/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.5014648]

/lit/, Post your favorite book and give a fact about yourself. I'll start
>I've done acid twice, already mentally unstable before, but after that second hit I went deep into myself and couldn't come out.

[Anonymous No.5014655]

>>5014648
Same book and I've done acid close to if not exceeding 200 times, the last time was really bad though so I think I'm done. I could also go with If on a winter's night a traveler for the book but just for the sake of a direct response, OP, you see.

[Anonymous No.5014662]

I am going to graduate school for math.

[Anonymous No.5014664]

I'm a very passive person.

[Anonymous No.5014672]

when I was in high school, I took flying lessons. I wasn't really suited for it, but I did solo several times.

[Anonymous No.5014674]

>>5014655
We're one, also, electrically wired in the crease between membrane and self.

[Anonymous No.5014700]

I was a compulsive liar until I started to really try to work on changing that. Now I am just a boring person.

[Anonymous No.5014702]

I'm convinced my life is going nowhere, though I still get up everyday, and I still try to make it come out better.

[Anonymous No.5014709]

I randomly got TMJ 5 days ago. I think I'm going to shoot myself in the jaw to relieve the pain.

[Anonymous No.5014710]

I will propose to my girlfriend of 4 years in the next few weeks, I've already picked up the ring but have to plan the proposal itself better

[Anonymous No.5014716]

I lost my virginity to a friend's mom at 14.

[Anonymous No.5014718]

Catch-22 or Confessions of a Mask, I can never decide which
When the guy I liked didn't find me sexually attractive I molested him into liking it

[Anonymous No.5014719]

>>5014702
are you me?

[Anonymous No.5014722]

>>5014700
is your life better or worse then? do you miss it? did you feel good doing it or not? why did you do it, just pathological or because you didn't want people to know the real you? i used to lie a lot and am thinking about coming back to it when i go out or something because i am very boring also.

[Anonymous No.5014727]

>>5014716
I fucked this guys mom when i was 11

[Anonymous No.5014736]

I'm a homosexual in a love affair with a domineering lesbian drug dealer.

[Anonymous No.5014760]

>>5014736
Sounds like a sitcom the US underground of the 90s would produce

[Anonymous No.5014778]

>>5014648
At the age of thirteen, I lost my virginity to a gypsy in greece.

[Anonymous No.5014800]

>>5014760

Sounds fucking hot is what it sounds, m8.

[Anonymous No.5014805]

I've been intensely infatuated with my roommate for the better part of a year and it's starting to become detrimental to my thought process and health.

[Anonymous No.5014806]

>>5014800
That is correct

[Anonymous No.5014807]

>>5014805
Ha, after my last girlfriend split up with me I got super into one of my female roommates with ginormous tits, that actually went fairly well, in retrospect..
It went well because I moved away half a year later, that situation could have turned into a huge clusterfuck

[Anonymous No.5014998]

This thread so far was good and deserves to be bumped.

[Anonymous No.5015047]

Pic related or Invisible Cities

Recently whenever I experience self loathing, especially in conjunction with being stressed, I have the strong desire to chop off my right hand. I get a subtle feeling in my hand when I think this, something like a warm tingling.

[Anonymous No.5015067]

I've defeated what was once crippling social anxiety.

[Anonymous No.5015091]

While the thought of having a child (at least at my current age) terrifies me, the idea of impregnation is incredibly arousing to me to the point of being a slight fetish. I suspect this is why I lately can't function normally using a condom, thanks god for the pill.

[Anonymous No.5015106]

i think i'll die alone

[Anonymous No.5015108]

>>5015106
you will

[Anonymous No.5015112]

I overcame my lack of self-confidence by being overly arrogant to such a degree that it was obvious I was joking. It worked until I couldn't control it and have now become obnoxiously arrogant despite being incredibly dull and have nothing worth bragging about.

I also have crippling issues with identity to the point where my attitudes depend on my company and I become overly influenced by fictional characters. When I look in the mirror I see a teenager staring at the shell of a 25 year old. I don't really know who I am.

[Anonymous No.5015122]

>>5015106
We all die alone. Even when surrounded by our loved ones we still die alone. Live together but die alone.

[Anonymous No.5015127]

>>5015112
>tfw this hits uncomfortably close to home

[Anonymous No.5015130]

>>5014710
do an extensive research to assure she's not being cheating on you lately/want to dump you butt don't know when
this shit happens too often

[Anonymous No.5015132]

>>5015112
depersonalisation disorder?

>Common descriptions of symptoms from sufferers include feeling disconnected from one's physicality or body, feeling detached from one's own thoughts or emotions, feeling as if one is disconnected from reality, and a sense of feeling as if one is dreaming or in a dreamlike state. In some cases, a person may feel an inability to accept their reflection as their own, or they may even have out-of-body experiences.[2] The disorder can also be described as suffering from recurrent episodes of surreal experiences, which may in some cases be reminiscent of panic attacks.

>In addition to these DPD symptoms, the inner turmoil created by the disorder can result in depression, self-harm, low self-esteem, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, extreme phobias (especially of losing their mind), etc. It can also cause a variety of physical symptoms, including chest pain, blurry vision, nausea, and pins and needles.

>Diagnostic criteria for depersonalization disorder includes, among other symptoms, persistent or recurrent feelings of detachment from one's mental or bodily processes.[3] A diagnosis is made when the dissociation is persistent and interferes with the social and/or occupational functions necessary for everyday living. Providing an accurate description through investigation has however proved challenging due to the subjective nature of depersonalization, sufferers' ambiguous use of language when describing episodes of depersonalization, and because the experiences of depersonalization overlap with those of derealization—a separate disorder.[4]

[Anonymous No.5015135]

I have never finished a videogame and this is the only literary novel i have ever finished (ironically its unfinished)

[Anonymous No.5015137]

>>5015132
Oh wow, I've never heard of that. Thanks, I'll have to look into it.

>>5015127
At least I know I'm not alone.

[Anonymous No.5015145]

>>5015130
This. No matter how much you love her and how great your relationship is going it's always better to be safe than sorry. Life is... Difficult.

[Anonymous No.5015152]

I'm really great at handstands and I spent last week getting drunk with a cute male friend who I want to fuck uncontrollably and after cuddle with while we talk about chemistry

[Anonymous No.5015166]

>>5015152
a-are you a girl?

