/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.21900064]

>be writer
>work on stories
>make $1k/month off an online cult series
>take psych meds for a mental illness
>no longer in mental pain
>feel like a different person
>no longer have desire to write stories
>can't relate to the characters
>realize my creativity and intensity was fuelled by pain
>desire to do normie shit like play sports and go to bars
>continue writing because nothing else to do
>feels like i am working on someone else's ideas and passions

Holy fuck. So mental illness was fuelling my creativity this whole time. I am out of juice or motivation to continue my series. Fuck. What would you do? Should I embrace being a non-lit normie?

[Anonymous No.21900103]

>>21900064
It's time to reflect on your experiences with this new perspective. Make the ideas yours again, I think you can own them.

[Anonymous No.21900114]

>>21900064
best berserk chapter

[Anonymous No.21900116]

>>21900064
Being deranged is a requirement to make good art, yes.

[Anonymous No.21900151]

>>21900116
seems like it lol

[Anonymous No.21900158]

>>21900064
>psych meds
Anon, don't let them suppress your soul and turn you into an NPC. Mental anguish is the price we pay for being human. It's not too late.

[Anonymous No.21900187]

>>21900064
Your writing was your meds before the meds

[Anonymous No.21900200]

>>21900064
If you were making 1k a month off writing, you're already more successful than 99.9% of the writers on /lit/

[Anonymous No.21900216]

>>21900064
That's interesting, because DFW said that antidepressants helped his creativity. You kinda reversed that

[Anonymous No.21900224]

It’s in your head. Besides, you don’t have to write if you’re not called to do it at that time. It’s okay to put it aside for now and come back to later if you feel like you want to again. You’ve already had some success while young. That’s like a better writer story than most writers will ever have. You’re a real Herman Melville already.

[Anonymous No.21900245]

>>21900187
Yes, and it was beautiful.

>>21900216
It's not antidepressants. My mental illness was for something more severe. Not schizophrenia but something with as bad of a rep.

[Anonymous No.21900458]

>>21900200
It helps that the stories come with drawings

[Anonymous No.21900505]

>>21900245
bipolar?

[Anonymous No.21900539]

>>21900064
>desire to do normie shit like play sports and go to bars
>continue writing because nothing else to do
You were this close

[Anonymous No.21900554]

>>21900064
Just the fact that you're older than 16, and still reads manga and watches anime tells me you were never bright to begin with, so of course The Main Thing that you did, you didnt even love, or know why you did. You're never lit, just move on, and try to think about the things you do, dumb-dumb.

[Anonymous No.21900656]

>>21900539
kek

[Anonymous No.21900709]

>>21900554
Not OP but you're a literal npc who needs to impose fake rules on himself to live up to some pseud image of yourself you've created. There's a 100% chance I'm better read than you, and every now and then I flip through a manga because I feel like it. When you're based you can do whatever the fuck you want to do.

[Anonymous No.21901336]

>>21900505
No. I was never manic

[Anonymous No.21901831]

>>21900554
Fuck off. There's nothing wrong with enjoying some light entertainment every now and then. The man who reads Spice and Wolf in-between classic novels is probably doing a lot better than the guy who autistically thinks he can only read the best literature ever written. Nobody thinks you're cool for being like this

[Anonymous No.21901851]

>>21900064
ARE YOU ON DISABILITY BENEFITS TOO? THAT'S RAKING IN A GOOD CHUNK OF CHANGE IF SO.

[Anonymous No.21901936]

>>21900200
No shit, I don't know the statistics but I'd be willing to be that that's far and away in the upper echelon percentiles of writing incomes in general.

[Anonymous No.21901945]

>>21901936
Most published novels barely sell any copies, so yeah OP is doing pretty well for himself with his writing

[Anonymous No.21901953]

>>21900064
I think it’s your time to become real and just experience the real world. Get off this site

[Anonymous No.21902170]

>>21900064
You took the blue pill. That's okay. You're free now. Go and live. Write when you can.

[Anonymous No.21902225]

you niggers actually believe OPs little story???

[Anonymous No.21902537]

>>21902225
>Nigger
Ah so cool fuck yeah man

[Anonymous No.21902836]

>>21902537
pal, on this website 'nigger,' when not directly describing a person of African heritage, is a term of suspicious endearment just the same as "faggot" or "retard." I was only stating that i thought it was odd that the newfag anons above me actually bought the LARP that was being sold. Please, you have to go back

[Anonymous No.21902842]

>>21900064
Sounds like a you problem. I take my psych meds and they don't influence my creativity at all

[Anonymous No.21902844]

>>21900064
>>take psych meds for a mental illness
>>no longer in mental pain
>>feel like a different person
>>no longer have desire to write stories
lol same. It's either cry myself to sleep, or don't write. sometimes It's harder to choose than it really should be.

