/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.4437490]

Hey /lit/. Do you have a diary/journal/Captain's Log?

Please, post a picture of it. Share a passage if you'd like, too. I'll share one if someone else does.

Also, let me see a view of your beautiful handwriting.

[Anonymous No.4437502]

Keep it online because I have no patience for hand writing things. I really wish I did, though. I have it set up in folders by year, and then I mark the date and time for each entry as the title.

[Anonymous No.4437507]

>>4437502
Cool, how far back have you been typing it up?

[Anonymous No.4437516]

Only I understand my writing, sometimes.

[Anonymous No.4437523]

>>4437516
this shit is like Notes from Underground

[Anonymous No.4437525]

>>4437516
You've gotta be one of the most self-absorbed losers who comes here. At least, I hope it doesn't come worse than you.

[Anonymous No.4437545]

>>4437516
Don't worry, your chicken scratch is better than mine.

[Anonymous No.4437546]

>>4437525
FUck off

Its a dream journal, what did you expect?

[Anonymous No.4437550]

Poseur General ?

[Anonymous No.4437554]

>>4437545
Okay, I have to apologize on that last "too". I wrote that at like, one in the morning.

[Anonymous No.4437560]

I started keeping a dream journal. This morning's entry I must have wrote when I was still half asleep
>low calorie fruits and useless frilly umbrellas
What does it all mean?

[Anonymous No.4437575]

>>4437560
You are secretly harboring the fact you want to act like a young lady.

That, or you desire class and weight loss.

[Anonymous No.4437585]

>>4437490
Just a small notebook filled with reminders of specific memories, used to get nostalgic when I was newer to getting high and I if I walked around my hometown or an old school I remembered all sorts of things from my childhood that I normally wouldn't be able to dredge up. Some of it is just names because that's enough to make me remember where they were from, some are small descriptions of events. Started doing it sober later and it's gotten to a decent size now

[Anonymous No.4437637]

Ok.

[Anonymous No.4437654]

>>4437637
This was in response to my perpetual wavering. I am as I am because I want to be. I am as I am because I don't know what I want.

It's less of a journal and what's on my mind type of thing. Sometimes I jot down bits of wisdom or poetry, or something in between.

[Anonymous No.4437674]

I have thousands of hours of recordings from the last six years, just me talking about ideas and feelings. All of it is under the guise of a two-way communication with a teenaged girl who friendzoned me many years ago, but she only sends a response to me maybe once a year at most. I have sent her every single one of the recordings, at least three a week since 2007. Most of it is archived on e-mail servers, the rest is sitting on a hard drive 1500 miles away.

I'm almost afraid to revisit all of the recordings, but there's so much it's not even feasible to think that I could listen to all of it again.

There are some recordings that are 24 hours long.

[Anonymous No.4437676]

>>4437637
This was in response to my perpetual wavering. I am as I am because I want to be. I am as I am because I don't know what I want.

It's less a journal and more so a what's on my mind type of thing. Sometimes I jot down bits of wisdom or poetry, or something in between.

[Anonymous No.4437693]

>>4437502
aren't you paranoid about NSA interns reading your innermost secrets?

[Anonymous No.4437707]

>>4437674
That's incredibly sad.

[Magician !poof3G2XZI No.4437786]

I keep a diary. I used to hand write it but I started typing it once I had to use the computer every day. I've considered posting my most angst-ridden teenage-philosopher passage from when I was younger, if nothing else for the purpose of giving /lot/ something to tear apart and criticise.

[Anonymous No.4437834]

>>4437674
felicity?

[Anonymous No.4437867]

>>4437674
Could you provide an example of this?

I want to keep a journal in the worst way, I've even bought a little orange one at Barnes & Noble. Except I always get the notion that someone will look at what I wrote and think horribly of me. If I write how I actually feel and with honesty, that is.

[Anonymous No.4437934]

I've never kept a journal. Not going to start now.

[Anonymous No.4437970]

>>4437490

This is, like, volume four. I forget how many others I have but I have a few. It's been a while.

[Anonymous No.4437972]

>>4437674
>TFW I've created an entire imaginary life/utopia with my first crush that rejected me.

To say I took it hard is an understatement. Wish I'd thought of recording my thoughts like you, man.

[Anonymous No.4437978]

>>4437970

I could be a doctor!

[Anonymous No.4437983]

>>4437978
>graph paper

[Anonymous No.4437989]

I only write about the dark arcane secrets I find.

Be it when looking into the abyss, or glancing through moldy tomes of forbidden knowledge.

[Anonymous No.4437990]

>>4437983

Problem, comrade?

[Anonymous No.4437997]

>>4437990
ur not grafing

[Anonymous No.4438011]

>>4437989
>tfw no esoteric friend to talk too

[Anonymous No.4438019]

>>4437972
Pretty sure we all did with our first loves.

[le.penis.man No.4438022]

>>4437989
How did you get into that sort of thing?

[Anonymous No.4438026]

>>4438011
Not that guy, but
>tfw you like it when people use unfamiliar words on /lit, forcing you to look them up and then feel as though browsing the imageboard was productive
>esoteric: understood by or meant for only the select few who have special knowledge or interest

[Anonymous No.4438037]

>>4437676
>>4437637
i like the cut of your jib. would share a beer with.

[Anonymous No.4438058]

To those who keep a journal:
Has your life at all changed since beginning to write regularly for your own sake? Do you have more defined goals? Is it at all like meditation? This might influence me to start.

[Anonymous No.4438064]

>>4437997

No, I'm writing. Why would I need graph paper for writing?

[Anonymous No.4438071]

>>4438022

Most of it came from seeing a strange congruity in symbols or images in books or in life.

The feeling or idea that something to be seen was just under the surface. Strangely most of it comes from questions I had of things I'd seen or heard as a kid.

Such as the hidden truth that the Hebrew god was only the highest in a pantheon of other gods including Baal and Asherah. Proof of this has been conspiratorially hushed up by both Egyptian and Israeli governments.

The truth being that the Jews are a subsect of a broken off Canaanite religion. Their god not being Yahweh But El.

Even this is stolen from the ancient Sumerian's who were more correct in their creation story. Saying that all life was made from clay by the gods.

