Write What's On Your Minds

[Anonymous No.21242713]

/wwoym/

Previously >>21235277

[Anonymous No.21242738]

>>21242713
I have no fucking clue what she is thinking and she scares me 5-7%

[Anonymous No.21242741]

>>21242713
I need to write my thesis but I'm really lazy in this period, help me bros

[Anonymous No.21242745]

>>21242713
Wake up in the morning
I got murder on my mind
Ak47, Mac11
Glocks and nines
https://youtube.com/watch?v=3mK-dr5fskQ

[Anonymous No.21242765]

>>21242738
What does 5-7% mean?
No one understands each other. That’s why we talk to one another

[Anonymous No.21242782]

I've come to the realization that having a really big dick is all that matters in life

[Anonymous No.21242790]

>>21242741
GET OFFLINE NOW

[Anonymous No.21242802]

>>21242782
False meme.

[Anonymous No.21242864]

>>21242741
When I had to write my thesis I reached pathological levels of procrastination. I spent like a week playing tetris online in order to avoid writing. Then I finally started when "it was too late anyway" to achieve something good. Still managed to get the best possible grade.

[Anonymous No.21242967]

>>21242745
Nice remix. Have you heard the other side? Mind on my murder?

[Anonymous No.21242986]

I'm here to drink seawater and promote misinfomation.
And I'm all out of seawater.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f65pSyTJhD4

[Anonymous No.21243010]

Wondering how badly I could nuke the self-confidence of a tomboy by asking about her transition

[Anonymous No.21243014]

>>21242713
I don't know what's on my mind. I think I lost it. Actually, I don't think i ever had it.

[Anonymous No.21243111]

Listened to some music, doodled a bit. Put the pen down in rather high spirits.
Read a bunch of mean words on the internet, took them personally. Decided suddenly that hiding in a tiny concrete box with zero human interaction for 5 month straight is no excuse for having poor ear hygiene.
While cleaning ears with cotton swabs, accidentally pushed a piece of earwax deeper into the ear, causing a minor but noticeable decrease in hearing.
Had a breakdown over all of my problems being my own fault. Started tidying up the place in preparation for a final bathtub dive. Reconsidered midway, the argument being there's plenty of time for that, I still haven't ran out of money.
Now torn between taking a 10 minute walk to the pharmacy to get some hydrogen peroxide tomorrow morning and ignoring the ear issue completely like I always do. Most likely will go.

[Anonymous No.21243118]

really don't like reading you people ramble can you shut up

[Anonymous No.21243119]

https://youtu.be/Xz8ux1Bibio

[Anonymous No.21243125]

>>21243010
Pull your own ponytail, dipshit.

[Anonymous No.21243136]

>>21243125
It fascinates me way too much as a little social experiment. Would her behavior change? Clothing? Would she cry on the spot? Would she take it as a joke she's heard too many times? I know tomboys don't want to be identified as boys, but identifying her as MtF might do something to her psyche.

We'll see.

[Anonymous No.21243146]

>>21243136
Obviously it would offend her but the degree of butthurt will proportional to her estimation of your value.

[Anonymous No.21243155]

>>21243146
Perhaps, perhaps not.
Now, what is on your mind anon

[Anonymous No.21243179]

>>21243155
The same thing as usual - how to return to the state of mystic apprehension of the eternal Godhead and its accompanying streams of glowing beauty and love. My results indicate that posting on 4chan is not conducive to success in this area, as it creates many little conflicts and fragmentations of ego in your soul.

[Anonymous No.21243187]

What caused grooming to become such an important topic in the last few years specifically? I'm aware that the term was coined decades ago, and that the behavior has always been around, but I'm not sure to what extent I ever heard it talked about before 2018 or 19 - after which it hit some kind of critical mass and suddenly everyone was talking about it. What changed in that time?

[Anonymous No.21243200]

>>21243187
It's the harlot of Babylon and it is purposefully becoming comically evil so as to trick people into joining the Beast system which will arise as a false light to destroy Babylon and instate a global tyranny cloaked in new age pretensions of universal harmony and immanentized eschaton.

[Anonymous No.21243211]

>>21243200
You gnostics are so tedious.

[Anonymous No.21243216]

My wife asked me if i ever wondered about opening up our relationship, i said no and asked her if she thought about it. She told me that she just wondered what it would be like. I threatened to divorce her just for bringing it up, because the thought was very hurtful. That was the day i stopped loving my wife like i did before. I stayed with her for the kids, and just use her for sex. I never act loving towards her like i used to, and i don't do fun things with her anymore, i just tell her i am busy or tired. About 6 months into this she broke down and admitted that she was talking to her female friends about me spending too much time working on a side project for more income, and that i was neglecting her and that she wanted to hurt me in some way, so her friends came up with the idea to ask about the open relationship in order to scare me and make me insecure. I actually believe my wife in this account, but i told her that i didn't. It has been five years and I am actually happier now. There is a certain kind of peace knowing that she is just a masturbation tool and maid for me, and if she ever decided to leave i literally would not give a fuck. I have my hobbies and my kids are growing up fast, i hope that she stays with me so that i can punish her for the rest of her life and deny her the love that she craves but so negligently destroyed.

[Anonymous No.21243220]

>>21243200
pretty much this

[Anonymous No.21243221]

>>21243211
That's not gnosticism, that's what the bible says. Gnostics will join the Beast system because it will be presented as an alternative to the demiurge's wicked forces. Theoretically speaking of course.

[Anonymous No.21243231]

>>21243216
Good fanfiction
If true, you are sigma, alpha, gigachad, and yet a psychopathic faggot.

[Anonymous No.21243236]

>>21243221
You didn't even answer the actual question - why since 2018 specifically, what happened then?

I wanted to assume that Jeffrey Epstein's arrest had something to do with it, but I couldn't even find news articles from that time that use the term "grooming".

[Anonymous No.21243247]

>>21243236
nta but it's because online grooming increased a lot with discord, and all the tranny/sex positive culture emboldened creeps to interact with children. people have just noticed this and are rightfully calling it out.

[Anonymous No.21243251]

>>21243187
>What caused grooming to become such an important topic in the last few years specifically?

People started realizing that for some reason, trannies and commies actually DEMAND ACCESS to underage kids.

[Anonymous No.21243255]

>>21243236
Presumably because we are at the end times. Also grooming is used in different ways by the left and right. The left use it to refer to men dating women they knew as children, while the right use it to mean turning kids gay or trans. These have evolved into greater prominence as the dysfunction of hookup culture has made women increasingly try to police male sexual behavior, and the LGBT thing has ramped up considerably in the public sphere, it's all over the place now, so there has been an organized reaction by conservatives.

[Anonymous No.21243264]

>>21243255
All of this happens together with the fact that we have massive amount of people not fucking. I think the actual virgin rate for people under 30s and people under 30s that are not having sex in past year have skyrocketed.

Weird times, sexual liberation killing sex having

[Anonymous No.21243267]

>>21243236
Trannies receive some sort of sexual satisfaction through feeding children irreversible hormones. Many such cases.
Luckily it won't be long before they're given stars and stripes.

[Anonymous No.21243278]

>>21243247
>>21243251
>>21243267
I first noticed it in the context of YouTuber drama, with people like Onision. It didn't have the tranny slant then.

[Anonymous No.21243292]

>>21243278
well the drag queen story hour and kids at pride parades dancing for dollars made it a more mainstream issue.

[Anonymous No.21243307]

>>21243187
>What caused grooming to become such an important topic in the last few years specifically?
Because neither side has no interest in stopping the coming economic crash. Have both parties united on the looming global hot war? The hopelessly complex demographic petri dish that still calls itself a country? Would it accomplish anything beyond making the members of one “team” feel temporarily better? One thing is for sure: Everyone will have an opinion about it. And nearly everyone’s opinions will be shallow and uninformed.

Is it possible that Republicans focused on the wrong messages? Is it possible that both parties myopically focused on their own ideas of metaphysical morality and hardly made a peep about material reality? What I witnessed this election cycle were rabid Christian nationalists clashing like stag beetles with the prophets of wokeness, both sides oblivious to the fact that neither “degeneracy” nor “hatred” is our biggest problem. You had bitter, screeching, clenched-anus moralists on both sides screaming cancerous bile at one another and promising that if their side won, they would purge all the evil people on the other side and establish a Thousand-Year Reich of Goodness.

The election results put the lie to this idea that optically pure, family-focused, Bible-based, morality-obsessed, cultural traditionalism is the inevitable wave of the future rather than a sad relic of an irrevocable past. If being woke is a bourgeois luxury, maybe “owning the libs” is an equivalent trifle. People who actually have to scrape for their next meal don’t care much either way about such things. Most people would rather have empty church pews than bare supermarket shelves. Maybe it will finally take thousand-dollar hamburgers for people to realize how shallow this culture war really was.

On the Right, it seems as if some strategist in a smoke-filled backroom decided that Critical Race Theory, stampeding anti-whiteness, preschool gender-reassignment surgeries, COVID gaslighting, and state-mandated anarcho-tyranny could only be beaten with brazen acts of competitive humorlessness, counter-fanaticism, and Manichean simplemindedness. Their brilliant counterattack was to merely swap out the Left’s pet projects with pedophilia obsessions, sexual panics, Satanic scares, and empty, pseudo-patriotic corniness. Maybe everyone should have talked about the economy more, huh?

