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[Anonymous No.20768851]

/wwoym/ Hiraeth edition

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[Anonymous No.20768874]

>>20768851
everything i do ends before i can complete it

[Anonymous No.20768894]

>>20768851
How do you know if you are depressed or just extremely lazy and used to it?

[Anonymous No.20768898]

Every day is a blessing.

[Anonymous No.20768953]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSZxmZmBfnU

[Anonymous No.20768999]

>>20768894
What year is it?

[Anonymous No.20769094]

I've made the mistake of looking into Nick Land.

His idea that capitalism is an intelligent system is interesting. I believe he pointed out that evolution is also an intelligent system but I already figured that after I took an engineering class and realized that the iterative design process is essentially just a mockup of evolutionary pressure looking to find the fittest offspring to survive. It never occurred to me that market forces act in a similar fashion, however.
I believe racism, or "racist" notions such as nationalism, to be the result of evolution favoring in-group preferences. A tightly-knit tribe gives its constituents a much better chance of survival compared to if they were all individuals looking to acquire resources for themselves. Resources in this sense includes capital.
Capitalism (or economics in general) seeks to efficiently manage resources to fit the needs of people. Because capitalist constituents are individualistic in nature but still loyal to capitalism which fulfill their needs, they will seek to acquire resources for their own benefits, and thus the benefit of capitalism.

You have two intelligent yet non-sentient phenomena, evolutionary racism and individualistic capitalism, both looking to acquire resources for their own benefit. These two forces don't necessarily exist in conflict, sometimes in-groups benefit from capitalism, which is likely where the Marxist misconception that capitalism created, or at least encourages, racism comes from, when capitalism as an intelligent phenomena would benefit more from having a labor pool and market that isn't blocked off by racial in-group preferences. This is what "globohomo" is, capitalism (or possibly the (((certain))) in-group that currently benefits the most from capitalism) trying to eliminate the nationalistic/racist barriers that keep resources out of it's hands. In a sense globohomo puts capitalism in direct conflict with racism whereas prior the two could coexist to some extent, even with the occasional hiccup.
This is where the sudden resurgence of anti-capitalist right-wing/reactionary thought has come from in recent years. Capitalism is now directly challenging the in-group preferences created by evolution. If you are familiar with the concept of "the selfish gene" you can see why this is confrontation has created such a backlash. Evolution prioritizes survival and reproduction above all else. Even if capitalism doesn't seek to destroy the beings within the in-group, it is still attacking the behavior the gene causes, and thus attacking what has allowed us to triumph in the battlegrounds of mother nature. The genes' selfishness rouses us to fight.

This is probably all just schizo shit and I'm likely wrong about much of it. A battle between racism and capitalism seems like a retarded /pol/ plot.
I'm not sure if Nick Land or his inspirations has already said what I have, it's just an interesting observation I've had. All his stuff is now on my reading backlog.

[Anonymous No.20769109]

>>20769094
u basic as shit

[Anonymous No.20769207]

>hard for me to begin reading
>once i start, i will not stop no matter what type of book or type of literature it is

To put it into perspective, multiple times in my life, I have done nothing but read books for 2 days straight without any sleep. I will, of course, eat and drink, but I will not sleep because I'm too busy reading.

For example, it was hard for me to start Moby Dick, but once I read through the first chapter, I did not put the book down until I had completely finished it at 5 in the morning the next day in a nigh single sitting. Of course, I didn't retain much of what I read after 2 AM, but I still recall fragments of what happened later on in the book. Another thing like this happened to me when I was 8 and I had the bible in my hand. I ended up reading the entire bible in two sittings, broken up in between by dinner, because I sperg out if I miss a meal.

How do I stop this? My entire sleep schedule was ruined in a single week when I was introduced to Web-Novels—no matter the nationality of the author— and now I can read up to 600 2k+ word chapters in a single sitting and retain up to 80% of what I read.

[Anonymous No.20769353]

A cute girl at my work asked me out last night and i literally just answered "no." I dont know whats wrong with me, I seem to be attracted to women right up until they open their mouths and I lose all interest

[Anonymous No.20769357]

>>20768851
There was a mix up at the apartment I'm moving into and I might not be able to move in for an additional week than expected. I'll know for sure in the morning, but if I'm given the choice between the two I honestly don't know which to pick.
>A. Wait a week and save up more money while I don't have to worry about rent.
or
>B. Move out of my friend's house and finally feel like I'm in control of my life again after dealing with a non stop cavalcade of bullshit for nearly the past year.
I know in the long run waiting is probably the better choice, but another week of feeling like a beatnik sounds agonizing.

[Anonymous No.20769390]

>>20769094
God you are so stupid

[Anonymous No.20769412]

>>20768851
4chan has been normie for years

[Anonymous No.20769416]

>>20768851
is philosophy as an activity one day going to be pathologized? Are philosophers, or which is to say anyone who doubts the popularly dominant metaphysic, going to be diagnosed as insane by our metaphysically incompetent psychiatrists of the future? They will call it Rational-Systematic Paranoid Schizophrenia, or RSPS for short.

[Anonymous No.20769453]

>>20769416
Thought itself is seen as a disease already, you're behind the times.

[Anonymous No.20769456]

What does /lit/ think of youtuber/podcaster/twitter user Georgina Rose? Hot? Smart? Funny? Plumpy?

[Anonymous No.20769464]

>>20769453
No, weird thoughts that impair a certain level of stability is a disease

[Anonymous No.20769468]

>>20769464
>weird thoughts that impair a certain level of stability is a disease
So, philosophy?

[Anonymous No.20769559]

Aristotle writes in his book on politics that some people are unreasonable and like animals and therefore need a reasonable master. The unreasonable people who are subordinated to such a reasonable master, Aristotle calls slaves, and writes that being a slave is to the slave's advantage. Slavery is justified, but: only insofar as it is advantageous to the slave (advantageous by supplementing his physical strength with the master's reason). Then how can the master have an all-encompassing power over the slave? Doesn't slavery, according to Aristotle, lose its justification the moment the master acts to the disadvantage of the slave? The relationship between master and slave is not that of an exploiter and an exploited, but between a helper and a retard.

[Anonymous No.20769588]

>>20769559
See this is why I can't read philosophy, my brain immediately shuts down the second I see these concepts like "justification"
A thing being justified or not... what does that even mean... or matter?
I remember Seneca saying that you shouldn't be an asshole to people below you in society because even the lowliest slave has great power over you in the sense that if he chooses to he can cut your threat and end your whole damn life just like that. That I get, justification, not so much.

[Anonymous No.20769594]

>wildfires
>food shortages
>CO2 levels continually rising
The Great Cataclysm approaches....

[Anonymous No.20769629]

>>20769416
Unless you work for big pharma, who cares? While no doubt there are such things as mental illnesses, we might consider these situations where people are unable to act or make choices in their own self interest in the broadest possible definition. More realistically it is assigned to people for whom they find difficulty integrating or functioning in 'society', be it a personality disorder like BPD or Narcissism, an attentional one, or a cognitive one like good old fashioned retardation. Psychologists refused to label Trump a Narcissist by the professional definition because it wasn't necessarily causing him any distress nor was it making him dysfunctional, after all, he was the President of the United States. That's not failing to function or integrate in society.
More realistically big pharma tries to influence what is considered a pathology that way they can sell more drugs. They also don't like people self-medicating (and with valid cause) because that eats into their profits... even if their product isn't any safer or superior.
>>20769559
>The relationship between master and slave is not that of an exploiter and an exploited, but between a helper and a retard.
Yes. Maybe don't think of it in terms of master and slave. Think of it as Leader and Follower. After all, it's a discourse on politics.

[Anonymous No.20769655]

>>20769594
>two more weeks...for real this time

[Anonymous No.20769762]

>>20768851
The more successful I am, the more my friends resent me

[Anonymous No.20769779]

New Jerusalem is a big city.

[Anonymous No.20769793]

>>20769588
Our brain is like a court: it is the judge and the law. The law is carved on an invisible tablet in our mind. Every human being has this invisible law within him. When an action violates the law, we call it unjustified. Talking about justification is like writing our invisible law on paper so that we can compare it with the law of others. Some laws are reasonable, others are not. By comparing our laws, we settle on which laws are reasonable and which are not. A law is reasonable if it serves the good life.

[Anonymous No.20769830]

>>20769762
Do you rub it in their faces?

[Anonymous No.20769866]

You killed me!

[Anonymous No.20769943]

I have no libido. I have no creativity. I tried for years, but I never got anywhere. But at least I feel content. I still feel driven to write. I want to create something beautiful. I want to express the rare things I feel. I just want magic.

I wish I could light a fire under my own ass and come alive. I keep finding myself thinking about how much I don't want to exist.

I want to find something I love and do it til I die. I can't even be honest here. I can't even talk. If it doesn't ring, you're not talking. I can't talk, I can't act, I can't do anything. I can't even finish this post.

[Anonymous No.20769948]

>>20769943
I can't even forget myself long enough to tell the truth. No matter how much I drink or how little sleep I get or how much it feels like I'm suffering, it's never really suffering, because no one hears it. I can't even hear it. I should know.

