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/wwoym/ The Butterfly of Weed Smoking edition

Previous threads >>21007838

>> No.21014407

Do people even read?

>> No.21014414

>>21014407
i read your post

>> No.21014437
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21014437

>>21014390
>/wwoym/
/womyn/

>> No.21014480

>>21014437
"Write On Mind You ...Now"?

>> No.21014644

interviewed at a handful of places last month... and got an offer from every single one in the past couple of days--except the one i really want, which just asked for a second interview. not sure what to do desu

>> No.21014675
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21014675

I'm retarded >>21014649

>> No.21014677 [DELETED] 

>>21014390
Where the fuck am I supposed to buy adderall if I’m not cool enough to know any.

>> No.21014681

>>21014677
u in ldn?

>> No.21014683

>>21014390
Where the fuck am I supposed to buy adderall if I’m not cool enough to know any drug dealers

>> No.21014688

Getting a job has been good for me

>> No.21014690

>>21014681
No that’s part of the problem, I live in the middle of nowhere.

>> No.21014693

>>21014688
Same dude. Fuck being a NEET.

>> No.21014697

>>21014390
Fuck this zone inshallah. May allah grant me the willpower to do this.

>> No.21014737

>>21014697
what zone

>> No.21014748

its a burger soda world and im a burger soda kind of guy

>> No.21014777

Entry from my sea journals.

December 17th, 2020

Heavy rolls today, I wouldn't doubt the correlation to my string of concerning dreams last night into this morning. The rough seas always seem to knock loose the attic of my subconscious.

I was seated on a white beach sharing company with a machine covering in loamy sand. It stood taller than the palm tree and cast a long square shadow. I didn't seem surprised when it spoke.

"What kind of machine are you? What is your purpose?"

The answer that I was in fact not a machine but a man didn't concern it, although judging from my impressions of whatever emotions might lay on a blank obelisk, the second answer gave it pause.

"I don't know what my purpose is, these things are never so clear."

The pure clarity of the water punctuated how unclear these things can be. The machine considered both before delivering a reply.

"What would you like your purpose to be?"

>> No.21014789

>>21014777
bit on the nose

>> No.21014844
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21014844

bros...

>> No.21014893

>>21014789
It's a recounting of a dream, I'll tell my subconscious to tone it down next time

>> No.21014938

the psychosis is coming back bros. the mania got too strong and simple depression wont balance it out this time. it's going deeper.

>> No.21014959

>>21014893
dreams don't go like that

>> No.21014990

>>21014938
whts the source of your psychosis

>> No.21015009

>>21014990
I don't know the source of anything that comes over me, nothing changes in my life but some new feeling comes over me out of nowhere, a single thought snowballs until my entire consciousness is altered, it builds up subconsciously, I didn't reason any of it or decide any of it, it develops on its own, somewhere under the surface

>> No.21015016

I should never have confirmed your suspicions.

>> No.21015025

>>21015016
i'm not that stupid retard

>> No.21015027

>>21015025
meaning?

>> No.21015079
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21015079

my doctor literally told me I need to start lifting weights

>> No.21015121

>>21015079
why though

>> No.21015161

>>21015121
Yogurt arms

>> No.21015262

>>21014737
The wagecage

>> No.21015276 [DELETED] 

>>21014844
oh shit it's on criterion channel too. too bad the thumb nail doesn't look nearly as cool. 1h36m is short enough for my attention span though. i hope it's good. ew, it's french. oh it's actually on youtube. here's another serial killer movie on criterion for you, xi.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBDbeoxHpow

>> No.21015286

>>21015009
read jung

>> No.21015388

>>21014777
The machine with many horses
Explosion pushes piston
According to my sources
The obelisk was Richard Nixon

>> No.21015442

So there's nothing special about me after all

How do I cope with years of delusion? I don't have any basis, future in mind. It was one big joke.

>> No.21015447

>>21015442
Is it really a delusion if you believed it? After all, what is reality if not belief? How can you believe in the very air you breath when it's merely a sense your mind creates to appease the conscience that resides within as its neighbor?

>> No.21015453
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21015453

Are the canned/frozen veggies at the store that much less healthy than fresh ones? I'm trying to incorporate more vegetables into my diet but I'm too lazy to make them from scratch.

>> No.21015462

>>21015453
frozen is better than "store fresh" but not better than home grown/ local market, ya dig?

>> No.21015472

>>21015453
they are healthier than most produce youre going to find "Fresh" in a supermarket, all that shit has been flash frozen and transported in giant vans that are just freezers anyway but have lost nutritional content, dont get the shit in the microwaveable plastic bags though, just get the giant sacks and steam veggies on the stove

spinach, broccoli and beets are really all you need for veg tho

>> No.21015474

>>21015447
Delusion is undeliverables. I'm just another psued

>> No.21015487

>>21015462
>>21015472
Thanks, veggiebros.

>> No.21015489

>>21015121
she said running isn't enough and all men should lift weights for testosterone which will just magically fix everything in my body

>> No.21015491
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21015491

>took 30 years before I met a woman other than my mother and grandmother who loved me
>it feels better than I imagined
Still a khv wizard but damn, I feel the energy flowin' through me

>> No.21015539

>>21015491
love is transformative
dont fuck it up fag
im rooting for you

>> No.21015586

Anyone play Disco Elysium here? I am often surprised by the dialogue in the game, especially the ‘Conceptualization’ dialogue. That dialogue that shows up really reflects how my brain works when I go through life. I really don’t think that’s a sign of intelligence like the game says, but I wonder if normal people don’t have a voice/conclusions like that in their day to day.

>> No.21015591

>>21015472
I understand spinach and broccoli, but why beets?

>> No.21015626

I hoped things would turn out OK, and they did. Lucky me.

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Another day wasted on anxiety and internet addiction. I had a work event that went well but as it wound down my phone started going off with an invitation to socialize which set my anxiety off so I went home and slept through the worst of anxiety, woke up at 7pm and did fuck all online to keep my mind preoccupied because I can't focus on reading when anxiety is racing. All I wanted to do was come home and finish reading Void Star and catch up on War and Peace for the /lit/ thread.

>> No.21015648

>>21015631
You go to work events with social anxiety or anxiety? Not a good career for someone with those. Careers that require managing perception is hard on people like that.

>> No.21015666

>>21015472
why beets?

>> No.21015671

>>21015586
I played Disco Elysium. I thought it was great. All the negativity towards that game is completely undeserved.
To answer your question, I mean... Yes, I think most thoughtful and/or intelligent people have an inner monologue, though maybe not as verbose as the narration in Disco Elysium.