[Anonymous No.5015169]

>>5015166
no

[Anonymous No.5015178]

I want to be a detective. Not a "deep" fact, but a fact nonetheless. The problem is I want want to go through the years of wandering around the streets telling kids to slow down on their bicycles.

[Anonymous No.5015186]

I lost my virginity at 23 to my cousin.

[Anonymous No.5015211]

>>5015135
Funnily enough I heard about that novel through a video game journalist.

I most certainly want to fuck my girlfriend's roommate.

[Anonymous No.5015219]

i am under aged

[Anonymous No.5015222]

>>5015211
mrbtongue is gr8 good taste lad

[Anonymous No.5015225]

Some nights, I wake up dissociated and convinced that I'm dead.

[Anonymous No.5015229]

>>5014800
It's about 50/50 between hot and completely farcical.

[Anonymous No.5015230]

>>5015222
New video was put up a day or two ago if you haven't seen it. Don't expect any vidya though.

[Anonymous No.5015238]

>>5015225
How do you convince yourself that you're not?

Could this be the afterlife you're living in now? Maybe you did die, but your consciousness transferred to another world line?

[Anonymous No.5015269]

>>5015238
It gets harder and harder.

At this point, I am fairly certain that I died 7 years ago

[Anonymous No.5015281]

>>5015269
What makes you so certain? What happened 7 years ago?

[Anonymous No.5015303]

>>5015219
My fav. as well. The dialogue is amazing

[Anonymous No.5015339]

>>5015281
It's hard to explain what makes me so certain; despite any empirical evidence to the contrary, some part of me simply knows.

I had a surgery 7 years ago. Afterwards, I started noticing changes in myself. It became harder to feel strong emotions, I stopped finding pleasure in things I used to enjoy, I withdrew socially, but it was mostly that I started to feel as if there was a thin film between me and life. I didn't attribute it to death at the time, but things got progressively worse as I aged to the point I'm at now.

It occurred to me a few months ago that I likely died on the operating table.

[Anonymous No.5015380]

>>5015067
Oh my god you are me.

[Anonymous No.5015543]

I am improving my life's quality by thriving on my own and other people's kindness.

[Anonymous No.5015568]

I believe nevertheless that I shall get her, in virtue, that is, of the absurd, in virtue of the fact that with God all things are possible.

[Anonymous No.5015580]

>>5015186
hliarious

[Anonymous No.5015721]

>>5015568
It goes against the grain for me to do what so often happens, to speak inhumanly about the great as if a few millennia were an immense distance. I prefer to speak humanly about it, as if it happened yesterday, and let only the greatness itself be the distance.

[Anonymous No.5015754]

I have nightmares virtually every night nowmore. I wish I never was born.

But most of the time I'm fine and my life is moving forward to great opportunities. I kind of wish I would enjoy myself more so I try to.

[Anonymous No.5015775]

I am horribly frightened of non-lit core literature. My ultimate nightmare would be to be locked in a cold, metal room where I have to read an obscure cuban novel and have to listen to LCD soundsystem for hours on loop.

[Anonymous No.5015804]

>>5014736
>I'm a homosexual in a love affair with a domineering lesbian drug dealer.
>reads burroughs
well that matches up at least

[Anonymous No.5015808]

>>5014805
man you need to get over that
like really

[Anonymous No.5015809]

>>5015775
your nightmare sounds like a pleasant Sunday afternoon to me, except possibly for the cold part.

[Anonymous No.5015817]

>>5014805
Sounds like you should either move out and/or make a move.

[Anonymous No.5015821]

I don't currently have a copy of Invisible Cities. I had to throw mine out after I vomited on it while really stoned.

[Anonymous No.5015822]

I'm going to die of pancreatic cancer sometime in the next 6 months or less. I wanted to use these last days to catch up on some classics, but then it feels pointless and I come to 4chan

[Anonymous No.5015842]

>>5015822
Can I have your books when you die?

[Anonymous No.5015850]

>>5015822
Dude. That's awful. How old are you, may I ask? I'm trying to rationalize not going to the doctor about the lump on my testicle. If you're much older than me, I'll feel better somehow.

[Anonymous No.5015851]

>>5015822
I've always wondered what I'd read if I knew I was going to die soon. Maybe The Brothers Karamazov.

[Anonymous No.5015877]

>>5015822
kek

[Anonymous No.5015896]

>>5015850
For fuck sake go you idiot. If not just slice your balls off now and be done with it.

[Anonymous No.5015916]

>>5015896
My fear of getting an awkward erection in the doctor's office outweighs my fear of death. I don't know why.

[Anonymous No.5015933]

>>5015916
I had an issue with my balls last year. There is nothing less arousing than having your balls grabbed by a doctor wearing a cold glove. Nothing.

[Anonymous No.5015939]

>>5015933
It doesn't sound arousing, you're right. But I'm a virgin. Another human hand has never touched that part of me. I'm still worried.

[Anonymous No.5015956]

>>5015939
It's okay, he'll be wearing gloves so it doesn't count as a first touch.Also your penis touched your mom's vagina when you were being born, so there's that.

[Anonymous No.5015964]

>>5015939
So am I.

Just don't knock one out before you go because of the delayed seepage.

Just go. I had never dropped my trousers in front of another human being but in the end the first person to see my junk was a Polish grandmother. Then an English milf. Then a Greek bloke. Then a Chinese student.

What a fucking night that was. All to be told that it was "just" severe swelling.

At least it was free on the NHS.

[Anonymous No.5015975]

>>5015964
Ha, your life sounds like a Philip Roth novel.

[Anonymous No.5015987]

>>5015964
>>5015956
Well, I guess I feel a little braver. Thanks for the encouragement, chaps.

[LEL No.5015990]

>>5015822
Listen to me. Do whatever the fuck you want, to the point you shouldn't even get to complete your expected life span. Go fuck people, spend fucktons of money and do al the fucking crazy stuff that people like us, who doesn't realize are mortals top woul do. Live life until it becomes your masterpiece.

[Anonymous No.5015992]

I'm a closeted faggot that is in love with an Arab, and I suspect he knows but is playing along with me being straight though I don't know why. I am also a compulsive liar, but not lying always, seeing as an anonymous, I could completely divulge these habits and could be honest about myself such as the first confession. Literature is my way of becoming less interesting by being more honest, so instead of lying, I could replace it with hot opinions.