Science in the last days of 2013 found that primitive life uses clay as a strata to replicate.

So what else are the ancient telling us that we've lost to untold ages, and is there more!

[Anonymous No.4438077]

I keep one for both ideas and dreams, though I haven't really had many vivid dreams since I stopped watching anime. I also keep useful math/phys/astr formulas in the back.

Also the fucking elastic on my moleskine somehow got stretched out and I'm seriously fucking pissed. I don't even know how it happened.

>>4438071
>>4437989
I like your drawings

[Anonymous No.4438096]

>>4438058

Yes

I've kept journals since 2003. There's a lot of them now and to be honest, all of those reasons you typed drove me initially but now, the idea of archiving certain events and thoughts is what keeps me going.

Just be careful not to write anything too heavy and then leave the pad/book/file out in the open. I actually burned two pads from 2007 a week ago just because it wasn't worth the risk (I was a dramatic little shit in 9th grade).

[Anonymous No.4438097]

>>4437676
>>4437637


Highfalutin as fuck. Even your hand writing is pretentious.

[Anonymous No.4438106]

>>4438096
What was in them?

[Anonymous No.4438107]

I carry a two moleskine one blank and the other with stave. I am writing a play about Ulster with incidental muzak.

[Anonymous No.4438111]

>>4438077
Oh!

Thank you!

[Anonymous No.4438119]

>>4437972
>Wish I'd thought of recording my thoughts like you, man.
She's actually writing a novel based on me, wherein I am portrayed as a "troll-like" monster. All of the content she's putting into the novel is coming directly from my recordings and it's getting published with the help of her father and English tutor.

I no longer have the capacity for these feels.

[Anonymous No.4438121]

>>4438106

A very, very lengthy combination of shit describing what I did with my Internet gf, strangely specific and really fucked up things about how much I hated my parents, and the traditional "I am nothing" rants.

I consider myself lucky to have never seen a Hot Topic or Donnie Darko during that phase of my life because I'd have no money and negative friends if I did.

[Anonymous No.4438126]

>>4437490
Used to have a small notebook(half the size of OP's) and something similar to OP's one as well. But writing on paper just seems out-of-date. Esp. when thoughts start flowing in and you can barely manage to write them down

[Anonymous No.4438130]

>>4438126

>5kb

What happened on the first, anon?

[Anonymous No.4438131]

>>4438119
l o l
pls b rill

[Anonymous No.4438134]

>>4438111

I love this. Thanks for sharing.

[Anonymous No.4438139]

>>4438121
I know how that is. I used to consider myself a "satanist" in like 7th grade. I painted my walls red and bought a bunch of swords and knives through some catalog. Nobody could get near my edge, and I bought a notebook with black pages that you're supposed to write in with white pens but I used black pens and wrote stuff to look like it's one of those serial killers journals you see in Law and Order with the dark scratches and random words like 'DIE' in the margins.

[Anonymous No.4438142]

>>4438130
First para looks like this

First entry this year and I must admit that the one thing I do find likeable is being reserved. You just have to know your limits when it comes down to other people.
Indeed, I have abandoned for most part, my principles when it comes down to communicating with other people but I find joy in my double-faceness. I guess that
it was a matter of time until I became assimilated into the general populace, at least in terms of interaction with other people. I never thought this day would
come but upon reflection I see it clear as daylight - university and the things it teaches you. Working towards your degree isn't the only thing.

Can't really recall making that entry, or even ones from next day(or two days forward?). I partied kinda hard..

[Anonymous No.4438146]

>>4438139

Glad I'm not the only one.

But seriously, black ink on black pages? That's fucking zodiac killer shit right there, man.

[Anonymous No.4438149]

>>4437867
A lot of what I say in the recordings is way too honest and real, it would make me feel too vulnerable to post any of it. I can share one that is just venting without any kind of charm or artistry to it.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0nPUnfl24DF

Most of the recordings actually contain something that I've thought about and wanted to express. This was just something that happened.

[Anonymous No.4438153]

>>4438142

I hear you, Stoner.

[Anonymous No.4438161]

>>4438131
It's very real. We used to have a friendly relationship until she started more seriously working on the book. I even helped her edit the first few chapters, but she backed off and has stopped letting me read it once I suggested she give me some sort of credit or acknowledgement for my input.

[Anonymous No.4438163]

>>4438153
It gets better, Dec. 26(last year)

Yesterday I've not made an entry for I was not in contact with my laptop. Today, though I'm drunk and id cocaine. By God, the fusion of these made me sick but not bad. I got sick - got it out and continued on. The implications of these actions are much more interesting. Cocaine gives you this interest in things and spectacular drive. This drive...It's one I WISH to keep when I'm sober. The next morning I shall endure bieng such and talk to girls I like and perhaps, for a split moment, not be reserved about things. It gives you, in one word, OPTIMISM. Everything else just flows from it for you have energy that is to be transmitted to action. And the aesthetic pleasure I'm experiencing right now...It's beyond my natural capacities to enjoy the passion though are they passion if I fail to enjoy them?

I read the others, some of them are fairly decent. Others provide great grounds for reflection esp. ones where I was reading Either/Or

[Anonymous No.4438171]

>>4438163

I'm glad I follow this board.

[Anonymous No.4438185]

>>4438163
wow pseudo-psychological insight into casual drug-use you're so edgy and enlightened wowee

[Anonymous No.4438188]

>>4438149
That made me sad. It's probably good that you vent this way instead of breaking things or hurting others. At the same time, it's just incredibly sad

[Anonymous No.4438192]

>>4438171
This board is slow as hell though
>>4438185
>casual drug-use
I don't about you, but for me it's opposite of casual. Perhaps you, yourself, shall share with us the insights that you've accumulated?

[Anonymous No.4438205]

>>4438192
Most fast boards are just loaded with shitposting anyway.

[Anonymous No.4438253]

>>4437674
I used to record every single one of my social interactions with my phone and then listen to them later when I got lonely

I understand

[Anonymous No.4438267]

>>4438149
please post more. I really enjoyed that and identified

[Anonymous No.4438272]

>>4438149
>I found my voice, and I'm using it to say fuck you
Either you're a good actor or you're incredibly passionate, good work, will be laughing for days.