[Anonymous No.21902846]

>>21902836
>>21902225
You would literally get banned if anyone bothered to report you

[Anonymous No.21902896]

>>21902846
so what if he would? the dumb rules are not the real culture of the site. this place preserves the 2000s cultural practice of using slurs as terms of endearment and it's good that it does. newfag

[Anonymous No.21902900]

>>21902846
>you would literally get banned if anyone bothered to report you

[Anonymous No.21902917]

>>21900064
You've posted this shit on /ic/ before as well. Is this some shitty glowie psyop to get people to internalize their psychosis so yall have easier targets to groom as schoolshooters or some shit?

[Anonymous No.21902941]

>>21902917
a psyop is when a person posts twice

[Anonymous No.21902954]

>>21902941
Posting the same shit on every board means you're either retarded attentionwhore or getting paid to do it.

[Anonymous No.21902980]

>>21902844
>>21900064
Similar experience here, when you are on the meds you just work, do boring repetitive shit, don't have any higher aspirations in life other then just doing what ever the fuck you are doing over and over again.

The only thing that gave me the level of emotional stability while allowing me to pursue my creative desires were hallucinogens, mainly shrooms.

Embrace the shaman life bros, and remember the gnomes are real.

[Anonymous No.21902989]

What's everyones favourite short story from the collection of Chekhov's writings entitled 'about love and other stories' My one is 'the huntsman' because the misery of the circumstance presented is beautifullly contrasted and enriched by the monotonous grammatical and vocabulary styles adopted.

[Anonymous No.21903008]

Sounds like a plot for your next book. You just have to make it interesting by falling into some hedonistic vortex to spark that flame again.

[Anonymous No.21903053]

>>21901945
Pain fuels good art

[Anonymous No.21903058]

What's your webcomic called?

[Anonymous No.21903112]

>>21902980
>Similar experience here, when you are on the meds you just work, do boring repetitive shit, don't have any higher aspirations in life other then just doing what ever the fuck you are doing over and over again.

Off the meds, I quietly despised the idea of becoming like people who do this. Now that I am on meds, I kinda see myself doing the same shit. I am so comfortable right now but there's an unsettled feeling deep inside.

I tried shrooms too, they didn't help much with my mental illness.

[Anonymous No.21903122]

>>21903112
How much did you take?

And yea i feel you on that, you feel like another crazy person refusing a "cure" because you don't like it. You feel entitled and understandably so, my justification to it all is that the spirit demands more attention then the mind.

I remember being on the meds and i'd get home from work then spend 6-7 hours walking around in Dalaran.

How old are you?

[Anonymous No.21903146]

>>21900064
If you have nothing to “say” through art then you should stop trying to force it out. This is the time when you should be learning rather than creating. Forced art is shit. Wait until you have something to say again, which will happen after a period of learning.

[Anonymous No.21903212]

>>21901831
>>21900709

Just the fact that you think i feel like "I'm the coolest of them all" prove to me that your brains is already melted by watching these horrible stories, with underlying pedophiles, harem-situations, and child-like-miths etc.
disgusting.

>When you're based you can do whatever the fuck you want to do.

You talk like a 15yr and that anime reaction just proves my point: You don't even realize how much you act like a child, and yes anime and manga reading magnify this behavior.

> Fuck off. There's nothing wrong with enjoying some light entertainment every now and then.

Sure dumb-dumb, enjoy your little girls screaming and acting like a 5 year olds. That's not light, it's affecting your brain, and changing your worldview by exposure.

[Anonymous No.21903239]

>>21903212
Except I actually am the coolest of them all.

[Anonymous No.21903309]

>>21903239
Idk, anon. I kind of agree with >>21903212 The media you consume might not overtly affect your writing or worldview in the short run, but it will over time. And while there may be a handful of anime/manga series which I would consider ‘high art’ and therefore permissible, the larger bulk of these stories are degenerate, impotent fantasies when you boil them down into their finer elements. Anything which you consume will eventually change you, no matter how strong willed or set in your ways as you might seem. It would be better to read genre fiction for entertainment or at least something which is not so thoroughly embedded in pederasty, feminine male protagonists, false ideations, unrealistic character interactions, and poorly executed power fantasies. It’s not a question of ‘being an adult’ but of not entertaining impotent ideas and lifestyle habits. At least, that’s what I think.

