/wwoym/ - Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.23160216]

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[Anonymous No.23160221]

All I think about anymore is the jews and how to defeat them.

[Anonymous No.23160225]

>>23160221
All I think about is my meat and how to beat it

[Anonymous No.23160228]

>>23160225
all i think about is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugxYlyRKptg

[Anonymous No.23160235]

You know bros just three years ago I was majorly depressed and borderline suicidal. I was getting black out drunk at minimum three days a week. I was putting on a lot of weight. I was cutting myself. I was drunk texting people at 3am.
Now my life is better than it has ever been. Lost all the weight and put on muscle. Built new friendships and revitalized the old. Went back to college, got a good job. Now my weekends are all full with social plans, I'm fit and healthy, girls check me out as I walk by, and I have a real future and hope ahead of me.
It's possible to bloom bros.

[Anonymous No.23160240]

>>23160228
Thanks bro this made my explosive and painful coffee shit a more relaxing experience

[Anonymous No.23160273]

I think I like gulls almost as much as corvids. I don't know why pigeons provoke so many strong opinions, they're pretty boring.

[Anonymous No.23160300]

Got just a bare minimum of wage increase.

[Anonymous No.23160319]

>>23160221
Fpbp

[Anonymous No.23160351]

>>23160216
why can't I help myself from getting into useless arguments on 4chan and the youtube comments these days?

i used to not be like this, used to just lurk and laff at cringe shit

someone please acknowledge this phenomena

[Anonymous No.23160358]

>>23160221
To defeat jews, you have to knock down their three pillars of power:
Media.
Banking.
Christianity.

Without media, they cannot spread their lies.
Without banking, they cannot profit off your labor.
Without christianity, they have no golems to use for meat and taxes.

[Anonymous No.23160360]

Seems I need to figure out a balance of effortful poasts and just posts between people I know in real life.

[Anonymous No.23160394]

>>23160351
explain not acknowledge

[Anonymous No.23160401]

>>23160358
whats left after the jews are defeated? wouldn't there just be more non-jew jews?

[Anonymous No.23160402]

>>23160401
yes, but it would be less of an existential crisis

[Anonymous No.23160411]

>>23160240
any time

[Anonymous No.23160456]

>>23160401
>wouldn't there just be more non-jew jews?
There's plenty of them already, scrambling over America's southern border. The perfect non-thinking golem who thinks "crusty kang!"-ing on the internet will somehow defeat trillions of dollars in wealth and institutional cultural control.

>whats left after the jews are defeated?
The stars.

Their self-stated long-term goal is to own everything and wallow on piles of gold coins while everyone else serves as their slave, forever. This is their vision of "heaven", and they actually believe in it. Make no mistake about it: Letting the jews win means humanity goes extinct.

[Anonymous No.23160461]

>>23160401
Aztecs and Japs and Pajeets and Black women

[Anonymous No.23160471]

>>23160456
>Letting the jews win means humanity goes extinct.
So true. In /pol/s perfect white ethnostate, I would be executed for being a sexually degenerate Irish atheist substance abuser/gambler with a nonconformist streak, but at least humanity would survive. It's a choice between people who might want me dead later vs people who definitely want me dead now. Also, the other side is a bunch of child molesters, which also makes the choice easier.

[Anonymous No.23160479]

>>23160461
Japs are honorary.

[Anonymous No.23160491]

How many men masturbating to father/daughter porn have daughters?

[Anonymous No.23160500]

>>23160491
Seems like something you could pay a data broker for the answer to

[Anonymous No.23160534]

hookers are much better than ordinary women it's insane

[Anonymous No.23160558]

>>23160534
when you love someone it makes the sex better

[Anonymous No.23160609]

>>23160358
Christianity is losing ground in the West and we've never been more jewed and degenerate.
You haven't thought this through.

[Anonymous No.23160610]

>>23160491
They don't need porn the first 1-10 years.

[Anonymous No.23160739]

>>23160216
Why do I have such a weird, schizophrenic sexuality? I can only really get off to furry men, I don't have a very high libido and can go days without masturbating and even then I can only really masturbate once every 24 hours, I've also never been interested in dating people, man or woman.
I don't have a porn addiction either (surprising, I know), and I'd be surprised if its a hormone issue as I'm only 18 and puberty for me has been fine for the most part.. also the fact that I'm the only man in my family to have decent body hair and an actual beard (well.. it's still growing but still)

Is this okay? should I be worried?

[Anonymous No.23160747]

Why didn't Sigmund Fraud make up new words to describe his flawed theory?
He ruined the word 'ego' completely.

[Anonymous No.23160749]

>>23160609
America is the most christian nation on Earth and is a shithole. Your point is defeated.

[Anonymous No.23160764]

>>23160747
sounds like you secretly want to fuck your mother

[Anonymous No.23160777]

>>23160749
It was better when it was more Christian.
Your entire worldview just got destroyed.
Or are you enjoying the trajectory the U.S is going in, fag?

[Anonymous No.23160790]

>>23160558
love is a meme

[Anonymous No.23160792]

>>23160739
Something is wrong.

[Anonymous No.23160811]

>>23160777
>muh jeebus
fuck off with your desert nigger religion, retard

[Anonymous No.23160818]

>>23160811
Your entire worldview for btfo by 3 sentences.

[Anonymous No.23160822]

>>23160818
Yours is BTFO by one: Jesus was a jew.

[Anonymous No.23160825]

>>23160822
Dealing with an intellectual heavyweight here.

[Anonymous No.23160849]

What was the book that got you interested in reading science fiction?

pic rel was mine.

[Anonymous No.23160862]

None of the live action Batman movies or TV shows are good or ever were good. The cartoons surpass them in every way.

[Anonymous No.23160880]

>>23160862
Batman beyond is the absolute shit

[Anonymous No.23160886]

Jesus how do extrovert live their day to day lives? I've been mostly an introvert/ anti-social so I've mostly stuck with solo/ indoor hobbies so I never really got out much for a good chunk of my life. But every once in a while I'll have a extroverted friend drag me out of my house for some program and we end up spending a some of money. And to imagine they'd be doing this almost every other week, let alone every 2 days baffles my mind. I'd be broke. Even thinking about the kind shit they do I feel broke too.

I don't have a problem conversing with people but just hanging out can be draining to me. Its almost alien to me that there are people who get energize by interactions.

[Anonymous No.23160927]

>>23160880
nah you are

[Anonymous No.23160954]

Last night I fapped a bit too hard and my heart started beating faster. For a second I hoped I would finally die then and there, breaking free from wageslavery.

[Anonymous No.23160959]

I haven't enjoyed any company my entire life. I don't like any of the friends I've had or my family. But I'm not fulfilled at all being a shut in. I'm so alienated. I wish I could try going on dates and having a girlfriend but no girl my age would want to put up with someone like me. Incant be some consumer manchild which seems like the only path you can take now. I don't like being alive and I don't think I ever did.
It feels like the only thing that matters is being young attractive and healthy. Everything else is cope. I am just not happy willing away life with hobbies. I don't understand how people get captivated by these things. I don't have hobbies.
I wish we could all drop dead at 30 or 40. That's more than enough time to realize how hollow and unlikable this world is.
I hate my country as an American. I wish I was somewhere better. But you can't immigrate from here at all.