[Anonymous No.4438275]

>>4438253
please post

[Anonymous No.4438318]

>>4438267
>>4437867
Here's another that I actually feel comfortable sharing. This one is a bit more organized and has some more depth to it than just screaming. Hopefully it's more interesting, but maybe it's not.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0zUMuHeSpw6

[Anonymous No.4438332]

>>4437674
>All of it is under the guise of a two-way communication with a teenaged girl who friendzoned me many years ago, but she only sends a response to me maybe once a year at most. I have sent her every single one of the recordings, at least three a week since 2007.

I watched a documentary about a stalker like that once, except he sent her videos on Youtube.

[Anonymous No.4438680]

>>4438318
these are really interesting.
could you possibly post one of her responses?
could you give more details regarding the whole situation? whats your agenda for making them? how does she react? why were you friendzoned? how close were you?

[Anonymous No.4438749]

>>4437507
Just since last year.
>>4437693
If they want to read my poetry regarding the guy I like, or how sad I am that I'm stupid, they can go right ahead.

[Anonymous No.4438756]

>>4438071
I would love to have a discussion with you.

[Anonymous No.4438773]

>>4438318
>http://vocaroo.com/i/s0zUMuHeSpw6
I'm sorry, but you're insane, and you've probably emotionally manipulated this poor girl. I don't quite know the situation, but a person with a normal, healthily working brain would not act like this. I've been involved with guys like you.
You kind of people suffocate others.

[Anonymous No.4438810]

I tried keeping a journal, then when writing a passage I realized I wrote a lie in it and had to stop. I didn't like what I was finding out about myself and was scared to keep going.

[Anonymous No.4438827]

I was thinking of writing My Little Pony fanfiction from the POV of Twilight Sparkle's journal (I won't bother telling you about it unless you're interested). I'd love input from people who have first hand experience with writing journals.

[Anonymous No.4438841]

>>4438827
>My Little Pony fanfiction
stopped reading there

[Anonymous No.4438842]

>>4438318
i love this, great stuff

[Anonymous No.4438854]

>>4438139
I can't recall if it was all pretension or what, but I was a similar teenager. I used to go through a suicidal spell around January for a few years running, I'd just collapse. Closest I came was an incident with pills and a few teary untyings of a noose.

I remember at that time, I still have this journal btw, my writings were self-loathing as fuck. Not particularly edgy as I was always the type of self-conscious little scrote who would be mindful of drawing such criticism, but I do remember I wrote "Why am I still here" repeatedly for about 3 pages. Just those five words over and over and over again. Weird shit. Don't know what I was like.

[Anonymous No.4438862]

>>4437490
I keep a journal (since it's nowhere close to daily) on an encrypted volume on my computer. I've kept paper journals before, but I tend to dispose of them when I'm overcome with shame/embarrassment at my past self.

[Anonymous No.4438873]

>>4438318
Your podcast? Are you that guy in the other thread who was talking about releasing albums?

[Anonymous No.4438875]

>>4438773
Leave him alone you fucking weapon.

[Anonymous No.4438877]

I don't see what's so wrong with that guy recording himself speak. If I lived alone I would do that, and I would talk out loud to myself a lot.

[Anonymous No.4438885]

>>4438318
So I take it, this was the last recording you sent? Or was it merely venting and not really meant to be received and listened to?

[Anonymous No.4439199]

>>4438026
>he's not familiar with the word esoteric
why are you even here?

[Anonymous No.4439219]

>>4438680
>could you possibly post one of her responses?
There have literally been so few responses from her that I don't even know when she sent them or where to find them at this point.
I'll take a look, but I'm not hopeful.
>whats your agenda for making them?
I have no real agenda or ulterior motive. I love to talk, to ramble and to pontificate. Mostly, I am just talking to myself, since I believe that at this point she is no longer listening to the recordings and sometimes I forget to even send them.
>how does she react?
She doesn't. I know that she receives them because sometimes I will ask her the date of the last one I sent and she'll know the date, but I receive no acknowledgment other than that.
>why were you friendzoned?
I was 17 when we met, she was 14. When I turned 18, it felt inappropriate and weird to be anything other than a friend to her and even that was rather inappropriate. Now that we're both in our twenties, I have repeatedly tried to push the relationship in a romantic direction but she has shown no interest.
>how close were you?
When we were young, we would spend the entire day together. Neither of us had ever felt closer to another human being. It is/was the greatest friendship of my life. I don't know if she feels the same way.

[Anonymous No.4439224]

>>4438773
>you've probably emotionally manipulated this poor girl
Just to be clear, the screaming and the ranting are not about her. She is just the audience.
>a person with a normal, healthily working brain would not act like this
I am in therapy and have been in counseling for years to keep my psychotic tendencies in check. When I record scary, aggressive messages like that it's usually when I'm between therapists or relapsing.
> I've been involved with guys like you.
I doubt that.
>You kind of people suffocate others.
That's the opposite of what people tell me. The most common and strong complain that I get from others is that I am too cold and distant. People tell me that it hurts their feelings, once they realize that I have been faking all of my emotions and pretending to be happy for their benefit.

[Anonymous No.4439229]

>>4438873
It's not a podcast, it's a correspondence. This stuff is not meant to be heard by anyone other than the girl who receives the recordings. Not yet, anyway.

I was in another thread talking about self-publishing music anonymously, I don't know if that's what you're thinking of.

>>4438885
This wasn't the last recording. I've recorded regularly since then. I was describing to her experiences that I'd had with a woman that isn't her.

[Anonymous No.4439231]

>>4439224
I don't know what you look like, but you could probably be an actor. Most actors are psychotic anyway. You could have a solid career then kill yourself in 15 years.

[Anonymous No.4439233]

>>4439224
nigga you're a loser. just stick to yourself

[Anonymous No.4439236]

>>4439233
Fuck off guy. Leave him alone, he's making interesting contributions to the board while your a boring whiny normalfag piece of shit.

[Anonymous No.4439250]

>>4439233
>just stick to yourself
what does that even mean?

[Anonymous No.4439302]

>>4439233
Go away you snarky little fool. No one cares about anything you have to say whereas this guy seems a refreshing dose of the genuine and slightly off-center people that /lit/ lack.

