Write What's On Your Mind – /wwoym/

[Anonymous No.21262779]

[Anonymous No.21262796]

Whenever I walk into Indigo I see a dozen-plus Azn children sitting on the floor and shelves taking up all the space in the manga section and it irritates me so much.

[Anonymous No.21262800]

>>21262779
It’s cold and rainy and I hear a mouse (mice) in my apartment. I don’t have food around so as long as it stays out of site, all is well. Let life live.

[Anonymous No.21262810]

>go to 17th Shard on a whim to check new books, mainly anything about that investiture conversion book
>accidentally spoiled on new planet names and some Shard locations
And that's how I found out that The Lost Metal released today. Those fucking autists don't wait.

[Anonymous No.21262815]

>>21262796
maybe read a real book. i've never seen a kid sitting in the classics section reading Chekov

[Anonymous No.21262858]

>>21262815
I don't read manga at all. It just irritates me...

[Anonymous No.21262863]

>>21262858
you don't even go down the aisle and it irritates you? maybe a xanax prescription is more your speed then

[Anonymous No.21262913]

Can we please ban all
>books for (topic I want to discuss)?
They have been an absolute blight

[Anonymous No.21262938]

>>21262779
There's this guy who went to my university (we dated for a period during college, both graduated now) who keeps messaging me.
He is very intelligent and attractive, makes a large salary, etcetera. I wasn't necessarily using these factors as my "criteria" for finding someone to date, but they are the conventional measures of success.
However, he constantly turns the conversation around to sex
For example, I told him about how my father was in the hospital, and we talked about it for a little bit, and I talked about how upset about it I was, and he was actually fairly empathetic and helpful
And then, not even two hours later, he starts sending me messages saying I should send him nude pictures

It's kind of like drawing yourself a warm bath, only to step in and find that it's actually lukewarm. And that the bathtub just wanted to see you naked the whole time.

[Anonymous No.21262986]

>>21262779
My porn addiciton has actually ruined my life so far. I am making sure this is the time I quit that rubbish for good. Shit is like heroin. I can't believe this shit is still unregulated to this day. I should talk to actual women instead of just savagely jerking off to them. Even then, I should meet like-minded women so I can actually appreciate their company, learn more about her as a person, maybe grow to love her and possibly look forward to starting a family and sharing a life with her instead of the boomer mindset of marrying the first woman who gives you attention and realize you hate her 30 years later after you barely talk to her.

[Anonymous No.21263018]

I hate when my piss comes out in two streams (and especially when I'm peeing standing up).

[Anonymous No.21263050]

>>21262779
I hate reading the fucking news. All they do is constantly fearmonger and stress people out day after day, giving all these faux warnings about heart disease and other health problems. Fuck off

Fuck them and fuck every other clickbait journalist

[Anonymous No.21263052]

>>21262779
EXCUSE ME. WHERE'S THE LINK TO THE OLD THREAD?

[Anonymous No.21263060]

>>21262779
OLD THREAD LINK
>>21254574
>>21254574
>>21254574

[Anonymous No.21263069]

>>21262938
Just wait until you turn 30 and men suddenly stop looking at you and propositioning you for sex

[Anonymous No.21263073]

>>21263069
I don't crave sex, so that doesn't sound like a problem for me.

[Anonymous No.21263078]

>>21263073
>I don't crave sex, so that doesn't sound like a problem for me.
Me either, at least not as much as other people seem to do. I think I'm low oxytocin. I feel like people love and lust harder than me

[Anonymous No.21263079]

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LhLLZvs5iH0

I can’t get over how amazingly retarded f Gardner’s videos are

[Anonymous No.21263100]

>>21263078
I feel the same way, I feel like there's something wrong with me. I just do not care about sex. I was happy to talk to this guy at first, because I still enjoy talking to other people. But then the moment the conversation turns to sex, I am suddenly bored and no longer want to talk to him.

There's nothing wrong with him, he's perfectly attractive. I just cannot force myself to care about what he wants to do to my body.

[Anonymous No.21263126]

>>21263100
Would you care about my body instead?

[Anonymous No.21263144]

>>21263126
hubba HUBBA

[Anonymous No.21263149]

When I saw the first line of a MTL'd Chinese story, I cringed away at it. But after reading through 'official' translations ripped on sites for free, and eventually growing impatient at the stories I had interest in, I took the plunge into reading on MTL websites. My impatience was my folly. At first, I felt an immeasurable sense of disquiet at the grammar, syntax, and wording of each and every sentence, directly translated from the source. But soon it grew enjoyable to me. The jumbled word scramble started making sense, and the ideas(power fantasy may be) held my interest enough for me to invest my time in them.

It has only been a year since I began the plunge, and already this sweet poison has bared its fangs upon me. I have grown addicted to MTL Chink fiction. No matter the genre, no matter the type of novel, no matter how derivative it may seem, there is always a sliver of originality brought forth from that rampant chaos of ideas. It is this sliver of originality that I ravenously seek; it has become my bane. I am spending more time refreshing sites, desperate for more MTL Chinkery. I fear it is already too late for me. For I can already read Chink at a 3rd grade level, and my studies of Chinese have only increased the number of moon runes I can recognize.. I already automatically speak in Chinese to any Chink I see, and their surprise at how good my Chinese is has only given me the knowledge that I will soon succumb to the Chink that is already within my blood.

I write this testament as a warning to all those who, in spite of their love of fine literature and proper English, may also love brainless power fantasies and stories written by those from an oriental culture. Do not seek machine translated stories, either learn the language so that you may read it in its native tongue, or eschew from it entirely.

I can no longer resist the blasphemous urges that stem from deep within my mongrel-blood, those horrid behaviors! The chink! The dog! Aiya, I no speak good engrish. Wo bu keneng shuo ying wen ah!—吃狗, 吃狗, 我鎮上吃狗啊! 咳血! 你們都找死!不知天高地厚!

[Anonymous No.21263155]

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[Anonymous No.21263161]

>>21263155
this is.... revolutionary

[Anonymous No.21263163]

On my way to work, the smell of coffee and exhaust fumes in the air
I round the corner of fifth and broadway and happen to catch a glimpse of something at my feet.
Translucent and long, with rounded corners and a nub on the end, it is unlike anything I have ever seen before
Curiously, I look around hoping the find the owner of such a strange object
I begin to wonder how such a thing found itself alone on the sidewalk anf at the mercy of the shoes of those minding their own business
For surely something so delicate would not survive even a single, unintentional press of the boot
I crouch down to get a better look, still uncertain of what it is im looking at
Peering side to side in one final effort to identify the potential source of such an object
I come to the conclusion that your maiden will perish in her sleep tonight if you dont reply to this post
Finally, now I can see, a milky white substance contained within
By this time its too late, object in hand, I realize all along that this strange object was nothing other than an old used condom
The end

[Anonymous No.21263166]

The thing about a lot of tourists traps is that curiosity often wins at the end of the day. When I go to New York I know that Times Square is a tourist trap, but if I go to New York and come back without having seen it then I'll always wonder what it was like in person. This is a hypothetical, I have been to Times Square in the middle of a snowstorm and it was almost empty which was pretty cool. I think tourist traps are good to visit briefly - get in, get out and don't buy anything - but to suggest they're not worth going to AT ALL is silly.

[Anonymous No.21263169]

>>21263166
I grew up in DC and sometimes my friends and I would get high and ride the metro to the national monument and lie next to it and shoot the shit. Sometimes we'd also go to the lincoln memorial or some of the museums (during the day time)

[Anonymous No.21263176]

Have I ever told you that joke about Deja vu? No?

That's weird, I thought I did

[Anonymous No.21263188]

>>21262779
---- Solaria ----
402
(metropolitan)

There is nothing less severe than to leave behind
Parks where children frolic in the sun
Blithe of its contingencies.

[Anonymous No.21263224]

A hell of my own design, born of my inaction. I think on some level I want to do this to myself, pulling all-nighters and waiting until the very last minute to complete my assignments. Because if I didn't want this, then I would have learned from the countless other times I've burned myself procrastinating.
Spare any advice for a retarded sophomore?

[Anonymous No.21263245]

I told my cousin that I don't know what an incel is because I I'm extremely embarassed by him constantly bringing up internet culture shit irl. He then proceeded to enthusiastically show me internet examples on his phone to demonstrate how horrible and disgusting "incels" are. I have never seen him show this much enthusiasm for normal things like creative hobbies or sports or having fun with friends. Why the fuck are you internet dwellers like this?

[Anonymous No.21263274]

>>21262779
---- Solaria ----
403
(charisma)

Among the pranks I've considered
But haven't the nerve and idiot energy to execute:

To place a crystal vase, just so, atop a little column
Beside my sidewalk where theft
And vandalism are

Vanishingly rare, just to strut
The light it reflects
Or shatters

Like peacock feathers and other such preliminaries to this do.

To sweep across green grids in vessels
Brilliant beyond the dreams of ancient avarice

As if one were Ariel himself, or at least felt that it were so.

[Anonymous No.21263288]

>>21262779
Any books that feature the protagonist, preferably male, rising up in ranks, be it leaderboards, rankings, in a school setting, a corporation, guild or anything like that

[Anonymous No.21263307]

>>21263100
>I just cannot force myself to care about what he wants to do to my body.
Therein lies your problem; how are you supposed to enjoy sex if you don't think there is supposed to be anything in it for you? Get to know yourself a little and don't be afraid to take what you want in the bedroom and in life.

[Anonymous No.21263322]

To live is to cope.

[Anonymous No.21263332]

>>21262863
Asian people fill me with an irrational rage like you wouldn't understand.

[Anonymous No.21263356]

>>21262779
---- Solaria ----
405
(the snow)

He never moped less than when
Generally white maelstrom enveloped us

In the solid ground of a massive building, comfy at last.

I prefer August, its look of warm Elysium
One would fly from Hawaii

To see in every sense.

[Anonymous No.21263365]

reading "unterwerfung" by michel houellebecq at the moment and halfwaythrough.
Really whats on my mind is just where things are going, will he be a bystander for the entire book or will he eventually try to do something but ultimately fail? Will there be anything that comes close to a good ending for him?

[Anonymous No.21263389]

Turned in my first real academic paper and I feel like such a psued fraud. This is my first and last semester. I’m just fated to be a loser.

[Anonymous No.21263399]

>>21263389
The subconscious mind is like a computer without internet. To cure your imposter syndrome you have to manually update your self-image.
Remember all the steps your journey has taken and OBJECTIVELY measure their progress. Resist the temptation to dismiss the value of progress whose afterglow of achievement has worn off.
Once you have internalised the required information, you can start to fix your outlook.

