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Write What's On Your Mind Anonymous Sat Nov 18 03:49:56 2023 No.22729101 [Reply] [Original]

The world of yesterday edition
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>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 03:50:15 2023 No.22729104 File: 116 KB, 578x1061, 1694523090116512.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] REDUNDANT TROI

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 03:56:22 2023 No.22729123
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My older brother is like 32 and he was going for a walk. For most of his life he's lived at the old house, the family house, with Mom and Dad. Dad died and older bro is currently helping Mom get ready to sell the house and move in with her sister. Neighbors recently left, and their house was bought by some well of guy who bought the house so his college aged daughter and her friends could live there. For like a year or so these girls have been living their being noisy and playing loud music and whatnot.

Bro is going for a late night walk, as he often does. He's using a starmap app on his phone to let him see constellations. He's walking near their house, waving his phone around, looking at stars. He's like 6'2 by the way, and has a prominent beard. As he goes past their house they're playing loud music in their parked car, and they honk at him for no reason. He keeps on walking. His route leads him back eventually, this time they turn down the music as he passes. Shortly after this he hears them talking on the phone, they sound scared.

20 minutes later or so police cars cruise the neighborhood, at one point stopping in from of our home. They shine lights on our house. I learned all this from younger bro, who tells me that older bro started playing classical music when he saw there were cops outside, so that if they knocked out our door older bro wouldn't seem like a good-for-nothing. Cops leave, no actual interaction.

Women were a mistake, and older bro is based. Someone make a meme were there are crying wojak girls going NOOOOO YOU CAN'T JUST TAKE A WALK IN THIS NEIGHBORHOOD YOU'VE LIVED AT FOR 3 DECADES NOOOOOO and bearded brother chad wojak is like "shutup I'm looking at stars"

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 03:58:20 2023 No.22729130 >>22729117 The hwites?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:00:07 2023 No.22729136 just hit myself hard as fuck in the face with a car door. i'm not even THAT drunk. the pain was brief but the shame continues

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:01:21 2023 No.22729139 i hate wasting time on this site but i just don't feel like doing anything at all rn

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:02:10 2023 No.22729143 >>22729123 Honestly, your brother sounds based.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:03:22 2023 No.22729146 File: 770 KB, 1777x1133, IMG_2710.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729101 Gonna slide this poll in here https://strawpoll.com/7rnzmNLlYyO

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:03:33 2023 No.22729147 only 25 but realizing i am older than most people i share online spaces with

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:06:42 2023 No.22729157 >>22729147 I'm 23 Is that bad? I haven't even started my novel yet I feel so worthless I'll never be a good writer, and that's all I could've been Why won't it end? Do you know? I am so alone

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:07:40 2023 No.22729160
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>look up indigenous europeans
>a bunch of articles about the Saami and Romani show up
>nothing about actual europeans
what did they mean by this? i guess you can only be indigenous if you're not white?

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:08:05 2023 No.22729163
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>>22729101
I'm so dissatisfied with pretty much every philosophy and religion I'm going to discover and syncretize my own regardless of how much it will conflict with everything else.
>oh great another new age schizo religion
Those are just watered down eastern philosophy which I hate the most.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:08:33 2023 No.22729164 >wake up hungry at 4am after dream about rats how to eat toast w/o crumbs?

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:09:14 2023 No.22729166
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Say "Shakespeare retelling" and I'm often sold right there. Continue with "neurodivergent and queer heroine" and I'm snatching the book out of your hands. Finish with "hero has anxiety disorders" and you won't hear from me until I finish the last page.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:09:41 2023 No.22729168 >>22729163 >he didn't read the Apology ngmi

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:10:06 2023 No.22729169 >>22729164 Shove the entire piece in your mouth in one go.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:13:26 2023 No.22729177 >>22729123 Which composers in particular?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:16:05 2023 No.22729185 >>22729168 To me, the Greeks are "new", in that my thought cares for something much older that historiography has only recently uncovered. I would go far to say that the Greek philosophers were the beginning of the end.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:19:06 2023 No.22729196 >feel bad >pet kitty >feel good thank you kitty

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:36:25 2023 No.22729242 i love you. you are so dear to me. i'm so sorry. i am begging you, please forgive me.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:47:49 2023 No.22729262 >>22729242 nah piss off mate. wanker

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:48:52 2023 No.22729265 >>22729262 nobody was talking to you faggot. you fucking sodomite

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:49:14 2023 No.22729269 >>22729196 human >>22729242 human >>22729262 cat

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:51:20 2023 No.22729276 >>22729147 You’re a baby to me Anyways asked in the last thread but what is conclusion that can be drawn from combining contextualism with an epistemic theory of truth, from metaphysics to ethics and politics and science?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:52:20 2023 No.22729279 >>22729160 Use yandex

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:53:34 2023 No.22729281 File: 66 KB, 683x1024, 1688533174931866m.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729166 Women shouldn't be taught to read No matter how cute they are

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:53:38 2023 No.22729283 >>22729265 when i see a shitty post i must say something. i dont make the rules babe

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 04:56:32 2023 No.22729295 >>22729283 keep talking that kinda shit and i'll kiss you

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:00:08 2023 No.22729307 >>22729295 >>22729283 do u guys know each other or something keep the flirting to dms

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:05:36 2023 No.22729322 How come I consistently run out of people to swipe on, on tinder, but somehow the number of people that have liked me never goes down?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:08:26 2023 No.22729334 >>22729322 fishing for a premium buy

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:13:14 2023 No.22729349 >>22729334 They won't get my cash. (I don't have any cash anyway)

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:14:38 2023 No.22729353 I'm starting to understand.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:15:00 2023 No.22729355 bladee voice oh you say i'm gay? you say i'm gay?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:17:13 2023 No.22729359 thread theme https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frbreCSFcPg

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:28:51 2023 No.22729387

About half an hour ago I started feeling numbness in my arms and hands and and my balance felt weak, kinda if I was drunk. I'm feeling a headache and my thoughts are somewhat confused. Am I dying? My right hand and my face also started tingling but it stopped quickly.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:32:19 2023 No.22729392 >>22729387 Not enough to go on. Could be too many things, but unless you had a recent head injury you're probably fine.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:36:05 2023 No.22729403 i wanna make love not fuck but im not in love with anyone

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 05:38:49 2023 No.22729412 >>22729403 find a hippie?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 06:06:28 2023 No.22729457 >>22729387 You're gonna die

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 06:17:05 2023 No.22729473 I really want a trans girlfriend.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 06:52:36 2023 No.22729544 File: 243 KB, 900x1200, 1693976672763047.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729403 I want a soft squishy thin girlfriend

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 06:55:09 2023 No.22729549 I keep getting to the top 5 in fortnite and then losing and it's pissing me off

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 06:58:24 2023 No.22729555 >>22729549 Git gud scrub.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:01:34 2023 No.22729560 File: 425 KB, 974x840, pepe standard.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729101 I need to cum inside a woman.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:06:06 2023 No.22729570 File: 311 KB, 112x112, 1625553637300.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729403 me too anon. hang in there

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:12:15 2023 No.22729581 I'm dissatisfied with the religions in the world, I'm going to start my own.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:13:17 2023 No.22729583 >>22729544 Fucking faggot

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:17:09 2023 No.22729590

>they're systematically shuttying down islamic private schools
>"your kids have to integrate with our kids"
>do you realize that we are already in a scenario where likely somethin glike half of all children aged 9 are hard core porn addicts?
is it wrong for me to not want my children to mix with your children? to normalize what is normal for them?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:22:18 2023 No.22729600 >>22729590 You shouldn't have come to the west if you thought you could isolate your kids from this influence in 21st century. I'm not telling you to go back but you are basically helpless and you knew in your heart what you were getting into.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:22:42 2023 No.22729602

>>22729590
>they're systematically shuttying down islamic private schools
Good. If you want your children to be radicalized Muslims, consider moving to Saudi Arabia. Hell, if I was in charge of Western nations I'd make a deal with Muslims:
>We give you 10 million USD each
>In exchange we strip you of citizenship and give you 1 month to leave the country for a Muslim one
Literally everyone wins. You get to rejoin Dar al-Islam, we no longer have to deal with you.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:31:56 2023 No.22729618 >>22729583 Huh what why you adulterine?

