes it worse that I feel like they need to have some and that it has just been my own inability to properly analyse the shelves, I slowly scan everything in the surroundings of the knives that are placed on each side of a big square, a part of the building itself, I have a hard time to do so and as I make turns around the section and it's neighbouring shelves, I don't give up just yet, the saleswoman that I initially saw, enters my field of view for the 4th time now and I am not only immeasurably disappointed and angry at the store, it's managers and the personnel for not offering me any help and just outright letting me know how poorly sorted they are, but also embarrassed at the fact that she must see me in the same light as a pretty girl waiting for her train to arrive, must see that ugly creep trying to catch her attention (of course the saleswoman must be in her 50s and she is hardly good looking, much less pretty). I feel embarrassed.
I leave the store with a slightly heightened pulse.
2/2

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:39:09 2018 No.11928158 >>11928058 Who cares what she thinks? I am not a woman hater but she seems like a dumb cunt. Most people are fucking retards, the best thing you can offer them is honesty. They might dislike you but at least you're genuine.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:52:53 2018 No.11928227 >>11928158 you’re right, thanks

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:54:57 2018 No.11928237 i need a woman. one i can marry.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:55:42 2018 No.11928238 >>11928237 Get in line pal.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 19:57:44 2018 No.11928245 >>11927390 wtf i love florida now

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:00:33 2018 No.11928261 >>11928237 never with that attitude. you want a woman to need you, you want a woman to want to marry you look into /sig/ on /pol/ and /fit/

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:11:49 2018 No.11928310

>>11928238
>>11928261
fuck guys i just want a little tenderness, some comfort for my flaming mortal brain. someone who accepts me, why is that so hard to find? i want to share my imagination with a lover and use that spark to generate new life. why’s everything gotta be so difficult and postmodern?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:13:09 2018 No.11928317 >>11928310 its hard to find because you arent putting yourself in a situation to be found or become the founder. what have you done to increase you chances of accomplishing your dream?

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:25:41 2018 No.11928354

>>11928317
recently i went out with a girl for a few months. she had been an old crush from high school and she happened to see me walking down the street outside her house so she added me on facebook and said we should hang out sometime. since then we must have been to about 5 concerts together, watched like 10 movies, jammed together, we even went on a road trip with her sister and her sister’s boyfriend. we had sex. i invited her to dinner and a movie, where she admitted she had a crush on some married dude and didn’t even think to ask about the status of our relationship. i just responded with “oh yeah i have a crush too,” like we were just friends. that’s been about 3 weeks ago and she hasn’t contacted me for any reason since then. i went with a hooker last week. i’m on tinder constantly, which has been successful for me in the past but it tends to invalidate any sort of long term relationship. this isn’t really something where you have a goal and you can work towards that goal because women will always be able to just twist everything their way because they think they’re a “shot” for us instead of a real partner.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:27:53 2018 No.11928363

>>11928310
>a little tenderness, some comfort for my flaming mortal brain, i want to share my imagination with a lover and use that spark to generate new life

stop it anon, you're just reminding me of somebody I used to know who I thought was perfect for me. It's making me sad.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:28:33 2018 No.11928366
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>read a horror manga
>"oh boy i hope i get scarred for life"
>characters are hot
>rather than scarred i want to fuck them
>me wanting to fuck them makes me empathize with the antagonist
great, this always happens when there are attractive people in something

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:31:47 2018 No.11928374

>>11928354
not my experience at all. Ive had a series of girls that I dated each for like 2 years or so. Extremely intense and turbulent relationships, that just kind of bled into each other.

There was one girl who didnt want to date me, she just sort of used me for a while and then went off. This really bothered me, she seemed at first to be falling in love with me, and she told me she was, but then I guess she wasnt. She had a mental condition so maybe that's how that happened.

because of how deeply obsessive i get about girls i havent hooked up with very many of them, casual sex is just sad and empty to me

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:34:07 2018 No.11928384 >>11928366 which manga anon?

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:39:23 2018 No.11928395

I do this in every thread, it's called shitposting.

Anyways, I was reading Kierkegaard's notes regarding his falling out with Regine Olson, and he said something to the effect of "She either loves me or hates me, there can be no third option." Based on the strong emotions people in romantic relationships have for one another, I'd say that Regine felt a mix of the two, as for anyone else who has been slighted by a loved one. Not to mention, there is a third category of ambivalence, which we have all been on the receiving end of at one point or another, which I think is the most profoundly exhausting.

I've been thinking recently about the fragility of our relationships, and how quickly this transition from love to hate or interest to ambivalence occurs; all of social interaction really is a gamble, and all of life really is seeking respite between tragedies. One day you're in love, the next (for one reason or another) you cease to "love" the other person, who cannot help it or simply does not care to help it, either themselves having fallen out of love already or having completely left themselves vulnerable to their partner, for the sake of the aforementioned respite between tragedies.

This seems like rambling but I thought about some things while writing it, which helped.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:40:28 2018 No.11928401
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>>11928384
A trail of blood
A fury in denial who likes japanese wrestling recently recommended it and compared it to silent hill. While it is pretty good (it's more like a thriller than a horror, think of twin peaks without the ghost i think there is no ghost so far ) however, rather than being afraid i want to bone the protagonist's mom, love intrest, and the protagonist's boypussy

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:44:21 2018 No.11928420 File: 49 KB, 400x400, 1530691850281.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11928401 i'll check it out, thanks anon.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:47:10 2018 No.11928430
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i got the worst case of chiggers ive ever had because i bathed in a ditch.the itch.... its bad,not like a toothache but because it's an itch it compels action,hard to be stoic about an itch.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:50:36 2018 No.11928446 >>11928430 what the hell are chiggers

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:52:51 2018 No.11928457 >>11928446 Chinese niggers >>11928430 Iktf I had chiggers a couple months ago, still have big ass scars running down my leg

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 20:59:05 2018 No.11928478 >>11926789 t. NPC

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:04:42 2018 No.11928501 >>11928446 Lives in a box and never goes outside

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:05:10 2018 No.11928504 >>11927953 I really really like your gif anon. Thank you for sharing it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:11:11 2018 No.11928524 >>11928374 I was going to make a thread about this. Is there anything anons ITT would recommend to read about this feel?

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:13:25 2018 No.11928534 >>11926776 Ass Titties Ass and titties Ass ass Tittiestitties Ass and titties

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:13:39 2018 No.11928535 >>11928524 portrait of the artist as a young man, young man

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:15:29 2018 No.11928542 >>11928535 Thanks.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:19:29 2018 No.11928558
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>>11926789
>System.out.println("As to the NPC meme: Everyone wants to feel superior to someone. It's nearly a fundamental drive of human nature, even, to say to yourself, "I might have gotten the short end of the stick but at least I'm not that sorry sod." Who do you condescend to when you are at the bottom of the food chain yourself? A social plankton, grass to be mowed? Why you scorn the normal everyday person, the statistical average composite of the contemporary mass cultural expression. Because in your wretchedness at least that decrepitude marks you as unique. The outcast takes a bile-filled, acidic bitter pride in otherness.");

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:23:10 2018 No.11928571 I really should disconnect the internet cable to stop my mind from wandering when I want to read.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 21:25:18 2018 No.11928578 >>11928571 You are better over the long run learning self control. I am still learning, but it feels amazing to say "I am doing to do this right now" and do it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 22:05:27 2018 No.11928742 File: 30 KB, 1010x870, 1536478846097.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] i dont get it

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:07:09 2018 No.11928986
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Now that I work outside fulltime the winter it gives me a sort of meloncholy with bittersweet feelings of heartbreak and the women I lost through my foolish ideals of what could be. The cold is a woman I welcome and love but a painfull reminder of my flaws.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:08:32 2018 No.11928990 File: 31 KB, 306x306, wojy.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I was gonna post "I forgot what I was going to post," but then I remembered what I was going to post, but now I don't really feel like typing it out.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:09:34 2018 No.11928995 >>11926789 It seems to be a bunch of STEMfags and code monkeys propagating it.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:21:17 2018 No.11929034
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The girl im working with for a project in psychology class is a goddamn cutie and she's fun to talk to. I want to spend more time with her.