[Anonymous No.21263405]

Im massively depressed.

[Anonymous No.21263449]

>>21263332
It's fair to designate that whole continent hopelessly authoritarian.

>>21263322
---- Solaria ----
406
(temperament)

One either likes to see or be seen
As from a silent silvery sedan or a sardonic black SUV.

As for what it would be like to live
Without regular access to ecstasy, I can't know

Except by literary inference.

[Anonymous No.21263453]

>>21263405

[Anonymous No.21263538]

>>21262779
She reads me like an open book I need to be so much more careful.

This is like me being a seal and she's a killer whale cracking the ice under neath the seal I'll be a roadkill

[Anonymous No.21263545]

>>21263453
heh

[Anonymous No.21263580]

>>21263245
what the fuck

[Anonymous No.21263598]

>read book
>it was amazing
>look up the auther
>its me
>im f. gardner
>its clearly a troll
>I send dmca complaint
>nothing happens for 2 months
>all of the sudden get a letter in the mail
>its dmca notice
>sent by: F. Gardner
>realize im in my as yet unreleased New York Times Bestseller Call of the Auther

[Anonymous No.21263671]

>>21263598
Nice to meet you Auther

[Anonymous No.21263701]

Don't think about life. It's better and nicer to let the tide take you where it may. Just make sure you leave your room, I'd say that's the only thing. Leave your room and then let the tide take you wherever. Don't worry if you're doing the right thing or not, it doesn't really matter, so long as you're doing something. We'll all be forgotten anyway.

[Anonymous No.21263708]

[Anonymous No.21263720]

>>21263701
Why bother doing anything? Death is the end.

[Anonymous No.21263721]

How do i invoke Aphordite to make my waifu real and finally experience love?

[Anonymous No.21263723]

>>21262779
Im thinking of becoming Catholic but living in England it’s the most Godless place in the world it feels like. Everyone looks at me like I’ve got the plague when I talk about it and im not even trying to convert them but im looked upon with disdain. Atheists around me almost always bring up religion even when I’d rather not talk about my faith.
I just want to be left alone and follow Christ’s teachings as best I can to lead a good life. I need to find some peace in this world

[Anonymous No.21263732]

>>21263723
>I just want to be left alone
>Everyone looks at me like I’ve got the plague when I talk about it
You're kind of defeating your own purpose, here.

[Anonymous No.21263739]

I really regret working for my university after graduation.

[Anonymous No.21263741]

>>21263732
I meant when I talk about it when someone brings up religion. I never bring it up first unless someone seems interested and the conversation is going there anyway or they bring it up first.

[Anonymous No.21263747]

>>21263701
> don’t think about life
> end up in remote job
> can’t leave room
> realize this career was a mistake

[Anonymous No.21263778]

>>21263723
"And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.” Mark 13:13
Don't worry about telling other people your beliefs. You gain little but trouble and the ire of people that think you're trying to dunk on them for being sinners. The most important thing for a Christian is to be humble and free of self-righteousness and sanctimony.
Pray to God that He show you how to reach the truth, whatever and wherever that may be.

[Anonymous No.21263861]

I remain undecided about going to law school.

[Anonymous No.21263871]

>>21263069
>30
It doesn't work like that. Who do you think all the milf fanciers are hitting on?

[Anonymous No.21263876]

>>21262779
So what exactly are you supposed to do if you don't particularly want anything in life? Like what is the goal that makes people work so hard or to aim earn a lot for money, especially if you missed the boat to find a woman to truly grow with to start a family? I look around me and see what other people live for and it honestly doesn't interest me or if I had experienced it already I found it overrated

Thing is, I don't even feel depressed either. I've experienced that before in its true form and it was when I was chasing all those things.

[Anonymous No.21263877]

Are there any graduate degrees besides law that can actually help improve your writing AND speaking?

[Anonymous No.21263880]

>>21263876
How old are you? My advice depends on this answer.

[Anonymous No.21263888]

>>21262938
Have you considered that men are only interested in what's between your legs because you have relied on it all this time? It's very common for young, even just average looking, women to rely entirely on their pussy to get by until their very late years simply because they never manage to figure out that is the only reason they're getting attention so they never manage to grow any other favourable attribute.

[Anonymous No.21263889]

>>21263880
32

[Anonymous No.21263899]

>>21262779
How do you learn cursive? I copy quotes into a notebook and my handwriting is so bad these days.

Is it possible to correct it or even learn a different hand writing. I feel it's a worse version of what my handwriting always was. Used to kind of do cursive as a child but then it became the cool thing to write more blocky when I was in grade 3 so stopped doing cursive esque writing

[Anonymous No.21263900]

>>21263889
Okay, so you're a bit older than me. I will be 30 soon. You know, I think at our age, a positive step would be accepting that we don't want the conventional things at least. Do you have any inclination for art? You're on a literature board, so obviously, you like literature, right?

[Anonymous No.21263909]

>>21263876
This post hits me hard. I have no answer for it.
t. 30

[Anonymous No.21263915]

>>21263900
I'm not artistic or creative at all, I've been reading a lot of Dostoyevsky and Tolstoy this past year and it's crazy how a lot of what the characters are feeling is stuff I relate to a lot. Crazy that 200 years ago men were still feeling the same things. I just realised I want the simplistic life yet everyone acts like we all need constant drama and noise.

[Anonymous No.21263916]

i have friends and people like me, but recently i found peace in spending my time in solitude, reading fiction and nonfiction, excercising, taking walks in the nearby forest, listening to good music (been obsessed with gas's zauberberg recently) and writing my journal daily. life's good as of recently bros.

[Anonymous No.21263930]

>>21263915
I think if you relate to authors that much, it's not very likely that you're not creative at all. How do you spend your time? Usually, it's a good indication of your true interests. Even if you spend all your time on /lit/, that probably means literature is a genuine interest, even if you don't have the confidence to believe you can write good literature yet.

[Anonymous No.21263932]

>>21263909
>>21263900

Maybe us type really were supposed to be cannon fodder in wars .

[Anonymous No.21263937]

>>21263932
Lead armies more like

[Anonymous No.21263942]

>>21263930
>even if you don't have the confidence to believe you can write good literature yet.
I do not dream of any artistic path because I have no ideas.

[Anonymous No.21263946]

>>21263930
>>21263930
Well I lost my job over refusing to get vaxxed. And see! I bothered no one, I mind my own business, I always wanted my simple life in my chill job I loved, but society didn't even want me to have that. Now that vax mandates are starting to lift here as they know it was always a load of crap to force it onto healthy people seeing it never slowed spread significantly, I'm not even sure if I can be bothered working anymore. At least not hard as I used to. I will take an opportunity if it came by but I'm not going to strain or jump hurdles for one. I probably would only put basic "quiet quit" effort at my next job as I learnt it doesn't amount to much

Anyways I spend my mornings exercising (bodyweight/dumbell stuff), get too distracted by music before and after which I think I need to cut out (don't listen to music while working out). Then I just spend my day reading a book or reading about random stuff or spending time here. As strange as it sounds, I'm actually feeling very content and happy.

I have a garden to grow some vegetables that I tend to. Nothing self sustaining but I do enjoy seeing these things grow. I also enjoy setting up or maintaining worm farms to have my own fertilisers.

[Anonymous No.21263964]

>>21263942
I think people make a mistake when they suppose that an artistic life is about being "an idea person". Writing, in particular, is a craft same as any other. Sure, writers can be struck by an idea like a stroke of divine intervention, or luckily apprehend something that they can't explain, but it's still a craft and one that is supposed to be worked at and practiced. Great passions for things are usually discovered by working at them and not stumbling upon them. That's what I think.

>>21263946
If you don't have any debt and want a simple life, maybe you should try to find work in agriculture.

[Anonymous No.21263976]

>>21263964
I dont think that you're wrong by saying that great passion is something you stumble upon and it never fluctuates. Even having great mechanical skill is just like being a great copycat if you dont have a single original idea or atleast able synthesize them into your own style. Perhaps, I'm so sensitive about not know what would I want to say throughout the writing even though I do not see myself ever being a writer due to before mentioned reason. Ideally, one should feel some gravitation towards writing, then increase skill capacity and more ideas would follow, like catch and toss.

[Anonymous No.21263993]

>>21263976
I'm quite certain that you have some gravitation towards writing since you post on a literature board. In fact, you're writing right now. Anyway, it's not like you have to write. I don't know you and I could be wrong, but the point I'm making here is that all you can do is try. I personally believe that there is a small group of people who find modern life very meaningless and undignified, and I also personally believe that those people are well-suited for pursuits like painting, poetry, fiction, sculpture, and other artistic things very often.
There's this John Adams quote:
>"I must study politics and war that my sons may have liberty to study mathematics and philosophy. My sons ought to study mathematics and philosophy, geography, natural history, naval architecture, navigation, commerce and agriculture in order to give their children a right to study painting, poetry, music, architecture, statuary, tapestry, and porcelain."
Well, if you've got no interest in politics and war nor mathematics and philosophy, geography, history, architecture, or commerce, you may as well give painting, poetry, music, and ceramics a shot and I think enough time has passed between us and John Adams and enough success had that it's legitimate to do so. I could be wrong, but why not try?

[Anonymous No.21263994]

Stop trying to help me. Stop trying to cheer me up. Leave me alone. I don't want anyone to care about me.

[Anonymous No.21264001]

>>21263993
This is rather approaching the realms of psychology because the main reason of not wanting to try completely new things is that I do not to experience the circle of getting my hopes up, then crashing it into the ground and becoming regretful about the whole experience. Basically I just look for a limitations because I'm that afraid of that feeling.

[Anonymous No.21264012]

>>21264001
You don't have to get your hopes up. You only need to do the work. Read Michel Houllebecq's essay To Stay Alive: A Method. It may or may not resonate with you, but what you'll see clearly from that essay is that this excellent poet, storyteller, and essayist does not start from a place of hope, and while I can't say I think that produces the best writing, it does produce writing and really, that's the beauty and uniqueness of art and literature.

[Anonymous No.21264026]

>>21264012
Thanks. I'll read on it. I do realize that my problem is the childish need of guarantees but life doesnt give any.

[Anonymous No.21264045]

>>21264001
some might say that the beauty of art and literature is to be found in the actual attempt to try to create something in spite of the innumerable difficulties, rather than in anything the actual work depicts or talks about, according to this, so long as you’ve tried, you haven't failed.