If you don’t have a child that you’re personally dragging to Drag Queen Story Hour, the issue likely won’t directly affect you, no matter how repulsive the idea may be to you in theory. But if the fact that workers are essentially obsolete in America’s new high-tech progressive global economy means you’re trudging to Dollar Store for your basic foodstuffs, that will directly affect you both physically and emotionally. It will demoralize you to the point where morality doesn’t seem so important.

Few people care about this when they’re starving.

[Anonymous No.21243336]

>>21243307
bro chill

[Anonymous No.21243364]

>>21243336
>>21243307

He's not wrong though

America just bastardises politics in a way by just making absolutely everything bipartisan in some way.

It honestly seems so fucking tiring, coming from someone who doesn't even live in the US.

No wonder so many people get blackpilled over there.

[Anonymous No.21243365]

>>21242713
i fucking hate the extremely mixed messages women (or this girl in particular im talking to for a month or so). tf am i supposed to figure out? how am i supposed to know if you actually are attracted to me or not? im just frustrated man

[Anonymous No.21243367]

>>21243365
>i fucking hate the extremely mixed messages women
*women give

[Anonymous No.21243378]

>>21243365
Just ask her out if you want to find out, geez

[Anonymous No.21243393]

>>21243378
i did, three times i went out with her. so uhhhh

[Anonymous No.21243406]

What is there worth doing in our age? Like when people here argue about wasting time reading versus action, what does "action" really mean?
It seems like the only fulfilment men can find nowadays is in chasing the rewarding feeling of overcoming themselves, which is why is so many are inclined towards things like lifting or combat sports. It's the same for me, but I really wish I could apply the same motivation towards something external, but I struggle to think of anything actionable

[Anonymous No.21243442]

>>21243393
Well if you're not in a relationship after 3 dates then there's no interest I guess.

[Anonymous No.21243467]

>>21242713
I've been thinking that as much as I love the movie/book plot of just lucking your way into good times and good things like a relationship or fun, that doesn't happen in real life unless you take some steps toward it. Took some time from work and just think about things, worked out mostly, walked and lots of thinking. One conclusion I've reached is nothing happens if you stay in your house so I've been going out more and I feel like a Fish out of Water most of the time but I also feel, Good, happy even. So I'm doing it; Bands playing in town, restaurant I've never been too, 5K walk-a-don, and more? Yeah, I've signed up and just went out and did it. I'm not sure where this leads but it's better than being some doomer sad fuck inside a house all day all night. I just feel good to get out and do stuff I've never done before so let the good times roll I say.

[Anonymous No.21243469]

Writing the GRE exam tomorrow. Wish me luck frens

[Anonymous No.21243473]

DIXIELAND DIXIELAND DIXIELAND!

THE DIXIE SOUL IS GOD.

I HAVE A SOUL AND I AM NEVER GIVING GIVING UP ON IT.

[Anonymous No.21243511]

>>21243307
Anon, all those things like Trannies, anti-whiteness, and Feminism dictate foreign relations as psycho-colonialism, the reason why things are so bipartisan and insane here is that American domestic affairs are at the center of its destruction. So I'm not surprised that everyone, even political parties, is at each other's throats during these unrepresentative times. Yeah, maybe some are ignoring the elephant in the room, but these morality issues, methods, and ideals need to be destroyed, not ignored. Vain Feminism is the root of them. Ideology does matter.

Nobody talks about Feminism as a form of cultural soft power in geopolitics. Stuff like democratic peace theory and commercial peace theory have spelled the doom of the denizens of liberal countries, and even non-democratic nations, many of which are lonely men. Fukuyama, the silly idealist he is why this theory didn’t pan out for alienation of man from woman, to ensure global and national stability for all important hegemonic actors, a dominant political landscape which seeks to demean, demoralize and criminalize normal male behavior in the landscape of international relations. These are meant to be taken as examples, things we should NOT repeat again, to ensure that familial bonds are established between man and woman, the ancient order of things in what a population seeks to maximize to ensure its population growth and prosperity and will give examples of a) social, b) economic and c) cultural reasons to maintain this sort of behavior to encourage a sense of “normalcy” in state actors and how they relate to the rest of the world.

That's why we see missiles decked out in slogans such as “Black Lives Matter” or the transgender flag of blue, pink, and white to spread liberalism across borders, one can see someone such as Fukuyama flinching that indeed liberalism can be a totalitarian force, but instead of a mere ‘power gain’ its an “ideological gain” for the side perpetrating the attack on foreign soil. This can also be seen as many gay, transgender, and lesbian citizens overwhelmingly support not only President Biden as a form of “accelerationism” but also as a form of destabilization on the domestic front. We all know that gays reproduce by molestation, since they cannot physically bear the grunt of bringing life into this world, they would rather bring death. As it goes they are more likely to vote for candidates in a state election that would not only destabilize a nation but also destabilize relations abroad. They are nihilists. Since feminism and LBGTQ often go hand in hand, this is the twin prong attack of global imperialism, and many women should not vote if anything is to go by on social media where they claim “its ok to bomb brown children as long as a woman or person of color occupies the position of power”.

[Anonymous No.21243528]

Lol, the greek gods are just platonic ideas and vice versa.

[Anonymous No.21243529]

reading through some of my coked up fb messages to people
getting swept away

[Anonymous No.21243552]

Immortality

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=x5aEYtDGB1s&list=LL&index=1


For every cancer, some percentage of cells successfully mutate to fight the cancer. Curing cancer is a matter of pinpointing the successful cells relative to each unique cancer… and replicating them.

We have the tech.

[Anonymous No.21243561]

>>21242713
Lifts one arsecheek slightly, balancing on cumstained second-hand Human Motion (or whatever the fuck it is called) office chair.
*PRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPFFFFFFFFPT*
Wet stinking fart comes out of an arsehole, almost splitting the hanging hemorrhoids therein.
Absolute fucking belcher of a fart.
Whole room fills with an unbearable stench of shite that lingers on like a thick, persistent fog.
Eyes get sore from the unquenchable, almost folklorically deep smell. Truly, a repugnant palette, he thought to himself.

[Anonymous No.21243599]

>>21243469
break a leg, anon

[Anonymous No.21243638]

i was going to write some gay erotic fiction, but no one here probably wants to read that lol

[Anonymous No.21243702]

>>21242713
Today I bought chickens. 3 hens and a rooster. I don't know why I do these things.

[Anonymous No.21243735]

>>21242864
Thanks anon, really appreciate it :)

[Anonymous No.21243794]

>>21243702
Guess you were really desperate for a cock.

[Anonymous No.21243815]

I don't feel like a man being 5'5

[Anonymous No.21243832]

>>21243815
i'm 6 ft and i don't "feel" like a man either anon, what does it "feel" like to be a man? you just are one.

[Anonymous No.21243978]

>>21242713
I have a pool. There is a time machine in my pool, which I can use to send my brain's electromagnetic waves back in time. I mostly only use my time machine to relive a few days in 2018. It was when I goofed around with my now ex-girlfriend. I usually come to her house early in the morning and we sleep together till 12, after which we wake up, eat and play video-games. We then go to bed to kiss, have sex and then a nap. Her parents (we were 19 at the time) come home at 18'30, which is when I usually leave. When the week is over, I jump back into the pool, then come back in 2022.

To my utmost fascination, I discovered specific rules to time-travel that cannot be broken no matter what. I found the first one when I tried to take pictures in the past, trying to make memories before I plunged back in the pool, making sure it wasn't all a dream... Then I came back and couldn't find those photos. In short, the observed present cannot be changed.

I can't make things up with my ex-girlfriend and go back to us together. I could go to 2015 when my pool was first built, buy bitcoins and then go back to 2022, and I wouldn't find any wallet ID on my computer. I could kill someone and go back in 2022, only to find that person alive as if the day of their death had not happened at all. I've never confirmed the last occurence, though, not with a human. I know that because when I killed the hamster (by neglect) I forgot I had in 2008 and time-traveled further the same year, I just saw it in his running wheel, as if all modified events were rendered null by my departure.

I can't go back in the past and stay there indefinitely either, enjoying my modified version of events. If I stay too long, I forget about who I am. For example, past a month in, I once realized I couldn't remember how old I really was, who were my friends and what I did for a living before time-travelling. The symptoms were cured instantly when I finally got back to the present.

I think this might be the key to changing future outcomes, but it really doesn't sit right with me. What would have happened to the "me" that I am if I didn't figure it out before it was too late? Would I have disappeared, the original me replaced by a younger self in a branch set a few years back in time? Could it be that it already happened but I can't remember any of this?

These implications aren't the only ones giving me tremors. There is one last 'rule', I think, and this one really fucks me up.

I've never time-travelled into the future.

And it's not that I've never tried.

Every time I jump in the pool with that idea in mind, I'm striken by terror and get out immediately. I don't know why and to be honest, just thinking about it give me immense chills.

That's about it. I'm moving out in a few months and I'm just wondering if my dad knows about the time machine. He used the pool multiple times at night, which is when it is active. I think I might talk to him later.

Thanks for reading my blog.

[Anonymous No.21244000]

>>21243552
Wtf is this real?

[Anonymous No.21244004]

>>21243832

[Anonymous No.21244008]

>>21242713
He shifts in the bathtub. The water is cooling down. He picks up his phone, planning to visit 4chan.org/lit/. As he enters his simple password (909090), he twitches with the feeling on an oncoming sneeze. When it doesn't appear, he stares at the light until it finally lets out, feeling successful at his outsmarting of his own body. His eyes are tearing up now, reminding him of his unfortunate cold. He continues to open the literature board and scrolls past a small number of uninteresting threads, before spotting a writing thread.