[Anonymous No.5015998]

American Psycho, so fun to read.

[Anonymous No.5016001]

>>5015990
This. And avoid sugar. Based God.

[Anonymous No.5016008]

>>5015998
And... I'm a film school student.

[Anonymous No.5016061]

ITT: lost causes

[Anonymous No.5016070]

>>5016061
why you so mean?

[Anonymous No.5016077]

>>5014716
I laff'd
>>5014736
>I'm a homosexual in a love affair with a domineering lesbian drug dealer.
This resonates with me more than it should, lol

Fact: beat cancer, motherfuckers

[Anonymous No.5016096]

Walden

I tell friends I work a night shift at my job but I actually just drive people around. Kind of like a cut rate taxi driver.

[Anonymous No.5016098]

>>5014736
>OITNB

[Anonymous No.5016122]

I really love wearing Hawaiian shirts.

[Anonymous No.5016123]

>>5016077
>beat cancer
We'll see... My neighbour "beat" cancer 4 years ago. She came home the other week from a doctor's visit. Guess what? More cancer.

[Anonymous No.5016128]

>>5016122
forgot book

[Anonymous No.5016134]

>>5016128
are you one of those typical wannabe lebowskis?

you paint a horrible picture of yourself with this book and that scentence.
siddhartha isnt even a feel good book. it's a very introspective experience.

[Anonymous No.5016137]

>>5016134
Seems like you're making a lot of assumptions about a guy based on the shirts he wears...

[Anonymous No.5016143]

>>5016137
in fact, i do.
but you cant deny there is a stigma attached to hawaiian shirts.

[Anonymous No.5016157]

>>5016143
fuck off christ

[Anonymous No.5016158]

>>5016143
and you are feeding this stigma

[Anonymous No.5016168]

>>5016157
Stigma, not stigmata.

[Anonymous No.5016331]

>>5015543
That's a satisfying way to live through life, trust me

[Anonymous No.5016341]

>>5015822
Anon, do this (>>5015851 read it, or maybe Stoner) then do this (>>5015990), then again, I'm not in your position

[Anonymous No.5016367]

I cannot imagine ever leading a happy or successful life, yet I realize it is this mentality that is probably cementing my fears.

[Anonymous No.5016380]

>>5015990
This is such juvenile advice. I hate when people say this about suicidals too. "Why didn't they just go bla bla bla". You clearly do not have a proper grasp on human psyche.

[Anonymous No.5016401]

I want God to exist but I'm not convinced he does. I also hate myself.

[Anonymous No.5016410]

>>5014719
Do you also enjoy American post-modern writers more than you should?

[Anonymous No.5016422]

>>5016401
I don't want God to exists because the concept of God scares me, but I still have the nagging feeling that he might. I also hate myself.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » No.5016446]

>>5016401
>>5016422
There could be some kind of god-thing, but it's obviously of no earthly concern to us right now. I have no worries. I am quite happy, oddly enough, but not fully content.

[Anonymous No.5016490]

I think I may have contributed to my mom's death. I'm not 100% sure though, and I've never talked to anyone about it.

[Anonymous No.5016506]

I did not get into a nice college and so my career path is mediocre and I feel like my entire life is a failure even though I'm only 18. I actually want to kill myself when I think about my friends all going off to good places and the guaranteed decent life they will have because of that. I am worthless.

[Anonymous No.5016512]

>>5016506
Most people will end up working shit jobs they don't like. Those 4 years are going to be the best of their lives.

[Anonymous No.5016518]

>>5016512
Exactly. And I don't get the four years, I just go straight to the shit job I don't like. I blame capitalism in our collegiate system.

[Anonymous No.5016522]

>>5016506

At least you are going away for college, right?

I live with my parents and go to community college. I haven't had any friends in two years.

[Anonymous No.5016533]

>>5016522
I'm doing what you're doing. My parents are having me stay in this city and go to CC. All of my friends are leaving so I will be alone. Plus it only makes sense for me to keep living at my parents' house, and that has long run it's course.

[Anonymous No.5016541]

>>5016446
>no earthly concern to us right now
I get this. But what I don't understand is why is one's acting of faith (either through praying or doing good deeds in the name of god) necessary? When you factor out religion, an atheist's life runs the same as a theist's. There is no earthly presence of god...Because a god is testing our faith? I don't see how any rational person can buy that. I'm gonna stop there, don't really want to turn this thread into a religious debate.

[Anonymous No.5016543]

I secretly wish I develop terminal cancer so I'd have an excuse to quit work and live a hedonistic lifestyle for a few months

[Anonymous No.5016693]

I'm afraid of showing any genuine emotion and I feel like that's ruining my life.

[Anonymous No.5016701]

>>5015225
Same here bro

[Anonymous No.5016715]

I'm against most forms of government and currency. I've also recently been more self-observing in the search for my own inner truths. Best wishes to those with pure intentions.

[Anonymous No.5016758]

I am currently writing the novel that will destroy post-modernism and will start a revolution that will recreate individuality and spark a renaissance of art of intellectualism.

[Anonymous No.5016767]

>>5016758
sure kidq

[Anonymous No.5016773]

>>5015106
That will be the only thing you will ever be 100% correct in your entire life.

[Anonymous No.5016779]

>>5016758
m8 email me

[Anonymous No.5016780]

I don't believe in God but I'm truly terrified of dying. Sometimes at night I'll go to kitchen for water and expect someone to be waiting there to kill me. It's really made connecting with people progressively difficult and I can only be close to a certain number of people.

I guess this is why I connected w this book so much

[Anonymous No.5016781]

>>5015112
So...you wanna grab some beers and talk about it. Because we have a lot in common.
Not in a gay way, you degenerate fuck, I mean as two boring people who are brilliant at sounding interesting.

[Anonymous No.5016789]

>>5015225
same

[Anonymous No.5016793]

>>5015178
The problem with this upcoming generation is you don't understand what it means to pay your dues.
You just think you deserve everything like pretentious little fucking faggots

[Anonymous No.5016805]

>>5015112
that's the same way I overcame it in tenth grade, it got me lots of friends and girls too. People found me funny and life was good despite the fact that I didn't try at all in school. I dropped out later that year and afterward started focusing on my sense of self. It took taking 3 tabs of acid to finally realize that there is a higher power that connects everything. Observe yourself and go deep anon, you'll find the truth within.

