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Literary self-hate thread
what do you hate about your own work?

For me I cant stand how the word sand shows up everywhere in my work

and I also hate how my attempts at novels have no real plot. just characters kinda... doin' stuff, thing is, Im actively trying to make it follow a plot and it never does.

>> No.6861915

>>6861912

I use too many allusions.

>> No.6861924

>>6861912
I've only ever written a full page once. I hate everything about me.

>> No.6861935

I'm not really very creative. I can make an original story, but it's not like, a burst of inspiration other writers talk about. I have to keep thinking an idea over for days before I get it down, which means I write extremely slowly.

I guess I'm just being meticulous, and that isn't really a bad thing, but I'm an overall mediocore writer so that energy isn't going anywhere good.

>> No.6861941

>>6861912
Everything I write is so goddamn choppy. It's a problem for everything I write whether that be an argumentative essay, short story, or poem. Every line/sentence sounds completely disjointed from the last.

>> No.6861943

I use really basic words like 'it' and 'the' A LOT. Specifically when I start sentences. I also don't know when to stop describing things and move onto other things. I really need to read a book about writing. Any good suggestions?

>> No.6861947

>>6861912
I think it's absolutely clear that everything I write is just Tao Lin + [whatever author I've been reading at the time]

What's worse is I'm dickriding authors who are incredibly famous in literary circles (Borges, Kafka, Joyce, Pynchon) so I can't even pretend I'm being original by saying I've not heard of the authors my work seems to be ripping off.

Also sometimes I just start writing like I was born 150 years ago or something

>> No.6861952

>>6861947
Dickriding Borges well will still make you great.

>> No.6861953

Everyone who reads one of my short stories always comments that I have a fantastic sense of voice. If they read more than one of my pieces, they'd realize it's always the same voice. Always, without variation.

>> No.6861954
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6861954

>>6861947
>What's worse is I'm dickriding authors

>> No.6861962

>>6861912
I keep writing stories about combative, feisty lesbians with bobcuts.

>> No.6861965

>>6861912
I hate how often I tell myself that I'm going to write something and then I don't.

Also, I hate how much trouble I have with grammatical shit. It should be simple, it really should, but it just doesn't click sometimes.

Also, my prose is flawed, but that's something I'm comfortable with as a novice. I understand that it's flawed, and I know the only real way that's going to get better is with time and critical reflection.

>> No.6861969

>>6861952
Possibly, but I still feel like a hack for having so little originality. For me it's just metaphysics + metafiction, and try not to mention labyrinths so as to make it less obvious

>>6861954
I don't follow m8

>> No.6861973

>>6861965
>I hate how often I tell myself that I'm going to write something and then I don't.
I have a little memo pad filled entirely with premises for novels and short stories, with the occasional sentence or paragraph just floating around somewhere.

I'm sure I could easily sit down and write any of these ideas into a full work, but it's just so much easier to daydream about my hypothetical future success, imagining interviews where I explain my works and themes and try to dodge questions from those youths who try to inject identity politics into everything

>> No.6861984

>>6861973
This, hard. About everything you said.

>> No.6861989

>>6861962
I hate feisty women.

>> No.6861997

When I write more chapters I always feel that the old ones are pretty shit and they need to be rewritten

I kind of feel like my villain is becoming more likable then my hero.

>> No.6862006
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>>6861912
All my stories are the same story. The protagonist is just some asshole avatar of myself and I make the audience hate him just like I hate him.

>> No.6862007

>>6861997
>When I write more chapters I always feel that the old ones are pretty shit and they need to be rewritten
Just rewrite it when you're done. Editing is great.

>I kind of feel like my villain is becoming more likable then my hero.
That's not a bad thing, necessarily.

>> No.6862024

>>6861989
'Feisty' is the wrong word, now that I think about it.

'Savage' might be more appropriate. Anyway anon, you'll hate whatever I write which is okay because it's never being published.

>> No.6862027

I have a very limited vocabulary so I reuse a lot of the same words, especially if they're five dollar words.