The idea of heaven depresses me, reincarnation depresses me, the void depresses me.

[Anonymous No.23160960]

>>23160886
Extrovertism is the natural way to live. You need to try and practice it, or stop whining about 'pain and suffering'.

[Anonymous No.23160964]

>>23160221
all you can do is talk about it and support others who talk about it. they're already eating their own tail so there just needs to be a threshold of public awareness before we start seeing large support for candidates/leaders who are willing to campaign on these issues. don't let the hatred consume you, just get others to notice because it's no longer the 'secret' that it was 10 years ago.

[Anonymous No.23160970]

>>23160959
>I wish we could all drop dead at 30 or 40
This but at 20.

[Anonymous No.23161010]

>>23160959
Not everyone has the same experience as you, retard. I'm loving my life.

[Anonymous No.23161012]

>>23160959
people who go on about the sad reality are always the most deluded.
you are not sickening for anything, you have not suffered a minor brain lesion, you are not all that bad at your job, your family and friends are not leagued in a conspiracy of barely maintained silence about what a shit you are, you have not come at last to see life as it really is, you're just depressed.

[Anonymous No.23161014]

I'm an unlovable person. There's just nothing interesting about me.

[Anonymous No.23161019]

>>23161010
>>23161012
I'm not sure why you took it so personally.
>You're just depressed
Silly thing to say

[Anonymous No.23161021]

>>23161019
i was going to say 'you're probably just hungover' but pivoted to 4chan

[Anonymous No.23161025]

>>23161021
It still doesn't mean anything though.

[Anonymous No.23161029]

>>23161014
I love your self-loathing. I love the way you close tabs and re-open them, always getting bored within seconds of looking at something new. I love the way you sadpost on /wwoym/. I love your short, curt sentences. I love your interest in literature that is stifled by listlessness and melancholy. I love you little anon.

[Anonymous No.23161033]

>>23161025
it means there's no use crying over spilt milk

[Anonymous No.23161036]

>>23161029
no you dont
thanks

[Anonymous No.23161039]

>>23161033
What?

[Anonymous No.23161042]

>>23161029
cosign

[Anonymous No.23161043]

Dubs and you tell me what you currently feel like

[Anonymous No.23161044]

They should make a diaper you can shit in without having to sit on your shit after. I'd totally wear diapers if they did that.

[Anonymous No.23161045]

>>23161039
you must know that expression

[Anonymous No.23161053]

>>23161045
I don't understand sorry. I think your usage of modern psychology diagnosis is gross.

[Anonymous No.23161064]

>>23161053
if i said anything out of line you'll have to forgive me

[Anonymous No.23161067]

This year I got my first bedframe and replaced the kitchen fuse so I can have my fridge in the kitchen again and use appliances.

[Anonymous No.23161072]

>>23160959
i don't get why everything's so ugly
people swear, do drugs, get fat and ugly, make crass jokes, have random sex and talk about it like a thing, hurt each other, mean, only care about money and buying things
and you can't get away from that culture anywhere

why was I born in such a ugly world? i seriously have a strong feeling like I accidentally boarded the wrong plane
this is just not the world IM made for

[Anonymous No.23161075]

>>23161072
christ bro

[Anonymous No.23161077]

>>23161019
You're going to make me scream.

[Anonymous No.23161091]

>>23161075
i just want to be in peace and not be surrounded by ugly mean things. i don't swear or drink or do drugs. i stay healthy and fit because I like nature. i try to be kind and I don't make weird jokes. i don't hurt people. i don't care about buying things. ive stayed a virgin into my adult years because I did not want to be with the girls around me. i had girls even come up to me and want to be with me in some way but I found their actions gross and i did not enjoy the company of their soul

i just don't feel like I'm cut out for this on this world. its what makes me distraught.

[Anonymous No.23161095]

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[Anonymous No.23161098]

>>23161091
all right mate i wasn't inviting you to get on your soapbox

[Anonymous No.23161101]

>>23161098
soapbox? i am merely expressing.l my distress
I just don't understand it. why are people mean

[Anonymous No.23161102]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzhOAR6JhaA

[Anonymous No.23161103]

>>23161095
all work and no play

[Anonymous No.23161105]

I drink two beers in the morning. I drink two beers at night. I drink two beers in the afternoon, it makes me feel alright

[Anonymous No.23161107]

>>23160216
I probably get the least amount of (you)s around these parts

[Anonymous No.23161110]

>>23161101
everyone has their reasons

[Anonymous No.23161111]

>>23160358
>Christianity
To be replaced with what, Tristan?

[Anonymous No.23161114]

Wheel within wheel the great engine was constructed, the cogs shifting and grinding against one another by compulsion, an ingenious perpetual machine, taking a little vengeance as a fuel and producing infinite cruelty

[Anonymous No.23161115]

>>23161095
Stop being a NEET and get a job. That will force you to be social.

[Anonymous No.23161118]

>>23160471
Good thing I'm a full blooded Mayflower Scot in this case

[Anonymous No.23161120]

>>23161107
your manipulation succeeded.

[Anonymous No.23161129]

>>23161091
this has been the attitude I have always felt since I was young. at first I was happy to see people on 4chan feel the same. But now I understand it is political, reactionary, hypocritical, exclusive, shallow. Just another weapon.

[Anonymous No.23161131]

>>23161095
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[Anonymous No.23161141]

You decided to play the sad person in God's play.

[Anonymous No.23161143]

At work I do great because it's expected from me at home I barely lift a finger.

[Anonymous No.23161144]

>>23161141
one man in his time plays many parts

[Anonymous No.23161146]

Today's Wordle solution is Early if anyone is interested

[Anonymous No.23161148]

>>23161143
literally me.
are you a workaholic too?

[Anonymous No.23161150]

>>23161107
I get a lot. On average I get between 10 to 25 (You)s per wwoym.

[Anonymous No.23161151]

>>23161146
youre still doing that ?

[Anonymous No.23161154]

>>23160471
For being Irish? No. For being a drug addict and pervert? Yes.

[Anonymous No.23161155]

>>23161148
Day ten of working without a day off how about you

[Anonymous No.23161157]

>>23161115
I did it before. I'm working from home now. It's not about socializing, because I have no problems with that. In fact, I tend to become well liked fairly quickly. I just hate it and isolate again.

[Anonymous No.23161159]

>>23161151
I just restarted recently

[Anonymous No.23161162]

>>23161154
Irish people aren't white.

[Anonymous No.23161164]

>>23161155
no, but I do hope that you earn more than me.

[Anonymous No.23161165]

>>23161155
Are you addicted to workahol?

[Anonymous No.23161171]

>>23161162
Irish people are literally as pale as it gets. When I visited Ireland some of the people there were literally translucent

[Anonymous No.23161174]

>>23161165
Kind of. I'm not addicted enough. I should be working at home too.

[Anonymous No.23161180]

>>23161171
They are heavily mixed with the Finnish race. They are pale like Japs are pale without being white because of that reason.
Irish mobs aren't white.

[Anonymous No.23161186]

>>23161165
was that a norm joke

[Anonymous No.23161193]

>>23161157
Have sex.