[Anonymous No.20770071]

My short horror story is gonna be published in a book.
>>20769943
>>20769948
“The man who says he can, and the man who says he can’t are both correct.”
- Confucius

[Anonymous No.20770086]

Do we ever find ourselves in the middle of a depression deeper than our own eyes can see? I don’t think so. It’s impossible. Here’s a secret: there is nothing for a man to do but to find a way around it—chewing through the heartstrings, digging out the vein, or smashing out the rib cage—and that’s what being a man is all about. Dignity, recovery, the sweetness of self-destruction. Despair.

[Anonymous No.20770092]

>>20768851
half the problem with any philosophy (marxism, christianity, idealism, materialism) is that too many retards think they know what it means, when really they just make shit up and then they feel they're justified in whatever

[Anonymous No.20770097]

having to participate in society as an adult for over a decade has made me a terrible person
sometimes i reflect back on how idealistic i was when i was 20 something and it scares me how desensitized i've become
i would be willing to do absolutely horrible fucking things just to make a few extra gs to bank away
i don't think i used to feel this way, but getting married and being independent has really put into perspective how little i really care about everyone else

[Anonymous No.20770185]

where can i get a copy of "dioretix: the science of matter over mind"?

[Anonymous No.20770186]

This anon >>20769094 made an insightful post connecting concepts he's learned and thus creating "knowledge" and putting his intellect to work, and yet these two retards >>20769109 and>>20769390 have the audacity to diminish his efforts. Makes me think. It's a clear example of negative reinforcement. Someone makes an insightful post and retards like these show up everytime discouraging the creation of quality posts throughout the board. No need to wonder why this board is fucking shit. Pic somewhat related.

[Anonymous No.20770196]

bingo lingo scapolun sabo

[Anonymous No.20770199]

>>20770086
Isnt depression a constant self-destruction?

[Anonymous No.20770200]

>>20770186
i stopped reading at "nick land". nothing from that quasi-academic turd is worth a damn.

[Anonymous No.20770217]

>>20770199
No. I think “depression” is a place; you find yourself there and your only options are to stay there or to leave, but leaving is necessarily self-destructive. It doesn’t have to be violent—you might destroy the diseased parts of your body on your way out.

[Anonymous No.20770220]

>>20770071
trite

[Anonymous No.20770232]

>>20770217
but even staying is self-destructive as the time, opportunities pass by and even your mental and physical deteriorates.

[Anonymous No.20770241]

>>20770232
I don’t disagree with you. But there is a noble, dignified way of leaving that place if you look hard enough for it

[Anonymous No.20770269]

>>20770200
Then go shit other boards if you won't read posts.

[Anonymous No.20770288]

How old is too old to go to film school?

[Anonymous No.20770292]

>>20770288
22, the usual age of a college graduate. If you haven’t done anything by that point then you’ll never do anything worthwhile in film. There are already too many self-called “filmmakers” in the world. Don’t go to school to be another one.

[Anonymous No.20770305]

Americans of r/lit, are you really as fat as people say you are? America as a fat country sounds like bullshit to me.

[Anonymous No.20770306]

>>20770288
why so you can become a bitter man accosting random trumpet players in the city streets?

[Anonymous No.20770308]

>>20770288
No such thing. Although think about what is your aim in going to a film school and if that’s really the best way to accomplish your goals.
>>20770292
Baseless meme answer using meaningless terms.

[Anonymous No.20770310]

>>20770305
the cities aren't fat, but the middle of nowhere, which is like most of the country, is.

[Anonymous No.20770312]

>>20769094
>and realized that the iterative design process
Evolution is not intelligent design, you creationist retard.

[Anonymous No.20770326]

>>20770308
I don’t think I can know if that’s the best way to accomplish anything until it’s all said and done.

[Anonymous No.20770328]

>>20770308
What’s baseless about? You’re the one using words like “meme terms.” If he hasn’t have anything to show that resembles a keen interest in film (like actually having MADE a film, being involved in related clubs/organizations, reaching out for mentors) by the time he’s an adult then it’s too late. That’s just the naked truth of it all. There are too many other people who want to be filmmakers who have more to show by the time they’re 18. If he wanted it that bad he wouldn’t be asking this shitty board if it’s too late.

[Anonymous No.20770332]

>>20770310
Talking out of my ass here, but when visiting the US I've noticed that the poorer a place was, the fatter it was. This felt in line with what I've seen living in the third world, where people were fat despite being poor. They just had zero self control. Where they were both rich and lacking in self control, the results were absolutely abysmal. I spent a week in Sharjah two years ago, and literally every native I've met was somewhere on the scale from chubby to morbidly obese. Fattest place I've ever been to.

[Anonymous No.20770347]

>>20770241
>But there is a noble, dignified way of leaving that place if you look hard enough for it
What would that even look like?

[Anonymous No.20770351]

>hiraeth
I miss Wales fr :( England is expensive and full of pakis

[Anonymous No.20770352]

>>20770347
NTA but it's almost like faith. there's no concoction of words that will adequately let me answer that. you have to come to it on your own as opposed to being taught it

[Anonymous No.20770390]

>>20770352
I keep hoping for an external instruction but at the same time I realize that theres none. However I still hope for it to appear. Its a never ending circle of misery.

[Anonymous No.20770402]

>>20770288
Firstly it's the opposite, the older you go the better because you'll have more understanding of human relationships.
Secondly, why the actual fuck would you want to waste time and money going to film school, it is the worst possible decision you could make unless you happen to be filfthy rich. Of all the creative schools you could go to, film school is the one you can do the least with, films are expensive complicated exercises, even if you manage to work for the school after graduating so you can borrow equipment on weekends, you still need to go through all the effort of amassing the sets, the actors, writing half decent scripts that work within your limitations of time and money and somehow complete something.
Or you could do fine art, and make a sculpture by repurposing garbage or paint in pre-raphelite style.
What is wrong with you that you think film school is a good idea?
>>20770306
kek

[Anonymous No.20770441]

>>20770306
Where’s this from?

[Anonymous No.20770445]

>>20770441
>mfw he doesn't know what it's from

[Anonymous No.20770685]

>>20770328
Why do you think a keen interest can’t manifest later on and still be viable?

[Anonymous No.20770696]

>>20770402
I've always been interested in stories. Over the last few years, I’ve seen some movies that really inspired me and got me interested in film as a medium and visual aspects of it. So that’s basically where I am more or less.

[Anonymous No.20770719]

>>20770685
not that anon, but since that anon was asking about film school in particular explain to me how a keen interest in film can manifest and being able to make films ever? If you had a 14 page screenplay, three locations, two indoor (one set in a ballroom or similar communal space, the other set in a study with lots of books) one outdoor (by a thoroughfare, it's a dialogue heavy scene, 3 pages). How would you get 4 actors to commit, scout all the necessary locations, then secure the locations, get all the books needed for the study if there aren't any in there already (if not, how are you finding a study which has the right looking book collections). What will you do about the highway location to avoid picking up semi-trailers and motorbikes on the dialogue track? Will you post-dub it? Okay, so you need the actors to come in for another day, where will the dubbing stage be, are the actors available? Oh and how will you find a musician to do a score that actually helps the film?
Explain to me why a keen interest alone can solve all those logistical problems?

[Anonymous No.20770728]

>>20770719
I’m not following your question? Did you expect the logistical problems to be solved before even an interest is apparent? It sounds like you’re expecting someone to be a director before they develop an interest in directing, which doesn’t make any sense to me.

[Anonymous No.20770734]

>>20770696
I still don't understand why you would flagellate yourself like that, there's far easier ways to tell stories. Like... the written word, poetry, spoken word, racounteuring, comic books, animation - be it hand drawn, digital, 3D. Not that animation is easy, it's a very time consuming and difficult craft to master. But compared to filmmaking where you have to rely on other people it's comparatively easier.

[Anonymous No.20770748]

>>20770728
Then your answer is "no it's not viable". I'm suggesting that a keen interest is not enough to be viable, at least in the specific case of film school
> It sounds like you’re expecting someone to be a director before they develop an interest in directing
Not at all, because everything I mentioned is tasks for the producer. I made a very conscious choice of not mentioning a single logistical concern which would be the sole discretion of the director.

[Anonymous No.20770797]

This is the average bookworm. The dumbest creatures imaginable. Does reading actually make you retarded and illiterate? She didn't bother to read the few words Plato actually wrote about the subject before making a video about it.
https://youtu.be/CeHIbcw3KlE

[Anonymous No.20770831]

>>20770797
Would reading such a thing make a difference? Does Plato somehow prove it?
Don’t look at vlogs as some sort of published fact. They’re just conversations people start. Leave a comment below and she’ll either take the video down or do a follow up

[Anonymous No.20770851]

>>20768920
>Want Russia to win in hopes that the progressive West will fall and we'll revert back to a pre-1960s environment. Is it too much to wish for?