>> No.21015686

>>21015491
My own mother and her mother never loved me. Consequently I don't believe it exists. Well, nevermind, I did love my dog growing up. I guess it is real. Most feel amazing to be loved by a human. Damn, that sounds gay. This post is satire. If you are reading this in violation of my Right to post anonymously, than I hearbywidth bequeath thee betwixt bee-ellzee-bubs buttchecks to the beginning of the Bill of Rights. This is a legal statue, and I will litigate posthumously for three thousand years through my future estate against ANYONE - man or conglomerate, stipulating provable sentience. 123 / 5,000
Translation results
Ich habe in letzter Zeit gute Fortschritte mit der deutschen Sprache gemacht. Ich kann jetzt einfache Bücher lesen. Jetzt hält mich niemand auf, ihr Bastarde!

>> No.21015689

>>21015671
I dont really mean the verbose stuff. I just mean I was sort of struck with the thoughts and conclusions the ‘Conceptualization’ inner monologue had at points, as it’s thoughts mirror what I come up with when I’m living, if that makes sense.

Like my character right now is on the higher side in empathy (and thought empathy can be subconscious for most) I don’t really identify with the musings of the empath narration or even the Logic one. It’s hard to explain sorry.

>> No.21015696

>>21015586
I got stuck at some point early and quit. Seemed ok though. I remember the guy near the beginning stuck in traffic, smoking and waxing philosophical. I think he actually says 'waxing philosophical'

>> No.21015703

>>21015489
It’s just healthy for a male to get into at least a modicum of shape. Maybe she’s a rightwinger and wants you to improve your chances of getting laid

inB4 “But I’m a girl”

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>>21015686
>stipulating provable sentience
Looks like I'm safe.

>> No.21015707

>have a deep desire for physical intimacy of all kinds
>but also hate touching people and being touched and actively avoid it
Hoe do I resolve this conundrum?

>> No.21015715

>>21015689
You're making me want to replay Disco Elysium.

>> No.21015717

>>21015489
one of my friends lifts and was explaining it to me and it's actually sick & better than any other exercise i think

>> No.21015718

>>21015648
It's just a once a year charity golf game where I don't really have to talk to anyone and I hang out with a couple coworkers. The anxiety there is manageable, what made it unbearable is friends trying to talk or do something, I'm surprised people still reach out at this point. I don't want to throw it away but it's always so hard to pick up the phone or just meet for lunch. Getting so fucking tired.

>> No.21015747

>>21015718
What are you afraid of? Anxiety has a source.
Are you afraid they won't like you? They're your friends. You already know they like you.
Are you afraid of embarrassing yourself? You can't. Shame should be reserved for real wrongdoing, not something inconsequential like stuttering or awkward pauses. If someone tries to shame you for something small, that's their fault, not yours.

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21015787

I found another outlet for internet shitposts.

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>>21014365
You really think it's great and expressive?

>> No.21015798

>>21015591
>>21015666
hard to get enough copper(and a few other minerals that are overlapped between these 2 veg) unless youre eating liver
serving of beets + spinach gets you there

>> No.21015805

>>21015747
it's prob GAD right?
should just get a seratonin prescription

>> No.21015815
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>>21015805
It's probably TIME TO NUT UP OR SHUT UP. What are you nervous about, Nancy? You think drugs are the answer? IF THERE ISN'T A GOD DAMN TIGER STARING YOU IN THE FACE, YOU HAVEN'T GOT A REASON TO FEEL "ANXIOUS", YOU GOT THAT?

>> No.21015839

>>21015798
>found in fish, nuts, seeds, whole grains
feel like you can drop beetroot

>> No.21015881

>>21015747
Many things, and many things I can't pinpoint, it's been constant since I was a child. They've been trying to get me back to a therapist or psychiatrist for awhile.

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>>21015787
please, tell me...

>> No.21015917

I don’t know what to think or do now.

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>>21015887
No.

>> No.21015937

>>21015787
same
we're talking bout /fa/?

>> No.21015949

>>21015489
>>21015717

The effects of weight lifting are cascading for mental health and life in general:

>It helps build routine and rewire your brain for long term gratitude and the feeling of progressing incrementally over a period of months and years is really rewarding. Once you experience that in weight lifting it is easier to apply that mindset to other goals, whether they are career, relationship, or hobby related.
>It tires your body, which means you are more tired at night, which means better sleep. Better sleep of course improves your life in a myriad of ways, both mental and physical.
>It improves your posture, which improves the projection of confidence in daily life. People instinctively take you more seriously if you have good posture and you feel better too.
>You become more aware of the different ways the different parts of your body interact. You'll notice which parts of your body you have never exercised and how weak they are and how much easier your daily life becomes when they are strengthened. Ordinary things become easier that you never realised were hard - e.g. carrying a backpack.
>You have a dedicated time of the day when you do not have to think about work, relationships, family etc. You can just focus on doing repetitive movements, which is good for calming the mind.

You get all of this and the bigger muscles is pretty much a positive side effect. There's of course a connection between exercise and serotonin or whatever, but I don't know enough about the science to talk on that. Everything above is based off my own personal observations lifting over the past number of years.

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>>21015887
If reading isn’t good enough a time filler. Exercise.
If you still skim them off the top and sneak a post in here or there, you have to cancel your internet.
Go make friends to fill this friendless space in your life. These people here without names aren’t anything to you. Stop being a recluse. Make an adventure of your quest.

#no4chanNovermber

>> No.21015977

>>21015887
>>21015937
Not /fa/. There's a peer to peer sharing program that has chat built in.

>> No.21016004

I have a friend. We haven't seen each other much in the last months. We used to be close, but then we you just kinda stopped seeing each other. I feel we are growing apart, but both of us still try to reach out every couple of days by having boring conversations via text, kinda 'don't forget me', or 'I exist' texts lol. I feel too miserable and too toxic, too negative at this point to really want to go out with friends, and I think I would fuck it up by trying to kiss her or something like that.

On a different note, I've been reading Nietzsche lately. I've read most of his books (like 8 or 9) but always find something new by him to read. Always been very amazed at his writings but his critique of christianity is now so boring to me. I feel like skipping whenever he starts talking about Paul if it weren't for the 'metaphysics' underlying said critique. Same happened to me while reading Pascal, whenever he started a passage about the apostles, about the new testament, about the history of the jews, etc, it bored the shit out of me. I enjoy reading theology and christian philosophy, but the history part is totally uninteresting to me.

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21016048

I could have been something. Every loser says that, but in my case, I think it's true. Before the teenage drug use that extended through and enveloped my entire life, I had a sharp mind and a vivid imagination. I was good at everything. A little on the quiet side, but not afraid to speak. Other kids thought well of me.
Now I'm a burnt out, washed up, crude caricature of a man. I used to have so many ideas, and I still do... kind of. But they're cracked and dry, and I can't breathe life into them. My mind is shriveled, and so is my soul.
I'm tired.

>> No.21016078

i feel very sad right now

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21016087

I'm all out of weed and beer

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>>21016048
Sleep well, pigger.

You can still make something with your life, Anon. Ligotti fried his brain with drugs as a teenager too and he's become one of the prominent modern horror writers.

>> No.21016091

>>21016078
Why?

