Has this ever happened to you?

[Anonymous No.22120325]

In short I think I damaged my brain by reading philosophy, I mean physically and neurologically damaged, not that the ideas were just bad.
I read a book on Kierkegaard and as a result I began having waking sleep paralyses, pretty extreme depersonalization, time jumps, loss of coordination, a stutter, and a very trippy sense that my thoughts were literally 3D objects, like I had a kinesthetic sense of my thoughts.
I'll explain more. I don't think it was necessarily the contents of the book so much as it was how I read it and engaged with it. The preface of the book said Kierkegaard must be taken very personally and not as an intellectual exercise, so I did that. It began by laying out all these thought patterns and motives that people have, different archetypes type thing. I won't go into detail but it essentially progresses by dismantling each mindset and motives as logically fallacious, they don't actually lead to what they claim to lead to.
And I was really relating to them, I recognized them in me, and as he progressively dismantled them I began to get the very physical sense of my brain changing shape. It was like a cloth in my head that was all bundled up to make a certain shape if viewed from a certain angle, but as he, in the text, dismantled the ideas their 3D representation in the cloth thing would kind of unfold and twist and fold in new ways.
I read the whole book in one sitting and by the end was in psychosis. My kinesthetic sense was all wrong, I felt disproportionate, my tongue and hands felt huge, I was even stumbling bit. But the scariest thing was the waking sleep paralyses. I've had normal sleep paralyses before and it felt exactly the same. I was freaking out from all the aforementioned problems so I had went to grab a comfort book to take my mind off things but as I bent down to pick it up, as I was crouching I just froze and my breathing was shallower and it took considerable effort to get my muscles to obey me.
My stutter lasted only a day or two but that was another for sure sign that something happened. Really I'm not exaggerating it sent me into some kind of psychosis.
Has this ever happened to you, have you heard of something like this, should I get a brain scan?

[Anonymous No.22120332]

>>22120325
>Has this ever happened to you, have you heard of something like this,
I mean, weird stuff has happened to me and I’ve heard of stuff like this.
>should I get a brain scan?
No, you should probably get outside for a little while, over and over. And then when you’re in a slightly better place take some LSD/shrooms and push this thing out far enough that you can get a proper handle on it. Not too far though. Just far enough.

[Anonymous No.22120677]

>>22120332
>probably get outside for a little while, over and over.
That's what I did, the whole thing was a while ago, and yeah all the weird stuff went away. You say I should try psychedelics to sort this kind of stuff out, which is funny because the whole experience really affirmed for me that I should never touch those drugs since I might be more prone to it just messing me up. Appreciate the response though.

[Anonymous No.22120686]

>>22120677
What book was it?

[Anonymous No.22120698]

>>22120686
This exact one.

[Anonymous No.22120718]

>>22120698
What lines made you break?

[Anonymous No.22120722]

>>22120698
>>22120718
>It began by laying out all these thought patterns and motives that people have, different archetypes type thing. I won't go into detail but it essentially progresses by dismantling each mindset and motives as logically fallacious, they don't actually lead to what they claim to lead to.

[Anonymous No.22120741]

>>22120698
It seems to be all cope. The author is angry that people use their natural gifts.