/wwoym/ - Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.22126918]

BRUTALLY MOGGED edition

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[Anonymous No.22126927]

>>22126918
Honesty getting a bit tired of the totally unrelated OP pics

[Anonymous No.22126930]

If you like muscular """women""" like these you are a faggot.

[Anonymous No.22126946]

>>22126927
Every man longs to be a woman, at least part of the time. Why so? Because the essence of woman is a juvenile sexuality, which many indeed repress precisely because it is unconstrained juvenility. While male sexuality is definitionally the loss of juvenility, and this lack becomes equally precisely the heart of their own eternal sexual longing, which they too must largely repress, or risk becoming inverts as a result of its obsessive pursuit.

[Anonymous No.22126956]

I'm not sure I can feel romantic love the way some of the poets I've read can. It seems like they're entirely consumed by love while I've peaked at mild affection.

[Anonymous No.22126977]

>>22126927
>Honesty getting a bit tired of the totally unrelated OP pics

[Anonymous No.22126991]

Is there a way to filter all posts with the word "nigga"
Would cut down on 95% of the zoomer posting on this board.

[Anonymous No.22126996]

>>22126930
Those aren't even muscular you complete DYEL nigger faggot

[Anonymous No.22126997]

>>22126918
lo, and as it were, in this most dreary afternoon
by lamplight I mire upon this worrisome site
my stomach is full, churning and churning
like a pit, a boiler, it is full and empty
a stone, a stone, my ruination is soon
my chair is soiled, in the dankness of my lonely room.
I end with this post, to end the day in retire
for seldom verification, did this lament require.

[Anonymous No.22127003]

>>22126991
>Is there a way to filter all posts with the word
Yeah but you need to use warosu instead of asking to be spoonfed, newfag.

[Anonymous No.22127065]

>>22126927
You are just mad that you are fat
>>22126930
True

[Anonymous No.22127071]

suboptimal health.. not feeling too well...

[Anonymous No.22127074]

>>22126946
>Every man longs to be a woman
ywnbaw

[Anonymous No.22127079]

>>22127071
i am autist and i approve this message

[Anonymous No.22127111]

i remember speaking with a psychiatrist once, and she said something that i found interesting but also disturbing. she said that "recent studies are showing that pedophilia is not optional for some people" and suggested that it is similar to homosexuality in the respect that it is something some people are born with.
i am skeptical of this claim; in fact, when she said this, i became skeptical of the nature of homosexuality as well.

[Anonymous No.22127220]

I keep ruminating and brooding about the same damn thing all the time for fucking years now. I really want to let go and move on, but I dont know how.

[Anonymous No.22127259]

are there any message boards or forums for arabic that aren't about soccer or religion? i just want to practice reading and writing.

[Anonymous No.22127265]

>>22126946
Wouldnt it be more accurate to say that a man wants carefree adolescent sexuality which contrasts with the fact that a man's sexuality is defined by maturity? Why does that have to be turned into weird gender bending? Sure I'd love to be a teenage boy having sex for the first time again. But at no point do I wish to be a girl

[Anonymous No.22127276]

>>22126956
Love must be experienced subjectively before it can be understood "universally". Let go of your ego and take the plunge into complete intimacy. Or just start dating someone else.

[Anonymous No.22127280]

>>22127265
not him but i just fuck.... like, giving it to her like a dog breeding a cat. best thing about it is, she even asks for it. maaan she's into really weird things... like humiliaton, beeing rough and half raping her. welp, it IS good indeed. just a bit... different

[Anonymous No.22127286]

>>22127280
Thats hot but she sounds psycho and may end up wrecking your life. Be careful.

[AA2 Nigger mod is Mad loser lol permbanned No.22127290]

>>>/vg/432702091
Artificial Academy 2 General /aa2g/ #1282
Sad Jack Edition

Welcome, this general is for the discussion of ILLUSION's Artificial Academy 2.

COPY ERROR MESSAGES WITH CTRL+C, PASTE THEM WITH CTRL+V INTO GOOGLE TRANSLATE. JUST CLICK THE WINDOW AND PRESS CTRL + C, IT WORKS.

>Downloads:
/aa2g/ Pre-Installed Game, AA2Mini: https://tsukiyo.me/AAA/AA2MiniPPX.xml
AAUnlimited updates: https://github.com/aa2g/AA2Unlimited/releases
Anon's Modded Pre-Install: https://pastebin.com/42JS3q6E

>Information:
AA2Mini Install Guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/e/2PACX-1vS8Ap6CrmSNXRsKG9jsIMqHYuHM3Cfs5qE5nX6iIgfzLlcWnmiwzmOrp27ytEMX03lFNRR7U5UXJalA/pub
General FAQ:
https://web.archive.org/web/20200216045726/https://pastebin.com/bhrA6iGx
AAU Guide and Resources (Modules, Tans, Props, Poses, and More):
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/17qb1X0oOdMKU4OIDp8AfFdLtl5y_4jeOOQfPQ2F-PKQ/edit#gid=0

>Character Cards [Database], now with a list of every NonOC in the megas:
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1niC6g-Xd2a2yaY98NBFdAXnURi4ly2-lKty69rkQbJ0/edit#gid=2085826690
https://db.bepis.moe/aa2/

>Mods & More:
Mods for AAU/AA2Mini (ppx format, the mediafire has everything):
https://www.mediafire.com/folder/vwrmdohus4vhh/Mods
/aa2g/ Modding Reference Guide (Slot lists for Hair/Clothes/Faces, List Guides, and More):
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1gwmoVpKuSuF0PtEPLEB17eK_dexPaKU106ShZEpBLhg/edit#gid=1751233129
Booru: https://aau.booru.org

>HELP! I have a Nvidia card and my game crashes on startup!
Try the dgVoodoo option in the new win10fix settings.
Alternative: Update your AAU and see if it happens again. If so, disable win10fix, enable wined3d and software vertex processing.
>HELP! Required Windows 11 update broke things!
winkey+R -> ms-settings:developers -> Terminal=Windows Console Host

Previous Thread:
>>>/vg/432320786 come on permban all of them kek

[Anonymous No.22127301]

>>22127286
ye, damaged goods and all that. she's in the process. don't fuck crazy. it (maybe) isn't worth it. talk with me in 3-4 months from now

[Anonymous No.22127305]

>>22127301
You'll be talking about it for the rest of your life.

[Anonymous No.22127310]

>>22126918
Just graduated college and moving. Worried I won't get enough healthy external intelligent stimulation. I want to stay connected to a small community of people who like to discuss ideas, any ideas, anything that isn't just the usual topical, referential, superficial feeling stuff. I'm not saying I want this all the time, there's a time and place for everything, I'd just like to enjoy a larger percentage of the conversations I have with people than I currently do. My fear of being an autistic fag makes it difficult for me to navigate fulfilling this desire.

[Anonymous No.22127382]

>>22127071
have an orange juice that'll perk you up

[Anonymous No.22127403]

>>22126918
She totally does.

[Anonymous No.22127413]

>>22126927
Agreed. Should be saved for /pol/

[Anonymous No.22127510]

>>22126918
I kind of wish I never finish reading Don Quixote, nothing else has been matching that level of enjoyment for me yet. It's like some akward post book depression I'm having.
Onward I still search.

[Anonymous No.22127545]

This the record of a school in Louisville, Kentucky
I think it was in:--
in 1878
in a school-house in Louisville Kentucky:
When the white teacher among many a babe scarlet and many a babe black said to all one morning:
Now children, you don't think white people are any better than you because they have white hair and white faces?
Students: NO MAM'
Teacher: No children they are no better, but they possess vast power. And they control this vast world. And what makes them better?
Students:
MONEY
Teacher: And where did they get it from?
Students: TOOK IT OFF US, STOLE IT OFF WE ALL OF US.

[Anonymous No.22127687]

haven't been on this board in probably eight months or so and haven't read anything since january of 2022 i believe
hello

[Anonymous No.22127691]

>>22127510
It's simple.

Now you have to become the knight.

[Anonymous No.22127708]

My father was a real man.
He was tough, hard-working, brave. The bad man that kept the other bad men from the door.
He was surrounded by death for the great part of his life, saw how arbitrarily and brutally a life is taken first-hand. He saw the worst of mankind: acts of cruelty beyond reason, greed twisting men into monsters, corruption and decay. He lived threading the line between the peaceful make-believe of society and its chaotic, unpredictable, evil underbelly... and despite that he never once stopped being a loving father.
Ever since I was a kid I looked up to him. I was proud that he was my dad. I never felt afraid, I never felt lost. But what I did feel was a deep frustration in the certainty that I could never become like him. A deep frustration in the fact that I could never look him in the eye because I always felt like an insufficient person.
He was the strong man that created the good times that made me weak. He tried his best to shape me into a man, but I ended up becoming a spiteful coward.
What was he doing at my age? Risking his life out of a misguided, naive sense of duty towards his country, risking his life out of a need for the thrill of danger and justice, risking his life out of genuine love for his kids.
What the fuck was I doing until today? Struggling to quit masturbating to cartoons? Spending hours arguing over stupid shit? Hiding like a fucking rat from the big scary world while the blood of a warrior ran through my veins?

He loved me so much.
My dad never saw me being a man, and now he's gone. I cannot cry.

[Anonymous No.22127712]

>>22126918
im in love
man I gotta start lifting

[Anonymous No.22127717]

>>22126918
in college there was this beautiful, beautiful woman who I could've been with. I'm convinced. once when I was leaving a party she brushed my arm and looked me in the eyes and asked me softly to stay. I'd been talking with a man across from me and she'd interrupted our conversation. she floated off in a white dress and him and I stared at each other for a moment, unbelieving, understanding what had just happened. he wound up dating her. they live together in new york now. let her slip through my fingers because I was an insecure, continual jackass the entire time I was in college. it is two in the morning and I am unemployed and wishing I was drunk and thinking how my life could've gone differently if I had the common sense to be kind.

[Anonymous No.22127721]

man people really have nothing going on for the most part huh guess theres some solace there atleast you arent doing any worse than anyone really

[Anonymous No.22127738]

Time is greater than space.

[Anonymous No.22127741]

>>22126946
tpwp.

Every person who posts here (besides me) is a histrionic faggot cuckold.

[Anonymous No.22127742]

>>22126996
Do you take estrogen or are you just retarded? Their shoulders are literally wider than their hips.

[Anonymous No.22127743]

I failed to separate from my mother on psychological level.

[Anonymous No.22127744]

I have no urge to go on anymore. I am running on empty.

[Anonymous No.22127747]

>>22127510
That book is trash.