[Anonymous No.21244029]

>>21243638
oh no i accidentally did end up writing it, although i won't post it since there is definitely no one here who wants to read it lol

[Anonymous No.21244035]

>>21243815
>>21243832
I see the problem here.
I'm 6'4" and I feel like a man.

[Anonymous No.21244042]

>>21244035
what does it feel like to be a man?

[Anonymous No.21244095]

Prolly should have done something with my panics when they started 13 years back. The attacks get worse with time. These days I must just look like a fucking neurotic all the time to others.
I can't cope with it anymore. When something stresses me, especially a couple of days in advance, I just can't function normally until it's over.

[Anonymous No.21244102]

>>21244095
When I get anxiety I just tell myself to stop being a faggot and imagine that I am inside my head with myself(there are two of me) and I hit myself with a sturdy stick and this makes me feel in control

[Anonymous No.21244109]

>>21244102
That's a nice technique, but for me when it hits it's impossible to even make myself imagine that in my head. I'd imagine hitting myself for a second and then my attention would just slip again to what stresses me - or to trying not to throw up.

[Anonymous No.21244113]

[Anonymous No.21244165]

Okay /lit/ I need some fucking advice from people whom I can reasonably trust to not be insane.

>be me
>have best friend since I was in 3rd grade
>very intelligent like I am
>less autistic than I am, generally more "normal"
>has over the years taken on some of the nature of a bugman (fat, shaved head, glasses, has lots of funko pops, still plays video games into his mid 30s)
>was married for a while
>his wife wanted an "open relationship"
>he complied
>in practice this just meant she slept with other men while he did nothing
>they get divorced
>think that we're all in the clear
>he calls me up this evening, wants to get together this weekend
>in the middle of the conversation he drops this bomb: "Hey, Anon, by the way, I'm a girl now. I might look different when you see me."
>I keep things polite and even
>we're going to get together probably tomorrow

What the fuck do I do? I never expected this bullshit to hit so close to home. This friend of mine has sprung this on me without any warning whatsoever, and I thought I knew him better than this. He's old enough to not be a young impressionable teen, either.

[Anonymous No.21244173]

got banned from /tv/ for the next 12 minutes

[Anonymous No.21244177]

>>21244102
Dude I do this!! Except I imagine a lot of different things - ripping out my spinal cord, or hitting myself with a baseball bat, or just taking an automatic rifle to myself. It used to work well, but it doesn’t help anymore, I just get a stronger and stronger urge to self harm and eventually do.

[Anonymous No.21244179]

>>21244109
That sounds rough anon, sorry to hear it.

[Anonymous No.21244194]

>>21244179
Yeah, some stupid internet psychologists say that I should just expose myself to my fears and it will go away.
I expose myself all the time, I don't let it force me not to do anyting as much as I can, but it only gets worse with time, just the physical reaction.
The thing imo is that the mechanism of my fear is different than usual phobias, where mine is kind of obsessive - I'm not even really afraid of the events themselves, I just obsess about how they might get ruined if I panic during them and that catches me in a cycle where I just keep obsessing about the anxiety being bad and get more and more stressed out.

[Anonymous No.21244203]

>>21244194
You try any physical techniques? Like breathing and such things. I also find I can make anxiety lessen considerably in meme ways like flexing my abs lol.

[Anonymous No.21244214]

>>21244203
Yeah some breathing techniques help.
They are inapplicable at the worst phases though as they just make me want to throw up - my stomach is weak.

[Anonymous No.21244281]

>>21243136
she’ll just call you a retard and walk away lol, don’t flatter yourself

[Anonymous No.21244285]

>>21243216
you had me going in the first half but that’s grim anon, find god

[Anonymous No.21244293]

>>21243136
>Will the tomboy remember me?
No, she is a normie and therefore has friends and a life, so even if you rape and beat her, she'll probably forget you ever existed by choice within a few years like all your acquaintances do.

[Anonymous No.21244295]

>>21244165
perhaps… it’s real? stories like this are when many people decide to stop being transphobic (4chan incels don’t know any trannies in real life). here’s a prime opportunity to be a good person. don’t blow it

[Anonymous No.21244296]

>>21243216
What kind of relationship/What kind of headcases must two people be to be married and not be able to have a conversation as simple as "I'd like for us to spend more time together"? I get that this is your weird fanfiction power fantasy but if anyone is ever in a relationship never, ever frame a conversation or issue as "I will dissolve our relationship instantly" it's a really easy way to make your partner never feel comfortable talking to you ever again.

[Anonymous No.21244297]

>>21244296
this, I just tell me girlfriend every single thing that bothers me lol

[Anonymous No.21244300]

>>21244296
If they bring up an open relationship you should just dump them anyway

[Anonymous No.21244301]

>>21243264
Sex is at it's best as an expression of love and love is dead for most.

[Anonymous No.21244312]

>>21243187
>grooming to become such an important topic in the last few years specifically? I'
They see trafficked children as competitors for attention. The same thing happened with rape first. Grooming works better because it doesn't require the performance rape does for essentially the same social gains. Women who are vocal about it are basically sending out warning signals of how they split the problem: if they're very vocal about victims being silenced, then they probably bully victims, and their vocality about how society should treat them like they're not liars is probably an indicator of how often they lie.
Victims who get burnt by the performative social aspect learn pretty quick to shut the fuck up and avoid further victimisation by such people. Women who enjoy the performative social benefits from getting to beat down rape victims to their preferred narrative think it's the victims' fault for not knowing it was a performance.

[Anonymous No.21244317]

>>21244165
BPD

[Anonymous No.21244330]

>>21244177
that's demons anon, dont let them win
its best to think of nice things instead and try to be humble

[Anonymous No.21244341]

>>21244300
this

[Anonymous No.21244344]

>>21242967
I had no idea but I'll check it out, thanks. Honestly I didn't even expect such a turn from ooga-booga music.

[Anonymous No.21244348]

>>21244177
It's not a self harm urge for me, the whacking with the stick isnt painful it's just meant to make myself stop being retarded. I used to do faggoty things like cut or burn myself as a teenager but one time I accidentally sliced my arm almost to the bone out of an excess of energetic angst and had to get about 50 stitches and that put me off it. There was a literal geiser of blood squirting out of the slash, would have been kino if it weren't alarming.

[Anonymous No.21244350]

>>21244300
>>21244341
Poly here, very few people who say they want an open relationship actually want one, can confirm. Very few bi people are bi too, they're just desperate
>inb4 pan
That's just super desperate with a side of chaser

[Anonymous No.21244351]

>>21244296
no, it's a great way to tell your partner not to even think about that sort of shit again or it's over.

[Anonymous No.21244358]

>>21244350
no one cares about your meme gender or your meme opinion you filthy degenerate.

[Anonymous No.21244363]

>>21244165
now's the time to get some middle aged tranny bussy if you catch my drift, anon

just joking, I hope this never happens to me. good luck

[Anonymous No.21244368]

>>21244042
It's hard as fuck, lot's of responsibilities.
I need to keep my wife in line, need to be goydan jewerson's penis washer incarnation, literally.
But it's rewarding. I fuck my wife's brains out, she loves being impregnated by me and that in itself is, albeit a shallow and earthly, but nevertheless a reward for which I toiled and am compensated. She is my maid and she enjoys it. It's not perfect, the relationship can be hard at times but I am discovering new things about human relationships pretty much every day. I do feel like I am living a human life to a pretty full extent most of the days, whether it be bad or good day - doesn't matter. It feels right and good.
Sometimes I wish I could just not do any of these things and go back to playing WoW 16 hours a day but I am no longer a child and I've put those things aside.
I highly recommend it - be a man. Do things because you have to do them and you'll be half way there.
Also it helps if you lift heavy, look half decent and take good care of yourself.

[Anonymous No.21244377]

>>21244358
>calling polygamy a meme gender
Makes a change from Mormon or Arab, but you should read more to not be a retard.

[Anonymous No.21244379]

>>21243978
How does yours work? Are you talking about the specious present?

[Anonymous No.21244418]

>>21244377
it all ends up in hell so what's the difference

[Anonymous No.21244437]

>>21242713
After finishing Severian's Cycle I find myself going back to Wolfe with more and more admiration and curiosity. Is his Latro trilogy worth compared with the Solar Cycle, or should I just continue with Long and Short Sun?

[Anonymous No.21244485]

>>21244418
I like to think you believe this about all words you don't understand.

[Anonymous No.21244689]

i feel like this dude

[Anonymous No.21244790]

>>21244485
very cute. i like to think you are a fat balding tranny living in a dirty house with other fat balding trannies wearing ill-fitting tank tops and pretending to be "lesbians" while you piss and shid all over each other. then you all cry in separate rooms while a cat throws up in the kitchen due to witnessing the manmade horrors beyond its comprehension.

[Anonymous No.21244795]

>>21244790
Why would you like to think this

[Anonymous No.21244798]

>>21244795
because it means the person i am talking to is beneath me

[Anonymous No.21244810]

>>21244790
>trannies literally living rent free in your head this bad
I'm not even the many wives guy, I just thought it was funny you didn't know what words meant. Seek help bro, you're too retarded to safely operate 4chan.