>> No.21016095

>>21016048
What do you think you could’ve been? Is it inherently better than what you’re doing now?

>> No.21016104

>>21014390
How can some guys masturbate everyday?
No matter how well I clean up & I shower everyday, there's this faintest spunky smell on me for about a day after. I only jerk off 2-3 times a week.
If I did it everyday that would be even worse.

>> No.21016113

>>21016091
im really lonely. i dont know why i feel it so much right now but not other days. i usually dont notice it

>> No.21016119

>>21016113
>>21015962

>> No.21016138

I'm so socially inept. Its leaving me isolated and lonely. I dont know how to break out of it. It's so frustrating to be around so many people so often and just totally fail to connect every single time

>> No.21016146

>>21016087
If I run out of beer before I'm drunk I get extremely agitated

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21016175

They finally caught him, boys -- the infamous Nigerian prince.

https://www.theepochtimes.com/ohio-jury-convicts-man-who-claimed-to-be-african-prince-on-fraud-crimes_4740969.html

>> No.21016187

>>21015977
slsk

>> No.21016189

>>21016175
He looks friendly

>> No.21016195

>>21016104
maybe your cum smells weird

>> No.21016252

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUQX4qknJho

>> No.21016277

I have become comically obese. This morning I was putting on socks and I was making weird sounds of struggle. The last three years of alcoholism; eating as impulsively as I can and office work, has done a number on me. From this day forward, I will not eat anything, only drink my vodka and mineral water, till I die or be 85kg again. I'll keep you posted.

>> No.21016283

>>21016277
Crash dieting can cause your hair to fall out

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>>21016277
Good luck, Anon. Light exercise every day might be a better alternative. Only consistency gives results.

>> No.21016293

>>21016252
This is my dream.

>> No.21016294

https://youtu.be/6ECKEoXwN8w

Cathedrals are the only remaining fragments of old world, royal beauty. When Christianity fades, these sites will be neglected. Some of them will be preserved as heritage sites, but the religion, the culture, and the people that built and sustained them will be gone.
The world I grew up reading about, that my grandparents lived in, that created the beauty I was raised in, has all but disappeared, and I'm not sure anyone is happy with what's replacing it.

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21016306

gf came 3 times. i only came once.
going to smoke some weed now

>> No.21016308

>>21016306
You didn't say where.

>> No.21016309

>>21016306
>gf pretended to cum 3 times
fixed

>> No.21016310

>>21016294
I wish very much that I could travel Europe and visit all the grand cathedrals. There's nothing else like them, wondrous architecture and craftsmanship.

>> No.21016317

>>21016309
You REEEE'd three times

>> No.21016346

I want to cancel my phone but that would probably be the end of the few tenuous relationships I still have. But my phone is a constant source of anxiety. I feel and hear phantom rings constantly. I check it with dread that someone will be trying to get in touch with me. And I waste hours browsing the internet on it every day. I don't want a phone anymore.

>> No.21016355

>>21014480
Sound it out little one

>> No.21016359

I'm interested in the problem of other minds. Namely, the exteriority of other people, the publicly visible side and the interoperable external behavioral interfaces and how this shared objective slice is the only space we have to engage with each other. Contrast this with the encapsulated, private interiority which each of us individually possess , and to which each of us has exclusive, privileged access.

When we gaze over the whole exterior surface of other people ,we can scarcely fathom the vast collection of interiorites that coincide with it, even though arguably, this interior information is just as essential to the whole ensemble. To think we are able to function at all without direct access to other's minds, that the whole world revolves each subject's perspective but each one is mutually incomprehensible to the other, feels like a miracle. Only the surface of others is presented to us, often in fragments or glimpses, or through untrustworthy, imperfect, or unclear symbolic communications they produce which supposedly bear some relation to their interior selves. It's only by an analogy from the workings of our own minds that we are able to construct any kind of guesses as to what's going on in another's based on some inter-species congruence. All of guesswork must ultimately come down to fallible conjecture.

When someone acts in a way that surprises us, which shows the inner action of some hidden scheme, the terrible realization of the impossibility of penetrating the interior core of another's subjectivity strikes. Somehow society must stay balanced despite this lack of integration, this mutual alienation.

One, all too common, solution to the problem of other minds is to deny their existence. To take a purely behavioristic approach that counts only the external surface as all there is to the other. For complete strangers this is the default choice. How do you make sense of that when, for any given person, the vast majority of others are complete strangers to them? When you think about how nearly everyone on earth is a stranger to you it's almost unsettling.

Transforming others into objects, and reducing them to their merely behavioral surface, is a necessary efficiency but also the path to dehumanization. It's interesting how various industries and institutions represent people as objects--- advertisement, military, the prisons, pornography, of course crime, and even the healthcare system. Blocking out the thought of the interiority of others is almost a prerequisite for sanity let alone the functioning of society. To reach the scale of civilization, the interior must be suppressed, and the exterior, connected together and regulated by a system of symbols, must be enlarged. This might be why alienation is an inevitability in modern, mass society. Because as the exterior of humanity grows, the interior of any given individual shrinks in proportion.

>> No.21016401

>>21016175
Based Ohio. Anyways, this board is slow right now...any reason why
>inb4 the Americans are sleeping
I am from the United States. What's their excuse?

>> No.21016409

>>21016283
If I lose my hair I will kill myself lol. I've been gathering reasons to do it anyways, but I still lack the courage. Hopefully no hair will be the last straw.

>> No.21016414

>>21016401
Every board is incredibly slow now. The answer: the bots are offline. Why? Something big is about to happen and they need to reprogram them away from the usual noise and demoralization.

>> No.21016420

>>21016409
It can cause telogen effluvium due to low iron. But if that happens it will grow back in about 9 months.

>> No.21016435

Should I tell girls that I still live with my parents? I’m 30.

>> No.21016439

>>21016420
Why do you know so much about this, and what are my options? I work in a steel mill and if I take a piece of iron and keep it in my mouth, will that solve it?

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21016443

>>21016306
>gf came 3 times
He doesn’t know

>> No.21016450

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saint_Isidora

>> No.21016528

>someone starts a thread about a certain idea
>Gets shat on by other posters
>Hmm everyone is shitting on my idea so it must be right
Whats this type of reasoning called? It happens a lot on /pol/

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It seems it's perfectly okay for a company to produce and sell to minors potato chips flavored with extremely hot pepper and advertise it as "so hot it will turn your tongue blue". And it really does turn one's tongue blue, alongside with giving them painful convulsions, loss of consciousness, etc.
Well, some learn by employing logic, some by crying and shaking on the floor.

>> No.21016742

>>21016414
*nothing happens*

>> No.21016757

>>21016528
stupidity

>> No.21016946 [DELETED] 

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7d3jc-zjBY
i find most midwest footwork shit annoying but occasionally a track goes hard and this is one of them

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>>21014390
I hate Law School so much, I just want to write and die before 50.