[Anonymous No.4439465]

>>4439233

[Anonymous No.4439726]

>>4439224
You are a very, very interesting person. I think you are maladjusted in some pretty obvious ways and your way of communicating with yourself and others seems kind of deranged just from my own point of view (I mean that with as little offense as is possible). Thanks for posting that second recording. It's hilarious in some strange, kind of disturbing, way.

I hope she's at least doing you justice in her novel.

[Anonymous No.4439755]

>>4438318
the morning soup?

[Anonymous No.4439796]

>>4439302
muh earnest retards

fuck off you shill

[Anonymous No.4439803]

I start on Jan 1st of 2014, most as an experiment.

I'm mostly trying it out as a way of making time pass by a little slower. The past year went by so quickly that it would have been nice to read over what I did each day.

So far I've had little to write about other than the books I've read and video games I've played. Guess that's winter break for you.

[Anonymous No.4439804]

>>4439796
Hah. Nice to see no one else gave a shit about your facile little mind either, insecure scrote.

[Anonymous No.4439811]

>>4439803
Forgot to mention that I'm trying out something to help myself write more easily. Instead of saying "I did this, I did that," I'm instead writing "You did this, you did that" because what I'm really doing with this journal is addressing whatever future self happens to read it someday.

Writing in the first-person makes me cringe when I re-read it, so I hope this will be different

[Anonymous No.4439816]

I move across the country to university on the 15th. It'll be the first time living away from the small area that I grew up in and away from my family. I plan on starting a journal then.

My life has been so monotonous and any changes have been inward. This journal will probably end up being more of a thought journal than a recording of events, but I guess I'm okay with thta.

[Anonymous No.4439827]

Started this two days ago. yes, it is portuguese. And no, no one is supposed to understand it, but at least my handwriting is pretty.

[Anonymous No.4440026]

>>4438827
You make me sick. You "people" have your own board for heaven's sake

[Anonymous No.4440040]

>>4439816
start today so within a few months you can see the diference between both "lifestyles"

[Anonymous No.4440047]

>>4439199
I'm familiar with it now, you blowhard

[Anonymous No.4440050]

>>4438827
ahahaha faggot.

why don't you ask your father for some input? I'm sure it would make him proud to help his son write my little pony fan fiction.

[Anonymous No.4440071]

>>4440050
My father is actually well respected in the world of MLP fan fiction. He was a pioneer in using stream of consciousness within the genre of fan fiction (it's because he thinks of nothing but MLP).

So yes I will be asking him for input.

[Anonymous No.4440072]

>>4439811
That's a good idea. I'll do that if I start

[Anonymous No.4440077]

>>4439827
They don't even teach kids to write script anymore. It's sad. Little shits start texting before they're in kindergarten

[Anonymous No.4440098]

>tfw no esoteric occult crazy tape recorded ramblings
why am I so boring ; ;

[Anonymous No.4440201]

I was in a train of thought, not a huge train, or densely packed, but a train. And I was considering a statistic I read, despite its shaky source of questionable validity. It said that of the 100's of billions of cosmic galaxies, specifically our Milky Way, there exists 100's of billions of starts. Now this is all relatively statistically and probabilistically accurate, however the source went on to say that among those bounties of stars reside roughly 7.5 million "human" civilizations. 7 million of which dwarf us technologically and I'm sure morally. This is to say that assuming there are 750 billion solar systems in our galaxy alone, that 1 in 10,000 harbor life, a perceptibly beautiful thing. This struck me as both, very possibly incorrect due to a lack of evidence, yet also highly plausible due to our species being analogous to so many other mathematical or biological phenomena. Coupled with these thoughts came another intriguing (true) stat: the pearl, arguably one of natures most beautiful by-products, a symptomatic infectious growth present in bi-valves, only forms in 1 in every 10,000 wild oysters, one of which ended up in my mouth in Switzerland, only to be carelessly lost. This parallel statistic sheds to light several similarities between the lustrous nacre and humanity, successful human life. Like the pearly, we began (sometimes I think still beginning) as a colonial, primordial hodge-podge of bacteria, both literally and figuratively. Yet, from that coincidental spark of life, borne from a lesion (asteroid impact), we have/can shape ourselves into an iridescent, spectral beauty like the pearl, because the world is your oyster, and you it's pearl.

[Anonymous No.4440359]

>>4439219
Hey, sorry for the late response time, I was sleeping.

Could you please post more of these? Anything that you feel comfortable with. It might seem rude taking enjoyment in your expression but I find it really interesting in a sort of reading another person's journal sort of way, but the extra level of vocal expression on tops makes it all the more real.

Also who are you directing your yelling at in the first tape and why? What has emily said the few times she's responded? Are you worried that people you know (if you have relationships) will find your recordings? What do you record it with (im interested myself)? and lastly, where do you store the recordings?

Appreciate your responses

[Anonymous No.4440446]

>>4438111

Seriously, more please :)

[Anonymous No.4440460]

>>4437490
It's not the 1st of March. Are you fucking retarded, OP?

[Anonymous No.4440485]

>>4440460
>being this much of an amerifat
kill yourself

[Anonymous No.4440486]

>>4440460
weak

[Anonymous No.4440516]

>>4440359
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0dOwAS62r21

>who are you directing your yelling at in the first tape and why?
It's directed at a woman that I took up with as a way to make emily jealous or maybe to prove to myself that I didn't need emily. emily didn't care, of course.
>What has emily said the few times she's responded?
When emily responds, she doesn't really continue the conversation. She'll just ignore what I've been saying and talk about her studies or something like that.
>Are you worried that people you know (if you have relationships) will find your recordings?
I'm not worried, really. I only have one relationship with my sister and she's pretty eccentric in her own ways.

I record all of this with my mobile phone, so when people see me recording these notes it looks like I'm having a conversation with someone else.

I can post more, if there's an interest. I would be reluctant to spam the thread with uploads, if people are bored with the idea.

[Anonymous No.4440520]

>>4440516
I'm a different guy to the one you responded to and I'm very interested. I'd wager more than just the two of us are as well.

