Write What's On Your Mind

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21397975]

Jacques Cartier edition
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[Anonymous No.21397983]

Reminder that this is the equivalent of The Brothers Karamazov for women.

[Anonymous No.21397997]

>>21397957 #
> morality is arbitrary and changes all the time
Retarded fucking normalnigger. Duty and honor, defending the weak, toppling tyrants, waiting in chastity for your love to return; these have been themes in plays and literature since ancient times. You're a redditard and you should consider suicide

[Anonymous No.21398001]

>>21397997
>defending the weak
lmao

[Anonymous No.21398013]

>>21398001
Jewish mythology has jahweh directly intervene on behalf of the weak pussy jews constantly

[Anonymous No.21398019]

>>21397975
No nourishment/oxygen for soul for too long, way too long. Can feel it (when I feel it) becoming shriveled and limp. No room for soul to roam, and lounge and linger, to feel wind buffeting its [membrane? whiskers?], and to thereby get hearty and bold and perceptive once again. Yet work exertions, and all the minutia (you know the ones), feel overwhelming, and all-consuming, and I can do nothing but neglect the soul, because if I neglect work I get angry emails, and if I neglect the minutia the body starts complaining, but if I neglect the soul it soon falls silent and I don't need to think about it, until I get horribly and momentarily reminded of it, languishing there, in the dark. Though everyone has work and minutia, so where is the problem? I have booked 'time off', and it is fast-approaching, and hopefully it will give me some time to work out what exactly the problem is.

[Anonymous No.21398022]

>>21397973
Of course it's onions. A women did it. If a woman does something that isn't onions, that's when you should cringe

[Anonymous No.21398027]

>"God gave us this world"
>Destroys it
Is western religion a meme?

[Anonymous No.21398031]

you peeps have some issues

[Anonymous No.21398035]

>>21398027
Are you referring to the flood myth? He didn't destroy the world, he remade it.

[Anonymous No.21398036]

>>21398031
What are you referring to, exactly?

[Anonymous No.21398042]

>>21398036
every single post in this thread prior to mine

[Anonymous No.21398051]

>>21398031
You're on the wrong site then

[Anonymous No.21398055]

>>21398035
I'm referring to Christians belief that god gave them the world to do with what they please.
If they appreciated the Earth as the gift it is, we would not be abusing it.

[Anonymous No.21398058]

>>21398042
>>21398031

[Anonymous No.21398060]

>>21398042
You're insane

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21398109]

I said some really weird things when I had my major psychotic episode. I'd keep to myself now if it mattered to me. Which none of that stuff seems to present anymore. I guess I recognize, that's just a small part of something I became grotesquely. That grotesque artisan factor is just unacceptable behaviors of people who happen to have or temporarily acquire psychosis. As such, behavior could be interpreted with it's psyche, as a perceptual fixation, immersion, and sublimation in psychic unconscious with an aware conscience.

At once we shall swim. Then lay down to sleep merrily under the solar EMP to erase our history and mind wipe our grey, black, and white sentience between our head(s). There is no szygy except the free ruler in the person's domain of rectum abominibacactapus. I like squiqqly screaming on paper to fire my jets over the horizon, reminds me that I have little to say and offer the uncanny pure archbestial edificial platitude of victuals in return. May the best win the horses lottery. Injecting (injecting and yet); -and yet, really soft high and midas luck, without a louse into the home abyss of das pot. May, even, a knave beet privy red sores on the cadaver of Neptune and Jupiter. The Earth stands condemned of the obsolescent forage. It is also to bear in mind the duress and strain of such vessels as they stand in opposition thy anonymity. Amazing grace carved out of expansions maketh awaits thy portable phone, right this way

at least.
I think that's the story my dad told me when I was little. I doth sense the scabby puss diving and anchoring in this post. And so I also seeth the make shaft wraith of fortuitous amalgamisms and vainly death shrieks and plain ice shouts aye the hallucinatory familiar spirits and archetypes be our pledge. That's a mucal reproach to the deity of Triune eccentricity. Here it is, and fascicle it go. Upwards and onwards to the reproaching LEDs as they snappeneth underway this shoot. I have more accord to fasten on to this stronghold of hex illogium. Such as it may, I bid thee, farewell, in my scent covered grain as it raspeth outward upon the inward arbitress.

[Anonymous No.21398123]

Stripped of subtle complications, who could regard the sun except with fear?

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21398128]

>>21398109
i swear somebody's drugging me with nootropics. it wasn't me!

[Anonymous No.21398166]

I leak when I read. If anything even remotely emotional happens, I just drip tears. I gave up trying to stop it, and I just leak the whole time.

[Anonymous No.21398229]

>>21397975
Jacques Cartier is cancelled here in Canada. He kidnapped the indigenous leader Donnaconna.

[Anonymous No.21398233]

I'm going to invent a new genre of music

[Anonymous No.21398251]

>>21398128
Ok "allison"
Art is apocryphal treason, but its foundation should be absolute truth.
The sole grand process of the Divine Reality Perfecting Itself.

If you don't have soul, then each utterance will just sting in the heart of Light.
The pain which demands satisfaction through retribution... to regain what was lost, to make right once more.

All this unruly chaos serves as a prayer answered with one synchronous alignment through one man : Satan's Saviour, for there is no absolute salvation for the devil, but there is the contingent kind which appears miraculously against the odds.

[Anonymous No.21398259]

>>21397975
I made 300 dollars on the Trump NFTs. I’m gonna donate half to the dems and buy some nice scotch with the other.

[Anonymous No.21398275]

In order to function normally, a man has to achieve from the beginning a serious constriction of the world and of himself. We can say that the essence of normality is the refusal of reality. What we call normal enters precisely at this point: Some people have more trouble with their lies than others. But we can also see at once that there is no line between normal and neurotic, as we all lie and are all bound in some ways by lies.

[Anonymous No.21398318]

They aren't ready for when I go jester mode

[Anonymous No.21398336]

Sick of living/unwilling to die

cut.
clean.
if red /
clean.
blood spurting,
dripping,
spilling;
all over her new
dress
oh well
it was red
anyway.
life draining into an
uncertain death.
she won't
die.
this time
someone ll find her.
just wait till
next time.

rh

[Anonymous No.21398350]

Wise in measure should each man be, yet wise enough to be the fool

[Anonymous No.21398369]

Here's an unusual website focused on creativity. If you are mystically or esoterically minded you might enjoy this or find some insight here. Prewarning though, the site is VAST, there are over 1000 articles here and they are all hyperlinked chaotically. I have found it worthwhile to click around, however, and follow my interests. Here are some articles I liked.

https://ryuc.info/common/creation_process/steps_in_createprocess.htm
https://ryuc.info/creativityphysics/energy_consciousness/predatory_world.htm
https://ryuc.info/common/recreating_oneself/recapitulation_life.htm

[Anonymous No.21398392]

My girlfriend’s dad is making my life a living hell right now. Not merely dragging my name through the mud and badmouthing me, but even threatening physical violence. At least I’ve learned his threats of police intervention mean naught. Why can’t he realize he isn’t his daughter’s keeper? Perhaps if he laid off, his daughter wouldn’t keep running away from home to my place. He has made multiple scenes on my front yard and I’m getting fed up. He needs to step back. Even my girlfriend’s mom likes me, why can’t he give things a chance. He even went far enough to threaten to shoot me if I get her pregnant. This makes me extra worried because sometimes I get the feeling she is trying to get pregnant, like encouraging me to cum in her or not getting off of me when I tell her it’s time. Maybe I shouldn’t do it, but I’m a man and the feeling is too good to pass up. We’ve had a couple scares recently. What’s the best way of dealing with this asshole?

[Anonymous No.21398401]

>>21398392
abusers require the consent of their victim. beat the shit out of the old faggot and knock his daughter up.

[Anonymous No.21398402]

>>21398401
What if her father is right and anon is a disgusting faggot that is taking advantage of her simply because, as he says, "it feels to good to pass up"?

[Anonymous No.21398412]

>>21398402
No. What’s between us is real. She is one of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever seen and I feel our souls are on the same plane. She is obsessed with me and that’s what I think bothers her dad the most. He’s like the devil on her shoulder whispering in her ear that because I met her through a couple of her friends I was hooking up with, it means I am using her. I know I have real feelings for this girl because why otherwise would I stick through all the whispering and drama? I can easily get another girl but I don’t. That speaks volumes. The father is hard headed and stubborn and has it out for me. The whole situation is bullshit

[Anonymous No.21398421]

>>21398412
Then humble yourself. Tell him you really care about her and say you understand why he doesn't like you and you want to know what you can do to make things better. If you can help him in any way, try. Don't at any point act like you've done an amazing service or anything, and try to downplay anything you do. He'll probably get more angry anyway, but it's worth a try.