[Anonymous No.21244832]

>>21244810
trannies live rent free in no ones head, they are everywhere, especially here. and i know what words mean, it's funny that you seem to be mr 4chan operator and don't understand a goofy joke. don't take yourself so seriously retard

[Anonymous No.21244840]

>>21244832
I think the trannies are a (you) problem bro. This was much funnier when I thought you were a schizo Christian who thought everything not in the KJV by name was obviously a sin.

[Anonymous No.21244853]

>>21244840
t. tranny

[Anonymous No.21244857]

>>21244853
>anon wants me to live rent free in his schizo tranny fantasy
No thanks

[Anonymous No.21244861]

>>21244857
>schizos living rent free in your head this bad

[Anonymous No.21244881]

Feeling like white trash

[Anonymous No.21245023]

Women only notice me when i wear my hat.

I'm bald.

[Anonymous No.21245027]

>>21242713
i bet 10€ this is 2 photos merged to one photo then drawn on it and some phantasy stuff added. i also bet that the original has about at least a 100 times higher resolution.

[Anonymous No.21245034]

>>21245027
you know guys art the perspective of drawn art most times doesn't match that of an photo most times its exaggerated. the background is maybe drawn but the perspectives of the back and foreground don't add up 100%

[Anonymous No.21245042]

>>21245034
the background is maybe also drawn cause the perspective is from an hard to find objective. idk if its 2 photos merged or one photo merged with an pure drawn background.

[Anonymous No.21245095]

I have found that I am capable of doing the responsible things if I pretend to be a responsible person. Feels like a fake me though.

[Anonymous No.21245102]

On nights like these I wish I had kept the number of my crazy ex so I could text her and arrange for us to have sex, even though I purposefully deleted it so I would have no way of doing exactly that.

[Anonymous No.21245115]

after over a year away from these threads i now remember why i left. you're all a bunch of whiny faggots.

[Anonymous No.21245125]

>>21245115
I’m just talking about getting some crazy pussy, anon.

[Anonymous No.21245133]

>>21245095
What are the responsible things?

[Anonymous No.21245219]

>>21245133
Drinking responsibly, getting proper rest, contributing to society in a meaningful way, etc.

[Anonymous No.21245248]

Uber driver was a completely illiterate african woman.

How much of a ruse was immigration? We all just accepted it because they told us it was normal or inevitable in every society. Why would it be normal or inevitable for an illiterate unskilled African woman, who is basically a modern rickshaw driver, to need to cross a fuckin ocean? What "opportunities" await her illiterate ass here, where real wages haven't grown since 1968.

[Anonymous No.21245290]

How do I tell a woman that she looked better when she was thinner

[Anonymous No.21245291]

>>21245248
>We all just accepted it
libtards accepted it, normal people knew it was retarded

[Anonymous No.21245297]

You sort of take yourself out of the running by choosing to go to college in the country or avoiding the city through your 20s, don't you?

[Anonymous No.21245323]

>>21245290
She knows. Just make this face and shake your head when she takes her clothes off.

[Anonymous No.21245335]

>>21245297
I don't know what "out of the running" means, but you are supposed to date through college and to find a husband / wife if you're not a retard (graduating college without one means you fucked up)

[Anonymous No.21245336]

what's on my mind? okay. if everything is energy and waves, and waves can annihilate, where does all the movement come from?

i mean time is an infinite line of causality their for all waves should have been annihilated till now.

so what is this all about?

do you see the problem? it drives from geometry, and their is no way out unless you know higher truth as geometry. which you don't cause you are a human, so you have to wonder like me.

[Anonymous No.21245339]

>>21245335
That's not what I was talking about, but even that's not true. I did, in fact, graduate from college in a steady relationship. It just ended a year later.

[Anonymous No.21245345]

>>21245339
What ended it?

[Anonymous No.21245367]

>>21245336
looking at the creation in this new light we see, 0,999* is not 1.

[Anonymous No.21245375]

>>21245367
maybe at the end of time their are just 2 waves propagating in opposite directions to never meat again.

[Anonymous No.21245389]

>>21245345
There were many things.

[Anonymous No.21245399]

The last 3 or 4 years have been so insanely boring for me that I really cannot take it anymore. This whole life trajectory has to change.

[Anonymous No.21245407]

>>21245336
Or you don't derive it from geometry

[Anonymous No.21245416]

i'm tired of being cringe. i sometimes get what i call "cringe attacks," which are pretty much what you would guess. even as i type now im embarrassed about how i'm so prone to cringing. absolutely maddening

[Anonymous No.21245434]

>>21244165
Oh, fugg. That's a rough one.
He's clearly gone through some shit and has gone to insane measures to cope.
I don't know. Usually once they troon out it's almost like they've killed themselves but they were too afraid of death to pull the trigger. Seems like he hated himself so much that he now pretends his old self is dead and he's this new 'woman'.
As long as he hasn't cut off his dong yet you might be able to help him get back his self-esteem, but you can't give the new character he plays that self-esteem. You have to try to make him love who he actually is again. That's gonna be tough, because he's only furthered his emasculation and humiliation by trooning.

[Anonymous No.21245452]

>>21244165
Tell him to find Hitler before Hitler finds him.

[Anonymous No.21245468]

i got a thread deleted and i don't know why. And now i am probably banned as well

[Anonymous No.21245495]

I used to love cinema so much. I wish I could love something again.

[Anonymous No.21245508]

I joined the military thinking all that stuff about camaraderie was true.
It is, but not for me. It's been four years and I don't have a single friend.

[Anonymous No.21245596]

Would I be humiliating myself if I sent a friend request to a girl who rejected me in middle school a decade ago? It's an immensely retarded thing to fret over but I've been struggling with it every night for a long while now. I lift my finger over the send button without getting the balls to do it. She grew up to be a respectable if not intimidating woman from what I've heard and I don't want to put myself in a position where I could get under fire for no reason other than feelings I've foolishly kept from my adolescent days.

[Anonymous No.21245602]

>>21245508
Sorry man

[Anonymous No.21245605]

>>21245596
Don’t do it. Move on.

[Anonymous No.21245709]

I dont know what Im doing with my time. It feels like Im killing it until my death. No solution.

[Anonymous No.21245714]

>>21245336
What happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object?

[Anonymous No.21245794]

>>21245468
Was this your thread, anon?

[Anonymous No.21245852]

>>21242713
I feel like at times I'm somewhat feminine & at other times very masculine. There's this deeper internal dissonance within myself. Like I'm very passive and quiet and giving, but there's this kind of cold or bitter streak to me as well. Like one half of me is almost like a woman in my desire to care for and protect others. The other half of me is very cynical and judgmental.
I've always had this passive personality because I'm sensitive and thin-skinned. People misinterpret this as me being nice or innocent. I'm not I'm just a spineless coward.
Especially around other guys, I can't stand conflict and will usually just back down when challenged.
There are times where I become the exact opposite and am extremely aggressive and out spoken. In school I've been both the kid that is so quiet that he never speaks, and at other points in time & in certain settings the obnoxious loudmouth who always voices his opinion no matter how controversial.
. It's like sometimes the testosterone just courses through my body & I become extremely assertive and love to argue.
It's this strange dissonance in myself. Maybe everyone has this to a degree I'm not sure.
Or maybe when you get older, this internal turbulence fades away.
I also visccitate as well between being kind of edgy in a way that often makes me cringe later, and on the other hand being very shy and overly nice in my passive way.
I similarly receive contrary descriptions of myself from others. Others have said that I seem mysterious or enigmatic. One person said I seem innocent or pure. Another person, my roommates girlfriend, said I seemed "intense". Yet someone else described me as a "sloth", that I just watch life pass by. Others have been creeped out by me (perhaps because I seem too innocent, which makes them suspect I'm hiding something).
When I was younger I was a clown. Not the funny kind, but the kind that everyone loves to hate. I enjoy making myself a clown for other people. Something about the degradation of it attracts me.
That has only been in a few contexts. Usually I'm just a faceless receptacle. I take in and in from others and observe, but never give anything back.
I've never had real relationships to other people. Platonic or otherwise. At least never at any real personal level. I like everything impersonal.
I'm afraid of being known. They will see that there is nothing underneath, that I'm pathetic. They will realize all I have are facades.
I feel especially insecure around people my age. Like I'm always a child next to them.
Or not even a child, but just sort of an empty shell of a person. Like there's nothing to know about me. It is impossible to know me. Like trying to understand a stock photo or a template. I cast it all off . I dislike to be affixed as one thing. It disgusts me the constraint of being known.
Just writing this I realize how creepy I sound

[Anonymous No.21245861]

>>21245852
get out of my head.

[Anonymous No.21245872]

I put my dick inside two different women on the same day and shortly after started losing my hair.

[Anonymous No.21245899]

dostoevsky is such a terrible writer
i've read him now in like three different languages, one germanic, one slavic, one romance, and his prose just never gets better
this isn't to say i think he's a bad storyteller, obviously the guy was a genius when it came to characterization and had deep insights into everything from psychology to philosophy, but his writing is dogshit
same goes for dumas
and this isn't really a time issue either, moby dick is old as well yet holds up perfectly well, it's got some of the best prose ever written

[Anonymous No.21245920]

>>21245899
>dostoevsky is such a terrible writer
*eye roll*

[Anonymous No.21245956]

Almost slipped and asked if she wants to hangout.

Stay stone cold brothers.