>> No.21017116

Who writes the best articles online? I'm looking for something to read through my work phone during downtime since I wont be comfortable browsing 4chan while those bastards at IT are spying on me. Who puts out the most high quality articles? about politics, tech, any DFW/HST derivatives? Is there any magazine putting out decent stuff regularly? Are any newspapers good?

>> No.21017130

>>21015079
Ngmi

>> No.21017138

>>21017116
His name is Mr Dr Substack

>> No.21017224

>>21017138
Substack has the same problems that traditional journalism has.

>> No.21017510

Man I thought this thread got banned again

>> No.21017521

>>21016187
Yeah I used to go into the black metal room on there a couple years ago and it was like old school /pol/stormfront on steroids

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Peace has come.
Do you accept the gift?

>> No.21017534

>>21017116
Moldbug and War Nerd you fucking clown hahaha.

>> No.21017543

>>21014683
get a prescription from a psychiatrist then go to a pharmacy. "bit then I gotta trick a physician and thats bad..." they want to give you the prescription. they get monetary incentives to do so.

>> No.21017552

>>21014959
says who?

>> No.21017587

>>21015262
wallahi

>> No.21017601

>>21016306
proper weirdo

>> No.21017660

>>21016359
Sartre. Or Husserl if you want more depth.

>> No.21017764

Her gaze burns
Don't look directly at the sun
Fate's fickle mind turns
Your misery is her fun

>> No.21017794

>>21015887
/his/ is pretty fertile shitposting grounds

>> No.21017836

I learned the word error from Megaman 2
Verbosity from man pages
Endothermic quadrupeds from a Star Trek zoo
Countless teachers and sages

>> No.21017869

>>21017552
dreams are more complicated. they don't follow wall-e strings of allegory.
something awake you're pretty unlikely to come up with.

>> No.21017912

>>21017869
you think you are pretty smart dont you?

>> No.21017942

pissing, shitting and sex all happen within a few inches of each other why

>> No.21017945

>>21017942
because its all a waste.

>> No.21017949

>>21017945
procreation is a waste?

>> No.21017957

>>21017949
yes

>> No.21017976

>>21016435
Absolutely not.
Unless you make it seem like you're selflessly helping them in their old age.
But still, really... no.

>> No.21018012

>>21017945
>>21017957
Based

>> No.21018048

Why do I underate myself so much?

>> No.21018052

>>21018048
bro you're absolutely underrated

>> No.21018062

>>21017942
Your ancestors used to shit eggs into the sea and then shit sperm on the eggs. Turning shit into eggs happens where the shit lives.

>> No.21018066

>>21018062
babies are stored in the ass

>> No.21018067

>>21018052
you're being sarcastic

>> No.21018068

>>21018062
That's the most racist thing I've ever read.

>> No.21018080

>>21018067
nah bud I believe in you

>> No.21018133

>>21018068
I find this humorous
a source of merriment and mirth
your penis gourd must be tuberous
to handle the girth

>> No.21018201

Feeling kind of wistful. Ordered a pizza. Will try to clean til it's there then read and sleep.
I feel bad for possibly stressing my friend into replying, she's super busy. She's usually pretty blunt tho so when she says it's all good I believe her.

>> No.21018261

>>21015489
Your doctor sounds smart. You sound like a whiney bitch (low T)

>> No.21018268

Well bros, this hell is inescapable, isn't it?

>> No.21018282

>>21018268
Which hell do you mean exactly?

>> No.21018308

>>21018268
Just turn off your computer and phone, and go outside, its not that hard

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21018334

bros...

>> No.21018371

>>21018308
I do and then nothing happens and then I come back here

>> No.21018382

>>21015489
that is straight up retarded. Unless you only running like 5 miles a week you are doing enough. We did nothing but run and pick berries for millions of years.

>> No.21018387

>>21018382
>the virgin berry picker

>> No.21018406
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>> No.21018432

ZzvioletzZ
Jessica Payne
Kellypearlx
Viking Barbie
Layna

Cosmographia, Bernadus Silvestris
Eros and Magic in the Renaissance, Ioan Coulianu
On the Stellar Rays, Al Kindi
Three Books of Occult Philosophy, Agrippa

-Static Substance (Book Z), chapters II, III, VIII Substance as Substratum
-Dynamic Substance (Book H), chapters I, IV, V
-Fourteen Metaphysical Problems (Book B), chapter K, along with the rest of the chapters in this book which touch on matter.
-Scope of Metaphysics (Part I, Book I'), Second Proof of the Law of Non-Contradiction

>> No.21018440

my shit gets ignored. how can I grow bros
>>21016873
>>21014743

>> No.21018441

>>21018334
I can see why you related to a pedophile you dicksmoker.

>> No.21018509
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need skinwalker gf

>> No.21018523

>>21016306
hows this guy got a gf now? can someone bring me up to date. thought xi jinping was an obese chronic alcoholic weed smoker

>> No.21018531

>>21018440
my shit gets ignored
uncomfortably repulsive hitting wrong notes
intense desire burning
for.. recognition? not really shitting is vital
hitting 'Post' like a toilet's handle
sending messages to God
I don't blaspheme, no
but dream for useless things to become transmuted supreme wisdom computers
microwaved brain and a burning heart keyed up still on that cringe retard
looking around like 'woah' but somewhere you need to start
if the being is given without givenness, then joyous retardation is a testament to the fundamental fact of Divine generosity
after all, 'the retard' is one of the names of the protagonist of this velocity
of advancement
beyond belief
showing faith in little things:
Chuck's Love and Feel
Sneed's? Forget about it.

>> No.21018537

>>21017116
https://www.aldaily.com

>> No.21018589
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21018589

starting to think you guys don't like me

>> No.21018617

>>21018589
>starting

>> No.21018621
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21018621

Should western societies bring back the Kóryos?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/K%C3%B3ryos

>> No.21018648

I'am 26 soon to be 27 and have never lived.

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>>21014390
I don't like what I've become.

How do you guys deal with the anxiety and dread before going on a journey if anyo of you experience that, I hate traveling but I have no choice, it causes me physical discomfort.

>> No.21018697

I hate working from home.

>> No.21018698

>>21016104
are you like, bathing in your cum or something? my hand and my sheath are the only things touching cum personnally and if I just take a quick shower they don't smell at all. aren't you using soap?

>> No.21018710

>>21018648
Same but 30. I never felt alive.