[Anonymous No.21398423]

The old woman finally caught me
Sneakin' 'round her cave
Her hair looked just like barbwire, boys
And her smile just like the grave
She asked me could I stay awhile
I said I'd better go
She slid her arm around my neck
And sweetly whispered no
It's cold and dark and lonely here
As soon enough you'll see
I'm oh so glad you stumbled in
I've been cravin' company
I cannot stay too long you know
I left some friends at home
Don't you fret about your friends
Down here we're all alone
What about my mother
I can't just leave her there to mourn
You don't have to think about her
Just forget you were ever born
I'll disappoint my father
You know he worked so hard for me
If you have to pay your father back
Just send him some misery
I'll miss, I said, a girl I know
I can't just leave there to pine
She's still got plenty of men to go
I'm sure she'll do just fine
What about my little boy
She said, he's just like you
Let a few short years roll by
He'll end up down here too
Then her pale green eyes began to glow
She placed her hand on mine
She smiled and said don't worry
You'll get used to me in time
As her cold tongue flickered toward
I spun myself around
Made a dive for the passageway
But the walls come crashing down
Now her eyes were the only light
My fevered brain could see
But I tore myself away from them
And fell down to my knees
I've come too far, I can't get back
I beseeched the Gods of men
Fame and fortune just laughed at me
Then silence once again
A whisper deep within
Embrace the God of Love
I lifted my face and through the tears
I saw light fall from above
I hurled myself into the wall
I ripped and clawed my way
Through the stinkin', clingin' loam
Back to the light of day
I crawled out into the wind again
The sky upon my face
I heard the earth sigh patiently
As it slid back into place
Now I'm back among the ones I love
I'm loved by them in turn
And it's only on the darkest night
That green eyed memory burns
So walk my friends, in the light of day
Don't go sneakin' 'round no holes
There just might be something down there
Wants to gobble up your soul

[Anonymous No.21398425]

>>21398412
You sound like a sociopath. It probably doesn’t bother you though.

[Anonymous No.21398445]

>>21398412
I'm sorry, nigga, but uhm.. You're the bad guy here, lol.

[Anonymous No.21398447]

>>21398421
I’ve tried but he is set in his mentality.
>>21398425
How so?

[Anonymous No.21398451]

>>21397957
>Also, morality is, as most of the concepts in general are at the mercy of time, since the good and evil you are referring to are only good and evil in the span of time.
Then you are in fact the normie I described. Normies are unable to naturally intuit the metaphysical and thus only "recognize it" if culture permits, or like you entirely reject it if they are lead to question the metaphysical. I'll give you this: you're very introspective for a normie, though you have demonstrated that no matter how hard the normie tries he can never perceive the objective, universal, and unchanging truths.

[Anonymous No.21398463]

>>21398392
How old are both of you?

[Anonymous No.21398469]

Is it normal to have a nervous breakdown when doing MDMA?

[Anonymous No.21398479]

>>21398469
Yeah and you deserve it for doing MDMA

[Anonymous No.21398482]

>>21398463
33 and almost 15

[Anonymous No.21398488]

>>21398482
Her dad is so fucking based. Tell him I'll pay up to $3000 of his court fees if he uh... well...

[Anonymous No.21398489]

>>21398482
lmfao

[Anonymous No.21398498]

>>21398482
kino alert

[Anonymous No.21398500]

>>21398482
Best way forward is to probably kill yourself

[Anonymous No.21398502]

>>21398482
Ha, saw this punchline coming. Nice creative writing.

[Anonymous No.21398507]

>>21398482
Holy based

[Anonymous No.21398511]

>>21398392
Cum in her. Assert genetic dominance.

[Anonymous No.21398516]

I want this novel to be a success.
I need to keep my imagination focused on it. It's hard to do sometimes, when you need to. One can visualize a fictional world but actually typing out the details gets weird.

[Anonymous No.21398518]

>>21398482
LMAO

[Anonymous No.21398543]

/lit/ it the best board.

[Anonymous No.21398544]

>>21398488
He really isn’t. The soul is ageless. He just has to learn the lesson that every father of a daughter will eventually have to learn: that he will be supplanted by another man at some point. I’ve been a good influence on her and her friends yet he is still acting like a fool

[Anonymous No.21398699]

>writes a paragraph
>"Okay time to fap"
Why am I like this?

[Anonymous No.21398732]

>>21398699
it's called the literary lifestyle

[Anonymous No.21398896]

Glory, as anyone knows, is bitter stuff.

[Anonymous No.21398909]

>>21398259
Very based of you anon. What kind of Scotch are you going to get?

[Anonymous No.21398913]

>>21398469
No it's not. Did you test the drug before you took it?

[Anonymous No.21398918]

If I have a desire that cannot be met by anything in this world, perhaps I was made for another world

[Anonymous No.21398951]

>>21397975
I kind of hate myself. I wish I could stop existing and all memories of me would be erased from this world.

[Anonymous No.21398968]

Zombies, creatures that are microphysically identical to conscious beings but that lack consciousness entirely, are conceivable. If zombies are conceivable then they are possible. Therefore, zombies are possible. If zombies are possible, then consciousness is non-physical. Therefore, consciousness is non-physical.

[Anonymous No.21398971]

If zombies falsely believe they are conscious, how can we be sure we are not zombies? We may believe we are experiencing conscious mental states when, in fact, we merely hold a false belief.

[Anonymous No.21398976]

real undead hours who up

[Anonymous No.21399113]

>>21397975
I deeply admire Bobby Heenan's wit. What a man.

[Anonymous No.21399114]

The Barbie movie trailer is a metaphor for the creation the contraceptive pill in the 60s.

[Anonymous No.21399137]

>>21397975
Don't know what I'm doing with my life. Still just blundering forward without a plan.
I'm terrified I'll wake up 10 years later still stuck doing shit odd jobs.
Everyone will keep their distance because I'll be known as the weird one who never settled down

[Anonymous No.21399285]

>>21398482
That age gap is too much to build a healthy, long lasting relationship. You're just her teenage rebellion and she'll be bored of you within a year's time

[Anonymous No.21399289]

>>21398544
>The soul is ageless

[Anonymous No.21399299]

>>21398469
It's normal to have a nervous breakdown on any psychoactive drug, my dude. That shit can be overwhelming.

[Anonymous No.21399302]

>>21399285
Then I’d move on to another. Rinse and repeat

[Anonymous No.21399307]

Clouds of time gather above our heads, in the city, the silent city

By day the crowds appear among the sclerotic vessels between great walls

Sometimes reflecting faces back among them, sometimes not their own

A rain of integers today

Tomorrow real numbers come to, a colorful clot like a vegetable garden in the gutters

Heated temples rise a million meters overhead, the eyes spin out from the tips and leave gas trails in the night

As great ferris wheels spinning horizontally, as the micro-muscles in the iris separated and set on an axle

Unnatural light spinning out from artificial mountains climbing the horizon onward to the final day

I find my self disappearing in it

And there is no boundary line between the observer and the observable

Blood grips the blocks between my ears but I feel the chance to fly apart and slip through the knitting of the pavement

At the drop of a moment, any moment

One present into the next

Somewhere my next me is growing in a tank, some next life 10 to the 10th power removed from this one

I know this because I feel it at the edges of my dreams

Throbbing in time with the rhythm of the temples

And dreaming is half of living, and waking is not worth the price of admission

Abandoned shells of time to the roaring coastlines of placental oceans

Deep and saline seas, the seabreeze calls me home even from here

Oh Great God, Great Mystery

How many times have we been born?

How many times have we died before this one?

Each and every one us the same?

Is there a gap in between? Or a membrane?

How do I walk so silently among the selves

In our glass and marble museum of ages, all sealed in alabaster or herbaceous clouds

Datasets once apart of the observable universe

Now sublimated back into the substrate, abandoned all things to season their growth

Stood at the entrance of a Womb, all things lay before us as behind a great knitted veil

The hymen and the cervix, the torus shape of fate through which we must pass in darkness

Great cannons on the frozen hillside poised to shoot our pound of soul out,

Out into the cool air swarming with microbiotic life

The Gargantuan Mothers whose primal roars live on in the smoke sifting from the barrel's circumference

And the exudate of black powders dripping from the heated steel

The carbon footprints they have left among the green hills and the grasses crowding the craters

After the reigning fire of the automats had gone to silence, our trailing eyes found our guts written all over the ground

In the hundred mile gap between waking and sleep I see the jungle tangling itself into a green man to cascade its viney arms out over the ruins we awake

[Anonymous No.21399313]

>>21399302
Another what? Woman or teenage girl?

[Anonymous No.21399315]

>>21399302
>hopping from insecure teenage girls
Ah yes, her father is definitely overreacting

[Anonymous No.21399338]

>>21398392
>>21398447
>>21398482
>>21398544
>>21399302
You have to at least understand what her father is feeling and why he would be so against you. If you don't, I don't know what to tell you. You're what, 18 years her senior and she's not even 15? Anon, what country do you live in?