After 5 years of being unable to make any new meaningful relationship, this is a nice feel

Meds + Therapy seems to be working

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:22:41 2018 No.11929040 >>11927924 >>11927877 I've been reading A LOT of lesbian ghost erotica lately and I regret nothing.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:24:31 2018 No.11929046 >>11926776 butts 'n fatt azz tiddies

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:27:19 2018 No.11929053 I'm extremely lonely, and every piece of media I consume reminds me of my isolation. I can only read for short periods of time, can't focus on anything, and can't stop eating. Nothing ever changes.

Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:51:59 2018 No.11929138

>>11929053
me too m8. Except I drink instead of eat. Ive been feeling quite peaceful lately though, well it varies a lot throughout the day, like immensely. I have long waves of up and down throughout the seasons, but I also have this daily flux and multiple day or week pattern as well. It's immensely fucking confusing.

The problem is that tbeing with other people doesn't make you feel less alone when you don't even know where the actual you has gone off too. Intimacy when youre a zombie is no intimacy at all, whereas even total isolation when you can feel your human self is loving and united.

>>	Anonymous Sat Oct 13 23:54:25 2018 No.11929146 slacking on obligations made to myself yet somehow the attempt shows i'm in the right direction

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 00:01:16 2018 No.11929173 >>11929053 Same. Except I can't eat anything I was going to the gym regularly and making good progress but then I got worse mentally and emotionally and lost my appetite and all my progress

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 00:05:40 2018 No.11929188 >>11927773 Lain is lame.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 00:32:04 2018 No.11929285

>>11926776
In the end I'll never find peace.

Life is just a series of struggle after struggle. I can't stop it. I can't find myself.
And I can't find love.

Maybe love would help. I usually thinks a lot about some faces. Faces that I lost, that I should had said how much I love. How much joy I have from seeing it and how much I adore to make that face smile, yes, with presents, but why not, with love too.

Maybe I'm thinking too much. Live one day after the other, but it's very difficult.

I can't end everything. I had my chances and I lost it. Now I can't go back to that.

Maybe one day, we'll meet again. And at that day, I can say how much I adore you. Maybe that day I'll find myself.

Maybe...

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 04:34:20 2018 No.11930012
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I think I've come to realize the girl I'm in love with isn't a very good person.
There are honestly numerous things I could talk about, but my mind goes to when she was telling me of her previous relationship, something along the lines of
>I hated being with him. I cheated on him, I thought it was funny to cheat on him
Paraphrased, but the same idea.
It just showed such a lack of care, of kindness, of duty to be a good person.
And she doesn't really show me the care I do for her. I see I've been a pushover cuck essentially, doing every favor when she asked. Trying to help her with her problems, seldom bothering her with my own, but I did it all out of what was a blind love. I do love her, but I'm not sure my love is not somewhat false. I don't know if I love her truly, or the projected idealized version.
I've been lonely for so long that I think I allowed myself to be drawn in too deep to her. I feel stuck. I can't progress anything for fear of losing her, she is really the only person I talk to, although lately she has been talking to me less and being more cold.

I am highly particular about making new friends, allowing myself to care for another, because most of the relationships in my life have always been temporary. The past few years I have avoided making any new connections for the dislike I have when the connection fades, always with a whimper

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 05:18:17 2018 No.11930182

>>11926776
I got fired tonight, my own big dumb mouth getting ahead of my slow wits, bitched myself right out the door, hard to know what the next move is, got some time to think about it, might just take the winter off, catch up on all that reading I've been putting off, read two novels by Michel Houellebecq this week cover to cover, "Whatever," and, "The Elementary Particles," it wasn't hard, they were short and briskly written, real page turners, thanks for the recommendations /lit/, I like it when I'm reading a book-novel, essays, political treatise, whatever-and the author refers to a writer whose work I've familiarized myself with, it helps grasp the material being presented while deepening and enriching the legacy of the former's contributions, I've accumulated an ample stack over the past few months, told myself I wouldn't buy more books or movies after my last purge of used media and now here I sit with a shelf full of videos and a table covered in books, loneliness got the better of me yet again, drove me towards the therapeutic consolation of philosophy, to borrow from Boethius, I read that years ago, haven't thought about it much since

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 05:27:22 2018 No.11930200 File: 80 KB, 1160x650, dick.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Gwhen Stefani is like: THIS SHIT IS BANANAS, B-A-N-A-N-A-S. THIS SHIT IS BANANAS, SUCK ON MY BOYFRIEND'S BANANA!!!!!! Because she's describing sucking dick

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 05:28:45 2018 No.11930201 >>11926776 Rustling sheets temper Lacquered lumber illumines Cold wind's redolence

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 06:15:28 2018 No.11930333 File: 10 KB, 567x405, 1533354886833.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11929034 Happy for you bruh, it's a such a good, rewarding feel when you can turn around and say honestly that you're happy with your life

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 06:31:11 2018 No.11930364 >>11926789 I wanted to be the worst of all humanity but npcs became an obstacle.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 06:37:04 2018 No.11930379 >>11926789 Or perhaps it's the realization of psychology as a tool for control.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 06:58:44 2018 No.11930432 >>11928133 I too hug a pillow every night but only because I haven't found a comfortable position for my arm (if I'm sleeping on my side) so I need the pillow to sorta support my arm. Ideally this pillow would be replaced by a woman of course.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 07:01:35 2018 No.11930437
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I think got too stressed out and broke my stress box.
I've been in a nerve wreaking anxious state over a date I'm supposed to be having tonight but now I feel super relaxed, but that's probably on the account of the fact that I went over so many different scenarios of utter failure in my head that I've basically given up on all chances of success !

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 07:18:27 2018 No.11930474 >>11928742 me neither dude

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 09:04:56 2018 No.11930727 >>11929034 Same but coworker Don't know what to do. Good luck anon. Wish you the best.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 10:15:07 2018 No.11930976 Is there a clean distinction between autism and passion? Clearer: Is it possible to be passionate about any random topic, without someone rightfully calling you the internet kind of autistic for it? hard mode: don't strawman me

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 11:37:02 2018 No.11931289

I live in NC and the weather really, really shifted since Thursday. When the hurricane was affecting us it was pretty hot and humid as expected. I stepped outside with my dogs and started sweating (to be fair I dislike heat and like colder weather so the American South is a nightmare). Next morning not ten hours later I step outside to 50f. My soles got chilly.

Our worst forecasted high will be 79f. Normal for now but the shift was mental. Hot then not.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 11:52:04 2018 No.11931343 >>11926776 I'm too smart/a pussy to do stupid thing and too stupid to do anything smart. Being a manual worker really helped me to enjoy literature and art in general again. >tfw 30yo in a week

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 11:52:29 2018 No.11931347

>>11931289
I've started smoking cigarettes in my little office room where I do my writing like a ornery Frenchman. I don't care anymore, but in a liberating way. I'm not so much letting myself go as I'm letting life play out how it wants. Who wants to be a hobbled disgrace, constantly telling himself no to every unhealthy desire?

It's the ironic contradiction of a materialist culture. Every pleasure and vice is arrayed before you in dripping ecstasy all for you to tell yourself no and feel accomplished for stifling your urges. We see advertisements for "guilt free" snacks just like Zizek's chocolate laxative. Vapes are marketed (falsely) as a healthy substitute for smoking cigarettes. The ideal would be a slice of cake that makes you lose weight.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 11:58:20 2018 No.11931375 >>11931347 Don't know why I posted this as a reply to >>11931289 must've been a misclick

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 12:11:29 2018 No.11931432
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>tfw I finished my comps after a year of pretty much solely reading for them 24/7 + writing a massive onerous article I didn't want to write
>tfw done as of two days ago
>tfw walking around in circles reading carlyle
>tfw watching 4 episodes of TNG in a row
>tfw watching random documentaries at will and not feeling guilty for wasting 2 hours that I could have spent collating notes
>tfw free (for now)

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 12:12:49 2018 No.11931443

>>11931375

A bit ironic because you started smoking and I stopped this week. Finally put my pipe, matches, tool, and cleaning stuff in a small wooden box and stored it away. Couldn't justify the, even minimal, damage to my lungs or the, even small, cost.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 12:20:17 2018 No.11931480

Good evening, anons. How are you?

My lovely gf is skinning a orange for me, while watching a stupid spanish Netflix drama. Life is pretty crazy, right?