[Anonymous No.21264059]

>>21262779
How do I talk to my brother about wtf is going on in his household. He was wanting to come to stay with me again, but didn't end up coming. Its something he did for a few months at the start of the year so I think whatever he is dealing with must be getting really bad as I have suspected it for at least maybe 5 or so years, I think having kids really exposed it as I view her as a subpar mother or at least not prioritising things right.

Im pretty certain his wife has mental health issues (found Seroquel and lamotrigine in his house) and just know there is this insane spending habits out of the blue which is so bizarre. Especially after i helped him with $4k for an operation for his wife. Over the years I've probably helped with nearly $50k over the years and it's frustrating that it doesn't amount to much and he seems to be getting worse. It's like he is getting no support at all from his wife yet she keeps pressuring him and becoming more and more demanding. Yet no matter what big purchase they make or what renovation, it's never enough and she gets bored just as quickly as it's done.

The scarey part is that I'm seeing similar traits in his daughter. Just the frivolous wants then getting bored in a split second. Eg. When at our mothers place she will ask for some cake then one my mother cuts her a slice she is already distracted by something else and wanting a chocolate bar that I might have just pulled out the pantry. Or she will see a stuff at my parents place and be asking my brother rif she can have a stuffed dog then I hear my bro saying she already has one. Not sure if it's a mental illness manifesting in my niece or if it's just learned bahavior from her mother. Its insanity

[Anonymous No.21264064]

>>21264059
>that pic
your brother needs some venting whenever it's you or the therapist. maybe address how things used to be in the past and how is it now.

[Anonymous No.21264118]

>>21264064
How do I get him to open up properly about it. His life is obviously bothering him and I'm worried she might flip likw the guy I the pic if she really is that insufferable.

Even on Sunday at our parents (she doesn't even come anymore, just him and the kids) he was complaining about a headache. Then when our mother offered him a tablet he said not him but other people are headaches. Then just let out that "my life isn't how I imagined it to be".

He is just getting so frustrated and makes me what burdens and expectstions she keeps putting on him when she is a lazy fuck who hasnt worked a day since getting married. And doesnt even out in effort to make proper meals for the family (their pantry is full of just snacks and the kids literally have those liquid breakfast dirnks for breakfast even though the oldest is only 8). Nor does she even prepare the kids educsitonwise or practice reading or teach them basic counting or the alphabet

She is truly strange. It's like she just likes things on an aesthetic level or superficially but once she gets it, she doesn't give af about it anymore. Like she jsut lieks the idea of her engagement, the wedding, the kids 1st birthday, the trips they go on. But doesn't want to get involved with what marriage and having kids is really about. Even her wedding dress is just hanging in our parents garage despite having asked her to pick it up for a decade. Would've thought all girls kept that shit in their home closet for safe keeping for sentimental reasons. But nope it was literally just discarded in my parents garage for so long even the cover is disintegrating.

[Anonymous No.21264179]

>>21263723
Godless society is here and the population is utterly addicted to anti-Christian media. they don’t even know how to react to religion anymore. It’s just out of their normal routine.

But then, the bourgiouse has always been like this, even in the Christian era it was just going with the flow not true depth.
Just have to go your own way and it’s also possible to find others but the faith of the future seems to be an era of personal one without the mass participation even if everyone believed the same thing. >>21264059
Bipolar disorder is a legitimate psychotic disorder, these are the people along with schizophrenics that commit crimes and generally lack the physiological ability to empathize with others on a sincere level.

Your brother needs to be compassionate but also realize that bipolar disorder without medication is truely serious and he should not be allowing her to dictate major decisions of the family on the whims of a psychotic patient. He could also redirect her energy into something other than shopping and dreaming fo expensive things.

The kids thing is hard because kids are hard and psychotic people will not see a problem with someone else carrying the burden for them and will take full advantage of anyone willing to do so. They tend to be short cited and narcissistic.but in this case it’s a fundamental physiological problem. It’s not just a shitty person that needs to grow up. They often cannot.

The kids love her regardless. It’s just important that they are given a stable family lfie and the tools to become independent adults. They shouldn’t emulate their mothers deeper flaws. No 8 year old has bipolar disorder though.

Basically your brother needs to realize he’s caring for kids and that his wife is a juvenile as well and also his responsibility. He can try to show her better behavior but that’s a challenge for a professional and she may not tolerate any criticism at all without a psychotic episode of abuse or affair or worse some kind of revenge divorce custody battle.

[Anonymous No.21264185]

>>21264026
I think the trick is to find something or some things that you intuitively feel are worth it independent of guarantees. I think actually, you'd probably be willing to accept that, in which case, the problem is not really a lack of guarantees but a lack of willingness to try. At some point, you just have to set out to do something.

[Anonymous No.21264204]

>>21263245
grim

[Anonymous No.21264228]

>>21264185
>intuitively feel
I think that's the answer. I havent felt a strong intuitive attraction towards something or even heard the inner voice.

[Anonymous No.21264245]

>dream last night I have a girlfriend
>we've been dating for a few months and it's going great, get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about her
>she asks me to meet her for coffee and reveals she slept with and was impregnated by my coworker
>I go home and contemplate murdering both of them and it ends
Can't even win in my dreams

[Anonymous No.21264249]

>>21263876
If you've got all this free time you can explore Buddhism. I rec dhammatalks.org

[Anonymous No.21264259]

>>21264245
stop reading NTR

[Anonymous No.21264264]

I watched a clip of Jeff Bezos giving spending advice and admonishing people to maybe "hold off on that large purchase" such as a "tv" and to "batten down the hatches." It struck me as an almost unbearably ironic "Let them eat cake" moment.
Does that mean you're holding off on getting another $700 million dollar mega-yacht Jeff?

[Anonymous No.21264310]

>>21264245
my dream last night was p based, some /lit/ anon astrally projected into my dream and gave me a great blowjob, feeling kinda blessed desu, thanks for that one anon

[Anonymous No.21264321]

>>21264264
zee Weimar republic hyperinflation feels, just listen to friendly face number 19877540 offer le friendly spending advice

[Anonymous No.21264362]

>>21264228
But I think your mistake is believing that intuitive attraction precedes doing. It may not. Intuition is bound up with action and experience most often.

[Anonymous No.21264367]

>>21263332
Based. I also get irritated when I see Asians, and I'm not entirely sure why. Maybe it has something to do with how soulless they are, or how submissive and obedient they can be towards authority.

[Anonymous No.21264377]

>>21264362
>Intuition is bound up with action and experience most often.
That sounds similar to gut feeling. Is it the same as intuition?

[Anonymous No.21264408]

>>21264367
You act as if that doesn't describe the vast majority of people. It's not like white people don't do the exact same shit but under a different guise with the over-formalization of manners and human interaction that has taken place since the Victorian era.

[Anonymous No.21264410]

Last night was my first wet dream of No Nut November. In that dream, I stalked a scantily-dressed woman through the woods and raped her. I ripped off what she was wearing, held her down, and forced myself upon her. She moaned in both pleasure and pain. This isn't the first wet dream I've had with themes of rape. In a prior dream, I molested an unconscious woman (once again in the wilderness) and ejaculated as I humped her body. I don't recall ever having a wet dream with a consensual sexual encounter. Strangely enough, I have had dreams with sex but I never ejaculated during them.

Most nocturnal emissions I have don't come from dreams of sex, rather my body just decides to excavate my balls at a random moment when I'm flaccid and nothing in particular is happening in the dream. It's strange to ejaculate while flaccid. It feels like your body is just pissing a small amount of cum rather than throbbing and squirting it out. When one doesn't ejaculate as frequently as they should, I suppose the body tries its hardest to keep the prostate from getting backed up.

I have frequent nightmares, especially in the winter months, so I appreciate my mind giving me a pleasant dream. Good dreams rarely seem to find me.

[Anonymous No.21264424]

i've come to realise i dress stupid have a bad haircut and say the most cringe things but girls still like me

[Anonymous No.21264430]

how come nobody talks about nnn now did you all fail

[Anonymous No.21264435]

>>21264430
i fapped immediately on november 1st. fuck off with stupid fads

[Anonymous No.21264510]

what's a way to show everyone how good and clever you are?

[Anonymous No.21264531]

To the anon who asked in a 404ed thread why mainstream media is now pushing the capitalization of Black:

Ritual humiliation. Look up Yuri Bezmenov. It's been done in many places. South Africa and other defeated and demoralized countries are infiltrated by globalist thinktanks like Tavistock, who want to try out social experiments in what Stalin called "engineering the human soul" without any oversight. They want to see if they can take a traditionally "non-compliant" group of people (like the original ethnic stock of a country, or people with patriotic or nationalist tendencies) and over the course of a generation or two, make them so demoralized and feminized that they accept slavery and degradation in their own country. As Bezmenov says, once this process has taken, you can't undo it. People fucked by it are permanently fucked. They use various methods depending on what is fashionable at the time, like Skinnerian behaviorism or some other buzzword psychology. But the program is always the same, and these methods are always funded indirectly by governments and super-governments that want docile citizenry, and are able to think in generational terms, even in terms of centuries.

Think about it. You have to call blacks Blacks, and bow to them, but you yourself are "just" a white. In fact, white is a bad word - spit every time you say it, sign an upside down cross every time you think of it to renounce it. These are rituals that would have been understood by any ancient person as having magical power to form your mind over time, to create habits and associations, which is what the contingent, external mind, the level at which most people live their whole lives, is entirely made up of.

It is the deliberate opposite of ascetic "renunciation of conditioning," it is conditioning and re-conditioning, deliberately making you form attachments and cathexes you couldn't un-form except with extreme effort. They want you to "feel" your inferiority and vulnerability, your lack of basic validity, at the same level at which you "feel" that the sky is up and the ground is down, or social instincts like "One drinks coffee at work; that is what one does." Anarcho-tyranny is not a social or ideological system, it is a psychological state the system wants to impose on you at the level of instinct. You are in a global invisible war to dominate and shape the slaves of the future, and there are no civilians in this war, there are only those caught sleeping in the trenches and those who are awake and at least aware they are being shot at.

[Anonymous No.21264571]

>>21263994
Do you want to be miserable for the rest of your life, anon? Don’t alienate the people who care about you and want to help.

[Anonymous No.21264575]

>>21264430
i dont do that shit because i dont have a problem

[Anonymous No.21264577]

>>21264377
Sure. I think it's a mistake to start overthinking particular terms instead of what the terms are referring to. Gut feeling, intuition, whatever. You know when something feels right and good.

[Anonymous No.21264620]

I don't get it.