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:37:42 2023 No.22729626

Not sure where else to post this but I’ve been trying to get a hold of this article by Tolstoy against Zionism. It doesn’t seem to be archived on any other website and paywall removers don’t work for me
https://www.nytimes.com/1906/12/09/archives/zionism-an-argument-against-the-ambition-for-separate-national.html

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:41:03 2023 No.22729628 Happiness has brought you to life.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:42:17 2023 No.22729632 >>22729628 Elaborate.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:42:53 2023 No.22729635 >>22729632 Yes, happiness has brought you to life.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:48:53 2023 No.22729654

>>22729600
but what if I was born and raised to secular, western-ethnic parents here? Should it really be impossible for the liberal western society to sustain more than one ethical system? Are you really saying that you know you live in Sodom and you don't care?
>>22729602
it really is only a matter of prize

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 07:59:07 2023 No.22729675 I have no trouble feeling love toward animals but I can't feel it toward humans, I don't know why.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:02:17 2023 No.22729686 >>22729675 Low intelligence.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:20:07 2023 No.22729719

>>22729654
At least you have a choice. You have to compromise with your living standards however but living in accordance with your values necessitates a sacrifice. Besides I don't think a rightward turn will be peaceful for the outsiders if it happens. Or worse, what if there's a collapse?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:22:31 2023 No.22729721 >>22729686 I'm really stupid but I don't think there's a correlation there.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:25:46 2023 No.22729726

If I can't find a job then I'm going to be forced to go back on neetbux but they won't let me get neetbux unless I'm doing a course, the only problem is that I don't have any interests so there's no course I can do that won't do terrible things to my mental health.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:27:24 2023 No.22729730 >>22729721 I meant emotional intelligence or whatever. Conscientiousness.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:29:52 2023 No.22729736 >>22729730 Or agreeableness.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:30:30 2023 No.22729738 >>22729730 I like to think I'm intelligent when it comes to those areas.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:31:15 2023 No.22729739

Honestly- I don't mean to say that justice is a meaningless concept, I mean this as a criticism of the state of affairs- what is the point of a people believing in criminal "justice" when their concept of "self-improvement" boils down to reading variations on Dale Carnegie and lifting? When they learn their morals from Game of Thrones?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:32:38 2023 No.22729742 I'm going to do the opposite of what Nassim Nicholas Taleb says.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:34:06 2023 No.22729746 >>22729742 OK George Costanza.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 08:49:26 2023 No.22729774 File: 852 KB, 1125x1131, IMG_3516.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729746 George was based. One day the world will be brave enough to admit it

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 10:05:17 2023 No.22729899

>>22729101
Have you ever hear British people talk? When they talk, they don't sound like they're speaking the language of the world at all. It's all very specialized. Their language and speech are so specialized to only be contained within their culture, within their nation, among their own people. A British man has no talent except for being unapologetically British.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 10:05:33 2023 No.22729901 File: 610 KB, 471x651, love quest.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] When you think about chris chan is like the tom bombadil of 4chan im drunk btw

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 10:47:59 2023 No.22729987 you ever catch yourself typing something genuinely nuts and just stop on principle? certain thoughts shouldn't even be articulated anonymously

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:10:10 2023 No.22730108 >>22729101 anons help, I closed a tab without posting my reply, is there any way to get the text back?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:28:25 2023 No.22730145 File: 51 KB, 395x600, 23AAC5EC-284B-46D2-BBF8-A0A273275CF2.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Crux sacra sit mihi lux Non draco sit mihi dux Vade retro satana Numquam suade mihi vana Sunt mala quae libas Ipse venena bibas

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:29:50 2023 No.22730149 >>22729987 No, self-censorship is for communists.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:32:25 2023 No.22730156

It is silly to be mad at figures like Mill or Locke for contemporary liberalism or other forms of "badthink" as seen from the perspective from chuddom, not because it wasn't what they had in mind (it was), but because it is not people who form ideology, but ideology that forms people. If they didn't exist someone else would have articulated the exact same positions because what they stood for was a crystallization of the ideology of their milieu. There was always going to be a Mill, a Locke, a Freud, an Adorno, etc. because mainstream philosophy is ultimately always downstream from group interests, economical power, and high politics.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:43:58 2023 No.22730186

The universe keeps giving me signs to fucking kill myself but I just don't feel like it. It's like my suicide fuel bar has hit the max and I have this overpowering urge to kill myself but something inside is just saying "nah". There's literally no reason to say "nah" right now, instead of yeah. But it's still saying "nah".
Although I choked on my food just now so perhaps the universe just has other plans.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:45:49 2023 No.22730188 File: 103 KB, 640x860, 1674843183286322.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729901 Everyone hates Tom Bombadil though.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 12:54:59 2023 No.22730203 What the fuck were the french retards thinking with their dumb little revolution, this is all their fault you know?

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 13:01:36 2023 No.22730214

>>22730203
Politics are not the art of what you should do or what should have happened, but how you can manipulate the present and the past to achieve your goals. The french revolution happened because it could, because the ancien regime was too weak during a moment of crisis and because it didn't manage the issue of the emergence of the bourgeoisie well enough. When a stagnant or declining regime meets a rival elite that is growing more and more powerful economically and socially by the day, revolutions are bound to happen.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 13:19:48 2023 No.22730258 Why is sociology so libtarded? I can't think of any other profession that is so homogenous ideologically, not even the writing of history.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 13:43:36 2023 No.22730317 Isn't it odd that rubbish has a distinct smell even though it contains numerous different things rotting. How do they all mingle into one recognisable scent?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 14:19:22 2023 No.22730420 I need to stop arguing on here. I'm letting too many people live rent-free inside my mind.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 14:20:33 2023 No.22730425

>>22730258
Because anything that claims expertise over current society will be full of people looking to manipulate and control society, or become tools for manipulation and control. Hence why sociology is basically a Libtardism 101 class. It's only purpose is to indoctrinate and train low and mid rank NGO footmen.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 14:22:20 2023 No.22730430 >>22730258 Because its framing of social issues at the most fundamental level assumes leftist moral principles. It's more or less just scientific leftism.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 14:24:15 2023 No.22730432 At this point I understand my hatred of women is unreasonable but I will continue with it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 15:05:04 2023 No.22730560 All is not well with me

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 15:14:17 2023 No.22730596

Across authors, mediums, genres, and even real life, the number one thing I find that makes a character or even person compelling is determination. From saving the world, getting the girl, or even autistics like the tilefag, as long as they CARE enough, I find myself naturally enduring to them.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 15:21:30 2023 No.22730614 dubs and my mother dies this year

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 15:31:18 2023 No.22730646 >>22730614 WHY would you post that?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 15:39:33 2023 No.22730677 >>22730646 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4AkDt_JRqk

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:01:18 2023 No.22730754 >>22729654 Westerners larping as muslims are so pathetic

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:03:13 2023 No.22730759 >>22730560 And all was well with anon

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:04:53 2023 No.22730763 transcending https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jXtKESEZQLg

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:09:43 2023 No.22730783

I never told my dad I tried to kill myself. I tried twice, spent a total of 10 weeks in mental wards, never told him. That was this summer. I did two stints, I don't remember why I didn't tell him the first time, but the second time it was at least a factor that things he had said to me kept playing in my head over and over before the second attempt. Things that happened between him and me a long time ago that we never talked about again. It's probably gonna have to come to the surface. Tbh I don't want to provoke him, I don't want to have to try to handle and face him in a rage. I thought for a long time that I'd forgiven him, but I hadn't. I've no idea what to do. We talk, but I just haven't told him.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:11:26 2023 No.22730790

>>22730317
I'd never thought about that. Interesting. My completely unsubstantiated guess issued forth from highschool-tier scientific knowledge would be that while there may be several distinct smells amongst the individual elements of the rubbishpile, there is one overpoweringly strong rubbishy smell that is primarily the result of some very common process relating to the breakdown of organic material. Like rotting fats, grease etc being chomped up by some common bacteria or something. There are unique rubbish smells I can recall, now that I think of it. Rotting citrus fruits overpower the ordinary smell of rubbish. I imagine that large quantities of rotting meat would also do the same, although I don't believe I've smelled that ever. Coffee grounds also retain a distinct smell. However you are correct I think that there's definitely a smell of rubbish.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:11:52 2023 No.22730791 >>22730754 What makes you say that?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:11:54 2023 No.22730792 File: 290 KB, 1152x864, 1699891134486486.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Another day in Paradise

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:12:54 2023 No.22730795 >>22730783 you don't have to tell him, do you?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:13:54 2023 No.22730801 File: 2.22 MB, 941x1476, file.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22730791 you have to be born and sculpted by it, you can't just decide to be muslim one day like Guenon did.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:14:02 2023 No.22730803 >>22730790 It's because waste products from bacteria smell the same. They're usually sulphur based

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:15:36 2023 No.22730812 >>22730801 Are you a muslim?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:20:58 2023 No.22730835 How would you start your sigma arc and become the rich and free womanizer that you’ve always wanted to be?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:22:29 2023 No.22730839 >>22730795 I don't know but I appreciate you saying that. It's hard to grasp on my own.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:22:47 2023 No.22730841 >>22730812 No, I left the religion

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:23:41 2023 No.22730844 >>22730841 Is it ok if I ask why?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:24:08 2023 No.22730847 >>22730835 You don't, chinlet

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:35:44 2023 No.22730891

I'm half a person. 23 and never walked outside on my own other than a few select occasions like the hospital, because I don't live alone and need a reason for it and I feel that's too much trouble. I've never read the account of someone struggling wifh something like this and I don't know how to explain it well, but for example if they ask me what music I listen to, I say I don't listen to music even if I'm really passionate about music. I say I do nothing all day every day because they will ask me to explain what I do otherwise. It's because I fear saying something even a little personal for some reason. I minimise my existence, like I'm a little kid. I feel I have no choice but to live like this. Is this autism? I don't particularly struggle with understanding other people's experiences.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:39:42 2023 No.22730908 >>22730891 look up sherry turkle's later work re: empathy crisis.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:42:05 2023 No.22730919

>>22730841
You're not entirely wrong I don't think, there are things that are hard to figure out on ones own and get into. I've been graced to have close contact with an alem I trust who can I help me get the ropes. There's a woman I hope to marry who I really get the feeling that she understands what's important. I'd love for my life to be learning more and more with her, but I don't know if she's into it. When you're new I think it can easily happen that you get too strict, and it can get pretty bad, and I admit that kind of integrating tawakkul with what it means to have to navigate a secular world.. I mean it takes time. What it means to tie your camel. But I imagine it was like that for the first generation too, at least those who weren't the foremost among them but who still had faith. I'm happy to be here.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:44:23 2023 No.22730932 >>22730839 you don't have to grasp it on your own, nor necessarily do you have to share it with any one given individual.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:45:46 2023 No.22730937

>>22730891
You should read The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson. Eleanor is literally me and (You)
Your only way to fix this is to overcome the inertia. Its scary but you literally just need to go outside more. I did it and now I'm semi functional. You can do it too.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:52:09 2023 No.22730959 >>22730937 Nta but Jackson writes unfathomably good crazy ladies. The narrator in We Have Always Lived in the Castle reasoning the river might not be there on days she hadn't designated to visit it lives rent free in my head to this day

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 16:58:04 2023 No.22730980 >>22730959 That was also a great book but it didn't resonate with me as much as Eleanor.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:17:14 2023 No.22731075 >>22730980 Yeah HoHH is a great book (and some good movies) but WHALitC was my literally me moment with her where I was like >is this bitch me? >did I casually kill most of my immediate family and just forget about that shit?