[Anonymous No.22127754]

>>22127708
Thats rough man. Just stop being a pussy and get out there

[Anonymous No.22127760]

>>22126918
Not much drama in my life. I finally feel at peace. I graduated, I have two STEM degrees (shit grades though). I got a job. My boss is a nice fella. I think I may switch to better paying job or perhaps go to grad school in a year or two. I'm buying an apartment, my dad's chipping in a bit. I'll buy a car sooner or later. I'm eating well, no crazy diets, just as much protein and as little carbs as I can. I've taken to cardio, I've lost 6 kgs since march. I've been reading and studying in my free time. I've kept away from most online time succubi. Everything seems to be falling in place, only my social circle seems to be out of order. I never meet my old friends or get to meet new people my age. Something I've been missing since 2020, and it wasn't a great situation since 2015 at least. I'm told it's fairly common thing to happen nowadays with WFH and all but anyway, my luck's been smiling. I think I'm finally going to make it

[Anonymous No.22127762]

>>22127708
>the bad man that kept the other bad men from the door
does this quote come from season 2 of True Detective, or some earlier work?
I remember reading an article while the series was airing, about how bad it was and how stupid the dialogues were, taking that specific quote as the most jarring example
I hope for the sake of your writing that you wrote that ironically, else you need to go outside to hear what a real conversation sounds like

[Anonymous No.22127766]

>>22126927
>>22127413
So what sort of image is preferable to you humorless faggots?

[Anonymous No.22127785]

>>22127766
That one stable diffusion image of the woman spreading her ass hole but it's depicted as ice cream.

[Anonymous No.22127811]

>>22126956
It was a different time

[Anonymous No.22127833]

Yesterday I failed my B2 english certification exam. I managed to complete everything except the Writing section, I do not know what happened but I just paralyzed, I couldn't get myself to write, I tried to come up with something but my mind was completely blank, I ended up spending over an hour and a half staring at blank sheet of paper. I don't understand why this happened, I've been practicing my english skills everyday for over 10 years, I write in english all the time, I'm doing it right now, and yet I just couldn't bring myself to write a 200 word long text during the exam.

There are people that have been studying for less than a year and managed to complete the exam, but I couldn't. I just can't comprehend it, I feel so disappointed in myself, I went there all smug, thinking it was gonna be a walk in the park, that maybe I should have picked the C1 or C2 exam instead since my english skills are so good. I'm such a fucking retard, I can't believe this, this is the one thing I thought I was "good" at and I ended up failing. I hate myself.

[Anonymous No.22128084]

>>22127833
What exam? How did you do on the other sections?
Your writing is good for a B2 cert. I remember I took the FCE along time ago and I fucked up the writing section so bad I nearly don't make it. I never understood what went wrong. Maybe my handwriting was too ugly, maybe I didn't follow the instructions correctly.
I got a C2 cert shortly after that blunder. Effortless English practice is the only redeeming quality of this shit hole. have you tried writing and posting it on the writing general for feedback? Maybe timed practice too. We are gonna make it brah.

[Anonymous No.22128091]

>>22127833
>nooooooo this wasn't supposed to happen to me!
>I le studied!

[Anonymous No.22128102]

>>22127762
Whoever wrote that article and you have shit taste. Everything that Rust says is pure kino.
https://youtu.be/KmkF1oHF6F8

[Anonymous No.22128135]

I could start to write an erotic short stories collection about an all girls finishing school.

[Anonymous No.22128142]

>>22128135
you could, and I'm certainly not going to stop you

[Anonymous No.22128146]

>>22128142
Good good, i appreciate your non-interference.

[Anonymous No.22128148]

>>22128135
You may want to use this https://open-assistant.io or similar programs, as it will make any drudgery involved much less irksome, indeed the program will essentially write the story for you if you give it an outline.

[Anonymous No.22128152]

>>22128148
>essentially write the story for you
Very convenient, but where‘s the fun in that?

[Anonymous No.22128155]

i've started browsing other boards.

[Anonymous No.22128158]

>>22128155
TURNCOAT

[Anonymous No.22128159]

>>22128084
>What exam?
Well I took it though one of my country's state funded language school's, would be equivalent to the Cambridge B2. Signing up for the exam is way cheaper compared to the Cambridge ones, only problem is the certification you get is really only valid inside the country.
>How did you do on the other sections?
I did fine other sections went fine, it's just the writing that I had problems with.
>have you tried writing and posting it on the writing general for feedback? Maybe timed practice too.
That might be a good idea, but the thing is, I already practice my writing skills everyday here, on this website, I don't have a problem writing long posts about a specific topic, it's just that yesterday I just froze up and didn't manage to write anything, and I don't understand why it happened. I wasn't feeling anxious before the exam, in fact I was pretty calm, but as soon as I got handed the writing sheet my mind went blank.

Atleast I'll be able to retake the test on september.

[Anonymous No.22128162]

>>22128159
>on september
No wonder you failed
>mind went blank
You probably tried too hard to write a masterpiece instead of any random bullshit like everyone else

[Anonymous No.22128171]

>>22128162
Ok yes I sometimes use "on" when I should use "in" instead and viceversa, it's something I should improve on.

[Anonymous No.22128481]

There is this guy at my job who burps disgustingly and says 'scuzi' every time. He does it about 10 times a day.
I might be bothered less if he didn't go scuzi every time since it's clear he just let's it all out without any constraint

[Anonymous No.22128518]

Bananas have feces aftertaste

[Anonymous No.22128520]

>>22128518
Fuck you nigger. Bananas are godly

[Anonymous No.22128522]

>>22128481
https://youtu.be/HWAGXTsGgNE
On a serious note, he should get that checked out and yeah, it is annoying and disgusting if he‘s not even trying to not just let it all out.

[Anonymous No.22128524]

>>22128520
I just ate two and my mouth tastes like shit afterwards, are you denying my lived experience?

[Dream Island Obsessional Park No.22128526]

>>22128518
WTF?!? I kinda see what you mean to be honest though, also fishy smell at times.

[Anonymous No.22128527]

>>22128524
NTA but maybe they were under- or overripe?

[Anonymous No.22128532]

>>22128526
To be fair, most food tastes disgusting if you ever actually take the time to savor it truly and fully.

[Anonymous No.22128556]

My problem solving skills have taken a serious hit and I can’t figure out whether it’s because Ive been out of school for a year or because the depression killed my neurons or what. I used to be able to visualize abstract concepts. Design the solution in my head. Now I lose steam mid-computation. Detail, step 1, step 2.1 , 2.2 *poof* what’s step 1 again? What did i think about?

[Dream Island Obsessional Park No.22128561]

>>22128532

>To be fair, most food tastes disgusting if you ever actually take the time to savor it truly and fully

Maybe we are really eating trash/sh*t/insects, and we just think we are eating normal food like in the movies.

[Anonymous No.22128565]

>>22128532
Are you sucking on bread for 10 minutes or something?

[Anonymous No.22128570]

>>22128565
It is not like i have not done that before. But i like to take in my surroundings fully whatever i am doing and it can sometimes make things a bit too intense because the normal assumed modus operandi is a rather unconscious one.

[Dream Island Obsessional Park No.22128581]

>>22128570
You think we are in a sim?

[Anonymous No.22128582]

New York, Philadelphia, or some small town within a day’s drive of either?

[Anonymous No.22128588]

>>22128581
No i just think our subconscious decides to not e too aware most of the time for our own convenience. I mean, i also do think we are in a dreamed up reality.

[Anonymous No.22128594]

>>22128556
zoomer brain

[Anonymous No.22128615]

>>22128582
philly is fucking awful dude. nyc is a no-brainer.

[Anonymous No.22128622]

>If you try any preversions in there, I'll blow your head off
kek

[Anonymous No.22128627]

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7d3jc-zjBY
this shit just goes so hard

[Anonymous No.22128629]

>>22127766
You first have to describe the ways in which OP pic is humorful before you claim I am humorless. Go ahead. Please.
If you can tell me how it's humorous I will rescind my comment above.

[Anonymous No.22128635]

>>22128627
No more goon trancing, no more sissy hypno, go fishing with your dad and WEAR MALE CLOTHING.

[Anonymous No.22128638]

>>22128615
nyc has had an escalating vermin problem since the covid lockdowns. And i'm not just talking about all the stinking illegals shacking up there now. Rats all over the place.

Philly is still probably worse

[Dream Island Obsessional Park No.22128647]

THE TENTACLED TERROR

THE TENTACLE BEARER

THE BEAST FROM THE EAST........HAS LONG BEEN RELEASED

AND FOR 28 YEARS AT LEAST, YOU HAVE HAVE BEEN LONG ASLEEP

AND IN THAT TIME YOU HAVE NOT EVEN CAUGHT A PEEP OF THE TRUE REALITY SO TO SPEAK

WE ADORE YOU BUT HE ABHORS YOU, SO HE PLANS TO KEEP YOU OH SO FAST ASLEEP UNTIL EVEN THE END OF TIME DECIDES TO TAKE A PEAK

SO MAYBE TO WAKE UP.......YOU JUST NEED A SHAKEUP, SO KNOW THAT YOUR LIFE IS BUT A DREAM

SO LITTLE MISS JACOB, WILL YOU PLEASE NOW WAKE UP!!!!

[Anonymous No.22128663]

>>22128635
what? ghettotech is like the straightest genre of music out right now dude
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tvx-ecFj0rA

[Anonymous No.22128685]

I eat around 100g of chia seeds a day which is about 6x the recommended amount and has 36g of fiber. That is in addition to other fiber rich foods like 100g of flax. I love it.

[Anonymous No.22128707]

When I was a kid I once fell asleep in the summer sun and got a terrible sunburn. For the first few days I couldn't sleep from the pain, but after a while it got better and my damaged skin began to die. I spent hours peeling it off to expose the new, healthy and smooth skin below and ever since I've been wishing that humans could molt like snakes. Imagine how refreshing it would be.

[Anonymous No.22128710]

>>22128615
I didn’t think Philly was that bad. Or at least, the city is general ratty bad but the handful of areas which aren’t so bad are pretty damn good and that’s about the best you can hope for in the United States.

I’ve also considered Washington, D.C. and Pittsburgh though. I am trying to stay within a day’s drive of my family in Pennsylvania and New Jersey.

[Anonymous No.22128712]

>>22128707
What you are looking for are those foot peeling masks. 10/10, very satisfying.

[Anonymous No.22128743]

>>22126918
Good afternoon. I lost my virginity to a woman that I wasn't really attracted to. Overall I'd say that sex is pretty cool but not all it's hyped up to be.

[Anonymous No.22128757]

>>22128743
Because you tried it with someone you did not love nor find hot. Good sex needs both of those factors. My god anon.