Russia is winning and it looks like the west will crack and admit it. There is no “progressive west” they revealed themselves to be fascists (and I argue that’s what the movement was from the start) and there’s certainly no turning the clock back to Rooseveltian-Eisenhower prosperity. This country will resemble Britain at this time, a steep slump that we’ll continue to go down in. What’s worse the “rightwing” will turn its ire on China next, after have shot itself in the leg it’s now going to try and shoot itself in the chest. The nationstate of the US must be wrestled to the ground

[Anonymous No.20770866]

>>20770831
>does actually taking a look at the only source on the subject matter when you try to make an authoritative video on the subject?
I don't understand how people can be this fucked in the head.
She does the thing academics do where she mindlessly defers to the "consensus" instead of even taking a peek at the actual texts where the guy explicitly says the city didn't sink.
He says the city and the people were washed away by flooding but at his time, 2500 years ago the immediate area was inaccessible by boat due to being surrounded by mud.
He describes a route through an INLAND harbor sea protected by the Pillars of Herakles. The earliest mention of those pillars is in the story of the Argonauts who place them at the entrance of lake Tritonis in Tunis, an inland harbor sea that lead to a wider water system. A water system that we now know was the largest on the planet just 6000 years ago.

[Anonymous No.20770886]

>>20770866
I didn’t look at the video. You weren’t making a very good case to do so.
Okay, so you left in the comment section “Plato never said the city sank”?

[Anonymous No.20770926]

>>20768851
Friday and Saturday was a whirlwind of death metal and thrash. Two days of music. Got drunk, hung out, saw loads of bands and was offered a joint (I declined though)

[Anonymous No.20770930]

>>20770797
Art hoe pussy

[Anonymous No.20770938]

>>20770445
>this meme is almost 10 years old
>there is an entire generation of zoomers on 4chan who don't know it
I'm getting old

[Anonymous No.20770939]

How much exactly did Jung borrow from Nietzsche?

[Anonymous No.20770949]

>>20770797
it is like a spanner, having one doesn't you a good plumber, but to become a good plumber you need one

[Anonymous No.20770976]

>>20770797
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgj0_iLRclk
why do people watch videos like these?
is it some weird fetish?

[Anonymous No.20770990]

guilty feet have got no rhythm

[Anonymous No.20771088]

>>20769456
never heard of her. looked her up on Twitter, she made me laugh. looked at a jewtube video and decided I want to put my penis in her mouth.

[Anonymous No.20771098]

>>20770734
Because this is the medium I’ve become interested in. If I was interested in comics I’d draw comics but I’m not.

>>20770748
I really don’t think you properly understood the question and I actually don’t think you know what you’re talking about either.

[Anonymous No.20771099]

>>20770976
>fetish
It’s from loneliness and to lessen the sting of isolation with simulated intimacy. Same deal as the AMSR girlfriend roleplay videos.

[Anonymous No.20771104]

>>20770797
Reading pop culture books, yeah. Pop culture is a disaster currently.

[Anonymous No.20771167]

>>20768851
I'd like to confess certain past life circumstance of mine, that in years since it ending I haven't yet been able to really express and confer with anyone meaningfully and still comes to my mind all the time. You will almost certainly find it uninteresting or even boring, frankly I'll be suprised to get any answers at all. But if you're here, you probably know that thoughts and feelings make more sense when they undergo process of being written down, so even then it will be time spent well. I will first give broad overview of circumstances in more objective terms and then try to explain the sensation of it.
Few years ago I've graduated my highschool (which was very interesting and defining period on its own, but I don't want to digress) and time has come for me to go to uni. I didn't really know what I want to do with myself. I till don't know, far as I'm concerned, so it was more momentum thing, even though back then my interest in subject matter was few magnitudes stronger. I've picked de facto second best business uni around here, and also purposefully the one furthest away from my hometown, usually about 8 hours away by train, few rare courses managed it in 4-5. I sent myself there basically completely on my own, all HS friends and cliques went to other cities.
As somewhat stereotypical not hugely social loser, I have very fast failed to make it into broader social spheres on uni. Thorough that experience I had total of one close friend I've made there, and I have kind of unceremoniously dumped him after it ended. I still feel bad. I enjoyed reasonably ok living standards, found spacious, but low standard flat entirely to my own. To keep things short, I've fast become social shut-in. Just social, because while I didn't become a fan of the city, I used to really walk a lot around it, increasingly so around late hours. I especially liked big local park/cementary. Many will jump to calling me very stereotypical and pretentious doomer, while I never identified with it or any other subculture, I guess they could be correct. In any case, my mental health fast and hard crashed down (Ironically it was time when I browsed /lit/ most and my interest in literature peaked). I would barely even have anyone to talk to, my speech has over course of months devolved to whispering mumbling, though I realize it might be hard to imagine. During that time, few times I went through what was likely mental breakdowns. That's not to say there weren't some happy moments here and there.
(1/2)

[Anonymous No.20771185]

>>20771167
To give you the short of it, all that time I was kind of looking for way out, I wagered any different options for pursuit of completely different degree. After two semesters I technically failed and fluked out, but it's hard for me to call it that since at the time I didn't want to even stay there to begin with, and my family too recognized that it wasn't good for me. I moved out from there and later on most plans I had failed. Funnily enough I am not studying broadly same thing at worse uni (frankly I miss some profs from my freshman year, at least some of them were passionate), at city I like more, that is not so prohibitively away from home, where I have had more friends. I can't say I've become gigachad, social and what not, but it's supposedly gotten better.
So what in the name of God do we need all this crap for, anon? Well, the thing is, it's hard to describe. I will sound like someone unhinged, at best. But while I live pretty much objectively better life now, more comfortable too I guess, and have gotten over a lot of negative shit I talked about. Yet I can't help but miss it. And also feel regret, defeat, even, which I guess is understandable. Months I had spent there, while not really pleasant, if not outright miserable had this weird dreamlike quality, the kind I don't experience anymore. In many ways, not just this weirdly mystical-bullshit-way I feel like I've made a mistake not sticking to it, even though it was very bad for me at the time and I think I was close to going off the deep end then (Shame I lost few verses of poetry I wrote back then). I felt more in touch with something, back then. Even now I feel like end result of this ordeal was me being somehow broken by it, but was it the experience itself that did, or was it that I ran away from it? I felt drab and sombre most of time back then, but also more intensive, emotionally? As if there was some sort of magic to that otherwise very boring and bleak freshman year of a very boring person. As said, it is hard notion to describe and master of pen and hearts I am not. Suffice to say it was not nearly the same ever since, and it is feeling so pervasive that it assaults me a lot of time, unendingly it seems.

I'm sorry if that read was trite and waste of time to whoever actually went through it.

[Anonymous No.20771187]

are we nearing the end?

[Anonymous No.20771194]

>>20771167
>>20771185
Maybe that was the time you were the closest to being you. The real breakthrough.

[Anonymous No.20771348]

>>20770186
Stop being a faggot.

[Anonymous No.20771472]

>/pol/ is vehemently anti-ukraine
>/k/ is vehemently anti-russian
what a wierd timeline

[Anonymous No.20771488]

>>20771472
Makes sense if you consider how botted /pol/ is.

[Anonymous No.20771500]

>>20768851
gf just told me she likes it when "go ape" on her. i'm much more tan than her too. unsure how, or if, i'm supposed to process this information.

[Anonymous No.20771522]

>>20771500
she likes the brutal aspect of masculinity.

[Anonymous No.20771556]

Literally never written before outside school assignments but felt sad and wrote this poem. Feel free to abuse me I'm sure it sucks
Fading into light
As they go I delight
In the warmth of the sun
I thought when the clouds depart
They'd leave rain
That you'd leave me a broken heart
I didn't want that pain
The clouds assumed grand silhouettes
The sunlight bedazzled them, and yet
Their fine figures were mere wisps
Ephemeral vapor and mist
Maybe that's all we were
I don't think we can be sure
Either of us ever cared
Now I feel the sun above beating down
It burns just a bit, but I have no frown
Why did I fear a downpour
When we were nothing to cry for?

[Anonymous No.20771569]

I am not currently banned from posting on 4chan.

[Anonymous No.20771583]

I just turned 20 and I dont know what the fuck to do with my life

[Anonymous No.20771587]

>>20771583
same but 30

[Anonymous No.20771613]

>>20770071
Baste and 'fucius-pilled

[Anonymous No.20771659]

I have never known what I wanted, never felt deeply passionate about anything, and at this point I doubt I ever will.

[Anonymous No.20771678]

Despite being a fan of post-punk I have never been able to get into The Smiths because I thought all their songs sounded the same, but now I really like them all the sudden.

[Anonymous No.20771714]

>>20770288
I’m 29 and after years of coming to grips with the death of the novel I’m interested in writing for things like video games, which are another form of media I’ve loved since childhood. How does someone like me just switch from some lame office job to writing for video games though? I don’t think you even can really. I’ve researched the backgrounds of writers like Yoko Taro and guys like that have been doing this from the beginning. Nobody makes a career switch. Only novelists do that.

[Anonymous No.20771723]

>>20771714
>coming to grips with the death
I didn't read your whole post but I also like Death Grips, what's your favorite song? It's pretty basic but I like On GP.