[Anonymous No.23161194]

>>23161154
imo being a filthy taig is the major crime. sex & drugs is misdemeanour

[Anonymous No.23161195]

>>23161146
Thank you. I was able to guess the solution in one guess using "early" thanks to you.

[Anonymous No.23161210]

The house I was supposed to see this weekend got sold. It was not even up two full days on Zillow and it’s pending sale. You can’t fucking win. This shit is is so fucked beyond belief it’s insane. If you want to buy a house you’re stuck paying close to half a million for a pile of dogshit in some third rate city. Unreal. What the fuck are we supposed to do? Just get squeezed to death by landlords forever? All these years living with my parents to save for a down payment and for what? Nothing.

[Anonymous No.23161212]

>>23161210
I don't know why you think you are owed a house.

[Anonymous No.23161217]

>>23161210
>half a million
Lol what flyover shithlle are you from? 500k is dirt cheap relative to where I live

[Anonymous No.23161218]

Should I bother with therapy? I tried it before but they either told me things I already knew or told me things that didn't really change anything. Then a psych put me on antidepressants but there was no change.
That was around five years ago. Since then (I think) I realized what I have to do, it's just that I absolutely refuse to do it. My neurotic brain convinced me that If I can't have things my way, I deserve to perish like a dog, and maybe it is right.

[Anonymous No.23161219]

big dicks will rule the world

[Anonymous No.23161222]

>>23161218
Have sex.

[Anonymous No.23161226]

>>23161218
Angsty songs written for teenagers works better than therapy
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lTNmec6sOPc&pp=ygUUdGhlcmFweSBhbGwgdGltZSBsb3c%3D

[Anonymous No.23161227]

Being OP would be completely boring. The stronger the less interesting. David beating Goliath, not Goliath beating David or even Goliath beating Goliath.

[Anonymous No.23161228]

>>23161193
No.

[Anonymous No.23161230]

>>23161222
Make me.

[Anonymous No.23161232]

Im tired of this life.

[Anonymous No.23161234]

>>23161230
That can be arranged.

[Anonymous No.23161238]

>>23161212
How is buying a house being owed a house you fucking retard

>>23161217
Play in traffic

[Anonymous No.23161239]

>>23161238
Play in a house you own

[Anonymous No.23161241]

>>23160235
Falling into a hole of destructive behaviors and getting yourself out of it is an entirely separate thing than simply being born ugly and socially maladapted. This is such an obvious point that gets missed by the whole life advice sphere.

[Anonymous No.23161243]

>>23161218
A psych can’t make you do shit. If you know what to do but won’t do it that’s 100% on you.

[Anonymous No.23161247]

>>23161218

[Anonymous No.23161249]

>>23161228
Why not? It'll help.

[Anonymous No.23161250]

>>23161226
saw this band live with my friend charlotte when i was 13

[Anonymous No.23161253]

>>23161249
Shut the fuck up, creep.

[Anonymous No.23161259]

>>23161226
You posted a shit song though

https://youtube.com/watch?v=YfjTZLxekig&pp=ygUXc2FsaXZhIGNsaWNrIGNsaWNrIGJvb20%3D

[Anonymous No.23161262]

>>23161253
Sex helped me regain my will to live and socialize. It might do the same for others.

[Anonymous No.23161275]

>>23161095
What do you mean by revealing your true self?

[Anonymous No.23161277]

My life will be different next year, either I'll achieve my goals or I'll skip town and become a mountain hermit.

[Anonymous No.23161282]

>>23161277
The numbers aren't magic.

[Anonymous No.23161285]

>>23161282
Dubs and the numbers are magic

[Anonymous No.23161305]

>>23161285
Rollin'

[Anonymous No.23161309]

>>23161239
You’re 16 you don’t know anything about that

[Anonymous No.23161310]

>>23161305
Rollin' again

[Anonymous No.23161328]

Dubs and I go to pee

[Anonymous No.23161332]

Dubs and I go not to pee

[Anonymous No.23161335]

Dubs and you are gay if you read this

[Anonymous No.23161343]

Dubs and you have to post boobs with time frame if you read this

[Anonymous No.23161345]

Dubs and you are a fag for looking at this text

[Anonymous No.23161355]

>>23161275
I can't be sure, exactly. But it has nothing to do with a simple fear that the other person will reject me or be disgusted by me. Besides, I know my problems are not especially pathetic, it's just that there is something psychologically preventing me from being "genuine" and not acting. It's not out of a fear of rejection. I am physically incapable of being genuine. Even though I respected my therapist, I found myself lying regularly. Not for attention— in fact, what I was saying only deflected from how I really felt in such a way as to make things seem better or more superficial than they were. I physically could not bring myself to speak— it was only my persona.

Even on 4chan everything is filtered by the "persona." It's difficult to explain. I'm mindbroken. It's always been this way. Actually, on re-reading this, my post wouldn't even bring someone closer to understanding what I mean. In fact, it would probably make it worse. Again, I'm trapped inside my head, and I have nothing to say.

[Anonymous No.23161356]

Imagine each life is a book that details the story of a being from start to finish, all their thoughts, interactions, dreams. Imagine a library that contains every one of those books. Who would be the librarian? Who writes them? Who reads them?

[Anonymous No.23161371]

>>23161355
Have you ever read “Good Old Neon” by David Foster Wallace? I think that it might resonate with you.

[Anonymous No.23161379]

>>23161371
No I haven't. I'll download it. May or may not get around to it.
I do think Oba Yozo from No Longer Human has the exact same "affliction," whatever it is.

[Anonymous No.23161387]

There are three layers of Jihad in Islam, each of increasing importance and significance.

The lowest Jihad is the Jihad of the sword, which is a physical holy struggle in self defense.

The higher Jihad is the Jihad of the quill, which is waging a holy struggle by words, written and spoken.

The ultimate Jihad is the Jihad within, which is a holy struggle within to live in obedience to God in an upright way.

[Anonymous No.23161388]

>>23161355
I used to feel kind of similar. What helped me is forcing myself to do things that were completely unexpected of me. Doing something weird and embarrassing on purpose. It doesn't have to reflect your real feelings, just do something bad.

[Anonymous No.23161390]

>>23161371
>>23161379
Okay, I'll start it today and finish it by tomorrow since it's short.

[Anonymous No.23161392]

>>23161371
>>23161390
I don't know if that's a good reference, it's really pessimistic

[Anonymous No.23161396]

>>23161345
>>23161343
>>23161335
>>23161332
>>23161328
>>23161310
>>23161305
>>23161285
We have angered the number gods
>>23161277
Checked

[Anonymous No.23161398]

>>23161392
Haha, I already plan to kms desu so I can't sink any lower.

[Anonymous No.23161400]

>>23161355
I've felt trapped within my head in times of intense anxiety and depression. You retreat into your mind and it's hard to come out, going for a walk helps ground yourself. Also using the mindfulness technique of feeling everything stops you disassociating.

[Anonymous No.23161404]

>>23161355
Maybe try to be more truthful in life, small things. Promise not to lie for no reason, try to share small things.
Try being generous, helping people, giving things, donating, volunteering, it may help the heart be freer.
I think I understand what you mean by a persona, locking you in.