I have some things to do, but ideally I wish I could just stay by her side for the whole week. I guess that's life, too.

I'm also really craving for a cigarrette.

Wish you all a great week!

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 12:21:04 2018 No.11931486 >>11926776 where can I find more beautiful artistically pianted/photographed ladies such as this one? asking for a friends

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:01:31 2018 No.11931724 >>11931443 Good job. I've quit many times. It's ultimately a habit. If I go one day without one I can go a lifetime without it. I just enjoy my vices. I'm burning the candle on both ends and enjoying every second of it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:02:53 2018 No.11931733 >>11926776 I am a husk of a human being. I wonder if I will ever manage to do anything again. I know I used to do things.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:27:33 2018 No.11931857
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Is there really a healthy way to use the internet? I wan't to unplug but I don't want to be completely socially retarded when I haven't kept up with...well, anything. The internet is where I get news, memes, it's how I talk to friends and family. But at the same time I feel like it's destroying my motivation to do much of anything else. The internet is always my go to reason for procrastinating. Should I really unplug completely and just let myself sit in my room, alone in the quiet? I just can't understand how anyone would get any sort of real writing or reading done when the internet is always so close at hand.

Lately I've wished that my room was completely empty and I could just sit in the middle of it.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:39:06 2018 No.11931915

>>11931857
Anon, I wish my words help you in some way.

On my way of viewing things, life is a matter of two things: equilibrium, and making the most out of the little time we have on this earth.

I don't think you should just "unplug". That's way too radical, and like you already said, the internet is a beautiful gift. 4chan is a beautiful gift. You have to set your priorities, and create virtuous habits and cycles: you won't go from 0 to 100 in a matter of days, as life is a eternal learning process.

To do this, you have to be calm, and councious of your present position in life.

I'm not the most elevated person on this earth, and I'm trying to put the things that I just told you in action. I'm not anxious to do it, I'm just doing.

I wish you a good week. Live on my dude

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:42:11 2018 No.11931937

After struggling to even get 400 words written yesterday I had a moment of insight and banged out 400 in just the last hour. It took a lot of work and drudgery to make it through the first part but eventually I wrote something from that hard work. What I wrote inspired me to go a different direction than I had outlined. So now my novel has fundamentally changed but the flow is so much smoother. I'm happy I just let go instead of being an autist about my "perfectly outlined" book.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:46:34 2018 No.11931966 File: 1.61 MB, 1920x1080, 1538701335184.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] fall lightning fall

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 13:54:49 2018 No.11932009 >>11926776 This is probably the worst I've felt in years I can't tell if I'm getting fat or just bored I only feel comfortable in my skin when I'm drinking

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 14:42:30 2018 No.11932228

>>11926785
First day was a piece of cake as I expected.
I fear tomorrow thought as I will be surrounded by women.
Hopefully limiting the use of technology will help.

No significant change obviously, maybe I was a little more productive but nothing to write home about.

See ya tomorrow.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 14:46:58 2018 No.11932247 >>11931343 >Being a manual worker really helped me to enjoy literature and art in general again. How? Legit curious

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 14:59:35 2018 No.11932302

My friends are getting wonderful jobs, they are ambitious, I am sore loser who spites them for having fun, I am a bitter moron who things he's superior just because he knows a few trivia's when in truth, I am a retarded piece of shit that faps nonstop. I am a moron who could do better yet stays in some backwater college, studying for an IT degree while there could be more to life than this.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 15:03:38 2018 No.11932321

My proficiency in English still not so good to engage really engage a conversation with people who are native to this language.
I am studying English on a course, and my teacher say that my English is good enough to engage in a conversation, but I don't have the necessary confidence to speak (especially 'cause I'm a perfectionist).

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 15:08:22 2018 No.11932348 >>11926776 I don't want it to be so late.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 15:17:04 2018 No.11932385 >>11932302 At least you're aware of all of this and not delusional about yourself.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 15:49:08 2018 No.11932532

>>11926829
I've put something into writing every week for a few years now. It's basically all first-draft dreck fantasy. I still like to imagine that my stories carry some emotion though. One about a nomad girl who sold her relationship with her family in exchange for a chance at an education, another about an ancient scribe basically exiled to a foreign land.

But it's definitely not about puffing myself up enough to think that I'm the next great novelist as much as it's about keeping myself on the rails that keep me functional as a human being.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 15:55:50 2018 No.11932566

>>11932532
Someone said the best writers are humble and self-doubting. If you're an arrogant braggart you'll think every garbled half-thought you write will be the wisdom of the Almighty.

I've seen countless arrogant, halfhearted writers claim they are on a mission from the divine. Don't believe it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 15:59:27 2018 No.11932582 Getting mighty weary of people acting ironically.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:02:53 2018 No.11932595

>>11926776
A woman's being naked has no relation whatsoever to her eagerness to have intercourse. A progressive and appropriate name for that painting should've been " Girl by the water." Naming it "The water nymph" is very problematic and as such this painting is trash. Very unfortunate.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:03:27 2018 No.11932600

It's kind of fucked up how reality is designed to not come to terms with what is. I've come to terms that things don't come to terms with how they are. It's quite good that it's not good. Excitement and tension is creeping up because it's not the way it is supposed to be. Ideal is the wrong possibility we live up to. Ideals keep us alive. Possibility provides wars. Wars are what makes me calm. Wars show me that after all I have never been insane. Wars and killing make psychoanalysis a joke and a truth at the same time.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:03:48 2018 No.11932603 >>11932595 im going to go ahead and say that deliberately getting naked does correlate with wanting sex

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:05:45 2018 No.11932609 Water isn't we. Because wetness wouldn't exist without dryness, so it's possible for water and wetness to exist seperately.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:09:15 2018 No.11932618 Tim Heidegger and Eric Horkheimer

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:16:42 2018 No.11932651

>>11932595
You're being racist against water nymphs which means you wanted Daphne to get raped by Apollo instead of turning into a tree. And who are you to dictate the sexual mores of water nymphs anyways? I bet you spazz out that Lise, the best water nymph, looked at Renoir like that, because you can't cope with it. You're just a fascist trying to blame fortune for your ineptitude. Get off my Ovid reading forum, gb2Seneca.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:19:20 2018 No.11932659 >>11932609 It called ice

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:21:51 2018 No.11932676 >>11932595 >implying Hylas wanted to be raped not the other way around Highly problematic, why are you saying gay males want women to kidnap and gang bang them? Are you Christian?

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:26:12 2018 No.11932693
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Where did my motivation for law school go? For the past two years I have been dedicated and burned the candle at both ends to get good grades, to work, to be on journal. I have a year left and I'm not working or doing journal anymore and I'm a lazy fuck now. I watch youtube videos and play hearth stone and shitpost. I was reading books before that weren't law textbooks when I was completely overwhelmed. I used to work out. Why do I do nothing? I'm not good at guitar, writing, or anything. Every legal topic has been written about, and I'll never get published. Whats the point? How am I going to pay this debt? Will I pass the bar? Oh god, the bar. Where did my motivation go? If it's Aristotle shit, then my habits failed and my will power is weak. Maybe I should go lift and it'll force me to go to campus and be productive. Everyone in school thinks I'm the eccentric smart guy that works and drinks too much. I feel like a complete fraud and failure. Why can't I control my drinking once I start drinking? I just keep going. I can't just have two. But I don't want to be the generic sober asshole. Why is the girl so shy? She texts me every day, but after the first date she's always been busy with school like I was last year. Why can't I fix my sleep? I've never missed this much class before in my life. I can't get to sleep and when I finally do, I can't wake up. THERE'S A FEDERAL JUDGE AS THE PROFESSOR. He is brilliant, but I can't even bother to get up on time to go anymore. Fuck. FUCK. FUCK. GOD DAMN IT. What am I going to do when I graduate? Everyone else has real work experience for long periods of time. I've barely worked. Shit. No one at school even gives a shit about books either. I keep buying books and not reading them. Fuck.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:28:11 2018 No.11932704 >tfw want to discuss a book im reading but afraid of some mean anon spoiling the ending for me >inb4 hurr pleb reading for plot

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:34:06 2018 No.11932734

>>11932247
it's the contrast.
Because spending half of the day dirtying hands while yelling with coworkers without the need to talk about lit and art (even if i think a lot about literature*) refreshes the mind,
My spare time is almost all lit related (habits are habits) but even if, cause work, the quantity of books is drastically decresed the enjoyment is higher than ever.