[Anonymous No.20771755]

I need to fix it

[Anonymous No.20771781]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holtzbrinck_Publishing_Group

Stefan Von Holtzbrinck has more than doubled his net worth since 2017.

[Anonymous No.20771861]

>/lit/ doesn't read
It's poetic, really.

[Anonymous No.20771864]

How to fix covert narcissism?

[Anonymous No.20771873]

Especially draining dreams last night. Dreamt of an old friend/love interest l havent seen in a decade

[Anonymous No.20771884]

>>20771864
you don't
you simply get better at hiding it in public and force your loved ones to cope with it

[Anonymous No.20771907]

>>20771864
Become a hermit. I'm the best hermit. All the demons are my bitches.
If you knew how great I am you would beg to be my slave and I would refuse, you're not worthy.

[Anonymous No.20771910]

>>20771873
also l slept naked and had a massive hard on which invaded the dream world

[Anonymous No.20771930]

>>20771884
well, shit. I wish I could reap the benefit of being classic narcissist.

[Anonymous No.20771932]

>>20771864
I'm going to die alone or marry a woman with 2 children in my 40s.

[Anonymous No.20771943]

I hate all the politicking at work. I don’t care about this at all and somehow I’ve been tapped for promotion after promotion simply because I stay while everyone else moves on or is new. Now I have to fight for salary? You guys already way underpay me the way it is. You’ll never reach what is fair.

[Anonymous No.20771957]

GAY PENIS RAPE SEX BITCH BENCHOD BLOODY BASTARD DICK CUM
NIGGER RETARD PISS SHIT ASS WOG
JAP NIP GOOK CHINK

FUCK.

[Anonymous No.20771975]

>>20771930
I think the real trick is to not demonize any part of you. It's supposed to serve a purpose. It's easier to discipline the negative sides and be able to deploy them when appropriate instead of suppressing them completely. When it doesn't surface as much in unwanted behavior it's not a clinical issue anymore.
You have a superpower just like in Harry Potter and the avengers of the lost goblet and with large spiders come dead uncles.

[Anonymous No.20771987]

>>20771930
a covert narcissist is just a more aware person who still gives a shit about other people
try to think less while doing shit and try more to go with the flow and your brain will handle the rest
>>20771957
what's the issue brother ?

[Anonymous No.20772027]

>>20771975
>suppressing
isnt narcissism just a unhealthy act of balancing out the personality?
>>20771987
>try to think less while doing shit and try more to go with the flow
I cant do either of this. I care about other people opinion too much to go with the flow.

[Anonymous No.20772086]

My favorite writers are all passionate and flawed people with vices, but I’m…not.

[Anonymous No.20772139]

>>20772027
>isnt narcissism just a unhealthy act of balancing out the personality?
Not sure about strict definitions of these things or how useful they are at all. I'm just relating my experience with manipulative behavior. I noticed at one point how easily I manipulated people unconsciously and how I could always frame everything to my benefit like a propagandist or salesman.
I didn't judge it at first but over time after becoming aware of it I noticed the problems it causes and the false sense of self-righteousness. Because I'm more aware about framing/perspective I don't catch myself accidentally being self serving as often. It's an automatic process for an animal trying to promote its interests, so just be more aware and don't let automatic processes control everything, don't ignore them either.

[Anonymous No.20772166]

I've got 400 books ideas and snippets (which are cringe) on a notebook. I still can't write.
Last story I had in mind was about an enlisted young man who receives a gift from a superior (a cellphone) and realizes he can send messages to himself to the past. It wasn't really inspired by Mirai Nikki, I just like the concept and applying untold rules to make it more interesting. I envisioned the main character testing out the capabilities of the phone and making more and more hypotheses before trusting the device with his life. For example, if you send multiple messages in a row, only the first one is actually sent through time, and all the others you will send for the day won't time-travel. Sending a message to your past self doesn't always change your current circumstances, you could send a message and suddenly find yourself in the bathroom, naked, or you could send a message and nothing happened because your past self decided to ignore your advices. Using another sim card will nullify the power of the device, so you can't just change chips and call it a day, etc. I like rules.

Anyways, I'm rambling. I liked the idea and wanted to share, I guess. pic related is an OC ad and cringe I'm perfectly aware of how cringe it is but it kind of sets the mood of what I was envisioning when imagining the story.

[Anonymous No.20772179]

>>20772166
All of this to say... Does anyone knows a board where you can share writing ideas?

[Anonymous No.20772192]

>>20772139
Were you good at making excuses? I have hard time being direct because I keep expecting punishment.

[Anonymous No.20772226]

>>20772192
>Were you good at making excuses?
Yes it's framing. I didn't do anything wrong in my frame of reference. I did everything right, I was just unlucky in that case etc. If you hadn't found out nobody would have been hurt.
If you're afraid of punishment go get punished. It's not that bad.

[Anonymous No.20772228]

Interracial sex is the perfect example of Hegelian dialectics. We are all prisoners of dialectics, marching forward, fusing, merging, forming into the absolute. What was separated will be be reunified.

[Anonymous No.20772256]

>>20771194
It might have been, but what could that mean? It was absolute trainwreck even for already lonely and not very functional kind of person. Maybe it's just nostalgia playing tricks on me. Or that part of us that will always regret choices we have not made, be they as they may. It's weird to remember. It's weird for these memories to keep coming back like foaming waves.

[Anonymous No.20772325]

Makes no sense to me why a society which has adopted a materialistic/atheistic view of the world (even implicitly), would be so obsessed with the idea of human 'happiness', or the idea of 'not being depressed'.
Why would a universe that was a mere accident and spurted out of nothing, produce beings whose goal should be happiness? Why not feeling neutral or even unhappy?
What, the workings of evolution are somehow compelled to create beings that are happy? For what purpose? Wolves or say, bears, evolved, procreated and hunted just fine without feeling anything in particular at all.

[Anonymous No.20772345]

>>20772226
Did you ever get good at controlling narcissism?

[Anonymous No.20772369]

This is a message to anon.

Thank you for consistently summoning the discipline, courage, and fortitude to live prudently, against the pull of instant gratification and easy entertainment, not to mention pointless, egotistical feelings of resentment and vengefulness directed at your fellow man, which were previously pulling you to your ruin. Because you got your priorities figured out and consistently put them into practice, considering the needs of the present and the future equally, life has become fulfilling. Far from dreading the passage of time as you used to, you look forward to what lies ahead and are enriched with age.

A large part of this was learning to rejoice in whatever water you had in your glass, instead of fretting about how there could be more or how others have more. Your glass has always been half full, and you often recalled the advantages you take for granted that many wish for.

Perfection is a lot of little things done well, and this is as true in the conduct of one’s life as it is in art. The practice of wisdom, which you defined in your own way, is full time work.

Instead of merely planning to make the right compromises and failing to follow through over and over again, you started to consistently practice them. It took a while to become satisfied with your life, but you knew the harder you worked on these fruitful pursuits the sooner the time would arrive. You defined these pursuits as those which allow you to generate value for yourself and others in equal measure, making it easier to love yourself, to love others, and be loved by others. You remembered that it’s a constant struggle not to slip back into degrading habits. You also remembered that your life a decade from now will be just as vital as your life in the present, that soon enough your current concerns will be a distant memory, and that the minor rejections, embarrassments and failures of the present will mean very little. Thanks for having the courage to make them. The alternative would have been hiding away from opportunity and hindering your own development.

[Anonymous No.20772467]

>>20772369
i-i-it's literally me and what I wish to become

[Anonymous No.20772474]

>>20772467
It's very difficult to start.
Find solace in convincing yourself that you will get used to it.

[Anonymous No.20772557]

>>20772345
In the context of manipulating others in this harmful way. Like I said it just slowly became better when I became aware of it.
A strong ego isn't the same thing at all, it's definitely not something to be made into a clinical thing. You can be in a meditative state watching your own ego banging its chest like a monkey and find it amusing even though you're it. A strong ego tends to try to take control and do these things I talk about like dishonest framing but you don't have to let it. This implies a conflict but that's also not healthy, the ego should get credit for things like when you overcome the ego in the slightest way.

[Anonymous No.20772569]

>>20771583
>>20771587
same, but 24

[Anonymous No.20772585]

>>20768851
I've come to the conclusion that I'm literally retarded, I have no skills and graduated school with no grades.

Thinking about changing my name and retraining in something, total rebirth is required.

[Anonymous No.20772773]

Insecurity regarding my like for Japanese media. Over the last 10 years or so Japanese stuff has just felt like an oasis of creativity while Western stuff has dried up.

[Anonymous No.20772781]

>>20771583
Never will. My advice is to pick something you think might be worth it and give it your all until it’s clear that it’s not worth i5. Then you move on to next thing, until you find the thing to stick with. Don’t waste time.

[Anonymous No.20772857]

>>20771583
Become powerful. Having money or a strong position in a company isn't real power, it's borrowed. Understanding and competence translate to real power. Tomorrow may be completely different than today but if you're competent you'll figure it out.

[Anonymous No.20772946]

>>20768851
big ole titties.