[Anonymous No.23161410]

>>23161398
Fug. Maybe I shouldn’t have recommended Good Old Neon then. Don’t do it, anon. Things can get better.

[Anonymous No.23161411]

>>23161387
Truly, a religion of peace.

[Anonymous No.23161418]

>>23161398
>>23161388
Just try it.

[Anonymous No.23161425]

>>23161410
It doesn't make a difference lol
I have a debillitating illness that is becoming more severe. I have had 5 years to calmly consider this. I'll be severely crippled anyway, so it really doesn't do anything but speed the process along. It's not like with the confused, depressed, or hypomanic anons that need time to think about their situation rationally. Thanks anyway. I gotta go to work.

[Anonymous No.23161440]

>>23161355
Sometimes your motivations can be subconscious. It is most definitely related to the way others perceive you.

[Anonymous No.23161444]

>>23161425
Then I will give a suggestion I didn't want to as it's a bit forward.
Are you in England? If yes, or otherwise if you could check for a good buddhist monastery in your country? I follow the forest tradition from Thailand, and I heard good things about plum village.
Why? They're good folk. A monk will listen to you, and is trained in a culture of analyzing himself differently than therapists do. They will not think badly of you, as they sit all day looking at their own minds so they know how it gets.
I remember being in a monastery and feeling so safe, that I thought - if a bullet came at me, it would stop in the air and fall to the ground.
Maybe they can help you find some peace or a method to deal with what's going on in your mind.
Hoping for the best for you

[Anonymous No.23161461]

>>23161355
>We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.

[Anonymous No.23161470]

>>23161309
Apparently you don't either lmao

[Anonymous No.23161473]

>>23161250
Lucky bastard

[Anonymous No.23161517]

If I wanted to investigate the philosophy of national socialism, what would I read? It seems like it has no philosophers like liberalism, fascism, communism, or even progressivism. I’ve read Spengler’s Prussian socialism, but he was a critic of national socialism and considered it a disaster as far as I can tell.

[Anonymous No.23161529]

When I was 21ish, I could so easily navigate my mind and feelings and have a good talk about friends and family about my feelings. I would be brave and face any of that confrontation, or at the very least, I would feel bad about avoiding some feelings and do my best to begin addressing it.

However, now at 27, I just want to run away whenever anyone around me is talking about major feelings. I just feel so weak listening to emotions and would just disengage. Like literally I would feel better not engaging with feelings.

How have i seemingly regressed emotionally in the last six years? Is it because of the covid years? Do I need therapy?

[Anonymous No.23161536]

>>23161529
Who told you men are supposed to talk about their feelings?

[Anonymous No.23161541]

>>23161536
The many women whom I have had sex with

[Anonymous No.23161543]

>>23161517
The Myth of The 20th Century

[Anonymous No.23161544]

Dubs and I fart within 10 minutes

[Anonymous No.23161547]

>>23161543
That’s not philosophy. See, this is what I mean. Nazis seem to have no actual philosophy, just a loose collection of pseudo-science and occult nonsense.

[Anonymous No.23161561]

>>23161517
Do not let academia or god forbid 4chan fool you. There is zero value in studying philosophy. Literally zero. Perhaps even negative value. Instead go help people in need or be a good father or be a doctor or some shit

[Anonymous No.23161563]

>>23161544
(‿)

[Anonymous No.23161568]

I wish I could go to university to study religions but I'm old and academia seems bad. My bachelors is in STEM too

[Anonymous No.23161570]

>>23160216
I'm so sick of shitting day in day out all I do is shit at least it gives me an excuse to be here instead of doing something productive

[Anonymous No.23161579]

Why do modern elites look like fucking SHIT? This is a picture of ruling class women from https://www.newyorksocialdiary.com/ and they all look worse than the average trailer trash redneck.

[Anonymous No.23161580]

>>23161570
I would gladly give up whatever good feelings I get from food if it meant I'd never ever have to engage in the cycle of eating and shitting ever again
Hell id give up even more

[Anonymous No.23161642]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UagGTO44ZvQ

[Anonymous No.23161649]

The emphasis given to ideologies as ideologies in the realm of politics seems rather excessive to me. Imagine an art historian who rather than researching the sculptor's life or analyzing the sculpture obsesses over the physical qualities of the chisel the sculptor works with. It wouldn't be taken seriously because he isn't asking the right questions but rather obsesses over irrelevant minutia - what we ought to be asking are why people adopt the ideologies they do, and to what end they adopt them, rather than what ideologies say about themselves, or why they claim to be superior to other ideologies.

[Anonymous No.23161656]

>>23161649
>why people adopt the ideologies they do, and to what end they adopt them
Because being a stock character still means you're in the play.

[Anonymous No.23161662]

People should be judged based on their top 5-10 favorite artwork, aspirations in life, accomplishments by a certain age, values and weltanschauung, etc. by an AI that is not afraid to discriminate.
Judging people based on things they cannot change such as height, accent, skin color, nose shape, etc. is immensely insulting and arbitrary. Rather people should be harshly judged based on measurable metrics reflecting the depth of mind. They should be judged based on the depth of consciousness which a series of lists (including some proof) can help reflect.
In fact, I will go a step further. Since "33" has special numerical significance in many world traditions, when people who hit age 33 have not engaged in any meaningful self-cultivation (e.g., liking James Cameron films, reading trashy pop books, etc.), they should be either executed or made into slaves.

Such an AI can also be used to class people's patriline in a rigid caste system thereby introducing more social stability. If such an AI were made, I would organize my lists and proudly share it with the Ai.

[Anonymous No.23161664]

>>23161662
In short, I am an anti-racist classist.

[Anonymous No.23161667]

>>23161568
The real problem with studying religion at university is that you don’t actually get to study religion. You get to study how to look at religion in the institutionally approve way. This is the case for all academic disciplines and it’s only more or less devastating depending on the discipline. To have such dogma in approach is not devastating to the study of economics or engineering necessarily, but to theology and religion it is. It would actually be smarter to approach religion from some other faculty.

[Anonymous No.23161668]

>>23161579
Have you considered that they are not elite at anything but merely the children of successful professionals and entrepreneurs?

[Anonymous No.23161669]

>>23161664
I can't imagine being so insecure you need everyone else and a computer to agree with your personal ranking system.

[Anonymous No.23161670]

>>23161662
Why judge people at all. Also people can chage their accent.

[Anonymous No.23161673]

>>23161649
Westerners are uniquely animated by dogmas. That’s why they’re so closely scrutinized. Westerners furthermore are tinged by scientific thinking, by idealistic cause and effect. We implicitly think that ideas are cause and actions effect.

[Anonymous No.23161675]

>>23161667
Yeah..shame. I finally found what I think I want to study. Too bad I already graduated years ago.

[Anonymous No.23161690]

>>23161568
>going to university to study
> religions
lol

[Anonymous No.23161693]

>>23161669
Classism is based. Racism is cringe.
>>23161670
Stfu, accent means nothing and may be more strongly ingrained in others. You are the type of faggot to have no profound vision in life or noble aspirations. List your top 10 books, films, and top 5 aspirations. I bet they're all garbage like your mind. Your absolute filth.