[Anonymous No.5016819]

>>5016061
All of the worlds greatest writers and artists would be considered lost causes in today's society.

[Anonymous No.5016830]

>>5016401
he doesn't hate you
he just can't stand to be with you because you hurt him
you moved on after him
you left him
and he tried so hard to be who you wanted to be
and you lied to him
and every single time you try to talk to him you remind him of every failure he has been apart of
and there is only one he cares about
you

[Anonymous No.5016831]

>>5016793
go to bed grampa

[Anonymous No.5016834]

>>5016779
Why?
>>5016767
It will finally give this generation a meaning, a voice, and a purpose.

[Anonymous No.5016838]

>>5016831
No, but seriously.
There is shit you have to do to become a detective, beat is one of them. So do it, or stop fucking complaining about the requirements.

[Anonymous No.5016839]

>>5015380
>favorite book is blood meridian
>had social anxiety

she (maybe he) is about every youth ever

[Anonymous No.5016860]

I talk to myself constantly, and I do mean constantly.

[Anonymous No.5016866]

>>5016758
What will you do when you fail?

Also mine is The Catcher in the Rye, read it when i was 15 or 16 and it made sense then.

I think I'm going to die soon, that's why I'm not doing anything for myself and secluding myself from friends. Don't think I will live longer than next few years, felt like that since i was 6-8 years old. Probably because I saw some awesome movie with similar plot, can't remember,

[Anonymous No.5016884]

>>5014674

That's awareness, friend, not mental instability.

If you are open, I could tell you ways to center this all encompassing perception.

[Anonymous No.5016886]

>>5016838

According to the books i´ve read, i just have to use a lot of sarcasm in communication and drink plenty of alcohol; maybe smoke some cigarettes as well.

[Anonymous No.5016952]

>>5016522
vasiliy is that you?

[Anonymous No.5016961]

>>5016834
so I can see what you are trying to do and have a hearty chuckle

[Anonymous No.5016995]

>>5016866
Failure is something that is only temporary.
Everyone fails. Those who succeed are the ones who failed the most.

[Anonymous No.5017003]

>>5016961
What?

>>5016866
Also, Catcher is a GREAT book when you're a teenager. But now it's time to read Salinger by David Shields and Shane Salerno and then re-read Catcher. It gives it a whole new meaning.

[Anonymous No.5017030]

I am going to University to get a degree in Writing because while I do not possess any great skill in it, it is the only thing I think I am even slightly above average in. I have few friends and I don't have a job. My parents are paying for my University just to get me off the couch, though I feel I will also owe them for it in a few years time. I do not believe I have the skill or determination to make anything of my degree and am only going to University for a few years of hedonistic relaxation. I feel bad for my parents on some level but I am weak and I see this as the only pathway to an easy life no matter how temporary. The logical side of my brain sees me as a leech on society and art as nothing more than a distraction for the weak. The emotional side enjoys this distraction and doesn't give a fuck if it's a leech on society. Unfortunately I lack the grit to either make something of myself or kill myself, so I will most likely float around in a jobless limbo for the next decade destroying my parents lives until someone kills me in a bar fight or I get a job at McDonalds and accept my fate.

[Anonymous No.5017033]

I'm completely straight edge and I love books that are heavily influenced by drugs

[Anonymous No.5017037]

>>5017033
me too. I am very interested in drug culture but too afraid to take part

[Anonymous No.5017061]

>>5017030

Dude, just get a STEM degree or something pragmatic like every other aimless loser and at least you'll have a comfortably depressed life.

[Anonymous No.5017062]

I don't think there's a god, but I don't know enough about science or the universe to know for sure

[Anonymous No.5017064]

>>5014648
I sometimes daydream about getting married, having a kid or two, then leaving my family, cancelling my life insurance, writing a hateful suicide note to wife and kids, mailing it to them, then shooting myself in the head while kneeling in front of a mirror, surrounded by a semicircle of my favorite books.

[Anonymous No.5017072]

>>5017061
you have to go to grad school to do anything with a stem degree and then you end up with a shitty lab tech if you don't give your life up to academia

[RIcky No.5017074]

I'm unemployed living off my life savings.
The plan is read books and take photos until the money runs out and then shoot myself.
Nice thread.

[Anonymous No.5017182]

>>5017064
But why?

[Anonymous No.5017221]

I don't have any opinions on any subject, I argue different things with different crowds, it makes me sound interesting when in reality I'm probably the least interesting person around.

[Anonymous No.5017240]

>>5014648
I'm really into the idea of chaos, but I hate to live without order

[Anonymous No.5017273]

>>5017240
Oh man, that fact describes me perfectly and I've been wanting to read Rayuela for a long time now. Bumping it up on my to-read list.

[Anonymous No.5017301]

>>5015112
>I overcame my lack of self-confidence by being overly arrogant to such a degree that it was obvious I was joking. It worked until I couldn't control it and have now become obnoxiously arrogant despite being incredibly dull and have nothing worth bragging about.

The feels man. I know these feels.

[Anonymous No.5017316]

>>5015091
great fucking choice.

[Anonymous No.5017333]

I have a superiority complex which leads to me being abrasive to other people.

I try to not be condescending, but it is really difficult for me. Most people I meet seem to be very childlike. I really can't figure out if it is something wrong with me or if most people really are so mentally childish. Judging on the numbers alone it is probably just me.

I also compulsively make white lies when there really is no reason or purpose to them.

As for the book, it's a tossup between it and Gravity's Rainbow.

[Anonymous No.5017344]

>>5015106
Watch Donnie Darko if you haven't.

[Anonymous No.5017355]

>>5017344
Why if I may ask?

[Anonymous No.5017357]

I have been writing fanfiction since I was in middle school, and I actually still write it to this day. Writing fanfiction at the start was what inspired me to want to be a writer, which in turn is what really fostered my love of reading.

Nowadays, I use it to experiment with my writing style. It allows me to try new things stylistically without the added burden of developing setting and characters.

[Anonymous No.5017379]

>>5017333
I feel the very same. People sicken me with how immature, simple and shallow they all appear so I go without friends, but at the end of the day I always feel sad that I don't have any friends because I appreciate the concept and wish someone could truly love or even appreciate me and I could do the same for them back.

[Anonymous No.5017388]

>>5017344
Go back to /b/ if you haven't.

[Anonymous No.5017392]

>>5017221
10/10

Fully tapped into the ethos of the Unique One.