[Anonymous No.20772952]

Bros, I've been thinking lately, you know... like everyone does.. yeah.. sometimes... so I've been thinking It'll all come out okay, like... It'll be fine. It'll be alright, you know... with a few downs to balance out the ups, but it'll all be well. Will play out nicely in the end.

[Anonymous No.20772998]

>>20769094
Words words words

[Anonymous No.20773165]

>>20772998
This is a literature board retard

[Anonymous No.20773246]

>>20773165
Didn't read

[Anonymous No.20773290]

the only thing worse than being insulted is being outright ignored

[Anonymous No.20773328]

If you're trying to balance consider earthquakes.
I have to account for them now.
The earthquake accountants send me important messages.
"Warning. You're in an earthquake right now reading a text message".

[Anonymous No.20773349]

Got gas for my mom's car today and saw my first Biden gas sticker (like pic related but I just got that as an example from the post after searching it) and it made me realize just how stupid Americans are. I include myself in this too, of course. The propaganda of blaming X or Y, despite them just being figures of manipulation for corporations, is so disgustingly effective. The weird, partisan tribalism between Democrats and Republicans is just as stupid as for professional sports teams that have players from all over the US, but then have the [State] team logo. They're all the same. Overpaid athletes who play a game. Democrats and Republicans are the same party, just with different advertising towards their respective constituents.

I'm genuinely glad America is in its death throes. I'm sure I won't say that as our collapse gets worse and worse, but I am enjoying it right now.

[Anonymous No.20773366]

I realized today what I really meant when I said "I've invested too much of myself into my novel". I've begun to consider the unfinished manuscript a sort of textual manifestation of my soul.

Why did I tell myself I'd rather die than abandon this novel? Because in my mind the book and myself are one and the same. Why do I struggle to complete my story? The same reason I struggle to improve as a person

[Anonymous No.20773484]

life pro tip you can increase the effectiveness of zzzquil by drinking a couple beers

[Anonymous No.20773502]

I feel like I'm getting dumber

[Anonymous No.20773514]

I'm tired of everything, nothing makes any sense
I just want to rest

[Anonymous No.20773526]

i didn't notice til looking back just now but my life has changed a lot over the last 3 months, after years of almost nothing.

[Anonymous No.20773537]

>>20773290
i love being ignored, i wish i was ignored more

[Anonymous No.20773561]

I have no idea about the purpose of my life

[Anonymous No.20773564]

>be me
>friend tells me there's this party of a guy we both know
>first time i hear this
>"oh, you're not in the chatgroup, anon. of course you don't know. don't worry, you'll be my +1! shit starts at 6pm at this location"
>be old fuck and sleep whole afternoon because life is too much
>take a shower at 6 pm and slowly get ready
>i will arrive late like the cool kids
>gonna buy some beers for the way, location is a lot farther than i anticipated
>will be on my third beer when i arrive, those boys go hard on the liquor and i will fit right in
>go outside it's a thousand degrees
>why did i do this
>sweat like a pig, all deodorant gets washed away instantly by torrents of sweat
>finish my first beer like a minute into my walk
>quarter to 7 now, i know the adress is something street 85
>look on my left, the house says 31
>fuck.bmp
>walk another 20 minutes and sweat up a storm
>i can smell myself and am on my third beer
>finally see the balloons
>i hear nothing, i see no one
>approach the gate of the small garden
>people are still setting up everything
>sweaty, reeking of beer oldfag shows up like "i-is this an-anon's party?"
>it's just close friends of the birthday kid and relatives
>"oh hi, and you are?"
>i just want to die
>set myself up in the smoking area not talking to anybody
>friend who invited me arrives two hours late at 8:30, actual start of the party was 7pm
>soak up awkwardness like a sponge the whole time
>mfw

[Anonymous No.20773565]

He's happy :)

[Anonymous No.20773567]

>>20773537
She just wants to be close to you. She's already looking at you, wishing you acknowledge her even a little bit. You're so funny, everything you say is hilarious. She never knew someone like you existed.
The phone makes a noise but you have things to do, internet posts to write.

[Anonymous No.20773572]

How am I going to fix my goddamn life?

[Anonymous No.20773574]

I'M GOING OFF THE RAILS ON A CRAZY TRAIN

[Anonymous No.20773578]

>>20769094
>I believe racism, or "racist" notions such as nationalism, to be the result of evolution favoring in-group preferences.
No shit? Holy fuck my sides.

[Anonymous No.20773609]

>>20769109
>>20769390
>>20770312
>>20772998
>>20773578
t. upset midwits
Effortposts always get shit on by brainlets who will never come to an original conclusion in their lives.

[Anonymous No.20773618]

>>20770328
>>20771714
>Nobody makes a career switch.
Bullshit blackpill. Do you actually think that? The world is some kind of caste system where when you get a bachelor's degree it's stamped on your forehead and you are legally forbidden from working in a different field?
My MS degree isn't even in the same field as my BS degree.
Do you really think that producers are looking at filmmakers and saying "well he makes great films but he didn't spend his 21st year correctly, sorry chap". Yeah they probably are because Hollywood is horrible but you can reach great success elsewhere these days including indie.
>>20770306
This is the right answer though. If anything, getting a degree in a creative field will pigeonhole you and stifle your creativity. The system is fucking geriatric.

[Anonymous No.20773622]

These threads are always the same old. Don't you all ever get tired of being sad :( all the time?

[Anonymous No.20773624]

>>20773609
Kek I would have trouble defining racism WITHOUT mentioning ingroups. It's a really really basic concept.

[Anonymous No.20773628]

>>20773609
effortposts are almost without fail utter crap and that post was no exception.

[Anonymous No.20773630]

>>20773622
You will never understand the twisted mind of a gamer.

[Anonymous No.20773640]

>>20773624
What's wrong with simply providing a definition when it comes to discussing a concept? Deliberately refusing to give a clear definition is kike behavior, they try to make you slip up by changing definitions and whatnot. "Oh we weren't discussing that kind of racism, goyim". Anon is just being intellectually honest by providing clarification.

[Anonymous No.20773641]

>>20773624
dude the idea that races developed out of "ingroups" is so stupid i'm pretty sure you've never read a book.

[Anonymous No.20773652]

>>20773640
He was acting like it was a revelation, I apologize to anon if he was just setting definitions.
>>20773641
I never said that races developed from ingroups, I'm pretty sure you've never read a post (correctly).

[Anonymous No.20773654]

>>20768851
18 first gf
20 panic disorder starts, break up
24 finally learn how to cope with my condition and regain mental stability
26 have a few gf's but no sex, covid starts and i isolate myself due to my own unassertiveness
Tfw 28 haven't had sex in 8 years, no career, no money, socially inept, still haven't learn how to engage with women

I want to turn everything around but i don't know where to start

[Anonymous No.20773661]

>>20773567
bit too on the nose

[Anonymous No.20773674]

>>20773661
She's on your nose, licking your face.
You can barely reach the keyboard with your hulking physique and her constant attention but you have internet posts to write.

[Anonymous No.20773714]

I stopped drinking alcohol about 10 days ago and I feel great. I haven't felt this way in years. I will never drink again.

[Anonymous No.20773716]

>>20773349

[Anonymous No.20773724]

"fred again.." is pretty decent but there's just something slightly cringe about him i can' quite place it. like when i watch this even if i'm into the mix, i just don't like him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0-hvjV2A5Y

[Anonymous No.20773732]

>>20773349
>implying pushing up the price of oil wasn't all a scheme to strengthen the dollar
americans can be very sneaky

[Anonymous No.20773777]

>>20773724
lol this is very 'chatting when pilled up in the smoking area' talk

[Anonymous No.20773783]

>>20773674
keep going

[Anonymous No.20773795]

it's amazing how much of an effect the smell of your environment has on you. my jordan perterson advice for everyone is buy candles

[Anonymous No.20773936]

I wish Hoshimachi Suisei was real and I wish she was my girlfriend.

[Anonymous No.20773950]

>>20771098
>Because this is the medium I’ve become interested in.
I'm interested in the Miranda Kerr, but I'm not going to dedicate 3 years of my life to the preposterously slim chance she might settle for me.
Don't go to film school unless you have connections (to financing more than creatives), a sugar daddy, or are independently wealthy

[Anonymous No.20773960]

>>20773783
I'm a critically acclaimed internet poster. You may know my work such as frog_racial_slurs.bmp
You said to her and winked. Her knees shaking she reached into her pocket and pulled out a handful of spaghetti.
Tears in her eyes she offered you the cold spaghetti with remnants of dried out tomato sauce, there was no turning back for her, she was committed to it.
You put on your sunglasses and looked out the window at the raging inferno that would soon consume you both. Fate is a fickle mistress that allows no place for spaghetti in your future, you have internet posts to write.

[Anonymous No.20773968]

>>20771864
Make it overt
>>20771755
Have you decided how?
>>20772946
based mind
>>20773246
that's a you problem
>>20773290
sorry, what?
But yes, this is profoundly true. At least if you're insulted and it's justified, you have feedback so that you can fix what's wrong. Being ignored fills me with uncertainty. Like I'm so wrong that what I'm doing doesn't even register as being wrong.