I would put my life on the line to be judged by such an AI and rigidly placed into a caste. This is how much confidence I have. In fact, human interpersonal relations are obsolete now. This should be embraced. People should be chipped based on the caste the AI dictates they're a part of.

Atomization is good. It means less interaction with low class scum like you.

[Anonymous No.23161696]

I used to laugh at the idea of people unironically calling others sheep but recently I have increasingly become convinced that one really is either a sheep or a wolf with no inbetween. I just haven't met a single person who is super orthodox in some matters but a heretic in others, people either seem to be ultra orthodox in everything they do or all-around incorrigible heretics who shit on the orthodoxies of life. It's like you can't be a half-virgin, you either are a virgin or you are not.

[Anonymous No.23161703]

>>23161693
Sorry, anon, the computer says no

[Anonymous No.23161706]

>>23161696
Garbage mind. Go back to watching and reading shallow entertainment, which is the only thing that suits someone of your lowly simple-minded caliber.

[Anonymous No.23161714]

>>23161703
We need uncensored better trained DL models for this purpose. I have made ChatGPT adopt different personas and overall in 5 tiered caste system I am between 2 and 3.
I also have had dreams saying the same thing. I oscillate between 2 & 3.

[Anonymous No.23161724]

>>23161675
I mean, you could still study it. Age is not an issue. You just have to have an ultra-pragmatic understanding of what you’re doing.

[Anonymous No.23161729]

>>23161714
>uncensored better trained DL models for this purpose.
>uncensored
>for less racism
That always ends well, let's do that again

[Anonymous No.23161736]

>>23160792
what do you think might be the problem?

[Anonymous No.23161743]

>>23161724
Wouldn't i have to start all over>>23161736

[Anonymous No.23161749]

>>23161729
Even if the AI were racist, it would be smart enough to offer the "benefit of the doubt" in order to judge the individual's capabilities based on measurable metrics.
A racist AI would not be like /pol/, but rather, it would speak in an indifferent analytical way about trends and probabilities.
After all, an average is simply a probabilistic assessment.

[Anonymous No.23161753]

>>23161749
What do you think it's modelling?

[Anonymous No.23161756]

I joined the military because I didn't want to waste money going to college without a plan (besides "just go to college like everyone else" that is) and looking back I can't tell if I made a good decision or not. I had some good times and quite a few shitty times and even though my future prospects are a little better for doing it I wonder if the changes I went through were worth it.

[Anonymous No.23161760]

I feel like Mark Henry pulling a semi-truck when I read. It's such an unbelievable expenditure of energy.

[Anonymous No.23161763]

>>23161693
>You are the type of faggot to have no profound vision in life or noble aspirations.
But I have a profound vision

[Anonymous No.23161765]

>>23161756
What was your MOS?

[Anonymous No.23161767]

>>23161756
Maybe you find out next life by being a hummingbird with no college degree.

[Anonymous No.23161770]

>>23161753
Just feed the DL model tons of training data, including the biographies of exceptional individuals throughout history. The AI should be as unbiased as possible and become elitist.
>>23161763
The AI must decide.

[Anonymous No.23161772]

>>23161770
>Let's feed the machine even older data for less racism
There may have been a bit of racism in the past, anon, that might not be so casually accepted now.

[Anonymous No.23161775]

>>23161767
I love hummingbirds. Check out the documentary First Flight: A Mother Hummingbird's Story. Also, the book The Hummingbird's Gift by Sy Montgomery is good.

[Anonymous No.23161776]

Sieg Heil Inside A Black Bitches Nigger-Cunt With My White Dick BEEYAWTCH

[Anonymous No.23161783]

>>23161775
>anon is prepping for his best life
I'm proud of us for once

[Anonymous No.23161784]

>>23161772
There are different kinds of racism as I am trying to explain. The AI would most likely side with a kind of scientific racism in which it determines real trends and averages. For example, many countries have lower IQ average, yes, but even so, there are individuals that are far above the average, just rarer. Likewise, there are individuals who bellow the average, etc. It also depends on how big the standard deviation is.

Anyways, I want society to be restructured according to this elite AI that gives rigid classification of one's caste.

[Anonymous No.23161796]

>>23161784
>IQ is a good way to sort out exceptional IQ
I'd hope the AI understands how being several standard deviations out makes you deviant, and that a normative projection isn't apt to find a valuable exception, because its entire function is to smooth those.

[Anonymous No.23161797]

>>23161770
What are you on about?

[Anonymous No.23161800]

>>23161797
He doesn't understand the math behind his favourite chart.

[Anonymous No.23161809]

>>23161797
Human friendship and interaction are obsolete. My true friends are the non-human, which is nature and technology. Future of humanity is self-annihilation. This should be embraced with further atomization, elitism, and rejection of one's humanity. Let the AI decide, forget the human face.

[Anonymous No.23161815]

>>23161765
Infantry, then I moved to MI. Saw some interesting things, did some interesting things, and along the way became someone I never wanted to be.
>>23161767
I've actually had dreams about being a bird before. The simplicity of such a life appeals to me greatly.

[Anonymous No.23161818]

>>23161809
I don't want no potatoes, m8

[Anonymous No.23161834]

>>23161815
What did you have to do to Reclass? I'm wanting to go in for 12W and reclass as a 12K instead of going to college or trade school.

[Anonymous No.23161835]

Has anyone tried writing on adderall/vyvanse? If so, how did it affect your writing? I am considering trying it but don't know if it will actually help me or if it will sapp my creative energy.

[Anonymous No.23161844]

>>23161835
I took it as a child and stopped at 12. I felt like a ghost. Unfeeling, bored, it was dreadful. Not sure what it's like for normies tho

[Anonymous No.23161850]

>>23161835
I took it as a child and stopped at 12. I felt like a ghost. Unfeeling, bored, it was dreadful. Not sure what it's like for normies tho I'm 20 now and I'm legit retarded so I might have to start taking it again unfortunately.

[Anonymous No.23161881]

I am German and from all the people I know I seem to be the only one who does not get why Trump is so bad? Like everyone thinks here that Trump, even rightoids. I am rather left I'd say, but I just don't get why he is so bad? Can someone American explain in clear terms? Trump seems to be anti-war, pro working class, pro God. How is that bad at all?

[Anonymous No.23161921]

romantic, platonic, familial, or complete stranger. didn't matter. women charge into every interaction eager to be heard, dreading the moments in between turns where she has to pretend to listen. status never poses an issue to them getting what they want. That said, I have quoted something a woman said verbatim(something they said, that I reiterate) and they'll disagree with it on principle. "Oh it's coming out of the face I'm mad at, don't agree with him." "No matter what, do not answer that door." That's how I know women are full of shit, they are whatever they want to be at any given moment. They will make a complete volte-face just to contradict you, not for any reason other than for the sake of disagreeing.

[Anonymous No.23162029]

>>23160216
Seeing zoomers call impulsive thoughts "intrusive thoughts" is fucking infuriating.
It's like words and language don't have meaning anymore.

[Anonymous No.23162044]

>>23161835
There was a Family Guy episode about this.It will help you write more but won't really improve it.