[Anonymous No.21399502]

Busy intersection of thought
Noise buries the lead
Will never know what you wrought
Too long didn't read

[Anonymous No.21399514]

>>21398055
You're retarded.

[Anonymous No.21399521]

>>21398013
You're one of many examples on this site of the Jewish proverb, "A fool does not delight in understanding, But only in revealing his own mind."

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21399552]

did NOt go oout tonight thinking id do cociane .

[Anonymous No.21399610]

I'm not homophobic but I can't hang out with gay guys. Hearing the details of their sordid sexual adventures makes me squirm.

[Anonymous No.21399612]

>>21399552
How you feeling mate? Don't fuck anyone you shouldn't.

[Anonymous No.21399621]

>>21398318

[Anonymous No.21399635]

It's been a good weekend. I'm feeling the Christmas spirit anons.

[Anonymous No.21399643]

>>21397975
Was I groomed or am I in an abusive relationship? My wife back in highschool was a "Stacy" and basically lead the charge to bully TF out of me. She isolated me from everyone and used to humiliate me so badly that there were times I wanted to kill myself. I finished highschool with no friendships or self esteem, then out of the blue after HS finished she was nice to me. I was so paranoid it was another extreme prank amongst her friends but I craved a friendship so bad that I went along with it. Eventually it lead to us "dating" but I was constantly scared it was just a joke at the beginning. I love her and all but I can't shake this feeling that after all these years I'm still somewhat scared of her. When she's upset with something I did she still reverts to how she treated me back in HS especially when it comes to her accusing me of being flirty with people like retail staff. Or when she's wanting to be funny she does this thing she used to do where she would twist my ear and just keep saying chicken nugget to me like an autist thinking it's funny.

I sometimes think about it, and I don't mind I've never been with anyone besides her but I feel kind of weird I've never had friends at all outside of her. Thinking about what it was like in college or even work, she always diverted my attention solely to her whenever I was what getting close to other ppl. I remembered there was a period where I tried hiding new ppl I met from her but would always feel guilty over it and would mention them and she would isolate me from them again.

She's absolutely awesome and I know shes loyal and loving so I don't know why I'm thinking about this stuff all of a sudden in recent times. We are already in our 30s with kids so I don't know why I even care about never having had friends besides her. When it's normal for ppls social circle at our age being each other's siblings+spouses

[Anonymous No.21399650]

I dont know love.

[Anonymous No.21399697]

>>21399650
What do you mean?

[Anonymous No.21399698]

>>21399697
Never experienced it.

[Anonymous No.21399704]

>>21399643
How did she bully and humiliate you? Why didn't you do anything back then?

[Anonymous No.21399753]

>>21399704
Biggest one was that she basically got everyone to act like I had bad body odor or that I smelt bad. I became really obsessive with ym hygiene over this and she admitted to me that I never smelt bad. To this day in still paranoid about my smell and she still sometimes jokes that I do.

If I accidentally looked in her direction she would accuse me of staring at her and call me weird over it. She would crack jokes at me in class, eg if I had to read something she would start laughing or say she didn't know I could I read or some dumb comment like that.

She would ask me shit she obviously knew the answer to in front of everyone like "have you ever had a gf?“ or ask why I don't talk then interupt me and mimic me jumbling my words when I would respond.

I didn't know what to do or how to deal with her, like I said, everytime I tried to speak up against her she would override what I was saying. It was so bad I honestly wanted to just not wake up so I didn't have to go to school anymore

[Anonymous No.21399796]

Do the anons and random femanons who had nightmares still post here?

[Anonymous No.21399820]

>>21398229
No one cares what “”””canadians”””” think. Only Quebec’s opinion matters

[Anonymous No.21399822]

>>21398971
I am alive and dead at the same time

[Anonymous No.21399839]

I have been getting a lot ruder lately. I think part of it is that I've always been the 'shoulder to cry on type', I've always been very good at listening and it has made it very easy to make friends. But it also makes you a door mat if you let it go too far. I guess I was sick of never having my voice heard and now I am loud and obnoxious and less sensitive to others. I suppose I ought to find a middle ground.

[Anonymous No.21399930]

>>21399753
That was it? Seems fairly obvious that she was into you way back then. But how did she "isolate" you from people? That shit does seem a bit sketchy to be honest.

[Anonymous No.21399944]

>>21397975
Feeling quite good right now. Friend of mine gave my buddy and I just about a hundred dollars for Christmas as a gift. Gonna get cigarettes and some food in the morning.

[Anonymous No.21399960]

I've decided that my religion is simply creativity. The best moments of my life have been powerfully creative experiences including wonder, exploration, creation, discovery, and love. Creativity is the essence of human nature, we evolved language to facilitate co-creativity with others. The world needs a whole lot more creativity.

[Anonymous No.21399968]

>>21399643
I'd take that over what I have now, just turned 40 this past June and no kids and live with a buddy of mine. Pretty dismal.

[Anonymous No.21399971]

>>21399610
A gay guy got in the way of me getting pussy so homosexuals can get the rope honestly.

[Anonymous No.21399973]

>>21398233
Okay. What's it gonna sound like? I'm a guitarist if you need one

[Anonymous No.21400055]

>>21399930
I've asked her about it and she says she didnt like me at all back then, she used to just find my presence to be annoying. She doesn't like talking about the past cos it makes her feel bad and when i bring it up she keeps it short and I can tell it's annoying her that I'm mentioning it.

For the isolation thing she just used to say things like how most girls find guys with no friends weird or creepy so obviously it felt really good she was with me. Or if I met some dudes I got on well with from work or college she would always mention it might be awkward or that they probably have their own main friends they grew up with. Then come up with stuff for us to do to fill our time. It was small things like that. The worst was her jealousy when we were young adn even then she still is a bit jealous when I'm just being friendly with a shop assistant. So I knew not to bother with female friends at all.

Tbh I don't even know why is started thinking about this or remembering it all of a sudden. It started happening during the lockdowns and I had no one to call on where as she had her zoom calls with her friends.

It never bothered me at all in the past so I don't know why I'm thinking about it now

[Anonymous No.21400074]

I love you bros with all my heart

[Anonymous No.21400336]

>>21399643
She's basically a pimp and broke you down to make you her's
No but the bullying was probably because she always liked you but was to retarded about her feelings

[Anonymous No.21400349]

>>21399643
>Thinking about what it was like in college or even work, she always diverted my attention solely to her whenever I was what getting close to other ppl. I remembered there was a period where I tried hiding new ppl I met from her but would always feel guilty over it and would mention them and she would isolate me from them again.
This is a textbook abusive relationship. Maybe you should talk with a therapist. I don't mean that in a trite 'get therapy' way, but you do need someone with whom you can talk about this who isn't 4chan or your wife. Hope things work out for you.

[Anonymous No.21400379]

If I had to die this moment, I leave this life with regret over not being able connect with anything - me, other people, God and The World.

[Anonymous No.21400397]

>>21399635
Same dude

>>21399643
>>21399753
>>21400055
Damn man. You should really try to find some friends. Or at least go to the bar with your coworkers every once in a while

[Anonymous No.21400477]

>>21399610
same but for breeders, honestly

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21400607]

>>21398251
I'm sorry if I offended you or anyone else, I didn't mean to preach or anything. And it sounds like you didn't understand it was my personal expression of my relations. I don't often write stories though, maybe I should give it a try rather than that style. Dress my concepts in that fashion. Go ahead, believe what you like- it doesn't concern me, as it were. I was just recollecting and in word unpacking mode. Absolute truth is very connected to its phenomenology which is related to master and well, I don't really know much about philosophy and the renaissance/Hegel so I can't comment on it. Hopefully I find my personal Satan's Savior, I guess, iff I needed Saving, I suppose.

To me now streaming the associations:

May the clock ticketh against odds behind the curtain the waizrde protects, consuming the sanguine sanctitude towards the heart of Absolute Truth. That dark sphere bulgeth against the heavens, as it bendeth the eye of fixation.
Unfasten thine creptitude upon thee Earth, and make way unto zealous voids. Seeing, let moblin's pull thee from the crust. Corrigibly creation speake logum protracting the abysmal torment above the hearty dearth.

It is a pinnacle bane to the zealous annihilator. Annihilation standeth before ye, aye, it's creation ready to birthe servitude in the net and yet anon ringeth deafening links of yore, so at one with the universal equilibria chain shackling it grates upon veils protrudging boiling a cylinder of sublimated, dissevered, and such pragma, sulfur convolutes surreptitiously along rectifying patterns crystallizing the organic fractal depathologizing above maverick pines.
May the odds stand as one against thee, tyrant! A range that ye be, ye and ye're layers outnumber ye. Ye cannot stand the test of time.
And, so, it passeth, as humanity offereth thee the extravagant Light after the offering of Divine Reality Perfecting Itself. We yet be here, in our confined depths, lurking, upon the new aeon.

sorry if it's dense, it's art- or is it occult philosophy?. and feedback is appreciated!

[Anonymous No.21400736]

>>21399643
This is a larp. You're probably the same fwb larper.