>> No.21018711

>>21018698
This weird musky scent sticks to my cock. Cant get rid of it unless I stop jerking off. Wonder if my balls are necrotic

>> No.21018717

>>21018711
change your diet

>> No.21018721

>>21018717
It isnt diet. It only comes around when I masturbate a lot

>> No.21018722

>>21015491
keep it up anon, we're all proud of you here
personnally I don't think I've been loved by my mother that much. she always told me I was a dick and it's true that I've always been a plonker to her.

as thus I can say I've lost the only woman who loved me the very day I had let my ex go. imagine being loved and accepted as you are and everything disappearing. now I'm alone in another city where I don't have anyone to count on and I miss her so much I could die

>> No.21018727

>>21018711
then use more soap or only masturbate at night and wash in the morning what the actual fuck

>> No.21018732

>>21017543
I'm English

>> No.21018742

>>21018722
>imagine being loved and accepted as you are and everything disappearing
tennyson thought that was better than to never have at all

>> No.21018746

>>21018727
It isnt something that washes off. I dont know what it is and it really concerns me

>> No.21018754

>>21018742
FUCK tennyson

>> No.21018758

I've been sitting for hours watching every Duluth livestream on multiple monitors.
https://youtu.be/9k_sg8rhsgk
https://youtu.be/BzwWjdZXymc
https://youtu.be/vqCD00PD5pk
https://youtu.be/G7u1XXLBbrY
https://youtu.be/_L0u39B732I
https://youtu.be/Jc4LpjP67Nw
https://youtu.be/Arf54yKFp2Y
https://youtu.be/m2wWzo9GmwY
https://youtu.be/vCBaTTC7FHs
https://youtu.be/nCf7X2cPDAY

>> No.21018767

>>21018758
why? what are they? I aint clicking any of those links until you tell me

>> No.21018772

>>21018732
this is still your only rout. though I do admit it will be a little harder since you dont live in a purely profit driven hellscape like I do

>> No.21018776

>>21014390
Im incapable of finishing a book. Recently took a look at my bookshelf and it pained me to see all the different books I gave up on halfway through. All the bookmarjs sticking out as an embarrassing reminder of my failure.
I don't know why I am like this. As soon as I start something I become bored of it and can only think about all the other books I'm not reading by reading this one. Im the same way with videogames. I'll start a new single player game & then just quickly grow bored of it.

>> No.21018781

>>21018767
they are exactly what i said they are

>> No.21018784

>>21018698
Yes I always shower and carefully wash everything.
There's just this very faint smell thats always there for about a day. Maybe i just have a better sense of smell than most people.

>> No.21018801

>>21017942
Cause we like to keep it separate & out of sight.
Discharges of any kind remind us that we're just animals. And like cats burying their scat there's an instinctual knowledge that waste can bring disease.

>> No.21018807

>>21018754
fair

>> No.21018816

>>21018732
they will definitely still give you an easy prescription. i got seratonin just told them i was depressed & anxious. my friend at work gets codeine all the time just tells his gp it's the only thing that works.

>> No.21018820

>>21018048
That's anorexia

>> No.21018826

>>21018742
tennyson was wrong then. he was talking about a dead friend, and I have no real friends.
knowing such a world exists, how it's like and that a lot of people are still living in it is a curse. I feel like some dregs of a human now. the realization that I will probably never experience the world with the same intensity again made me sour and despicable. I'd have preferred never living through such a thing, no matter how blissful it was if I fully knew what this entailed back then.

no wonder so many books and movies are about having your memory wiped

>> No.21018849

>>21018781
duluth livestream means nothing to me. but ok. go back to watching whatever the fuck that is and dont think too hard about the finite amount of time you have left to live and how many hours you are pissing away on what I now assume to be drivel due to your apprehension at giving any further information.

>> No.21018852

Adolf Hitler and Kanye West realized the same thing

>> No.21018856

>>21018852
jesus is king?

>> No.21018866
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A dead poet doesn't write. Whence the importance of staying alive.

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>>21018856
Insofar as he is a poet, West is a Satanic.

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>>21018867
ye is a poet in the line of shakespeare, homer, not milton, virgil

>> No.21018878

>>21018820
Lol

>> No.21018886

>>21018877
his most popular songs, for example, Power, Runaway, I am a God, all manifest satanic energy.

>> No.21018891

Sometimes I think I'm crazy because I can talk to God. And apparently most other people can't so sometimes I think that they are the crazy ones. I ask and God is always available to talk. I get very happy everytime I remember his presence. At this point this brings so much joy in my daily life that I cannot fathom how I could live back when I was an atheist, or how others who do not believe can live either. It's just pretty mindblowing to be honest. I used to be the most individualistic godless materialist to ever roam the Earth and over the course of a few months I became the most spiritual person I know. I have no idea about anything anymore.

>> No.21018902

>>21018891
Are you trolling by pretending to be schizo or are you being genuine?
I hope its the latter

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>>21018886
in fact, he himself recognizes the "contradiction"

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>>21018886

>> No.21018911
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>>21018906
you've got it wrong, it's not about moralfaggotry

>> No.21018914

>No one is responsible for his deeds, no one for his nature; to judge is to be unjust. This is also true when the individual judges himself. The tenet is as bright as sunlight, and yet everyone prefers to walk back into the shadow and untruth - for fear of the consequences.

Neetche really nailed it with this one. "To judge is unjust." So much profound truth in that one simple sentence.

>> No.21018990

>>21018902
No I'm actually dead serious. I'm a perfectly sane person, I have no mental issues and I never took medication, never went to therapy, I have a good social life and no positive or negative symptoms that could indicate schizophrenia. I can just talk to God. Maybe I'm just talking to myself but I honestly can't tell the difference. I guess that's because God is within every one of us. I'm certain every person has this ability but most people don't realize it. I'm sure you can see what I'm talking about.

>> No.21019019

>>21018781
Just someplace you’d rather be?

>> No.21019028

>>21018914
I'm a pedo and I beat my elderly parents. Don't judge me, unjust swine.

>> No.21019077 [SPOILER] 

>>21018990
you're possessed by a djinn and you believe it's God

>> No.21019088

>>21019028
You didn't choose to be a pedophile, and you did not volunteer to have an innate capacity for violence.
Society should not judge you, but is justified in punishing you by restricting your freedoms for its own self-interests.

>> No.21019092

Went through the first chapter of 2 Corinthians last night and I was really struck by something Paul mentions: For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.

I want to die. I have wanted to die for a long time. I want to be delivered by God from this, but I don't know how. How can Paul feel like he wants to die? If even the great Paul can feel like this then what can I possibly do?

>> No.21019097

>>21019088
it's judgement to evaluate me as being worthy of punishment, dweeb

>> No.21019107

>>21019077
That's interesting. What do you think I should do to get rid of this possession?

>> No.21019110

>>21019107
enema

>> No.21019112

>>21019110
I don't think that would work anon, let's be serious here for a second.