[Anonymous No.21903344]

>>21903309
I disagree. Entertaining retarded shit is the mark of genius, the man who sees life as ultimately Play. Ascribing to the hollow, fearful realism of "realistic character intentions" is the real life-denying degeneracy and leads to groundless moralfaggotry. The Iliad is immortal because it's anime.

[Anonymous No.21903348]

>>21903239
I read C.S Lewis and he would despise Anime culture, anime fans, and stories where girls who look 12 act like 5 and are extremely sexualized.
And yes, not taking responsability for what you consume and what you're exposed to is a child-like behavior.
Just look at the current japanese culture and you will see a mirror of your own fate: Guys with low self-steem, low fertility and birth rate, living in 2sqm concrete cages, depressed, and not even knowing why they are so fucked. Why? Anime culture doomed japanese culture as a whole. In every shonen the main characters are mostly infantilized if not a literal 12yo with superpowers, who don't know shit about life and are surrounded by pedophile enducing drama.
I never met a guy who watches anime who isn't a complete loser who acts like a kid, have no responsability for his own life, and have some type of addictive behavior.

[Anonymous No.21903365]

>>21903348
>anime culture is why the Japanese are how they are
That's a huge leap there. "Japanese culture as a whole" isn't influenced enough by anime to be doomed by it, and everything that made it doomed was already in place before Astroboy came out.

[Anonymous No.21903602]

>>21903008
The meds do make me want to do some hedonistic stuff ngl

>>21903058
Not mentioning it lol I don't want my fans to know I am on drugs or medical history

>>21903122
I took like 3g of albino penis envies, it was a rollercoaster. Then I microdosed for 4 months.

[Anonymous No.21903664]

>>21903008
I don't write stories just to write stories. I don't just sit there and go "hmmmm what should I write about".

I don't come up with the stories, the stories come to me like a demon that possesses me and force me to birth it into this world

[Anonymous No.21903783]

>>21901945
>>21901936

Yeah if he was really making 1k/month off books that a massive success story!

[Anonymous No.21904153]

>>21903783
It's a webcomic so its a bit easier

[Anonymous No.21904165]

>>21904153
Making $100 a month off books without standing in front of a liquor store holding a "feed an artist, buy a book" sign is a dream come true!

You must have a decent social media following too.

[Anonymous No.21904408]

>>21903602
>Not mentioning it lol I don't want my fans to know I am on drugs or medical history
I'm no grass. I just want to see what a peculiar mind can produce, and from what you've mentioned so far--about the following and monetization--it doesn't seem too bad.

[Anonymous No.21904654]

>>21904408
its about men struggling

[Anonymous No.21904683]

>>21904654
Are you from Australia?

[Anonymous No.21905014]

>>21904683
No

[Anonymous No.21905586]

>>21904165
Not really but the followers I do have are pretty loyal

[Anonymous No.21905807]

>>21900116
>deranged
>still suck at art
shit sucks

[Anonymous No.21906377]

>>21903348
kek you're spouting shit, completely confusing the symptom with the cause and miss the mark entirely
Imagine unironically hating anime enough to blame it for japanese social degradation, get a grip you retard, you're acting as immature as you perceive anime watchers to be

[Anonymous No.21906555]

>>21903348
I've never met a psued happy with his life

[Anonymous No.21907032]

>>21900458
Anons can just AI generate those for stories now, no?

[Anonymous No.21907815]

>>21905807
just because you're crazy doesnt mean you dont suck at writing

[Anonymous No.21908129]

>>21900064
How many boards did you post this thread on?

[Anonymous No.21908132]

>>21900064
It's not uncommon for creative individuals to find that their creativity is fueled by their emotions, including mental illness. However, it's important to remember that mental illness is not a necessary prerequisite for creativity, and it's possible to find inspiration and motivation in other aspects of life.

If you're feeling like you're out of juice or motivation to continue your series, it might be helpful to take a step back and reflect on your current feelings and desires. It's okay to change and evolve as a person, and if you're no longer feeling connected to your writing or characters, it might be a sign that it's time to explore new interests and experiences.

Consider taking a break from your writing and try engaging in other activities that interest you. You mentioned a desire to do "normie" things like playing sports and going to bars. Embracing new experiences can open up new perspectives and inspiration for your writing or even lead you to discover new passions.