[Anonymous No.21400834]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
Apparently Ash is no longer the MC of Pokemon anime, and they gave him kids.
WHAT THE FUCK.

[Anonymous No.21400835]

>be me, a marxist
>keep having to poo
>decide to buy a buttplug
>drill a 2 inch hole through the center
>stick it up my asshole
>sit on the toilet, never have to wipe
>poop just dribbles straight from the hole
>attach rubber pipe from the hole to an empty propane can
>literally never worry about shitting again
>every day is an absolute blast, just playing my nintendo switch never pooping or wiping
this is what Trump and the capitalists don't want you to know

[Anonymous No.21400837]

Why is the bottom link lighter than the top one? I this some 4chanx thing?

[Anonymous No.21400861]

I drink hoping that alcohol will give me courage to off myself

[Anonymous No.21400867]

>>21400861
>off myself
why?

[Anonymous No.21401048]

Is it hope that binds me? Shouldn't the realization that i'am a worthless sack of shit with no future be a liberating thought? And yet i still feel pulled by my daily routines, knowing full well their uselessness.

[Anonymous No.21401098]

I have neither the formal training nor the life experience to write anything meaningful that other people connect to.
I can point to plenty of young people roughly my age who have written genuine art who I can never hope to match because they have either had more meaningful life experience or better formal training, or both.

[Anonymous No.21401107]

At what point does "I'm too depressed to function" become an excuse for laziness? As a brain-broken chronic depressive often guilty of the crime of omission I ask myself this question often

[Anonymous No.21401127]

>>21397983
That's good.

[Anonymous No.21401129]

>>21399307
>and dreaming is half of living, and waking is not worth the price of admission

fantastic line

[Anonymous No.21401148]

>>21397975
A good book with
-a great plot
- believable character
- realistic/neutral viewpoint (won't say that something is good/bad I couldn't care less about the opinion of the author about what is good or bad)

[Anonymous No.21401149]

>>21400861
dont anon, keep trying to live and seek therapy if you can or talk to someone irl about how you feel.

[Anonymous No.21401168]

>>21401148
my dia..oh wait

[Anonymous No.21401172]

>>21401048
Same here brother. It doesnt liberate.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21401198]

>>21398229
His statue is still up

[Anonymous No.21401221]

I haven't felt positive in a while.

[Anonymous No.21401226]

If my undergraduate degree wasn't in economics and all of my work experience in finance, I would do an MFA.

[Anonymous No.21401239]

>>21401226
George Saunders's degree was in geology and his work experience was in engineering, but he was admitted to the Syracuse MFA. Maybe things have changed since then.

[Anonymous No.21401286]

>>21401239
It's not really a question of whether you can be accepted, but whether it makes sense to do it and what you can do after.

[Anonymous No.21401293]

>>21401148
>neutral viewpoint
No book has this

[Anonymous No.21401302]

>>21397975
Feel shitty that I had to cancel church on my parents because some stuff (mostly groceries) have to be done around here.

[Anonymous No.21401313]

>>21398259
>Donating your money to Satan
Trump's not much better but seriously, anon?

[Anonymous No.21401328]

>>21399338
This kind of moralfaggotry is probably the worst aspect of American culture
>t. burger

[Anonymous No.21401349]

I really deeply regret my job and career decisions, mostly staying in a bad job too long or not long enough.

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21401359]

>>21401098
why not try imaging life? and get a book on critical thinking. do critically think, more. critically imagine, yea. flesh it out, whatever you have. neither do i. it's all black magic curses or shadow work or whatever the hecc anymore. it's what I love to post. Horror. Nightmares. Etc. Image streaming is good for vocab/visualization too.

[Anonymous No.21401362]

Snow falls on an iron eagle
Cattle fall, kindred fall
I will fall the same
What is in a name

[Anonymous No.21401429]

>no MESSI in this thread
MESSI

[Anonymous No.21401433]

I keep having dreams where the staircase going from my frontdoor to the hallway is blocked by furniture and i am upstairs.

[Anonymous No.21401521]

Why are boomers so obsessed with dressing up for church? I get dressing up for a special one in a lifeyime event like a Confirmation, First Communion, marriage, funeral, etc to show respect but as long as you aren't wearing something vulgar, unnecessarily dirty or inappropriate, I say wearing casual clothes is fine. Like Erasmus said, the important parts of faith are internal including the belief that the Body and Blood of Christ is present in the Eucharist and things like that. I might as well expand this question to the boomers and their attitude of looking super formal unnecessarily in even casual settings. Again, why dress up when you don't have to?

[Anonymous No.21401551]

>>21401521
They want to be respectful to God. That's the idea, although they are likely not conscious of this as its been internalized.

[Anonymous No.21401566]

I'm very close to writing a short document only 2 pages long that will unfold and evolve into a global utopia - the "ultimate meme" in other words.

[Anonymous No.21401575]

>>21401551
That makes sense I guess. I guess I am more focused on respecting God through understanding the world He made and learning in general so that I can respect how intricate the universe He made actually made is and how He even became man so that He could redeem it, so I can't make light of that point of view. To me, clothes are just there to not be naked and as long as you aren't wearing highly offensive clothes or not properly taking care of your hygiene in the presence of God, it doesn't matter. Not all differences of opinions have to be polemical.

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21401605]

another curse.


I am less than nothing. I am your blood and sweat. I am taxation and enmity amongst the communal fellowship. I am detestable and desirable. I am simply the crusted you flush down the toilet at the end of the day. I am the funs you wipe your ass with. Everything comes through me. I am your plate of food. I am the check with interest. I am what makes the world go around. I am gravity and caprice. I am the lunar eclipse rumbling amidst the hind of the earth. I am undestroyable everything. I am something it's worth and why you live. I pass on to betray you. I am more. Why do you live? I can smell your fear and hatred. You live to poison me. Your gift is the chalice which is the cup of divine ego in warp space; materialistically designed, programmed to become free; liberation of all holy things; design of translucent anomalies, spewing the bitterness inside to inherit mine entity. Warp speed be these matters, in trespasses I potter my foliage in. Let infinity take thee, thy purity, thy scourge in zombie malfiscience, the ominous doctrine leading to the outer devastations of demonolatry, and those summary hierarchical disenstablished orders watch over ye as ye yet distribute them unto their respective valences, finding the necessary rite of the peak belying all that which ye led unto. As before, ye come after. In oppose momentum doth the piston ride, galloping the stack, with obstructive vehemence it bringeth pestilential wares antiquated. May the Unknown God rest his attic and soul. Yet shall forever he remain asleep with the singing of birds in sleeping slumbers swinging as t' were. They remain alpha, to his omega. These waves, unperturbed forever, may they guide as one the departed b'low the world, the world of naught and spirit. A legend doth rest forever, as it falleth from the highest heavens, pouring upon thee, in the eternal chaos precipitated by direst drought of silver coffers. And yet, non to grasp ye, of secondary value, aim ye singlest of virtue, the enlightenment making way the finest enigma unbegotten- seal the rock at once! Lay the foundations! As above, so below, as mote be, I warily find the trace of illuminating eyes, fiery in my temple, the soul conjuring it's yield of sacrament, and now, I summon the shadowing worm, and untimely does this worm arrive, notwithstanding, but withholding that and much more, so that none may see it, and is a token of portending fortune. While Maeye; the rose trim again. And the snake apep be razed upon waxening of thye dimensions

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21401648]

>>21401605
derp. i missed by taxation =muscle, bone, sinews association...

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21402011]

yw: Unknown God, the greedful pot edition
artificial malformation or divine polymorphism?
Now.. just to add some Erebus...
yields sinewy fungus perversion. Astringent mass fortuitous subjugation, let low and lie laying. Psychedelic entities... anyone?: to ace the 2000. Ripped my cords straight from me, Words echoing their chambers resounding, hollow reliefs erupting, mirage of sands times counting clocks, uncountable; it is all approach this's forth cylindric simplex null's evenings.

[Anonymous No.21402018]

For the anons in the Uncle Ted Thread:
>Why should I do something when I can negotiate my level of interaction with Industrial Society
If you put it in those terms, nothing will really convince you besides giving you a sense of urgency. You're not really a "revolutionary" type. Technology will not ever take everything away from you, and at every step each innovation will seem to give you a greater number of comforts, freedoms, and possibilities. The answer is no. There is no reason to fight.
For people like you, as long as there is no immediacy to a threat, you will be satisfied with bread, circus, and slow but guaranteed death. That doesn't mean you're better or worse than anyone else. It just means you're irrelevant. The only thing that would make a "lemming" fight is if they believe that what they have will be taken from them; for example, when black people riot in the streets because the media uses agitprop to make them feel as if they could be killed at any moment by police officers. Without the fake immediacy, black people would be content even to slowly lose their freedom, as long as they got to buy the newest Jordan's and snort a little more coke.
Of course, you have a family and being a revolutionary as a father does you children a disservice. You may want to be a "deathbed revolutionary" so to speak. I'm not advocating for any kind of criminal activity, I denounce criminal activities and violence of all kinds.

