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Ya hanging in there /lit/?

>> No.5440994

Not really.

I'm so tired.

I have an exam in 6 hours.

Still studying.

Frantically waiting for butterfly to reply to my posts.

>> No.5440995

Yeh

>> No.5440996

>>5440995
I don't know why I kekked

>> No.5441017

Barely.
I don't know what the fuck is going on.

>> No.5441020

>>5440990
No, anon, writing is hard. Doing college work is harder.

But thanks for another sadfrog to add to my collection.

>> No.5441021
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5441021

>tfw I'm legitimately addicted to 4chin

>> No.5441026

>>5440990
My cat is on its last life I believe...going to be a rough night.

>> No.5441029

>>5441026
It doesn't get any worse than this, bros

>> No.5441036

>>5441029
Yeah. She deteriorated in health real fast today...she's sleeping now. Hopefully, she wakes up better or just passes like that.

>> No.5441040

>>5441036
j-just put it out of its misery

>> No.5441045
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>>5440990
aye

>> No.5441054

I was just thinking about suicide

>> No.5441056

>>5441040
It's not suffering as much as it is just having it's life slow down. It's not in pain. She's sticking around me and not hiding or acting any more irritated as usual, but she's really weak. That's what keeps me with a little bit of hope. 7 years sleeping on my bad and sitting on my lap while browsing 4chan and shit. We've been good partners. For her dynasty to end will not be extremely sad as much as it will simply be a conclusion. At least she will die with me rather than alone somewhere...with death you got to take what you can get.

>>5441045
thanks, man.

>> No.5441058

>>5441021

me too bro, i'm thinking it's maybe time I bring back my user website banlist, forgot all the steps exactly, but you can use your command prompt thing to ban yourself from 4chan or whatever site you want

i used to break my 4chan addiction last time, it worked like a charm, really 4chan is so addicting because it's so easy, i open the internet, i type 4-c-down-enter automatically, subconsciously, and bam, i have all this fucking shitposting to read, no effort, all payoff, no matter how meagre

when you ban yourself, you make browsing the site again an enormous amount of effort, so much effort that even homework becomes more attractive

it's worth doing anon, 4chan ain't nothing but destruction, some people get along fine and post on 4chan but it's not because 4chan isn't cancerous and destructive, they are simply strong enough to withstand it, when you are weak, you must take stronger steps

>> No.5441065

>>5441058
I'll quit this week

>> No.5441071

>>5441065
tfw i remember telling myself that in 2009

>> No.5441073

>>5441065
Me too anon :^)
And the week after
And the week after
And the week after
And then, one of those weeks, I'll finally be dead.

Then I'll never have to quit again.

>> No.5441075

>>5441071
Oh my god.

What the fuck.

Has 4chin, like, held you back in anyway?

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>>5441075
>Has 4chin, like, held you back in anyway?
in all honesty i like to tell myself it does

but in the end i can only blame myself

the same is true for most addictions

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5441080

Nope

>> No.5441081

>>5441077
But what has it held you back from?

>> No.5441084 [DELETED] 

Feeling kind of comfortably detatched from my surroundings and my normally suffocating ego. It's nice but probably won't last

>> No.5441086

>>5441081
I dropped/failed out of uni after Fall 2010 and from January 2011 until now I spend ~18 hours a day on 4chan.

I do nothing. I don't even read anymore.

>> No.5441089

>>5441086
l-let's be friends

>> No.5441095

>>5440990
No, not really.

>> No.5441096

>>5441071
>>5441073
>>5441077
>>5441086
>>5441089
about to permaban myself

you guys need help

i love you, butterfly

>> No.5441098

>>5441077
>2009

Newfag

>> No.5441099

>>5441096
If you want an actual way to get IP permabanned from 4chan, just put Siztra in the name field in try to post and you'll automatically be permanently banned from the site.

It's useless for me since I can just change my IP in 30 seconds though.

>> No.5441102

I literally have two naked women sitting on my lap and I don't care if anyone believes me.