I suspect my shit is disjointed in some ways, or at least will appear that way to the reader. Like perhaps it only makes sense in my own inner logic where I know absolutely everything regarding the story. I don't know.

>> No.6862030

Sometimes I have trouble identifying whether something is cliche or not. I mean sometimes its glaringly obvious, but other times I get self conscious and start questioning myself.
I mean they are inherently bad if you can use it to your advantage, build off of it, or parody or subvert it.

I also tend to subconsciously rip something off and not notice it until I show someone what I've written and feel like a hack but I've gotten a lot better. I normally just find my idea was already used, because its hard to be truly original.

>> No.6862038

I can't come up with something "original" for shit. The story I'm working on is literally ripping off 4 other stories and using them as a jumping off point.

>> No.6862044

>>6862038
Use real life experiences. Not just first-hand, you can learn of other people's experiences.

>> No.6862059

>>6862044
Well perhaps I was being a bit cynical.
I am doing exactly what you said but the stuff I'm "ripping off" is turning out less and less like the original the more I develop them and in turn becoming more of a homage.
But still, it pains me inside knowing how it all started.

>> No.6862084

I value word economy above aesthetic impact, so my work often feels incomplete and flat.

>> No.6862103

the thing i hate about my writing style is that i'm always trying to pick fancy words and constuct phrases that sound somewhat catchy
it's like i have a subconsious fear of mundane words and collocations
and therefore my writings look tryhardish and strained

>> No.6862165

>>6862103
>constuct phrases that sound somewhat catchy
I'm obsessed with this. If my lines don't sound like they have some beautiful rhythm I scrap it

>> No.6862229
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6862229

I'm always wondering if I can ever succeed at making a reader feel the overwhelming whatever it is that I am trying to make happen in the story. Not just plot or characters and clever little things. There is always an emotion that I am trying to make the story just have through every sentence.

Thinking about how to leave little details here or there and wondering if it is waay too trivial and cryptic or too in the face.

I have no grace.

>> No.6862249

>>6862229
>I'm always wondering if I can ever succeed at making a reader feel the overwhelming whatever it is that I am trying to make happen in the story.
Tolstoy said that it's practically impossible. In order to make your reader feel that overwhelming that reader must become the writer himself. And that is impossible. But there is nothing wrong with that, i think.

>> No.6862299

>>6862027
I know this feel. You cannot even read your own work as a stranger, so you're blind to the gaps others might see in the descriptions or gestures of characters, because they are too vague or don't mean anything without the context you have in your head.

>> No.6862344

>>6861912
>plotless
actually not that bad in principle

>> No.6862363

>>6861973
It won't feel any less tenuous once you start, either. But that's what makes it thrilling, win or lose you are taking yourself places. It's worth a try, man. Take it from a chronic depressive.

>> No.6862411

>>6861973
>tfw you used to think only you did this
>tfw because you thought only you thought that, it would somehow come true
>tfw even though I know many people think it now, I still think it will somehow come true
I'm either going to end up an arrogant success story, or a bitter mid-lifer.

>> No.6862430

>>6861912
>For me I cant stand how the word sand shows up everywhere in my work

Anakin?

>> No.6862457

>>6861947
the best path for you would be to realize that tao lin is barely a mediocre writer

>> No.6862473

>>6862344
eg arguably, Adler, Anderson, Proust, etc.

>> No.6862507

>>6861973
lol

;_;

>> No.6862519

>>6861973
>>6861984
>>6862411


Self-discipline is the real rarity.

>> No.6862539

>>6861912
Same, there never really seems to be any major climax or conflict in my stuff. Like this one short story I started back in February and still haven't finished, it's basically just about a guy in a hyper-bureaucratic society who works in a dead end job doing nothing all day. He's forgotten basically everything about himself, and it's like every day he's a different and yet the same person. The conflict is that he somehow gets erased from 'the system' so he legally doesn't exist, which is illegal, so he tries to run away, as a way to take control and feel alive. Then when he's caught he has to basically recreate himself and remember his life which he secretly didn't want to confront. But it doesn't sound very climactic.