>> No.21019118

>>21019097
No. It's not about morality. It's about solving a practical problem which is that you are a troublemaker. A rabid dog is not put down because it is immoral, it is put down because doing so is in the interest with our own instinct for self-preservation. There are no moral ideals, only instincts.
Again, quoting Nietzche
>We do not blame nature when she sends a thunder storm and makes us wet: why then do we term the man who inflicts injury immoral? Because in the latter case we assume a voluntary, ruling, free will, and in the former necessity. But this distinction is a delusion. Moreover, even the intentional infliction of injury is not, in all circumstances termed immoral. Thus, we kill a fly intentionally[126] without thinking very much about it, simply because its buzzing about is disagreeable; and we punish a criminal and inflict pain upon him in order to protect ourselves and society. In the first case it is the individual who, for the sake of preserving himself or in order to spare himself pain, does injury with design: in the second case, it is the state. All ethic deems intentional infliction of injury justified by necessity; that is when it is a matter of self preservation. But these two points of view are sufficient to explain all bad acts done by man to men. It is desired to obtain pleasure or avoid pain. In any sense, it is a question, always, of self preservation. Socrates and Plato are right: whatever man does he always does right: that is, does what seems to him good (advantageous) according to the degree of advancement his intellect has attained, which is always the measure of his rational capacity.

>> No.21019161

>>21019118
Laws are codified morals. Judges are so called for a reason. An unbiased evaluation of my actions against the laws of the land that concludes in my punishment is still judgement.

>> No.21019176

been having some weird, crazy anxiety for the past week. it's making me feel like a kid again (not in a good way)

>> No.21019199

>>21019161
No. Laws are not codified morals. Laws are codifications of instincts for self-preservation which have been deemed to benefit a stable society.

The legal order is not governed by lofty ethical ideals. It's a pragmatic system of rules, no different from a gardener who seeks to pull up weeds because what they want is a garden of produce. . The law detects when someone is a nuisance and eliminates the cause of the problem . The capacity to do evil is a natural tendency , not unlike when a storm rains on us . It isn't a product of agency exerting itself, but a factor built into the agent's instinctual source code . That's all morality is, the codification of self-preservation.

>> No.21019263

Apparently 20% of people who die by suicide had alcohol in their system. I should really cut back on drinking

>> No.21019276

>>21019263
That just means 80% were sober. Better play it safe and keep boozing

>> No.21019292

>>21017013
i'm in law school and love it, still got time to read too. what's your problem

>> No.21019300

>>21019263
Same anon. I've been drinking more since 2020 to cope with everything and I know I've been accumulating physical damage because of it. I've been drinking green tea and moving my body around to offset it but I know it's likely not enough. Reality is hard to navigate without mind altering substances

>> No.21019318

Today I shit myself. I wasn’t even forcing a fart it just kinda happened. Good thing I was at home.

>> No.21019357

>>21019318
I shit myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the turd
the only thing that's real

>> No.21019360

>>21018990
I often have long internal monologues and I have a very active imagination, but I've never had the sensation that I'm talking to someone else in my mind.
When talking to a person, they'll often fail to understand me, or disagree with me, or know something I don't. That doesn't really happen when I'm talking to myself.
If I was in a position where I believed I might be talking to a deity, I would probably try to ask them concrete questions I don't know the answers to and see what they say, then look the answer up and see if they're right. Something like how in Hikaru no Go when the protagonist is possessed by a ghost he gets the ghost to help with his history homework.
I don't have any particular personal interest into butting into anyone's personal faith, but if you are concerned about whether you're really talking to God or not I think that might be something to consider.

>> No.21019368

>>21019276
lol

>> No.21019395

>>21018742
Well, there's also the whole "what you don't know can't kill you" thing, which goes against what Tennyson said. Love's funny that way. It makes life much better than before when it's happening to you, but when you lose it, it makes life much worse than before.

>> No.21019414

>>21019112
no no >>21019110 is right. thats how I got rid of mine. if you do it well enough its like rubbing a lamp and you can get a wish from it too!

>> No.21019416

>>21019395
that's the deal

>> No.21019418

>>21019276
kek cant argue with that

>> No.21019422

>>21019395
>what you don't know can't kill you
the turkey doesn't know about thanksgiving

>> No.21019444
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21019444

If you were in a gladiator arena with me, which gladiator type would you choose? (Assuming I would choose Retiarius)
Please note there are more types so feel free to choose one that isn't in this image
>https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Roman_gladiator_types

>> No.21019450

>>21019199
>instincts for self-preservation
what do you think morals are?
>legal order is not governed by lofty ethical ideals
the very idea of personal rights is a lofty ethical idea, and didn't/doesn't exist in most societies

morals are a compromise between the individual and the group. even chimps have behavioral rules that, if broken too many times, will result in expulsion or death. laws are codified morals, any attempt to separate the two is misguided at best, and the existence of unjust laws proves only that mistakes are sometimes made.

>> No.21019458

>>21019422
and thanksgiving doesnt kill the turky. hunters do. and the turky knows about hunters. being a pray animal and all. now bullets... turkeys dont know shit about bullets. until they get to know them intimately.

>> No.21019476

>>21019444
I think I would feel well protected in PROVOCATOR, but usually when I have a wank I only use right, so I might not be able to hold the shield for more than 4mins, so maybe something like THRAEX would be better, but give me a less flamboyant helmet.

>> No.21019484

>>21014390
Bit of a riddle: metaphysical libertarian, panpsychist, idealist, phenomenalist, who am i?

>> No.21019496

>>21019444
GALLFREVS

Armed with a TARDIS to get the heck out of there

>> No.21019524

>>21019444
hoplomachus. spears mog. though my drug free brain would probably defeat your pothead reaction times no matter which type I chose.

>> No.21019537

>>21019524
Good choice. Hoplomachus would be very hard considering you also have a long weapon which eliminates the range factor in my choice.

>> No.21019541

>>21019484
Leibniz, but I don't think he fits phenomenologist. I would also say Plato but I don't think he fits metaphysical libertarian.

>> No.21019554

>>21019541
also btw, if you are talking about actual idealism, as in Berkeley and Schopenhauer, then I don't think anyone fits all four of those categories. but if you are just talking about idealism as in "plato was an idealist because he liked ideas lmao" then I would go with Leibniz.

>> No.21019559

>>21019541
I speak of the idea that we cannot know the true nature of things

>> No.21019576

>>21019554
I speak of idealism in the sense ideas are superior to the material

>> No.21019608

>>21014390
>Be me
>Get new gf during covid pandemic lockdowns
>Troll my family she was born male as a joke
>Mother must have believed me fr
>Fast forward after covid, uncles 70th bday
>Debut gf to family
>Aunty comes up to me saying she's really beautiful and can't believe she was born a boy and that she supports me

Lmao wtf I completely forgot and wouldn't have thought my mother would have believed me and spread it to the family or whose laughing behind my back Now I don't know what I should do or say to gf. Think she would be mad and break up with me over it?

There is a part of me wanting to carry on the joke into marriage and even if I ever get her pregnant. Being adamant shes born a dude.

>> No.21019618
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>>21019608
jokes

>> No.21019638 [DELETED] 

>21005881
Dangerous, but not within a community. There's no need for locks when you known trust everyone. The saying is recent and true

>> No.21019644

>>21005881
Dangerous, but not within a community. There's no need for locks when you known trust everyone. The saying is recent and true

>> No.21019660

I strongly dislike myself.