[Anonymous No.4440524]

>>4440485
fail

[Anonymous No.4440531]

>>4440516
Why do you continue sending them to emily if she's indifferent?

Also, I'm sure anybody still in this thread is here because they're interested in your recordings.

[Anonymous No.4440534]

>>4440201
>because the world is your oyster, and you it's pearl
That ending was 9/10.
Remember now, the reason we have a lack of evidence is because just for us to communicate with the nearest star to Earth aside from the sun via radio waves, it would take multiple years. Space is huge on a scale beyond what you and I can conceive, unfortunately

[Anonymous No.4440570]

>>4440520
That's fine. The issue is that the recordings, some of them, are very long. I can extract 8-minute snippets and post them. A lot of it isn't that interesting, it's just mundane observation combined with sad anecdotes. Currently I don't have access to some of the most interesting stuff, like the recordings from before 2010.
Emily has all of those recordings archived on hard drives in her home.

This is a funny one, I had forgotten about this
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0sO8KDz2abk

[Anonymous No.4440574]

>>4440531
>Why do you continue sending them to emily if she's indifferent?
It's just a habit, I suppose. It's something I've been doing for almost a decade now. Plus, she obsessively saves everything that I send her. She is an archivist of my life. I am prone to moments of frenzy where I will destroy records and delete recordings, she isn't like that.

[Anonymous No.4440589]

>>4440570
have you ever talked about /lit/ or 4chan
\ in them?

[Anonymous No.4440599]

>>4440570
>>4440570
Post an archive

I could listen to these all day

[Anonymous No.4440604]

>>4440599
second this

[Anonymous No.4440606]

>>4437490
Tiny book that's slippable into my pocket

[Anonymous No.4440607]

Yeah.
I keep a little black book detailing my business.
Names, phone numbers, important details, where we met, how many times we've met, how much they paid me.

It's scattered, largely unorganized, but still serves its purpose. It's taken a turn from little black notebook to little dark storybook. When I started all of this about a month ago I'd never imagined it to come full swing like this, I was just having fun and making money, exploring my sexuality, being a kid.
What it's become, shit, I don't even know, but I have to keep going and I have to figure it out. I'll scan some of my notes and upload them sometime, I thought I'd do a whole big thing for /lit/ when it started but now that it's gone where it has I'm afraid I'd spend too long censoring names and numbers and places because it's not as innocent as it once was and I stumbled into the realization a few days ago that I'd been an important catalyst in sending a kid(he was 22) down the same dark path I was dancing down, only I'd been there before and know the way out; the kid, he was green. Very green. Now it's all my fault and it's unwinding like a shitty paperback mystery except it's real life and I don't have plot armor or a strong sidekick to help me out.

If you only knew /lit/, if you only knew.

[Anonymous No.4440618]

>>4440599
>>4440604
My e-mail is in the e-mail field, for anyone who wants to receive my new recordings or maybe have access to an archive or something. I don't know what I'll do with it, just send me something saying hello and we can figure it out.

>>4440589
Sometimes, I think so.

[Anonymous No.4440622]

>>4440607
You're talking to yourself

[Anonymous No.4440623]

>>4440618
Post them to a Blogger or Tumblr or anything

[Anonymous No.4440629]

>>4440622
It's the guilt

I'm pretty sure the kid is dead or being used as a junkie sex tool.

[Anonymous No.4440631]

>>4437490
I have that exact notebook, but I don't use it much anymore.

[Anonymous No.4440655]

>>4440446
http://j-w-white.deviantart.com/gallery/46500740

[Anonymous No.4440658]

>>4440629
A guy who, at 22, thinks that kind of behavior is ever ok was obviously going to have problems with or without you. Don't take it so hard

[Anonymous No.4440678]

>>4440658
Yeah, I guess.
But it's hard to explain.
The kid didn't just like me, he looked up to me, thought I had it all figured out.
I let him, even embellished the notion. I let the situation compound and dropped him off, left him for dead with the idea in his head that he could go out and take the world just like I had.

[Anonymous No.4440683]

>>4440678
So go help him out. Don't tell me why you can't, because I don't want to hear it and we both know you can if you truly want. Go and help.

[Anonymous No.4440711]

>>4440683
But that's the thing anon
I called his phone and got a guy who mugged him or got the phone from someone who mugged him/kid traded for dope.
The guy hung the phone up but I texted him telling him about the situation and how the guy had no family in the state and his whole life in a retarded ass red and black roller suitcase you see autistic kids with. He texted back saying he'd bought the phone from some guy at the library and that was it. I thought that was the end of it but on NYE I was partying and might've gotten a lead from some weird motherfucker who keeps tabs on everyone on A&A/Grindr/Craigslist.
I'm telling you anon, it's like a fucking dimestore mystery novel except more drugs and prostitution.

[Anonymous No.4440762]

>>4440623
this

[Anonymous No.4440782]

>>4440711
I'm glad you're trying. Doing the right thing is, well, fail-safe. Godspeed

[Anonymous No.4440892]

>>4440618
Do you have any other yelling ones/angry ones?

[Anonymous No.4440944]

These threads are usually fun. I've been writing a diary for about ten years now. It started as simple enough recording of events, and writing down thoughts about any that seemed important. Now I just write when I have the urge to, and whatever is inside just comes out. I read over things now and then and can see general tendencies, things that I didn't realise I was interested in or thinking about, recurring imagery, shit like that. It's fun :)

Names changed to protect the innocent, though now that I've done it, I realise it doesn't actually matter. And it was a nice way to test my webcam, too :D

[Anonymous No.4440975]

Latest from my dream journal. When I fill one of these I buy another. Usually I note the lunar phase as well but I'm not done with the entry.

[Anonymous No.4441158]

>>4440892
Not that I can recall. Maybe some from years and years ago, but I don't have access to those. Expressing my anger in a verbal way is a new thing to me, I'm not fully comfortable with it yet.

>>4440623
>>4440762
I'm really not ready to publish/release this stuff yet and I may not ever. I don't know what to do with all of it. I guess it's just like the legacy I'm going to leave behind when I die, which could be any day now or may never happen at all.

And I do currently have a place for my finished writing, but I don't keep up with it that much anymore.

ricepaste.tumblr.com is where you can find that stuff, if you're so inclined. maybe it will become a repository for these recordings someday.