>> No.6862547

>>6862519
Self-discpline really doesn't exist. People are just different.

>> No.6862670

>>6862539
I like the sound of that, anon. It actually sounds good. Do write it, please.

>> No.6862749

>>6861989
and that's why you're single

>> No.6862761

>>6862547
Doesn't exist? So I can just do whatever?
Said whatevers will have no impact on the feedback loops of my neurology?

Ironic how nihilists act most out of emotion, lacking the self-awareness (sorry--this one exists as well) to see it as such.

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>>6862670
th-thanks

>> No.6863993

Be patient. There is no haste.

No haste. Let life be and live.

>> No.6863999

>>6861912

I hate the fact that I inadvertantly vary the amount of description in my writing.

It's almost like I'm subconsciously thinking "oh shit, I haven't put much description in that last bit - better cram a shitload in here to balance it out!".

I have to go over my writing like 4 times to 'even out' the description.

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>>6863993
>There is no haste.
but life is so short

>> No.6864009

I focus a lot on crafting engaging, descriptive prose, so I am constantly editing and rewriting passages. But once I've read a passage dozens of times (maybe even as many as 40+), I'm unable to tell whether it's good at a basic level. Like, I get really philosophical about it: "Wait, what is it that makes words pleasing? How can anything sound beautiful?" My best solution is to drop the work for a while and come back fresh, but at the same time I always feel guilty about not working on it for so long. My writing process becomes really inefficient if I stopped I would feel like such a piece of shit for wasting all my time and talents.

>> No.6864035

>>6861912
I just suck. Not even in an overly critical sense, I just can't write for shit. I practice daily, consulate read, have taken numerous workshops but in the end I feel like nothing I produce is good enough to be a tweet or Facebook status.

>> No.6864078

>>6864000
No it's not. Life is literally the longest thing you'll ever do.

>> No.6864083

>>6864000
If you live your life by the idea that it is short, you will grow inpatient and hasty.

Impatience and hastiness lead to failure.

>> No.6864095

>>6864078
>>6864083
So is your solution to wait 20 years to do something, to waste away my life in a dead end job until I retire and then I'm too old and tired to do anything but reminisce on younger days and wonder what might have been?

>> No.6864096

>>6862229
>Oyasumi PunPun

God, Inio Asano is a legitimately good writer and I need him to write an actual novel so I don't feel weird for recommending his work.

>> No.6864107

>>6864095
No one offered that up as a solution. But if in your mind it's either one of the other that's just your problem. Nothing is stopping you from working during the day and writing at night like most people used to do. If you're working a dead end job and not actively looking for a new one you have a serious issue. Learn to divide your time up and get some priorities.

>> No.6864109

>>6864095
This is your idea of patience, not mine.

Tell me, do you work 14 hours a day?

Fool.

>> No.6864133

>>6864095
Even if you quit your job tomorrow and spend 8 hours a day writing, you wouldn't produce anything of value for years. I'm assuming you're in your 20s like most people on this site--that's a terrible age for writing. Most authors don't publish anything good until they're 30 at least. No matter what you choose, it will be a brutal life.

>> No.6864409
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6864409

I don't write. I rarely read. It's something I tell myself I enjoy but I never get around to it and instead waste my life sitting in front of my computer refreshing webpages all day. When I do read, comprehending what I read is difficult. I often find myself rereading sentences again and again. Writing is terrible. I have nothing interesting to say and even if I did I couldn't put it into words well. I know all these things get better with practice but I just don't do it for some reason.

>> No.6864446

>>6861915
James Joyce plz go.

>> No.6864460

>>6861947
>What's worse is I'm dickriding authors who are incredibly famous in literary circles
This is me except with Beckett, Joyce, Gaddis, Barthelme

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6864600

I dislike my written dialogue, since it either disrupts the flow and seems out of character, or it stagnates the story if there is too little wasting precious opportune moments of interaction between characters.