*the other day a young chick, our new entry, comes to me with a bottle in the hand and says "here's anon, for you, some h2o." waiting my reaction. I laughed for an hour for this involuntary Buddenbrook's quote thinking that what is young at the end of 1800 is also young at the start of 2000.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:37:18 2018 No.11932746 I am fucking enlightened

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:39:26 2018 No.11932756 voting doesn't matter

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:41:33 2018 No.11932769

>>11932609
Ah! A fellow philosopher! Why it is the classic composition by identity conundrum.

*puffs on pipe*

When does a collection of pebbles become a mound of pebbles? Is there a moment when you add one more pebble and it goes from not-mound to mound?

Same can be inquired about the composition of the body. Though we are mostly water by weight, we are not water by organization. The sum is greater than the parts!

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:43:53 2018 No.11932780 >>11932756 Look at this fuck, playing straight into the hands of those in power. Yeah sweetie, vOtInG dOeSn'T mAtTeR.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:44:41 2018 No.11932783 >>11932780 voting is a joke. Why do people vote one way or the other? Because of what the press tells them

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:46:10 2018 No.11932790 >>11926785 i just jacked off after a week and 1 day. felt amazing and i was howlin like a wolf to a moon. not a tinge of regret

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:48:41 2018 No.11932805 >>11932783 And how do you suggest we become informed alternatively?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:49:54 2018 No.11932811 >>11932805 i dont suggest anything, power is and always will by a pyramid, with masses of serfs and a small elite

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:51:18 2018 No.11932820 >>11932805 /pol/ Just kidding. Read books. Listen to lectures by top academics. The information is out there it's just not put out where everybody can see.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 16:57:18 2018 No.11932834

Im writting a short book about Calhoun's mice experiment and its relation or overcrowding/'use-case' for men in our society and the general depression caused by this development
the only problem is, as a highschool student, my writing was always mediocre (60-85% for marks) and people who where straight A students wrote in such eloquent ways that still haunts me to this day, bouts of incompetence and minor depression flows and ebbs

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:05:48 2018 No.11932876 >>11928558 based

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:16:50 2018 No.11932932 >>11932693 Are u me?

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:17:16 2018 No.11932935

The idea of love, rarely anyone questions where it came from, is it at all real...or just desire... desire for posession, breeding instincts, wanting to be liked, desired.
If it is can it be "turned off" as conscious human beings we should be able to control our urges and needs, and chose how we act, think or even feel.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:22:26 2018 No.11932969 >>11932693 Anon, maybe what I wrote here >>11931915 in response to the other anon can help you in any way. I wish it does. Have a good week!

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:24:08 2018 No.11932977

I bought a bottle of Jägermeister to sip on during the cool weeks ahead and the cashier lady literally winced at me. As if she was physically horrified that someone would drink Jägermeister neat. I did not also purchase, you see, red bull to make the college bro standby Jagerbomb. I drink it warm too when you're supposed to serve it chilled which causes others to screw their faces up as if they had sniffed weekend old roadkill.

But Jägermeister is a fine drink, it tastes and smells of the forest, an herbal concoction of 52 herbs and spices.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:26:23 2018 No.11932993 >go on the internet to look at images of an object of interest to me >An example of said object is sitting right next to me outside my cone of vision

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:27:59 2018 No.11933006

>>11932932
I don't know anon, how's things going for you? We are supposed to be champions of justice and all that right? heh.
>>11932969
Thanks anon. I just need to take a deep breath. I appreciate your words.

I guess I'm gonna go work out and trap myself in the library for a while. Thanks y'all.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:29:23 2018 No.11933014 >>11932790 I was expecting you to complain, but you didn't. You're alright. Masturbating is a nice relief.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:31:00 2018 No.11933026 >>11932756 in general voting may not matter, but clearly voting for trump matters because the entire american establishment came out telling you that you must NOT under any circumstances for that man

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:32:11 2018 No.11933039

>>11933006
Actually, both responses were my own. Your post moved me as much as the other anon's post. Glad to have helped.

I'm doing fine my dude, thanks for asking. Gonna meditate and study to a exam after responding you. Gf just left my house, so life just started again.

I don't study Law, so I don't think I aspire to be a champion of justice heheh I'm studying Economics, which is basically the best major you can get.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 17:34:56 2018 No.11933049

>>11932693
same thing happening to me but with much lower stakes, i have a shitty low tier pseudo academic job at some shit tier school which i used to take fairly seriously at least more so than the other bottom feeding mongs they tend to hire which is why they pay me slightly more than the other bottom feeding mongs who are all jealous of my slightly higher (but still poverty tier pay) which means i need to be on guard from ppl tryna take my spot, but this semester i just stopped doing some of my busy work tasks, i still do the day to day actual work, but like all the administrative trivialities i just havent been doing, the dean even called me up and in a much nicer tone than she talks with most of her underlings and peons kindly reminded me to stay on task, but i just ... idk, i just ... i would prefer not to

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:03:14 2018 No.11933195 >>11926776 Cigarettes After Sex is a comfy band. The tone is helping me write prose better.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:06:16 2018 No.11933214 File: 50 KB, 1280x128, Screenshot_20181015-010335_1.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Please tell me academia had not switched to "she" as the the universal pronoun. Is this a new trend?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:06:45 2018 No.11933216 >>11933195 I can no longer listen to them since seeing the drummer's twitter. He's the worst edgy pretentious fag you can imagine and tries to bully Tao Lin.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:07:03 2018 No.11933219 >>11933214 CS and probably other STEM texts switched over years ago my dude

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:08:50 2018 No.11933230 >>11933195 john wayne is a nice song also apocalypse

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:08:56 2018 No.11933231 >>11933214 most of the worlds population is female it only makes sense they're poc too

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:11:39 2018 No.11933250 >>11933219 What really?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:12:34 2018 No.11933255 >>11933214 academia doesn't apply any rule universally. some writers will use she and he interchangeably, others will use they exclusively, some stick to he and some edgelords use only she.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:22:35 2018 No.11933307 >>11932993 Something similar happened to me yesterday. I wanted to find a passage from Rocannon's World, so I looked for a .pdf online, but I couldn't find the whole book for free. Then I remembered that it was on my bookshelf, but I didn't go get it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:23:02 2018 No.11933313 File: 42 KB, 1280x91, Screenshot_20181015-012151_1.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11933214 REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:24:51 2018 No.11933321 >>11933214 >>11933313 I've read some texts that use both pronouns. It actually makes sense, because it allows the writer to differentiate two people while still only using pronouns.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:32:08 2018 No.11933355
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I used to be an Islamophobe and read Houellebecq's Soumission hoping that it would validate my views, but instead it undermined them to the degree that I am now becoming increasingly Islamophilic.

I feel tricked.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:32:29 2018 No.11933356 >>11933230 Young & Dumb is my current jam

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>>11926776
The hidden /pol/ discord is UpMcQmT we have over 5000 members and are growing.

It has to stay hidden or (((discord))) will shut it down. As far as discord knows its a Minecraft discord.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 18:36:21 2018 No.11933368 >>11933359 a discord server that has nigger spammed more than the amount of times it's ever been verbally said isn't really disguised as a minecraft discord

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>>11933014
yeah i always end up doing it about once a week on average. i always say, woo woo, look at me, i'm gonna do like a couple months of semen retention and get big and strong and be the supreme alpha male on the black. but, yea, after a week, it always happens and i end up not really caring

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 19:05:31 2018 No.11933479 >>11928478 As predictable as my next shit

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 19:07:12 2018 No.11933491 I didn't understand what shielding yourself behind a layer of irony meant until I paid more attention to how people use Discord. It's like every statement there is shrouded in some half-joke for no reason. It wears me out.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 19:09:52 2018 No.11933504 >>11933491 Be thankful you don't have to interact with people like that in real life. Nearly everyone I know talks that way and I'm starting to catch myself doing it as well.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 19:16:04 2018 No.11933522

>>11933491
haha wew anon sounds like you just had a sincere thought, that'll be going straight into my cringe compilation haha make sure you don't do it again you're making us all uncomfortable haha.