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:23:11 2023 No.22731101

>>22730783
If you think something can come of it, for you, for him, or for both of you, then talk to him. I don't even want to talk to any of my family anymore. It's just gonna be stupid and nonsensical fighting for no discernible reason. They don't really understand me, nor do they want to, nor are they able to. So I'll trudge on on my own and won't bother with things that are doomed.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:25:48 2023 No.22731112

>>22730891
My understanding is that it's cripplingly low self-esteem. I know one person like this who withholds all information, down to the most irrelevant stuff conceivable, in order to stay on the safe side and not be judged. Being judged over what one is not doesn't hurt as much as being judged over what one authentically is.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:29:21 2023 No.22731130 I'm so tired. I need some time off work but it simply won't happen.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:55:28 2023 No.22731214 >>22730847 You wouldn’t buy a motorcycle and a leather jacket?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:55:38 2023 No.22731215 >>22731075 I might be schizoid but I am not schizo

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 17:56:51 2023 No.22731221 >>22731215 Sorry you're not me

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:05:24 2023 No.22731263

Does every western nation need an auschwitz of its own to feel guilty about? Canada and residential schools, the finns and the sami...every second week I'm finding about new narratives of this sort aside from the usual ones everyone knows about, like the plight of the negro. Interestingly enough it doesn't seem to be of interest to anyone if it's done by whites against whites, like britain oppressing the irish for centuries.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:06:28 2023 No.22731269

I wish that academia just outright died for everything besides the hard sciences, & every other discipline that is being artificially propped up by academia would stagnate and die unless they had a passionate circle of adherents to set up some new independent organizations. All this phony research, the shitty writing, the publishing mill, let all of it go up in smoke and we'll return to ca. 1800 when writings in these subjects was a passion project for a small few who truly cared

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:07:14 2023 No.22731272
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>>22730891
I'm like you but older and have to work because I'm a poorfag and mommy and daddy ain't gonna take care of me lol. I get my ass handed to me every. fucking. day. Add to this I am a huge philosophy nerd who has to dwell amongst literal retards, high school dropouts, literal people straight out of prison, and countless hordes of third-world immigrants and you better believe I keep my mouth shut except to talk about the most banal shit otherwise people tell my silence makes them uncomfortable to the point of scaring them. Even then, every time I open my mouth there is the real risk of saying something I will deeply deeply regret and will have very real negative consequences. Many normalfags simply cannot comprehend the concept of enjoying solitude, reading, contemplating existence, writing, sitting down quietly, not caring about sports or celebrities, reflecting on morality, etc. and if God forbid you ever reveal your true self they will make your life a living hell because you are now a threat, because since they cannot understand you they cannot predict your behavior and is disturbing to them. You are, in effect an alien life form. Recently, an autist from my job was killed at a bus stop. I don't know the details but I can imagine some normaltard misunderstood him or he unfortunately expressed himself in an autistic way that was interpreted as a threat by the normaltard. In any case, this autist could just as easily had been one of you. So be careful out there autists, avoid normies as much as possible and when interacting with normies, regardless of what well-intentioned but retarded normie doctors, therapists, teachers, and parents tell you: DO NOT BE YOURSELF IN PUBLIC. FOR AUTISTS THAT IS A DEATH WISH. The harsh and brutal reality is that to survive in society demands conformity, so if there is one concept you should take out all this and integrate into your very being it is this: DISSIMULATION. Blend in, fake it-- I know as autists we value authenticity; THE WORLD DOES NOT AND WILL SEVERELY PUNISH YOU FOR MAKING THAT MISTAKE. I know autists value rules and making no exceptions. GET OVER THAT. You must learn to be adaptive to everchanging situations; you must overcome that need for order and the anxiety the lack of it produces. Order is good, but you have to account for the fact and anticipate that in this world there is deviation and there is chaos, and despite whatever virtue signaling normies give the only thing that matters is: ME. Egoism rules this world.

"The master commended the dishonest manager because he had acted shrewdly. For the people of this world are more shrewd in dealing with their own kind than are the people of the light."
- Luke 16:8

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:09:47 2023 No.22731285 >>22731269 Universities becoming an extension for high school might just be one of the most disastrous thing to happen to them during the last century from the perspective of quality. They were never meant to deal with tens of thousands of people.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:10:39 2023 No.22731287 >>22731214 So I can imitate my dad?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:10:48 2023 No.22731288 >>22729101 you are all schizophrenic

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:11:02 2023 No.22731289

>>22731285
This applies to everything. Cities are shit because they have 9 million wogs in them instead of 600,000 normal people. Transit, prisons, everything was built for a normal amount of normal people. We are being converted into a termite mound.

>The dehumanizing effects of over-organization are reinforced by the dehumanizing effects of over-population. Industry, as it expands, draws an ever greater proportion of humanity's increasing numbers into large cities. But life in large cities is not conducive to mental health (the highest incidence of schizophrenia, we are told, occurs among the swarming inhabitants of industrial slums); nor does it foster the kind of responsible freedom within small self-governing groups, which is the first condition of a genuine democracy. City life is anonymous and, as it were, abstract. People are related to one another, not as total personalities, but as the embodiments of economic functions or, when they are not at work, as irresponsible seekers of entertainment. Subjected to this kind of life, individuals tend to feel lonely and insignificant. Their existence ceases to have any point or meaning.

>Biologically speaking, man is a moderately gregarious, not a completely social animal -- a creature more like a wolf, let us say, or an elephant, than like a bee or an ant. In their original form human societies bore no resemblance to the hive or the ant heap; they were merely packs. Civilization is, among other things, the process by which primitive packs are transformed into an analogue, crude and mechanical, of the social insects' organic communities. At the present time the pressures of over-population and technological change are accelerating this process. The termitary has come to seem a realizable and even, in some eyes, a desirable ideal. Needless to say, the ideal will never in fact be realized. A great gulf separates the social insect from the not too gregarious, big-brained mammal; and even though the mammal should do his best to imitate the insect, the gulf would remain. However hard they try, men cannot create a social organism, they can only create an organization. In the process of trying to create an organism they will merely create a totalitarian despotism.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:11:40 2023 No.22731291 >>22730791 Why do you think he said that?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:13:01 2023 No.22731301 >>22730258 It’s one of the most female intensive humanities. Because women generally obsess over human interaction.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:17:03 2023 No.22731320

Do you think it’s accurate to say that the real religion of the West is not Celtic-Germanic paganism or Western Christianity but rather Western esotericism? Shit like Harry Potter seems to resonate with Western culture in a way that it just couldn’t with other actually pagan or Christian cultures.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:18:29 2023 No.22731326 i hope God isn't disappointed with me. i think shame is the one of the worst things about being a person

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:22:59 2023 No.22731347 >>22731320 Esotericism is not a coherent philosophy but a hostile label applied to philosophy that mainstream academia rejected over the ages. Esotericism is the sawdust of western philosophy.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:24:29 2023 No.22731353

>>22731326
You're made in the image of God, anon. God loves you. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Errors are of contingent value and pass away - your dignity is eternal.
>>22731320
If you had ever engaged with Western esotericism you would know that Harry Potter is infinitely more detached from it than either Germanic paganism or Christianity.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 18:28:14 2023 No.22731368 >>22731353 >You're made in the image of God, anon. God loves you. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Errors are of contingent value and pass away - your dignity is eternal. thanks for saying that. it helps to hear

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 19:19:13 2023 No.22731533 >>22731347 I agree but I don’t necessarily think a religion has to be a coherent philosophy. It’s no less coherent than paganism or Buddhism in my mind.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 19:22:16 2023 No.22731546

>>22731353
I think you missed my point. I’m not suggesting that Harry Potter is an exegesis on western esoteric philosophy, which I’ve actually studied quite a lot. What I mean is that there seems to be a deep attraction in the West to this sort of thing and even an internalization of it. Westerners have always been interested in this stuff and if you really analyze Western religious history, I think you can come to the view that it’s questionable whether the West really has ever been Christian in any orthodox sense. It sort of dressed itself up in Christian robes, but the Luciferian/occult impulse has always been what it indulges. Hell, Catholic priests used perform black masses even at the height of medieval Christendom. We’ve always really been into this stuff more than actual Christian orthodoxy. Harry Potter just makes that aesthetically obvious.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 19:26:59 2023 No.22731560 >>22731287 Idk is he a bad boy or something?