[Anonymous No.4441387]

>>4439811

Shit, that's a good idea. I'm the same with first person, makes me gag. Any time I read something of mine from the past that was written in first person, I always think "who the fuck is this annoying twat and why did I save their retarded ramblings?" Then I realise it was me and marvel at how annoying I used to be. Then I realise that this happens every few years, and it's more likely than not that I'm exactly as annoying right now and just can't tell. Then I kinda want to kill myself.
Plus there's always the feeling of "who am I writing this for? I know what happened, I was there." But instead of writing in first person as present-me, I can instead write in second person about future-me's past. That's kind of nifty.

I've been in situations in the past where I've been instructed to write in first person regarding something I DIDN'T do (eg, in a film class way back, we had to pick a movie and write about the interesting aspects of it's production as if we were involved in it ourselves, fucking stupid). So I never thought of doing it the other way around.

[Magician !poof3G2XZI No.4441439]

Is it just my imagination or do a it of people here have similar handwriting?

[Anonymous No.4441461]

>>4437525
What's wrong with you?

[Anonymous No.4441462]

I write a lot. I started a diary on an old ass Compaq PC when I was 13 in 2006. Files were in a format that is not compatible to any of modern OS, and PC now has all of CD-ROM and floppy drives broken, so those diaries are just stuck there. I photographed every page, though, and now they are with me forever.

When I got some sort of modern PC and a hacked copy of MS Office 2003 in 2008 I started a diary in .doc file which I proceed to write to this very day. It's now over 1500 pages, over 100 Mb. Some notes are 3-5 kb. I have no social life or friends so my writings surrogate a daily dose of human interaction to me. I write about 4chan, too, as well as about plenty of other sites and things. It's my own little world.

I also write some notes and "poetry" by hand but they probably won't be any interesting to you - they're all in Russian, sorry.

[Anonymous No.4441470]

I've been using this for the past few days


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKhbiVT4AWA

[Anonymous No.4441476]

>inb4 Pretentious tomfuckery

[Anonymous No.4441807]

>>4441476
>inb4
>implying anybody can read that shit

[Anonymous No.4441877]

>>4441476
>mustache stationery
what's your favorite flavor of dick?

[Anonymous No.4442058]

>>4441470

Cool Idea, but 3 lines isn't enough daily.

[Anonymous No.4442159]

Here's mine. I write stories in it for fun, as well as ideas and feelings. I think I might do poetry some day.

[Anonymous No.4442166]

>>4439827
It's really weird to know that you're living in the same city as I do, and that basically, I know where you live.

[Anonymous No.4442246]

>>4441877
faggot

[Anonymous No.4442258]

>All these lovely scripts
>TFW I write like a child with a crayon and down's syndrome

[Anonymous No.4442275]

>masterrace generation Z entering the thread
>seeing Generation Y luddites still writing on physical paper
lewl

[Anonymous No.4442317]

>>4440655
i'm trying to get into the occult, do you have any recommendations?

[Anonymous No.4442467]

>>4441462
That's the kinf of thing I do, content wise, just on paper. Feels safer that way.

[Anonymous No.4442543]

What is the best journal I could buy?.
I've been looking some of them in amazon.com but still can't pick one.

[Anonymous No.4442567]

>>4442317
Aleister crowley, Lon milo duquette, dion fortune, Cornelius agrippa.

Stay away from Anton Lavey, satanism is unrelated and for plebs

[Anonymous No.4442568]

>>4442159
nice handwriting

[Anonymous No.4442578]

>>4442567
I thought Crowley was like the father of satanism or some shit

[Anonymous No.4442585]

>>4442567
i had crowley in my basket already but i've never heard of duquette and fortune so thanks a bunch

[Anonymous No.4442594]

>>4442578
That's what everybody thinks.

He liked to upset christians occasionally, he even liked to call himself "the beast" (who's number was 666).
Regardless, he was not a satanist, nor did he ever have any participation in its creation.

[Anonymous No.4442607]

>>4442585
Also, look up dr. John dee, enochian language, and the book of enoch.

[Anonymous No.4442622]

>>4437674

who /sp/ here?

[Anonymous No.4442624]

>>4437674
>moyes

[Anonymous No.4442628]

who /sp/ here

[Anonymous No.4442629]

>>4442622
>moyes

[Anonymous No.4442630]

>>4437676
>senseless sense
lel

[Anonymous No.4442632]

>>4437674
WE /SP/ NOW

I hope it's Phil from Kent who you've recorded!

[Anonymous No.4442634]

>de gay

[Anonymous No.4442636]

>>4437674

AHAHAHHA /SP/ HERE YOU ARE FUCKING PATHETIC
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

[Anonymous No.4442640]

>>4442628
>moyes

[Anonymous No.4442647]

>yfw da burrs win da superb owl

[Anonymous No.4442646]

yes i'm an edgy delusional pseudo-intellectual sue me

[Anonymous No.4442657]

LETS GET THIS SHIT STARTED

>NERDS

[Anonymous No.4442652]

>>4442647
good effort lads.

[Anonymous No.4442656]

>>4442543
moleskine

[Anonymous No.4442659]

>>4442657
#toplel

[Anonymous No.4442666]

HEY FOUR EYES NICE BOOK

NEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRDDDDDDDDD

[Anonymous No.4442671]

>>4442657
>reading

[Anonymous No.4442673]

>2014
>watching sports
holy fuck how pleb can you be?

[Anonymous No.4442677]

>>4442673
>tfw reading a book about Sports

feelsgoodman

[Anonymous No.4442678]

>>4442673

FUCK OFF NERD GO READ YOUR BOOK FOR HOMOS

[Anonymous No.4442679]

>>4442673
>2014
>reading books

lel dis nigga thinks its the 19th century.

[Anonymous No.4442680]

>>4442666
>back to /b/

[Anonymous No.4442683]

>>4442673
>not playing and watching

[Anonymous No.4442689]

um guys? hello? we have the internet now?

what are you doing with that silly book?

[Anonymous No.4442691]

>>4442689
i have an e-reader ;]

[Anonymous No.4442693]

/lit/ I need help.