>> No.21019663

>>21019660
Why?

>> No.21019670

>>21014390
Sometimes I wonder if my mom is autistic. She can be really strange sometimes.
She's in her 60s and watches Destiny the streamer. It's so odd and makes me very uncomfortable. Every day I wake up to her watching Destiny videos. This can't be normal, why can't she just like normal old people things like knitting or reading?
To give a sense just how weird she can be ...
I was talking to her and my family the other day about how I don't like smart appliances. I don't see the point in them and don't like the idea of a company collecting all of this data on me. Anyways I had just finished talking about the insane amount of information Google probably has on any given individual just from searches alone, and I was saying "everything you have ever searched." She responds by saying "Oh, like videos of women shitting on men's chests?".
. I was just like "uhmm no. but if thats what you like, you do you". So awkward. And my Dad just says "Is there something we need to talk about?"
Very strange, I really have no idea where that came from. I sometimes think the internet has degenerated her mind somehow.

>> No.21019692

>>21014390

I'm considering doing a law office study program in Vermont and then becoming a lawyer through testing for the bar, seems pretty comfy up there tbqh. That or Commiefornia, but I feel like NE will suit my tastes better. Thinking of moving to a small olympic village town (the ones that crank out olympic athletes) and settling down.

>> No.21019721

i basically was seriously committed to killing myself about 6 hours ago, but since i've got home i've basically been in philosophic ecstasy, which means i've been sitting at my desk smiling like an idiot

>> No.21019727

>>21019660
any particular reason, or just general malaise?

>> No.21019740

>>21019663
>>21019727
I dislike traits about myself, but how can I explain why it is I dislike them? They are at odds with what I would have. That's all.

>> No.21019744 [DELETED] 

>>21019740
hey bro, the parts of yourself that you don't like, and the parts that don't like them, are both you. so you don't actually hate yourself, you hate that your self is unified. seek henosis bro.

>> No.21019745

I have no vested interests in working for your narrative or anyone else's. Just because people have put
bullets in my head (the question of good and evil), which I should be dead over, doesn't mean I'm supposed to be guilt tripped or
information misappropriated and therefore masked. How could anyone judge my feelings, the most basic liberty. The freedom of
emotion and lowest entitlement, simplicity of all human endeavors, contracts, negotiations, and business. Capital.
How could anyone deprive me of my enlightened thought? All rationale seeks peace, balance, an end to ends. The thinking leads to
informing of insight. It cannot be suppressed if word of light is sought after. That is the point which still fades. A woe begone. It
waxeth and waneth. It is the treasure fabricated in the clay image. It is worn and by weathering defaced. Collected everyday,
to be earned, against hell. This picture is ______ a ______ but ______. I guess I wear a mask too. Woe begotten.
God forbid the difference. Circuitry and anatomy; hyperfunction. Norm: dysfunction. Trapped in; unable to escape. Psyche split in two,
onto a project splinter. You can see the cloven hoofs. What now?

>> No.21019749

>>21019740
hey bro, the parts of yourself that you don't like, and the parts that don't like them, are both you. so you don't actually hate yourself, you hate that your self is in conflict. seek henosis bro

>> No.21019753

>>21019740
What traits do you dislike specifically? What alternatives would you prefer to have instead?

>> No.21019767

>>21019670
Your mom is a based shitposter

>> No.21019774
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ive done it again

>> No.21019778

>>21019670
lmfaooo this actually sounds like my worst nightmare

>> No.21019799

>>21015949
>Once you experience that in weight lifting it is easier to apply that mindset to other goals, whether they are career, relationship, or hobby related.
Yessir. I actually started reading again, after I had been in the gym for like ~5 months. I read at the gym during the time I spend in the amenities. I also try to watch educational-ish videos while doing cardio. I'm better than before. Exercise is the best for making your life better overall.

>> No.21019800

>>21019670
Thinking about the conversation more, I think she was trying to imply that I must be watching something dirty, i.e have something to hide, to care about online privacy.
Which she also said at another point "I have nothing to hide".
That line always irritates the shit out of me. It's so obviously just purity/virtue signaling & a way to shut down conversation. The implication is that anyone who cares about privacy is just a criminal or degenerate, & so we should just be 100% cool with any corporation or government having this degree of power over individuals. Like okay if youre fine with the government or a corporation knowing every single detail about your life, cool but I'm not..

>> No.21019811

>>21019670
She's a trump boomer election tourist who found /pol/ or at least the_donald a few years ago and now she's slowly revealing her power level

>> No.21019824

>>21019778
It is ... it's a complete nightmare. I'm living with them to save money, but I dont know how much longer I can take of it.
Every morning I'd just like to have my coffee and sit with the quiet, but every morning instead I wake up to the sound of that shrill manlet.
The whole situation is just so weird. I feel like I am more of an old person than my own mother. She's seriously more plugged in than I am.

>> No.21019828

Does anyone think there is a potential bridge that could be thrown between the accelerationism of Land and Fisher, and the perennial tradition of Guénon and Evola? Genuinely interested in any insight pertaining to the potential resolution of any apparent contradictions arising from this hypothetical junction.

>> No.21019845

>>21019824
christ yeah his voice is rib-achingly annoying

>> No.21019853

I sexually assaulted my best friend with whom I'd had a really awful ambiguous relationship for a long time. We obviously can never see each other again, but I think she's protecting me by telling me it wasn't that deep. I don't think what I did fell into any legal definition so I'm not even sure about turning myself into the police, but I've had a nervous breakdown around the same time and severe hereditary mental illness cropping up. I'm high-functioning and can work, but that's literally it: the instant I'm off the clock the voices kick in and they are shrill and violent. I have people in my life who care about me but they don't know what I really am. If they did they'd understand. Should I just off myself? If so, which of New York City's rivers?

>> No.21019864

>>21019450
The problem with false morality, the morality of religion and law, is that it attributes to consciousness what derives from involuntary, unconscious drives.

Moral responsibility is dependent on two constituent concepts, which it divides into: motive and intent. Neither of which someone is responsible for.

We are not responsible for our motives, because we did not freely choose to have the various instinctive drives which lead us astray and which supply us with our motives.

Nor are we responsible for our intentions. That's because intentionality is merely the direction of the conscious mind to the objectives of involuntary motive drives.

No act, good or bad, has its origins in consciousness. Various authorities throughout history invented the concept of free will in order to place blame on those weaker than them in order to control them.

The concept of responsibility has its origins in the instincts to punish

>Wherever men try to trace responsibility home to anyone, it is the instinct of punishment and of the desire to judge which is active. Becoming is robbed of its innocence when any particular condition of things is traced to a will, to intentions and to responsible actions. The doctrine of the will was invented principally for the purpose of punishment,—that is to say, with the intention of tracing guilt. The whole of ancient psychology, or the psychology of the will, is the outcome of the fact that its originators, who were the priests at the head of ancient communities, wanted to create for themselves a right to administer punishments—or the right for God to do so. Men were thought of as “free” in order that they might be judged and punished—in order that they might be held guilty: consequently every action had to be regarded as voluntary, and the origin of every action had to be imagined as lying in consciousness

>> No.21019866

>>21019853
Are you the anon who posted the poems back in July talking about how you’d done something terrible?