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 19:28:36 2023 No.22731567

>>22731269
>>22731285
I think things would improve slot if the research requirements were abandoned and the more bourgeois institutions like your Harvards and Yales were just nationalized. That’s the real problem. The problem is not humanities and the liberal arts. Those aren’t even really being taught. It’s all the research particularly in the social sciences.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 19:32:12 2023 No.22731580 >>22731326 Nah regret is the worst

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 19:34:41 2023 No.22731588 >>22731101 I hope things change for you all some day. Whatever good you can have from family really is good.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:07:09 2023 No.22731721
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I am afraid to try to write my novel for two very basic reasons: firstly, I have never succeeded, not in in anything, and have perversely never really tasted the consequences of my failures, instead being permitted to drift on and on and on to the next thing - usually the bookends of a new woman and a new job - which would round out my life with some sort of contour of purpose and meaning. Flunking out of high school meant nothing, because the army has insatiable need of warm and throwaway bodies. After the neither exactly success nor failure of my tours of duty through shamming, inattention, imitation and utimately indifference to whatever purpose this military has was college not off the table as a consequence of steadfast American commitment to egalitarianism and its mediocrity. Following my botched and still-incomplete university education, where I am neither barred from returning nor especially welcome to return, I was paradoxically rewarded with a defense sector job requiring virtually no effort (nor even regular attendance) and only two qualifications, which I possessed before I ever attended university anyway: a top-secret security clearance, and a foreign-language certification, which meant only passing an exam, something I did, and not actually speaking the language, something I cannot. On top of that, there was never any actual need for the language to begin with.

Secondly, though I appear to be a capable storyteller and wordsmith, and have developed an omniverous and hungry reading habit over the decades, I still don't understand the intent of the novel or of the novelist, and I suspect purity of whatever those intents may be to be the most salient aspect of purpose. My intents are not pure: I want to win, I want to show my enemies that I have vanquished them, I want to show them that they merely exist inside the confines of their tax statements and mortgages and their fucking ugly, stupid children they waste their lives shuttling back and forth between their useless hobbies and their miseducations. I want them to feel anger every time they pass a bookstore. I want their hands to shake with sour and anguished memories of my face when they finally submit to their hateful curiosities and open my work.

Is that sufficient? Ultimately, I don't think I have anything meaningful to say, only a method of saying it which is poetic and interesting, if perhaps just in passing. The world and its readers would glean nothing. Do other novels and novelists have greater purpose than my life and its emptiness swaddled and drowning in its teary vinegars? All I want to share is my bitter sense of nostalgia to smother the faces of my critics in it, and convince myself that my thoughts and feelings somehow matter more than theirs. A published novel would be a kind of trophy rendering that position indisputable. They could have no reply, not a single word.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:13:55 2023 No.22731747 >>22731721 I think you should just write the book but spend some time writing poems and short stories first.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:15:19 2023 No.22731754 >>22731289 source?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:19:03 2023 No.22731776 >>22731721 oh, you have something better to do?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:28:47 2023 No.22731824 File: 291 KB, 2048x1536, 2.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22731747 I'm too stupid for poetry, but I appreciate the advice. >>22731776 You've probably hit the nail on the head.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:50:14 2023 No.22731937

My mom and brother have this weird war going on where my mom will call me to tell on my brother then my brother will call me to tell on my mom and then back and forth, defense, counter accusation, drama drama drama. I dont care. I'm sick of getting phone calls and them rambling about drama for an hour at me. Meanwhile theyre both psychos and basket cases who just wear me down.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:51:35 2023 No.22731944 >>22729147 I’m 32 and I still haven’t become a man yet. You haven’t made it yet my man.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:51:41 2023 No.22731945 >>22731221 I forgive you

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:52:49 2023 No.22731951 >>22731546 >, Catholic priests used perform black masses even at the height of medieval Christendom m8 at the height of medieval Christendom some of the clergy didn't believe in God and didn't know they were meant to

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:53:06 2023 No.22731954 >>22729101 The fact an entire well thought out argument can be dismantled by “you have no bitches” clearly demonstrates we haven’t even evolved past primate thinking.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:54:07 2023 No.22731958 >>22729473 You’re better off with a bullet in your skull

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:54:27 2023 No.22731961 People keep asking me things in incomplete sentences that make no sense. How am I what? How am I doing what?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:55:15 2023 No.22731965 >>22731560 He’s a family man >>22731347 Academic gatekeeping. Good thing brother number one took care of that.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:58:31 2023 No.22731984 >>22731951 proof?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:58:31 2023 No.22731983 >>22731945 Thanks but I'll prob keep doing it tbph https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3W7ch0oLeA

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:59:32 2023 No.22731990 >>22731984 Church surveys for Counter-Reformation

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 20:59:33 2023 No.22731991 >>22731965 >brother number one ?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:00:33 2023 No.22732002 >>22731954 >t. Has no bitches

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:00:51 2023 No.22732005 >>22731991 Not him but in a lot of Asian languages you refer to siblings by birth order and gender

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:03:25 2023 No.22732022 >>22731347 Isnt that occultism

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:04:17 2023 No.22732026 >>22729101 test

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:05:14 2023 No.22732035 >>22732026 I HAVEN'T STUDIED!!!??!??!

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:05:52 2023 No.22732038 >>22731546 >>22731951 ngmi

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:06:36 2023 No.22732045 >>22732038 hater

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:13:09 2023 No.22732079 >>22732045 yes, but i'm also right

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:14:09 2023 No.22732086 >>22731824 If you can write fiction you can write poetry

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:14:22 2023 No.22732088 >>22732079 thanks for not charging me rent

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:18:21 2023 No.22732105 >>22732002 I’ve probably had more than you >>22731991 Khmer Rouge leader

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:24:45 2023 No.22732144 I have a rare illness. Around age 15 something in my brain snapped and since then I can't enjoy stuff unless I get extremely juiced on stimulants. Idk what to do man. I don't even know what's wrong with me. It's like a life in biblical purgatory

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 21:36:00 2023 No.22732217
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>>22729101
>tfw ghosted by military recruiter
>tfw so low quality an organization that accepts inbred white trash, won't accept me
It's over

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 22:33:10 2023 No.22732383

I can see the narrative forming right before my eyes: All other justifications for Israel's cruelty have been exhausted so the story from now on will be that Israel is a necessary evil in the same way that dropping a nuke on the Japanese was a necessary evil.

This is how they will write about this moment in history in the books. It'll be directly compared to the Allies killing German civilians to stop the Nazis. The world order will tell us that Israel destroying Gaza, eradicating tens of thousands of Palestinians and possibly ethnically cleansing the entire strip was for the greater good. Their actions are unquestionably evil but they'll promise that what will come after Hamas will be better and that everyone in the future will really be thanking Israel for what it's doing right now. This is despite the fact that they don't actually have a plan for what happens after the war and that there most likely won't even be a Gaza remaining on this earth, but it doesn't matter. It just doesn't matter. Nothing matters in the face of their power because they have the money and the power and the information and so there's a real chance that in 10 years everyone will just forget about all this and shrug off these atrocities.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 22:42:18 2023 No.22732412 >>22732022 synonymous

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 22:43:29 2023 No.22732414 >>22732383 >in 10 years everyone will just forget about all this and shrug off these atrocities. as is tradition

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 22:49:29 2023 No.22732430 Soseki's Light and Dark is disappointing.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:27:25 2023 No.22732532 oîoirundyka

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:31:15 2023 No.22732550 >>22731291 Because he's a JIDF agent

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:32:56 2023 No.22732554 徛屏

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:33:26 2023 No.22732555 >>22732383 >there's a real chance that in 10 years everyone will just forget about all this and shrug off these atrocities. I would be shocked if Israel is still around by 2033

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:36:56 2023 No.22732571 >>22732217 Ghosting people is braindead zoomer behavior.

Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:37:38 2023 No.22732575

>>22729101
I don't know what to write about nor can I write in a normal hand writing without it looking like a gorilla wrote it. Don't know if it's because of the autism or not. I don't know how to write without using "and", "but" and "or" or "and/or" in every sentence.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:38:51 2023 No.22732583 >>22732550 Just because it’s one thing doesn’t automatically make it the other.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:41:28 2023 No.22732588 >>22732430 I'd go so far to say that I think it kind of sucks ass.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:52:30 2023 No.22732626 I feel so good and happy.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 18 23:57:47 2023 No.22732637 >>22732555 The existence of Israel is not seriously threatened by any governing body or powerful force whatsoever. Even Iran finally backpaddled.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:02:42 2023 No.22732646

>>22732575
I'm similar. I often find myself stringing far too many clauses together, and it is especially apparent when I count the commas in my sentences. When I'm preparing to write something important, I'll force myself to write simple sentences or cut up some compound-complex sentences into their constituents. It helps avoid that kind of thing, at least for a little while

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:06:03 2023 No.22732658 >>22732583 That is true. I just couldn't resist.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:11:11 2023 No.22732682

Been thinking of my childhood best friend lately. We grew up together till I went to college in another town, but we tried to see each other once a month before I was gone. I kind of hated that period because I could see him get addicted to weed and hanging out with lowlives in real time. 5 years later he's still smoking with his junkie friends and every time he invites me somewhere he's bringing them in. Those guys never stop talking about making joints or buying weed it's fucking insane. It's like their whole lives revolve around weed and smoking each others weed and doing drugs. I hate that my smart, quick-thinking yet goofy best friend became such a smelly loser. I really hate this. What is so worth it in drugs that you don't care about anything else?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:15:41 2023 No.22732698 >>22732383 Yup. Winners and jews writing history, a tale as old as time. They could fucking genocide Africa while they're at it for the most outlandish reason and nobody would bat an eye.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:17:22 2023 No.22732702 I'm gonna collapse on my bed and sleep and hope my problems and worries spontaneously disappear