[Anonymous No.5017398]

>>5017074
Do some drugs in the meantime. Reading on acid is pretty dope.

[Anonymous No.5017411]

>>5017355
>i think i'll die alone
The film addresses that. It was a weird experience for me, kind of a weird nostalgia trip. If you watch it, I hope you enjoy it.

[Tallis !!DxrlCMGAS2J No.5017416]

>>5017357
>357▶
>File: gw1zb4.jpg (291 KB, 799x594)

[Anonymous No.5017417]

>>5017388
As a matter of fact, I'm there right now.

[Anonymous No.5017452]

>>5015339
What kind of surgery? Do you do any drugs?

[Anonymous No.5017455]

>>5017273
It is truly a life-changing experience.

[Anonymous No.5017460]

>>5017379
I have two good friends. They are mature and adult in their way of thinking and we get along nicely.

They know what kind of a person I am, and that I have severe arrogance problems, but they see past that. I like them, and I assume that they somewhat like me.

As for someone to "love", I have never even met a person I would consider for that role. I do see myself having trouble maintaining a relationship with the personality flaws that I have. It seems like a very, I don't know, "odd" thing to say, but I can't imagine a girl ever loving a person like me. I don't have enough redeeming qualities. I am wealthy and decently good-looking, but my personality a shit.

Don't mean to use this thread as a blog of sorts, but I feel like I need to vent.

[Anonymous No.5017469]

>book
Ulysses
>fact
I was struggling with schiophrenia and maniac depressive bi polar disorder since i was 9.
Ive tried killing myself 7 times, first when i was 10 i jumped in front of car.
My life now resolves around drinking every evening and hanging out with friends. I live of annuity.

[Anonymous No.5017479]

>>5017469
Do you still try killing yourself?

How the fuck did you fail 7 times?

[Anonymous No.5017486]

>>5016693
Do you feel like you have a moral obligation to sacrifice parts of yourself for society? Are you 16-19?

[Anonymous No.5017516]

>>5017486
I'm not him, but
>I really liked TBK
Confirmed
>Feel like him
Confirmed
>Do you feel like you have a moral obligation to sacrifice parts of yourself for society? Are you 16-19?
Confirmed and Confirmed

What the fuck.

[Anonymous No.5017529]

I have social anxiety and sometimes I get depressed. I don't have any friends. Sometimes I wish I had a girlfriend, but I wouldn't know how the whole process works, and I don't think I could keep a girl interested in me.

[Anonymous No.5017542]

>>5017529
>wouldn't

I meant don't*.

[Anonymous No.5017556]

>>5017516
Take some time to think about how much you're willing to give up for people and for what end. Do you believe a distant utopia? Do you want to serve as a counterbalance to social loafing? Do you seek to maximize the happiness of people around you in a utilitarian fashion? Find out why you feel like martyring yourself and realize sometimes there are parts of yourself you wont be able to give.

I was 16 when I was going through an existential crisis and picked up TBK. I'm 17 now.

[Anonymous No.5017571]

>>5017529
Suppose you daydreaming and are caught doing something whistling a silly song by someone who then gives you a sincere ear to ear smile/chuckle. You weren't really aware of his/her presence until s/he smiled at you.

Is this person a male or female in your imagination?

Is s/he your age or peer?

Do you smile back to him/her?

If you did smile, what is your thought process for smiling? If you did not, etc.

[Anonymous No.5017592]

>>5017556
Thanks bro.

I am 19 and I read TBK last year. I will take your advice nevertheless

[Anonymous No.5017607]

>>5017592
It's always nice to know someone else out there shares parts of your philosophy. Thank you too.

[Anonymous No.5017617]

>>5017571
>Is this person a male or female in your imagination?

Female.

>Is s/he your age or peer?

I'm in my early twenties. She's in her late twenties.

>Do you smile back to her?

Yes.

>If you did smile what is your thought process for smiling? If you did not, etc.

Since I detect the sincerity in her smile/chuckle, I don't automatically become cold and/or defensive, so I smile, happy and amused that she thought it was funny, and slightly embarrassed that she heard me.

[Anonymous No.5017695]

>>5017479
it's called a desperate cry for attention, teenage girls cut themselves so they can show off their scars.

[Anonymous No.5017728]

>>5017617
Are you smiling because you are happy because she's happy or because she's looking at you and you want to keep her happy?

I personally found that once I started doing things for myself (working out because I liked doing, playing the guitar not so I could tell people I played but bc I liked messing with sounds, etc.) the neurotic logic that presented in my social anxiety lessened.

Instead of imagining reasons your hypothetical gf might be unsatisfied with you think of what kind of person you'd want your girlfriend to be.

Sorry for the armchair psych

[Anonymous No.5017837]

>>5017486
>Do you feel like you have a moral obligation to sacrifice parts of yourself for society?
Not any more than average, maybe even the opposite is true, as in I frequently don't want to associate with society at all. However, I've always felt a particularly strong empathy towards the underprivileged, victims, losers etc.
>Are you 16-19?
yes

[Anonymous No.5017961]

>>5016693
Same, I love to distance myself from genuine experience via irony to avoid pain or discomfort.

[Anonymous No.5017974]

>>5016693
>>5017961
DFW wuz right

[Anonymous No.5017986]

>>5017974
I haven't read him yet
How related is he to my feel?
Should I bump him to the top of my list?

[Anonymous No.5017990]

>>5016410
i do but without a sense of guilt about it
i tried to go back to some classics but they dont feel right anymore
>tfw trapped in postmodern

[Anonymous No.5018000]

>I genuinely believe I will be 21st century most respected intellectual

>>5016758

The race is on bitch

[Anonymous No.5018001]

>>5017986
What I've read of his fiction isn't quite so applicable to your feel, but read his essay 'E Unibus Pluram.'

[Anonymous No.5018002]

>>5017986
One of Infinite Jest's main characters, Hal Incandenza. suffers dearly from "your" feel

read it

[Anonymous No.5018008]

>>5018002
not the anon you're replying to, but Hal is only disaffected. He isn't using irony as a device to distance himself.

[Anonymous No.5018010]

>book
Don quijote
>fact
I'm a masochist

[Anonymous No.5018017]

>>5018008
Oops was mean't to reply to the guy that is afraid of showing genuine emotion, not mr.irony

[rebecca No.5018023]

I used to be head over heels for my boyfriend but somewhere along the line of our relationship something changed. I think it was me. I don't want to be with him forever yet I'm terrified of him breaking up with me.