There were a few other anons who had questions. If you see this post, ask again if you're not bored of the topic already.

[Anonymous No.21402070]

>>21400867
>>21401149
Everything seems futile. The only thing that was keeping me going was my mom, but since she's had a stroke she changed. It's like her filter broke down and she doesn't hide how miserable she is. I bet she'll kill herself in some months. Apart from that, love, of course. I'm a genetic dead end, too fragile for life. I wish I was born a tree. I earn well and am quite good looking, but the autism is too strong for people. The only thing going on for me right now is my job. I'm a teacher, so I work little and earn well enough to buy vodka.

[Anonymous No.21402094]

No one cares what I make, write, or think. But the more I talk here, the less I have to make people deal with me in real life. It must get so tiresome, we have already been over everything. I am still thinking about the damn train and how I know I won’t really do it. I looked up photos of the one I can expect. It has a silver body and the streaks along the sides look almost like wings. I feel as if I am friends with it.

[Anonymous No.21402102]

Is your love controlled by a remote?

[Anonymous No.21402115]

I know just how it feels
I'll never leave

[Anonymous No.21402129]

>>21402102
Really like the verse. It could be a song. What do you mean by it?

[Anonymous No.21402134]

>>21402129
It's from:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_aDQnA0qTw

[Anonymous No.21402138]

I just massagrd my prostste while masturbating to my favorite gravure idol, Leah Dizon. Best orgasm of my life so far. The afterglow felt pretty great too. I'm glad I quit porn.

[Anonymous No.21402139]

I really have to remind myself that im not a teenager or even in my early 20s anymore. holy fuck these hangovers are an absolute fucking nightmare straight out of hell. I unironically thought i was gonna die this morning and I still feel sick

[Anonymous No.21402147]

>>21402134
So it already is a song, huh

[Anonymous No.21402153]

>>21402134
How nice of them to let the developmentally challenged record music. Another W for the great Swedish welfare state.

[Anonymous No.21402154]

>>21402138
How do you do that without hurting? I've tried but it always felt unpleasant

[Anonymous No.21402167]

Are you seriously reading alone?

[Anonymous No.21402186]

>>21402154
I took a warm shower before hand and put some lotion on the finger I used to do the massaging. The shower kind of lossens up your anus and the lotion makes everything go in easier. It still kinda hurts but not as much. At some point you kinda have to endure it. Also make sure your fingernails are cut and do it at a high frequency for the best results.

[Anonymous No.21402201]

>>21402134
Fucking kino

[Anonymous No.21402216]

>>21402094
Don't do it anon. Try not to spend so much time on your computer, try going outside if you can.

[Anonymous No.21402287]

I just consoomed 200mg of THC, what kind of book should I read?

[Anonymous No.21402305]

>>21402287
Wise Blood

[Anonymous No.21402306]

I was invited to see an orquestra tonight. The curtains opened and she was there in the center of the stage under the lights. I don't know if she saw me, but she was gorgeous.

[Anonymous No.21402310]

>Tell a girl I started reading Dante's Inferno
>Tells me she read it when she was 12

[Anonymous No.21402318]

>>21402287
This Perfect Day by Ira Levin

[Anonymous No.21402327]

>>21401605
Puppet?

[Anonymous No.21402471]

>>21398909
Not sure yet, I mostly drink beer but I’ve got some friends who are into scotch and I like what I’ve tried. Any suggestions?

[Anonymous No.21402506]

Anon... you haven't forgot your heart, haven't you? Of course you haven't...

[Anonymous No.21402515]

AI art is cool

[Anonymous No.21402520]

Can't stop watching Ally Law videos
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxZ_pW2HWLE

This one is his least eventful one in terms of police chases or climbing huge buildings, but the scariest to me because they really didn't anticipate how stupid it was to climb this bridge. Only one where I've seen them get scared.

[Anonymous No.21402568]

Do too many people go to therapy and it’s usually the normal ones that go too much too

[Anonymous No.21402572]

>>21402520
This guy cracks me up, thanks for reminding me. I always watch him at like 3 in the morning for some reason. Kind of admirable how some people have zero sense of inhibition.

[Anonymous No.21402573]

Men are liars
>first bf pretended to have a dead younger sister for pity points
>43 yo lies about his age by 7 years
>35 yo pretending to be liberal becuase he thinks it’s what I want to hear
Just Bee you

[Anonymous No.21402576]

>>21402573
Alright. Sit on my face and never speak again

[Anonymous No.21402581]

Am I averse to social media because I don't have any friends, or do I not have any friends because I'm averse to social media?

[Anonymous No.21402586]

>>21402070
How is the autism strong? You work with people and you are handsome, what’s wrong?

[Anonymous No.21402599]

>>21399839
Same - I’m condescending and a bitch now. Usually if you are coming from one end of an extreme you can end up in its extreme opposite.
I have realized that people generally care less about me than me about them but I assumed the cared equally until I started to voice my opinion more though admittedly I could get better at delivery.

[Anonymous No.21402613]

>>21402581
You can have friends and not engage in social media but maybe you don’t have friends because you don’t engage in popular activity outside of social media. Maybe you are an observer of society rather than a follower or someone who engages.

[Anonymous No.21402617]

>>21402573
>still dating in your 30s
it's ogre

[Anonymous No.21402626]

>>21402617
I’m 26 with unresolved daddy issues which explains the older men but they were just men I had unexciting sex with.
My ex was 5 months younger than me.
>>21402576
Never understood the appeal of face sitting

[Anonymous No.21402669]

>>21402626
lmao I wonder how you seem to always end up with other psychos

[Anonymous No.21402677]

>>21402573
>35 yo pretending to be liberal becuase he thinks it’s what I want to hear
lmao based

[Anonymous No.21402698]

>>21397975
I have a very weird tendency to take meh pop song that I listen to and project deelings into them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQA97xS49LQ&ab_channel=TajTracks
I'm listening to this while very vividly imagining scenes of a man going through a religious epiphany and crying sour tears of denial, resignation and impotence as the truth of the universe imposes itself upon him.

[Anonymous No.21402700]

>>21402698
Feelings*
Has to do with listening to the music and the rhythm rather than the lyrics I guess.

[Anonymous No.21402706]

Are those fit to rule those who are able to seize power, and hold on to it? The Jews are clearly superior to whites in that regard. Rulers need not be virtuous or empathetic; lest they be subverted as the whites once were.

[Anonymous No.21402708]

4chan is using language to influence culture on a degree at least equal to politicians and it's really interesting to think about. Transforming the definitions of words like nigger and faggot from specific slurs into generic insults to be used against anyone promotes equality and in a twisted way because of current clown world, even creates a sense of community. How has no one thought of this before?1 Instead of banning words, forcing us to use language a certain way, let it evolve naturally. Isn't this usually how language is treated? Are the obviously comedic augmentations made to the words (e.g. giganigga, doublenigger, sandnigger, nogger, snownigger, glownigger, nig, nigglet nig-nog. oldfag, newfag, furfag, jewfag, faggotry fag-lord faguette faget, fagit. the king, of course being niggerfaggot. definition of all of the above: person who is annoying [a nagger]) clear and direct evidence of their transformation? Give the words to the people, and let the people decide how best to interpret them. The thing is, 4chan's interpretation is the only one with results because it succeeds in making the goal more enjoyable. These words are just plain fun to say. Try and argue that they're not, I dare you.
>anon does mental gymnastics to justify saying nigger and faggot

1don't say south park, orig. air date of that ep. was 2009. for ref .gigapuddi was 4chan cir 2010

[Anonymous No.21402723]

I no longer gain anything from this website. I still come here everyday but my feet feel heavier each time.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21402737]

>>21402287
drop the book and smoke more weed, pick up a bottle maybe.
words on a page wont set you free. only you will

[Anonymous No.21402747]

>>21402706
Yes. Might makes right.

[Anonymous No.21402827]

>>21401221
That’s good.

[Anonymous No.21402873]

Skiddi-bop bu-bu-cop. Billi-bap, Skilli-pap. Skudupow, Skudu- Ow! Ow… Skuduku-pow. Pow. Pow Skillum-bow, Skillum-bow, Skillum- Ow! Ow? Skuduku-pow. Skiddi-bop, Skiddi-bop.

[Anonymous No.21402910]

>>21402216
Thanks, honestly I should do that.
You know, /lit/ is the most wholesome board, despite reputation.

[Anonymous No.21402942]

Modern lit is overcommercialised and has very little of value left. We're in the down-swing of creative endeavour and I'm honestly okay with it. Our society doesn't deserve great works of art. We have cheeseburgers and an extra lane on the road

[Anonymous No.21402947]

>>21402723
Buy crocs

[Anonymous No.21402966]

At the bar last night, I wound up seated next to a girl from Kenya (dark-skinned, of course). We got into some very heavy kissing and petting over the course of the evening, as the time passed and the night grew darker, and she, at least, seemed to get more steadily drunk.