I feel you bro. Though it's beginning to pass from weariness into straight up anger for me, one day someone's going to make an ironic self-deprecating joke or something near me and I'm going to snap, I can feel it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 19:17:21 2018 No.11933529 >>11933355 An uncoercive rearrangement of desire—that's poetry.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 19:27:30 2018 No.11933606

I am increasingly successful in my professional life and completely stagnant (meaning regressing relative to the passage of time) in my personal life. It's so easy to 'succeed' and functionally disappear in this world. Stay out of financial trouble, don't do drugs or commit crime, and barring medical issues, you can coast along until death. Imagine doing everything you are supposed to and living and dying tragically. That truly is a world devoid of hardship.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:01:11 2018 No.11933797 would you fuck me when im dead?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:06:43 2018 No.11933826 >>11933039 >>11933049 I went to the gym and did good even though I've been slacking. Keep it up y'all. Time to plow through labor law.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:16:14 2018 No.11933882

>>11933214
This annoys me because people used know ships were hers, and mother tongues are female and fatherland's male, and blond and blonde denote the gender. Now people call the Catholic Church it like she is not the Bride of Christ, and nobody knows you always refer to a barrister as though a gentleman.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:17:36 2018 No.11933890 I've always loathed anti-natalists, yet the older (and more jaded) I become the more I begin to realize that maybe they're right after all. What's more is that I think my disdain towards them comes from the fact I don't want to accept this.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:19:45 2018 No.11933901

>>11932780
for decades, voting either republican and democrat has done jack shit to put checks on the people in power or actually change the status quo in any meaningful way. nothing really changes, there was a time when this could be prevented (so sure voting can matter) but time has long passed.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:23:56 2018 No.11933921

>>11933890

That's funny, I've been an anti-natalist for a long time and have come to realize that maybe the reasons for my being so are much more selfish than I wanted to admit at first.
I still think there are valid points that can't easily be dismissed or disproven, but I'm wondering if the microcosm of my life doesn't have a more profound impact on my adoption of that philosophy than any like views of ethics/morals I may have.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:36:20 2018 No.11933969

>>11926855
It isn't exactly "doting betas" that provide them with the financial support to indulge their excesses, they work for tips in the service industry where they often make hundreds of dollars a night provided by people who still see them as little girls despite the fact their in their mid-20's and steeped in debt, and who doesn't want to help a little princess buy herself a new pony?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:40:26 2018 No.11933988 >>11933826 I just broke my OHP stall today

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:44:15 2018 No.11934007

This old ashtray has developed a funk.

When I found it down here, I colored in the chipped portions and glazed them with clear nail polish. It has a cool Native American/Hispanic style "andinkra" on it, like a weird butterfly.

I clean it often and don't let the butts pile up, ya' know, like a G-man on a sting, but it is starting to stink. I cleaned it well with soap, water, and Lysol, but it hasn't made a difference.

It only happens briefly when I put out a smoke, but it's a noticeable musk.

Maybe it's rotting.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:49:50 2018 No.11934046 >>11933988 Nice. been out of the gym for like 4 months. I'm finally back to a pl8 for squat. 115 for bench. Up to 30 minutes of cardio. And my arms are lookin' jooocy from all the high rep bro shit I do after the god lifts.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 20:52:18 2018 No.11934062 >>11932935 Human are totally fucked without love

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:09:35 2018 No.11934155
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This novel for the NoNoWriMo is kicking my ass. Not only do i have to learn about law school, the culture surrounding it, and hercules' 12 labor, but i have to do it all before november 1. I'm also juggling college in between all of this (it's a community college but shut up i'm poor)

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:11:41 2018 No.11934167 >>11934155 What do you want to know about law school? 3L at a mediocre US school here.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:15:33 2018 No.11934192
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>>11934167
basically the experience of a first year. I've been watching lectures to get a feel of the class and reading snipits of law textbooks to understand what material they have to study. Essentially i'm turning myself into a first year law student for 2 months to see how it feels and then writing it down.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:20:50 2018 No.11934224 >>11933826 keep it going my dude. winning day after day

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:25:11 2018 No.11934250 tana french's new book is interesting so far

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:28:00 2018 No.11934268

>>11934192
The experience varies for many people. You are trapped with 60-100 people for the entire first year. These become your classmates. The people you befriend and the people you hate. About 20% of these people do not come back after the first semester. They either drop out, get kicked out, or did well enough to transfer to another school. The set classes for the first year are basically the same for every school. You learn about contracts, torts, criminal law, constitutional law, federal civil procedure, property, and legal writing. Now because the background of the students differ you have quite a few avenues of how people deal with law school. A large chunk of students are type A personalities, meaning they come from a 4.0 background and always win at things. These people either become gunners (annoying people that talk too much in class to show off what they know or to argue with others or to talk about something not relevant to class) or they become depressed and average, sometimes they even give you wrong information to sabotage your experience. Grading is based on a curve, it is not an objective score but is based on how well others did compared to you. This is shocking at first. I only got 40 out of 100 questions correct but I got the A in the class? NONE OF US KNOW TORTS FOR SHIT. The testing procedures are also really only regulated by the law schools, so the idea of standardization, studies showing how people learn, all that garbage is thrown out the window. Some professors even refuse to teach to the bar exam because 'we want you to learn how to think like lawyers.' Some people come straight from under grad, these people can be very book smart, but are generally fucking idiots with no real life experience. Then there are the people with life experience, these people are generally more bitter and forget how learning works and don't do as well as others. Again these are all generalizations, there are exceptions to everything. Then there are night students who work 40 hours a week and take longer to graduate, many of these people realize how stupid that was and quit their job and are thrown in with the rest of us. The entire method of learning in law school is based on some ivy league asshole from the 1800 who thought that there was a law beyond what was in cases, that the black letter law was floating in the aether, and that by selecting the .01% of cases that define that floating ideal, we can extract what the law is. This is total horse shit because it forces constant updating of over priced textbooks due to how the law changes in some fields compared to others. So you have all this reading of cases and your told to extract it from you so that the bastardization of the 'Socratic' method can be used. This is composed of a professor who has read the cases 30 times harassing you and question you as to what size shoe the defendant wore and what the different interpretations of the rule from the case could be.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:38:50 2018 No.11934326

>>11934268
But in the end what they test you on is the black letter law. This being the generalized rule of say, what is negligence? Duty, causation, breach, damages. But first they want you to read 20 cases about how that doesn't work for a multitude of fact scenarios. I forgot to mention that the text books are all about the exceptions to the rules and not the general rules themselves. This is aggravating because in practice you rarely will have these types of situations where a bowling ball flies off a roof and damages a car that explodes that then sets a dog on fire that then burns down a gift shop next door. But this is what you are tested on under a time limit. The tests are specifically made to where you cannot answer every possible thing that happens with the rules you are given. The rules to use are free reign, absolutely anything you cover in class or read, even a one liner, is applicable on the test and could be the one choke point in a series of analysis that causes you to miss a boat load of points. This leads to how to study. They suggest you make an outline of everything you learn. This is horse shit for about 50% of the population. This is consistent in law school, they give you overly broad advice that is made to set you up for failure. Yes, outlining is helpful for people who learn that way and have learned that way, and yes an outline is helpful in positing all the information from a class, but if the work of making an outline is not your style you get them from other people. So you should start making friends very early with the upperclassmen. If they actually like you they will give you outlines because you are not in the same GPA raking as they are. But if you are in competition with them it is likely you won't get shit from them, unless y'all are BFFs. This outline that you get is normally 2 or 3 generations old and has been revised and likely originally obtained by someone who made an A or A- in the class. Your job is to take the outline and modify it to how ever you study. After the information is memorized, you then do practice tests with a study buddy. This is so you can try out the procedural aspect of testing. Sure you remember what negligence is, but did you try writing out an analysis of negligence? No you piece of shit you haven't, and that's where really smart people with bad test anxiety fuck up. Then after this first year of judgement and competition you go on to the second year, where you are good at all these things that were originally really difficult and you put on more responsibility by either joining a journal, moot court, mock trial, or going to work for an attorney. The difficulty changes, but it doesn't subside.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:39:59 2018 No.11934337

>>11934326
Or you become a lazy piece of shit with no job prospects, but those that generally take this route already have mommy and daddy's firm ready to hire them after they pass the bar. Law school is full of entitled pieces of shit. Many of the people don't understand politics or history or context, and without that they all just become indoctrinated mercenaries, perpetuating the bad name of the profession. But no one really knows or cares about this because most professors are supposed to be apolitical and teach only the law, when in reality law is defined by politics and the history of western civilization. I fucking hate people.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:41:55 2018 No.11934350

>>11934268
>>11934326
>>11934337
woah, this is really good.
Do you have experience with or have meet students who took adderall or other prescription medication? My main character is dependent on it and basically goes through the 12 labors for them. Also, what amount of "free time" would you say you had per week to basically do something other than eat, sleep, and shit?