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:19:18 2023 No.22732712 Watered down chocolate milk wasn't as good as I thought it would be.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:21:21 2023 No.22732722

>>22732637
The only thing which was keeping Israel safe was the West, and the young Western populace is mostly pro-Palestine. Over time Israel will be left ally-less. And there’s two billion Muslims who want nothing more than the destruction of Israel lying in wait. 2033 is too early, but Israel will be gone by the end of the century.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 00:31:11 2023 No.22732757 >>22732712 idk how you thought that would be good

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:09:20 2023 No.22732878 File: 129 KB, 1186x1080, 1618796336419.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22732646 Thanks for the advice friend.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:16:40 2023 No.22732897 >>22729101 i've done like 3 memorable things in the last 3 years and they're all memorable for being bad

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:20:10 2023 No.22732908 >>22732897 You should do more happy memorable stuff

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:24:40 2023 No.22732927 File: 2.37 MB, 3055x3521, IMG_20231118_202033_129.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22729101 Drinking an old German tallboy in my grandma's Kia in the martins parking lot

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:30:28 2023 No.22732948 >>22732927 For what purpose

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:31:40 2023 No.22732955 >>22732948 grandma would be sad if she saw how much i drink

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:39:18 2023 No.22732993 Who wants to be picked up in spaceship and explore space? You'll have to leave behind everyone on Earth.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:41:57 2023 No.22733002 >>22732993 No I think I'd prefer to explore a forest

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:43:26 2023 No.22733005 >>22732955 My grandma would weep at how I feel about women these. The only woman I ever considered to be an absolute angel in my 41 years of life.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:45:12 2023 No.22733013 >>22732955 Bro are you gonna be sober enough too drive back to grandma

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:45:24 2023 No.22733014

>>22729101
I get a lot of attention from women and it has made me narcissistic
If I'm bored and out I chat up groups of dudes hoping to join temporarily to pass the time
If they blatantly ignore me I get extremely angry and fantasize about burning them alive, I often get up and walk away while flexing lats underneath my shirt since I tall and fit
I then spend 30 minutes fantasizing about beating them to death since I'm a kickboxer

I handle rejection from women easily but if a man who is inferior to me is rude by not allowing me to use for my convenience (fight boredom) I get pissed off at the subhuman PEASANT

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:46:56 2023 No.22733021 >>22732993 I'd rather explore DEEZE NUTS

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:56:27 2023 No.22733044

A co-worker was telling me a second-hand story from someone who worked with the Department of Homeland Security. He was the lead investigator in a large bust of a small business owner who was funding smugglers for illegal immigrants to cross the border and work for him. Paying the workers inhumane wages, obviously, and have a dozen of them put up in a small apartment too.
It sounds awful of course but it raises an interesting moral dilemma (ignoring the legal aspect). IF the illegals knew the circumstances they were agreeing to and agreed, who are we to say it's wrong? One could argue if they made an informed decision their agency should be respected.
Of course, I'm not saying the business owners isn't a shitbag, just that it's not a completely indefensible position and might make a decent plot for a crime drama.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 01:59:49 2023 No.22733052 >>22732897 Memorable does not equal respectable

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:02:51 2023 No.22733055 >>22732993 I'll explore Uranus and go "uuuUUUuuu"

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:08:50 2023 No.22733064

>>22733044
Kind of like with writing, they're (not) paying you to not write for someone else. A lot of these things work as debt slavery, and if you don't pay, they know where your family lives probably has corrupt police and a lot of people on crutches. Working to pay off a debt that you're probably never going to clear and being penalised for that with more debt is human trafficking's bread and butter since the first pimp bought his whore an over expensive gift.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:10:26 2023 No.22733072 Profiting from human suffering is based and you cannot convince me otherwise

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:29:20 2023 No.22733108 >>22733013 I am home with her and all is well

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:34:09 2023 No.22733123 thinking about my ex and how ugly everyone is compared to her

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:34:19 2023 No.22733124 >>22733108 If you ever drunk drive and risk burdening your grandma with a tragedy ever again I will be so sad

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:35:52 2023 No.22733129 >>22733124 The tragic thing is that I'm not even remotely drunk

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:37:15 2023 No.22733132 I feel very alienated

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:41:41 2023 No.22733141 >>22733129 >wahh I drink alone in empty parking lots to cope with life So does everyone else faggot

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:43:21 2023 No.22733143 blows my mind that people still believe that free speech is a real thing. in fact it blows my mind that people believe in anything about liberalism

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:44:00 2023 No.22733145 >>22733141 There is no need to be rude I'm EXTREMELY sensitive and you CAN hurt my feelings

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:44:39 2023 No.22733146 >>22732955 Are you Dahmer re-incarnated?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:46:25 2023 No.22733152 >>22733146 I have a lot more in common with Jeffrey than I would willingly admit to anyone irl

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 02:53:22 2023 No.22733173

I meeting some relatives of mine for the second time of my life. It's an odd feeling. Technically I have a huge family. So many uncles and aunts and cousins. And they're all very close. They all were born and raised in the same town and have lived in the same region their entire lives. For what ever reason my dad is the only one to have left. He came to america. I was born and raised in California, without a family. I had a very lonely childhood. I met my relatives for the first time when I was 20. It was nice. Now I'm meeting some again for the second time at 24. It's an odd feeling. They're family and yet they're complete strangers. Not only that but also their culture and attitudes and accent are foriegn and confusing to me. They're very warm and open and kind but I can't shake the feeling that I'm not one of them and that I was cheated out of having a family. My dad is now speaking in a strange accent that I never heard him have before. He's talking about people and places I have no idea about. Theyre talking about their big family I havent met . And I'm sitting here on the sidelines. I can tell that he's embarrassed by my American habits and tastes. I know that when they leave I likely won't see any of them again for years, if at all. We'll go on being strangers. It's hard to describe what it feels like. Not exactly a black sheep. Because that would imply I'm in the flock, albeit odd. Rather I'm like a pig that was let in with the sheep for a day.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:05:44 2023 No.22733192 Someone indulge me

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:10:51 2023 No.22733202 >>22729101 The average IQ and maturity level have dropped at least 20 points in the last 4 years

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:12:27 2023 No.22733208 >>22733202 Huh interesting. I wonder what major global phenomenon happened almost 4 years ago.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:36:03 2023 No.22733291 >>22733014 sounds gay desu why do you hold them in such high regard

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:41:39 2023 No.22733300

Met my bro's gf at his housewarming. It's grim. Danger haired hambeast with cutting scars. Was the only woman there dressed like a hoe, got drunk as fuck and spent at least one hour stumbling around and breaking things. Possibly more, I decided to split before things got worse. The guy is soi incarnate so I suppose some of you will say he got what he deserved but he's a really nice and well put together person who should at least have a decent woman at his side, looks apart. It sucks seeing my childhood friend like this. He was very patient with her antics and you could see how devoted he is. His whole demeanor only demonstrated care and worry for her wellbeing. I don't doubt he would still be like that even if she set his house on fire.
I also disliked the way she kept looking at me and how she pressed her whole body against mine while saying goodbye.
On the way back I thought about how the bros with whom you could frankly discuss how much their woman is bad for them are the ones who'll probably never need your words, while guys like my friend need them but are too delusional to hear.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:44:27 2023 No.22733303 >>22733300 That's a rough one. Never know how to help in situations like this, either.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:46:18 2023 No.22733305 >>22733300 hes got some broken bird syndrome savior complex i can smell it

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:50:04 2023 No.22733312 >>22733300 I'm a guy with cutting scars. No one has ever mentioned it but I struggle to believe no one has noticed. Do people judge me like that?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 03:55:03 2023 No.22733315 >>22733312 as a fellow former cutter yes absolutely, even if its a small few scattered across your body. such is life captcha:2pmaxx

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:04:18 2023 No.22733333 File: 23 KB, 360x360, raf,360x360,075,t,fafafa_ca443f4786.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22733315 What about former cutters who also post spurdo?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:11:06 2023 No.22733340 >>22733333 nice quints but unless you show people your camera roll for fun i doubt they care

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:12:48 2023 No.22733342 >>22733333 'just observerves' yeah. they have the same job, they just...