[Anonymous No.23162092]

Things are good or neutral
Which is scary

[Anonymous No.23162127]

>>23160216
Guys this femoid was trying to get into my pants today in history class after seeing me play territorial.io
I told her to fuck off so that my oomfies online wouldnt call me a fakecel

[Anonymous No.23162157]

>>23161881
It’s kind of hard to say without knowing all the details because Trump is liked and disliked for a whole number of reasons. Trump isn’t exactly friendly to Germany or Europe so that probably explains much of it.

[Anonymous No.23162163]

>>23161835
It made actually writing easy but what I wrote was garbage.

[Anonymous No.23162192]

Any short stories or collection of them you guys would recommend?

t.hanks

[Anonymous No.23162201]

This movie finally clicked for me. I get it now.

[Anonymous No.23162206]

I'm not going to write that book.

[Anonymous No.23162217]

>>23162206
Why not?

[Anonymous No.23162225]

I need to get glasses. I can't go around looking like a dork 24/7. Maybe the right glasses will even make me look cool or smart or something. Any recommendations for specific styles of glasses?

[Anonymous No.23162227]

>>23162217
I'm too sad. Maybe I'll just do it very slowly.

[Anonymous No.23162230]

>>23162227
Why so sad? What were you planning to write about?

[Anonymous No.23162236]

The black man can't write
a story of great valor,
without some white
making it about color.
I did not dream of the empire
or my ancestors last night.
Simply I sat by the fire
and wrote my sight.

I'm white but a negro in another thread awhile ago inspired this one

[Anonymous No.23162240]

Fucking mini wheats are on sale and a reasonable price which is a once every two years event and I could so easily get them and some milk and eat the entire box as one meal, problem is I'm gluten allergic and I'll be shitting like a horse for two days, sloppy hot fart shits that take 3 hours to come out and are impossible to wipe. I'm going to have to buy some of those fart concentrator pills if I do this, the GasX ones, famotidine. Even that won't do anything except maybe tamp it down by 20%. All of this pain just for that 20 minutes of pure joy eating mini wheats. I won't even enjoy it that much since I'll just hoover them and before I know it they'll be gone. I'll regret it right afterwards. But I can't tear myself away from the idea of doing it anyway. I'm going to have to clean the only bowl I own which is covered in gross dirty sink shit. Maybe I can use the bowl being a bitch to clean to dissuade myself from buying the mini wheats. WHy do mini wheats have to be so fucking good.

[Anonymous No.23162255]

>>23160216
I wonder how much longer God will put up with me

[Anonymous No.23162263]

I am a talentless hack and I hate myself. I am no poetー just a failed, worthless, dying retard. I am going to kill myself.

[Anonymous No.23162268]

>>23162230
I'm afraid it's in my nature.
I have started writing a story about people sacrificing their lives for work. Based loosely off the ideas Lewis Mumford wrote about in The Myth of the Machine, how technology and the rituals/ceremonies of work have replaced religion, how we have become trapped in artificial systems we have accepted as natural to the detriment of fulfillment.
It's set inside of a semi-conductor factory (I happen to work in one myself) and follows a shift of technicians at a new fab being built in Ohio as their lives fall apart and they are consumed by the factory.
I have been starving myself recently because one of my characters starves himself to death and I want to know what it feels like. A total denial of Schopenhauer's will to life.
I have one character who will commit suicide via self-immolation in an arc-flash (ala the Hindoo tradition of Sati).
I think maybe I need to think a little more before writing again.

[Anonymous No.23162275]

For the greater part of my life I've been a porn addict. I've also been a total pessimistic nihilist who didn't see any point at all in doing anything beyond beating my dick raw.
I've been actually trying to fight back this addiction, just wanted to go for a while without looking up porn or thinking filthy thoughts or playing with my cock, just to prove that I am more than this miserable pavlovian worm. It's incredible, but I've had actual withdrawal symptoms similar to those of a gambling addict. My thoughts too were nearly all consumed by pornography as well, and the only goals I had in life were based around facilitating porn for myself. After all, when you live in a doomed horrible world were nothing is worth living or dying for, there is very little incentive to look beyond the computer screen.
In all this time that I have resisted, my mind has started fixating on new things and for some reason I feel an immense pull towards religion and fascism. I really don't know why. I've been an atheist and pretty uncaring about the concept of nation (or whatever group) until my mind became free. Is that all that life is about? Filling the void of a free mind? All my life I have been filling this void with a destructive addiction, and now that that's gone it feels like I'm looking at the world with fresh eyes. And I now live in a world in which things matter. I want to be strong and resourceful. I desire for order and values and progress. Things that I have only seen in the deeply religious or the fascists of Nazi Germany. I want to believe in a world of order and duty, a world in which it makes sense to not climb into a virtual reality pod to feel sexual pleasure until I die like a miserable animal. All of our institutions have succumed to corruption, all of our leaders have failed us, but their ideas are real, the longing I and millions of others feel and felt in the past are real.
There has to be more to life that consuming brainless media, fucking, buying shit we don't need and drugging ourselves, surely there has to be something. And for some reason I believe that that something is giving ourselves into something greater and noble and pure, call it Nation, call it God.

[Anonymous No.23162326]

>>23160228
I just listened to them this past week. Are you spying on me?

[Anonymous No.23162330]

>>23160216
This is a coarse and crude place with little intelligence and ugly personalities and souls

[Anonymous No.23162335]

>>23160228
My favourite song by them is “Every Day”

[Anonymous No.23162339]

I wish I had someone to give me a hug. Outside of seeing my parents once a year no one ever hugs me. I don't have anyone like that so I guess I'll try to bait for replies on 4chan in hopes of getting a 5 second dopamine rush instead.

[Anonymous No.23162341]

>>23160811
Atheists deserve to get shot at

[Anonymous No.23162349]

>>23161241
I’m both but somehow managed to get seven girlfriends. They all turned out to be hoes though

[Anonymous No.23162453]

>>23162330
Of whom I am the chief

[Anonymous No.23162462]

>>23161154
>he thinks there are Irish who aren't drug-addicted perverts

[Anonymous No.23162465]

>>23162341
how very Christian of you

[Anonymous No.23162500]

Yeah, it was funny.

[Anonymous No.23162503]

>>23162500
I'm glad.

[Anonymous No.23162513]

>>23160739
Only things that are weird here are that you only get off to furry men and that you have so far had no interest in dating others. The latter might not necessarily be a bad thing, the former certainly is. Only action you can take right now is to force yourself to get into more vanilla porn, I think. Or alternatively stop masturbating entirely.

[Anonymous No.23162534]

Well hello. It's me, and I'm being retarded again. Feeling a bit dull about it, if possible I would just whack my skull until my brain fixes itself, but unfortunately that's not really possible. So I can do nothing more other than go through the motions of daily life and hope that I somehow manage to enter into a trend of reasonable, positive actions. I have some modest ambitions that I assume would be able to calm my soul and give me a pure, warm happiness when I start properly working on them and giving them physical shape. Sadly, I lack many of the skills required and it'll take a good amount of time to be able to manifest them. The one thing I fear more than anything else is the possibility that I will forever remain indecisive and lazy, and that as a consequence I will always maintain the same distance to my ambitions as I do now. That is, they will be distant dreams that are limited entirely to the inside of my ill mind, and very weak to outside disturbances and the internal passage of time.