I might cheat on him soon.

[Anonymous No.5018024]

i'm bipolar and recently underwent months of electroconvulsive therapy to treat bipolar depression. also, i can't figure out if i'm gay or not. i am only romantically attracted to women, but through months of crippling depression i've been pretty much celibate, and now sleeping with men is starting to sound appealing to me because it will take much less effort.

i posted this as a thread accidentally but i reported myself so it will be deleted. i meant to post it in here.

[Anonymous No.5018038]

>>5018000
Brother, or sister, I do not wish to race against you. Let us race together feeding off of each others draft. An individual victory is not what must be desired. We must carry each other into the future and define our generation who has their identity taken from their grasp by rich old men. Neither of us must be Ceaser crossing the Rubicon to start a Civil War.

[Anonymous No.5018074]

I'm an eco-fascist. I want to reinstate Mussolini's government but without the anti-antisemitism. I want to abolish all copyright law. Also, instead of killing off the degenerates of the earth (autists, the poor,the lazy, the overweight, etc) I think the ideal society should give them welfare and pay them just enough to live in shitty government projects far removed from civilization and fuck off for the rest of their lives. Everyone wins.

[Anonymous No.5018082]

>>5018038

I know what you're going for, yet I also am aware of how it'll end. I can't join you no matter how much I identify with you.

>Brother, or sister, I do not wish to race against you.

Let's be realistic: that's exactly what brothers do.

[Anonymous No.5018083]

I'm young and black in America, I've never experienced true racism outside of books or 4chan.

I dont completely understand it and am terrified of random violence or hatred when I'm on my own.

[Anonymous No.5018092]

>>5018082
Competition is a healthy practice, but we need not obsess in individual certainties and victories. We must clamor together, just for a little while, to place our flag. Then, once we have built our own track, can we race against one another.

[Anonymous No.5018094]

>I don't know where, in 2-6 weeks, I'll be living and what I'll be doing.

[Anonymous No.5018097]

>>5018083
>>5018083
That fear is not derived from inside you. That is purely and outside influence created by American news media and society that plagues us. Everyone lives in fear now. It's called Post Traumatic 9/11 Syndrome

[Anonymous No.5018115]

>>5018097

Are you saying that i have nothing to fear?
I know that their are extreme people out there and I know I have to keep up a guard. Is this wrong?

[Anonymous No.5018133]

>>5018092

>We must clamor together, just for a little while

To me that reads

>You just let me win, for a little while

Nope anon. You need order, I need chaos

[Anonymous No.5018140]

>>5018115
There are bad people, but the news is manipulating.

[Anonymous No.5018144]

>>5018140
>Tips fedora

[Anonymous No.5018145]

>>5018133
There is chaos all around us.
What we have to do is manifest it to create calm.

[Anonymous No.5018201]

>>5016522
I had to live with my parents for my last year of college. It was pretty rough. I transferred schools a couple of times and finally started making friends in the last year, but I was too far away to ever see any of them. I got a job straight out of college, and I'm going to get an apartment in August by my past college. I guess I'm going to try to compensate for last year.

[Anonymous No.5018250]

>>5017333
>>5017379
Have you two read Steppenwolf? I found the message ridiculously obvious, but it sounds like you might actually benefit from it.

[Anonymous No.5018258]

>>5014648
Watership Down, Richard Adams

I was raped at 10 years old.

[Anonymous No.5018271]

>>5018258
Nice!

[Anonymous No.5018276]

>>5017333
>>5017379
Red Crime and Punishment

[Anonymous No.5018277]

Blood Meridian

>I've worked for both Google and twitter

[Anonymous No.5018283]

>>5018276
No, Blue Crime & Punishment.

[Anonymous No.5018307]

>>5017030
age

[Anonymous No.5018388]

>>5016522
>>5016533
I'm like the opposite of you guys. I was the only one of my friends to go to college at all after graduating, they're still just hanging out at the same few places with each other all the time 3 years later, the only thing different is that I'm not there.
I've made a lot of friends in college, though, and I kinda feel a little bad for saying it but I really wish my hometown friends would start to grow the fuck up intellectually. Two or three of my closest ones are smart but some others are dumb as a fucking rock and seems like they're just going to waste away

[Anonymous No.5018435]

My life is a pathetic spiral of dysfunctional laziness and internet addiction and I know that if I keep up this lifestyle I'm fucked and my hopes, dreams, and ambitions are history but I'm lost as to how to move along and start over.

>tfw this mental sacktap of a book was the first thing to make me want to change

[Anonymous No.5018437]

>>5018094
Anon that is my favorite book too.
Facts:
>I fear I am not good enough to do anything everything i plan revolves around having backups just in case.

>I got my first blowjob in the pitch dark surrounded by like ten girls who were sleeping

[Anonymous No.5018536]

>>5017990
We are each other.

[Anonymous No.5018665]

>>5018277
At what capacity? I have questions.

[Anonymous No.5018668]

>>5018271
lel, so bad

[Anonymous No.5018680]

>>5016819
By my standards, they're fine. You fucks, however, are fucked by any measure.

[Anonymous No.5018690]

>>5018000
>trying this hard

[Anonymous No.5018713]

I try to live a pretty minimalist lifestyle overall but buy records and books compulsively whenever I come into some extra money. I just got my student aid check that was left over after paying for my summer courses and I've got 8 records and 15 books in the mail right now, after going to a couple used bookstores and record shops too.

Book is a tie between pic and Labyrinths by Borges

[Anonymous No.5018716]

>>5016096
So you're an uber driver?

[Anonymous No.5018757]

Favorite book... Don't have one they are all pieces of work.

And I am a very indecisive person

[Anonymous No.5018759]

>>5018680
They're fine because they wrote something.
Most were low down alcoholics, depressed war vets, and drug abusers with nothing left to do but write or paint. Most were disturbed their whole life by mental illness, felt exiled by society, or committed suicide.

You have proven that you know absolutely nothing.

[Anonymous No.5018781]

All I see in myself is weakness.

[Anonymous No.5018792]

I've done some sexy stuff with not exactly legal people.

Otherwise I'm a pretty cool guy with a job and a qt3.14 girlfriend.