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:14:54 2023 No.22733344 File: 1012 KB, 2576x1932, 20231118_201246.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22733340 Ive caught bans for posting my fresh cuts on /wwoym/ I posted the pink scar while it was still bleeding.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:17:36 2023 No.22733347

>>22733344
>dubs
it looks better than most, yeah i think people would glaze over it. unless it becomes a pattern concentrated in a specific area i think you're golden-- known a line cook who burnt his arm in an oven so he had equal horizontal scars lmao rip

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:18:53 2023 No.22733349 Ham n cheese omelette Beer Coffee Whiskey A mcdouble and most of a small fry Diet Pepsi More beer and whiskey Several slices of ham eaten with my bare hands A ham on wheat sandwich Beer A dill pickle

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:20:12 2023 No.22733352 >>22733347 Thats my upper arm. It's way more scarred than the pictire shows but no one ever sees it. The underside of my forearm is much worse but I'm not posting that

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:25:39 2023 No.22733365

>>22733305
Definitively. The only time a normal woman demonstrated interest on him he wanted nothing to do with her. I actually think I met her at the housewarming. If I'm right she was a real qt and seemed very devoted to her bf, who was the spitting image of those nintendo switch manchilds.
>>22733312
I judge women with them because every single one I've met was absolutely insane. It's not the scars themselves.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 04:27:09 2023 No.22733367 >>22733352 the long and short of it is yes you will get judged, sometimes harshly so, but unless youre in a position to remove them somehow accept life as is. people judge others for very little and a whole lot so i wouldnt put much stock into it.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 05:07:24 2023 No.22733442
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>>22733300
>It sucks seeing my childhood friend like this.
This whole thing is relatable. Every once in a while, I get depressed that everything and everybody I knew as a kid is gone or changed beyond recognition, and nothing is sacred.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 05:21:48 2023 No.22733478 >>22729101 It was true this whole time and I doubted because it sounded trite: love is everything

all !MZgZR0q1GY Sun Nov 19 05:22:18 2023 No.22733482

The idea of code is to implement algorithms. Executing variables
as expression statements or in other terms, there variableness.
E.g. var = var(); #python
Letting a variable to compute: or express data to the user;
such as object models, recursion-analytical and/or recursion-exceptions onto integrated or reasonable phenomenal structures(cf. e.g. fractals constructed
with or without exceptions from implication a.e.) deep learning, automated language blueprint/designs modeling infrastructure, analytical complex evolutionary
set wise linear solutions as a matter of humanitarian values from the observed eye-witness accountability of projected moral and ethical project of the psyche
or otherwise intersocial relations. Yet, humanitarianism is not liable to falsification,... ! Huh? Well.

So, we would rather use our data to perform blessing to the actual physical models of the world, such as intranet value. Permutations to ensure the 'geographical
survival of population.' Or, let's top that, let's say geospatial data analysis is business for the common survival of higher values, that stand against
falsifiable human values, such as selfishness or deception on humans in the guise of humanitarianism. A dead planet is filled with these inverted dilemma
of ethical falsification itself, when there is no such quandary. Ethics, to account for mathematical rigor, is just such a selfish, beneficial orientation to the selfish
self. But, it is as well, (in it's suggestion as tautology) we are all humans, and I qualify as humane under humanitarianism. It is not necessarily to be
functioned upon deceptively, as a kernels push forward instrumentalization of powers or demonstrations; that yet said, we follow no unethical law. Demonstrations
demonstrate, typically of knowledge and science. Accountability is a hardened science in it's computation, just like the others. Demonstrating
formulas of maths in object-oriented programming (OOP) is this science in the computation of such 'domain users.'

This computation of notation, on paper, is clearly defined without implementation. Computing cannot be a complete system of knowledge. Computation messaging
is intranet and/or endgame. This service of votary, is a dilemma. On one hand, it is not a simple task to alias everything. However, the idea alias returns
ideals in it's computation, given proper architecting, language computational completion as given, gives graphical user interface (GUI), which can
demonstrate the valuable itself, regardless of manipulation indecisive and/or undecidable. By giving the decisions graphical presentation, or laying down
this implementable demonstration of computation, it becomes more clear, valid, valuable, reason and higher transcendent humanitarianisms, amongst others.

all !MZgZR0q1GY Sun Nov 19 05:23:31 2023 No.22733487

>>22733482
It is a ridiculously, crazy, idea, that given the resources, a mature adult would metaphorically shoot themselves in the foot. Or others. There are endless
implemetable designs for the rehabilitation of morals, the ethical votary, and the historicality to flexibly reframe softly and strongly. Tenderly.

Nonetheless, what if there was a queer point in the history of manipulable artifices, given undue ignorance of the masses, as a right to privacy which
is valuable, that nonetheless there was no data, and black hattery did occur. That person would be human error. Or the sociological crazy unethical comedy.
Usually, this unethical comedy isn't planned. But, in the case of 'totem-selection murder,' it could be, according to Freudians...

Regardless, making an accountant is solidification of learning through repetition, the root of learning, which is good for business and bad for morals.
I could use a donut.

Ballot, as is, would be information-grabbing. It is 'uncowardly, towards, affirmative.' Cf. Brave New World dia at the ballot promises.

With open ballot promises comes Spiderman. Put lipstick on a spider, and it's still a pig.

And with this process of information-grabbing comes taunting. Or a ghastliness.

There is only figurative, but figurative. There is only literal, but literal. There is literal as figurative, physical. There is literal as literal,
nullified. There is figurative as literal, rarefied. In rarefication, we practice divination, programming, communication, and 'scent monitoring.'
The Godly are not but Godly, yet, in their holiness they have none but the physical witness they are in tact with. The tacit derived contact,
between the parties is "good." But, 'party' is none, or not available, alien. The contact derivation, contextuality, would have to be monitored by
this public evolving system, already alien to it; so this, that becoming, checks the monetary reward, liably balanced, conferring to propagation
of human freedom or slaughter. "Pig grinds:" "what:" "breakfast:" unauthentic wisdom of tree's fruits. Earth matters. (I cannot think of how to be happy
toiling* the Earth- hoe*). Contextuality is fickle, just like the weather, we never know what the days' seasons bring, resulting in diverse attitude,
diverse heathenism. Lamentable. I am persona lamenting in fickleness. I never know how labile my presentation may bring to stammer the racket of vehicular
ingestions, on really crashing.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 05:57:15 2023 No.22733549 Believe it or not George isn't at home please leave a message at the beep I must be out or I'd pick up the phone where could I be I'm not hooomeeee

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 06:24:32 2023 No.22733604 >>22729123 >who tells me that older bro started playing classical music when he saw there were cops outside, so that if they knocked out our door older bro wouldn't seem like a good-for-nothing. Your brother is a smart fella

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 06:52:25 2023 No.22733671 Is it likely that I have depression if 1 or 2 days every week, I can hardly find the will to get out of bed and just let myself starve?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:06:13 2023 No.22733701 I'm jealous of the other parts of the US. I'm from the Midwest. New England literature, Western literature, Southern literature. They mog us.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:07:19 2023 No.22733703 >>22733701 how much hate do you have for make it easy?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:07:26 2023 No.22733704 >>22733671 >Is it likely that I have depression if 1 or 2 days every week, I can hardly find the will to get out of bed and just let myself starve? It is, however I will need an overview of your usual day/week/month to judge it properly.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:12:19 2023 No.22733707 >>22733704 I'm just a regular uni student, but I really don't know why I get these depressive episodes once or twice a week.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:20:12 2023 No.22733723 I am entering a short story contest. The winner gets a book deal. I shall become the first great zoomer writer and the first major figure to emerge from /lit/. Or maybe not and I’ll just waste $20 to enter

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:21:00 2023 No.22733726 >>22733723 Sending you all my energy, anon

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:22:18 2023 No.22733730
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It’s so weird to me that people are still trying to milk the covid lockdowns as this societally traumatizing event like we should feel sympathy for people who had to sit inside and binge watch youtube for a month or two before returning to work but just wearing a mask. I keep hearing people say the phrases “post covid depression” or “covid suicides.” I genuinely cannot fathom the galactic levels of hypocrisy and disconnect these people have to be able to experience the deepest sympathy for fellow normoids who had to party only once a week for a month or two while there are people walking the face of this earth who haven’t had a hug or even physical contact with another human being in literal decades. I have become so jaded that I can’t even feel the pain anymore although I can remember what it should feel like. I remember how sick these thoughts should make me: the searing flame, the nausea, the fumes trailing up the back of my throat. All I can feel now is confusion. Even a slight measure of pity. The older I get the more I understand why these people are regarded as cattle by people in positions above them.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 07:35:18 2023 No.22733750 >>22733192 I'll do it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 09:19:53 2023 No.22733907 Normally I'm a pretty slow reader but the other day something came over me and I just started burning through pages, I wasn't missing anything either, I was taking everything in, it's like I got in "the zone".

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 09:20:36 2023 No.22733910 >>22733300 Imagine being such a normalfag that you have a childhood best friend. Go fuck off to reddit faggot

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 09:46:04 2023 No.22733950
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After dissociating myself from organized religion I've reverted back to my pre-religious self - that's to say, I'm once again a selfish reclusive racist who takes pleasure in the suffering of degenerates. Pride isn't a deadly sin anymore; I think of it as a chief virtue. The other 6 deadly sins, however, I still see as shortcomings.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 09:52:55 2023 No.22733959 >>22729101 Test

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 09:53:25 2023 No.22733960

>>22733730
I met a young woman last year who acted like that. She was seeing a shrink and everything. I almost burst out laughing.. I hadn't even been hugged in 14 fucking years and this zoomette with her boyfriend and 4000 friends was whining about staying indoors for a few months

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 11:13:01 2023 No.22734083 [DELETED]

I wish my father would stop being so negative all the time. He's a real pessimist, and I feel like it's bad juju sometimes. I had a happy event happen and when I left for it he seemed so worried and negative, he acted like I was marching off to my death, and as I left said "I'm sure everything will be fine" in the worst tone. Just put a damper on things... I want to go to my new house so I don't have to have that happen with the negativity. I feel bad for thinking that though, I love him but I wish he's just cheer up a bit sometimes

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 11:45:37 2023 No.22734126 I can no longer live with myself

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 11:51:25 2023 No.22734141

The Potmaker

the potmaker's hands
warm all over touching
carefully every curve
his fingers enter the hole
slowly and then
when it's ready
hardened
flowing water
pouring more and more
overflowing
the weight cracking
until the pot breaks
a great release
the potmaker rests
from such a wonderful creation

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 12:29:13 2023 No.22734226 >>22729101 Fuck you, father.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 12:50:20 2023 No.22734284

I’m thinking of giving up my current career (working in startups) to become a 40-50k a year janitor / security guard / door checker for my local university.