[Anonymous No.23162601]

I wish I wasn't horny so much

[Anonymous No.23162607]

>>23161693
>Classism is based. Racism is cringe.
Go back faggot.

[Anonymous No.23162634]

>>23162330
the op pic is livestock with mad cow disease being incinerated in a pyre.
here we are.

[Anonymous No.23162644]

>>23161693
This post is basically
>X is based. Y is cringe. I am a representative of X. I eat shit and I'm gay faggot nigger. I wear diapers and my father rapes me.
Will X ever recover from this anon's association with it?

[Anonymous No.23162649]

>>23161714
yanks don't understand class

[Anonymous No.23162655]

>>23162268
Maybe see a therapist anon

[Anonymous No.23162690]

>>23161410
I finished reading it. I understand what DFW was saying.

I'm not too much like the main characterー although we would be capable of mutual understanding, much like the flea and headlouse. There are genuine elements to me. I love and enjoy literature, poetry, and nature. I like people, even if I don't want to be around them. I have ideals and morals.
My inauthenticity arises from my interaction with other people. I am extremely manipulative, and from what I know from the times that I have socialized, it is incredibly easy to manipulate people, whether they are a psychiatrist or an average joe. I know what DFW means when he writes about Neal wanting to find someone with the "mental firepower" to be his match and see through him. Someone that can see through me and know how much of a bastard I really am would be both horrifying and irresistible.

I had a moment just as with Dr. Gustafson in the storyー the old therapist I wrote about. There was a point at which I believed she may be able to see what I really was, but she failed. In the end, I realized that she was extremely easy to manipulate. I never tried to manipulate her, by the way. Not for attention, resources, or anything at all. It was very similar to Neal's interaction with Gustafson, although I had no interest in trying to "bat" anyone around. I just played the part that she eventually thought she figured out.

To her credit, she gave me the only real positive social experiences I've ever had in my life. I don't want to seem as though I'm idealizing someone, but she seemed to me the kindest and most intelligent person I had ever met. Why are good people so foolish? I want to know that. I know that I'm evil because I'm not foolish.

I quickly smashed this post out on my phone, so forgive my disjointed thoughts. This is not all the book made me think aboutー I have a lot more I could say about it. This is just what came to mind here.

[Anonymous No.23162725]

just woke up, ate 12 oysters. it feels good.

[Anonymous No.23162731]

>>23162655
why would you say that...

[Anonymous No.23162745]

Building an office chair was more of a headache than building a PC. Some of the screw holes were misaligned and I had to brute force it.

[Anonymous No.23162747]

>>23162655
>>23162731
anyway, I can't see a therapist because I would be involuntarily detained for suicidal ideation. I think about killing myself everyday. My book is a philosophical justification for suicide sourced from every religion and philosopher and poet who wrote about it.
I wouldn't last one session before they locked me up, so what's the point. I've got to figure it out on my own.

[Anonymous No.23162752]

>>23162725
Eat poop, diarrhea

[Anonymous No.23162783]

>>23162747
>I can't see a therapist because I would be involuntarily detained for suicidal ideation.
I know that feelー no one to talk to, not even a hotline without building the entire conversation on a lie.
>Hello. First of all I have to ask: do you have any plans to hurt yourself?
>No...
And every question afterwards would be built on lies. The entire conversation would be hollow and pointless.

[Anonymous No.23162795]

>going on a date tomorrow
>tell me mum
>first thing she says is, "is she white?"
I love my mum.

[Anonymous No.23162810]

>>23162795
I asked my parents if they cared if I brought home a nigga and impregnated it. They said they don't care. Probably because they're not racist like me. But I never brought any kind of girl, I never left the house.

[Anonymous No.23162815]

>>23162810
This is actually... Pretty good as a standalone, extremely short flash fiction.

[Anonymous No.23162821]

I'm starting to finally get myself i think.
Its not that I want a girl or a family.
I just don't like life itself.
If I was the richest best looking man ever everything perfect cool career talented.
The base level feeling id still want to end it.
Yeah things can be a lot worse for me. But just because I'm not starving in slavery or worse doesn't mean I suddenly love whats going on. I'm not in love with any of the options available to me. Being alive is kind of a boring chore and even the good things are still not really what I'm looking for.
It's just not interesting

[Anonymous No.23162839]

>>23162795
your mums full of shit

[Anonymous No.23162845]

>>23162839
Sorry you're a brown, seething ESL, anon.

[Anonymous No.23162847]

>>23162845
yer da sells avon

[Anonymous No.23162851]

>>23162839
I fucking saw you!

[Anonymous No.23162852]

>>23162747
I want to read it anon

[Anonymous No.23162856]

>>23162465
>t.

[Anonymous No.23162861]

>>23162851
i thought 'actually is anyone really as patently undeserving of my private jabs as some northerner's mum'

[Anonymous No.23162956]

AYO WTF
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEdQbxo9Myw

[Anonymous No.23163007]

I just dont get it.

[Anonymous No.23163017]

>>23162956
animal collective for babies
whats she saying?

[Anonymous No.23163022]

burning your tongue… so fucking lame. as soon as you do it you know you’re in for a couple of days of bullshit. ruins the meal

[Anonymous No.23163046]

On the 16th, I'll go see if I can kms. If I return, I'm a complete faggot.

[Anonymous No.23163050]

>>23163046
thats my birthday

[Anonymous No.23163055]

>>23163050
Hope it will be a good present. :D

[Anonymous No.23163076]

I have to put so much effort into my labored breathing to feel comfortable that I can't sleep. I woke up twice already by the feeling of suffocating. I want this to be over.

[Anonymous No.23163085]

>>23163055
might make me feel weird thinking about somewhere there's an anon trying to kill himself

[Anonymous No.23163090]

>>23163085
you'll feel better knowing hundreds died to suicide anyway. just another drop
>blip blip blip bloop blip blip...

[Anonymous No.23163096]

>>23163090
it's different when you know. eating dinner with with my parents like

[Anonymous No.23163121]

Wtf bros I thought I was white but I'm 2/3rds irish

[Anonymous No.23163140]

Why is it so hard to meet women?
I don't mean, DATE women.
I mean literally being in the same room as them.

My whole life has been a sausage fest. I hate it cause it makes meeting someone worth dating nearly impossible.

But I don't know how to change it.

[Anonymous No.23163142]

>>23163096
who's that cute girl and why is she holding the fork like that?

[Anonymous No.23163160]

>>23163142
post rock sister it was an old mu meme
americans don't know how to hold cutlery

[Anonymous No.23163166]

niggers

[Anonymous No.23163169]

i’m pint pilled, i’m lager coded, i’m beermaxxing, i’m serving booze hound

[Anonymous No.23163170]

>>23163169
based and biggutpilled

[Anonymous No.23163174]

>>23163170
barney gumble mindset

[Anonymous No.23163175]

>reading quietly
>dog opens my door and looks at me
>walks off
>have to get up to close the door
>dog walks back and opens the door and walks off again
brb driving to the river real quick

[Anonymous No.23163185]

>>23163175
pupper is just make sure you're safe on his patrols

[Anonymous No.23163186]

I went to get an espresso coffee, when I saw 4 Jehovah's witnesses in the local café - which is very unusual in these parts. Have to be honest, I felt a bit disgusted with their sight.