[Anonymous No.5018794]

>>5017221
Holy crap, you're me. Or I'm you. Or maybe both Unique.

[Anonymous No.5018811]

>>5016543
You don't need one. That said, living a hedonistic lifestyle is not fulfilling

[Anonymous No.5018828]

>>5018792
sexually exploiting undocumented immigrants?
for shame...

[Anonymous No.5018834]

I don't care enough to live my life, or to end it.

[Anonymous No.5018844]

The Crock of Gold by James Stephens.

The most enjoying thing for me ever has been playing esea on cs 1.6.

[Anonymous No.5018845]

I was pretty suicidal before I came to /lit/ and now I'm only sort of suicidal. I can't stand the thought of dying with out leaving a work of art behind now.

[Anonymous No.5018849]

>>5018845
Tru

[Anonymous No.5018854]

>>5014648
I believe that optimism is cowardice

[Anonymous No.5018885]

>>5015112
I know this exact feel.

I "overcame" it by forgetting everything that was outside of myself and focusing on my character. Focus on your character, who you want to be, and everything else falls into place.

[Anonymous No.5018890]

>>5017728

woah anon i'm not even him but i think you got a great reflexion over there, would you mind to elaborate some more?

[Anonymous No.5018897]

>>5014700
Suttree is mine too.

Fact: I am a closet alcoholic

[Anonymous No.5018915]

I have a really hard time producing words. sometimes I freeze up in conversation and literally can't think of words to say. I also struggle a lot with whether or not I'm a real person and my identity in general. my mind is constantly in a fog

[Anonymous No.5018921]

>>5014648
I'm a philosophy major.

[Anonymous No.5018924]

>>5015339

Did you do an opiate regimen after the surgery? I did a month long oxy-regimen at age 12 and I don't think I've released more dopamine than that in the 10 years that followed. I'm convinced it's destroyed my motivations for sex, adventure, and basically fucked my reward system, leaving me completely numb to life.

[Anonymous No.5018929]

Sometimes, for reasons I can't explain coherently, I'll feel confused and guilty and weak and stupid and ugly and unwanted, and I'll get dizzy just thinking about how complicated and intractable the world's problems are or at least seem to be, and how petty and small and selfish my own 'problems' are by comparison, and I'll just get the sense that there's absolutely no consolation for me or anyone,

-- and then I'll masturbate or drink something alcoholic and sleep, and then go back to browsing 4chan and reading Wikipedia.

Suffice to say I'm very happy I found Kafka.

[Anonymous No.5018935]

>>5016839
a he (the first guy)

[Anonymous No.5018936]

>>5017062
Spoiler alert: nobody does.

[Anonymous No.5018937]

>>5018921
Yeah, that sounds about right.

[Anonymous No.5018954]

>>5018145
>>5018133

Looks like we have Yin & Yang.

[Anonymous No.5018958]

Sometimes I see dark, human-like figures, but I can never get a good look at them. My grandma says they're demons. My mom says I don't get enough sleep.

[Anonymous No.5018960]

I don't feel fulfilled doing anything.
I also have an identity crisis every week or so.

[Anonymous No.5019003]

>>5018954
I will destroy him.

[RIcky No.5019934]

>>5017398
I'm familiar with drugs and know that I get no reading done when I take them.
I will have a few whiskeys tonight, though, it being Bloomsday and all.

I'm adding a few of the books mentioned here to the list.

[Anonymous No.5019939]

>>5014805
write a book about it later

[Anonymous No.5019953]

>>5018958
When did you start seeing them? I'm OP by the way, not that it matters I guess.

[Anonymous No.5019955]

>>5018921
Were you the guy that put your dick on Mira Gonzalez? Or was that some other Philosophy Major?

[Anonymous No.5019956]

>>5015543
that's a nice thing to see, mario

[Anonymous No.5019958]

I have a savant ability for remembering plot, metaphor and dates as well as historical events due to an epileptic fit causing me to suffer a blow to the head when I was 13 (I'm not an autist, I've checked)

[Anonymous No.5019965]

>>5019958
autism

[Anonymous No.5019973]

>>5019958
Have you read infinite jest?
It would be really nice to have someone who absorbed that megalith of a text completely.

[Anonymous No.5019978]

>>5018921
Were you the guy that put your dick on Mira Gonzalez's stomach? Or was that some other Philosophy major?

[Anonymous No.5019984]

>>5018924
This is why I'm so frightened of doing Molly. I know a guy who did Molly and is completely inarticulate/unimpressed with everything and it kills me to see him like that.

[Anonymous No.5019996]

>>5016341
Stoner is probably the right choice

[Anonymous No.5019999]

>>5019965
sure buddy, assume what you want to

>>5019973
I'll try it out, is it fair to assume I won't find it in Dymocks or any other similar mass appeal bookshop?

[Anonymous No.5020049]

I am convinced that I am better than anyone else, yet I hate myself

[Anonymous No.5020076]

>>5020049
Notes From Underground is the perfect for you

[Anonymous No.5020108]

I peed sitting down all my life cuz i was lazy as fuck and i didnt want to stand. 4chan told me that i was a feminist.

[Anonymous No.5020127]

>>5014648
>not being able to handle acid

how's it feel to have the mind of a pleb?

[Anonymous No.5020155]

>>5016380
Thank god, a working brain. Keep it up, anon.

[Anonymous No.5020161]

>>5020127
>doing acid
how does it feel to be a pleb?

[Anonymous No.5020162]

The Name of the Wind.

I have almost no emotion towards Hunan beings. excluding my family and my girlfriend. Not my friends or people on the street. Also, I think I might of lost some of my conscience, since I believe I could actually kill without feeling remorse. Some people need to stop living. . . oh and I won't go postal, too lazy xD

[Anonymous No.5020191]

I met my current roommate off Tinder and found out she was an anti-semite after we signed the lease

[Anonymous No.5020201]

>>5020162
Crime and Punishment


Go

[Anonymous No.5020222]

>>5014648
I still think I am destined for greatness and glory, even though I'm anxious and afraid of almost everything.

[Anonymous No.5020273]

>>5020201
do what?

[Anonymous No.5020285]

i told everyone i'm bi to try to avoid too much persecution -- i'm actually gay -- but all that's happened is everyone treats me straight except all the ugly gays

[Anonymous No.5020287]

>>5020273
read C+P

[Anonymous No.5020319]

>>5020162
XDDDDDDDDDD
>>5020222
I think the same thing anon, I think the same thing, just trust yourself more.