[Anonymous No.21245965]

>>21245899
> "one slavic"
That's an odd way to say "not in the original Russian"?

My relationship towards translations is that it's a whole new work, the "original author" (in this case, FD) just provided some of the load bearing structures (plot, characterization etc.) which can still be modified substantially by a translation.

[Anonymous No.21245969]

My ass is a swamp.

[Anonymous No.21245995]

>>21245965
that's a huge cope if translations are fine for many other works
i can agree with nostalghia being a good movie, however

[Anonymous No.21246002]

>>21245995

It's not a cope. You are reading someone else's prose in a different language.. at best you can think of it being a cover song.

Like for example, without huge number of footnotes you cannot faithfully translate ancient Latin to modern English because modern English is specifically a manipulated version of it (political and religious motivations guided shaping the English language)

Andrey was a good director, yeah

[Anonymous No.21246013]

im convinced videogames are the single worst thing that ever happened to my. that shit completely highjacked my personal development before i even had a chance. so many bad habits formed, so many missed experiences, all because of videogames. and now zoomers development is even more completely fucked than mine was.

[Anonymous No.21246014]

>>21246002
it is a cope nigga
sure, it makes sense if it's an incredibly bad translation that uses an altogether different kind of language than what was intended (which can sum up a lot of the issues with english translations, since english has such a dearth of flavor)
but i'm talking more about the entire structure of these novels and how most of them are just barebones dialogue
i think it's inarguable that aside from the length, dostoevsky's stories are much closer to plays than anything else, and would probably make great tv shows if adapted appropriately
apart from the blocks of text that sometimes give you backstory, most of what's present here is dialogue, it's not the translators fault that there was nothing else to work with but that

[Anonymous No.21246026]

i was rewatching HWNDU best moments compilation and laughing when I suddenly realized; I have no idea how to pull off being funny in front of a camera in the spur of the moment. If the situation presented itself in which the stage was mine for but a brief fifteen seconds, I would freeze and nothing funny would be uttered

[Anonymous No.21246061]

>>21246013
Anon this is a very counterproductive mindset
Instead of lamenting your past and hating video games try engaging with them seriously and considering what you can gain from you past experiences

[Anonymous No.21246070]

Roommate and his girlfriend walked in on me watching Inland Empire.

[Anonymous No.21246075]

>>21243307
>muh moralists are bad
>proceeds to bitch and moan about right and wrong
Consider that most people put degeneracy higher up above eating food and war. Of course your not a moralist, so this is no issue to you

[Anonymous No.21246121]

>>21242713
I only read books authors I respect recommend to me.

[Anonymous No.21246127]

I hate this chick but I still want to fuck her forever. That's such a freeing feeling somehow, like ..I don't need to worry about being liked, I can look her up and down because that's what I want to do. She knows I'm horny and no one likes that, but she's horny too and she can't hide that; she doesn't know how.


This is who I always am anyway, it's silly of me to be different if it doesn't make her feel better anyway.

[Anonymous No.21246163]

>>21246127
Kill yourself

[Anonymous No.21246272]

>>21246013
My cousin is autistic (so is his dad), and video games ruined his life. He's incontrovertibly addicted, and it has produced nothing for him, and I would basically consider him disabled. At least back in his dad's generation people were forced to socialize and even obsessive people could focus on practical things (say, mechanics). His only "friends" are discord friends, and all he does is speedrun (basically the most insanely abysmal activity ever conceived by man). His father half-disowned him because he has refused to get a job.
I remember when we were kids he was really into tabletop gaming (his dad would take us to conventions), and then internet gaming and MMOs came along circa 2000 and it demolished his social life.

[Anonymous No.21246275]

Alone.

[Anonymous No.21246302]

>>21242713
I just realized that I have no actual story ideas, only vague concepts. I will never actually manage to write anything.

[Anonymous No.21246308]

>>21245899
le sad russian guy

[Anonymous No.21246311]

When I met my now current gf I was 24. She looked pretty young, I thought she was 18, and asked what my age was. My intention at the time was just to fuck casually, so I lied and said I was 23 for whatever reason, believing it wouldn't scare her off. Turns out she was also 24. I never mentioned that I lied
6 months into dating later, I still haven't told her. I turned 25 but she thought I turned 24.
How do I get out of this mess???

[Anonymous No.21246326]

One of my old coworkers (who quit for some management position somewhere else) text me the other day, asking why I didn't go to so-and-so's wedding. She sort of makes out that we used to be work friends, but honestly I have only vague memories of her. I remember her talking to me like we were interviewing each other. She's very sweet but too nice and too wordy and formal. She always worked a little too neatly and seemed to suffer quietly. Apparently she's very intelligent.

She texts A LOT, and she tends to give a lot of compliments, which makes me think she's kind of lame, which in turn makes me feel bad. I just don't like texting that much. She said we should get together for lunch. The way she talks kind of overdoes it, and I think it's possible she compliments instead of flirting. Then the next morning she was sending me instagram shit saying, "This reminded me of you!" and it was some inspirational shit. I don't get if she's just super friendly or she's into me. She was saying shit like she's always there for me.

According to one of my coworkers who knows her, she apparently grew up in a cult and is a very nervous person. I just don't know what to make of it. It's kind of like making friends with a high-functioning autistic girl -- like, it actually seems like a nice opportunity, with a learning curve, sure, but I'm suspicious that she's secretly emotionally unstable. Also, I don't mind chubby girls, but she's one of those chubby girls that has no tits and an oddly round face, considering that she's not that fat.

She reminds me a lot of this chubby girl I used to work with at my high school summer job who would also cautiously flirt with me by being overly nice. I ended up fucking her skinny friend and she went postal lolz.

[Anonymous No.21246344]

Negros of /lit/ how does it feel to be negro actually? Be honest. How do you feel about the niggerhate on here? How do you feel about the niggersdontread meme? Do negros have an inferiority complex? Do you secretly wish you were white? Do you find white woman aesthetically superior to negro woman? Why are ylu even on /lit/?

[Anonymous No.21246361]

>>21246326
Woman are biologically insane. It's not their fault. Their wombs do it to them. Just don't be so friendly. Gradually taper down on interactions with her. She'll get the hint. Trust me your dodging a bullet. Under no circumstances give a pity fuck. Rule #1: don't stick dick in a wombman you wouldn't be willing to be stuck with for 18 years

[Anonymous No.21246365]

>>21246311
Tell her you are a liar and cannot be trusted while you are balls deep in her fucking her brains out. Then tell her you definitely don't have stds.

[Anonymous No.21246369]

>>21246311
man, just say exactly what you posted. what's she gonna do, "YOU'RE 1 YEAR OLDER THAN I THOUGHT!? YOU OLD PERVERT!"

or just say you forgot your age. happens all the time, who gives a shit.

[Anonymous No.21246370]

My father presence gives me a mental debuff. I don't know why, it feels like I can't do things I want to do individually when he's around. I get really frustrated at my sudden instability. Do I have daddy issues or something?

[Anonymous No.21246372]

>>21246370
>Do I have daddy issues or something?
Yes.

[Anonymous No.21246377]

>>21246372
Shit. How the fuck do I get rid of it?

[Anonymous No.21246383]

>>21246377
You don't. It's haunts you, and eventually you pass it on to your children, and then you die.

[Anonymous No.21246394]

>>21246311
I thought a woman I was making a move on was like 25 but she was actually 19.

I couldn't tell her this.

[Anonymous No.21246400]

>>21246361
I don't know if it's the city I live in, or the caliber of women available to me (prbly), but every women I meet that I have a chance with seems to have some underlying problems.
>hot Syrian chick i work next to seems oddly into me
>turns out she's a cokehead
>trauma dumps on me about her neglectful father

>7/10 chick with nice tits
>also trauma dumps on me about her insane family
>tells me i remind her of her ex who beat her

>6/10 mexican chick with nice fat tits
>alcoholic
>has a boyfriend she tells me about after we hooked up

>6/10 cute short girl
>lives with her parents who control her life
>always accuses me of lying

why

[Anonymous No.21246408]

>>21246326
If this isn't you testing out your writing skills, you are dealing with a lonely and / or moderately insane person (old women with barren womb).

[Anonymous No.21246415]

>>21246383
What causes daddy issues? Abusive dad? Psycho dad? Neglectful dad? I too feel inferior and like a dog with his tail between his legs in the presence of my father. Any attempt to assert myself results in a negative response from him.

[Anonymous No.21246419]

>>21246415
Abusive and / or missing dads are probably the worst.

Neglectful dad is whatever, many parents are neglectful. I raised myself because my parents couldn't, they were fairly bad but not abusive or missing. Kids are pretty strong and smart wrt. such parents, I think I was like fucking 6 or 7 when I realized to use them as negative examples, examples of what not to be. Then again my brother turned out less well so maybe I'm just talking bs and I was lucky or something.

[Anonymous No.21246426]

>>21246415
>Any attempt to assert myself results in a negative response from him.
This causes daddy issues. At this point I don't think it's possible to not have daddy or mommy issues. So many people are so fucked up, that emotionally stable and well-rounded people having emotionally stable, well-rounded children is extremely rare.

[Anonymous No.21246439]

>>21246415
>Any attempt to assert myself results in a negative response from him.
Your dad's extremely insecure and places his own feelings of superiority (over a child) above your well-being. Realize he's a flawed, scared little man.

[Anonymous No.21246451]

Sometimes I wonder how the ancient Romans, Greeks perceived the world.