[Anonymous No.20773969]

bald man loses last additional bit of hair he didn't even know he still had

[Anonymous No.20773989]

>>20768851
first draft of my love letter to manic pixie dream girls hope u like it

https://vocaroo.com/15Kwxfk2gu6z

[Anonymous No.20774013]

Met an old friend of mine. 5 years ago he decides to walk all over the continent like a hitchhiker. He came back some months ago, and he is completely insane. It's like drugs have rotten his brain. He's distant and incoherent, unable to hold a train of thought for too long. I've always wondered what made him go away like that and today I finally discovered. I went to his house for the first time and met his mother. She is a literal whore. Her house is designed so that she can agency some girls. My friend was drifting away while I talked to her. She told me about prices and services while her son was by her side. He told her that he's going out again in a couple of days and the whore started to bitch about how she provides everything for him and he keeps running from home. My friend just ignored and stared at her with a retarded smile and she started to cry. She hugged him and preached some shit about Jesus and family. He didn't seem to get it but hugged her back. After she left he said that his life was miserable since he was 13, when he discovered. He was drinking all day, but he poured us a glass of water and followed me outside. Before I went he gave me a diary with things he wrote during those 5 years around latin america. I took a glance and it seems mostly ramblings in Spanish, but there were some cool verses like "don't let lies be your throne". I feel for him and I hope he finds whatever he needs.

[Anonymous No.20774047]

>>20774013
That's tragic man. Hope he has the chance to heal from all that. Gonna call my mom tonight.

[Anonymous No.20774075]

>>20773567
Nobody gets to be close to me.

[Anonymous No.20774083]

>>20773969
lol

[Anonymous No.20774094]

>>20774013
made up

[Anonymous No.20774118]

>>20773960
>this is a continuation of the above post by OpenAI
The woman looked at you with a hurt expression and slowly backed away, the pasta still held out in front of her. You turned your back on her and looked out the window at the burning building, your mind already occupied with your next post.

You didn't hear the woman leave, but you didn't care. You had more important things to worry about than some spaghetti-loving woman.

You sat down at your computer and began to type.

It was another day, and I was sitting at my computer, mindlessly scrolling through the internet. I came across a post that caught my eye. It was a picture of a frog with a racial slur written across it.

I thought to myself, "That's not right. That's not funny."

I decided to write a response to the post, and that's how it all began.

[Anonymous No.20774124]

John, I'm only dancing
She turns me on
But I'm only dancing
She turns me on
But don't get me wrong
I'm only dancing

[Anonymous No.20774159]

It is better to end something too soon than it is to end it too late.

[Anonymous No.20774161]

>>20774159
eh, it depends

[Anonymous No.20774162]

>me me me the thread

[Anonymous No.20774167]

>>20774162
True. It seems like people always either want to talk about themselves or they want to talk about other people. It's rude to do either.

[Anonymous No.20774169]

>>20773989
bro u sound like Kurt Cobain

[Anonymous No.20774170]

>>20774162
No me, not you.

[Anonymous No.20774178]

>>20774161
I cannot think of something which is better ended too late.
>Careers
>Media (books, films)
>Relationships
>Life itself
All are better ended too soon than too late.

[Anonymous No.20774181]

>>20774178
>end your career too early
>have not enough money for retirement
>end your career too late
>have too much money for retirement
One is clearly worse than the other.

[Anonymous No.20774191]

I swear anons single out my posts for negativity. I don't mind the hostile nature of anonymity but it makes me wonder why I even bother with this place if anons somehow always know its me making posts but I can't tell when they are making posts. I don't use a tripcode, I have 4chanX randomize my filename, and I don't have a distinctive style from what I can tell. Is this all just by chance?

[Anonymous No.20774197]

>Sometimes I go about in pity for myself, and all the while, a great wind carries me across the sky
what does this tv saying even mean

[Anonymous No.20774199]

>>20774197
they mean that THE WIND IS PUSHING ME
INTO THE CLOUDS AGAIN
I FEEL THE BLOOD IN MY VEINS
TIME IS RUNNING FREE
I FEEL LIKE LETTING GO
JUST LIKE THE DANGAN

[Anonymous No.20774204]

>>20774181
career going on for late means not enough money was made in this case either

[Anonymous No.20774205]

>>20774204
Better to work a bit more for enough money than to work less for not enough money.

[Anonymous No.20774207]

The clamtrap all balmy for tree steel and three pints of balmy.
A hickory stick placed needley between the rapidaciously fluttering yearning of two lost souls begging for communion.
Every second lost was another gained in some counterfactual equilibrating cost exchange ponzie scheme with no winners and all losers.
Disdainable daffodils drolloped down dos flights of stairs straight to starlight.
It was all digital symbols in the mind of God, substantial thoughts but not physically occupying any space. Command prompts and scripts that can never rewrite history.

[Anonymous No.20774210]

>>20774191
>I have 4chanX randomize my filename
You can do that? I have literally been changing filenames manually

[Anonymous No.20774237]

>>20774199
esplain

[Anonymous No.20774241]

>>20774237
There's nothing to explain, the phrase "a great wind carries me across the sky" just reminded me of those song lyrics from the original Dragon's Dogma title theme.

[Anonymous No.20774430]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37kSWAIfLkM

I love this song but I feel the lyrics are the words of some woman to her abusive husband

[Anonymous No.20774501]

There's so much fucked up shit on the internet, and I'm ashamed to say that I have partaken in even a minor fraction of such. If given the opportunity I would delete any record of my existence on the internet and never touch it again.

[Anonymous No.20774520]

>>20774501
It's just not fucking fair that the government and my ISP have a log of everything I've ever done on the internet. Would they even bother to discern what was done out of curiosity, irony, stupidity, and sincerity? Everyday I regret using technology as anything more than just a tool.

[Anonymous No.20774535]

>>20773564
Simply perform this feat of strength every day (sans the awkward party and beer) and you will lose weight in no time.

[Anonymous No.20774585]

I'm probably a lot less meek and pathetic than I think I am, seeing as how some people have actually taken me seriously at various points in time. I hope I don't get into a habit of successfully intimidating people. My belief was that I was always the "you won't do shit" guy, but some of my friends have cut off contact with me because they seem to think I'm dangerous. It's not like I threatened them or anything, but maybe they just don't want to be associated with me.

[Anonymous No.20774605]

>>20774585
damn this guy fucks

[Anonymous No.20774614]

>>20774605
I'm serious. I'm shy and skinny was pushed around a lot as a kid. Pretending to be a tough guy was an act of self-aware post-irony that was supposed to be funny because of the contrast. I had no idea that people would actually be afraid of a virgin with so much social anxiety he can't even get groceries. Maybe they thought I was a shooter or something, but I can't even imagine myself being taken seriously if I tried to buy a gun, I look like I could barely hold one. Do I give off psycho vibes or something?

[Anonymous No.20774850]

has modernity/capitalism made people lonely or has it made lonely people?

[Anonymous No.20774871]

>be me
>slightly flirtatious-like with the drummer girl of our band
>she gifts me this cool calendar for xmas, with texts jokes and puzzles on each page
>pages are black
>turns out she scribbled secret messages on each page with an empty pen, so you can only see it if you shine a light on it a certain angle (it's glossy and shit)

>suddenly remember that one threadshot about anon who missed a message from a tomboy who had a crush on him, for 10 years

>study all pages rigorously
>discover all the messages
>none of them imply anything remotely romantic

Hmmmm. Drat.

[Anonymous No.20774879]

>>20774850
The problem is cities. Specifically geographical intensities of economy, labour, and education.

[Anonymous No.20774884]

>>20774879
that doesn't answer the question though

[Anonymous No.20774910]

>>20768894
You go to the therapist.

[Anonymous No.20775037]

>>20774871
You miss 100% of the shots you don't take, the point is that you did read all the messages. Next time maybe a girl will be hinting something at you.

[Anonymous No.20775427]

I feel so bad and angry towards myself because I fail to implement relatively simple and positive themes which I read in the books (for example enjoy the present moment and love other people for who they are).

[Anonymous No.20775429]

What a dumb word. Romanticism already exists and is the same word without the misinterpretation of nostalgia.

[Anonymous No.20775487]

S*x is disgusting. You walk around smelling like p*ssy and you can't wash it off

[Anonymous No.20775496]

>>20772325
Good observation.
Maybe they give importance to happiness, because:
1) capitalism in some way or another has the same behavior as a sect.
2) the person happy/motivated by some abstract idea, produces more and is more efficient and at the same time agrees with the dominant abstract idea
3) the problem itself is not depression, but producing less and being less motivated with the dominant abstract idea.
4) Depression leads to see things without the capitalist makeup and do anticapitalist things like not doing nothing.

[Anonymous No.20775517]

>>20775496
following with this; therefore, they give importance to happiness because they are not interested in the human being itself, but rather they are interested in the fact that said human being can defend and sustain through their actions, will and thoughts said dominant ideology.