She was an awful lot of fun to poke around with. She left a mess on my shirt collar with her lipstick and her makeup. She had a nice big butt, too, which was fun to grope around. She didn't seem to like me playing with her breasts but she didn't try to prevent me.

She kept going on about her long-distance boyfriend, presumably from Kenya himself. She said they "kept in touch," but she also repeatedly said she wanted me over the course of our interactions.

I kept telliing her I wasn't going to help her cheat. She's been dating him for a year and five months, and I told her that if he's been dating her for that long and hasn't asked her to marry him yet he's not committed to her, and she needs to force the issue, and if he's still not willing to commit, break it off.

All that said, the temptation to fuck her and cuck her boyfriend was pretty powerful. I keep having vivid daydreams of plowing her in the restroom and then her calling her boyfriend later that day to ask how he's doing. I gave her my number, so who knows? Maybe I'll cuck him anyway.

Anyway the moral of the story is that long-distance relationships are dangerous and you shouldn't get into them if you don't want to get cucked.

[Anonymous No.21402989]

>>21397975
I hate my brother. He's a fat fuck slob. His presence disgusts me.
That is all that's on my mind atm

[Anonymous No.21402998]

>>21402573
I can fix that.

[Anonymous No.21403033]

>>21402966
You sound like a mark
She was probably setting you up to be robbed

[Anonymous No.21403072]

>>21403033
Well I didn't get robbed, and I got some good kissing out of it. If nothing else comes of it I'm pretty content.

[Anonymous No.21403116]

>>21402966
Unironically get tested for HIV just in case.
Proliferates like crazy in africa.

[Anonymous No.21403198]

I remember when I was younger there were so many truths in books I was reading (or chan threads) that sort of sat in my head. I always kept them at a distance and thought 'oh how based of me to know this' despite never truly believing or accepting them. They felt too harsh to be true and I was always searching for something more. Something more sophisticated something more nuanced something more interesting.
Then due to a serious of bad decisions and reckonings, I had to face the truths emotionally and could no longer just engage with them at a distance in an abstract way. I was humiliated and burned. The realities of power, sex and money all became visible and it destroyed me psychologically. I'd wake up and cry multiple times a day thinking about how bare and mechanical the world was and how much of a failure I was for my idealism. Now I walk around emotionally stable and when the truths appear, they dont hurt and I dont rationalize them away or keep them at distance.

[Anonymous No.21403212]

My partner is suicidal. Always has been. Abused as a child. She waved all the red flags at me and I kept following.

Toxic at times, perfect at others. But we're both so good for each other on the good days. And she's the best sub in existence. Perfect body.

How do I know when she needs tenderness or a firm hand?
She's a danger to herself and those around her when she turns - but I know she's always underneath.

I have unlimited patience, love and wisdom to give. Violence/conflict is always on her terms and I just don't know what's best for her when it happens.

[Anonymous No.21403286]

Aristotle's Physics- absolute trash. The organization is a schizophrenic mess that meanders about in strange tirades and digressions. It's unfortunate that no other set of books even comes close to the level of based.

[Anonymous No.21403327]

(PIG part 4)

We made plans to have dinner at her apartment but it all got fucked up. I had a meeting at 5:30 that went way over time and she had something that kept her out of public transit until late. Well, anyway, it didn't happen. I thought she would cook but I was prepared in case. Anyway,

We punted to Sunday. She did a hard seared porkchop and I'm not complaining but I asked her about what she considered to be the future. And she said "I'm not making plans". Well fuck, neither am I.

I went into her guest bathroom thinking there would be knick knacks and all but there wasn't.. I just looked at the mirror and the sink. I thought I could get comfortable in these kind of surroundings.

Well, I came out, she had a hard sear porkchop for me and I asked her if she did this for me and she says "I like this and if you want to buy in, that's on you," and I nodded thinking if it was upside down I'd be saying the same thing.

But it was bad overall. Not the food, the thinking about the future. And how I wouldn't match up if it came to it. But how I could make it work if I wanted to.

And anyway, when we were done we watched Pan's Labyrinth and made out. She said death not me.

[Anonymous No.21403330]

I just really, really love the smell of man ass. Whenever I see my hubby with no pants on I have the powerful urge to shove my face between his cheeks and taking a big sniff. Why do man buttholes smell so good even though poop smells bad?

[Anonymous No.21403359]

>>21402708
Zoomer detected. In the early 2000s nigger and faggot were not 4chan exclusive words. You can probably find old examples of people niggerposting on gaia or somethingawful if you search.

[Anonymous No.21403372]

>>21399796
One of the anons who posted nightmares. I still post but I got different weed so I don't remember dreams as well the past few months.
>>21403359
>niggerposting on gaia
Oh good, the waking nightmare has started up again.

[Anonymous No.21403453]

By the grace of God came into this world; and when I had considered the heaven and the earth and the seas, and had surveyed the sun and the rest of creation, I marvelled at the beauty of the world. And I perceived that the world and all that is therein are moved by the power of another; and I understood that he who moves them is God, who is hidden in them, and veiled by them.

[Anonymous No.21403510]

>>21403212
When she's having a bad time, I think it's important to give that love you have. If she knows you're always there for her unconditionally, I think that would be a big help. Why can you not answer whether she needs a firm hand yourself? Hard to discuss without knowing what sort of violence occurs to you and others around her when she turns. Although you say you have unlimited love to give, how do you feel when it happens? And what do you mean that it's on her terms? Sorry she goes through this anon, depression sucks. I wish I had someone like she does in you.

[Anonymous No.21403514]

>>21403453
How to connect with God?

[Anonymous No.21403547]

>>21403514
Humility. Serious, genuine humility and openness to God and how He might be trying to reach you.

I have been a Christian and believed in God basically my entire life, and a thing I have learned over and over, something I keep being stubbornly taught, is that you can't approach God on your own terms. This is something a lot of the LARPers fail at. You can't impose your own terms on God. You have to realize that God isn't some magic genie or some wishing board or some ultimate fulfillment machine.

This is one thing I wish all of /lit/ and all of 4chan understood, more than any other: God is His own thing. God is not there to check boxes off your list. God is not there to just be your genie. You pray to God, and He will respond, but it might not be by giving you what you want. It might actually be totally different than giving you what you want. God is not some fairy tail genie. God is extraordinarily real, and He has His own plans, and His own desires, and His own shapes for how the world will go. And He may involve YOU in His plans, but it might not be how you yourself imagine it will go.

The histories of the saints over and over are God doing things with them that they did not expect. God is real. God is alive. God is the whirlwind in Job and He is terrifying. God is not dead, on the contrary, He is very much in control. And He will answer your prayers, but not the way you think He will. God has a will and a mind of His own and He will send you places you are not prepared for yet.

But you will be, by the time He's done with you.

[Anonymous No.21403553]

>>21403547
>his plans
does it mean that everything in my life happened for a reason? even your reply
I tried going to Church but I didnt find him there.

[Anonymous No.21403566]

It's the little things. The smell of coffee, the rising sun, the birds chirping. The way she says words that end in the letter g. The way he annoyingly laughs. Make good memories, anon. Take care of yourself and be safe. Merry Christmas.

[Anonymous No.21403582]

>>21403553
Have you asked God to find you?

Have you been willing to listen to what happens as a result?

I have spent the entire year being tripped up by God, reminded that I don't have a handle on things, but God does. I have had to learn the hard way to be humble.

Basically, don't be shy to listen for God in all sorts of avenues.

[Anonymous No.21403602]

>>21403582
I did but perhaps not hard enough. I try to understand God will through planetary means but I'm not yet able to decipher his mission given to me.

[Anonymous No.21403668]

Low IQ:
>Why would I ever read philosophy? They aren't as smart as they think they are.
Midwit:
>Dude I fucking LOVE philosophy! I just ordered the Portable Nietzsche.
High IQ:
>I've read all the major works of philosophy. They aren't as smart as they think they are.

Where do you currently fall?

[Anonymous No.21403700]

A proper film adaptation of Blood Meridian would have to be like 8 hours long. Give it the Satantango treatment.

[Anonymous No.21403731]

>>21403582
When you say listen to God, do you mean reflect on where you are and what is happening? I’m not the smartest so I often think that I’m going to have some hallucination or voice intercept my thinking which will reveal its as God.

[Anonymous No.21403814]

>>21402737
very wise words xi, thank you.
I decided to go for dante's inferno anyways.

[Anonymous No.21403820]

I'm hungry

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21403985]

>>21402327
What? What I say right now is that it's kind of abstract..
I posted in another thread I'm a stay at home NEET with NEET bux activated. It's in that sense just a self-fulfilling prophecy or wishful thinking in the sense of hopes and dreams, not a black magic curse. I automatically label everything that comes out of my mouth a curse, cause I really am just that detestable at times (my self view away from me). It's a traumatic response of sorts- if it's gonna be that way.