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:49:29 2018 No.11934392

>>11934350
A good 1/3 of the class is on addy either by prescription or buying from other people. It's pretty obvious around finals time. I had one friend who had a schizophrenic break from taking too much and was put into the loony bin because he was seeing god. Another friend attempted suicide because of it. Personally the few times I have tried it one of two things happens. A. I'm already focused on something when it kicks in and I read a little faster and can focus a little longer or B. All I want to do is drink coffee, smoke cigarettes, and jerk off in a rabid cycle. A huge portion of the class are binge drinkers, myself included. Fridays every person that is at least a little social goes out together, and most of those people drink excessively. Tons of people are on anti anxiety and depression medication. Suicide and drug abuse are apparently very rampant in a profession where you're expected to be perfect and have another persons life in your hands. Who knew.

My first year I would go to class at about 9 and be done with class by 3, stay in the library til midnight and go home chill and then to bed. I'd normally have Sundays off to go see my family or hangout with my girlfriend before she left me (oh boy relationships either crumble into oblivion or these fucking assholes all get married like a basic girl drinking pumpkin spice). Saturdays were dependent on how much work I had to do that week. Again the first year you have no idea what you are doing, so it's always changing and you don't know if what your doing is right or if you're gonna get kicked out.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:52:58 2018 No.11934417

>>11934337
>most professors are supposed to be apolitical and teach only the law, when in reality law is defined by politics and the history of western civilization. I fucking hate people.
This sentence scares the ever-loving shit out of me. The whole system being terrifying is a meme, but really, the whole system is fucking terrifying.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:57:41 2018 No.11934442

>>11934350
Also thanks anon, I'm gonna put this rant in my book about people at a bar. Thanks for giving me the inspiration to write it up. Though, I doubt I'll ever publish it because well... the ABA probably wouldn't let me become a lawyer if they read it.
>>11934417
Yep. I feel like I'm taking crazy pills. I'm going to be in one of the most powerful positions a person can be in, but I feel like I can do nothing to solve the problem.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 21:57:45 2018 No.11934444

>>11934392
So, did your social circle only consist of other law students, or did you have other friend studying other professions?
And earlier you talked about those who were basically given a job before they even got the bar exam and they were entitled, could you describe what these people were like?
How were the classrooms, were these gunners answering every other question while there was always one person who never spoke? What did the classes look like appearance wise (yeah i know that's a weird question)
You don't have to answer this if it's too personal, but could you describe your relationship with your girlfriend while working hard in law school?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:00:39 2018 No.11934466 >>11934442 >I'm going to be in one of the most powerful positions a person can be in, but I feel like I can do nothing to solve the problem I guess apply fairness as you define it wherever you see fit, if at all possible, ya know?

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>>11934442
also you're mainly helping me man. I would have never know all the bullshit of law school without this rant and would have been basically weaving a story out of my ass. You should write a book just talking about how unfair law can be

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:01:50 2018 No.11934480 i hate 4chan because all boards are prone to elitism. everyone tries to see who’s dick is bigger.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:05:18 2018 No.11934503

>>11926776
Money scares me.
Money is the blood in me
and my blood is money to someone out there.
Money takes me where I need to go.
It also takes me where I shouldn't go.
I eat money.
I drink money.
I sleep on a money mattress with a pillow full of pennies.
If I can't make money, I'm fucked in a truck.
So money scares me.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:08:03 2018 No.11934514

>>11934444
>So, did your social circle only consist of other law students, or did you have other friend studying other professions?
I'm born and raised in the city the school is in, so I have tons of other friends of varying levels of responsibility. When I had the time I'd normally either hang out with my autistic shit posting nerd friends, or the punk degenerates at local shows.
>And earlier you talked about those who were basically given a job before they even got the bar exam and they were entitled, could you describe what these people were like?
They wear polos, shorts/chinos, boat shoes, always carry around starbucks, always a frat member, talk about boating trips and vacations, and detest people who smoke.
>How were the classrooms, were these gunners answering every other question while there was always one person who never spoke? What did the classes look like appearance wise (yeah i know that's a weird question)
Professors the first year call on people randomly. So there's always the 3% chance you were the one to be asked about the case. This leads to the internal argument of if you really should read for the next day or not. When people can't answer a question the professor either calls you out on not reading and assign 10 page papers, or a gunner/your friend would answer the question for you. Yes, there are a lot of quiet students I don't know. They look like big semi circle rows of desks/chairs that descend down into the lecture pit. There's a computer, podium, and projector down there for the professors to use.
>You don't have to answer this if it's too personal, but could you describe your relationship with your girlfriend while working hard in law school?
This would take too long to fully explain, but really I didn't have much time other than Friday nights for her, and I was the only thing keeping her in this city so she moved back home and is much happier now.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:08:59 2018 No.11934520 File: 190 KB, 450x700, 1516509084072.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11934480 Except, ironically, cockposting threads on /b/. They like all sizes.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:10:03 2018 No.11934531 >>11926776 I'd paint myself there just to fuck that water nymph. That's what I'm thinking my dude

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:10:41 2018 No.11934538 yooo peppermint bark clif bars are so fuckin good dude

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:11:42 2018 No.11934545 >>11934531 I would paint her a cute top with a long librarian's sweater and some smart slacks, you disgusting pig!

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:13:08 2018 No.11934559 >>11926776 I only have one beer left and a bottle of Kahlua. Any advice on how I can get drunk on the Kahlua without getting sick?Thanks

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:16:42 2018 No.11934582 >>11934559 Coffee or carbombs.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:18:52 2018 No.11934598 File: 42 KB, 656x755, sad.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I had a dream I was dating Sofia Vegara and we were in a pool together holding each other floating while nude I wish I had never woken up

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:19:37 2018 No.11934606

>>11934514
Another weird question, what was the average body type of both sexes in law school? i'm not expecting the cream of the crop but they were probably above average in appearance in order to be charismatic no?
What were the upperclassmen like? From what you described they might as well be vietnam veterans.
What were the midterms like, or do you not get them in law school?
Last question,when would you get your grades?

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:27:38 2018 No.11934663

>>11934606
>Another weird question, what was the average body type of both sexes in law school? i'm not expecting the cream of the crop but they were probably above average in appearance in order to be charismatic no?
There are a lot of handsome men and beautiful women. There's a good portion too though that have gotten by with their brains and let their bodies go. The worst decision of my life was that I stopped lifting my first year. I lost like 40lbs over 2 years, half because I wasn't eating much, and the other because I started working out again. There's also tons of normal looking people too.
>What were the upperclassmen like? From what you described they might as well be vietnam veterans.
We make fun of the 1Ls, help some of them if we like them. We go to class and then leave. There isn't the same level of comradery because the 1L sections get split up. Everyones schedules are different and you meet the rest of the school. You gotta really stick it out with the people you befriend if you want to keep having a strong relationship with them.
>What were the midterms like, or do you not get them in law school?
Most classes don't have midterms. Some classes have midterms to get complected concepts out of the way, like the rule against perpetuity (go look that one up, it'll fuck you up senpai). Some classes have practice midterms that mean absolutely nothing.
>Last question,when would you get your grades?
Grades take like 3 weeks to come back, the joke is that it takes far longer for your bar results to come in. So the winter after the first semester is the worst because you spend most of it not knowing if you are coming back to school or not. I had to marathon like 60 kung fu movies that winter to keep my mind off of not having my grades back. They forced me to read, do something, not think hard, but keep focused. Vacation is supposed to be fun, but that one was horrible.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:32:46 2018 No.11934696

>>11934514
Thanks for all the info anon. Just wondering a few things: If someone's in the middle of their class (rankings-wise) but they go to a T14, do you think they would still have decent career prospects? Do students often date within their own class? Also, has being a law student been a benefit when it comes to dating/women in general?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:32:54 2018 No.11934698 >>11934663 Wait one more question then. Could you describe the bar exam in its entirety? I'm talking about the studying for it, the actual test, and the waiting for the results in more detail

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:40:28 2018 No.11934756

I need to develop a new illustration project and I can't think of anything good. Last time I drew the major arcana of the tarot, and now I'm thinking about the 7 dead sinds, or the 12 tasks of Hercules... things that are part of a series like that
Can you help me with some ideas, /lit/?