[Anonymous No.20775534]

>storbing lights when I close my eyes
>depersonalization
>observed artifacts in my vision seem more erratic than usual
>... perceived proportionality doesn't seem as warped
I just need to think more positively

[Anonymous No.20775564]

>>20775496
Absolutely deranged on every level.

[Anonymous No.20775568]

>>20775496
>capitalism in some way or another has the same behavior as a sect.
Capitalism isn't a person, it doesn't have "behavior."
Grow up.

[Anonymous No.20775570]

>>20775534
Do you feel like a prisoner yet?

[Anonymous No.20775576]

>>20775570
No, I generally feel more stable than I was a year ago. but it's still deeply concerning

[Anonymous No.20775586]

>>20775534
You can tune into anything including noise. By obsessing about a worry you can be conditioning the very thing you're worrying about.

[Anonymous No.20775589]

I will never believe or disbelieve in God on the basis of dialectics, and there will never be an argument good enough to demonstrably prove him to be existent or nonexistent. The struggle of the mind vs the divine mind is that a finite, material brain could never even being to fathom the mind of a being infinitely grander in every scope.

The only option is to believe, not to know. For all intents and purposes, to know would be to undeniably possess the truth of whether God exists or not, and no one can claim this if they are intellectually honest. In the end it must come down to Kierkegaardian a leap of faith. Many have made cogent and detailed arguments both for God's existence or his lack thereof, yet dialectics always guarantees that there will always be a complementary argument on the other side one day that will poke a hole in that very same argument.

Faith, then, is like intellectual skydiving, in that you must only trust that your parachute will work as you plummet towards the earth. The parachute may have been tested and refined countless times before that plane took off, but ultimately the only time it really matters as to whether or not the parachute works is when you're using it.

[Anonymous No.20775624]

I give up, nothing is worth the effort

[Anonymous No.20775703]

>>20774850
The former, but following close the latter. The system of schooling got worse and dumbed people down. The baby boomer generation started to lack critical thinking skills and responsibility, their kids lost their rhetorical skills, their kids can’t think logically and are losing their will to live. The trace amounts of poison in our low nutrient monoculture food crops further degrade us, and many have gotten to the point were they don’t even want to fight back. Children of alcoholics, they actually defend their kidnappers

[Anonymous No.20775704]

Plato when not specified, the translation in Hackett's complete works is adequate Lysis: Bolotin Protagoras: Bartlett Meno: Bartlett Gorgias: Nichols Phaedrus: Nichols Symposium: Benardete Republic: Bloom, alternatively Griffith or Grube Phaedo: Kalkavage Parmenides: Hermann & Chrysakopoulou Theaetetus: Benardete Sophist: Benardete Statesman: Benardete Philebus: Benardete Timaeus: Cornford or Kalkavage Laws: Pangle Aristotle when not specified, the translation in Princeton's complete works is adequate, though I haven't researched these translations very thoroughly so there may be better translations for some works that I'm not aware of Ethics: Bartlett Politics: Lord Poetics: Benardete Categories & On Interpretation: Telford Physics: Sachs or Apostle* Metaphysics: Sachs or Apostle* Plotinus The definitive English edition of The Enneads is the one edited by Gerson, if for whatever reason you want individual translations get the ones published by Parmenides Press. *Sachs provides an unorthodox translation by forgoing traditional translations of terms (eg. substance for ousia) and instead attempts a more philologically minded approach following Heidegger and Klein, which results sometimes in confusion but generally presents an immediately present understanding of these terms. Apostle presents instead the familiar terminology in a strict manner, always using the same word from his glossery for a word in Greek, with the result that occasionally he must use the same word with different meanings and simply italicizes the word and it is up to you to keep in mind the different meanings (eg. actuality and actuality translate two different words). Choose which seems best for your purposes.

[Anonymous No.20775980]

Anyone on /lit/ that makes their life depending on the external world and complains that their life is shit is a retard that didn't realize yet that it's all up to your own mind.

[Anonymous No.20775998]

>>20775980
>bro just fix mental illness xD

[Anonymous No.20776039]

>>20775998
its literally that easy. just stop being a dumb homo.

[Anonymous No.20776149]

I fucked up agaom, it was a constant feeling throughout my life, as if I was made a handicapped idiot who is incapable of doing something right
perhaps that's the truth, some people were born not to be happy, but to ruin everything and dwell in guilt until they are pressured by their own catastrophy to hang from the ceiling, to fall deep into hell, to pay again for all eternity
I wonder what is the purpose of all of this

[Anonymous No.20776163]

I wish things were simple and straightfoward, but nothing is
we are surrounded by chaos and doubts, force-feeding us fears and anxieties, there is no escape, no way out

[Anonymous No.20776216]

Trying to have a conversation on /lit/ is a lot like talking on the phone with customer service. The person you're talking with is invariably Indian and the conversations are about as fruitful.

[Anonymous No.20776238]

I live inside of a pipe dream.

[Anonymous No.20776242]

That's it fuck it. I'm going monk mode and dedicating myself to reading and learning as much as I can for the rest of the year. I've been slacking and wasting too much time reading stupid shitpost on 4chan and watching useless videos on Youtube.

God, imagine how godly we can become if we just did what we are supposed to do. An endless wealth of knowledge lies before me as well as an endless amount of support. The human race is really quite angelic. So many learned men are trying to help me, and I close my eyes and ears and refuse to acknowledge them. Wasted so much time.

[Anonymous No.20776253]

I'm primarily studying STEM field but I do try to read some literature on the side. I've been having trouble focusing for a couple of months now be it lit or my studies. Any tips on how I can get out of this slump?

[Anonymous No.20776286]

>>20772369
stfu retard, none of this is real

[Anonymous No.20776294]

>>20770186
halfwit creative elitism
cope and seethe about it
hierarchy of things; it's over ->kys

[Anonymous No.20776350]

I've been everywhere, man.

[Anonymous No.20776353]

I'm addicted buying clothing off of ebay with very specific logos on it, like denim jackets with "South Philadelphia Darts Society 1986" and shit like that.

[Anonymous No.20776481]

>>20776242
>I've been slacking and wasting too much time reading stupid shitpost on 4chan and watching useless videos on Youtube.
literally me.

[Anonymous No.20776537]

Do you think pop culture has had a negative impact on writers?

I’ve noticed that pomo writers who are influenced by pop culture come across as kitsch to me.

[Anonymous No.20776560]

>>20776537
porn is kitsch

[Anonymous No.20776580]

>>20776560
I agree.

[Anonymous No.20776650]

>>20776537
I feel sort of caught between classic literature and modern pop multimedia. On one hand, classic literature nourishes the soul like nothing else. But on the other hand, it is somehow tainted by an era of pop media. There are things that have come out of pop media in the last 30 years which are far interesting and I think closely held to people than any book published in that time. Neon Genesis Evangelion is held more closely by even thinking people I think than any novel written since the 1980s. It really does seem to me that our time is just a time of pop media necessarily and it’s really hard to disabuse myself of this idea.

[Anonymous No.20776702]

>>20768851
After having sex, even with a condom, and even after washing down there really good, for days on end my dick smells like pussy.
Is this a thing with everyone?
Have pussy microbes made my dick their new home? (it doesn't itch or have anything out of the ordinary but sweet, sweet pussy aroma)
Is there any science on this?

[Anonymous No.20776834]

God is everything that we don't know.

[Anonymous No.20776929]

>>20769655
nigger it was literally 104 in britbong land for the first time in recorded history.

[Anonymous No.20776940]

>>20776929
Thats nothing. Britshits are weak.

[Anonymous No.20776950]

>>20776940
Yeah because it's not supposed to get that fucking hot there.

[Anonymous No.20776970]

>>20776702
Having sex with a condom is the smelliest shit you can do short of blowing out a bitches anus. How do you not know tha you reek of sweat and pussy after a fucking session. Incels stay exposing xirselves

[Anonymous No.20776994]

I DOES NOT EXIST
AN EMPTY SIGNIFIER
WHAT MADE THIS HAIKU?

[Anonymous No.20777025]

going back to the DMV today
last time it only took 20 minutes, today it should be even faster
anybody else remember spending 5 hours at the DMV not even a decade ago?
spending hours at the DMV was so universal that it was hackneyed, low-brow social commentary on par with how bad airplane food is
we've lost something

[Anonymous No.20777111]

Captain, oh my captain.
I was at work the other day when this phrase came to mind, and despite my best efforts I'm unable to place it.
I'm quite convinced it's form some piece of literature, possibly a lesbian fan fiction I've found years ago in whatever hole and devoured in no more than 90 minutes, but try as I might I can't remember where that's from.
I went on with my work day, and I said the phrase numerous times, albeit with variations.
Captain, my captain.
Captain, yes captain!
Captain.
And it keeps piling up this feelings, but I really can't remember where that is from.

[Anonymous No.20777203]

>>20777111
nice numbers

[Anonymous No.20777337]

Dreamed about her AGAIN

[Anonymous No.20777475]

>>20777337
jerk off

[Anonymous No.20777480]

Free will does not exist. The Self does not exist. This information is liberating, not depressing.