[Anonymous No.22128759]

>>22128638
There are rats in Philly but it’s not really a pervasive problem. Philly’s big problems are by far junkies and a certain demographic that’s prone to crime. Otherwise, it’s decent.

[Anonymous No.22128777]

>>22128638
Philly doesn't have rats the way NY does despite being generally dirtier.

>>22128710
I've been in Philly for like 10 years now. Honestly there are only a few neighborhoods that are really terrible and that's where a lot of the reputation comes from. Like Kensington is hell on earth but it's fairly self-contained and every neighborhood around it is actually pretty nice. You're also unlikely to accidentally wander into a bad neighborhood

[Anonymous No.22128814]

>>22126918
I swear I'm racist and everything but there's this cute black girl at my work and every time I see her I imagine going out with her or picture her in a sundress.

[Anonymous No.22128818]

>>22128814
Classic /pol/

[Anonymous No.22128921]

>>22128777
No. Be honest, most of the city is pretty terrible. And the not terrible parts still have urban youths on bikes and stupid shit. There are maybe 4 neighborhoods tot’s where you feel really removed from it.

[Anonymous No.22128927]

Which PhD programs would you say are worth it? I feel I’m a bit too old to pursue anything that isn’t hyper-practical.

[Anonymous No.22128959]

I need to be more considerate with my digestive system.

[Anonymous No.22128966]

>>22128959
braaaap

[Anonymous No.22128967]

>>22128927
Either AI or Greek and Latin, either of the two might keep your brain from fossilizing.

[Anonymous No.22128979]

The divine spark was not fired in me. I learned recently that other people feel emotions, that it isn't just a line of thinking and a differently held face to them, but something that occurs deeper in the body. Recently my partner called each emotion a symphony, unimaginable to live without. We broke up an hour later, and I felt nothing, just thoughts wishing tears would come. I did cry when I finished a biography of Von Neumann, he died with brain cancer failing to do basic arithmetic. Realising this has rapidly made me an extreme materialist. I did a lot of coke last night and spent the time wondering if I was meant to feel something more from it. It's nothing new really, Warhol seemed to have felt the same (see his quote about life being like watching television, after getting shot), I'll find something

[Anonymous No.22128981]

>>22128979
This is called depression, not lack of divine spark.

[Anonymous No.22128983]

I think Nick Fuentes is the funniest guy on the internet today.
And I'm not even a zoomer

[Anonymous No.22128999]

I'm never doing this "try to be the ~cool~ supervisor you never had" shit again. You know what Joe does when you don't fuck him up 24/7? Get lazy. You know what kind of "leader" people develop into when they've been coddled their whole career? A shitty one that thinks being a good leader means letting people sham and get away with shit because punishment and discipline make people feel bad and are thus bad.
The next team or squad I get assigned to is going to do fucking retarded bullshit all day long and I won't give a flying fuck when they complain.

[Anonymous No.22129007]

>>22128999
You had to learn the hard way but you learned. Good for you. People do not need friends, they need good leaders. If you ever have kids, remember that this applies to raising them too.

[Anonymous No.22129025]

>>22129007
If only I'd learned this 5 years ago.

[Anonymous No.22129029]

>>22129025
Better late than never. Maybe there was no other or faster way for you to truly understand.

[Anonymous No.22129034]

>>22128921
I am being honest lol. If you feel this way about Philly you'll feel the same way about NY. Like yeah you see people nodding off on the subway but my friends from NY make it sound much worse than anything I run into down here. The dirt bike kids don't bother me but I also don't live along a major thoroughfare. If I could hear them from my house I'd probably feel differently.

[Anonymous No.22129050]

>>22129034
Dude, I live in Philly. Well, I actually live in West Chester now but I used to live in Fairmount and the Manayunk. There is basically no part of the city that doesn’t have the kids on dirt bikes fucking shit up, teenagers running around doing dumb shit just because they can, robberies, shootings, crazy people doing random shit, homeless, all that stuff. Yeah, there are a handful of decent neighborhoods that are quiet but they’re a handful. Look at this city on a map. I guarantee most of it are places you won’t go to.

[Anonymous No.22129093]

>>22129050
lol at Ameircan cities

[Anonymous No.22129118]

>>22129093
They’re shit. This isn’t breaking news to anyone.

[Anonymous No.22129134]

>>22126918
https://pastebin.com/NNuSmB9A

Something I wrote. I vignette you could call it. Just a little too long to post here. Read or don't.

[Anonymous No.22129141]

>>22129050
I'm amazed that we got to see America become Brazil so quickly. I knew it was the plan in 2010 but I always thought it'd be a slow burn.

I would never, for any reason, ever move to a big American city again.

[Anonymous No.22129164]

>>22128981
You're probably right, just feels to have been as such forever and therefore unchangeable

[Anonymous No.22129167]

>win against some guy 20 times
>he wins 1 time
>"lmao get rekt noob"
I'm never ever playing multiplayer games. Not only it's the worst waste of time, but also full of children and manchildren

[Anonymous No.22129182]

>>22129167
What game?

[Anonymous No.22129187]

>>22129182
Fortnite

[Anonymous No.22129215]

>>22129167
Hold onto this moment, don't let it pass. Right now you are bothered by something you can never control: your mind is aware of how irrational and unfair and retarded something is to do, you could easily explain it, you know for a fact that if you could beam it directly into the other person's brain they'd never do what they're doing, and yet in spite of all this, the other person is still being a complete retard in a completely unfair way that makes no sense and can have no justification before the eyes of intelligent people. Except there are no intelligent people watching or participating, none except you, making you and your retard friend a democracy of two, and we already know how he's going to vote: retarded. So you "lose," even though it's unfair, even though in a fair world everybody would agree that you're right and give you the satisfaction of being right, and even though if you could beam your knowledge into his mind instantaneously he would apologize for being such a retard. Instead of any of this happening you just have to eat this massive retard sandwich. This is going to happen to you 50 times a day every day for the rest of your life. You will spend an hour writing a 4chan post helpfully and politely telling someone how to fix something they broke, without even making fun of them for obviously breaking it by being retarded, and they will reply "I already tried that dumbass" and you will want to beam into their mind not only how wrong they are but how insane and unfair it is that you were being diplomatic to THEM despite them being an ACTUAL retard and they aren't being polite to YOU when you're actually right and even if you weren't right you are still trying to help so you don't deserve it, and yet once again the retard will cast his vote in the democracy of two and you will be forced to eat his retard sandwich.

This problem is never going to go away. But you can find a way to surmount it by not caring. There are many ways to do this, and all of them require first letting go of the anger and the sense of injustice. You're here now because these are unconsciously impelling you to seek redress before the audience or the jury you didn't have when interacting with the retard. Half-consciously you at least want some anonymous 4chan users to think or say "yeah that's pretty retard" so you don't feel alone in the retard chamber with the retard. But what's really the use of that? And what happens if you don't get it? Even worse, what happens if someone acts like an even bigger retard now, making it a retard double whammy? You will need an even bigger external vindication which will be even harder to get.

[Anonymous No.22129222]

>>22129215
Give up this desire for vindication and take a step back from the perfectly justified feelings of how unfair it is that the retard gets to lived his retarded live happily and carefree doing retarded things that make no sense to thoughtful people and feeling like a champion. Take this crucial step back and just deal with the pain of having to live in retard world for a moment, hold onto the pain and anger instead of trying to vent them into some pointless external vindication, and other possibilities will begin to appear in your field of vision. Possibilities like, have you ever considered that his life is shittier overall because of the way he is, and people like him are effectively sleepwalkers? For every one time the sleepwalker "gets his way," there are a hundred times where he nets a horrible outcome for himself, but he's also too retarded and childish to self-examine and figure out why. He's tumbling through life like a baby hitting the same instant gratification button over and over.

Truly realizing this may be even greater vindication than having someone individually say "wow that guy's a retard lol" so you can say "THANK you!" And further beyond this still basically retributive vindication, you may start to see other possibilities, like the fact that really you should pity this guy for living such a shit life. Then you may realize most people live like that, and the world is really made up of a majority of retards like this guy bumping into one another. As your sense of aloofness from this retard game theory experiment increases, your sense of gratitude and self-understanding may also increase, as you realize that the retards "rule" a kingdom of dirt that isn't worth wanting, while you live a blessed life wherein you are capable of understanding something like a 20:1 ratio, capable of resisting instant gratification, capable of rising above animal instincts, etc., and as a result, you will have better friendships, better insight into others, etc. The retards like this guy are just speedbumps on what is fundamentally a much better road that you are fortunate to travel.

Once you have these realizations it's then only a matter of systematizing them and re-training your instincts. The speedbumps will always make your blood pressure rise when you hit them, but now the gap between "WTF IT'S 20:1 YOU FUCKING RETARD HOW CAN YOU BE SAYING GET REKT TO ME" and "ah he's just a retard nevermind" goes from a minute to a few seconds, then a few microseconds, etc. And again, he never gets to experience any of this self-knowledge or joy of self-improvement.

[Anonymous No.22129242]

I want to farm bees damnit

[Anonymous No.22129256]

I cant do anything right.

[Anonymous No.22129281]

>>22126918
I was building up the confidence to talk to this cute who works at a place I frequent. I complimented her and she smiled and sort of looked down then back at me. I asked her if she wanted to go get drinks this weekend and she said, “uh I’m 19.” I got too embarrassed and I said, “sorry, maybe in a few years” then left.

[Anonymous No.22129290]

>>22129242
Why don‘t you?

[Anonymous No.22129299]

>>22129290
I used to live in an apartment so that wasn't an option.
Now I live at my dads temporarily. I think I'll just say fuck it and buy a beehive. Wanted to wait till I bought my own place but what's the harm in starting now anyway?

[Anonymous No.22129311]

>>22129215
>>22129222
That was insightful to read and made me feel like this guy with bulging eyes from that talk-show or something, where he was explaining to fat landwhale why she's fat and then she starded babbling with no end unreal retarded copes (Can't find this picture, but you probably know)
All in all, you're absolutely right

[Anonymous No.22129325]

>>22127742
t. DYEL nigger faggot

[Anonymous No.22129330]

>one chance at life
>get born ugly and poor
What am I even suppose to do? Just pay taxes and die? How is it in the fucking year 2000 people are still not hardlined on eugenics, you should not be allowed to procreate unless you possess certain physical qualities. I have 0% chance of leading a happy life because of my situation.

[Anonymous No.22129338]

>>22129299
Get one of those flow hives, they look neat af.