>> No.5441104

>>5441099
>tfw I'd be happier if I just got myself banned
>too scared to make the leap

>> No.5441105

>>5441098
I was here before that, it was just in 2009 that I decided I didn't want to be here anymore. I actually wasn't on 4chan for pretty much that entire summer but that was mostly because I was living in my car

>> No.5441106

>>5441102
I have three, you loser

>> No.5441107

>>5441089
Ok.

>> No.5441110

Banned myself on my computer.

I'm on my phone.

>> No.5441113

>>5441099
lel fucking siz

>> No.5441116

24/7 anxiety attack mode depression is back for the last few weeks. Can feel my heart smashing in my chest as soon as I wake up, and that ice cold heart-squeezing feeling of panic in my chest literally every second. Went on a four day bender to try to get rid of it, ain't do shit but almost ended up getting evicted.

Now have to read an entire book on Renaissance Florence before noon and all I fucking want to do is drink and watch Dave Chappelle HBO specials. The last time I had this feeling it lasted months and I came to within an inch of suicide, and this time I not only have ten thousand times more real life shit an work to do at the same time, I have no fucking money, no place to stay, and generally just less patience. Also I have no idea what made it go away the first time.

I know I could kill myself if I were drunk. Every time I get drunk I kind of hope I do.

>> No.5441118

>>5441106
You must be a pedophile.

>> No.5441120

>>5441116
>Can feel my heart smashing in my chest
That's how I feel whenever I have to speak up or have to hold a conversation with a stranger, breathing cycles have helped.

>> No.5441121

>>5441110
oh this is an extreme form of addiction

>> No.5441122

>>5441118
I have very large thighs. I could fit a fourth

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>>5441102
>tfw I will never be one of those women

>> No.5441126

>>5441125
I'm bisexual, I can accomodate

>> No.5441131

>>5441126
I don't think you can magically turn me into a woman

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>>5441096
youre trying to treat the symptom & not the cause. i've tried to leave this place a couple of times but came back a few weeks later. the problem, for me, was (p severe) shyness. im trying to fix that now. and i know that when i do, i wont need this place anymore. its just a temporary crutch for basic human interaction. when you're ready to leave you'll leave, it wont even be hard

>> No.5441133

>>5441116

eventually it becomes a dull roar in your ears, i've had it for 5 years straight now, never lost that spasmodic chest constriction, those shaking hands

but it no longer causes me any pain, it's just, who i am, i shake, my heart pounds, i go on, i barely even notice it anymore unless i specifically think about it

don't ask me how i got to this point, don't know what to tell you

>> No.5441139

>>5441131
No, but I'd happy to treat you like one, baby. Take your clothes off ;)

>> No.5441140

>>5441126
You mean you have a fetish

>> No.5441141

>>5440990
Kind of. I've found I hate almost everything I write when I write on paper, but I feel proud of the quick bursts of text I type into my phone and save as drafts to be compiled later. I've decided to use the idea of the "cell phone novel" to write on my phone, but I'll eventually transcribe everything in a Word document or something. I guess I prefer this method because it revolves around spontaneous writing ideas, instead of having to struggle with writing on paper for hours at a time.

Also, I haven't had any really "good" ideas since I last did ecstasy, months ago. At that point, I decided not to write sober, but I've had no drugs since then.

I guess it really says something about myself that I don't care for my own writing when I have no drugs to basically write for me. I shouldn't have re-read Taipei this week.

If you're here, Tao, fuck you.

>> No.5441142

>>5441140
I mean I fuck everything. Mud, chicken, bricks, etc. I lust for some objects as hard as I lust for people.

>> No.5441144
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>>5441133
I'm sorry anon.

>> No.5441145

>>5441139
Aren't the two women on your lap getting bored?