Like what did they mean / how did they feel when they conceptualized "SPQR" in their mind's eye. Certainly they didn't imagine to be part of a modern nation-state concept formulized by some British lawyers in 19th century.

Or how the peasants felt their "belonging", they probably didn't know the king, or if they knew him by name, they probably never saw him. Now I see the cunt of a PM in every magazine when she parties

It's entirely foreign, to us, the past. It's not merely a semantic drift in concepts.

[Anonymous No.21246481]

Reminds me of Halloween at Rip Taylor's

[Anonymous No.21246514]

>>21246377
You have to fuck him

[Anonymous No.21246543]

My girlfriend changed. She became of the world, running after money, and wanting social status. I remained "naive" and "idealistic". I guess it's over.

[Anonymous No.21246706]

I want a reason to live.

[Anonymous No.21246709]

>>21246451
Modernity is a total one-off, and also an unmitigated disaster

[Anonymous No.21246770]

TOO MUCH FROGPOSTER TODAY!!!

[Anonymous No.21246813]

>>21245956
Almost asked too. I spend too much time thinking of her and then literally forget she doesn't want me.

[Anonymous No.21246834]

I'm sitting outside having a coffee and smoke and despite feeling cold I'm feeling comfy inside :)

[Anonymous No.21246839]

Meditated for 40 minutes last night before falling asleep for 10 hours. Felt great. I used to meditate every day, I’ll implement it into my daily routine again.

[Anonymous No.21246841]

>>21246839
I haven't slept more than 4 hours in a decade or so

[Anonymous No.21246847]

Can we stop saying "national treasure" when talking about people we like? It's terrible and cringeworthy. What the fuck are you saying, think about it. Charles Barkley is a NATIONAL TREASURE. Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson is a NATIONAL TREASURE. Etc. x156

Shut the cunt up you pathetic cringe retard asshole idiot faggot losers.

No offense.

[Anonymous No.21246993]

>>21246415
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saturn_Devouring_His_Son

[Anonymous No.21247033]

I'm long an adult now but I still feel as if I'm a child and that people view me that way. Most of all, I feel like I have nothing important to work on.

[Anonymous No.21247037]

>>21246415
Fathers dominate their sons. That's fine for the sons as long as the father is someone dominable, a leader in society somehow. If your father is a man of little worth to society, domination by them can feel like a death sentence. More psychological issues can be attributed to young ambitious men resentful of unambitious and mediocre fathers than probably any other single factor.

[Anonymous No.21247039]

>>21247037
>>21247037
It's one thing to be dominated by a king. It's another to be dominated by a slave. Both are dominated, but the former breeds kings while the latter breeds slaves.

[Anonymous No.21247074]

>>21246415
If they’re raising you without love and support, or just absent, you develop a variety of issues and go seeking other dominant figures in life to help you to develop or for them to act as a crutch throughout your broken life.

>>21246993
>Saturn
These are tales of kingly succession and just illustrates how toxic “civilization” and its centralized ruling class is

[Anonymous No.21247080]

Spotted the face that had removed the grace from all other things in life. Seeing her again brought me back in time. The time where I had those eyes staring back at me, glimmering and thinking it was almost too much for me.

Then I stop. I find myself getting drunk on nostalgia. Better sober up quick and realize my time with her has passed as all things must do.
There's nothing left for us to go back to, we're through.

[Anonymous No.21247093]

Would a law degree from a good school be a good first step to getting into politics or is it unnecessary?

[Anonymous No.21247102]

>>21247037
A healthy relationship of father and son is necessary, absolutely, but the underlying motives the father has for this relationship often informs how it manifests. If the father is dominant for the betterment of the child rather than to inflate his own ego, this is healthy. When it's the latter, the child internalizes learned helplessness as the father has 'raped' his sense of worth and his ability to assert himself, and he has done so to service himself through the child (rape). Even when the child is right to assert himself, and the father is wrong, or the father is taking his own anger out on the son, the boy will learn to accept his fate since his father is bigger than him and he is helpless.
It more depends on the internal status and psychology of the father: Is he a king, or a petty tyrant? To the son, the father has inherent status, how he wields it will inform how the son develops.
As the child grows he can learn to deal with this wound in his psyche, scar tissue may form, but the wound will never go away.

[Anonymous No.21247109]

>>21247093
Just easier to become rich and buy the politicians. At least that way you don't have to directly join the pedo cult.

[Anonymous No.21247135]

>>21247093
In the US, the best path to political power is
Bachelor's --> Military --> Law School --> Defense Contracting --> Congress
You gotta make friends in private industry, that is why the military and working for Boeing / Lockheed Martin is essential.

[Anonymous No.21247141]

>>21247135
>Bachelor's --> Military --> Law School --> Defense Contracting --> Congress

You got the part where they go to Epstein island and become foreign lobbyists for whatever country buys them off ?

[Anonymous No.21247174]

I can't remember what I wrote in a love letter to a long gone girlfriend

[Anonymous No.21247197]

>>21246302
Be a journalist.
Plenty of storytellers out there, so no need to force it. Maybe you’ll come up with something later in life.

[Anonymous No.21247238]

>>21247197
Is it that easy to just "be a journalist"?

[Anonymous No.21247244]

>>21247238
Just buy a checkmark for 8$ and poast on twitter, done

[Anonymous No.21247255]

>>21247244
True, and a Substack and YouTube channel, I guess.

Why should someone really want to be a journalist though? Is it just to technically write for a living?

[Anonymous No.21247258]

When I graduated, I had the choice between going to work for my State U and going to work for my State. Choosing State U was a mistake.

[Anonymous No.21247264]

>>21247255
>>Why should someone really want to be a journalist though?

If you want to suck some dick to get into circles with power in hopes of gaining some social status.

They are vermin.

[Anonymous No.21247273]

>>21247264
>>21247264
>>21247264
Maybe they can be in the circles of people with power but they're not the people with power though?

[Anonymous No.21247305]

>>21242713
Love Machine, Death Machine
All the same flesh
My arm is tired, eyes are weary
Who brought me here?
Was it you or was it fear?
Do I got another year?
Was I born to shed my tears?
Was I born to be a slave?
From who’s breast was I reared?
Don’t even know the woman
Man, I think I need a beer
But I’m sick, Got washed in water
but cant change how I appear
Cut-off all my friends
Vanity, think death is near

Sittin’ sober as a judge
Got this pain, shit won’t budge
Guess my sin is always lurkin’
Can’t deny what I hold dear

[Anonymous No.21247311]

>>21243200
This, this, and this
Anon gets it

[Anonymous No.21247345]

>>21246275
>sits across from you
Let’s hang out. What’s up?

[Anonymous No.21247366]

it's weird how easy it is to become like a god to people just by introducing arguments and supreme knowledge they've never heard before.

[Anonymous No.21247376]

>>21247366
imagine people being able to exploit the fact that you haven't thought a thought before. now that's weird.

[Anonymous No.21247462]

>>21247366
such as?

[Anonymous No.21247681]

>>21247238
You don’t need journalism schooling, but some skills are needed. The adventure it could bring can be story fodder too.
>>21247255
And yeah. If writing interests you that much, this is a way to get in the practice. Better than boring diary stuff. The western world is at war with honest journalism though, so watch yourself if this is your path.

[Anonymous No.21247686]

Money can go both ways, time however has only the one.

[Anonymous No.21247691]

>>21247686
Money is bisexual?

Stupid frog poster

[Anonymous No.21247726]

Yo, what kind of alcohol should I consoom tonight?

[Anonymous No.21247731]

>listening mozart and drinking the cheapest plastic beer

[Anonymous No.21247746]

should i break nnn today

[Anonymous No.21247756]

>>21242713
Half of my country is made of stupid people

[Anonymous No.21247761]

>human beings are supposed to interested in things
>find something
>brain pretends to be interesting in it for a few weeks, dopamine here and therr
>i consciously realize that i was subconsciously pretending to like it and i lose all "interest"
>continue empty fradulent life
>can't bare living like this
>repeat
It's the same with people. I can only project a transient personality to talk to them, project some kind of casual sensitivity or worldly sentimentality, never chaffing against anyone's ego but never leaving a memory either. I don't really care about what anyone says, but it is necessary to interact with other human beings, and to placate them to some extent. All I really carry with me is a body and an inert, mechanical expression of courtesy. I'm not even fradulent out of desire to extract something from the world or other people; there is no goal in it all, nothing to reward the labor of being this way. Further, medication just changes the color of this mask, and I can't even be candid in a private room with a therapist. It has felt so much worse in the past few years. I am not a human being. I don't want to be alive anymore.

[Anonymous No.21247772]

>>21247761
just how empty are you?

[Anonymous No.21247787]

hungry.
glad my girl is making me food.
going to stay in bed until it's ready.
then I'll make coffee.
wonder what I should do today.
it's nearly 1:30 PM.
would like to go outside and enjoy the cool desert air.
maybe I'll head over to the superstition mountain area.
that place always makes me want to smoke a cheroot.
haven't had one in a couple years at least.
would rather not tar up my teeth since I've been keeping them nice and clean.
cheroots really aren't that great anyway.

[Anonymous No.21247791]

>>21242738
>he thinks she is thinking
i pity the man who doesn't understand that women are not men.

[Anonymous No.21247796]

>>21247791
what are women then?