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 22:45:51 2018 No.11934790 >>11927877 literally a ghost partner. This is a trait of the shaman archetype. Have fun spiritbro

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:21:56 2018 No.11934957 File: 236 KB, 534x1149, 6BAF8117-B9FA-4E3C-94D3-B96B9E904EC6.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11934756 The four ladies of virtue are the fucking coolest. Lady fortitude is my waifu.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:23:06 2018 No.11934967

>>11926855
>the ones who the night before gaped and glazed our girl until their rigorous fuckings broke her fickle female reality and she suddenly saw before her the roastie dimension: a yonic realm where tesseracts of turgid, tumescent phalluses are powered by the aggregated orgasmic energies of all women worldwide who in that same moment shared delivery to this phantasmic space by way of the same sort of jackhammering fuckfest induced hallucinations. She'd have forgotten her name, number systems and become psychically disembodied somewhere during the double penetrations.
why my peepee hard

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:25:35 2018 No.11934980

>>11926910
>>11928058
>>11928227
As someone who's spent a fuckload of time living with "native americans" (they call themselves Indians in all of the major tribes, they give zero fucks), you're in the right. Hopi, Tewa, Dine, and Zuni folks know how to throw a fucking party. They are also some of the toughest and most stoic sons of bitches I've ever become friends with.

Take the featherpill

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:26:38 2018 No.11934985 i watched a movie the other day now i remember why movies are a thing its like even if its not that good u forget your problems n shit for like 2 hours now im like shit i should watch more movies

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:27:42 2018 No.11934989 >>11926910 native americans can vote tho

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:54:46 2018 No.11935092
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>>11926776
You run the Shakespare club at our University. You're attractive and smart, and ten times as well read as anyone I've ever met and yet I realize that I have nothing in common with you. I need to be more authentic, to not jump the gun and start going after people I resonate with on more than a basis of interest.

You're cute, but you're kind of a robot.

Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:55:34 2018 No.11935096
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Why can't I think of anything good to write? Am I retarded? For real man, it can't be that fucking hard, that's what they say in the movies. Handsome people, always. I love you, handsome.

But do you love me?

I love you, you are handsome.

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:55:57 2018 No.11935099 >>11935092 What the fuck? the person you just described sounds great. You might at least try to be her friend

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:58:00 2018 No.11935117 >>11934957 hey anon you might like this museosansevero.it/main-sculptures/?lang=en

>>	Anonymous Sun Oct 14 23:58:11 2018 No.11935120 >>11935099 >foid desperation

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:00:10 2018 No.11935129 >>11935092 Ten to One odds she's getting pounded by a satanist right now. t. incel

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:06:11 2018 No.11935153

>>11935099
Oh don't get me wrong, she is a cool person but a friend is all I am and want to be. It's more of a judgement on myself. As I grow older and more self-aware I'm beginning to realize that I've been dumb in the past for going after girls based upon mutual interest rather than developing a relationship and emotional chemistry first. Chronically forcing shit when I first meet someone isn't something that I like to do any more and quite honestly I want to be a bit pickier as I figure out what I'm looking for and what feels natural.

In short, see>>11935120 it's inauthentic and a bad look

>>11935129
fair enough

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:19:22 2018 No.11935223 >>11935153 >fair enough Sorry man, just caught a whiff of it and the free-association vibe ITT made me eject it like so much undigested spaghetti. She could be awesome. Either way, take the longing and use it.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:29:12 2018 No.11935266
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I fucking hate that my old harddrive has all my important work on it but even if I have to start over with the book it should be better this time.
I am so fucking sick of this charade and all these actors. I keep seeing through the smoke and mirrors and each sight just upsets me more. Where do people get all this energy to pretend to be excited for something? Why do things feel less and less genuine? Why do things feel like I am in some sort of bizarro dimension? I am not that smart nor do I think I am the best but I can't be the only one noticing such things. People talk but they never listen, why don't they listen? Listening to people isn't the same as listening to music or some sort of podcast. We need to communicate better, but we can't nor do we want to. Is this just a culmination of multiple things? The straw to the camel? It was a beautiful day today so why don't people reflect it? I love a lot of things but many things also make me quite sad. I should be grateful for what I have, I am a lucky individual. Just maybe a little less madness from the peanut gallery please.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:37:23 2018 No.11935289 >>11935223 What exactly do you mean by free association?

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:42:43 2018 No.11935310

>>11935289
Aside from blurting out our shit for exercise, we're also using our reactions to other's content. Almost a free-association (brainstorming and psych exercise) type thing.

In fact, the whole of image boards can be said to be exactly that.

Weird.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 00:53:10 2018 No.11935360

>>11927975
Sorry havn't checked the thread in a while. Honestly I wanted to join the Navy but I've always been a fatass. I'm going to stop going to college and work retail for a while. Kick up some money to start over on the East Coast. From there i'll try and find a job on the seas. That's the plan. Well all that and losing my body. If I'm to be a shark's dinner I wish to be as small and unpleasant as possible.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:05:27 2018 No.11935409

I can not help but think of my mortality on a daily basis. Each day is a slow plod to a death waiting for me just over the horizon. I do things that are commensurate with what I think a normal life is, but it all feels meaningless. I feel as though I am watching my life more than living it often times, and the reaper is in the audience sitting right in front of me. I feel robbed of experiences that seem to give others joy. Even the life of a person that society considers great is equal in death and time to the average; first life fades away, then legacy fades away, then memory. The last two are only shorter for the common person like me. Without living my daily experiences - going on dates, speaking with people I call friends, working towards something I struggle to value - how can life be anything but a walk to some event that will lay me in the Earth. These thoughts leave me lonely; hope my only companion.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:15:12 2018 No.11935431 >>11935310 Yeah I get what you mean. I’m not sure what’s more frightening, the tempest if souls crying out in anguish here constantly or the droll futile exercise you so concisely summarized.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:25:27 2018 No.11935458 I am sick with love, but of course, love is a lie, so there's really no need for me to be sick at all, yet I remain sick, and I know there's no point trying to be well

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:40:05 2018 No.11935511

>>11935431
I'll tell you what's frightening; You can apply it to almost any conversation at all. We're just a bunch of blurting psychos. That's why we say things like "Why the hell did I say that?"

It's because your brain was more reacting than really expressing. Kinda like badminton.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:43:52 2018 No.11935529

One of the recurring thoughts I have is leaving this awful world behind and move to some desolate outer rim planet to become a hermit like Yoda did. Perhaps not as lonely as the swamp planet where he ended up being the sole intelligent inhabitant, but rather a place with just a small population to keep getting essential services, but lonely enough that everybody from outside ignores the place and nobody tries to bother you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:51:03 2018 No.11935557 >>11926785 https://www.nhs.uk/news/cancer/frequent-ejaculation-may-decrease-prostate-cancer-risk/

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 01:56:36 2018 No.11935574 >>11926785 This must be hilariously confusing to women.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 02:11:40 2018 No.11935615

Justin - you're a bitch whose convictions have nothing behind them. The fact you have a girlfriend, a house and steady work suggests you're justifying your laziness with nihilism. Also, everyone I've met named Justin has been a fucker. Thanks for keeping up my streak. It's absolute bullshit my groundless prejudices should be confirmed like this.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 05:14:05 2018 No.11936033 >>11926776 I genuinely think a year has been taken off my lifespan due to stress in college so far. I can’t keep living like this.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 05:20:13 2018 No.11936047 >>11935574 Women masturbate too