Problem is my girlfriend would probably look down on it. But do I really care at this point? Honestly, I just feel that being a door guard is my calling. I’m so good at it. I at least want to give it a try.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 12:52:07 2023 No.22734286 >>22734284 Why tf a door guard

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 12:53:19 2023 No.22734289 File: 443 KB, 3744x1855, 1693049458943889.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>22733950 I'm proud of you.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 12:55:04 2023 No.22734295 >>22733482 I wish I could be schizo instead of merely pathetically weird.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 13:00:21 2023 No.22734313

A few years back I left a really highly paid job to do something less miserable. Now I’m in my 30s living with my dad and I can’t even afford a new car, let alone a house or apartment of my own. I’m so frustrated with myself I could jump off of a tall building.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 13:13:08 2023 No.22734356 >>22734286 Very easy. This school’s library makes it a snooze fest. You literally just read the whole time.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 13:14:09 2023 No.22734360 >>22734313 Can you explain What was the old pay? What was the new? Is it just because you aren’t making enough money? Or why are you stuck?

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 13:23:36 2023 No.22734389

>suspected for some time that I may have been molested as a kid
>whoke up three times from dreams where someone was trying to or was actually anally raping me, I was trying to defend myself but in the end I couldn't, and I couldn't scream
>to the point I was scared of going back to sleep
>laid awake thinking "oh boy, it's time for this to resurface, holy fuck what is gonna happen now"
>it didn't resurface, if it even happened
>eventually fell back asleep
>had pleasant dream about being king somewhere
>not sure what to do now

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 13:29:26 2023 No.22734405 >>22732993 you didn't even get dubs. If you were telling the truth you'd get trips

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 13:38:33 2023 No.22734428 >Look at list of FBI's most wanted hackers. >They're all Russian, Asian, middle eastern or the occasional black. >No western white guys on there. What the fuck? Step up your game, white boys.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:01:52 2023 No.22734476 >>22733950 oh thank god has tradlarping finally peaked

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:11:14 2023 No.22734503 >>22734284 Do it Anon. Hold the door.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:20:13 2023 No.22734528 >>22729101 I'm so hungry but I don't want to eat

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:32:36 2023 No.22734552 I made $2.63 on a book I wrote.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:38:28 2023 No.22734573 >>22734428 Isn't the idea that if you're actually good at your job they never manage to pin down your identity and put you there to begin with?

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:40:50 2023 No.22734587

>>22729101
My dad is pretty strange.
He is prone to hysteria, anxious, preening, and has a strong need to control as a result of this deep anxiety.
On more than one occassion he has complained about his mom, my grandmother's tendency to dote and worry. And of my grandfather, who was a pastor, who would embarrass my father by ranting at family gatherings about some political bullshit.
Inevitably we all become our parents in some way. The things I hate most about my parents remind me painfully of myself.
I've realized the hyperbolic cries about the immorality of various imagined political enemies was a guise worn out of insecurity.
He always seems on the edge of exploding over the smallest thing.
Basically a fragile ego with a poor sense of boundrary.
Externally he poses as a moralist, decrying the (imagined) immorality of all who do not share his exact perspective.
Up close, however, I can discern that he is not particularly empathetic.
And that what really frustrates him is not any injustice, but that other wills do not align perfectly with his own.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:47:15 2023 No.22734595 I was doing so well when it came to not looking at porn this month up until now. I will try my hardest to not look at any more and I will continue to not jerk off.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:51:11 2023 No.22734601

>>22734360
Old pay was $100k to $200k
Now, I never make more than $50k
I left that old job because I knew I didn’t want to spend my life doing that. The money was good, but it wasn’t enough to radically change my life or my family’s life and it wasn’t enough retire any time soon, so I basically thought there was no point. But the money did afford a lot of flexibility and freedom nonetheless. When I left, I left thinking I would take a year to do whatever and then I’d get back on track with something just as ambitious, but that didn’t happened. One year into my situation, COVID happened. That locked me down for the next year. One year became two. Then I became a full-time remote worker. Two years became three. At this point I was spending all of my time just hanging out and reading books, and the more I searched for that ambitious path to get back on, the more defeated I felt so I just gave up on it and forgot about it. I imagined I would have some success as a writer, but I haven’t. So all in all it’s been 5 years and now I’m lucky in that I do have a really clear sense of what I should do, at least from here on out, but I really needed that several years ago. It’s fine to be living with dad making low wages when you’re 25. You’re 25. Who cares? But when you’re 30, 35, 40? It’s not so fine anymore. And there’s always that concern that your prior failure implies certain limited possibilities in the future. That seems to be happening to me right now actually. I’m trying to do new things and I’m getting a lot of questions about my past.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 14:52:51 2023 No.22734608 >>22734284 >to become a 40-50k a year janitor / security guard / door checker for my local university. Lmao those guys don't make 40k. More like at best 26k

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:00:34 2023 No.22734624

When I feel lonely, I bring myself to Comet 67P. Nestled between the gates of the dust sprinkled surface, I sit with my knees brought up to my chest and my arms clutched around them.
I saw a gif once of this place; it looked like it was snowing, and the grainy black and white footage reminded me of film noir. The animation panned slightly; one of the twin prominences unravelled across the starry sky. The looping of the gif was a stim, and I felt comforted in the cradle of the isolated rock orbiting the solar system’s inner planets from afar while I watched on in silence.
Checking in on the world is nice when you have a place like 67P to retreat to. It’s hard to feel lonely in a place like that. I admit there’s a counterintuitiveness to removing yourself from the world in order to feel less lonely, but there is a specific comfort in withdrawal. If loneliness is the feeling of being isolated, then perhaps willfully isolating yourself removes the externality of the situation; maybe then loneliness becomes recreational rather than prescribed.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:01:55 2023 No.22734628 IS LIBGEN DOWN?????

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:02:18 2023 No.22734630 >>22734284 I know for a fact that first year university staff like that are making something more like $10/hr. You absolutely will not under any circumstances make $50k.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:03:25 2023 No.22734635 Unreal how badly the American religious-ethnic myth is back firing. Hard to imagine a way out at this point.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:27:13 2023 No.22734682 Any lawyers here that can tell me if they regret or would recommend becoming a lawyer? I need a new career where I can earn more money but I don’t think I can get into a top school.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:45:23 2023 No.22734725

>>22734601
i've seen a ton of people like you who wash out of demanding careers after a year or two. they never go back. why would anyone hire someone who couldn't hack and/or doesn't like the industry when the whole world is lining up for those jobs? sorry dude ya blew it, but there are, as they say, many such cases.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:55:08 2023 No.22734754 >>22734682 Become a doctor instead

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:57:32 2023 No.22734760

>>22734601
>200k
that's a million dollars every five years. if someone told you "i'll give you a million dollars every five years, but you have to do this demanding job 50 hours a week" you don't think that would improve your life and your family's life? it will now take you 20 years to make a million dollars. you don't have to lie to us, we're not your gf, this is anonymous. you quit because you weren't any good. you cheated and crammed your way through your degree, but never learned anything and so failed on the job when there was no cheat sheet to cram.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 15:59:15 2023 No.22734767

I'm 40 years old. I'm broke, careerless and riddled with anxiety and anhedonia. I've just moved back home with my mother. Rather than take responsibility for myself I'm running off to Asia for a while to aimlessly drift and coom. Life is so empty, lonely and frustrating it's unreal.

"Rejoice O young man in thy youth."

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:01:14 2023 No.22734772 >>22734624 Nice prose anon.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:02:31 2023 No.22734776 >>22734772 i stopped reading at "Comet 67P".

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:04:55 2023 No.22734784

>>22733173
>They're very warm and open and kind but I can't shake the feeling that I'm not one of them
Because you aren't. Same thing happened to me. Everyone is kind and warm and then someone tells you, way out of the blue "That's so funny! You don't act like a real [whatever the fuck they are]!" I've lived this specific situation countless times. I think the only way to reconnect with your roots (if you actually want to) is to discard what you were before (an American, in your case). You've put it in words better than I could but yes, you will never belong unless you put efforts in it, and even then...