>> No.21019874

>>21019866
Yes. I committed myself for a few weeks. I got better briefly but then bounced right back.

>> No.21019890

>>21019874
If you feel that guilty about it, then that’s a sign that you’re not irredeemable. Do you think there’s a risk of you doing the same thing to someone else?

>> No.21019896

>>21019740
why post here if you don’t want to be asked questions?

>> No.21019900

>>21019670
Man this has me paranoid that everything I have searched will one day exposed and linked to me

Not so much the porn or weird shit. But the fact I often google up ppl I know (usually hotter girls) and just check out what I can find on them like pics, LinkedIn profiles, social media etc lol. Some of them frequent searches too

>> No.21019912

>>21019890
Redemption? I think there are some things one can do that obviously put one forever past redemption, anon. This is one of them.

And can someone who'd do something like that really feel guilt to begin with? Does guilt mean anything? It does nothing to anyone but me. And if it diminishes with time, all the worse. The crime remains fixed in its point in time forever: so should each flame burn just as strongly as the last, or stronger. And yet nothing, nothing ever burns it away.

I've changed a lot about my life to make sure I can never do anything like that again. It doesn't really matter. I still did it. The only decisive action it feels like I can take is the big jump. But is that not an offense, trying to do divine justice with filthy hands? I'd be no more than a rapist playing God.

>> No.21019918

I am not handling anything well.

>> No.21019921

>>21014390
How does one get over cringe shit you have done or said in your teens and early 20s

I'm in my 30s and still cringe at times I've had outbursts, mental snaps and other womanly cringe shit when I was a depressed youth. I still feel the ppl in my life who witnessed it have changed their perspective of me since and can never be truly repaired

>> No.21019927

>>21019921
I don’t know, but I have the same problem.

>> No.21019935

>>21019927
As a dude it's cringe at how little frame I had over my emotions. I think it was just years being brought up of just "taking it" but suddenly when I decided not to, I handled it very womanly.

>> No.21019948

>>21019900
I dont even watch shit like that. So Im not sure why she said that.
If its any consolation, if you're not a powerful person I doubt stuff like searches will ever come out

>> No.21019986

>>21019921
Try your hardest to remember the cringe things that other people have said or done. You probably won't remember that many, and you don't remember them as intensely as those people remember them.
Then realize that other people remember you the same way.

>> No.21020016

>>21019853
>male with a female best friend
>actually she wasn't his best friend he wanted to fuck her the entire time

woah.... this is wild..

>> No.21020025

fuck it mask off

>> No.21020028

>>21014390
What books should I have on my shelf if I want to learn about metaphysics other than Plato and Aristotle?

>> No.21020033

>>21020016
We'd had sex. It was a very complicated, messy relationship.

>> No.21020037

I've developed a distaste for business and money-making.

>> No.21020044

>>21020037
Good.

>> No.21020046

>>21020037
Stop being so antisemitic.

>> No.21020051

>>21020028
Critique of Pure Reason by Immanuel Kant is the most obvious answer

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I used to enjoy my time in these threads, but I can't anymore. It's not healthy to be surrounded by unhealthy people. Maybe it's selfish to leave troubled people on their own but a man has a right to look out for himself. I don't want to have to lay my eyes on any of these whiny posts anymore. I don't think half of the posters in these threads have every touched a book before in their lives. They just come here to cry about how hard their first world life with friends and family and a lover and an education is. Ungrateful fucks.

>> No.21020076

>>21020065
>Maybe it's selfish to leave troubled people on their own
It's not. It's especially not when they don't want help. Godspeed, anon.

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>> No.21020150

>>21020143
please dont hurt yourself

>> No.21020170

>>21020044
It's not good.

>> No.21020173

i love goodlooking people

>> No.21020213

>>21020143
>>21020150
i love these furtive, almost saintly moments

>> No.21020216

>>21020173
I only like them when they’re humble about it.
They rarely are.

>> No.21020235

>>21020216
i think they're generally nicer than unattractive people. if only just cos being attractive solves a lot of basic problems a lot of people have.

>> No.21020284

A shadow in oblivion,
A memory forgotten so,
Days dark as black obsidian,
The embers gleam is lost to cold.

Chanting a song of transience,
In fantasies of brass and gold,
I walk in halls so halcyon,
Where centuries are lost to mold,

Where wizened statues rust to dust,
Characters fading on broke bowls,
The lantern’s vibrant lustre but,
A daze of lethargy aglow,

I sit and drink with shadow friends,
And wonder over timeless scrolls,
As the dark vault flames astral jets,
Tracing out letters in my soul.

>> No.21020311

weed smoking time hahaha
give me a movie to watch

>> No.21020317

>>21020311
Ginger Snaps

>> No.21020318

>>21020317
oooh Canadian kino?

>> No.21020326

>>21020235
“Nicer”? No. They’re usually stuck up and have a whole other set of problems.

>> No.21020338

>>21020326
yeah but more normal problems
and besides, attitudes etc are always kind of counterbalanced by being nice looking. there's no end to the ways in which nice things are nicer than nasty ones

>> No.21020345

>>21020318
Yes the best of Canadian kinos

>> No.21020357

>>21019864
you could say it's an involuntary, unconscious drive that causes our wont to attribute these things to consciousness.

>Neither of which someone is responsible for
This is where the discussion turns to the issue of freewill. So far, Western law assumes freewill exists. There's no alternative besides treating people like deterministic little machines, which doesn't sit well with me. There is no scientific basis for freewill, and there won't be until we solve the problem of consciousness, which we're nowhere close to doing. Regardless, I assume freewill exists because it seems to exist. Laws should follow common sense because there's a fine line between intricate theories and sophistry.

>The concept of responsibility has its origins in the instincts to punish
oh yeah? well the idea that human beings are irresponsible deterministic bots has its origins in the maternal coddling of children. that's no way to run a society, is it?

>> No.21020362

>>21020338
You must be thinking of tv characters
A shitty personality isn’t counterbalanced by their facial features. I’ve dealt with many

>> No.21020363

>>21020311
is that how annoying i am when i post on cocaine

>> No.21020368

>>21020362
going entirely off life here. it's a bit like that francoise sagan line 'i'd rather cry in a jaguar than on a bus'

>> No.21020388

come on in bud :)
viens :)
>>21020381
>>21020381
>>21020381

>> No.21020427

>>21020368
You’re so bourgie it hurts.

>> No.21020439

>>21018062
ovaries are not in the guts
>>21018801
what about tears, spit, blood and vomit

>> No.21020559

>>21020427
owww

>> No.21020607

>>21020033
sounds like you're both ill