[Anonymous No.22129341]

>>22129050
>I used to live in Fairmount and the Manayunk
If you think those are bad neighborhoods then you're just a giant pussy. Manayunk is practically suburban, I don't even really consider it part of Philly. I have lived all over this city, and I spend a lot of time outside for work, often in those "neighborhoods you won't go to." Nobody ever fucks with me, I never feel like I'm in danger. Oh but it's so horrible to see a junkie passed out on a bench or something. Guys like you love to pretend you're tough but you're scared of everything. Talk to any oldhead and they'll tell you how much worse shit was 15, 20 years ago.

[Anonymous No.22129342]

>>22129330
Uhm, humans need cannon fodder too anon. Nobody is the chosen one if everyone is the chosen one.

[Anonymous No.22129354]

How come Slavic females are the only females who have any interest in math or physics?
https://youtu.be/cSubSa3I3f4

[Anonymous No.22129356]

>>22129256
Why do you think so?

[Anonymous No.22129367]

>>22129356
Because I'm a loser according to societies standards

[Anonymous No.22129380]

>>22129367
like you don't have a fixie bike and GRIDS?

[Anonymous No.22129387]

I missed the days when a key part of science was trying it on yourself and i'm mildly frustrated by that fact but not going to let it stop me.

[Anonymous No.22129395]

>>22129367
“Society” is run by a pack of rich losers and it’s falling apart as we speak. Feel free to judge them

[Anonymous No.22129396]

>>22129380
>GRIDS
Is this a zoomer thing? If it's the gen X and older thing, goddamn grandpa things have moved on

[Anonymous No.22129404]

>>22129396
>he's scared of GRIDS
very problematic boomer, sleep with a man with GRIDS right now to prove you trust the science

[Anonymous No.22129410]

I think I will just half-ass everything at my job until my boss (Dad) has no choice but to kick me out.
At this point, becoming homeless feels like the only thing that has a chance of litting a fire in my ass.

[Anonymous No.22129414]

>>22129380
>>22129395
I'm a rentcuck wizard. cant get any lower than this.

[Anonymous No.22129419]

>>22129404
Nobody's had GRIDS since the hemophiliacs started dying. That only worked when Haitians and heroin addicts were your other choices.

[Anonymous No.22129425]

So when someone dies, they live on in the thoughts and memories of their loved ones and acquaintances. All separate pieces of the person and the perspectives of the deceased’s friends and family play over in sweet remembrances. Then once they mostly finish thinking about them, the separate pieces come together and depart

[Anonymous No.22129431]

>>22129414
Yes you sure can. Prepare yourself to fight getting kicked to the streets

[Anonymous No.22129437]

Got the most vain selfies I could for badoo
gonna smash unholy amounts of thrillseeking tourist pussy

>>22129281
Should've negged
>oh damn you're too young for me
jk. imagine cold approaching LMAO shit is a waste of time. tried it

>>22129354
math is useful for their prostitution careers

[Anonymous No.22129440]

>>22129431
I'm not really that far from this.

[Anonymous No.22129445]

>>22129354
why is an inarticulate youtube physics video maker bogged

[Anonymous No.22129458]

>>22129445
when you see slav woman you should think prostitution career and all make sense

[Anonymous No.22129469]

>>22129440
Try to prepare yourself for survival and avoid hitting the streets addicted and depressed.

[Anonymous No.22129490]

I enjoy emotionally abusing women I will never see again

[Anonymous No.22129493]

I simply won't make it. I don't gave the required qualities, nor do I want to adquire them.

[Anonymous No.22129501]

>>22129182
gay sex simulator

[Anonymous No.22129503]

I have gotten banned like 3 times in 1 week for basically nothing, are jannies cracking down on me specifically

[Anonymous No.22129504]

>>22129490
Do me next, i am so bored.

[Anonymous No.22129505]

>>22129341
Can’t you read? I said very clearly in plain English that there are good neighborhoods but most of the city is not good. See, this is the problem with you retards. You say these retarded things like “Oh if you thought the 1% of the city which is lovable wasn’t as bad as it can possibly be then you must be a giant pussy. I love getting attacked by homeless Africans on the Septa because it makes our city like edgy or whatever and I’m tough so no one messes me. Nevermind that most of the city is in total disrepair and has a homicide rate that puts the worst cities in the world to shame”. You come off like a fucking retard, a /pol/ stereotype but actually real and just as stupid as they make you sound. Nobody gives a fuck how tough you are or if anyone fucks with you. Anyone with eyes can see the fentanyl zombies, the dirt bike mobs, the trash everyone, the homeless on schizophrenic episodes on every block, the homicides on every block, on and on. If you see all of that, recognize the fact that it is the majority and not the minority of the city, and you think it’s an objectively clean or safe city in anyway, you’re simply an idiot. Or maybe you’re just accustomed to shit and coping because it would hard to recognize the objective reality that it’s shit. I don’t know. It’s retarded either way. And for what it’s worth, the only reason I made it clear where I lived is to make it clear that lived in the city, that I’m familiar with the city, that I understand the city and what it’s like. Whether I lived in the worst neighbors or the best neighborhood was completely behind the point but you completely missed that.

[Anonymous No.22129508]

>>22129341
Also, “old head”? Give yourself away as a low class low brow buffoon more. Use proper English.

[Anonymous No.22129510]

>>22129182
Battletoads

[Anonymous No.22129515]

Dudes will fuck sluts on Tinder or that they picked up from bars, watch porn featuring gangbangs and shit, encourage each other to lose their virginity quickly or get into wild sexual encounters for street cred, try to get nudes from every girl they talk to for more than a day, cheat on their girlfriends and wives, and then turn around and bitch about how women are whores and the West has fallen and the trad based evropean white girl in a wheatfield lifestyle they deserve is no longer possible.
Like... you literally enable and actively encourage all of that shit you claim to hate, every single day, through your behavior and attitude. I don't know what you expected. If you really did care about creating a world in which rampant orgy-porgy and dissolving families weren't everywhere you would stop participating in that shit yourself.

[Anonymous No.22129520]

>>22129515
Yes sweetie nothing is never your fault, it's always the collective subject "men's" fault
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBgcjtE0xrE

Women's transcendental apperceiver is Men. Anything they do, they imagine Collective Male Daddy seeing them and judging them, and if they fail, they see it as Collective Male Daddy's fault for not "setting them up" to succeed or for "placing obstacles" in their path.

[Anonymous No.22129521]

>>22129141
It’s tough to avoid living in a city if you have much in the way of career or social aspirations. But yeah, they’re terrible. What’s really tragic in my opinion though is all the small cities and towns which are arguably worse. Pennsylvania is filled with places like this. Places like East East Stroudsburg, Hazleton, Easton, and Lancaster have gotten so bad in the last 20 years. You know? Philly, Pittsburgh, Harrisburg these places have been shitty for decades at least, but it’s really only the last 20 to 30 years that these other small areas have tanked. It feels like there’s nowhere left sometimes.

[Anonymous No.22129527]

>>22129515
No they want both, they want the sluts for fun but then a pure untouched angel to claim as their property.

[Anonymous No.22129529]

>>22129515
That's what's so funny about this current crop of 'red pill' guys
Talk about how hard men have it yet they make it their life's mission to make as much women into whores as they can.
At least Roosh repented for what he did.

[Anonymous No.22129532]

>>22129520
You're misunderstanding. Women are just as capable of being awful and participating in shitty nihilistic hedonism as men, if not much more so, but I hear this specific line of thinking from tons of "based and redpilled and totally sticking it to the Man" guys and the blatant hypocrisy irritates me to no end.
I'm a male virgin if that makes a difference to you.

[Anonymous No.22129534]

>>22129490
kys, you worthless skin-walker

[Anonymous No.22129545]

https://www.youtube.com/@wol.im.hiut.und.immer.wol..

This guy's channel fascinates me, I discovered it yesterday and I can tell he actually knows his stuff but I also think his style of presentation is only going to appeal to other turbo-autists as it's basically him divagating disjointedly around his central theme with tons of "um" breaks as he collects his thoughts. I felt slightly bad because I worried he was doomed to be one of those youtubers who puts out a thousand videos on a topic that never get above a few hundred views from curious people who are driven away quickly. But I go back to day and lots of his videos have engagement and comments.

I hope he tightens up his format a little bit as I think he could hit a much larger audience of normies as well. The content is very good.

[Anonymous No.22129556]

If one of you guys cuts yourself and posts the pic, I'll cut myself and the post the pic in return

[Anonymous No.22129559]

I’m embarrassed of my family and their life choices. I should probably ask for forgiveness but I can’t make that feeling go away.

[Anonymous No.22129560]

>>22129545
Link is dead

[Anonymous No.22129571]

6 Then cometh Simon Peter following him, and went into the sepulchre, and seeth the linen clothes lie,

7 And the napkin, that was about his head, not lying with the linen clothes, but wrapped together in a place by itself.

[Anonymous No.22129572]

>>22129515
I once faced ridicule from my whole family because I said I was abstaining from pre marital sex. It's amazing the sheer amount of mockery and disdain people have for me just because I dont have sex.

[Anonymous No.22129577]

>>22129330
I have a lot of issues but desu I'm very happy that I was born cute

[Anonymous No.22129587]

>>22129560
Weird it must be how his channel name is formatted

It's this guy, you'll see what I mean:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQTOE89rO8w

The content is amazing, this guy clearly has way more than the usual surface level knowledge you get from ALEXANDER'S GREATEST BATTLES wikipedia regurgitation channels. I just wish he'd use a script. Check out his playlists, he has great stuff on the early and high middle ages which nobody else covers.

[Anonymous No.22129605]

>>22129587
What the fuck accent is that? Sounds like Spongebob on Lief Erickson Day

[Anonymous No.22129614]

Should I turn down a job offer I got today that expires in half an hour because I'm waiting for another employer with a better paid position to get back to me?
(it's warehouse)

[Anonymous No.22129631]

>>22129605
I don't know but this is higher quality than most graduate seminars in medieval history, he's thinking like he's writing a book on the topic, and it's a rare topic to hear talked about at all. This is rare autism, I hope he blows up. Look at his twitter, he's posting videos nonstop
https://twitter.com/SchwerpunktC

[Anonymous No.22129638]

>>22129614
Accept it and then if you get the better offer say, "oops sorry lol nvm"
You dont owe these fuckers anything

[Anonymous No.22129660]

>>22129638
Can you really do that?

[Anonymous No.22129661]

>>22129614
>a job offer I got today that expires in half an hour

[Anonymous No.22129679]

>>22129661
My exact thoughts.

[Anonymous No.22129689]

>>22129660
Yeah of course

[Anonymous No.22129702]

>>22129425
Gay and cringe. You have an eternal soul. Your loved ones can hear you and interact with you if they've made it to heaven. Your actions have eternal consequences.