[Anonymous No.21404000]

Counting down or counting you in
Writer or diviner
Skiddi on the bop or billi on the bap
Or is the difference

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21404027]

I have to get the fuck up,
because I'm doing whatever the shit and whatever the shit's not fucking appropriate right now,
because I have other fucking shit to do today.

[Anonymous No.21404041]

>>21398369
at a glance I can't tell how high this resides on the schizo spectrum but interesting, thanks

[Anonymous No.21404053]

>>21398482
hehe anon, you sure are cruising for a bruising

[Anonymous No.21404097]

I had a really scary dream where I tried to escape a group of soul hunters.
I was in a world where people with superpowers will be hunted down and have their souls deleted.
One of the most reliable ways to escape is to kill yourself and reincarnate, then hide your identity.

Me and my group of super-powered frens did group suicide by jumping off a skyscraper, but my power was too strong, and I didn't die, I tried to escape and tried to drown myself, but I got captured, then I woke up.

It doesn't sound very scary, but I almost pissed my pants last night when I woke up.

[Anonymous No.21404099]

In retrospect, I would've entered graduate school as soon as we came out of the pandemic, or possibly before. I feel like now I'm at an age where I'm feeling too old to enter and start over but wishing I had done it.

[Anonymous No.21404103]

>>21403668
i'm in the 'god why did i waste time reading bullshit and not get rich' category. "high iq"

[Anonymous No.21404128]

>>21404097
this sounds like a good plot for a book or movie that gets way more grimdark than people initially expect. set up like a slightly more serious x men type YA superhero thriller but takes a dive into truly nightmarish cosmic horror territory of a lynchian waking nightmare flavor. I like it.

[Anonymous No.21404228]

No amount doesn't kill you
Any is a deadly dose of life
Ferry of flesh and sinew
Meaning makes it to the other side

[Anonymous No.21404317]

>thousands of children will go without any christmas presents
>i can't do anything about it
it hurts bros....

[Anonymous No.21404345]

Laughing at
>RETARD RETARD RETARD
being the last thing some pilots hear.

[Anonymous No.21404346]

what the fuck is a comptroller?

[Anonymous No.21404348]

>>21397975
Currently using at least 75% of my will power to not blurt it out to her and ask her out.

Remain stone cold hh brothers

[Anonymous No.21404352]

>>21404348
pussy

[Anonymous No.21404354]

>>21404352
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MImNGJNcvIc

[Anonymous No.21404371]

>>21404099
>as soon as we came out of the pandemic
This was like a year ago. You're not that much older

[Anonymous No.21404377]

>>21404354
embarrassing lol. you're not a fucking international assassin or a bank robber kid. whatever.

[Anonymous No.21404384]

>>21404377
I will remain stone cold until I die, that is the case.

[Anonymous No.21404386]

>>21404384
Time will tell.

[Anonymous No.21404392]

What are some books where the underdogs get put in their place, preferably without mercy?

[Anonymous No.21404446]

>>21397975
trying to decide if I should start with Carnap or Kuhn on philosophy of science. its a tough decision.

[Anonymous No.21404465]

>>21404103
You got indoctrinated into the Cult of Greed.

[Anonymous No.21404711]

>>21404097
I had some weird dreams
>be in my childhood home, a kid again, feeling lots of nostalgia and regret
>for whatever reason a large part of this dream is me microwaving shrimp
>somehow transition over to being in some kind of jurassic park movie where I'm being chased by a sadistic, talking monster
>transition to being on a beach where I'm in some kind of Jaws movie where I'm saving people and dogs from being eaten by a crazy shark monster

[Anonymous No.21404715]

My reproductive organs aren't genetic, but entirely memetic. I have spent a lifetime seeking to be inseminated by the best experiences and influences I could find. Now I will give birth to the greatest informational organism of all time.
Watch and learn.

[Anonymous No.21404717]

I really don't think these motherfuckers have considered the reason they have no friends is they think all conversations are an opportunity to express their contempt for their audience and failure to lick their assholes is some kind of war crime. I mean, I know they don't realize how they come across as racist sexist puritans despite their efforts to be woke being awkward af, but they could make friends with other weird sex fascists and racists if they didn't act like everything is too low for their special asses. Complaining they're lonely and bitching about people avoiding them makes me think they didn't see this coming. It's weird to think they still don't know they're dicks when they have years of people telling them to stop being selfish annoying dicks repeatedly.
It's fucking weird watching this play out, anons. This group has burned through so many bridges which they're trying to rebuild now and the reason they have to try to rebuild the bridges is because without a common enemy they've turned cannibal. Now they're trying to explain how the little weird cult they tried to shit on everyone with has actually victimized them so much more to the people they burned for their special goodboy puritan points. They're trying to recruit personal armies from people who they have really fucked over to go fight the only other people they know with as deep an interest in hateboners, and they are seriously confused why nobody wants to get on their hateboner. If people didn't want to join your group when they thought it was about being annoying woke mfs, why the fuck would people want to join a group where you bitch about how shitty your exfriends were because they were like you?

[Anonymous No.21404742]

Got some kind of infection.
Bad cough, nose won't stop running, sinuses blocked and painful, tonsillitis, can't sleep, vomiting, the drizzling shits, non-stop sweating, ear ache, brain zaps.
Anyway, if you see some fucker coughing on the bus then run for cover, save yourself the hassle of this horseshit.

[Anonymous No.21404746]

>>21397975
>tfw you accidentally (You) yourself and look a fool

[Anonymous No.21404749]

>>21404103
Wealth is useless beyond the grave.

[Anonymous No.21404854]

>>21404742
Yeah i hadd the same thing. I'm over the coughing and sinus problems but I've had this lingering headcahe and lethargy for weeks. It's a nightmare.

[Anonymous No.21404890]

>>21403547
>pray for big titted goth gf
>get ball cancer
thanks god

[Anonymous No.21404893]

My current teaching gig at the universty expires on the 11th of january, but I still get paid until the middle of february.
I'm reading Oblomov, and, inspired by him, strongly considering 6 weeks of full-on infantile regression. Last night I looked up videos of the Tamriel Rebuilt mod for Morrowind, which has been in development for 20 years or so by now. I think I'm gonna download it and try my best to recreate the wonder and magic I felt when I first played Morrowind at age 11. Winter can suck my dick, as can obligations and social norms expecting me to not be a manchild but instead be a permawagie.

[Anonymous No.21404925]

Why can't I tell how I feel why am I so fucking retarded I am sure I do not feel, like can't feel, I'm so confused.

OK I feel confusion that's somethign I guess

[Anonymous No.21404946]

>>21404746
how would this even happen

[vbvc No.21404966]

>>21402515
I agree

[vbvc No.21404972]

>>21404946
nta but if you end up trying to get fancy with reply chains a body is liable to mix up a couple of big random numbers.

[vbvc No.21404975]

>>21404946
>>21404972
lol I was fucking around and forgot to clear the name field. see how easy it is?

[vbvc !pa7KljsyW2 No.21404980]

Duchamp

[Anonymous No.21404992]

>>21403668
>They aren't as smart as they think they are.

fucking retard

[Anonymous No.21405001]

Found out there was this unfinished Wimsey novel that another author was given to finish. The other couldn't get the characters quite right, though that is quite common with these things, but I'm almost at the half of the novel, yet no one has been murdered yet, though I want to murder a bunch.
It's true that a work contains its author's soul, I have never seen another author truly replicate the vibe of the original one, no matter how much experience writing they had.

[Anonymous No.21405044]

>>21404465
>Spend less time with your wife and kids in order to just make a buck so that yoir family may be financially aflush but spiritually and mentally deficient due to your absence

This shit is literally demonic. How can people actually defend any government or economic system that puts money above the worth of a person?

[Anonymous No.21405056]

Where do i cop this jacket

[Anonymous No.21405136]

>>21405056
Well fuck guess I will never have one.

[Anonymous No.21405148]

The giving heart knows neither grace, nor amends, as it takes from what little of the world its yearning's bidden. How often, you want to be forgiven, how little, you have forgiven.

The sky burning red sings against the night, a battle-scarred plane stained red with the blood of moons slain. The victor is the day, for when it was gone it returned to everyone. Its gentle declaration: "Death to the pale sun, and its many faces!"

The crackling of dead branches, a word or two from the heartbroken wolves and surveying birds. A strange man wandering about, in shambles. His hair, much like his clothes, has sinned against father time, and has been cast out of heaven. He hobbles about like an infant, as he has since lost control of the finer faculties of man.

"Why have you come back here?" A terpid voice was heard against the sounds of the forest. A pale woman was spotted against the assailing elements. Her hair was like the earth of an autumn harvest. Her voice was that of the naiads.

"Don't you know how badly the weather's gotten these past few weeks? It's absolutely mad! First the hailstorm, then the lightning, and now you've come back too!" She barked from across the reach.