I'm addicted to Liverpool. Everyday I wake up and end up talking about them for 17 hours a day. They're such a fucking irrelevant team I need to remind them of this. I tried to fight it, but I start shaking. I have to talk about them. I have to read their forums. I have 8 of them bookmarked (RAWK is my homepage).

My sister left me, for a fucking scouser. I have no friends. And my parents keep asking me if I'm still a virgin.

I need help /lit/. Please.

[Anonymous No.4442695]

>implying /sp/ arent forever connected to the literary world with one of the most intricate pieces of modern literature ever

>Aston Villa

[Anonymous No.4442697]

>>4442691

books are gay anyway hahahahaha

[Anonymous No.4442699]

>reading

enjoy your mental gains

[Anonymous No.4442700]

>>4442693
Is this the birth of an EPIC pasta?

[Anonymous No.4442708]

>reads books

>wonders why he still has tfw no gf

[Anonymous No.4442710]

>moyes

[Anonymous No.4442706]

>>4442673
>reading

I bet you get all the girls

[Anonymous No.4442713]

Is there a more alpha board than /sp/? lit literally can't handle us

[Anonymous No.4442716]

So 4chan has an entire board dedicated to Reading?

Why? Reading don't even have that much fans, why not make a Liverpool or Man United board?

[Anonymous No.4442718]

>>4442716
my sides

[Anonymous No.4442719]

>>4442716
>Being ABR

[Anonymous No.4442722]

Who /Niamh/ here
>implying she reads books

[Anonymous No.4442723]

[Anonymous No.4442726]

Who liter/a/ture here?

[Anonymous No.4442728]

>>4442716
GOAT post

[> !MoyesIz5FA No.4442729]

the only book a liverpool fan would read is a history book :)

[Anonymous No.4442730]

you have ten seconds to give me a reason why england won't win the world cup this year

[Anonymous No.4442732]

>>4442716

8/10

[Anonymous No.4442735]

In all seriousness /lit/ i'm reading An Officer and a Spy by Robert Harris at the moment, about the Dreyfus affair.


Am I elite?

[Anonymous No.4442738]

>>4442716

[Anonymous No.4442739]

>>4442729
>tripping on /lit/

[Anonymous No.4442744]

what's everyone's favourite book?

pic related is mine

[Anonymous No.4442746]

my new hime

[Anonymous No.4442747]

>>4442739

woops

[Anonymous No.4442741]

[Anonymous No.4442742]

>>4438149
Fuck Youuuuuuu!!!

[Anonymous No.4442749]

>>4438149
Thats very rude.

[Anonymous No.4442750]

>>4442744
Animal Farm would also be an acceptable answer

[Anonymous No.4442753]

>>4442744
mine is game of thrones

[Anonymous No.4442754]

>>4442741
>>4442746

Who is this handsome man?

[Anonymous No.4442756]

>>4442722
1,2

[Anonymous No.4442757]

>>4442741
>>4442746
bog sim mind

[Anonymous No.4442758]

>>4442750
my second favourite book is fight club
do you agree?

[Anonymous No.4442759]

>>4442753
I like harry potter

[Anonymous No.4442767]

>>4442758
>reading
>not watching the moving picture version

[Anonymous No.4442770]

>>4442744
it's called the lord of the rings but you've probably never heard of it

[Anonymous No.4442762]

>>4442754
Its Moots cousin

[Anonymous No.4442763]

>>4442746
>>4442741

Wow tihs guy is prety handsome who is he

[Anonymous No.4442765]

>>4442754
he's a facemorph of all the brothers on malcolm in the middle

[Anonymous No.4442772]

bog sim his sargon

[Anonymous No.4442773]

>tfw i'll probably get banned and i don't know how to change my IP

[Anonymous No.4442774]

Who /arse/ here?

[Anonymous No.4442781]

>>4442773
you just have to turn your router off and on pal

[Anonymous No.4442783]

>tfw you're buying carlsberg at tescos but there are more cans than you have fingers so you can't count them properly

[Anonymous No.4442784]

me

[Anonymous No.4442790]

>>4442783
>carlsberg
You disgust me

[Anonymous No.4442791]

>>4442773
>tfw i'll probably get banned and i don't know how to change my IP

wow
such scare
wow

[Anonymous No.4442792]

[Anonymous No.4442794]

>>4438071

Who is El and why would they lie about Yahweh?

[Anonymous No.4442798]

>>4442791
reported you sick piece of shit

i hope you rot in prison

[Anonymous No.4442888]

>>4442594
I just lost 2 respect for Black Sabbath

[Anonymous No.4442896]

I claim this post for the almighty Didier Drogba, the god of /sp/ incarnate

[Anonymous No.4443228]

I normally write short poems and shit.

[Anonymous No.4443241]

>>4443228

hey bb how bout u giv me a piece o dat strange

[Anonymous No.4443276]

>>4438071
But that's not esoteric knowledge, it's Religion Studies 101.

[Anonymous No.4443289]

I keep a dream journal and sometimes I write down lyrics I think up in it. It's just a basic notebook.

[Anonymous No.4443283]

>>4438119

>She's actually writing a novel based on me, wherein I am portrayed as a "troll-like" monster. All of the content she's putting into the novel is coming directly from my recordings and it's getting published with the help of her father and English tutor.

Half of me wants this to be real for the lol factor, and the other half sees the cold soul-sucking opportunism of that heartless cunt so depressing that I really hope it isn't.

[Anonymous No.4443368]

>>4443283
>man sends girl loads of batshit, nonsensical recordings for friendzoning him
>girl bases a character off of it
>cold soul-sucking opportunism of that heartless cunt

Is anybody considering her perspective of this faggot? I'd tell him to stop harassing me or I'd upload the shit in every corner of the internet with his name attached.

[Anonymous No.4443387]

>>4443368
>>man sends girl loads of batshit, nonsensical recordings for friendzoning him
That's not exactly what I've been doing. Nothing I have ever said in any of the recordings has been spiteful or negative with regard to her.

