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[Anonymous No.7213114]

>get perfect school grades
>go to lower ranked uni than I could've went to (had grades for Oxbridge / imperial etc)
>thoughtlessly went to uni while living at home
>finished uni
>applying for graduate jobs
>failed tonnes of internship / grad interviews with companies, including about 7 with investment bank for front office positions because of my ugliness and bad social skills (though my social skills are getting much better - my first 5-7 interviews were autism personified but now I'm confident)
>got rejected from big 4 management consulting because they ran out of places
>have to pick new division - pick audit

Wow, so that's what it feels like to be a Joe average yoonay bantz person. I can't believe that, while researching the big 4 on Google, you get people talking about the big 4 as something prestigious. How horrifying.

An interviewer I once had was an investment banking associate after first starting out as a graduate in big 4 audit - and he was an Oxford STEM grad! Jesus, he must've felt like a failure straight after uni. Go full Gordon gekko or go full entrepreneur / poet - anything in between is resigning yourself to a normie life of team building / Christmas party bs, BGT, X factor, great British bake off.

I hated my electrical / mechanical (one of those) degree but I'd sooner be one of those at an engineering company than be in audit / back office at some London bank. I would just imagine my ugly self surrounded by dumb poshos who were earning ten times my wages. I would want to stick a pen through my brain.

Though I do have an interview with one of Microsoft / apple for a grad role and I would be very happy if I got it, despite it probably being low paid brain dead nonsense. Big name on my CV for a cushion if I want to take actual risks later on.