>> No.5441147

>>5441145
Maybe, but that's not really my concern and they don't want to get on my bad side

>> No.5441164
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5441164

depressed
lonely
can't sleep
want cigarette
keep wishing I could go back and change it all

so few my roads, so many my mistakes

>> No.5441178

>>5441164
>depressed
same
>lonely
same, but I lie to myself, saying I don't need to be social right now. An "interim period".
>can't sleep
same. I have formed a habit with sleep aides
>want cigarette
same, and I have some, but I haven't smoked in months, so I feel like I should not smoke at all
>keep wishing I could go back and change it all
I only have one regret, but it wouldn't have worked out anyway. I tried, but it was her fault it didn't work. I'm not lying to myself, but the truth isn't too good either

>> No.5441186

>>5441147
>they don't want to get on my bad side

Are you sure these women are consenting to be on your lap?

>> No.5441194

>>5441164

Go read Ian McEwan's "Atonement". You'll feel better afterwards.

>> No.5441352

>>5441186
Look, if you aren't interested in taking your clothes off, then stop wasting my time

>> No.5441375

>>5441058
you mean the hosts file?

>> No.5441399

>>5441102
you should let your kids play or take up a picture book or something, it's better than seeing a parent of theirs looking at frog pictures

>> No.5441412

I have all these grand ideas but lack the technical skill to pull them off

All my creativity is trapped in a cage and it sucks

>> No.5441413

On the verge of suicide but I know it's the right choice so yeah pretty good

>> No.5441418

barely

diploma thesis is still in a premature state, can't work for shit

>> No.5441421

>>5441412
in what area? could recommend some shit, maybe

>> No.5441422

>>5441412
Oh gee another ideas guy

>> No.5441426

I'm in love with a girl over the internet and I don't have enough money to go visit her and live happily ever after.

and she says she loves me and i believe her it sounds retarded typing out i know but i'm 25 and she's 26 and has her shit together and doesn't mind my brokenness and sees my person

>> No.5441429

Just watched the news and almost killed myself. Why are we still reproducing? Get it together, people.

>> No.5441440

>>5441058
How do I get myself banned like that?

>> No.5441450

>>5441429
because 'muh happiness' maaaaaaaaan. gotta get dat good feeling amirite hahahahahhahaha

fuck

>> No.5441462

>>5441426
LD relationships are hard. And if you already know you can't pay for a visit, and she probably wouldn't either...better end it before you both get more damaged.

>> No.5441463

tfw you can get banned here but they don't stop you lurking anymore

tfw condemned to reading shitposts for the rest of your life without being able to shitpost yourself

tfw i don't care because whenever i type out a post i shudder and delete it immediately 90% of the time and all i do is refresh endlessly

tfw i have wasted my life and have nothing left but this website and my own virtual pretensions

>> No.5441468

>>5441463

tfw i have bombarded my mind with tfw's and ayy lmaos and pepes and penguins and banes for over 5 fucking years and it has seeped into every corner of my soul

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I'm tired, I hope I can still make it. And I really hope I fix all the bullshit in my life.

>> No.5441477

>>5441421
elaborate

>> No.5441483

>>5440990
Why did you post this on /v/?

>> No.5441491

>>5440990
I see this girl since two weeks, she's great but like often when you start a relation, you get nervous and you want everything to be great, and you discover the person and it's fun...but there's still a part of me that wonders if this is gonna work out.

>> No.5441505

>>5441474

If you like louis ck you are doomed to be a turd

>> No.5441510

>>5441462
Doesn't matter. Something is better than nothing, than what has always been before. It's not like we can't fuck other people. And I will visit her or she will come to see me. Just not immediately.

>> No.5441547

>>5441505

Louis CK is a funny guy you're just too much of a prissy reactionary dork to see it.

>> No.5441579

>>5441164
how
old
are
you

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5441587

>>5441463
You could change it right now.
You could start from the beggining, start reading patrician novels, doing exercises, listening to the great composers, learn to be the übermensch with the help of Nietzsche ...

But you won't. It is easier to make excuses, isn't it?

>> No.5441595

NOT BOOKS

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>>5441595

welcome to /lit/

>> No.5441603

>>5441595
Guess which board is leaking.

>> No.5441802

>>5441587
The ultimate excuse it that we're all puppet going through motions already orchestrated in a block universe. Whether you do good or bad.