/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.20829316]

>supposed to be working Phd dissertation
>utterly catatonic depressed as fuck like a zombie
>help me 4 chan, I have to have this finished in a couple of months (my mom is so fuckign disappointed with me)
>be drunk on half a bottle of vodka atm
>still self-ware enough not to say what the dissertation is about, as that would narrow the potential candidates down too much

[Anonymous No.20829342]

>>20829316
If you were depressed you wouldn't have made it this far into your PhD and wouldn't even have had the motivation to buy alcohol.

[Anonymous No.20829378]

>>20829316
Why are you making /lit/ your blog.

[Anonymous No.20829387]

>>20829316
GOD i fucking hate being sober enough to realize I'm just escaping my problems. nothing ruins a good time more than that.

[Anonymous No.20829389]

>>20829316
No one cares, loser

[Anonymous No.20829396]

>>20829316
What's your dissertation about?

[Anonymous No.20829397]

>>20829378
because when I drink too much vodka I jut need help
Im so sorry everyone
I dont mean to make this my blog or all about me
, I'm really sorry

[Anonymous No.20829416]

>>20829397
It's ok, anon. It's gonna be ok.

[Anonymous No.20829469]

>depression temporarily goes away when i get a sudden burst of emotion
does anybody else experience this

[Anonymous No.20829484]

>>20829316
Sounds like you just aren't cut out a doctorate, anon, but that's fine—not everybody is capable of putting together and defending a coherent thesis. It doesn't mean your life is over

[Anonymous No.20829527]

>>20829416
ok. thank you

[Anonymous No.20829542]

>>20829316
stop drinking and maybe try ketamine? I was never much of a drinker but keta did fix my depression, has at least fixed it for two months now.

Real help you'll only get from some kind of professional, so not here.

In the end you're going to finish your PhD, no matter if it's shit, and you'll go on from there.
I don't get how your mum would be disappointed for not finishing it in a couple of months, maybe you meant years? In any case, I know people who now again at 40 start their PhD and they regret nothing, they're not depressed.
This doesn't have anything to do with your PhD. If you worked a job and would face some kind of issue evoking a similar stress situation, uncertainty and pressure you'd be in the same situation right now. Which you may take from means that your choice to get a PhD although arbitrary wasn't wrong. From there you start saying no, start being more honest with yourself and others. Maybe don't talk to your family for a while, get it out of your head and stuff like that.
But the stress will be there as long as you leave the PhD project in the air, there's no half finished, 3/4 finished, finished but unedited. You're probably not making those steps in your mind, something to hold onto.

The most important thing however is to stop drinking, which is the most difficult when you're already drinking by yourself. I never found quite how you could help someone with that. That's something you gotta do yourself.

tl;dr: draw lines, have dignity, you're responsible for all your choices, theye're your choices, you're free that way, restrict yourself, be responsible in general
dumb shit like that

[Anonymous No.20829545]

>>20829316
what's your dissertation on?

[Anonymous No.20829551]

>>20829484
doomer mentality.
there hasn't been a single person who thought of failure who didn't get stressed out over his doctorate.
starry-eyed prodigies don't count. if they failed they'd feel just as shit, they just don't fret it.

[Anonymous No.20829575]

>>20829316
This isn't even about books or literature

[Anonymous No.20829591]

kek I know that feel, just finish the fucking thing man they'll pass anything these days. Get the piece of paper and fix whatever you don't like about it in the subsequent year

[Anonymous No.20829608]

>>20829469
Mood swings?
I used to when I was in my twenties. I perfected it and feel perfectly calm even in pretty stressful times.

[Anonymous No.20829622]

>>20829608
Rough face and flat tits, shame

[Anonymous No.20829659]

>>20829622
Wha? Hahahah okaay

[Anonymous No.20829668]

>>20829659
Is it a tranny? Horrid face, big flab arms

[Anonymous No.20829688]

>>20829668
No. She’s all woman

[Anonymous No.20829690]

>>20829397
>because when I drink too much vodka I jut need help
The seek help instead of making /lit/ your blod. No one here cares about you here.

[Anonymous No.20829691]

>>20829668
is that ricki lake?

[Anonymous No.20829699]

>>20829688
Gotta put a bag over that fuckin head mate

[Anonymous No.20829706]

>>20829691
Mel Capperino-Garcia
>>20829699
She’s a pretty Italian Amazon

[Anonymous No.20829907]

>>20829316
it's odd how "literally me" this post is, the only difference in my case is that it's not vodka but slivovica