[Anonymous No.4443396]

>>4443387
okay, so it's just pure insanity then

[Anonymous No.4443408]

>>4443396

they don't sound that crazy. I can relate to a lot of what he's saying

[Anonymous No.4443417]

>>4443387
>>4443408
samefag

[Anonymous No.4443419]

>>4440975
I've been keeping a very sporadic dream journal for the last two years. At first it was ok; I'd remember maybe four dreams a month.

Then it dropped off for a year. This year I've only managed to record four dreams in the sucker.

Well, "the sucker" is actually two A4 poly-pocket books.

[Anonymous No.4443426]

>>4442258
IKTF man

[Anonymous No.4443434]

>>4443419

Do any of you do lucid dreaming? It's the only reason I keep a dream journal

[Anonymous No.4443470]

>>4443434
it was one of my main reasons for starting out, and I actually was lucid once or twice since I started recording my dreams (pic related). None of the technices I've read about online have ever worked for me. I guess my mind is a bit too scattered - I can't into mediation or any of that /x/ occult shite either.


For info about lucid dreaming techniques, check out www.reddit.com/r/LucidDreaming [spoilers] obv many people here hate reddit, so my apologies if my linking to it offended your virgin eyes[/spoilers]

[Anonymous No.4443545]

>>4443368

>Is anybody considering her perspective of this faggot?

Oh fuck off. Yes this guy is so fucked up that he is probably legitimately unstable, but she isn't merely "basing a character off it". She is transcribing a shitload of work that has been handed to her on a plate and exploiting it for cash.

Not only is she exploitative, but she is incompetent to boot. Someone gives you all you would need for an entire book and you still need your tutor and father to help?

Avarice and incompetence is a dangerous combination. Take this feigned defense of "her perspective" and go fuck yourself with it.

[Anonymous No.4443589]

>>4443545
>but she isn't merely "basing a character off it"
sorry I was just using anon's words
dipshit
>a shitload of work
you mean talking into a mic. I talk all day, it's not that fucking hard
>exploitative
he's aware and he continues to produce the material. apparently she's not keeping it a secret, so he had it coming
>Take this feigned defense of "her perspective" and go fuck yourself with it.
idc about the bitch, I just don't want to see this behavior enabled

get butthurt faggot

[Anonymous No.4443651]

>>4440606
how

[Anonymous No.4443661]

"Strange occurrence again today, this is the third time it's happened. Driving on my way to school my phone slipped out of my pocket and somehow fell under the seat. In the parking lot I went to retrieve it and again found a refrigerator cold can of arnold palmers. I do not know where these are coming from, but I will continue to record when they show up."

I found the fourth this morning. I have no idea how these are showing up here, but always end up under the driver's seat when I'm driving alone. I don't even like them.

[Anonymous No.4443699]

>>4440077
What's so great about script?

[Anonymous No.4443749]

>>4443589

>get butthurt faggot

says the hopeless whiteknight, lol

defending scumrat user bitches online isn't going to get your dick wet you bitch ass faggot, lol

stay basic

[Anonymous No.4443799]

>>4443749
>this fuckin kid lmao

>defending scumrat user bitches online isn't going to get your dick wet you bitch ass faggot, lol
Because I have so much hope invested in that possibility that it's even a factor. What's your gain then, sucking his dick?

[Anonymous No.4444016]

>>4438119

[Anonymous No.4444870]

>>4438119

Boy, do I have a movie recommendation for you.

[Anonymous No.4444929]

I write emails to my future self, as of beginning ofthis year I already received few

[Anonymous No.4444968]

>>4444929

I wrote a few of those, sent them about two years ago and just got them recently. Utterly painful to read. I pray that no more of them are coming my way.

[Anonymous No.4445281]

>>4443470
You found another guy in there lucid dreaming? That's astral plane level stuff

[Anonymous No.4445350]

>>4445281
could indeed be. Don't really hold much stock in that stuff

[Anonymous No.4446093]

>tfw they demoted pluto to dwarf planet
i stopped scanning a long time back

[Anonymous No.4446101]

I do, but posting any of it online would be defeating the purpose.

[Anonymous No.4446941]

What about a diary written from the diary's perspective? Talking about what the owner should do, getting depressed because you left it under the bed for a month, stuff like that.

>>4440570
>Her friend was like "Oh,do you know Boku no Pico?"
>Yeah I'm not that into it blah blah blah
heh

[Anonymous No.4447012]

>>4446941
>What about a diary written from the diary's perspective? Talking about what the owner should do, getting depressed because you left it under the bed for a month, stuff like that.

That's brilliant.

[Anonymous No.4447118]

Mine fits. I travel the national park circuit, I'm a seasonal worker for these place and I currently work in Yosemite NP.

[Anonymous No.4447123]

>>4447118

[Anonymous No.4447185]

Well this thread is brimming over with faggotry, but since I can relate I'll contribute some gay shit I did a while back

[Anonymous No.4449193]

Do you guys keep a separate journal for your dreams and daily life or do you just keep everything together?
Also what kind of notebooks do you use for your journal?

[Anonymous No.4449200]

>>4447185
reminds me of Shadowrun

[Anonymous No.4449207]

I write purposely messy so I'm the only one that can read my writing. Mainly so if somebody stumbles upon my note books nobody can read my dark secrets.

Anyone else?

[Anonymous No.4449222]

>>4438071
Not sure if you're still here, but any suggestions on making my handwriting better? I'd love it to look like yours. Just gorgeous...

[Anonymous No.4449236]

>>4438827
To borrow a phrase from our borderline psychotic audio file curating friend, FUCK YOU YOU RETARDED CUNT! FUCK YOUR RETARDED BRAIN!

[ß No.4450371]

>>4438149
ß.
very ß.

[Anonymous No.4450372]

>>4439250
that means stop being a beta spoiling this girl and selling your dignity to all her friends and just jack off.

[Anonymous No.4450373]

>>4437989
watch the edges brah

[Anonymous No.4450907]

>>4437502
>journal
>online
Hello cloud crash!

[Anonymous No.4451154]

>>4450907
>cloud crash
>a thing

[Anonymous No.4451880]

>>4437989
I recognize the picture from a thread about a dude creating an occult book, the project was called Project Goetia. Are you that guy? how is your project going?

[Anonymous No.4451891]

>>4437545
I laughed so hard at this. I want a journal like that.