[Anonymous No.5020324]

>>5020285
Favorite book?

[Anonymous No.5020329]

>>5020324
pale fire

[Anonymous No.5020332]

I've convinced myself that I'm the Chosen One

[Anonymous No.5020334]

>>5019003

I was expecting a Highlander reference.

[Anonymous No.5020409]

At a weird point in my life, I'd found that I couldn't any longer get off to the thought or image of women having sex with men. The ladies could be getting it on with inanimate objects or with animals or those mysterious noodly appendages the Nips have a national fetish for, but never a man, oh no.

Strangely, black people were the exception. I figured this was because I'd subconsciously failed to recognize them as human.

[Anonymous No.5020452]

>>5020409
or you've accepted your inferiority to the bbc

[Anonymous No.5020453]

I really enjoy rolling green hills bordered by flat plain and woods.

[Anonymous No.5020455]

>>5017221
this is like me

I am going to read that book now

>>5017392
what is the unique one?

[Anonymous No.5020468]

>>5018023
this is the least interesting post in the thread

[Anonymous No.5020481]

>>5018435
throw your computer against the wall

[Anonymous No.5020493]

>>5020334
>there can only be one

[Anonymous No.5020496]

I finally found the courage to ask a girl I liked in highschool if she want to go out with me sometime, but it (the moment when I asked her) was awkward as fuck. Even though she actually agreed, we never mentioned it again.

[Anonymous No.5020516]

>>5020496
every single girl in high school who found me attractive (there were a shitton) and decided to approach me, instantly stopped approaching me when I started to talk back to them

[Anonymous No.5020533]

>>5014710
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SUPREME FAGGOT.

Enjoy your rigged game.

[Anonymous No.5020549]

>>5020533
what does this mean? I am not that anon

[Anonymous No.5020553]

>>5020455
Read the book it's life-changing, people here try to give it the fedora stamp because it's increasing in popularity.

[Anonymous No.5020561]

>>5020516
that feel when this is me in college
I also tend to not notice the subtle flirts and only realize ater the fact
Why do I have to be socially retarted

[Anonymous No.5020613]

>>5017033
>>5017037
You're not missing a whole lot

[Anonymous No.5020630]

In 10th grade I was awarded by the state for being an "exemplary young musician" for writing and preforming jazz pieces. I have horrible self-esteem though and as a result completely quit music the next year.

[Anonymous No.5020654]

>>5020630
>writing jazz pieces
ehm, what?

[Anonymous No.5020658]

>>5020654
writing music

[Anonymous No.5020659]

>>5015152
pls be in london

[Anonymous No.5020663]

>>5020561
does this mean you overcame

if so , how?

[Anonymous No.5020676]

I just now found out how much /lit/ is full of themselves. I know it's idiotic

[Anonymous No.5020768]

I am ashamed even to confess this anonymously, but I think that, if I keep writing and improving and my health doesn’t fail me, I will become a great poet and playwright. I have an extreme facility with metaphors, and this is probably the only thing in my life that makes me proud of myself.

About dark secrets, I may say that I have terrifying outbursts of anxiety disorder. I have always been an anxious person, but after I collapsed one day in a class about Forensic Pathology (seeing the shattered corpses of infants, with fixed milky-cornea eyes staring at nothing, and open mouths filled with dried blood) the fear of fainting and the consequential shame have become a constant phantom in my life. After that the anxiety spread to several areas, including my writing (there were times that, when I sited down to write my lungs would stop working, my hearth would madly pump with tachycardia and my brain be drowned with dizziness and a strange and unpleasant feeling of lightness). I managed to fight it, but some days it awakens again, and there it is: chaos again.

I have managed to live several different experiences in my life, something that helps me in my writing. I am currently interested in agriculture and am making a small Vegetable farming and orchard.

I had slept with some very beautiful girls (am currently thinking in dating), but I also enjoyed going to brothels and sleep with prostitutes, some of which became friends. I contracted HPV, and recently submitted myself to a surgery to remove the warts.

Going to be published the first time this year. I am being more tormented by fear than excited and happy with it.

[Anonymous No.5020791]

>>5020768

top kek. are you that portuguese faggot that always drones on about how shakespeare is the greatest writer?

[Anonymous No.5020801]

>>5020791

No

[Anonymous No.5020819]

>>5020791

Man, where has that guy been, I quite like him

[Anonymous No.5020831]

>>5020791
>>5020819

I don’t know who that guy is. I am Italian.

[Anonymous No.5020844]

>>5020658
my point was jazz pieces aren't usually composed in advance

[Anonymous No.5020862]

>>5020844
Are you saying that jazz music is 100% improvised?

[Anonymous No.5020881]

>>5020862
There's normally pre-written changes and head, and then you blow over changes. I don't know what do you mean by "improvised" though. Nobody just conjures everything on the spot, obviously, but it doesn't make it pre-written.

[Anonymous No.5020894]

>>5020881
>There's normally pre-written changes and head, and then you blow over changes.
Ok yeah that's exactly what I was saying.

[Anonymous No.5020897]

Like the Italian fellow above me, I legitimately think I could become known as a great published writer, to the extent that - at age twenty - I think I might already be crafting my one true masterpiece, the first novel to successfully mix together young adult, literary fiction and postmodernism. I legitimately think the story is good enough to be recognised as the next big thing. This sort of worries me, because apparently you're not supposed to have that much confidence in your writing abilities (I posted the aforementioned fact in a 'what's your best publishing hook?' thread on reddit and got downvoted to fuck) but I do, to the extent that I predict pulling a Harper Lee and not writing anything afterwards could be a good move, because I just can't see myself topping the vision I have in my head.

[Anonymous No.5020938]

>>5020676
>translated by allen mandelbaum
I own Metamorphoses and Aeneid translations of his, is the translation of the Divine Comedy as good?

[Anonymous No.5020950]

>>5020768
post something you wrote

[Anonymous No.5021037]

I've been having anxiaty attacks for the past 2 years

[Anonymous No.5021268]

>>5020453

Are they also your favourite films?

[Anonymous No.5021384]

i guess i'm the only brazilian here in /lit/

[Anonymous No.5021857]

>>5021384

No, just the only one with shit taste.

[Anonymous No.5022075]

>>5020819

why?