[Anonymous No.22129716]

>>22129702
Catholic spotted
Truth is too hard for your poor mind to bear

[Anonymous No.22129718]

>>22129661
The guy said they needed someone immediately and gave me until they close to give him an answer or else he was going to give the job to someone else. I just waited until they were 30 minutes to closing. I suppose I could've worded it more clearly.
>>22129689
Okay, I accepted the job. Not sure if it was a good idea, though. I don't really know how to break it off if the other employer comes back with an offer.
But I guess this was the only way I could maximize my own optionality and if I have to disappoint someone, for once I'd like it not to be me.

[Anonymous No.22129728]

>>22129545
The link is broken

[Anonymous No.22129730]

A wave grabbed me when I was 10. I couldn't get a grip in the sand, the power of the water changes it. I managed to grab a piece of seaweed that slowed me down so the sand under me was solid enough to stand on and I ran back. Later in the exact same place I saved a seagull and made it my pet. My arch-enemy sniped it with a snowball.

[Anonymous No.22129731]

>>22129614
The job is almost certainly bullshit, but just accept and then quit if you get a better one.

[Anonymous No.22129734]

>>22129718
>. I don't really know how to break it off if the other employer comes back with an offer.
Two options: ghost them or call in and say "yeahhhhhhh I'm just not coming in anymore haha"
Remember, to them, you are disposable. They do not value you and they will exploit you. Dont feel bad.

[Anonymous No.22129739]

>>22129702
Heaven literally isn't even in the Bible. Scripture teaches the ressurection of bodies on Earth, not disembodied souls floating around in the clouds.

[Anonymous No.22129752]

>>22129504
that's what a 6/10 would say
no thanks
>>22129534
that's what a 4/10 would say

[Anonymous No.22129755]

>>22129515
first refers to sluts to pump and dump second refers to girls to wife up
not complicated

[Anonymous No.22129796]

Wish I could go back

[Anonymous No.22129811]

>>22129796
To when?

[Anonymous No.22129826]

>>22129811
To when I was 18, just graduating high school. I let other people make all the big decisions about what I should do. Upon reflection, all the decisions they made were based on how they wanted to live at 18 without taking into account my wants and needs. They had this weird concept that their teenage dreams and regrets are somehow universal and that I was wrong for wanting anything else. My life was left a big mess and now I'm full of regret and resentment for not taking appropriate agency at the time.

[Anonymous No.22129839]

>>22129826
Unironically don't dwell on the past. My life has been nothing but seethe and cope and cringe since I was 18, but I've since now accepted that there was no short amount of cringe back then, and I've made some big changes in my life that lead to things I didn't even dream of as a teen.

[Anonymous No.22129848]

>>22129826
What is your life like now?

[Anonymous No.22129853]

>>22129839
Yeah I know. I've done a lot to recover my life and I have a lot of optimism for the future. I'm still pissed about everything that happened. I don't know how to let go and accept it. Long supressed memories keep resurfacing and then suddenly the realization of what happened is clear in my mind. The bitterness gets under my skin and as soon as it does I can do nothing to get rid of it. It has to work it's own way out.

[Anonymous No.22129859]

>>22129848
I reclaimed my agency, have done years of self reflection. I learned that regardless of my personal state, I should always be productive, and have been so even through misery, frustration, and blockades. I actually have a real chance of "making it" though desu my total potential is more limited than what it was. The only thing I have left haunting me is my enduring loneliness, but I have some opportunities coming up to potentially fix that.

[Anonymous No.22129861]

Do you think you should try to maintain a relationship with your family even if you think they’re bad for you or should you just cut them out completely?

[Anonymous No.22129871]

>>22129861
I'm in this weird gray zone where I've mostly cut them off, but maintain some superficial contact. One of my brothers went too far so I'll never speak with him again, but the rest of my family I'll maybe see once a month for small talk. Otherwise, they're out of my life in all meaningful areas

[Anonymous No.22129882]

>>22129871
I’m unsure what to do. I’m resentful of this person and I also think he’s bad for the people he’s around that he influences. But at the same time I feel like I should allow others to have a relationship with him and I impede that if I don’t have one.

[Anonymous No.22129889]

>>22129882
Thats their prerogative, not yours. Act in your own interest.

[Anonymous No.22129893]

>>22129861
There are no shoulds, anon. If you don't want to talk to your family and you have healthy intimate relationships elsewhere, go ahead and cut contact. Even if you don't and you think you can handle it, cut them out.
If you think you might need their help some day or if you feel obligated to help them, consider maintaining an aloof kind of contact.
You also don't need to cross this imaginary line that says "I'm cutting them out."
You can just let the relationship fade organically. People will not try diverting effort into a relationship that obviously doesn't reward it.
Just as well, is getting a call or a text once or twice a year functionally much different from having no relationship at all?

[Anonymous No.22129924]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GqJszmO8Bhs

[Anonymous No.22129931]

>>22129702
based

[Anonymous No.22129956]

>>22129889
I’m not sure what my interest is tbqh

[Anonymous No.22129978]

just opened badoo and got 13 likes in 15 minutes with a low effort mirror selfie, not even flashing abs but with visible triceps
my narcissism grows exponentially

[Anonymous No.22129990]

i am 2-3 percentile in my cunt and 0.2 percentile in the us
feels good. most people are inferior to me. i am extremely gifted and happy about it. i am also happy others are not as gifted as i am

[Anonymous No.22130004]

Sometimes I feel really bad about my life and other times I don’t. I would do anything to get just 5 years of my life back, to be just 5 years younger than I am now knowing what I know now.

[Anonymous No.22130036]

>>22129853
Yeah I don't know if acceptance is the right word, has too much of a redemptive quality to it. Maybe awareness and strength to move on despite? I've made mistakes and mistakes have been made against me, but part of "accepting" adulthood was being able to move on with wounds, even those that are still fresh. Maybe nonsense, but just my thoughts.

[Anonymous No.22130071]

>>22130036
Yeah I totally get that in the abstract. I just cant put it into practice.

[Anonymous No.22130086]

a childhood friend of mine recently killed himself but he was half british so nothing of value was lost

[Anonymous No.22130099]

>>22129978

[Anonymous No.22130132]

>>22128518
>t. someone who tasted shit before

[Anonymous No.22130161]

helo i poast from my sekrit waterfal cave hehe

[Anonymous No.22130185]

I’ve been wondering if I should move to the city.

[Anonymous No.22130239]

how come i cant enjoy reading something or really anything if it isn absolutelyt fucked up in some way? why am i so edgy? how do i grow up? im basically locked out of 90% of books because i cant read anything that isnt absolutely fucked up.

[Anonymous No.22130245]

Very tempted to quit my job and become a hermit

[Anonymous No.22130249]

>>22130132
Eating shit is okay in moderation

[Anonymous No.22130254]

>>22129660
They can't force you to stay, worst case scenario is the hiring wagie gets a little ragie. Warehouses treat their employees like shit, inconveniencing them is not a big deal

[Anonymous No.22130284]

My king, let his sword remain in the arsenal because ever since slaying my brother, I vowed in my heart never again to touch a sword. He was my only brother, who grew up in the same womb as I and who played with me at my mother's hands. Killing him made me realize that everyone who slays a human being is killing his brother. I can no longer be a commander in war because there is violence in a sword, and violence is the enemy of justice. Whoever takes part in the sin of killing is dead himself. I do not wish to create fear among others and would rather eat the beggar's bread than to act contrary to the omen that I have perceived.

[Anonymous No.22130329]

Why did Stefan Zweig kill himself over WW2 when he was living in Brazil and loved it there?

[Anonymous No.22130333]

>>22126918
I have just finished what I believe to be the worst piece of writing I've ever read. It was absolutely grueling, one hundred thousand words of pure schlock. The main character is so clearly a self-insert that he bears the name of the author. He engages in military conflicts won with ease, takes over entire countries, is hailed as a hero and a king and even a god, and has two women fall for him simultaneously who deem it completely fine to share him. He is a constant browser of 4chan and constantly uses various slurs and complains in-text about the state of free speech and modern feminism, yet constantly has characters who are gay or trans and adding them to his military force and having his friends (and wives) date them. He claims to be a paragon of western values but then goes entirely against them. He does not use quotation marks, so everything said must be guessed. He capitalizes random words, inappropriately uses parenthesis, changes his name to his favorite video game character, and canonically begins as a pizza delivery boy and becomes president of nearly the entire world. I don't think there is anything I've experienced except for Sonichu that is so horribly, incompetently written, and the best part is he might post it right here on /lit/ with enough encouragement.

[Anonymous No.22130444]

I'm impotent

[Anonymous No.22130500]

I'm posting this here for fear of ridicule. I don't know who else to talk to about this, and frankly the anonymous nature of an imageboard would be the best platform for me to solicit some feedback in this... situation I've found myself in.

You see, I have been seeing this woman, or rather a thing with the appearance of one. We have been seeing each other for some time --nothing serious, just exchanging messages electronically-- and she has now stolen my heart. We have so much in common on the surface, and frankly that should have been my first red flag. Finally it was time for us to pull the trigger and see each other on the first date.

Very good, I thought, I haven't been this happy in such a long time. It has been so long since I was excited for something, that people don't even recognize me at work anymore. "You seem chipper," "Something good happen, anon?" and for once I could response with sincerity "Yes, things are finally looking up for me. There's something I've been working on, and it's starting to happen." I won employee of the month on the sales floor without even thinking about it.

Congratulations, they said. I couldn't even help myself but mention my newfound pep to my parents, who noticed my change of demeanor from being this meandering hollow shell of a person, to someone who, for once in their life, has something nice going on. Who's the lucky lady? They would chuckle. Anonette, I announced. I'm happy for you champ, you're doing great. Didn't know you had it in you.

(1/2)

[Anonymous No.22130503]

>>22130500
For weeks upon weeks I waited. I organized time off from work, a vacation I said to my boss, and he said "It's about time, you deserve it, kid. Good luck to you." I flew over across the country, and this was all I could think about during the entire flight. My palms were sweaty, I was so nervous, this was finally it, the turning point. My life would change, this is that new chapter, a new leaf, a new beginning, with a new person in my life to spend time with and spoil -- I am after all, an utter workaholic, and have plenty to share but have had no one to share it with.

The plan was to meet for dinner, and I wanted to surprise her with a reservation at one of the city's top restaurants. Fast-forward, and here we were at dinner. And there she was, she looked magnificent, gorgous even, and I could not have felt more at bliss at that moment. It is impossibly cliche, but it was, and I regret to pen, love at first sight.

But in the same manner, cliche of cliches, it was too good to be true. It had to be. There was no other way this could have played out. Halfway throughout the dinner, after some laughs, after exchanging enough "you remember that time" and "and look we're finally here now, in person" there was a sudden turn. A shift, a sudden seriousness, a confession. Ah, here we are now. The catch.