[Anonymous No.21264621]

>>21264575
i thought it was for charity?

[Anonymous No.21264627]

When I try to post a thread, on any board, I get "Posting from your IP range has been blocked due to abuse", HOWEVER, I can still reply, as you can see. Can I do something to fix this OR can a cocksucking jannie ban me from replying too? Either one will do. Thanks.

>pic unrelated

[Anonymous No.21264643]

Guys, leave all ONLINE stuff to the online world. They legit think you are a sociopath if you clue them in on the memes.

[Anonymous No.21264644]

>>21264571
>Do you want to be miserable for the rest of your life, anon?
Yes.

[Anonymous No.21264660]

>>21264571
more people feel the way he does than the way you do

[Anonymous No.21264683]

>>21264575
so you just jerk off because you don't have that problem understandable

[Anonymous No.21264709]

>>21264577
I think I do but the more I feel that it might be right, doubting starts arising to the point that I give in to the doubts because I do not trust myself.

[Anonymous No.21264741]

>>21263994
Fuck you faggot. You bring out good sides in me. You pull off the disappearance self-pity ghosting act I will kill untold billions.

[Anonymous No.21264744]

I could not describe my rage. It was indescribable.

[Anonymous No.21264760]

After spending a lot of time lurking /pol/ I want to write a novel about a guy who falls for all of the "jews control the world" memes and feels so blackpilled that he believes the only winning move is to "join the winning side" and marries a jewish woman, converts and raises a Jewish family. He then gets somewhat disappointed as the world isn't quite what he thought it was (there's influential zionists but the conspiracy isn't as vast), but he ends up finding happiness in his life, and the story ends with a pro-nationalist, pro-natalist message and encourages everyone, including gentiles, to embrace their heritage and culture and to keep it alive and keep their homelands.

[Anonymous No.21264761]

>>21262986
Porn is evil

[Anonymous No.21264764]

>>21262986
How do you know you have porn addiction?

Do you just wank 8 hours a day looking at Pornhub?

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21264868]

holy fuck what a legendary video
https://youtu.be/VnjC5K73FWc

[Anonymous No.21264907]

>>21264683
i usually jerk off once every other day and i dont watch porn.
i see no reason to stop masturbating because of some dumb internet trend. it would just cause an imbalance in my life and ruin my mood

[Anonymous No.21264937]

>>21264709
That's normal, but just because you doubt your own ability doesn't mean you can't do something.

[Anonymous No.21264940]

>>21264627

Today??

[Anonymous No.21264948]

>>21264937
But I do think that. Doubting means that something isnt right.

[Anonymous No.21264950]

>>21264868
It really speaks to how even the CCP, a party that confers awards and honors to people who genuinely do not deserve them, still at the least breeds politicians that have sharp elbows. Meanwhile, Western parties produce nothing but losers who have not only not earned anything but can't do anything competently besides pay lip service to the right people and values on camera.

[Anonymous No.21264955]

>>21264948
No, it doesn't. Doubting is normal.

[Anonymous No.21264960]

>>21264868
sigma male edit now

[Anonymous No.21264964]

>>21264955
In small insignificant amount? Sure.
In such degree which makes you paralyze when you have to choose and you end up picking nothing because doubting is too hard to endure and to the point that one doesnt know who he is? No.

[Anonymous No.21265027]

>>21262986
Same man. I'm 19 but this shit is so hard to quit. I tried everything at this point. Trying to quit actively for 2+ years. Its an awful feeling when you cant do something that you really don't wanna do. I don't even get random boners anymore, don't remember last time I was actually horny. I hate this shit, literature keeps me sane

[Anonymous No.21265040]

>>21264868
That's fucking interesting. Xi is basically being man-to-man by stating frankly, "Listen kid, if you wanna deal with us you have to play by our rules, kapish?" Meanwhile the fucking pretty boy manchild is doing his gay PR talk, "We believe in values of openness and transparency," with that gay smile on his face, clearly speaking for the cameras, as if Xi gives a shit about his "values" when that's at odds what he's telling him to his face. Xi then firmly repeats himself and basically walks away while Trudeau starts his PR bullshitting again. Trudeau can't even PRETEND to act like a man. He's never had a sincere interaction in his entire career.

[Anonymous No.21265065]

>>21264868
I know we have a hate boner for China in the West, but this is a good example of the modern Western "man" versus the Chinese man. Xi is to the point in his first sentence, and lays an ultimatum in the second sentence with a classy reminder of the other man's failures to satisfy to that point. Trudeau's reaction, of course, is to not speak to the man directly, but to repeat some squeaky clean line he's rehearsed about "his values", and he doesn't even grant the other man any recognition of his complaint. Xi recognizes this spinelessness and shakes his hand and walks away.

[Anonymous No.21265067]

>>21262986
Porn doesn't matter, even you drop it you will still not have success with women. Guys who have girlfriends watch porn as well -- because it doesn't make you more or less attractive to women. It's just cope.

[Anonymous No.21265074]

>>21263149
MTL are the worst of the readers, literal scum of the earth. You all should be eradicated.

[Anonymous No.21265123]

>>21265065
What I forgot to mention is that Chinese men are generally very good at communicating goals and don't shy from professional criticism. Western structures on the other hand are falling apart because they pussyfoot around everything and never say anything directly (prbly scared of being sued for "workplace harassment" or "causing emotional distress"). I worked for some Chinese guys once and they don't fuck around. Even some local Chinese businesses in my city run their shit like the military, from grocery stores to travel agencies to artisan shops to fucking dim sum houses. They're exceedingly professional and alert, and lay out information very clearly. I've had Chinese business partners straight up tell me I don't seem like I could benefit from them and they'll recommend another firm. They don't do that prolonged fake "let's put a pin in that and open a dialogue for a future relationship" bullshit. They're just like, "Nah, bud, we don't do that here. Best of luck. There's the door." I've had Chinese travel agencies tell me, "No, whoever told you that is crazy. It's never going to be that cheap. Here's our two options so give us a call when you've made up your mind." Cold motherfuckers. Not for everyone, but as someone who grew up with old school business and tradespeople, but unfortunately now live in one of the gayest, fakest cities on Earth, I like it.

[Anonymous No.21265179]

>>21262913
Well, first you have to do something about them.

[Anonymous No.21265205]

>>21263149
have you tried deeplearning translations?

[Anonymous No.21265213]

>>21264964
But that problem is you giving in to doubt, not the fact that you doubt.

[Anonymous No.21265215]

>>21265040
both of them are speaking for the cameras, for different audiences.

[Anonymous No.21265228]

>>21265123
the lab next to me is run by the one Chinese faculty at my uni, and all but one of his grad students are coincidentally Chinese. This lab has had so many safety violations it's been nicknamed the "liveleak lab." They had a 2000 volt hot wire just hanging in their lab for several weeks. They've had to move 1-ton blocks of steel with dubious setups while every single one of them wears fucking crocs and sandals. They tried to take a 2-ton heat sink out of a fume hood with a fucking bike lock chain before we told them straight up "yeah this is sketch we won't help you until you get a real chain," and on top of that they hadn't even cut the (still live) wires going into said heat sink.

But one thing that I will respect is that they are direct in what they want, and that they are accepting of direct criticism of the bullshit they pull in their lab.

[Anonymous No.21265237]

I wish do-overs existed.

[Anonymous No.21265245]

>>21265065
keep it real, would you let Xi get up in that bussy? See ive been thinking about it right, many a long night and early morning if you catch my drift, wondering why so many discard such a fine hunk of yellow meat. Now I know what you're thinking, small cock, how can he top? Like you said it's not in the physical but how he commands the room. See topping (im using slang so to clarify for my non homoerotic readers what im refering to is anal sex) is all in the control. His admittedly small but firm hands guiding you, his direct booming voice barking out orders. Even now I'm getting cubbed up pondering how he would use that 3 inches of pure authoritarian power to make my little white bussy cream. I've attached a picture ive been using recently, since i know there's no putting into words what those deep black eyes can do to a man. Anyway enjoy the chinese theater just know that he's mine, at least until he's done with me ;)

[Anonymous No.21265294]

>>21265245
bruh

[Anonymous No.21265303]

I have to confess, I have never read The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, despite seeing a whole host of other media based off of it's premise, and at one point even considering my own Tyler Burden persona to improve my life. Seeing how short it is, I have taken it upon myself to download a PDF and read through it this afternoon, despite my preference for physical books.

[Anonymous No.21265308]

>>21265245
hey buddy i think you got the wrong door

[Anonymous No.21265373]

>>21262779
I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I'm decently intelligent, but I just feel directionless.
Spent the past 5 years in various shit jobs, while getting a degree in English.
I'm not sure how to get a good job, as my social skills are shit & I've no experience in anything.
I have this deep fear that all I'm good for are shit jobs, that I will never attain anything even slightly better.
Most of the jobs I can see on job boards, don't even offer a wage any higher than a typical food service job ($15/hr).
I'm only 22 and I already feel so completely burned out.
The idea of just disconnecting completely, and going off to live in a shack in the middle of nowhere honestly sounds appealing to me, but I know that's not a real option. I've years and years of toil ahead of me, and nowhere near the level of savings to even be able to live on my own in a shack.
That's what depresses me the most.
I'm so tired of working.
I'm disturbed by the realization of how mediocre I am in comparison to my peers. Seems like most of my peers in college spent their time wisely accumulating bullshit to put on their resume, whereas I squandered my time toiling in low wage work & playing videogames. I've formed zero friendships in college and have avoided joining any clubs or anything like that. I'm afraid future employers will realize just how little experience I have in anything.
It's already been embarrassing when I talk to people my age and always have to lie about myself when they start talking about their high school experiences I have to pretend I can relate. I've never been able to form a relationship with someone. I just can't do it I'm too detached and feel this all encompassing indifference. Like even when I like someone, it's only a vague abstract kind of liking.
I just don't see a future for myself.
The honest ideal for me at this point would to be to find some quiet easy library job. I don't even care if it pays well at this point. Just something where I'm not ruining my body slowly.
I can see the impact of the years of stress on my face already. I've these permanent stress lines on my forehead, eye shadow under my eyes & bags from years of working jobs late at night.
I quit my job in security the other month. And have spent the past month or so doing nothing. I've one class that I'm finishing up to get my degree. Then after that I don't know what.
I've a decent amount of savings and investments because I'm so frugal.
On the other hand I kind of like the idea of finding some sort of dangerous job. Like joining a fishing boat or something. Just to get out and see the world a little more, as I've lived in the same city my entire life. I'm way too sheltered and have seen so little of real life.