It's also important to prioritize your mental health and well-being. If you're no longer in mental pain due to taking psych meds, that's a positive development. You can focus on taking care of yourself and finding fulfillment in different aspects of your life.

Remember, creativity can come from many sources, and it's okay to explore different avenues and interests. You can always come back to writing when you feel inspired and motivated again, and your experiences and perspectives as a "non-lit normie" may bring a fresh and unique perspective to your writing in the future. It's important to be true to yourself and follow your own path, whatever that may be.

[Anonymous No.21908362]

>>21908129
10

[Anonymous No.21908563]

>>21905014
Huh. Thought you were this guy http://www.lukeatsea.com/
Your descriptions fit, but he's an aussie.

[Anonymous No.21908586]

>>21908563
getting some pretty heavy transmasculine vibes from this guy

[Anonymous No.21908631]

>>21902537
>Ah so cool fuck yeah man

[Anonymous No.21908862]

>>21908132
>If you're no longer in mental pain due to taking psych meds, that's a positive development.

Yeah but now I don't know who I am without the pain. Even my religious and philosophical worldview seems to be changing.

[Anonymous No.21909813]

bump

[Anonymous No.21909839]

>>21902846
do it, you coward.

[Anonymous No.21910411]

>>21900064
>>realize my creativity and intensity was fuelled by pain
No, the drugs just killed your creativity and intensity

[Anonymous No.21910438]

>>21900064
>be writer
>work on writing
>have never broken even on writing or most things that start with w
>begin regiment of health selfishness
>benefit and feel GOOD
>keep on writing
>actually writing more recently and doing non-normie stuff because I would rather be writing
>now writing and other habits that I do daily, sometimes biweekly and so forth are finally making me feel accomplished
>my mother was a tailor, sew'd my new blue jeans
>my father was a gambling man, down in new orleans
>now the only thing a gambler needs is a suitcase and a truck
>and the only time when he is satisfied is when he's on a drug

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so let me introduce to you
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[Anonymous No.21911184]

>>21910438
schizo

[Anonymous No.21911201]

>>21902846
I'm starting to think you deserved your mental illness anon.

[Anonymous No.21911204]

>>21900064
I know that feel, OP. Try medsless for a while to see if you get the spark back. If you do, finish your stories. Readers deserve closure.

[Anonymous No.21911591]

>>21911204
I am in physical pain if I get off the meds

[Anonymous No.21912596]

>>21906377
>>21906555

Anime fans loosers who can't accept the fact that their taste is garbage, anime is garbage and japanese entertainment culture is a cyberpunk-cancer of a culture. They call me a pseud but are afraid or (better) ashamed of discussing anime with their parents (if they even have any). My hole point is that anime affects your views of reality, molding your brain to be more feminine, pedophilistic and straight-up insecure. You tell me to get a grip? Get a grip of your own mental illness by consuming this kids-directed garbage that you call art, loser.

[Anonymous No.21913412]

Bump

[Anonymous No.21914212]

bump

[Anonymous No.21914861]

>>21910438
Based

[Anonymous No.21914924]

>>21900064
I've seen this thread like 3 different times. Must be a bot post.

[Anonymous No.21914984]

>>21903239
Lewis would hate the manchild culture of today. It's cool to find something funny as long as you don't indulge yourself (see his exerpt on how humor can mask just being mean to someone in a bar if it's played lightheartedly). Model warfare, trains, planes, drawing, etc are peak hobby full of a child's soul and rejuvebate oneself through self expression and imagination (not fantasizing). Manga, anine, ya genre fiction, movie franchises and the like are degenerative masturbatory escapism that lead to idle and toxic daydteaming. Manga itself is latent with lustful energies. You're meant to realise the bigger picture of and grow out of near the end of your teens but today's pop culture makes that harder. Why do you think anime fans hate dubs and prefer subs, not bevause of 'accuracy', but because it sounds just as cringe in the native Japanese and it is a dissonant cope to liking such samey consumerist garbage.
>OH BUT ANIMATION SMOOTH
Cool, keep staring at the bright and colorful lights, I'm sure they're nothing like the shadows on a cave wall. You can find whatever stories manga tries to tell in literature but more complete, in a higher concentration and usually in just one volume that isnct stretched out by the publisher's. Therecs exception with some manga like any other medium but they usually still have toxic aspects and the format is better off being entirely avoided.
Real Japanese literature actually has some of the greatest works and it's a shame not more of those authors have the nobel prize in literature.

[Anonymous No.21915282]

>>21900116
I am slightly deranged, what can I do to turbocharge it and get my mind cranking?