Books about severe depression?

[Anonymous No.22356506]

I’m looking for the book version of picrel

[Anonymous No.22356509]

>>22356506
Harry Potter and the order of the Phoenix

[Anonymous No.22356515]

>>22356506
Why? Are you trying to romanticize your struggle? What have you already tried to get over it?

[Anonymous No.22356518]

>>22356506
My diary desu

[Anonymous No.22356524]

>>22356515
>why
Because art is about capturing the human experience and depression is a part of that.

[Anonymous No.22356644]

>>22356506
silmarillion

[Anonymous No.22356650]

>>22356644
>>22356506
not about severe depression, but for severely depressed

[Anonymous No.22356844]

>>22356506
What does severe depression look like? What does it feel like? How do you know if you are depressed?

[Anonymous No.22357087]

Crime and Punishment

[Anonymous No.22357406]

Martin Eden
Of Human Bondage
Stoner

Some of my favourite books from my more depressing periods.

[Anonymous No.22357720]

>>22356506
Year One book of poetry Jacob Harding

[Anonymous No.22357724]

No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai

[Anonymous No.22357745]

>>22357724
yea just read this anon . fuck i cant find the printed book for this in my cunt,i searched every store

[Anonymous No.22359183]

AHHHH IM BOOOOOMPIIIIIING

[Anonymous No.22359235]

If you have severe depression it is psychologically and physiologically impossible to read anything much less a book on severe depression. The depressed patient has anhedonia meaning there is no reward response. Such people are not functional and will neglect their own health and self care. I doubt they could even read a few pages if they had a 44 magnum pointed at them. The only effacious treatments for depression are MAOIs and ECTs. Many people are misdiagnosed with depression simply for melancholia. The fact they have careers and money and things going for them shows they don't have clinical depression and they simply feel sad. Hence why the placebo response from SSRIs is observed, even when pharmacologically their window of effect should take weeks to manifest.

[Anonymous No.22359301]

>>22356506
came here to make this thread.

>>22359235
yeah I've gone weeks, months, almost a whole year once unable to read.

[Anonymous No.22359316]

>>22356506
maybe Stella Maris

DFW's severe depression seeps into his books.

A Man with No Talents: Memoirs of a Tokyo Day Laborer by Shiro Oyama

>>22356844
no brushing teeth, no showers, probably not a lot of eating, nothing creative, no positive thoughts, very little hope for a future, little appreciation of anything in the past. very little energy.

At the most extreme level you'll start your day by "opening your eyes" and saying "i have completed a task today" next you may look around the room and notice how it looks. You may attempt to notice a particular colour in your field of vision from bed.

you congratulate yourself if you eat a plain slice of bread and drink a glass of water.

you look at a wall for a long time or the floor.

[Anonymous No.22359322]

>>22356509
Pffft, Harry wasn't depressed and never has been. Or do you mean that faggot Sirius Black?

[Anonymous No.22359356]

>>22357745
The Barnes and Noble near me has it stocked fairly regularly
This is gonna sound retarded, but some B&N have a section of books popular on "booktok". For some reason it's is really popular among semi-literate zoomers that pretend to read books, likely because it's fairly short and they get to romanticize their own retarded nihilistic thoughts.
Additionally, basically every time one of these retards makes a post recommending the book, they relay the story about Dazai's suicide attempts, because you cannot get zoomers to engage with media unless it has a story to go along with it.
Millennials are also susceptible to this, which is the only reason Neutral Milk Hotel has fans.

[Anonymous No.22359367]

OP here, this is one of the ones I was going to read if any other anons are interested in checking it out

[Anonymous No.22359391]

>>22359367
Depression is like the atomic molecule analogy, as far as if you are in a true state of depression you cant write. You can only write in a manic sort of state in between depressed fits. I wouldnt recommend trying to focus on it directly for the same reason. Why hone in on it anyway? The book of disquiet is a perfect artistic picture of solipsism which is close enough. Sherwood anderson also depicts the idea of running away from yourself and finding nothing only to return home again defeated, and in a way its fucking terrifying but also beautiful. The thing about real depression is it lacks beauty and can only be put into perspective through poeticism after the fit is over. I consider depression as a loss, and when im convalescent I turn to something with guts.

[Anonymous No.22359613]

I was neet and severely depressed for 3 years after an ex lied to me and cheated on me and gave me an std. I don’t know if I’m out of it. I was on lexapro and that period is a giant blur. I don’t think it helped and I got brain zaps so I got off of it. I have no hope for my future because I have no idea what to focus my energy on because nothing has paid off for me. I read Van Goghs life story and never heard anything more accurate to mine.

[Anonymous No.22359636]

Apart from No Longer Human, I also recommend Book of Disquiet. It's not directly about depression but it is depressive

[Anonymous No.22360011]

>>22359367
I really love this book. I could relate so much to it.
I'd also recommend Gilles or Le Feu Follet by Drieu La Rochelle, also the man without qualities by Musil is great. You could try Thomas Mann (the magic moutain, death in venise) or Thomas Bernhard (Frost, the looser, ancient masters)

[Anonymous No.22360015]

>>22356844
You don’t enjoy anything and you think of suicide daily. You withdraw from family and friends because you just can’t anymore.
t. haven’t spoken to my close family in years

[Anonymous No.22360345]

>>22360015
Dont forget to mention it comes with a general and vague but deep feeling of guilt and self hate. I used to have lizards and when they were stressed they would turn bright red. I always think of them when I get depressed, that if my feelings showed I would be red as a berry.