>> No.6864612

I like alliteration too much.

>> No.6864636

>>6864612
I sympathetically surmise with your struggle

>> No.6864647

I can't write "normal" stuff happening, it's so boring that I can't stand it. I don't know how to change scenes, I have no voice, my characters have no voices, no personality, no details, awful sentence structure, everything sounds wrong, the music's never in it. I just never have enough. Every time I think it's enough, it's not even close. All my stories finish when they're about 40% done. I just get bored, and I don't have enough spirit (natural humours, life forces, libido, etc.) to get things done. That angst in itself adds to what I write, but after a while it's like getting blood from a stone.

my diction A++ tho

>> No.6864793

>>6864009
This so much, eventually I overly analyse my work to the point I become completely detached from it, and am unable to correctly adjust it. I hate it.

>> No.6864816

My grammar is kinda poor I guess?

>> No.6864841

My weakness is fleshing out the plot. I can come up with a great concept, write better than average prose, and multiple people have told me I have a great ear for dialogue. But sometimes I suspect my writing doesn't have enough crisis or urgency.

>> No.6864860

I'm sick of this new generation of tumblr poets who think a diary entry with random line breaks counts as a poem but my poems are also written in free verse, exactly the same way. Why not use the word I want to use just because it doesn't rhyme or fit the meter? I have the sneaking suspicion that I write in free verse because it's less work and I'm lazy but on the other hand it just feels natural, forcing yourself to rhyme seems unnecessarily archaic and constricting. Should I just give up writing in verse all together, cut the bullshit line breaks and embrace that I'm a prose poet?

Also I try to be surrealistic and enigmatic but I'm pretty sure it just comes off as vague and nonsensical and therefore completely unengaging.

Also I have no range and my poems all have the same style and themes.

>> No.6864879

>>6864860
If you're talented it won't be constricting at all.

>> No.6864891

>>6864879
of course, it's just that I get way more enjoyment out of writing in free verse.

>> No.6864896

>>6861912
I write fan fiction for a dead fan base. I know no one will ever see these stories but I keep writing them. It's like an illness.

>> No.6864901

I can only write about my fucking self, in the end

>> No.6864920

>>6864901

It was glaringly sad to learn that my imagination is entirely dictated and hindered by a preoccupation with myself and my own circumstances.

>> No.6864935

>>6864896
come on bro, tell us what fanbase

>> No.6864939

>>6864860
Free Verse is just an excuse to be lazy. Even if you don't like rhyme schemes at least try writing in a set meter. It'll sound a lot better if you do it right.

>> No.6864942

All my characters are just people I know very slightly altered.

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>>6864860
>I have the sneaking suspicion that I write in free verse because it's less work and I'm lazy but on the other hand it just feels natural, forcing yourself to rhyme seems unnecessarily archaic and constricting. Should I just give up writing in verse all together, cut the bullshit line breaks and embrace that I'm a prose poet?

If you're good at prose, you're good. Once you start to doubt yourself you'll pick up some nice structure to mask the bad writing.

>> No.6864963

>>6864896
In the end your work will be read by the 'person in the armchair'.
You might never know them, or ever get to meet them, or ever get acknowledged by them, but you know they are out there.

Take solace that even if you get one person to read and enjoy your work, you accomplished your intention.

Keep them in mind, but never write to please them. Stay true to the way you smith your own words.

>> No.6864967

>>6864935
White Wolf Exalted ttrpg.

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>>6861912
i keep writing scenes and dialogues but get too lazy to work out the tedious tidbits that tie it all together

>> No.6865039

I'm always afraid that my characters will come off as angsty and juvenile when I'm trying to convey how upset, angry, or sad they are.

I love Science Fiction, and I have a hard time writing regular fiction because of it. It bothers me that I consider myself a writer, but have such a hard time writing regular fiction. Sometimes I wonder if it's because science fiction is my escape from the mundane grind of life, but at the same time I feel that it should be in a skillset to write a regular fiction story/book.