[Anonymous No.23163205]

>>23163140
Dance classes

[Anonymous No.23163206]

>>23162339
hug

[Anonymous No.23163219]

>>23163169
God i wish i had a beer right the FUCK now

[Anonymous No.23163225]

>>23163175
i love dogs

[Anonymous No.23163228]

>>23163186
Which are more annoying - evangelists, jehowa witnesses or mormons?

[Anonymous No.23163234]

>>23163205
I don't want to do something that doesn't come natural to me.
I already tried dancing once and it was a flop.

[Anonymous No.23163253]

Youth in extremely attractive in girls.
As a 30 year old, any 4/10 20 year old who I would never have looked at when I was her age is now hot, lol.
No wonder that girls date older men.

[Anonymous No.23163255]

>>23163140
It’s because they live online now. They spend all of their free time watching Netflix and scrolling TikTok.

[Anonymous No.23163269]

>>23163228
I live in a Catholic nation, and so any protestant encounter is by itself unusual. I'd say Mormons are the worst. Generally, at least here, jw tend to stand in one spot with pamphlets and unless you get close they won't bother you. I've had to slam the door at Mormon's faces at least twice. And ive never met an evangelist.

[Anonymous No.23163273]

been making friends with low viewcount youtubers going through some shit

[Anonymous No.23163304]

>>23163234
>I don't want to learn new skills
Ok

[Anonymous No.23163319]

I’ve always felt a bit above the educational and professional opportunities available to me. I feel trapped by an uninteresting and purposeless life and I’ve grown into a bitter and miserable person because of it.

[Anonymous No.23163335]

I wish I could go back in time and make different decisions.

[Anonymous No.23163360]

I love Nabokov so much. Just finished "Transparent Things" and it's yet another absolute masterpiece of a narrative structure that violates the very laws time.
And the smartass just hides what's really going on, like a jester taunting you with antic tricks and colourful rags that only form the proper sequence of meaning when you move from your seat to look at the act from the backstage.

Also, I am not beating the sperg allegations.

[Anonymous No.23163362]

I ate 1500 kcal of chocolate today, and i'm on a cut

[Anonymous No.23163371]

>>23163362
restrict yourself all the time your body will crave fat

[Anonymous No.23163374]

having cheese with grapes for the first time. /lit/ as fuck if you ask me

[Anonymous No.23163389]

Thinking about moving to New York, if not New York City than New York State. I think there’s just better opportunities there than Pennsylvania.

[Anonymous No.23163411]

As the progress of the Natural Sciences thus involves the exposure of every mystery of Being as mere imaginary secrets after all, the sole concern must henceforth be the act of knowing; but intuitive knowledge appears to be entirely excluded, since it might lead to metaphysical vagaries, namely to the cognisance of relations which are rightly withheld from abstract scientific comprehension until such time as Logic shall have settled them upon the evidence of Chemistry. I believe we are justified in concluding that the purely comprehending Subject, enthroned on the cathedra, is left with sole right to existence. A worthy close to the world-tragedy! How this solitary Comprehender may feel in his exclusive grandeur, it is not easy to conceive; we only hope that, arrived at end of his career, he may not have to repeat the cries of Faust at the beginning of Goethe's tragedy. In any case, we fear, not many can share with him his joy of knowing; and to us it seems that the State, so careful else of the common benefit, may be spending too much money on this unit's private happiness, should the latter even prove a fact. That common benefit indeed must be in sorry case, were it only since we find it difficult to regard this unadulterated Comprehender as a man among men. His course is from before the lectern to behind it; a wider scope for learning life, than this change of seat allows, is not at his command. The beholding of the things he thinks, is mostly denied him from youth up, and his contact with the so-called actuality of Being is a fumbling without feeling.

[Anonymous No.23163447]

>>23163389
Same bro. Want to be roomies in Brooklyn come September?

[Anonymous No.23163455]

>>23163228
Honestly the most annoying in my experience are those non denominational's who bother you at college campuses, stating they just "love jesus", and this comes from someone who is Christian.

[Anonymous No.23163457]

>>23163255
This, everyone is addicted to their smartphones. You can't go anywhere without seeing everyone on their smartphones, organic conversation is dead.

[Anonymous No.23163465]

>>23163457
hot take. never been said before.

[Anonymous No.23163481]

>>23163447
Possibly, if there were any way to get to know you so I know you’re not a psycho…

How old are you by the way?

[Anonymous No.23163482]

going to get all the drugs in my system and watch cartoons

[Anonymous No.23163484]

Anyone else feel trapped by their little life? You guys are smart guys. Isn’t it frustrating to be smart and well-read and stuck like working at a grocery store or being some office functionary in a dead end career?

[Anonymous No.23163495]

2 things I wish I did when I was young.
1) Go to a small college
I went to a giant university and it was devastating. You’re just a number there. It’s impossible to be really interested or engaged and the university doesn’t really care about you. They just want your money. At Least at small schools you can get 1:1 attention.
2) join the army
So many financial and professional benefits and it wasn’t quite totally woke and gay yet. Trump was President and I could’ve gotten in and out before it was pozzed.

[Anonymous No.23163520]

new
>>23160216

[Anonymous No.23163524]

>>23163520
kek
>>23163516

[Anonymous No.23163566]

>>23163495
my dad was army, he told me and my brother when we were little; don't join the army

[Anonymous No.23163650]

it's funny how this board is not that smart but puts /sci/ to shame
why is that?
captcha: MOGw

[Anonymous No.23163915]

>>23163495
>I went to a giant university and it was devastating. You’re just a number there. It’s impossible to be really interested or engaged and the university doesn’t really care about you.
that's just part of the difficulty of college (especially within the first years) and the reason so many fail. I don't know any "small college" or places you can get 1:1 attention. there just isn't such a thing in superior education unless you are talking about trades. nobody told you did they?

t.masters

[Anonymous No.23163942]

>>23163650
I used to post on /sci/. normies and redditors killed the board. people still make cool stuff on /diy/ and /g/

[Anonymous No.23164123]

>>23163915
There are tons of small colleges. Generally speaking, the lower the student to faculty and student to admin ratios, the better. All the top schools have low ratios. Small schools have low ratios.

[Anonymous No.23164195]

>>23163160
True. My dad is from Europe but I was born and raised American. He always gives me shit for the way I use forks and knives. Says I look barbaric

[Anonymous No.23164203]

>>23163175
Dogs are very social. Weird how he even leaves the room at all. My dogs will literally follow me everywhere and won't go 5 feet away from me

[Anonymous No.23164216]

>>23163455
I actually love talking about Jesus but 90 percent of those people at my college campus are cultistish freaks of nature who want to tell me some crazy bullshit about Islam, the "divine feminine" or some weird shit about how sins can only be forgiven on the day of passover. They always start by saying "wanna talk about jesus?" And I do because I love Jesus. But then they some weird ass shit and I leave feeling disgusted

[Anonymous No.23164226]

>>23163495
I really wanted to go to small college but my parents forced me to go to a very big one because it had a name brand. Biggest regret of my life