[Anonymous No.22360567]

>>22359613
How the hell can van Gogh life story be accurate to you? You realize how many years he spent training with intense discipline to paint, which is the easy part. He then had the genius of advancing the field he mastered. You're delusional

[Anonymous No.22360584]

>>22357745
>fuck i cant find the printed book for this in my cunt
have you tried pulling your fingers out of your cunt

[Anonymous No.22360586]

>>22360567
you’re fucking stupid lmao
clearly he was referring strictly to the mental obstacles Van Gogh faced in life, not to his status as some genius artist who just happens to be posting on a Vietnamese beer brewing forum

[Anonymous No.22360604]

>>22356506
Emil Cioran is the depression writer. And his books are not half bad, I would recommend “ The Trouble With Being Born” from him

[Anonymous No.22360613]

>>22356506
Spinoza's Ethics, you'll learn to pull yourself up by your bootstraps through causa sui.

[Anonymous No.22360801]

>>22359235
what the difference between depression and melancholia?

[Anonymous No.22360820]

My Confession by Tolstoy

[Anonymous No.22360834]

>>22359391
where does it come from and what is it's significance

[Anonymous No.22360848]

you know whats your problem? you go about in pity for yourselves

[Anonymous No.22360850]

>>22356524
Read the Psalms and Ecclesiastes.

>>22359301
>unable to read.
Then listen.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YeKppPL-Emo

[Anonymous No.22360854]

>>22360848
as oppose to what? being sad around others?

[Anonymous No.22360866]

>>22356506
I had the compulsion to read Either/Or by Kierkegaard from cover to cover. I would say it influenced me greatly, but it's not for everyone.

[Anonymous No.22360873]

>>22360848
This is tony soprano talking to that pathetic chef, right? Man what an amazing show.

[Anonymous No.22360890]

>>22360866
I'm currently reading it but not feeling it.

[Anonymous No.22360969]

>>22360890
As I said, might not be for everyone.

[Anonymous No.22361291]

>>22360834
>where does depression come from
Not that anon, but you might like this https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Evolutionary_approaches_to_depression

[Anonymous No.22361330]

>>22360969
Did you like the 1st or 2nd part more?

[Anonymous No.22361395]

>>22360586
You think some dipshit here compares to van Gogh? Okayyyy weird lol

[Anonymous No.22361397]

>>22361330
I'm more of an aesthetician myself. Victor Eremita, the eternal 4chan incel.

[Anonymous No.22361402]

>>22357745
It's literally in every bookstore I've ever been in. If you're actually (somehow) struggling to find it just look on ebay or something and get it preowned

[Anonymous No.22361562]

>>22360015
I guess I'm severely depressed then.

[Anonymous No.22361570]

>>22360015
The only contact i’ve had with family in a year was a bday text from my dad that i said thanks to. Haven’t talked to mom in 6 years. Have been planning my suicide daily for about six months but i don’t feel actually depressed i just hate life

[Anonymous No.22361584]

>>22356506
Well….

[Anonymous No.22361585]

A Man Asleep is fucking great imo and is not about how romantic is depression

[Anonymous No.22361640]

>>22360015
My family and friends withdrew from me. My best friend found himself a gf and completely ghosted me, I'll send him a message and he only sees it weeks later, if sit all

[Anonymous No.22361641]

>>22360866
Why is this pic so funny?

[Anonymous No.22361675]

>>22361641
Contrasting the bleak seriousness of 21st century life with a childish image of a cute puppy.

[Anonymous No.22361709]

>>22360015
I’ll add that you can’t think of something that would make you happy or content. Having a wife and children, money, a community that loves you. It does nothing. It sounds dreadful. Even killing myself sounds dreadful. You’re in an uncomfortable state constantly. You can’t seem to pay attention. You fall out of conversations. You can’t sit and read a book and follow it. You can’t watch a movie. Who cares?

[Anonymous No.22361796]

>>22361584
The older I'm becoming the less depressed this book became.

[Anonymous No.22362257]

>>22359316
That's psychotic depression. The guy in op painting is in despair over something, that's a totally different thing

[Anonymous No.22362315]

>>22360873
tony was the depression case

[Anonymous No.22362318]

>>22360015
>>22361709
do people also treat you like a lazy spoiled lowlife

[Anonymous No.22362453]

>>22362318
Yea. Even though i’m not lazy at all. I still wage slave hard. It’s the only thing that keeps me alive desu. I’m on “vacation” for three weeks as I type this. And instead of enjoying it, I just have suicidal thoughts daily. I wish I was back at work because at least I have to fake it. And I can tire myself out. I don’t know what I need.

[Anonymous No.22362582]

God I hate being unemployed

[Anonymous No.22362657]

i'm so tired bros is suicide the only out

[Anonymous No.22363952]

>>22362582
why?

[Anonymous No.22364099]

>>22359235
Imagine thinking medication is the only answer

Dont believe the big pharma "its how your brains wired wrong, you need medicine" bullshit
Eat more healthy, exercise. Get a better job, friends etc. hang our in nature
Stop taking antio biotics and other retard "medicines"
I suffered from panic attacks, anxiety and depression for years... 15 years later im a lot better... without pills

So yeah read my blogpost

[Anonymous No.22365774]

>>22359613
>I have no idea what to focus my energy on
What you do doesn't matter, as long as you're doing something, the same type of thing, practicing, something.

Forcing yourself off of the internet, away from screens, as much as possible is best way to get there.

[Anonymous No.22365802]

Call of the Crocodile if you want the most baffling example. Pic related sums up the first chapter

[Anonymous No.22366120]

>>22359235
Well OP is definitely talking about melancholia for sure. The “severe depression” you describe is not even a danger. That person you described wouldn’t be even on suicide watch. That type of depression is comfy compared to the more horrifying melancholia. The one where “meds” doesn’t work.

[Anonymous No.22366475]

>>22356844
>When this kind of fire starts, it is very hard to put out. The tender boughs of innocence burn first, and the wind rises, and then all goodness is in jeopardy.