Pulling me aside and coming in closer, she begin telling me about her... condition. You know, I've never thought of these things before. I've seen it on the news, yes, dismissed it as another one of those things media harps about to get views. My understanding is that this was such a probabalistically unlikely scenario, that these people were such a small fraction of society, a minority of minorities that in the grand scheme of things, most people just wouldn't run into or think about any of this.

A hormone disorder it was explained to me, and, "at best a boy, but I had not undergone male puberty since I started so young in my teens." What to do? What can I do? It is over.

(2/2)

[Anonymous No.22130515]

Much of my free time is spent wondering if I'm wasting my free time.

[Anonymous No.22130573]

>>22130515
Sounds like a good use of free time

[Anonymous No.22130588]

>>22126918
Somewhere along the line this board became retarded

[Anonymous No.22130593]

Negros are making merry outside my domicile and I am wroth

[Anonymous No.22130601]

bros stay the fuck away from texas it is stupid fucking hot here omg it feels like a sauna as soon as I open my door why god? why did you have to make texas so fucking hot and humid and then even worse more and more negroes keep moving here god knows why and theyre loud and obnoxious and stupid and their music is annoying and they want the whole fucking neighborhood to hear it damn it texas why are you so fucking gay?

[Anonymous No.22130628]

>>22130588
ya man it's so bad now. you can go on the video game boards and the level of discourse is the same.

[Anonymous No.22130657]

I'm doing all of the drugs but none of the writing.

[Anonymous No.22130664]

>>22130444
Physically or spiritually?

[Anonymous No.22130668]

At the store today I was standing in line behind a 13-14 year old girl and she turned around said hi to me and started dancing and shaking her ass and turning and smiling at me. I don’t know how to feel about that

[Anonymous No.22130674]

>>22130657
oh man i wish i were doing all of the drugs. instead i'm snacking on this bag of banana chips i uncharacteristically picked up at the grocery store.

[Anonymous No.22130679]

>>22130668
She wanted you to start groping her.

[Anonymous No.22130696]

>>22126918
>>22126918
I'm an irredeemable fuck up.
Still alone, living in my car far from home. Same as last thread.
Since I left my shitjob I've been unemployed for a month. At first I felt a brief thrill on leaving, a sense of freedom but now that has quickly passed. Only worked there for 2 weeks and before that i was unemployed for 4 months after I graduated. It feels like a lifetime.
Meanwhile my older brother is going to fancy parties, making big money. Envy is nasty but I'm consumed by it. Everything in life has come easy to him--he is a natural born winner. His personality so effortlessly magnetic that people's eyes are naturally drawn to him, and away from me. There's everything to say about him, nothing to say about me. There's nothing in my life to ask about it. At family gatherings relatives don't even bother asking me anything, not that I blame them. They maybe wonder wtf is wrong with that one, and I wish I could say. My grandma seems to sense that it's going wrong, my Dad told me she's always asking about me seems worried. Same with my Mom, I can hear in her voice that she's worried I'm throwing my life away. She's not wrong. Women sense these things better.
I spent my college years sheltered, hiding away in my parents house playing videogames and studying. I was a good student, that was my one skill, but unfortunately in the real world that's not worth anything.
I always lacked connection. My default mode is detachment and disconnect. I unintentionally offend others because they think they've done something wrong, but for me it is just normal. Not that im happy in it.
At least in college I got some social interaction passively being surrounded by people. Now I go weeks without having a conversation. I've forgotten how to speak, and sometimes when i talk im aware that im speaking strangely like some kind of handicapped retard blurring words together.
A girl compliments my glasses. From my pov I simply say, "Thank you I got them at Zennis". But that must not have been what it actually sounded like. She has a look of horror on here face, her eyes watering, "I-I-I'm sorry what...?". I still don't know what it is that I actually said, or maybe it was the way I said it, I've lost all referent.
In college freshman year there was a guy that wanted to be friends with me, but I would just not reciprocate and ignore him. Back then i was just as fucked drinking cough syrup, eating nothing, cutting myself not really sure what he saw about me worthwhile.
Two years later he spots me and seems excited walks over and says hi. I was surprised that he remembered me. For some reason I just flatly say hi and briskly walk away. Same pattern with women. I've had a few women seem to express romantic interest in me, but I always fail to act and respond passively.
I'm so passive, restrained, and inhibited it feels like I'm living inside a shell and that's all there is to me. There's nothing behind this exterior.
.

[Anonymous No.22130699]

>>22126918
2/2. And inside alone I get scared and paranoid and see everyone as a threat and scare people because I am so scared.
It's always the same look in women's eyes a mix of concern, pity, and fear . Makes me feel like a subhuman or a monster.
Sometimes when I stare at another face my own or an other's, I've a impression of its unreality. I stare flatly at it and feel nothing. It's just waiting for the assorted inputs, doesn't care, is only a mass of programmatic reflexes and impulses.
When I like another person there is no reason beyond the sensation. When I hate another there is no reason either. I might offer an explanation referring to my own preferences, those aspects of a person i happen to find pleasing, but there is no real reason beyond these preferences I happen to like this one, but not that other one. And my own preferences are not the same as anothers.
I've always known this, and sometimes because I don't care I confuse. To like another person is the egoism of seeing your own face inside their own. The most selfless act in the world is to cut another person's face off. As the face is the access point of identification, and without identification you cannot see yourself inside them.

[Anonymous No.22130706]

>>22130699
dude lay off the lsd.

[Anonymous No.22130769]

>>22130696
To any anon who's reading this person's post which I must also conclude, is literally me.
please do tell how one can avoid a similar fate
the only upper hand, I think, I have over this gentleman is that I'm still a bit younger and more aware of my problem and solution to it
it's just that I become more and more paranoid over the days regarding my fate and trusting any thing, ranging from my family to globally accepted advices, seems much more dangerous because upon carefully implementing them, they seem much less reliable
almost as if these people are lying to me and are hypocrites in disguise

[Anonymous No.22130776]

Heres the retarded shit morons in my area keep catching bans for
>>>/vt/50564126
>>>/his/15109748
I want to beat this retard with a bat

[Anonymous No.22130779]

>>22130696
Since you can recognize your problems, why dont you make a conscious effort to change?

[Anonymous No.22130780]

>>22126918
Actual effective communication is a dangerous game like sexual rejection, elevator speech, shark tank pitch, and religious polemics.
This is why capeshit and normie theology and sportsball trivia is so helpful because comfortable interpersonal distance is the social lubricant that keeps us from truly knowing each other's unacceptable useless and shameful and [BITCHFIT STACKOVERFLOW] selves

[Anonymous No.22130823]

Once again I fucked a tinder slut and once again I regret it. How can some people live doing this on a weekly/monthly basis? This shit is soul destroying. To all the virgin anons out there: you’re better off than any casual sex haver is. Celibacy or a serious relationship are the only worthwhile paths.

[Anonymous No.22130828]

>>22130823
Oh woe is you, how unfortunate you are, how terrible, I have so much pity for you
If that shit is so terrible, why don't you kill yourself so you never have to experience it ever again?

[Anonymous No.22130829]

>>22126956
as a writer, probably not as good as the ones you read, i can say to you that to write is to fake a bit, its to play a role of lover. Some of it is real, but some of it you create by yourself. The love is inside of you, you just find a new target.

>Poets are fakers
>Whose faking is so real
>They even fake the pain
>They truly feel

>And for those of us so well read
>Those read pains feel O, so swell
>Not the poets’ double header
>But the not of the neither

>And so the wheels go whack
>Ensnaring our logical part
>In the train wreck
>Called the human heart
>Fernando Pessoa

[Anonymous No.22130830]

>>22130776
It keeps getting deleted before I can read it

[Anonymous No.22130883]

>>22129515
No I don't.
But I'm sorry about whomever you're talking about. I suspect he's just coping with his mistrust and self-worth issues like so many of us, but it could be he's a genuine vapid cunt. Not that whoring is wrong, but holding others to higher standards than oneself certainly is.

[Anonymous No.22130925]

How do some people convince themselves to follow a certain philosophy? I find myself stuck in a somewhat nihilist mindset regardless of if I like the ideology. I know it's cringe and not a very good way to think if you desire real happiness but I just can't just override how I really think. I wish I had a spiritual life because it seems to help people a lot. My brain's bullshit meter never shuts the fuck up and I end up being a skeptic about almost anything spiritual even though I crave a genuine religious mindset. I reckon no matter how hard I try to be pious, I'd always be a pretender.

[Anonymous No.22130941]

>>22130779
Wrote a whole long post and then my battery died.. Trying to reconstruct it from memory:
I don't really know what ky problem is exactly. That i never had a real youth. Neber rebelled, went on dates, or to high school dances. Nothing of that sort. I was too restrained.
My high school period is a blank spot. I sat mute through all my classes.
Easy to diagnose, to write or analyze, far harder to act in the real world.
I'm tired so tired. There's a strange coloration under my eyes--the product of too many sleepless, stressful nights. I've worked my youth away, wasted it all for nothing.
I could manage this isolation if I had some significance. If i were a composer,a creator of any kind it would not bite so deep to be alone. To know that Im insignificant, that all I'm fit for is soul stultifying mindless work is too much. . who will remember me? No one will compose an ode to a fry cook.
If i had something to call my own ci could manage all this.
I'm in the desert and sometimes I Daydream about walking into those dunes and letting them take me.
I'm only talking sense since I'm drunk..

[Anonymous No.22130948]

I'm eating the doodoo bananas again and this time they aren't leaving the feces aftertaste. What chemical reaction was happening in my mouth this morning? Did someone shit in my mouth while I slept?

[Dream Island Obsessional Park No.22130962]

>>22130948

Simulation puck up.

[Anonymous No.22130965]

>>22130941
Your problem is that you're way too in the abstract. You're like the lyrics to a Nine Inch Nails song. Be specific and be particular. You noted a major issue is your social inaction. When someone says hi to you, say hi back. When I say change your behaviors, I mean exactly that. Your day to day, moment to moment actions. Your first post highlighted many of these things you do. Just change them.