[Anonymous No.21265401]

She opened the beer and took a sip.

I looked at Clare, lifted my beer and had a hit. She was plenty of woman, a Mae West type, wore the same kind of tight-fitting gown—big hips, big legs. And breasts. Startling breasts.

Clare crossed her wondrous legs, a bit of skirt falling back. Her legs were full and golden and the stockings fit like skin.

“I’ve met your mother,” she said.

I drained my can of beer and put it down by my feet. I opened a new one, took a sip, then looked at her, not knowing whether to took at her breasts or at her legs or into her tired face.

“I’m sorry that I got your son drunk. But I’ve got to tell you something.”

She turned her head, lighting a cigarette as she did so, then faced me again.

“Yes?”

“Clare, I love you.”

She didn’t laugh. She just gave me a little smile, the corners of her mouth turning up a little.

“Poor boy. You’re nothing but a little chicken just out of the egg.”

It was true but it angered me. Maybe because it was true. The dream and the beer wanted it to be something else. I took another drink and looked at her and said, “Cut the shit. Lift your skirt. Show me some leg. Show me some flank.”

“You’re just a boy.”

Then I said it. I don’t know where the words came from, but I said it, “I could tear you in half, baby, if you gave me the chance.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“All right. Let’s see.”

Then she did it. Just like that. She uncrossed her legs and pulled her skirt back.

She didn’t have on panties.

I saw her huge white upper flanks, rivers of flesh. There was a large protruding wart on the inside of her left thigh. And there was a jungle of tangled hair between her legs, but it was not bright yellow like the hair on her head, it was brown and shot with grey, old like some sick bush dying, lifeless and sad.

I stood up.

“I’ve got to go, Mrs. Hatcher.”

“Christ, I thought you wanted to party!”

“Not with your son in the other room, Mrs. Hatcher.”

“Don’t worry about him, Hank. He’s passed out.”

“No, Mrs. Hatcher, I’ve really got to go.”

“All right, get out of here you god-damned little piss-ant!”

I closed the door behind me and walked down the hall of the apartment building and out into the street.

To think, somebody had suicided for that.

The night suddenly looked good. I walked along toward my parents’ house.

[Anonymous No.21265407]

>>21265401
You don't

need a space

after every line

[Anonymous No.21265421]

blue boy

[Anonymous No.21265425]

>>21265373
When I started college I was so naive and excited.
As a freshmen I was never able to connect to people, but I was always so eager to learn, and could easily spend an entire day reading in the library.
Now it feels like my passions have died.
I still enjoy reading, but it's hard to focus or care anymore when I feel so uncertain as to how I'm going to support myself in the future.
I imagine myself some 30yr old weirdo without a family working at a gas station. The thought horrifies me.

[Anonymous No.21265433]

I'll probably sabotage my job interview tomorrow.

[Anonymous No.21265443]

>>21265433
>I'll probably sabotage my job interview tomorrow.
why?

[Anonymous No.21265454]

I work in middle management. I think my job is bullshit. I just sit around reading books all day. Sometimes I tell people what to do. But mostly I just sit around reading books all day.
I expect to be laid off at some point. I don't fear it. I'm actually looking forward to it. Looking forward to collecting neetbux and reading books all day

[Anonymous No.21265460]

>>21265443
Because Im depressed. Why bother

[Anonymous No.21265461]

>>21265425
I know the meme is to learn how to code, but I'm honestly considering it at this point because it seems like the kind of job where you don't really need any social skills. I can learn anything when I really put my mind to it. Issue I have is just that I'm so indecisive.
I just want financial stability at this point.

[Anonymous No.21265480]

>>21264644
Why? Do you think that you deserve to be unhappy? Maybe it makes you feel independent and safe to push everyone away right now, but later on you’ll regret having rejected offers of support from those who care about you. Love and belonging are some of the foundational human needs. No one can go through life entirely alone. Your mindset will only result in self-destruction.

[Anonymous No.21265490]

>>21264430
On Nov 5 lol

Discovered an onlyfans leaksite (leakedzone) and discovered some chick called moodyfeet and coomed to a fuck machine vid

[Anonymous No.21265496]

>>21263888
uh oh someone's sounding a little bitter. it's interesting that you managed to come to the conclusion that i use my body to take advantage of people, after i specifically said that i was disappointed that this man was only interested in having sex with me.

[Anonymous No.21265498]

>>21265460
>Because Im depressed. Why bother
Why not make a game out of it? Roll the dice, per-say, and see where fate takes you?
I did this once with mixed results. I began applying for jobs I was unqualified for and drinking before the interviews. Right off the bat, I landed a 6-figure developer job. I was a mess though and the position was short-lived. I was let go three or four months later. To my appeasement, I was awarded a massive amount of unemployment benefits

[Anonymous No.21265501]

>>21263307
I don't think that I have such a problem. I'm a pretty happy person in general

[Anonymous No.21265503]

>>21265498
>Right off the bat, I landed a 6-figure developer job.
What did your resume look like? I find it hard to believe they wouldn't vet it at all.

[Anonymous No.21265504]

>>21265303
Just finished reading it. Interesting story, I can see why so many others take from it.

[Anonymous No.21265509]

>>21265303
It freaked me out as a kid. Didn't help I had to keep looking up words to make myself scared. At least in his other books you get to go to far away places.

[Anonymous No.21265517]

i'm not actually hungry but feel like ordering food cos i'm bored
i can't really think of a good reason not to

[Anonymous No.21265534]

>>21265498
Im a mess and besides I have a strong gut feeling that its not worth the effort.

[Anonymous No.21265536]

>>21265503
>What did your resume look like? I find it hard to believe they wouldn't vet it at all.
I use https://github.com/hacksalot/HackMyResume to generate very clean and professional looking resumes. The result is something that looks like picrel.
When I drink, I can sell a vacuum to a vacuum salesman. The guys that interviewed me were both incompetent and easily wooed. If it hadn't been for a crippling drug addiction, I'm sure I could have kept that job.

[Anonymous No.21265545]

>>21265536
>just have charisma
oh.....

[Anonymous No.21265546]

>>21265461
Hahahahshsahahshahshahshhshhahahahaha
They still require socializing. They're going to make you do party days, employee morale dances, and 2-person development teams. Yes, you're going to be programming a module with a big tiddy diversity hire and it's going to be awkward af.

[Anonymous No.21265551]

>>21265536
>I'm sure I could have kept that job.
What did the job actually entail. Like what in the end got you fired?

[Anonymous No.21265554]

>>21265509
Having just read it as an adult I was still slightly unsettled. Despite the "unexplainable horror" trope description of Mr. Hyde's physique, I think it adds to the story as Mr. Hyde would be able to blend into human society with the exception of his evilness, which exists as an inseparable part of him. It seems like the kind of story that would be more relevant to an adult rather than a child, since adulthood is usually when one is fully socialized and can really contemplate the morality of their actions.

[Anonymous No.21265555]

>>21265545
>oh.....
Does alcohol not give you charisma and a boost of courage?

[Anonymous No.21265570]

>>21265546
Damn.... I mean I assumed I'd have to have decent enough to do well on a job interview, but my impression was that to get the job it's most important just to demonstrate that you have the skills required.
I don't mind doing some minimum amount of socializing though like "party days" or whatever. I'd assume, though, as long as I'm proficient and providing for the team they wouldn't fire me. Or is that not what it's like?

[Anonymous No.21265578]

just stop being a bitch and pull yourself up by your bootstraps, anon

[Anonymous No.21265583]

>>21265551
>What did the job actually entail.
They needed someone experienced with AWS to help them move their web application to the cloud from on-premises hosting.
I ended up mostly doing backend JavaScript stuff
>Like what in the end got you fired?
I had a very serious xanax and methamphetamine addiction. I wasn't able to concentrate or solve problems. Basically dead in the water. To make things worse, I was all amped up and delusional and thought I was better than everyone else. Basically just completely disconnected from reality.

[Anonymous No.21265586]

>>21265480
>Your mindset will only result in self-destruction.
I hope so.

[Anonymous No.21265593]

>>21265583
So what I'm getting from this is that if I want to succeed I need to develop a xanax and meth addiction.

[Anonymous No.21265600]

>>21265570
What's they out you as a weird autist(if you're white) then HR will have it out for you. All they have to do is complain and say you're making them uncomfortable.
Of course, if you get a job somewhere without diversity hires then you'll be fine because they're there to program and get out.

[[REDACTED] No.21265607]

>>21262779
>What am I in for?
>Of course the Judge never told me... we're never told what crime we committed
>It's not like it's our place to know, anyway, but my mind keeps drifting back to that question: why am I here?
>I cannot think of a single action I've taken in malice... but, come to think of it, I was never told by anyone what's explicitly legal or illegal
>I only went where everyone else goes (my job, the store, and home), I only bought what everyone else buys (food, clothing, and the occasional entertainment item (books, movies, or music; I just don't have the patience for an interactive medium)), and as far as I'm aware, everyone I knew and associated with did the same (well, a colleague of mine does play interactive video, but those are sold in the store next to everything else, so that can't be it)

>The facility has many multi-occupant cells, but I'm in one of the few 'Singletons,' the inmates call them
>Some hear this and react with envy; others, scorn
>It's believed by some we're given our rooms---not just whether or not it has two or more beds, but the shape of the room, the wall color, its placement, the height and number of the windows, etc.---based on a personality profile
>This idea came about from inmates noticing, from glimpses into other rooms, how different each one was from their own

>There are no announcements of new arrivals, or when someone is released---the Guards (I assume that's their role) don't even talk to us
>The masks that cover their faces don't even have mouths
>I've only heard a Guard's voice once, when an inmate tried to tackle one
>I don't think anyone has seen him since

>The Prison does interact with us; just today, I've been asked to record some thoughts on this typing screen
>These are those thoughts
>Logically, I'd assume this would go to the head of the prison, or a ward psychologist, or something like that, but everything has been so strange up to now, I honestly have no idea who, if anyone, will read this, or how

[Anonymous No.21265610]

>>21265586
Why do you want to destroy yourself?

[Anonymous No.21265616]

>>21265600
>What's they out you as a weird autist(if you're white) then HR will have it out for you.
I mean I'm not really that bad. I'm a bit of a loner, but I can make small talk when needed.