I feel that my characters have no real personality in their dialogue. That it's all kind of bland.

It sucks because I tend to be on the cynical side, so even when people when what I have written and tell me that it's good and they enjoyed it, I worry that they say that because they know me, even though they explain that if it was some random book they'd still feel the same.

Fuck I hate being so insecure about it.

>> No.6865220

>>6862299
Totally. And then you don't want to give everything away to cover your ass, just incase.
It's a huge fucking headache.

>> No.6865231

>>6865039
Take a long hard look at your own post. Write a story about the character that wrote this post.

>> No.6865401

>>6861912
I hate the fact that i think it's legitimately funny and almost perfect but there are people who don't find it funny at all. How am i supposed to construe this? How the fuck can you write comedy when there are people out there who don't like Seinfeld even? What do these people laugh of? Im starting to think that the humour "most people" find funny is this cute, harmless humour and not satire which i like. Maybe only certain people like satire.

>> No.6865416

As a wannabe poet who was originally influenced by the likes of Bob Dylan, Townes Van Zandt, etc, I have immense trouble writing poems that specifically don't sound like songs.

>> No.6865446

I write like a little girl. Everything I write looks a bit like a journal entry, since I write tons of journal entries and relatively little else. I write in very plain terms, which can become boring quickly.
You can also tell from my writing that I don't read enough. It shows that I try too hard, my stories tend to be formulaic and I'm very obvious about what I'm trying to say, kind of as if I were explaining a joke, rather than telling it.
All my characters are young and naive, because I wouldn't know how to make them say something meaningful. I'm being ironic a lot of the time for the same reason.
I use a lot of filler words and I still have trouble knowing when to use a comma sometimes.
Oftentimes, I catch myself using the same words in order to start sentences.
Also, everything else.

>> No.6865625

i have trouble creating plots, not just weird scenarios.
i'm also transfixed on hallways, office buildings, and empty spaces. not sure why in a freudian context.

>> No.6865628

>>6861912
Pacing.

Also, I can't decide how I want my narrator to be like.

>> No.6865677

I just wrote two poems, both are poor imitations of my favorite poet. They sound incredible pretentious with forced rhymes.

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>>6865416
Recently when I write I cannot avoid thinking of the surreal whimsy and allusions of Dylan's Tombstone Blues, it's charming but hard to emulate

>mfw trying to learn how to play Columbine on my guitar

>> No.6865766

Grammar. Does not matter how I study it, I always think that my sentences are grammatically wrong, which obligates me to check them instead of continue writing.

>> No.6865807

>>6861912
Cheesy dialogue and stupid references. Villains too edgy. First grade philosophy deepness. Action sequences too long and detailed.

>> No.6865822

>>6861912
I love SF/fantasy and I can't write it for shit.

Neurotypicals living their normalfag lives I can do for some reason, which is terrible because I have zero interest in reading that shit. But it does sell. So go figure.

>> No.6865825

>>6865807
>first grade philosophy
You're not here to write a philosophy dissertation. Just write stuff that's relevant to your story and don't worry about it. People are going to label it as you did regardless of it's level, just so they can bitch, whine and come off as smarter.

>> No.6865832

>>6865401
Most people really really don't get humour. Even stuff like seinfeld and the simpsons which were wildly popular most people don't actually get why are funny. Don't sweat what people think.

>> No.6865846

>>6865401
A taste for satire has always been a mark of intelligence, so, well, you take it from there.

Fart jokes represent sophisticated humor for Joe Six Pack.

>> No.6866153

>>6864460
I steal from Beckett a lot as well. And sometimes John Barth, who stole from Beckett and Borges. I imagine if I got 'round to reading Gaddis and Barthelme, they'd just be added into the cauldron that is my influence-pool. I just didn't feel like putting more than four authors in parenthesis. I dickride too many authors, actually. In fact, my work might function of a pastiche of all my influences, so large in number that it appears to just be a large, complex, unique style. Or so I hope.