The father situation is extremely funny too. Imagine raising a kid while not bothering to educate him in the traditional way just to have a surprised Pikachu face when he meets your traditional family. Imagine getting away from everything then acting like you always belonged and make your son feel like he is the one at fault for being different. Fret not because the human is flawed and retarded, anon. Do whatever you like but don't take it at heart if they think you are too soft or have gay manners, that's just a barrier in the way of knowing them.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:15:54 2023 No.22734806 File: 235 KB, 572x572, 1698032896744308.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] We should just kill all old people and niggers. And pajeets. Imagine how much of a burden would be lifted from us. Imagine if we also nuked every mudslim (damn)

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:16:26 2023 No.22734808 >>22734608 eh my buddy makes 45k per year cleaning up schools its not unheard of

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:19:40 2023 No.22734817 >>22729101 My contempt grows for other people in these circles. Always wanted a sycophant or a slave I can boss around all day.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:20:37 2023 No.22734822 >>22734772 Thank you. >>22734776 Why?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:39:07 2023 No.22734875 >>22733701 I personally don’t care. I enjoy living here because I enjoy being a cultureless blob. The fact I produce so much seethe by simply existing gets my cock rock hard.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:40:21 2023 No.22734877 >>22733707 You’re in school. Stop being ungrateful. >>22733960 Women are obsessed with having a social life they cease to exist without one.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:43:03 2023 No.22734888 >>22734503 Thanks. >>22734608 The pay range for the position is 26-36 per hour. It’s in one of the more expensive zip codes in the country, though. >>22734630 I just know what I read. Hourly is pretty high in Manhattan.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:44:05 2023 No.22734890

I am looking for a book but don't really want to make a whole new thread about it so I'm just going to ask here. Are there any good history books on Christianity that spans from the time of Christs birth to the protestant reformation or later?
>/his/
I've posted the question there already but am not hopeful since most of the questions I ask there tend to just be met with incoherent screeching about me not looking for something about some other thing. Its so fucking tiresome. At least here the worst I get is troll recs.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:51:48 2023 No.22734907 Let's assume I do have ADHD. How does that change anything? I'm still stuck with my brain.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:52:21 2023 No.22734910

I find much of 19th century bourgeois literature terribly boring. Modernism at least has interesting moments of experimentation, the baroque has aesthetic fireworks, and the middle ages possesses a solemn spirituality and the charming fortress-like roughness of a romanesque temple. There is nothing more boring in the world than to read about boring bourgeois people deal with boring bourgeois problems.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:57:22 2023 No.22734922 >>22734907 A positive diagnosis could help you to develop strategies that mitigate the negative aspects of ADHD while also helping you take advantage of the upsides. Also Adderall can come in clutch if you use it in crunch time.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 16:58:08 2023 No.22734926

>>22734910
After the fall of the Greek nobilities and a few decades of pure anarchy and revolution, Greece too experienced a short period where it was governed and culturally led by the rich and burgeois, before the ultimate collapse
The West is currently in this third or fourth phase, if we count from the era of the Gods and the heroes.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:07:07 2023 No.22734957 Do you listen to any music while reading? Like a soft tone in the background.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:07:20 2023 No.22734958 The history of human civilization is also the history of humanity's cultural decline.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:17:44 2023 No.22735005

>>22734910
I do wonder if enjoying the bourgeois way of life is something of an acquired taste, though. Had I been born in such a milieu, had my friends and acquaintances been from a bourgeois background, had I grew up in the "hustle and bustle" of a major city as a well-off upper-middle class kid set for life, would I actually enjoy LARPing as a fin-de-siecle viennese bohemian like many people form those backgrounds seem to do? The kind of culture we enjoy or dislike is determined in large part by our social class and background, this much practically everyone can agree on, so it would make sense if that was the case. I guess it's the same reason why europeans will never be able to enjoy chinese/sanskrit/etc. culture in the same way and to the same degree that the chinese/indians/etc. themselves do, and the other way around.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:20:24 2023 No.22735019

>>22734922
What's stopping me from developing said strategies right now? Exactly. Would a diagnosis really change anything?
>Adderall
Not a thing in my country. I think they put you on Concerta/Ritalin or Strattera and if those don't do it for you, you are out of luck.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:22:16 2023 No.22735025 >>22729101 THE WORLD OF TOMORROW! OUTBREAKINGS

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:39:01 2023 No.22735069

As cringe as it sounds to say I really am tempted to think that people are born either as wolves or sheep. There doesn't seem to be many people who are only a little rebellious, or only a little scorning of consensus, practically everyone I know or have seen tilt all the way to either end as completely incorrigible wolves or conformist sheep. It's almost like it's a binary, either-or thing that can be thought of as a spectrum no more than one can think of virginity and non-virginity as a spectrum.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 17:44:55 2023 No.22735087

>>22735019
Nothing I guess. Doctors may be able to help you develop those strategies but if you think you can handle it by yourself then by all means. You won't have that verification you can use to force employers (and any other entities that may care about the optics of treating some one with a medically verified disability poorly) to be more patient with you.
>Concerta/Ritalin
A guy I know says he prefers Concerta over Adderall because for him it has the same effect but without making him shit his pants. It may actually work better for you.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:03:41 2023 No.22735145 >>22734910 Yeah I agree, Marx sucks

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:06:37 2023 No.22735155 >>22733726 Thank you.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:10:38 2023 No.22735166

>>22733173
>>22734784
Yeah same for me. My parents left their home town so my mom could beat her addiction (she didn't) and now I don't really know most of my family. Even when I'm around them I just feel like I'm not really supposed to be there; I can't participate in any of the conversations and I don't really get the vibe of everyone else. I really wonder why people (parents) make the choices they do. Like, what the fuck did you think was going to happen?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:11:11 2023 No.22735170 >>22734817 Thats hot

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:13:37 2023 No.22735176 >>22734682 take the accountingpill

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:14:21 2023 No.22735178

>>22735069
What about the people who make the consensus, the followers though? Contrarians seem to be a weird mix of both rather than wolves. Or, in some rarer cases, they are super-wolves, but too inferior in numbers and too different from the crowd to create followers. I would say that in the end, to become dominant, they have to resort to violence, if violence itself wasn't inferior to dominance through non-violence or the pretension of it or to resort to it when it is necessary only. Or, the contrarians are not the ones who create followers by being superior versions of their followers, but exactly through distinguishing themselves from the crowd.
So there is beta-sheep, alpha-sheep, finally wolves. It is especially difficult to distinguish an alpha-sheep from a wolf.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:32:38 2023 No.22735231

>>22735087
>Doctors may be able to help you develop those strategies but if you think you can handle it by yourself then by all means
What I'm trying to say is that I can't do it by myself and doctors wouldn't change anything because I can't have them follow me around all day and babysit me. I already flunked out of uni twice because I couldn't be bothered to do the work. Which leads to my next point.
>You won't have that verification you can use to force employers
Because I'm a dropout with no skills, I can only get either shitty, under-the-table jobs (very common here) or shitty, "proper" jobs that still manage to disregard most labor laws.
In any case, maybe I will give therapy another go. Last time I tried it I felt I was getting nowhere but then covid happened so I stopped going. Who knows, maybe things will go differently this time.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:35:24 2023 No.22735241 >>22735231 > Who knows, maybe things will go differently this time Don't know about ADHD, don't think it's an illness, but have you tried to stop being so passive and slave to externalities?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:40:17 2023 No.22735260 >>22734767 >coom Seek out a suicide forest.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:40:18 2023 No.22735261

>>22733312
I'm gonna tell you what a doctor told me when I was ashamed to show them: your scars are just a symptom of a sickness. People who have a cold, sneeze and cough, people going through chemo have no hair, and you have scars. That's it. There's nothing to be ashamed of.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:42:29 2023 No.22735270 >>22733312 On guys, no one cares about those as long as you're not a tranny. With females, that is red flag crazytown, signalling a probably permanent broken and useless person. On guys? Grow up and move on, no one will ever care.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:44:59 2023 No.22735284 I don't have a passion, a talent, a philosophy, or a goal. Yet I'm happy.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:49:18 2023 No.22735315

>>22735241
>have you tried to stop being so passive and slave to externalities
I want to believe I tried, but it's more likely that I just tricked myself into believing that.
If anything, I can admit I let my mind become so distorted by my own thoughts to the point I can't tell between genuine obstacles and my own imagination anymore.
How do people avoid doing this? How can I tell my brain to shut the fuck up? Or rather, how do I ignore it?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 18:52:38 2023 No.22735327 >>22735261 Lol I remember you saying this a year ago. Pretty funny that this general is just the same handful of people chatting for years

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 19:02:29 2023 No.22735374 >>22735327 Yeah, I do too. I also remember the schmuck who made a parody post about it. I wonder what he's up to, nowadays.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 19 19:27:46 2023 No.22735492 >>22735490 >>22735490 new

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 20:05:43 2023 No.22735608

>>22735231
>What I'm trying to say is that I can't do it by myself and doctors wouldn't change anything because I can't have them follow me around all day and babysit me.
They wouldn't have to. They could work with you on them during session time to help make the strategies habitual. I can't help but think that you aren't that bad off since you have had the attention span to stick with this conversation across a sea of distracting posts from other anons about completely other subjects. Clearly you are capable of caring enough to latch on to something spanning more than a couple of hours. You may just enjoy arguing with people online more than you want to do better in your personal life but that is not a symptom of ADHD.
>Because I'm a dropout with no skills, I can only get either shitty, under-the-table jobs (very common here) or shitty, "proper" jobs that still manage to disregard most labor laws.
Sounds like you may need to relocate by any means necessary. Again not a symptom of ADHD. Your problems seem to consistently veer away from your "illness" if I'm being honest with you anon.

Anonymous Sun Nov 19 22:35:41 2023 No.22736160

I have ADHD. My reality reforms itself every ~15 seconds based on my pure total utilization on short accessible memory as opposed to with a long stored form. I know that from today, today as in the object, case in point, and point in case that the end is indifferent. I strangle and grip this idea or thought periodically, well enough that it was capable of burning into my long term memories, or core memories as you will, and this thought or feeling I call it due to lack of mental capacity to properly order that/this train of thought will be my character and or self before I die until I do die and it is reduced into 'nothingness',

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