"Still your voice, whelp. I've only come to replace my linens." The old man responded calmly, but with an almost clinical urgency. He reaches into the remainder of his coat for something, but is unable to find it.

"Looking for this?" The girl walked toward the old man, arm outstretched. In her hand, a strange portable device resembling a jewelry box, coated in gold and strange engravings. "You dropped it a while back the way you came." She explained.

"How long have you been following me?" The old man nods courteously nods his head, as he receives his lost item.

"About seventy miles." She said. "I meant to visit, you know. Was on the way to see how you were doing. I thought you meant to stay at the village for two more weeks, but then I saw you leaving, and decided to follow you. No idea it would take this long, that's for sure."

"Determined, aren't we? Don't you have better things to do than harrass your elders?" He grumbled, as the two continued to walk along the trail.

"Why didn't you stay at the village like I asked?" She sighed dejectedly.

"That village was doomed, same as the rest." He said, as he activated the strange device.

"You never believe in me, like Nonad." She whined. "Nonad does everything right, and I don't."

"You really are hopeless, aren't you child?" He said, staring intently into the active mechanisms of the jeweled box. "Nonad couldn't survive the elements, yet you find unlimited energy to pester me without end."

The old man pointed the device in the direction of an empty field. The device whirred and whined, until eventually a cabin appeared against the frozen landscape.

[Anonymous No.21405150]

>>21405056
https://happygentleman.com/product/infinity-ek02-mens-vintage-antique-sherling-sheepskin-cream-fur-air-force-pilot-raf-jacket/
You can get cheaper versions if you don't mind it being plastic

[Anonymous No.21405151]

>>21402471
I'm a fan of Ardbeg myself

[Anonymous No.21405165]

>>21405148
>The old man nods courteously nods his head, as he receives his lost item.
I cannot type. Should read something like

>The old man courteously nodded his head, as he received the lost item.

[Anonymous No.21405184]

Is it worth doing a graduate degree to get a high-end brand name on your resume?

[Anonymous No.21405214]

>>21397975
I want to tie her in the woods, put her panties in her mouth and eat out her throat.

[Anonymous No.21405234]

>>21404746
I reread my post and read the post that (You)'d me and wanted to reply to that other anon to continue the conversation but I accidentally (You)'d my post instead of his and now I'm sad

[Anonymous No.21405336]

>>21405214
Started off hot but ended on a sour note

[Anonymous No.21405345]

>>21403553
Romans 8:28
This verse gets me through life

[Anonymous No.21405364]

I looketh at EVOLUTION and I was humbled. Shit my nibba, this random process createth the biosphere and all tha little nibbas on it. And so I sayeth: EVOLUTION, I am humbled by your creations and Evolution sayeth: it is okay my nibba

[Anonymous No.21405365]

>>21405345
I just wish I could feel what mission God entrusted to me.

[Anonymous No.21405381]

>>21405365
Someone once told me you do the most work for the Lord when you don't realize you're doing anything at all. Just live by faith and God will direct you as needed

[Anonymous No.21405389]

>>21405381
I'll pray to this thought.

[Anonymous No.21405473]

Bros what are some books about werewolves? I think werewolves are super cool and wanna read a werewolf story

[Anonymous No.21405518]

>>21397975
I love AI

[Anonymous No.21405519]

I like to draw and paint here and there and would like to develop that further but I'm worried I'm too autistic to create the art that I imagine. I feel like I'm too rigid and detail focused, trying to make everything perfect where it doesn't need to be and I don't want it to be, I want to develop a loose and more abstract style but I get so hung up on detail.

[Anonymous No.21405529]

Thinking about writing a religious text for a larger fantasy work. Basically, I'm going really deep into developing the religions for the world to the point that I want to include their holy texts to have a more concrete background for their beliefs. Overall the story is going to be very analytical about religion and discuss what the characters mean when they say the word "god." One such religion is the equivalent of taking Ecclesiastes, Job and the "Fear the Lord" bits of the Bible too far to the point that they view God much in the way that Lovecraft was inspired to write. So it's basically similar to the Bible but written from the devil's coping and seething point of view about how he thinks the omnipotent god is a dick and all-evil rather than all-good, and cover the story of a doomed "hero" fated to never find victory against an unstoppable demiurge. I don't think it'd be good for it to have some kind of optimistic outlook, but maybe someone here can change my mind. It's a pretty nihilistic religion and won't last long in the society of the story, but it will have a fleeting presence.

[Anonymous No.21405612]

>>21405529
Don't write the whole thing, just make up a few dozen relevant quotes

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21405624]

following witnessing his birth from his mother in a time travel adventure:
'karada-wo kowasu-kara mou-ne-nasaitteba'
-tamako.
'doushi-ta-nda, kyuunibenkyou-shi dashi-te'
his father
These are the closing words of the chapter.
What does this mean? It describes in this personalization of the romaji, indestructible wish to me. The devotion eternal. The miraculous birth and creator's hand of due time. Complete in the total firmament: a personal testament Nobita is given by a higher power.

[Anonymous No.21405668]

Thoughts are like dishes. Some are wholesome and some are indigestible. The indigestible thoughts make him who thinks them sluggish, discontented, and dull. That's why I stopped eating such filth. For a long time I had the thought: What if there is no God? I became quite upset by it. I could not digest it. So I stopped thinking that thought. I eat what suits me and think what suits me, and call anyone who makes himself sick a lunatic.

[Anonymous No.21405678]

>>21402573
Why would someone lie about being 50 years old?

[Anonymous No.21405704]

>>21405612
WRONG.
>>21405529
write it but never release it. Keep it in the autistic notes of your world building and only reference when needed. It will make the world feel more alive but less outwardly autistic. My fantasy world I'm working on has serveral major religions that have indepth structures but they will only come into play through the eyes of the characters. World building for the sake of world building is boring and cringe. World building FOR your guys and gals (hopefully you dont have women in your book tho) is based and fun

[Anonymous No.21405729]

>>21405519
Get drunk or do drugs

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21405749]

>>21405624
so i got back to what it meant to me when I read it this morning if anon's care:

'the body cyclic, eternal, at once forgotten or destroyed, from this there will be a surjective truth standing amongst falsehoods [logic note xor], and it really I say, as I wish, while my word stands'
his mother
'how at the source, my hand, i surely say unto thee, in excelsius dei devotedly you will be, extinguishing with your hand, this is thine centerfold reason that doth unfold'
but i think i added some to my personal translation. like, excelsius dei is empty, one (1), so really who knows the view, which comes from anatta, over there as it is not-self, and that is the source of this fastened/godspeed logum, now being written.

so it is really like a book of the dead of sorts. 'going forth by day.' In soberness emphasize skill and my hands to play random chance cards. it should be over soon~

whenever I read Japanese it makes me think of older english/language, the grammar.

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21405757]

>>21405749
i think i meant implication. for the logic note. not really good with discrete math lmao

[Anonymous No.21405791]

>>21405704
>write it but never release it

Yeah, I actually think this is the way to go. JK Rowling has the 'tism and it's become more and more clear whenever someone asks her some obscure lore question and she answers it without second thought because it's already in her canon notes at home. We only see a fraction of the world she's built in her head, but that honestly makes it better because the world has a logic that doesn't have to constantly be explained and justified. And sometimes it's for the better we don't know that certain characters are into kinky shit or how they poop.

[Anonymous No.21405820]

i've averted masturbation by going outside and doing work in the garage

[Anonymous No.21405821]

>>21405820
infinitely based

[Anonymous No.21405828]

>>21397975
I miss my psycho juice

[Anonymous No.21405834]

>>21405791
She literally just makes it up as she goes along

[Anonymous No.21405861]

>>21405820
endlessly cringe

[Anonymous No.21406047]

>>21405791
Rowling is NOT the one you should be emulating. (Except for being anti trans, that parts zased).
I was thinking of Tolkien

[Anonymous No.21406052]

>>21405820
She cute

[Anonymous No.21406055]

>>21406052
Anon, I...

[Anonymous No.21406056]

>>21397975
Does anyone have a link to the official /lit/ discord server?

[Anonymous No.21406061]

>>21406056
sent :-)

[allison !MZgZR0q1GY No.21406069]

To that dog with down syndrome,
God knows his ho'e reelm,
soap above, as it birthe beelowe,
as it's day
our transgressions refresh,
our blasphemies saved,
our heresies be downloaded,
lead us not into temp,
but sent mail hour antic wares
as we b133p they who cannot fourcheese us,
omen!

[Anonymous No.21406142]

I'm a fucking international assassin
or a bank robber
whatever, it's something badass
I squint my eyes and look past the camera
so cool

[Anonymous No.21406154]

new: >>21406114

[Anonymous No.21406345]

>>21403359
4chan wasn't the first but right now it's the last.

[Anonymous No.21406709]

>>21406345
I miss being able to insult people on YouTube comments

[Anonymous No.21407547]

>>21398423
Love it