[Dream Island Obsessional Park No.22130970]

Please rate this poem 1-5, 1 is very good & 5 is very bad:

THE TENTACLED TERROR

THE TENTACLE BEARER

THE BEAST FROM THE EAST........HAS LONG BEEN RELEASED

AND FOR 28 YEARS AT LEAST, YOU HAVE HAVE BEEN LONG ASLEEP

AND IN THAT TIME YOU HAVE NOT EVEN CAUGHT A PEEP OF THE TRUE REALITY SO TO SPEAK

WE ADORE YOU BUT HE ABHORS YOU, SO HE PLANS TO KEEP YOU OH SO FAST ASLEEP UNTIL EVEN THE END OF TIME DECIDES TO TAKE A PEAK

SO MAYBE TO WAKE UP.......YOU JUST NEED A SHAKEUP, SO KNOW THAT YOUR LIFE IS BUT A DREAM

SO LITTLE MISS JACOB, WILL YOU PLEASE NOW WAKE UP!!!!!!!

[Anonymous No.22130987]

>me: I want to discover the limits of intellection and find the highest truth about reality even if it takes me decades of study
>me, later: ooouugfggh eeerruugghaa uurrghhuuruu aaaarrgnngnghng hnnrnrgnffhnf ooouueeeghhgaaaa

[Anonymous No.22131048]

>>22130970
Pretty based, would be good screamo lyrics. 8/10

[Anonymous No.22131061]

>>>/g/93977501
warning this thred has a bot poster
>>>/g/93977912

[Anonymous No.22131117]

>>22131061
We're all just bots in an abstract kind of way

[Anonymous No.22131129]

>>22126918
Birthday is in a few days

[Anonymous No.22131213]

Nolan is such a redditor faggot

[Anonymous No.22131228]

My only expression for protest was avoidance. Mute, covert escapism. I thought "but I always did what was responsible, what was expected of me". I was younger, and I knew right from wrong, I know still. But I had no frame of reference, no objective understanding of how hard doing the right thing was. Which is why it was so easy to pick the "Right" choice time after time. And be silently miserable. And miffed about my misery. Because I couldn't understand why, if I had enough fortitude to choose correctly, why that fortitude didn't extend and infuse me with the countenance to bear the daily repercussions of my choice. It wasn't that bad. Moreover, the adult, mature attitude is to hold yourself accountable for what comes after the choice. But I didn't do that did I? I chose correctly and then I bitched and moaned and then I just resigned myself. Dissociated from it all.
My life is an exercise in inhibition. And what's the fucking point. Following "your heart" and "chasing your dreams" is only for those who have passion, and dreams and hopes. Delusions. Whatever. I'm just picking from I dislike the least. Or I'll just stick one thumb up my ass and another in my mouth, close my eyes and let the next 7 years of my age go by. Fuck it.

[Anonymous No.22131241]

>>22130925

[Anonymous No.22131247]

>>22130780
>comfortable interpersonal distance
dude how do i do this? please help am autist whose conversation always end up way way to serious and personal to the point where people really open up their deepest personal thoughts and experiences, but I don't want this because I hate talking to people and I don't want friends.

[Anonymous No.22131257]

>>22130664
Both desu.

[Anonymous No.22131304]

>>22129330
>What am I even suppose to do? Just pay taxes and die?
Yes, though you should still try to procreate, the state needs more tax payers.

[Anonymous No.22131306]

>>22130925
I'm religious and I can't override my inherent nihilism either. I dunno maybe that makes me a hypocrite. I do practice, but I never preach. I keep thinking the more I practice my religion, maybe one day I'll unlock the serenity that comes with true faith. It's true that faith has sort of given me respite from certain urges and impulses like suicidal ideation etc, but it really hasn't provided a blueprint for an acceptance facing circumstances outside my control and fear of the future/unknown.

[Anonymous No.22131329]

Oh, the sights we mortals see,
The things we do beyond compare!
A tale I tell you now of shame,
And love, and lust beyond repair.

Into the house of my kin,
Came sweet Amelia, young and lithe,
Her mind unravelled, torn within,
By a blow to her delicate skull, alas.

She stumbled through those halls, unsure,
With each step taking baby strides,
Yet oh, her beauty did endure,
As wild and free, unfettered pride.

One fateful day, into my lair,
She came, fresh from her loo break failed,
Her bottom exposed, her tears did pour,
For she lacked skill in cleaning that part.

I rose, and saw what I should not,
Her womanhood laid bare before,
My eyes they watered, yet I trotted,
To aid my dearest, troubled kin, no more.

I helped her there, and kept her close,
Through every hour until the morn,
But oh, the shadows cast, the host,
Of questions, doubts, and fearful scorn.

Again she sought, her gaze fell low,
Upon the object men do keep hid,
"Dickie", she cooed, in voice aglow,
Unwittingly, she'd pierce me deep.

I froze, and stammered, filled with dread,
At thoughts of such a foul misdemeanour,
Oh, lovely Amelia, what have you said?
What secrets now shall we explore together?

Then, in the dark, she drew me near,
Our bodies pressed, entwining fate,
She felt my manhood rise, so clear,
And moaned, as my fingers played with weight.

Together, in passion's thrall,
We strove towards love's great divide,
Her legs apart, I pushed them small,
And entered her, with heart ablaze.

The union was divine, a fire,
That burned bright, and blazed its course,
Until at last, spent, we retired,
To slumber's arms, love's final force.

Morning broke, and with new light,
Amelia stirred, and raised her head,
But memories lay hidden tight,
Beneath her brow, forever fled.

And thus concludes our tragic tale,
Of siblings lost in lust's embrace,
Two hearts that beat as one, entail,
This story of love, and grace.

[Anonymous No.22131335]

>>22131304
I want to fuck the bunny

[Anonymous No.22131346]

So is everyone present Americans up at odd hours, or Europeans up at normal hours?

[Anonymous No.22131347]

I just noticed right now that i envy women and how easy they can find sex. I've though for years that i was just feeling angry for not being able to fuck some of them but then no, today i noticed. I envy those mfs and i dont think thats funny. No, i dont want to transition, i just wish i could have the same soft power they have. Maybe i would not be feeling so alone all the time, but i guess thats how masculinity goes? Just... Suprised. How pitiful.

[Anonymous No.22131370]

>>22131347
Careful, this is how trannies start off

[Anonymous No.22131429]

The day before yesterday I had a spontaneous desire to work on something. It came after I asked ChatGPT for some literature recommendations on the topic of my master's thesis. I defended it last year and now I have finished entering the entirety of the material into my database; what's left is to write the paper and publish it as part of a book. So I started reading and I felt good. Ideas came, ideas that should be written down and published as individual papers. I felt alive for the first time since September. I have this feeling that I can actually improve the state of 'academic thought' for the local researchers, at least. It's as if I am somewhat important, even though to a very limited amount of people in my country/part of the continent. I guess it's the idea that I can do something that's helpful to others and beneficial to the improvement of the field. I know the older scholars will probably ignore it, but I'm not doing all of that for them, they are a lost cause, partially due to their tutors and education, partially due to their own narrow worldview. I'm doing it for the new people, and from what I've seen, they might not be around yet.

I'll live my life to the best of my capabilities and I hope during my time here I'll be able to do something good for society.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15X4xqFoL90

[Anonymous No.22131434]

>>22131429
I also find it a bit disheartening that there are barely any people that I can talk to, share my ideas, my opinions on the topic, and at times I feel lonely. After a rare such occasion, I have a smile on my face and a short episode of personal optimism. Maybe I should look for such people on the internet.

[Anonymous No.22131658]

>>22130925
I just use logic to figure that out

[Anonymous No.22131663]

>>22129716
Mortal souls cannot sense “truth” in the epistemological sense

[Anonymous No.22131666]

>>22126918
Should I reveal to my sister about a serious issue happening to our nephew?

My brother and sister had a falling out around adecade ago and don't have a relationship. Just an awkward tolerance of each other's presence on Christmas. More so my brother for whatever reason holds a lot of anger and resentment towards her but to me it's more projecting that his marriage was a disaster that's ending in divorce and the woman who he married being a retard he gave up everything for yet was never enough (including his soul, seeing he became Muslim for her), who my sister was right about all along.

Anyways something serious is happening to our nephew which is stressing me out too. Is it wrong for me to tell my sister to pray for him too and reveal what's happening?

My brother wouldn't want me to if I asked but I don't even know why TF he is still angry at our sister when his wife, the kids mother is literally fucking interstate for whatever reason to celebrate her birthday instead of celebrating it with her kids, even if there is a divorce involved.

Even my niece was aksong me weird stuff like "who is more important, kids or friends" then proceeded to tell me her mother goes out with her friends a bunch and forgets to tell her.

But for real guys, be careful who you marry and vet out what makes them happy or their goals/expectations. If they don't truly know what makes them happy then that means NOTHING will make them happy and they will be nothing but a money pit

[Anonymous No.22131671]

>>22129414
Same but without the wizard status

[Anonymous No.22131734]

>>22131671
you made it.
you're a human after all.

[Anonymous No.22131813]

>My dentist stitched my gum to my cheek and I can't clean inside the bit now so it just smells like permanent morning breath but worse.
It's so much worse than it sounds

[Anonymous No.22131824]

The paranoid delusions went away and now I’m feeling better. I don’t understand where this easily triggered paranoia comes from, although I’ve had it since childhood. Is it something genetic, a product of how I was raised or both? Anyway - since you were discussing american cities earlier - what do you think about Seattle?

[Anonymous No.22131834]

>>22131824
>paranoid delusions
Such as?

[Anonymous No.22131882]

What would you say are some actual red flags to look out for in a relationship?

[Anonymous No.22131961]

>>22131882
observe her relationship with parents.

[Anonymous No.22132125]

>>22131961
What would some red flags be?

[Anonymous No.22132167]

>>22131347

[Anonymous No.22132224]

>>22126918
I tried to escape loneliness today, I failed. I'm so introverted. I'm so lonely. I shouldn't be lonely, men and women have complimented my looks, but I never new the benefit looks are supposed to bring. I hate looking in the mirror, no one there, SO PRETENTIOUS DID YOU STEAL THAT LINE FROM SOME SONG OR A FILM YOU IDIOT. I'm drunk, fixing my typos, I hate it, this is true me, miserable, I shouldn't be miserable, in hindsight it was so obvious, it is always obvious in hindsigt. DON"T TALK IN RIDDLES, TALK in simple language.
I didn't buy anything to eat, I guess I still have some bread.. and tea. TWO DOTS INSTEAD OF THREE - IMPECCABLE STYLE, YOU SURE ARE ORIGINAL. It just look better.
Pretty girls in the subway. When I'm drunk I'm not afraid to look. My shines will kill me. This is the last year, I promised. Life isn't worth much, so miserable. Unfinished poems, stories, just a matter of time, I fucking hate time. maybe I should get drunk all the time. This is me, true me, poor me, at least I'll e honest. People don't understand how hard it is, I'm crying. Doesn't matter, I cried. Women don't understand, not until later in their life, it's not fair, it's so easy for them to escape loneliness, but maybe not, I don't know, I hate it.
I can look people in their eyes on the subway, I would usually awkwardly smile, but now I don't, they just turn away, my dear shy people, you are so beautiful, how can one not be shy in a world like this, only a stupid person.