[Anonymous No.21247869]

>>21247791
You’re a worm

[Anonymous No.21247895]

>>21242713
I wonder if I will get arrested for all the comments I made calling people niggers

[Anonymous No.21247920]

I played too much Hitman and fucked up my sleep schedule again. This fucking game man.

[Anonymous No.21247964]

I wasted my time trying to get ahead. I should've just done something more adventurous while I was young. When I look back on my twenties now that they're coming to an end, I feel nothing but dissatisfaction with the offices, the suburbs, the time on the internet and being buried in musty books. It's almost as if that whole decade, this most formative decade, never even happened.

[Anonymous No.21248004]

people on /lit/ are nothing but caricatures nowadays

[Anonymous No.21248018]

>>21242745
>wakes up
>still a nigger

[Anonymous No.21248019]

>>21247964
>I should've just done something more adventurous while I was young
Such as?

>It's almost as if that whole decade, this most formative decade, never even happened
Nigger you're 30, if you die at 70 you're just at half your age. Complain about being old when you're 60

[Anonymous No.21248032]

>>21243187
>What changed in that time?
the groomers wants to become a minority special interest group and started demanding the right to groom

[Anonymous No.21248037]

>>21243200
it's too easy

[Anonymous No.21248052]

>>21242741
Go do it you cock hungry nigger sucking aids ridden junkie crack head juicing faggot

[Anonymous No.21248054]

>>21243365
>i fucking hate the extremely mixed messages women
nice sentence.
>tf am i supposed to figure out? how am i supposed to know if you actually are attracted to me or not?
you're supposed to be the male force, faggot. you tell her she's attracted to you. what you're looking for here is man. you want a man who is decisive so that you don't have to be the man. you're well on your way to transition unless you remember real quick that you're man and start to act like one. otherwise I'm going to buttfuck you because you're a woman.

[Anonymous No.21248059]

>>21242782
wrong

believing you have one is all that matters

[Anonymous No.21248065]

Bought some whiskey, vodka, beer, and some edibles(100mg).
I'll listen to Strauss and start on The Bell Jar.
I heard it was a dark book.

[Anonymous No.21248068]

>>21243406
>Hypersensitivity forces beauty into a politically-correct straitjacket. It is hardly surprising that such straitjackets kill beauty, for what cannot breathe, cannot live.
>Pepijn Leonard J. Demortier — 24.07.22

[Anonymous No.21248073]

somehow i've convinced myself that everything i could do is pointless and contributes nothing to society and now I don't want to do anything and can't find any reason to do it, including reading

[Anonymous No.21248076]

>>21243511
politics has been made all about wahmen

[Anonymous No.21248081]

>>21244000
no

[Anonymous No.21248086]

>>21248073
based

[Anonymous No.21248123]

>>21244368
this is correct

[Anonymous No.21248193]

>>21244102
>>21244109
>>21244095
>>21244177
if you want some tips from somebody who has completely overcome anxiety/panic retardation, read on.
- it's okay to be anxious/nervous/fearful. this is normal. thinking something is wrong with you every time you feel the slightest tinge of anxiety will obviously cause anxiety to grow.
>i feel anxious
>uh oh it's happening
>now I'm feeling more anxious!
>see!? it really is happening! AAAAAAH!
you already know this is a retarded loop. reprogramming starts with this practice:
>I feel anxious
>that's okay, it's normal
>I'm allowed to feel anxious
- put yourself in situations that you have already decided are likely to cause you anxiety. choosing to go into that situation grants some measure of control. you are seeking out your anxiety. it's not creeping up on you. just the act of doing this makes a bog differences.
- reframe your thinking. instead of feeling anxious, feel excited. it's really just the same energy channeled differently. that the energy is there may not be something you can snuff out, but it is something you can direct and how you direct it is up to you. what do excited people do? they let it out. they move around excitedly. you can learn from a dumb girl who is open with her emotions. she doesn't try to quell them. she jumps around "OMG I'M SO EXCITED" or she cries when she's sad. what do anxious people do? they recede further into themselves and try their hardest to fight this energy. they try to stop it. they build a dam until the pressure wells up inside and they vomit just to relieve the pressure.
a dog on a large property is content. it runs around as much as it needs. a dog in an apartment is an anxious nut case. it never has the opportunity to run off that energy and it just ends up anxious and fucked up. it's unhealthy for dogs and it's unhealthy for you.
- lift heavy weights. the idea here is to not only use your energy, but to shred your muscles to the point that your energy is spent recovering. it's very easy to feel calm, confident, and stable when your muscles are recovering from being pushed beyond the limit.

[Anonymous No.21248205]

>>21244295
>stop being transphobic
feeding into his delusions isn't going to help anybody, anon

[Anonymous No.21248217]

>>21245290
look at those meth eyes. how many days has she been awake?

[Anonymous No.21248225]

>>21244165
You're dealing with a mentally ill man with a probable case of PTSD, run away

[Anonymous No.21248235]

>>21248193
>it's okay to be anxious/nervous/fearful
If you're a woman perhaps, since I enjoy making women anxious around me because they're afraid of spilling their spaghetti

>this is normal
Normal is gabage, be an outlier or be nothing

[Anonymous No.21248281]

>>21247345
>Empties a clip inside you
BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM

[Anonymous No.21248422]

damn does thriller absolutely RULE. every single texture, every single decision is on point. even this girl is mine. I bust moves to it everyday. screw pessoa.

[Anonymous No.21248430]

I'm so unable to focus. I've only been able to finish one large book this year.

[Anonymous No.21248438]

It's all boring shit to me right now

[Anonymous No.21248444]

I realized that the trait in women I am most attracted to is weakness.

[Anonymous No.21248450]

>>21243406
Grind some CoD skins anon, watch numbers go up, pray to God that He come quickly, die with a clean conscience.

[Anonymous No.21248480]

>>21247796
they're women.
>>21247869
you know it's true, babe.

[Anonymous No.21248511]

>>21248444
What kind of weakness? Physical? Mental? Emotional?

[Anonymous No.21248523]

I've struggled with this question for a long time. My reading of Ernst Junger and Leon Bloy convinced me that's extremely important to pursue art and poetry, maybe now more than ever. Beyond that, I can't say.

[Anonymous No.21248564]

>>21242713
>a little rabbit that had been caught in a trap was brought alive to him by a certain brother. When the most blessed man saw it, he was moved to pity and said: 'Brother rabbit, come to me. Why did you allow yourself to be deceived like this?'
I'm convinced St. Francis of Assisi was an actual retard

[Anonymous No.21248619]

Sometimes when i get bored and feeling especially gassy, i like to put on a wig and go to a store nearby that sells womens clothes.
They treat me like a lady and i try on all their different clothes and rip massive stinky farts into them until they are thoroughly soaked with my essence.
I then place them back on the racks even though i am not supposed to.
I do this because i want women to try on the clothes after me and get my stinky farts on them.
I never buy anything.

[Anonymous No.21248640]

I am inside God's mind. External "space" as we perceive is actually made of your own mindstuff, and when you reach out and touch the wall you are actually touching the internal structure of your own mind, since causality and sensation are produced by the mind. But this goes all the way up because "I" am just a small part even of my own brain such that things in my own brain that I explore are said to be "external" to me, such is the mind of God which is different from me and I am inside it, but no matter what whenever I move in physical space I am actually moving and exploring the inside of God's mind.

[Anonymous No.21248643]

>>21248523
for
>>21243406

[Anonymous No.21248647]

>>21248444
it may or may not comfort you, but that's not that uncommon anon

[Anonymous No.21248651]

i did it. i finally understand what time is. Space too.

[Anonymous No.21248658]

I like communist aesthetics

[Anonymous No.21248661]

>>21248658
no you don't

[Anonymous No.21248673]

>>21248661
Yes, I do.

[Anonymous No.21248675]

>>21248651
Did djvu files always exist in this timeline?

[Anonymous No.21248676]

>>21248658
share your conclusions

[Anonymous No.21248680]

>>21244295
Right?
I used to have a lot of internalized christian-phobia.
When I'd hear about mystics having visions or miracles, I'd scoff and think "just another poor delusional man"
Since then though I've encountered several homeless people that claim to be incarnations of Christ. Perhaps ... it's real? They claim it's true, so it must be.
There are so many stories like this when many people decided to stop being christphobic (Redditcels don't know any Christians in real life). Here was a prime opportunity to be a good person.
Since then I've started a Christ reaffirmation treatment center. Christ reassignment surgery is a complicated process, but study shows it reduces suicidal tendencies among the christ dysphoric. First we replace their blood with wine. Then we nail them to plastic crosses and leave them in stone tombs.
These poor people suffering from Christ-dysphoria, and I realized I had the ability and the means to help affirm them on their journey

[Anonymous No.21248710]

>>21248511
Any kind that can be exploited to create a situation in which I am safe or in control. I engage in relationships with women who cannot hold them so that I may dominate them and create a situation that is wholly safe for me(leading to me being unsatisfied and bored, discarding the girl) or to relieve the drama of my life by creating a situation where I am doomed to fail.

>>21248647
I know and it’s terrible, most people shouldn’t have kids.

[Anonymous No.21248715]

>>21248676
What can I say?
I like the aesthetics used in the propaganda and architecture of the Soviet Union and most communist countries. I think it is because of what they try to represent, a bright future of solidarity and prosperity where everyone is equal and friendly and united, where the common man is the hero.
Despite that, I don't actually believe in communism or that it is a viable option at all. The "dictatorship of the proletariet" eventually becomes a dictatorship of a small elite of politicians as the state won't let go of power and those on top of it will give themselves priviledges, exclude the people from the decision-making and will begin to explore them to sustain their priviledges while, at the same time, forcing upon them their own narcissistic view of what the "communist utopia" means, as this process happened in all attempts to build communist societies.