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 06:19:55 2018 No.11936149

so went to hiking other day
and when I was coming back that FUCKING EMPTY FEELING hit me
I was thinking that when I will achieve my goals what next?
it will the end of the world for me and this empty feeling will still hit me. and that will be massive too much for me to handle
I don't get it
what is the point?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 06:46:26 2018 No.11936210 >>11936149 God hates us all

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 06:49:21 2018 No.11936215
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>>11926789
A hair out of place marks my difference, along with a thousand other characteristics. The NPC for me is defined by habits and patterns that establish their legitimacy through route cultural learning - the worst being the moderns. The NPC has no intention that is not traceable to a manufactured desire. These things are in a state of hypnosis that subtly rearranges the contexts and associations with objects. Many people who exist outside these conditions are placed in a state of anxiety because of the necessity to act within the NPC world. So you can have free intentions and not be able to use them in you world to survive, but you can also begin to see how the NPC world is structured by other non-npcer's and therefore act within the so-called lizard kingdom. If you are religious, especially from one of the big players, you definitely don't want to try entering the symbolic war unless you are ok with walking through hell. All in all, the npc is only as empty as the institutions in which it finds itself. So find your intentional trees within your groups and sink your fangs into them apples.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 09:35:34 2018 No.11936635

When I am alone I feel that I think deeply. For a long time, I have interacted only with 4chan and myself to express my opinions on things such as literature and music. But when I meet someone in real life who is interested in these things, I am struck dumb and cannot speak. I mumble inanities and vaguarities, and cannot say my honest opinion. When confronted with another human in real life, it is as though all the opinions I hold so deeply fly out of my mind, as though I've never held them at all. The most I can do is smile and parrot back what they're saying, all while searching through my empty mind for an original thought. Guess I'm an NPC after all.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 09:47:52 2018 No.11936663

>>11936149
your goals are shit. learn philosophy, and you will understand the nature of your void, challenge your values and reconstruct them. You are not asleep, the real you isnt waking up soon, you are just an ignorant lazy piece of shit like us all, we never stop being ignorant, we can stop be lazy though, we can seek knowledge and make sense of everything, so that our lives can gain a new meaning and so that we can be more free from common sense.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 10:45:18 2018 No.11936858 File: 61 KB, 416x416, 1533938119886.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Im taking a shit and just happened to end up in this thread posting another shitpost.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 11:08:19 2018 No.11936932 >>11926850 >Do you guys have any advice as to improve my state of mind? have a goal to achieve

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 11:37:44 2018 No.11937034

Until very recently, I hadn't read a book for several years.
I started an "Access Course" to get into University and, through the lecturer, learned about the Aeneid, Illiad and Odyssey (the latter I had only heard of but knew nothing about aside from the Symphony X song about it).
I've read the Aeneid now and had a blast with it. I started on the Illiad, but it seems too tough for me to read, maybe it's just a poor translation. I've taken a break from it, regardless.

I got Heike Monogatari through the door and started reading that at the weekend.

It's been fucking great getting back into reading books.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 11:37:44 2018 No.11937035

Last friday while daydreaming I felt what it feels like when time doesn't matter. I want to feel it again and be able to dwell in it but I don't know how.

It felt like I had true infinite patience and that things, people and feelings just pop in and out of existence over time so there was no need to worry about anything.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 12:43:21 2018 No.11937297
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I am pleased to announce to all my friends and family that I have finally decided what I am going to do after I graduate from university. I know you've all been quite worried about this, what with my useless degree and lack of job experience outside of manual labor.

I'm going to kill myself!

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 12:46:16 2018 No.11937310 >>11937297 Same. Couldn't figure out what I wanted to do for the longest time, did a lot of soul searching last semester and realized the happiest possible outcome for me would be to die

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 12:51:52 2018 No.11937336 File: 139 KB, 682x893, Mr_Tod.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11926785 Second day of nofap. No sexual urges right now. We'll see tomorrow

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 13:25:32 2018 No.11937533
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I saw a young girl, maybe six, she was holding a big yellow leaf in one hand and using her other arm to clutch a stuffed penguin (that half as tall as she was) close to her. I usually dislike children, but the sight really stuck with me, there was something about her innocence and apparent devotion to those two mundane objects that managed to thaw my heart a little.

Shine on, you beautiful soul.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 13:51:53 2018 No.11937656 >>11928558 >java >not npc kek

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 14:00:43 2018 No.11937689 File: 44 KB, 641x530, 1536871509933.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>11936663 t-thanks anon but from where I should start?

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 14:03:02 2018 No.11937697 >>11937533 children are probably the most pure thing in this fucked world

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 15:01:43 2018 No.11937956

Language only makes sense when in a state of regular social engagement and activity. When one spends significant amounts of time isolated and stagnant it begins to lose meaning. The emotional connection to words starts to atrophy. The definition of simple words, such as happy, sad, angry, proud, good, bad, etc, becomes fuzzy. From the loss of these prime elements the rest of language completely unravels. Insanity follows shortly afterwards.
I need to get out more.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 15:06:28 2018 No.11937981

>>11926776
I just finished Bleeding Edge and I have some thoughts about it: I think it's one of those books that you enjoy days latter after finish it as certain things only make click days later (e.g. Heart of Darkness)
With that said I think Pynchon just pulled a "Lost" on me, a lot things that go nowhere and a lot of insinuations that might or might not even matter to begging with (I think most don't), I can see why people love him and why people hate him, I personally would rate it between a 7 and an 8 out of 10, I wonder if this is the "typical Pynchon" or this is the shtick of this book (though I've seen the movie adaptation of inherent vice so probably it is his style).
My psychologist banned from reading for a while as I don't need more information and I feel cucked about this, as I was ready to tackle Rulfo and The Savage Detectives but my mental health has improved and its only temporal so whateves
I don't think there's such a thing is a "hard" book, if an author wants you to "get" something, he will explain it, if not he won't and you shouldn't worry about it too much.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 16:28:00 2018 No.11938429 After spending some time in Europe I'm unable to get over how artificial and unhuman the north american metropolises feel.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 16:30:50 2018 No.11938441 >>11937533 Similar thing today Cute little boy, a few years old. Dropped his bottle, looked at me, pointed to it and said "drink". Smiled when I handed it to him. I want kids so bad.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 16:40:40 2018 No.11938499 >>11926776 My life is pointless and boring, [my] life is pointless and boring.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 16:50:13 2018 No.11938536 I really need to scratch my ass but I am in an open office environment and people will see. God, my ass itches.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 17:29:49 2018 No.11938740 File: 17 KB, 250x245, 1446670436963.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >FREE TIBET >I'll take it >China, I have something you might want

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 17:40:57 2018 No.11938802

>>11937533
*puffs on pipe* yes, children yes. They are an interesting object of study, strangely neglected by most philosophers.

A child is of philosophical interest because of the clarity and ease at which he or she expresses themselves. There is a buoyancy, a lighter than air quality to a child's spirit. For an adult , much scarred and traumatized by a pitiless world, it can warm the heart and reinvigorate waning faith in humanity.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 18:45:43 2018 No.11939096

>>11937533
I love how honest kids are and how few fucks they give. In fact I think most adults, especially those who spend little or no time around children have no clue how intelligent they are.

>>11938441
Same. I work with kids as part of my job during the summer and would rather spend an entire day with a group of ten year olds than a couple of adults. They’re so much more laid back and when they aren’t it’s usually for a good reason. I want a son to go hiking with, to teach plant IDing and astronomy to goddamnit.

Anonymous Mon Oct 15 19:03:43 2018 No.11939171

Camus imagining Sisyphus as happy is the most infuriating conclusion I have ever read. It's infuriating because I desperately wanted Camus to convince me. The man claims he has a solution to the absurd nature of life that has recently been dragging me down and I tore through The Myth Of Sisyphus to find it. But I didn't. It isn't fun struggling to fall asleep, and struggling to wake up. It isn't fun having your passion leeched out of you simply by existing. I'm tired of rolling the boulder /lit/. I want to die.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 19:46:59 2018 No.11939370 >>11939171 Camus was a Chad who had no problem with women. He also had a pretty comfortable life in general. It's no wonder he was able to imagine Sisyphus as happy.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 19:52:26 2018 No.11939395 I have crotch rot. It burns so bad.

>>	Anonymous Mon Oct 15 20:15:04 2018 No.11939482 >>11939096 That's the dream. A wife and a lot of kids.

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