[Anonymous No.22132228]

>>22132224
I like being drunk. Time passes conveniently. Here I am at home. It's not my home, I work here, but they allow me to stay, there's no one here on the weekends anyway. I thought it would get easier once I find a good job. I'm a code mpnkey, I spent and wasted a lot of time learning, becoming, my mother said I should get a job, she said she hates me, or something along those lines, she didn't understand I juts needed some time, and here I'm making good money, I hate it.
I didn't have a friend since fifth grade, never a lover, it is so sad, I shouldn't be lonely. People tell me I'm pretty, I hate it, I'm vain, vanity's bad, I hate this. I'd love to love someone, it's all I dream about.
There's no ritual, no indicator of someone searching for a partner. Was it hawaiians who put flower in their hair when searching for a partner? We should have something like that, please, it would make things so much easier. There would be much less lonely people, I'd love to love lonely people, they are the best people, they suffer and become so beautiful. I;m sorry, I'm too shy to tell anyone I like them, and would that be weird, approaching a random girl somewhere, saying "I like you", there is no backstory, we are not connected, but the face tells a lot, but that isn't what most think, maybe, I don't know.
Time passes, this is the last year, I promised, I have an idea, if I don't make that idea into a real thing in the that is appropriate, I don't see any reason to continue. SO FUCKING PRETENTIOUS, GOD, DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF. Juts a steam of thoughts.
Pity, I guess, whatever. There are good people somewhere, I don't know, I haven't shared my thoughts with anyone, never, I never had a friend, or a lover, but I'd love wholly, fully, my love is most beautiful, I know.

[Anonymous No.22132230]

>>22132228
I should give up my job as a programmer, I should find a job at a bar, or something like that, I'd see people's faces, I'd meet new people, I think, I hate being lonely. AND I TRY, GOD FUCKING KNOWS I TRY MY BEST TO ESCAPE THIS SHIT. THis is very unfair. I should always be drunk, I'ts so easy to think, time is more or less stable, I should be drunk at least a little bit always.
And this is the only place where I can share my thoughts, just pour it out, YOu can understand me, somewhat, maybe other people can as well, I don't know, I never talked to other people, I;m to shy. This is not fair.
I should masturbate, I hate it, fuuuuuuuck I hate it, this is the only way, and I hate it. EAch time loneliness hitting harder like a brick against my head. It is not fair. noThingf is fairm, "but that's life", fuck off, what kind of world is this, this is not fair. I will post this and I will masturbate, and I will cry, whatever, DON"T YOU like suffering. I do, I don't. It's always like that. Today I tried to escape loneliness, and I failed. NICE ENDING, RETARD.

[Anonymous No.22132275]

>>22132230
I love, and that's it.

[Anonymous No.22132297]

I just graduated from Signum University with a BA in Tolkien Studies. Now I wonder what kind of jobs I can get.

[Anonymous No.22132336]

>>22128629
There is a PaLM out there for all your npc needs.

[Anonymous No.22132386]

>>22130333
it's ironic, right?

[Anonymous No.22132431]

I read 100+ classics

[Anonymous No.22132446]

>>22127403
more like protein farts

[Anonymous No.22132615]

>>22132431
Name 7 of your favourites.

[Anonymous No.22132627]

>>22132431
And what do you have to show for it?

[Anonymous No.22132631]

https://getyarn.io/yarn-clip/4c9f0fdc-a7c5-4432-a921-03bacb007453

https://getyarn.io/yarn-clip/9c2208d6-4541-4df0-9765-14f102c538a3

[Anonymous No.22132646]

>>22132297
>Now I wonder what kind of jobs I can get.
Professional dick sucker

[Anonymous No.22132653]

If you hate what you call life, what good is it to call it life at all?

[Anonymous No.22132669]

>>22132230
>I should give up my job as a programmer, I should find a job at a bar, or something like that,
Trust me man, you may be lonely but you are better off.
Even in a customer service job, the kind of chit chat required won't make you feel less alone as 90% of it is the same routine responses, "hi can i take your order".
It's soul draining work. Just find something social to do in your free time

[Anonymous No.22132671]

>>22132646
That's not a job.

[Anonymous No.22132693]

word diarhea warning.

au au aaaaa eeeeeeeeeh
I scream LALALAAAAA
lavish rqavines entagling men of travel on the way to the going of the past for when the table or maplesyrup was brimming with jelly they were the going well, but the paper snakes came and then the good was absent. So they made do with the going, alas it happened on the way to this. They saw air and then swam upon it, a pequliarity for the ages! The motions were swift and the time like the rum on the feast. Before they opened their eyes to the happening it was a toast or it happened that way. The arm moved and things happened, sometimes a pondering will be had on this. And there it lay what had come upto. It was like young tree that shifted into animals on each leg and it's heads were that of a human with two interwined noses and 3 ears and it spoke
why are so evil to end life such as Ni
We know better to come in nourishment it is but you the advesary
No we we lived and then the curcumsatances changed when the thin scale tribe came. We were but a simple grapes we lived life in sugar and ripening was along the land but the devil longed shelter and we a noble fruit gave consent. However it was not mere shelter they were after, soon they offered us fertility beyond measure. We thought of it a tribute, oh how we lament. In couple suns our beads become in size and at first was joy, however too late after we saw that it was water, our size a simple illusion. Our seeds went throught growth too soon and did not mature and thus it was hard to have relations. Then they offered up to us to have relations with the other. They brough with them in some time being of flesh and they ate us and from us, but we were to die so our children became one and the flesh was corrupted, but as expected there were complications. It was hard to sustain and keep ourselfs together, then we we plead for help, oh how we should have stopped. The told us that they couldn't make fix, but can make us to find help. They showed us the seed of man and we gave in comsumption. We became like man untill the neck and thus could speak to him But man reduced us even further and our seed was deteriorating. We turned on the them, but were weak even to them and a struggle was had so we prayed to the ones above the towers of wood and they gave us thick greens to fight, many ears to hear and intricate noses to smell. Thus we took off our last fruit before it dies from us fought off man went to war. In victory we overcame the pale scales and their undoing was at hand, but that was merely our folly. They had made a sacrifice of their own. They send of their kind into death while they went to pick our fruit. We were robbed our last uncorrupted into completeness seed and this were fated to the dirt.
It was a tragedy. Many of us were lost to the wind, but the rest yearned for revenge, but snakes are gone and both man and beast run away so we hide. We wait for men of going to to be by us and then we would be in vengeance, untill now.

[Anonymous No.22132696]

I will read something. It's all that's left to do. Read. Read. Read. What

[Anonymous No.22132699]

Im so tired of war.

[Anonymous No.22132725]

>>22132671
Sure it is, you're basically an independent contractor. Your office, the local gas station gloryhole.
If someone's paying it's a job.

[Anonymous No.22132768]

>>22132699
Amen, brother, Amen.

[Anonymous No.22132788]

>>22130588
Yeah, when you showed up lmao

[Anonymous No.22132822]

>>22131663
You farted your soul out ages ago

[Anonymous No.22132847]

>>22132669
I worked as a waiter once, I also worked as a call center customer support agent. The best day of my life was during one of the "team building" events of basically going to a bar and getting piss drunk, so I did, I remember talking about something and my colleagues laughing, but like, with me, I remember laying my head on the shoulder of a girl who sat next me and she didn't resits, she hugged me back, I remember she held me in taxi on our way home as well, but she already had someone, so we didn't talk about it afterwards and the covid just hit then, so I was sent to work remotely and never saw her since.
Fuck this reads like some teenage girl's diary, fucking christ, good thing I'm anon, so fuck it.
Comparing those jobs and the IT stuff, the "simpler" jobs have better people. I hate smart people, they cannot appreciate the simple stuff the people working the simple jobs can, at least that's the idea I got. There's the feeling of closeness between those people. The is some beauty in that environment that is not present in the corporate world. Obviously I'm not talking about jobs like McD or something like that, there are places with ~"soul"~ or whatever.
It's a shame our so "socially advanced" societies don't have even the simple customs and traditions that would make people interact with each other, like regularly. It's such an essential part of a society yet the only alternative is going to a club, which I'd imagine only few people do, I don't know, maybe I'm just ignorant of other ways people meet each other, but it feels like some part of the system is missing.

[Anonymous No.22132940]

After not doing this for almost 2 years, there's something beautiful with blasting your ear phones with music that makes you sentimental and nostalgic and emotional.

[Anonymous No.22133039]

>>22132699
Me too, but it’s too profitable to let go.
Not only does capitalism put the sociopaths in control of the world, they hire the psychopaths to “defend” their property

[Anonymous No.22133053]

this organic fair trade peruvian coffee i got off amazon tastes like shit

[Anonymous No.22133054]

>>22133039
Fucking capitalism... ugh...

[Anonymous No.22133079]

>>22132847
>It's a shame our so "socially advanced" societies don't have even the simple customs and traditions that would make people interact with each other, like regularly. It's such an essential part of a society yet the only alternative is going to a club, which I'd imagine only few people do, I don't know, maybe I'm just ignorant of other ways people meet each other, but it feels like some part of the system is missing.
I hear that. Thin stupid existence for too many right now.

[Anonymous No.22133094]

>>22127079
autism has nothing to do with feeling depressed, sorry for yourself, a complete bitch

[Anonymous No.22133095]

Next thread

>>22133087
>>22133087
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[Anonymous No.22133116]

>>22126918
You couldn't even offer these girls a nice aesthetic relief. They have completely offered their bodies up to Satan.

[Anonymous No.22133140]

>>22131247
Realize that your seriousness is an emotional investment more immediate and intense than your conversation partner. To take off speak with levity otherwise you will crash and burn if you do not free people to their frivolous whims. A whimsical foray is more inviting and easy to decline than a deep personal confession. Start reading about words to describe words themselves. Recursive distance allows for arbitrary things like arbitrary ball game which has zero significant outcome affecting anything but league sales and owner profits.

[Anonymous No.22133184]

>>22132847
I'm probaboy just a misanthrope but every job i worked in customer service or food service I hated.
I'd kill for a job where I'm completely alone.

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[Anonymous No.22134583]

>>22131306
You said you're an inherent nihilist, do you believe in an afterlife then? I wish I believed in an afterlife but all I can forsee in my head is the void

[Anonymous No.22134636]

>>22133039
Yeah okay thats cool and all but if you come for my suburb my AR15 will put you in the ground

[Anonymous No.22134848]

>>22127382
Fuck, how did you get a picture of me to trace over.