>> No.6866186

>>6865401
>people out there who don't like Seinfeld even
kinda just spooked me, my man. I've been incorporating Seinfeld terms into some of my work as of late, with the hope that it would be appreciated. I'm not trying to be ironic or anything with my inclusion of such "sein language"; I just really really like Seinfeld and think it's a good idea to have non-literary influences for one's literary oeuvre

>> No.6866193

>>6865625
>i'm also transfixed on hallways, office buildings, and empty spaces. not sure why in a freudian context.
Vaginas, dude. Birth canals and shit. Just score some idiot-poon

>> No.6866403

My flow and structure are always the same, and it's not even subtle since it's kind of unconventional; you can easily spot it. It's of awful taste to do that but it's the kind of writing I enjoy most.

>> No.6866417

>>6861947
>sometimes I just start writing like I was born 150 years ago or something
I feel you, man
I do that a lot, probably because I don't speak english in everyday life and most of my contact with the language is books and /lit/. It's hard to feel how fucking pretentious, or rather antiquate I sound.

>> No.6866439

>>6862103
as long as you do so consistently and well it's fine. check out thomas mcguane

>> No.6866441

>>6861989
i'm a sucker for femdom

>> No.6866445

>>6862027
>shit vocabulary
get a dictionary + anki or memrise that shit mate

>> No.6866446

>>6862749
When feisty is used in reference to women it almost always means obnoxious, why would I. Want to deal with that. Besides what makes you think all or even most women are feisty in any sense of the word?

>> No.6866450

>>6862165
>If my lines don't sound like they have some beautiful rhythm I scrap it
friggin humblebrags

>> No.6866456

>>6864095
grow a pair, faggot

>> No.6866457

>>6864636
>>6864612
literally everywhere.
I put a lot of words in a series w/ the same first letter, or I'll weird patterns with the first or last letters like in an alphabetic order (eg, a recent one was cdefg) or some shit.

>> No.6866468

Seinfeld himself has autism. I don't mean this as an insult I mean he's diagnosed. People don't like him because there's a fear of autism these days.

>> No.6866499

>>6865446
>Everything I write looks a bit like a journal entry, since I write tons of journal entries and relatively little else. I write in very plain terms, which can become boring quickly.
Funny, it was the complete opposite with me. I mean, not literally, but - I started with journal entries, and when I started feeling too scared someone would read them I turned journaling into writing exercise and started coding everything, symbolizing, creating narratives. It helped plenty, but now I can't properly write in my journal without being disgusted with myself

>see qt
>write about qt in journal
>start talking about the sun as analogy to qt
>SUDDENLY ICARUS
>OH NO MY WINGS ARE MELTING
>smartass conclusion
>even went all the way to Joyce and included allusions to Stephen Dedalus
>you can only tell I'm talking about qt if you read close enough

>> No.6866504

>>6866499
That's pretty gross actually.

>> No.6866508

>>6865446
>if I were explaining a joke, rather than telling it.
give a hard think about the structure of the stories

>> No.6866517

>>6866504
>>6866499
is it? it's kinda clever

>> No.6866567

>>6866499
Why? I get annoyed at it because it but that's because it always sounds pretentious as fuck and I feel like punching myself in the face for not being able to openly talk about things.

>> No.6866572

>>6866567
Jesus fuck what a mess of a post, edited mid-sentence and didn't properly fix
>I get annoyed, but that's because...

>> No.6866592

>>6861912

I hate that every word I've written I was always meant to write.

>> No.6866820

>>6866153
That usually is how a style is made. And then you'll find your very own obsessions in terms of themes and tone, and you'll truly have something of your own.
Good luck, anon.

>> No.6867029

>>6866468
nice meme

>> No.6868021

>>6865625
same, same

>> No.6868032

>>6866517
he's using gross in its 4th wave feminist definition

>> No.6869747

How fantastic and insightful it is

>> No.6869753

>>6865625
>i'm also transfixed on hallways, office buildings, and empty spaces
Holy shit this.

>> No.6869810

>>6861912

That there isn't any