[Anonymous No.21248725]

>>21243467
It was happy to read this one, anon. God bless and good luck.

[Anonymous No.21248728]

>>21248710
> safe or in control
What do you mean? Doubtful that a woman could be a serious threat to your physical safety. Do you mean it lets you feel safe emotionally? What would a woman do that would make you feel unsafe or out of control?

> engage in relationships with women who cannot hold them so that I may dominate

When you say can’t hold them, do you mean women who can’t commit and cheat a lot? How does that allow you to dominate?

> relieve the drama of my life by creating a situation where I am doomed to fail.
Doomed to fail in what way?

Why do you think that you approach relationships this way? Is it related to some kind of childhood trauma? And do you think you can change your mindset?

[Anonymous No.21248744]

>>21248715
I meant it for this guy, sorry
>>21248651

[Anonymous No.21248766]

>>21248676
>21248676
Time comes from God creatively "descending" to "fill up" nonbeing. it's not that becoming mediates between being and nonbeing, everything is being and non-being is what mediates being with being, that is the source of time. God was originally an absolutely simple Being and he sought to exhaust the potential of non-Being or differentiate himself from the Chaos. This necessarily occurs in time which is why "the future" is the thing, the future is a certain high-level manifestation of non-being since the future is on some level always indeterminate. there are many other high level manifestations of non-being, all of which are not non-being itself since non-being can't be comprehended or experienced, for example the number zero, which represents absence of some kind but of course has properties in arithmetic and therefore is not non-being but only a high level manifestation of it. Mediation exists in all aspects of existence and always as a certain type of non-being, usually codified as absence. A melody does not exist in one time but at many times, and is mediated by the absence of the previous note during the current note. God is further defining himself and gaining self knowledge which always leads to these mediating manifestations of non-being being "filled up" as he further defines himself and leaves less things indeterminate. this is all what causes our experience of time, and what makes up the experience of time phenomenologically. physical time is something different, which evolved in a different area though also due to God. As for space, that is what I was talking about here >>21248640 though I also think our idea of space comes from just being an efficient matrix to categorize visual stimuli.

[Anonymous No.21248768]

>>21248766
That's just anthropomorphizing the dark void
t. >>21248675

[Anonymous No.21248776]

>>21248768
if there is a "void" that has properties then it isn't nonbeing. nonbeing itself doesn't exist. which is why Time is so hard to understand, because it comes from non-existence which fundamentally can't be understood unless it is a high level manifestation of it (which isn't non-existence).

anyway any theory of reality will be "anthropomorphic" because we can only think of our brain therefore every idea we create will have to mirror brain structure down to the neurons

[Anonymous No.21248781]

>>21248776
Sure thing.

[Anonymous No.21248782]

>>21248776
>think of our brain
through our brain*

[Anonymous No.21248793]

>>21248766
>Time comes from God creatively "descending" to "fill up" nonbeing.
Damn, that's hot. And let me guess, non-being has daddy issues too.

[Anonymous No.21248989]

>>21248728
Women who cannot hold them for all manner of reasons. Growing up my parents were not only neglectful but often outright abusive. I was, though maybe not consciously, led to believe that I - whatever the real, genuine and true incarnation of "me" is - am worthless, bad and shameful. Something to be hidden from other people, lest they find out what I really am and confirm that these feelings inside of me aren't just wounds but a real and sober evaluation of my worth. I gained value through absorbing punishment for my siblings and being there for them all at the cost of myself. The women I hunt are damaged and not entirely functional. I've been with lawyers, investment bankers and literal bums. They're all the same in that their way of life is a kind of cope that they've constructed around some kind of pain(read: intense insecurity/self-loathing) either searching for validation professionally or through their sexuality(and in the third case by isolating themselves in a situation they can entirely control).

Women who need a place to rest is really the best way to describe them. I relieve "the drama of my life" by either engaging with women who will come to rely on me as I rely on them, for the regulation of our emotions, or by seeking out profoundly damaged and promiscuous women who cannot hold down relationships because they hide from themselves in novelty and in the eyes of other people. So there's 2 situations, one where I'm in control by way of being the caretaker and one where I'm completely helpless, both prevent me from ever really getting close to anyone in any real meaningful way. I can't let people get close and I've never been able to.

I don't know how to exist in any other way either and the thought of attempting to fills me with enough dread and anxiety as to induce suicidal ideation. Wasn't until recently that I've been able to view myself from a more neutral perspective as opposed to the insanity that I'd call my inner life. Being tall and handsome has made it very easy for me to spend my entire life compensating for my complete inability to draw a sense of self-worth from the inside. I'd somehow ended up dating a real person and hurting her really very badly has given me some clarity.

[Anonymous No.21249015]

Why Read/Expect/Got threads got banned? I made one and it got deleted ;-;.

[Anonymous No.21249039]

>>21247791
>mfw I deliberately construct my mental model of what women are into something that serves my fragile ego

[Anonymous No.21249065]

>>21248728
>Doubtful that a woman could be a serious threat to your physical safety
bro is it really that confusing?
assuming that you're a caveman who has never encountered a woman before, he's referring to control of the relationship. he doesn't want her to be able to end it if he doesn't want it to.

[Anonymous No.21249080]

lit what drugs are you doing? don't say weed

[Anonymous No.21249084]

>>21249080
porn and caffeine

[Anonymous No.21249125]

went home with a girl when i was 18 after a night out. we got to hers at 7am, her mum was up and seemed so happy and nice, she was smiling, going for her morning swim in the ocean. i hadn't really met other people's parents and wished my mum was like that too.
upstairs, in her room, the girl said in a furtive but sad way, 'she's started drinking already'.

[Anonymous No.21249138]

>>21249084
weak

[Anonymous No.21249175]

>>21249138
mmkay druggie

[Anonymous No.21249181]

>>21249080
Shooting meth and reading Rabelais

[Anonymous No.21249194]

>>21249175
highly recommend doing coke/pills semi-regularly

[Anonymous No.21249198]

I'm just drinking vodka.

[Anonymous No.21249199]

>>21249181
talked to someone on meth on omegle the other day who said he wanks literally all day on it. very weird person, but it does seem like a sick drug if it wasn't so unglamourous

[Anonymous No.21249200]

>>21249198
i can now drink half a handle and feel nothing. last year that shit would send me to the moon. instead of ramping up my alcoholism, im just getting bored instead.

[Anonymous No.21249203]

>>21249198
drunkposting actually v fun, can't lie

[Anonymous No.21249215]

>>21248989
> Growing up my parents were not only neglectful but often outright abusive. I was, though maybe not consciously, led to believe that I - whatever the real, genuine and true incarnation of "me" is - am worthless, bad and shameful. Something to be hidden from other people, lest they find out what I really am and confirm that these feelings inside of me aren't just wounds but a real and sober evaluation of my worth.

You put a feeling that I’ve never been able to fully express into words. I can relate to much of what you said, and it sounds like we had very similar childhood experiences. I might respond again and talk about the childhood stuff in more detail if you’re interested in hearing it, because it’s impact on my adult self is something that I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about. I’ve come to understand the way that it’s affected me, and the understanding has helped put my life in a clearer light, even if it hasn’t really solved things. Maybe my insights on that feeling that might help you a little bit, at least to see things in a slightly different way.

For what it’s worth, I’m sure that you’re not a worthless person. You’re clearly intelligent and introspective— both good qualities. Not that I’ve solved anything by saying that.

> They're all the same in that their way of life is a kind of cope that they've constructed around some kind of pain(read: intense insecurity/self-loathing) either searching for validation professionally or through their sexuality

Perhaps this is true of your way of life as well, albeit manifesting differently.

> and in the third case by isolating themselves in a situation they can entirely control

Do you mean they feel entirely in control by manipulating men sexually? I don’t necessarily see that as an isolation of the self, more of a codependency.

> women who will come to rely on me as I rely on them, for the regulation of our emotions
Do these relationships actually help to regulate your emotions if they're just temporary and end badly? Doesn’t the inevitable breakup create more emotional disregulation for you in the long run?

> I can't let people get close and I've never been able to.
Have you ever tried to open up to any of your exes about this feeling? If so, how did it go? Or do you just avoid talking about these feelings entirely?

>don't know how to exist in any other way either and the thought of attempting to fills me with enough dread and anxiety as to induce suicidal ideation.

That sounds really hard. What sort of future do you see for yourself if you continue living this way? Is this mindset compatible with the sort of life and the sort of relationships that you’d truly like to have?

> a real person
Real in what way? Were your other relationships carried out virtually or do you just mean that she was genuine and authentic?

> hurting her really very badly
What did you do to her?

[Anonymous No.21249242]

>>21249198
based drunkposter, what brand? i just go for the cheapest shit on the shelf

[Anonymous No.21249265]

>>21249242
I went for the cheapest, it's called Provincial, tastes like shit.
Doing the trick though.
>>21249200
that's crazy man, get help.
>>21249203
hey im having a ball over here

[Anonymous No.21249301]

New Thread

>>21249281

[Anonymous No.21249340]

>>21248989
If you still wanna talk (I’m >>21249215) then I’ll be around in the new thread.