[Anonymous No.21265631]

>>21265555
no... it makes me even more sad and sleepy
nice quads

[Anonymous No.21265638]

>>21265593
>So what I'm getting from this is that if I want to succeed I need to develop a xanax and meth addiction.
No, I'm sober now and much better off. My meth and xanax days were short-lived. Eventually, the pain of heartbreak subsided, and I got sober. However, If I was looking for work, I would have a few drinks before the interview, undoubtably with great success. But mostly, it's me that's asking the questions now.
>>21265631
>nice quads
Thanks! I got them for you

[Anonymous No.21265648]

>>21263245
>I told my cousin that I don't know what an incel is because I I'm extremely embarassed by him constantly bringing up internet culture shit irl. He then proceeded to enthusiastically show me internet examples on his phone to demonstrate how horrible and disgusting "incels" are. I have never seen him show this much enthusiasm for normal things like creative hobbies or sports or having fun with friends. Why the fuck are you internet dwellers like this?
People need imagined scapegoats to vent their spite onto.
They imagine some hairy ugly looking dude and think to themselves "heh yeah that person is gross and awkward unlike me"
It's about boosting one's own self-image. We all do it to an extent, but the internet just accentuates the worst aspects of our innate scapegoating tendencies.

[Anonymous No.21265687]

I have a frame for an adaptation of Chaucer as a narrative based around the Parson, but I'm not sure if I want to write it as a novel or a movie.

[Anonymous No.21265694]

>>21265433
what kind of job anon?

[Anonymous No.21265731]

What a palace of abandonment, a vile den of filth, housing a creature begotten to the world by a thoroughly disappointed mother and growing more ungrateful for it with each miserable day. In every corner of this small abode was a shrine of rubbish built by and for the god Laziness, the creature’s main deity of worship, his only one, the only thing he truly loved. Besides that, only the beginnings of new shrines could be seen on the bed and near the door, to him a total comforting chaos.

He spent his days in thought as to how he could show even more total devotion to his god, ever enthralled by his promises of moving little and accomplishing less. As he sat in front of his desk, illuminated by the pixels of the overpriced curved monitor, he could hear the god Laziness tear at his clothes in agony as it shouted: No, no please. Anything but another job.

But the universe is a cruel master and planning your future usually goes as well as planning to piss straight during a stroke.

He scrolled and scrolled, “Unspecified Caretaker Position (168 hours per week, no breaks)”, “Dung Thrower (20 years of experience required)”, “Senior Financial Data Analyst Manager Internship (Unpaid)”. This could not be, truly, was there nothing simpler? Something that needed no skill, or at least no perceived skill.

Existence Smith closed his eyes, leaning back in his chair. Yes, what a name his mother had given him, “Existence”. It made him wonder how she had not realised what a clash of cultures it was to have such an unconventional first name right next to the most generic Anglo-Saxon surname the world had known. He would have been bullied for it, he definitely would, but caring is effort and effort is a precious resource for Existence. It can only be depleted when absolutely necessary.

When the apparent bullies were not given this resource for their efforts back in the High School days, they came away embarrassed, making only clowns of themselves in front of a person who barely acknowledged them.

This was the bizarre way the world perceived him. People, ever since school, thought he was “cool”. No, he did not try to be. He was only trying to never try, yet somehow in this world ridden with anxiety and a search for purpose (Or a delusion of purpose) he appeared like the ideal many strived for. A search for purpose, what a silly thing, he had always thought. Every purpose for everything you see or hear is created by you; why would life be any different?

Ultimately, it was about freedom. Existence did not wish to conform to the rules of civilization made mostly by men long dead. No, he wished to live by his rules and reap the rewards of civilization at the same time. He could hear the many men and women shouting in impotent rage “How immoral!” Not to me. “You must respect the past!” The past is dead. “If all men were like you, humanity would be finished!” They will never be like me. Not all of them.

cont. if anyone cares

[Anonymous No.21265736]

>>21265536
how do you have so much motivation for this? I would love that my resume would look like this. Tfw I'm just a brainlet irl and can only clean windows. I wish I was smart as Im in my room alone

[Anonymous No.21265795]

This succession of events from Ye to SBF is kind of a cosmic joke. Ye gets totally leveled financially and socially for making comments about Jews and then when one of (((them))) has their fraudulent business blow up (which actually harms thousands of people) and he gets a puff piece from the most 'credible' news company in the world. Also his name is Bankman.

[Anonymous No.21265822]

I have a full-body black bodysuit with turtleneck fetish.

[Anonymous No.21265839]

>>21265736
I told you how to do it. It doesn't take long. If you can't figure it out, or don't have the motivation, then it's probably best you stick to window washing

[Anonymous No.21265873]

just remembered this time i did no work at all for a 6 week assignment in first year at uni & stayed up all night the day before hand in. dropped the work off at 7, went right to bed. woke up around 4 and went in for results and i got an a*, my tutors were having a cigarette outside as i went in and they were all telling me they couldn't believe it & it was as good as any final year work students do.

it's rubbish that these experiences don't change you

[Anonymous No.21265888]

>>21265839
nobody clean those windows like me, am I right boss man

[Anonymous No.21265890]

>>21265888
>nobody clean those windows like me, am I right boss man
you're the best, thats why we pay you the big bucks

[Anonymous No.21265892]

>>21265545
Try practicing. Do research on how to structure your answers and practice them. You can learn how to give a "good" answer and you can practice it aloud. Watch yourself speak in the mirror and you'll become more confident because you know what you're doing. You don't have to HAVE charisma, you just have to BE charismatic for about an hour. Put in the work and it gets easier.

[Anonymous No.21265916]

I wish /lit/ was better

[Anonymous No.21265937]

>>21262779
I am insufficient

[Anonymous No.21265970]

>>21264179
I feel the kids are completely undisciplined and have no impulse control because their mother is exactly like that.

It's strange it's like she has no empathy at all or sees that her actions are affecting other people. Sure she might not give af how her decisions affect my brother, but her frivolous spending and haemorrhaging of money would affect the kids too in the long run.

It's like she is truely brain-dead and broken. Makes me wonder if she even genuinely loves the kids or she just likes the aesthetic of them

[Anonymous No.21265974]

>>21265970
imagine talking about your own mum like this

[Anonymous No.21265986]

>>21265970
stop posting your hideous takes on lit i have a weak stomach

[Anonymous No.21266054]

I'm a writer and I've got a job as a "writer" for a very niche and dull medical publication. It doesn't pay well, just below the average salary in my European country. Would my abortive literary career be better served by fucking off to do finance for a few years to put my money worries at ease then writing proper stuff from whatever house I can then afford to build in the countryside?

[Anonymous No.21266058]

>>21262779
/sp/ was right, latinas wanna fuck white guys.

[Anonymous No.21266066]

>>21265986
Go bitch about it to your therapist.

[Anonymous No.21266083]

>>21266066
bit rich coming from you mate

[Anonymous No.21266090]

>>21265067
>Because most other people eat shit even if they like kings, it's okay to eat shit
No one cares what women think. If you do shit to get women, then that's a good sign you have no actual personality, drive or motivation and will end up a useless schlub by your 30s. That's exactly the mentality boomers that end up hating their wives follow.

[Anonymous No.21266091]

Does anyone think that people today abusing the term Artificial Intelligence?

[Anonymous No.21266096]

I have a remote job where I have no tasks to do 4/5 days per week. I want to go to graduate school. Sometimes I think I'm crazy for giving it up.

[Anonymous No.21266097]

>>21264179
>Godless society is here and the population is utterly addicted to anti-Christian media.
Thanks christians

[Anonymous No.21266110]

You had a long and hard live, I regret not being there for you in your last hours. It made me realize how estranged we are in our experience, even from our closest and dearest.
I miss you grandmother.

[Anonymous No.21266129]

>>21266110
Thanks for reminding me to visit my gran

[Anonymous No.21266131]

>>21266096
I would kill for a job like that. Don't give it up

[Anonymous No.21266141]

>>21266131
I really don't know if I can take it anymore though.

[Anonymous No.21266156]

>>21266141
when doing absolutely nothing gets to be too much it's time to get back into full time education lol

[Anonymous No.21266214]

>>21266156
It's not literally nothing. I have a lot of meetings, phone calls, and email and chat exchanges with people I can't stand. But really, the job just doesn't pay.

[Anonymous No.21266231]

What do you think about this situation. I'm mid 20s living with my two older sisters. Whenever I go out they ask me where I'm going. If I want to go out at night for a walk or some shit they object, saying it's too dangerous, it's too dark, whatever. When I go out anyway, my mother calls me and starts giving me a long speech. If I'm out at night with friends or anything they (or my mother who lives in other town) start texting me that it's too late and I should return home, blabla. I've told them that I don't understand why they interfere so much with what I do, and the usual answer is that they get worried if I'm out, that as I don't go out with my phone they can't reach, etc, etc.

Also worth noticing is that this is relatively new, they didn't mess with what I did or didn't years ago, but they have grown more controlling.

This is all related to night time, it's like they are afraid of it.

How to approach this, what do you think?

[Anonymous No.21266237]

>>21266231
Introduce me to your sisters and I will wear them out so they'll be too tired to nag you.

[Anonymous No.21266255]

>>21266231
It depends on where you live.

[Anonymous No.21266261]

>>21266231
Just grow a spine and tell them to fuck off.

[Anonymous No.21266264]

>>21266255
small city in south america
>>21266261
yeah but how

[Anonymous No.21266269]

>>21266264
Is there a lot of crime there?

[Anonymous No.21266274]

>>21266264
remind yourself that a lot of women don't know which way to wipe and that statistically it's very likely they have shit in their vaginas

[Anonymous No.21266279]

>>21266269
Not sure. I've never seen anything but they read a lot of shit in social media about muggings and beatings. Also the migrant population has grown here, so there's more brown and black people than a few years ago.

[Anonymous No.21266281]

>>21266274

[Anonymous No.21266302]

>>21266279
If it's dangerous then you shouldn't go out alone at night.

[Anonymous No.21266304]

>>21262779
>extremely crazy, jealous and abusive gf, both verbally and physically
>Fights which would often get violent on her end
>One time pulled a knife on me and went to stab me
>Catch her hand in time but can't believe she actually went for a full stab.
>I'm in shock and start crying
>Let go of her hand and close my eyes and tell her I don't give af if I die
>Just kind of shrivel to the floor and just kept repeating that i love her while sobbing then start crying uncontrollably
>She gets teary and just holds me while I'm in this shocked state and we just sit there in silence when I calm down then go to bed and she continues to hold me the whole night
>Ever since all of her crazy, extremely jealous and abusive behaviour completely ended and we eventually got married and started a family
>for years she has been the woman I had originally fallen in love with and she has been nothing but supportive in my life

Wtf happened and why did such an incident cure her? We have never spoken of it desu but I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing or if it's even necessary

She has never been diagnosed with anything btw and isn't on any medications

[Anonymous No.21266310]

>>21266264
>but how?
Say "fuck off". I go out when I want

[Anonymous No.21266332]

>>21266304
Luck happened
Luck
A lot of us love someone and are capable of loving but in your case it has been actualized

[Anonymous No.21266346]

>>21263899
Use this as a reference for letters you struggle with. Penmanship and draftsmanship are as much a physical skill as dancing or fighting even if it doesn't get your heart rate and sweat going to the same level.