[Anonymous No.20777484]

>>20774850
it has made people lonely, but at the same time gave them means to pretend they aren't lonely (entertainment and social media)

[Anonymous No.20777534]

l'm so bored all the damn time

[Anonymous No.20777542]

>>20777534
cos you're on lit

[Anonymous No.20777590]

I hate myself

[Anonymous No.20777597]

>>20777590
when did this start?

[Anonymous No.20777600]

>>20777534
Develop a real interest in something objectively important

I get up every day excited and go to bed every night annoyed there isn't more time in the day

[Anonymous No.20777605]

>>20777600
sounds unbearable

[Anonymous No.20777609]

>>20777597
it is a lifelong endeavor

[Anonymous No.20777912]

The year is 2100, the internet is dead not by a mega corporation overreaching its power, not by a paranoid schizophrenic, psychopathic totalitarian state, not by the zeitgeist of the time, but by music. Every single sentence ever uttered was the name of a band or a song, every primal screaming of uttermost terror to the most gentle moan were shallow by that beast of evil that by the light of celebrities long dead continues to elude it; they could never reach it, and their hubris only hurt what was once a good convenience.

[Anonymous No.20777975]

Yesterday, she told me she was only still working here because of me. But she comes from money. I'm pretty sure if she knew where I came from, she'd forget about me.

[Anonymous No.20778051]

>>20777975
you've got to put yourself at risk to win the prize

[Anonymous No.20778099]

>>20775534
I went through a period of intense paranoia about my vision a few years ago which your experience sounds quite similar to. I was obsessed with floaters and artifacts in my vision, and was constantly aware of the doubling effect created by the two eyes having different perspectives on any object and became unable to see any object as unitary. Also very freaked out by some of the stuff than can happen to the eye in the dark. I was convinced I was going blind. This was all during a period when I was strongly depersonalized. Thankfully I see pretty much normally now.
Other anon is right that you’re creating the problem by obsessing about it in a negative feedback loop. It’s hard to break such obsessive thought patterns but definitely posssible. I would also recommend getting into Stan Brakhage films and reading Meaphors on Vision.

[Anonymous No.20778172]

>>20777534
>>20777590
Samefag - physician, heal thyself (metaphorically)

[Anonymous No.20778176]

this sounds cringe but it's actually true if you fix one thing you fix everything. if you lose weight you'll buy nicer clothes then you'll get a chest of drawers then you'll redecorate your room then you'll invite a girl back.

[Anonymous No.20778186]

>>20778176
I'm beginning to experience this myself. Lost a bunch of weight, then started paying closer attention to my wardrobe, and now I've got 3 girls asking me for dates when I previously had none for years.

[Anonymous No.20778241]

>>20776537
>>20776650
Have you guys ever read anime reviews on My Anime List? Very pretensions, high effort, mini-essays for retarded anime trying to give them an air of sophistication.

Absolutely the forerunner of the video essay plague.

[Anonymous No.20778367]

>>20778186
it's really something.
only i'm a bit worried about my ego

[Anonymous No.20778371]

>>20778241
No. I've not. I think if anything that's the Evangelion effect. I fully admit that most anime is really pretty garbage, but there are exceptions. It's those exceptions I'm attracted to.

[Anonymous No.20778381]

I wish I had a gun

[Anonymous No.20778384]

>>20778381
Go buy one, dummy

[Anonymous No.20778390]

When I was a kid, I wanted to be a pirate.
Thank God no one scheduled me for eyeball removal and peg leg surgery.

[Anonymous No.20778396]

>>20769353
That wasn't a girl.

[Anonymous No.20778402]

>>20769762
Your "friends" are failed crabs
Get better friends

[Anonymous No.20778413]

>>20770185
Here

[Anonymous No.20778415]

>>20778402
amazing how little other things bother you once you're good looking

[Anonymous No.20778420]

>>20770305
>r/lit
Wait...no one here noticed anon referred to this board as Reddit?
I'm very disappointed in you seething schizos.

[Anonymous No.20778429]

On my mind,
I want to work on my story but the protagonists are suppose to be realistic females.
If anyone can help me get out would be much appreciated.
Setting: modern pre apocalypse earth, basically current events included.
Plot: Numerous pestilences are occuring, specifically STDs. Miscarriages and other causes of reduced births are starting to be noticed, but government and left wing news agencies refuse to link it to vaccines. A farmer bio engineer creates a type of cyborg artificial womb. Due to crime and other geopolitical issues the tech isn't censored fast enough and becomes opensourced. Men start growing these fully programmable "birthing persons" in the comfort of their own homes.

I want to write accurate opinions of women.
I was planning to have multiple factions.
> Left wing roastie faction (women who are promiscuous with left wing personalities)
> Right wing toastie faction (women who are promiscuous with right wing personalities
> Left wing trad faction (women who are shy and are not complete clown world left wing personality)
> Right wing trad faction (married women or mother's)
> Simp faction for bio women
> Chad faction for artificial wombs

Other factions can be included, but my focus right now is figuring out genuine responses that women would make if artificial wombs became extremely popular.

[Anonymous No.20778464]

>>20773572
>>20773654
How about getting off your dead ass and doing something?
Also, knock off the dope and the fapping.
You've literally never tried that.

[Anonymous No.20778469]

>>20773795
Actually has scientific evidence behind it.
https://www.nbcnews.com/health/body-odd/bad-smells-can-give-you-nightmares-flna1C9926317

[Anonymous No.20778493]

>>20778367
Same, although I'm not worried about developing a superiority complex. I'm worried I'll latch on to when I couldn't get any dates and get sadistic / abusive. It seems superficial to me that I'd only get attention after already putting the work in to improve myself.

[Anonymous No.20778516]

>>20775624
You didn't make an effort

[Anonymous No.20778525]

>>20777480
t. NPC

[Anonymous No.20778567]

>>20778384
I need money

[Anonymous No.20778576]

"NEGRO: Member of a subgroup of the human race who hails, or whose ancestors hailed, from a chunk of land nicknamed - not by its residents - Africa. Superior to the Caucasian in that negroes did not invent nuclear weapons, the automobile, Christianity, nerve gas, the concentration-camp, military epidemics, or the megalopolis."
-The Hipcrime Vocab by Chad C. Mulligan, from "Stand On Zanzibar" by John Brunner

[Anonymous No.20778626]

another wasted day

[Anonymous No.20778645]

>>20778567
Go get a job, NEET

[Anonymous No.20778659]

>>20778567
Grow a pair of balls and take from others.

[Anonymous No.20778662]

>>20778576
Have to admit, this is pretty based

[Anonymous No.20778669]

>>20778626
I had such a productive day today and didn't even realise til I saw your post
so not a total waste on your part

[Anonymous No.20778673]

The more I write the more inadequate I feel. I think I have good ideas. Great ideas, even, but I don't think I'm good at descriptive writing or setting the mood. I wonder how I can improve at such specific things? I'll just keep reading and writing. Maybe one day I'll get to a level where I can think "good enough".

[Anonymous No.20778674]

>>20777480
it does for me :)

[Anonymous No.20778905]

the other day i got like 5 hrs of sleep then did a 12 hr night shift. then i stayed awake 12 hours, then did another 12hr shift. isn't that mad? have you ever done something like that

[Anonymous No.20778940]

>>20778905
that is mad, I've done some shitty back to back shifts like that before but I always make sure to get at least SOME sleep in between, and even then I have to cope with energy drinks and coffee in the morning+afternoon

[Anonymous No.20779027]

I've been everywhere, man.

[Anonymous No.20779049]

>>20778940
yeah it was like a worst case scenario but in the end i did coke and it went all right.

[Anonymous No.20779103]

I never heard Chinese New Year called "Lunar New Year" until last year, in a commercial.

[Anonymous No.20779111]

>>20777111
Not sure if you're joking but if you google captain my captain you will find the source.
I remembered that too after all these years and not sure why. Has a nice ring to it.

[Anonymous No.20779166]

I've been alone and like a complete failure.
This year i set up a bunch of goals for me and i was honestly hitting them, then i get hit by this depression and existential dread constantly questing every action. I've ruined months of work in 2 months. I'll try to become more content in my solitude and workout, I guess I don't know what else to do.

[Anonymous No.20779196]

>>20778645
Not him, but are you hiring? If not where can someone with no qualifications, no experience, no car get a decent wage?
>>20779103
Because apparently Vietnamese and other people who celebrate the new year at that time get tetchy about it. You know how PC language is these days

[Anonymous No.20779202]

Haven't posted in one of these threads in months
Hope the sad saps who have been posting all the while are doing well
I'm same old same old

Hopefully getting a job with the state in the next week or two, but not certain yet.
Met a cute girl that's best friends with my best friend's fiancee, hoping I manage to make that work out but if not I'll live
Started working out again for the first time in months (years?), feels good. Always did bike rides but this is the first time I've done strength exercises in a while
Currently inebriated

[Anonymous No.20779241]

>>20779202
Here’s to things lookin up, anon.

And next thread
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>>20777111
>>20779111
what a nice coincidence of numbers. checked

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Holy shit THANK YOU
You’re truly the most based poster on /lit/

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>>20780300
Shhhhhhh