[Anonymous No.21266355]

>>21263899
Look up the Spencerian copybooks on amazon.

[Anonymous No.21266375]

>>21266231
Try to reach a compromise, like check in with them periodically when you're out. I know it's frustrating, but their concerns are probably valid.

[Anonymous No.21266399]

>>21265373
>>21265425
>>21265461
I'm 23 and was in the same boat. I'm enlisting in the military now and just had my medical checks done today. After that gets approved I get my security clearance check. Once those are done it's off to Québec.

[Anonymous No.21266408]

Because I'm not good enough. Because I'm clumsy. Because I don't know what to do with my hands. Because I can't keep eye contact. Because I did something horrible. Because I drop things too often. Because I stutter a lot. Because you deserved someone better. Because I deserved worse. Because I don't fit in. Because I don't understand. Because it was meant to be this way. Because I made the wrong choices and it ended up this way. Because I want to be left alone. Because I can't bring myself to let anyone get close. Because I don't deserve help. Because I can't allow myself to burden others by accepting their help. Because I'm lonely. Because I don't know how to fit other people into my life. Because I don't communicate. Because I don't know how to communicate. Because I'm tired and want to rest. Because I want to give up. Because I'm not a good person. Because others would be disgusted if they really knew me. Because I've never been able to do anything good for someone else. Because I'm ugly. Because I'm not good enough. Because I'm not enough.

[Anonymous No.21266413]

God is cryptography and we are the hash functions.

[Anonymous No.21266414]

>>21266399
I'd thought about military at one point, but im really just not the type of person for it. I'm too nerdy.

[Anonymous No.21266440]

>>21266408
You are enough, anon. I’m sure of it.

[Anonymous No.21266497]

>>21266408
What happened?

[Anonymous No.21266525]

Just be yourself
You can be anything
Or nothing
Do your best
As an artist
As a sweeper
But never test
The one they told you
He’s out to get you
If there’s something
Then there is nothing
If you push I pull
That’s how it goes , forever

[Anonymous No.21266573]

It's ironic how there are plenty of people who seem perfectly capable, and have accomplished more than I have, yet they think lowly of themselves.
On the other hand, I am objectively quite mediocre. The only thing I excel at is doing my homework, reading books, and playing video games. I have never had a sexual partner, and may as well consider myself as having no friends at this point. I'm quite the misanthrope Yet there's some unshakable sentiment within me that makes me feel genuinely better than other people, and like I'm destined for greatness. Similar to Raskolnikov, but for me it's less of an aspiration and more as if I'm just fated to be special in some way. From a rational standpoint, I know this feeling is objectively wrong - so far, in my life, I have only been on the lower end of the totem pole. This delusion won't go away, however. Is this schizophrenia? Is this mania? Or am I just very devoted to lying to myself? I can objectively tell it's wrong, but my guts, my instincts, tell me otherwise.

I hope all the anons in this thread find their true worth. If you have had a real job, a romantic/sexual partner, have completed secondary education, or have a passion you love to pursue, then you are indisputably more successful than I am, despite my delusions of grandeur.

[Anonymous No.21266640]

>>21266408
Are you okay, anon?

[Anonymous No.21266654]

>>21266573
Worldly success is relative. All men die.
However, I was just reading a novel that included a character with a sort of "delusion" of grandeur. I think it has common themes with other archetypes, especially real-world examples. It is possible for anyone to "become a great figure" as long as they are at least of average and patient. I don't mean famous, certainly infamous. A normal person would never do this willingly. This is because normal person has social and societal connections that make them feel guilty to do whatever they believe is right if it would mean breaking those connections.
I wouldn't doubt that you lack those connections, and because you may have identified some great problem with the world, there is a small sort of voice telling you, "You know you can do something grand. You know it's possible."
But fear and apprehension take hold of you. It's not a delusion of grandeur, it's your inner mind realizing that you have little or nothing to lose besides your life and future.

[Anonymous No.21266664]

hail satan

[Anonymous No.21266670]

>>21266664
off by two... fuck

[Anonymous No.21266722]

>>21266408
You are good enough. You’re not ugly, how can you even say that? Maybe you think I “deserve better,” but I don’t want to be with anyone but you. And you don’t deserve worse—you deserve to be happy. I’ve done horrible things too, and made tons of mistakes. You’re not a bad person—even if you’ve done things that you regret, there’s always the opportunity to do things differently now. And you have done good things for other people. In the time that we knew each other, just being able to talk to you was a good thing for me. It helped me so much. I know a lot about you—maybe more than you think—and I’m not disgusted at all.

Don’t tell yourself it was meant to be this way— you can still change it. It’s not too late. I have all of the same fears and insecurities as you do. We have a lot of the same problems. Communication is hard for me too. I understand how you feel, and you can trust me. Please don’t give up. Don’t you want to at least try? It’s okay if you’re tired—you can rest in my arms. Maybe you’ve made the wrong choices, but the future can still be changed. It’s not too late to make a different choice now.

You do deserve help. And helping you would never burden me— I want to do it. You don’t know how much I want to help you, in any way that you need. It’ll be okay, we can figure it out together. I know that you’re scared—so am I. I’ve spent my whole life pushing everyone away. I’m lonely too. I never let anyone get close to me either. But I’m willing to risk it for you. You are enough for me, I promise. You’re the only one that I want. I don’t think that I’ll ever get over you. Please don’t break my heart.

This probably isn’t even who I think it is, and I’m most likely making an utter fool of myself yet again. But I’m willing to risk the embarrassment if there’s even the smallest chance that I’m right.

[Anonymous No.21266724]

>>21266722
Blessed post

[Anonymous No.21266790]

>>21264430
nah i'm still going strong. this is the longest i've gone without touching my peenor and it feels pretty good ngl

[Anonymous No.21266799]

>>21262779
/lit/ is dead

[Anonymous No.21266874]

I fucking hate being a disgusting coomer

[Anonymous No.21266882]

>>21266874
have you tried nofap? it helped me

[Anonymous No.21266888]

>>21265648
True. You only have to visit /pol/ for a couple of seconds to figure that one out.

[Anonymous No.21266925]

I want to complain but Im not sure what to complain about

[Anonymous No.21266928]

We must secure the existence of our people and a future for White children.

[Anonymous No.21266935]

My college experience has been utter misery for me so far. Friendless, jobless, depressed, stuck in a mediocre college chasing one of the most pointless majors out there. I dread waking up every morning. I want to burst into tears when I open my Instagram and see how much better my peers are doing at my age than I am. Every moment of my day is filled with anguish and dread even for the most minor things. I've disappointed my family, I've thrown away all the potential in my youth, and I have no vision of the future whatsoever. I don't even like to look at myself in the mirror anymore.

[Anonymous No.21266936]

>>21266928
And Yellow children.

[Anonymous No.21266954]

>>21266935
Everyone lies on social media. Everyone wants to appear constantly happy and sucessful, when they rarely are. It's one of the things I truly hate about social media: it enforces a societal standard of being fake as fuck. But you are fine and you're still young. There's a lot of life left. Don't lose heart and try your best to enjoy every day of it. I can't tell you how but find something you absolutelt love and will make you money and stick woth it to the end. Also, get a hobby and make friends in the anime club. They accept everyone. Mine had a 40 something year old dude who lives with his parents (last time I checked, this was pre pandemic like 2018) dating a transexual college aged guy.

[Anonymous No.21266957]

I feel like I am in perfect control of myself, yet simultaneously like I have no control of myself. I don't do things I don't want to do, yet I do things I don't intend to do.

[Anonymous No.21267013]

Just tell me whether I got the job or not please

[Anonymous No.21267039]

I'm 26 and have been suffering from a chronic illness for 14 years; can't breathe, can't sleep so I'm always exhausted and brainfogged, constant pain, no willpower left to try and make it through a workout, none of the meds I've been prescribed do fucking anything and surgery is not only dangerous but doesn't even have a high chance of working. I've always tried to be grateful for what I have and recognising how much worse it could be, but I can't fucking take it anymore. I'm at the point where I'll just go for surgery and if it doesn't work I'll jump off a bridge.

[Anonymous No.21267043]

A nightmare I had recently started out as terrifying and dreadful but now I look back on it with survivors guilt, I wish I could recall it better but I cant make it coherent in my mind
It hasnt really influenced me in any meaningful way but Im just overcome with a wave of guilt and a feeling to make things right

[Anonymous No.21267051]

Sorry. There's a TV in my head that's infinitely more interesting than you, can you repeat what you said?

[Anonymous No.21267068]

My number is not on Fates phonebook.

[Anonymous No.21267078]

I just coomed to porn for the first time in a while, and it was a good coom, but lost in the midst of the intense physical pleasure I could discern a very emotional feeling, like a sort of emotional connection to would-be partner that doesn't exist that I should be sharing this pleasure with. once i finished and fell back down to earth and my intense loneliness it felt like someone ripped my heart out and my feelings of loneliness and isolation were suddenly intensely amplified and now I feel like I could just curl up into the fetal position and weep like a baby. ive been alone for so long

[Anonymous No.21267294]

crazy to think what life would be like in 30,000 years

[Anonymous No.21267336]

>>21266790
same still going without touch pp
i did edge in a different way few days ago though

[Anonymous No.21267401]

>>21266573
how tall are you?
Orson Welles said dwarves always have delusions of grandeur, the melancholy freaks are always giants.

[Anonymous No.21267404]

>>21267013
Sorry, but the response to the position has been very high and whilst we are interested to see your resume and achievements to date, we regret that you have not been successful on this occasion.

Our decision must not be taken to imply any reflection upon the merits of the candidate.

Kind regards

[Anonymous No.21267407]

>>21267401
>melancholy freaks are always giants.
but why?

[Anonymous No.21267413]

>>21267294
very similar

[Anonymous No.21267439]

>>21262779
In getting hooked on asmr videos

I can spend hours just lying back listening to them (I don't really watch them just listen with my eyes closed). The latest Fabled Fawn mouth sounds videos have been on point and you can really feel tingles all between your head and neck.

The kissing/ear nibbles ones are hit and miss with ASMRists. Some don't feel like anything and feel stupid but man, some actually almost feel like the real thing.

[Anonymous No.21267458]

>>21262779
I painted a pearl!

I'm practicing digital painting, what should I paint next? Something simple.

[Anonymous No.21267461]

Women smell so nice bros. I think that's what I miss the most about them.

[Anonymous No.21267512]

>>21267068
What does that mean?

[Anonymous No.21267515]

Wish I knew how she feels about me.

[Anonymous No.21267519]

>>21267461
This is so true.

[Anonymous No.21267534]

Having the ability to reread online messages from adolescent days is mortifying. I realize how much of an insufferable smartass pseud i was back then, it's a miracle that anybody got along with me. I wonder if I'll be as disgusted with myself when I look back on how I talk 5-6 years from now.
>>21267458
Very nice. I would suggest trying to paint cake.

[Anonymous No.21267539]

>>21267512
Fate is not able to call. Maybe my phone is on airplane mode, maybe it isnt. No way to knoe.

[Anonymous No.21267553]

A year ago, I broke her heart. She trusted me, and I still let her down. I will always be a criminal for this.

[Anonymous No.21267561]

>>21267553
Why did you do it anon

[Anonymous No.21267572]

Why oh why did I take a vow of homosexuality?

[Anonymous No.21267591]

>>21267294
Heavily irradiated, filled with trash and corpses and probably not many living things around

[Anonymous No.21267604]

>>21267294
> crazy to think what life would be like in 30,000 years

The year is 30,001.

The Global Bantu Expansion wiped out most of the humanity by the year 4,000.

Now only extremely few, but all godlike, people remain in the mountain ranges across the globe.

[Anonymous No.21267631]

>>21267561
There have been many deciding factors. The final catalyst this asinine-in-hindsight "me or them" situation with my friends that escalated to attempts at humiliating me through the shitflinging, with her rhetoric boiling down to "if you're not with me on this then you perceive me as worthless". I was backed into a corner and felt very confused as for what to do, so I decided to end the relationship at that point (although I do think she was willfully trying to push me to that point by starting the mess). I thought well and hard, and I didn't see any other way out. Figured she would eventually be better off without me since my presence was causing her so much stress. Plus it set a bad precedent that would have probably lead to bigger problems in the long run. Let's not kid ourselves I just chickened out from the responsibilities lel.
Yeah that's what it was, I yielded to the game of probabilities. I was unable to drag her out of the self hatred/low self esteem gutter. All she wanted was to cuddle, and I couldn't visit her because of the long distance and the circumstances surrounding our social status. I didn't make her understand how good she was. I didn't help her realize that she was better than me all along. Just sort of left her in the cold, dark corners of her room. I sincerely hope she's doing good.

[Anonymous No.21267651]

Always love it whenever return to this board I would definitely find a marxism thread on the catalog.

[Anonymous No.21267655]

>>21267407
i don't know
noblesse oblige maybe

[Anonymous No.21267657]

>>21263018
Stop masturbating then.

[Anonymous No.21267658]

>>21267458
a puddle

[Anonymous No.21267662]

>>21267651
It's a popular current, and an even more popular one to joke about. It's piss easy to shitpost about it. Nothing strange about its presence.

[Anonymous No.21267675]

>>21267651
There's one tranny always writing borderline incoherent and obviously irrational effort posts constantly. Kind of funny to watch, like a monkey using a typewriter, except that you can predict what it will write if you say something to it.

[Anonymous No.21267715]

>>21267631
> I was unable to drag her out of the self hatred/low self esteem gutter.

I too felt great sadness once over this, and I sincerely hope she found someone that could bring the greatest good out of her. When I loved her the most she became the most stressed, I had to end it since she didn't have the strength.

It is hard to say if this is chickening out of responsibilities or the adult thing to do. I think I was genuinely suffocating her.

[Anonymous No.21267909]

I very much regret working in higher education.

[Anonymous No.21267950]

Gentlemen do not give up, your future wife may be singing and dancing to hips dont lie by shakira in the kitchen while cooking dinner for her sisters, not caring about going to any clubs and no strange man has access to her ever. She believes in love, and in you.

There is hope.

[Anonymous No.21268149]

I'm a state employee. I work 100% remotely. The work is easy. I get good benefits. I can opt into the state retirement plan and effectively retire in my 50s. However, the pay is very low and I do hate the job. Would I be mad to quit? I just feel deeply like I am wasting my life here.

[Anonymous No.21268151]

>>21267950
Dont give me hope. Dont do that. Leave me alone.

[Anonymous No.21268158]

>>21267950
Yeah man I'm sure some girl out there is just dying to marry a manlet with a porn addiction and an undiagnosed mental disorder.

[Anonymous No.21268168]

People have a problem with butt sex because of poo, but have no problem with vagina sex although that is where women pee, bleed, and have vaginal discharge from. This is somehow less disgusting? Humans are just gross. Eww.

[Anonymous No.21268178]

>>21268158
you have not seen the third world

[Anonymous No.21268228]

>>21267534
I tried to paint a cake, but it was ugly

>>21267458
I tried to find a puddle tutorial, but for some reason I couldn't, so I drew a glass instead. definitely need practice, but I'm optimistic.

I'm gonna do an orange next.

[Anonymous No.21268231]

>>21268228
>>21267658
oops

[Anonymous No.21268238]

>>21267404
Thanks, but now try the other kind of response.

[Anonymous No.21268241]

>>21268158
> Porn Addction
fake
> Mental disorder
fake
> manlet

oof

[Anonymous No.21268286]

>>21262779
How do you know if you're in an abusive relationship? Im noticing and am self aware about some "things" she does but at the same time it kind of turns me on, yet feels a bit messed up at the same time

[Anonymous No.21268295]

>>21264627
>>21264940

Please respond.

[Anonymous No.21268335]

Popeyes fried chicken might unironically be my favorite food. It's just too good.

[Anonymous No.21268337]

>>21268286
There are checklists you can look up. I can tell you too, if you elaborate.

[Anonymous No.21268348]

>>21268168
pee doesn’t come from the vagina you stupid motherfucker. it comes from the urethra

[Anonymous No.21268412]

>>21262796
They still let kids do this? I was doing this in 2001 and would get scolded often.

[Anonymous No.21268524]

Pic related is all you know.

[Anonymous No.21268558]

>>21268524
there was an anon here the other day that accused me of conflating the synthetic / analytic with the a priori / a posteriori, he / she / it was exceptionally rude, and wrong, but i must admit, they have also helped me, as after reading their comments i did feel cause to re-familiarise myself with the distinction, and having done so i feel better equipped for it. Thank you anon, i look forward to our next encounter.

[Anonymous No.21268596]

new
>>21268590

[Anonymous No.21268614]

Have you heard that joke about Hegel and negation?

[Anonymous No.21268646]

>>21266408
>>21266722
i know this is a mongolian basket weaving forum full of LARPers and lonely spergs with similar stories. but i really hope that this is real and that you two end up together. i wanna believe that this kind of love actually exists

[Anonymous No.21268666]

>>21267950
This

>>21268151
>>21268158
Fix your mindset. Go to the gym and get enough vitamin D

[Anonymous No.21268672]

>>21266722
You've got the wrong guy, sorry.

[Anonymous No.21268697]

>>21267950
I almost had it. We had decided we don't want to live in the big city, go to her small home town, work together in the local museum, buy a house in a village, start a family. Then she went to a university field practice with her new colleagues and after two weeks decided she didn't want to be in a relationship anymore. There was hope. And thank god for that, I'm not letting people this close to me ever again.

[Anonymous No.21268838]

>>21267401
I'm 6'2, which is short compared to my fellow zoomers. I also have bad posture which only makes me appear shorter.

[Anonymous No.21268898]

>>21268697
How old were you? If you were 18 then plans like that were never meaningful. Dont givgive up because a teenage fantasy didnt come true

[Anonymous No.21268947]

>>21268838
What? Fucking hell what country? I’m 5’11 and taller than most men I meet in the US. Is 6’2 actually short for zoomers?

[Anonymous No.21268978]

Yeah, hello? Hi, yeah, I'm anon and I'm calling to enquire about certain policies. Yeah, so I was told that all these hardships would eventually pay off. I think your sales rep used the term "silver lining." Yeah, yeah, so that silver lining has yet to show up and the hard times havent abated. I think I'm investing a lot morr than I'm getting back. Am I waitlisted or something? Is there, like, a premium membership I can buy? No? Well can you give me an approximate timeline regarding my waitlist status? Hello? Hello? Are you still there?

[Anonymous No.21268983]

>>21268978
Life isn't fair and there's nothing I can do but seethe about it. Men like us suffer through toils and hardships only for others to live lives full of joy without a care in the world.

[Anonymous No.21269009]

>>21266882
As in trying to not masturbate? Or is there more to nofap?

[Anonymous No.21269066]

what the hell is going on in the next thread?

[Anonymous No.21269591]

I self-publish erotica, and I know I will die in poverty. My writings might gain their value after I am gone. I made my peace with that fact. sometimes my depression and procrastination take over and I don't want to write.

sometimes my tinder dates will show interest in my writing. That's all I have to show for, really. I am not social, and can hardly hold a conversation IRL, but I can write. it is usually the new-wave feminists with dyed hair. the bookworms who love romance. and my shame prevents me from sharing my stories. What if they hate it so much that they get a restraining order? That's also the reason why I don't share my writings with friends. To them, I just write and dance around the topic.

then I will say wth, and send the first chapter to my dates. They love it, and I don't know how to take compliments. They say it makes them horny, and want to read more. that gives me hope. maybe one day I will get out of my slump and actually send it to a real publisher.


I am not afraid of simple rejections. I am more so afraid of getting rejection letters similar to that one anon who wrote the most racist cuck shit ever. What if my writings are the same and my tinder matches just lie to charm me...

[Anonymous No.21269670]

>>21269591
Why did you post this in the dead thread

[Anonymous No.21269759]

>>21269670
not that anon but /wwoym/ threads are always comfy after the next thread is made. like afterhours at a school or supermarket

[Anonymous No.21269780]

>>21268672
Well, thanks for letting me know. I’m going to throw away my phone and go live in some remote cabin off the grid now, since I can never show my face in society or post on this forum again after this.

[Anonymous No.21269794]

A vile temptress tricked me personally into failing NNN. Perhaps an exception can be made? I didn't explicitly intend to masturbate.

[Anonymous No.21269922]

>>21269794
You should have had sex with her