/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.20764537]

My parents utterly failed me

[Anonymous No.20764560]

>>20764537
you're still alive. you're probably not too stupid. you were just neglected and abused a little bit moer than most

grow from it.

[Anonymous No.20764569]

>>20764560
Same but I don't know if I've grown from it. More like shrunk lmao. Life kills.
>>20764537
You know what to do.

[Anonymous No.20764568]

>>20764537
You can do whatever you want and not care about their expectations or judgement. As long as you're sane and able-bodied, there's endless choice of paths to choose from. Consider the positives.

[Anonymous No.20764574]

>>20764537
They have, but they were fated to do so. Now tell me anon, what course will this unruly life of yours take.

[Anonymous No.20764586]

>>20764537
Me too. People will complain about both you and I but it's certainly possible, especially in situations where the child is a couple of SDs above their parents. It's even worse for autists or autist-adjacents, where a forced degree of socialisation is necessary for integration into society.

My life is absolute misery due to the astronomical incompetence of them, principally my (single) mother, with my father's poor marital decisions being a lesser factor. Why would anyone inflict this hell on another? Purely from biological necessity. Once they've completed their 'nurturing' they, having completed the only part of child-rearing that's 'respected' (ish) these days, suddenly feel quite happy to give up, regardless of how dreadfully the bollocksed it up, thus preventing any actual fleeing from the nest. Fuck the demiurge

[Anonymous No.20764620]

>>20764537
The only things that help me to continue is music, working out and reading.

[Anonymous No.20764625]

The school system was even worse.

[Anonymous No.20764668]

The book is pretty cool. I love this movie because it shows me how my life would still be intolerable tedious bullshit even if I had a degree and a yuppie job and an apartment.

[Anonymous No.20764737]

>>20764574
Suicide. Only if I'm lucky, though, and I don't feel too lucky.

[Anonymous No.20764743]

>>20764668
This, too. I have to constantly remind myself that no one's enjoying themselves on this hell of a planet, hell of a universe.

[Anonymous No.20764752]

>>20764537
me when the tendies are 10 mins late

[Anonymous No.20764755]

>>20764568
> As long as you're sane and able-bodied
Lol

[Anonymous No.20764758]

>>20764755
Yeah he said that on the wrong forum.

[Anonymous No.20764783]

Being raised by a single mom really makes you realise how contemptible women are desu

[Anonymous No.20764785]

>>20764537
Nigga whose bitch is you? WHOSE. BITCH. IS. YOU MY NIGGA?

[Anonymous No.20764806]

I was too embarrassed to ever invite friends to my single parent households and that really really fucked me up socially.

[Anonymous No.20764857]

I want to kill myself, but I've barely read anything. I have this irrational conviction that I should read a few books before I die, but I'm too feckless to actually read and just waste most of my time. This isolation is killing me, I can't even take advantage of the free time it affords me. Fuck this.

[Anonymous No.20764862]

at what point do you have to stop blaming your parents for your predisposition and take responsibility for not taking the actions to improve yourself?

[Anonymous No.20764872]

>>20764783
this desu
it's painful watching how she treats pets now and realising that's exacting what happened to me. I used to be surprised at how dreadfully I turned out. Lol

>>20764857
What'd you want to read?

[Anonymous No.20764927]

>>20764862
It depends. If someone keeps having traumatic experiences in their life they give up. That's how people become hoarders and other weird shit.
Lately I've been thinking that turning the dysphoria and pain into fuel might get me going again but it's fucked. Feels like a high wire act just staying alive. Kind of thrilling in a way but one push and you're gone. If the pain will never leave and I want to live then by making the pain into the will to live I can survive.

[Anonymous No.20764943]

>>20764568
>there's endless choice of paths to choose from
Midwit

[Anonymous No.20764949]

>>20764927
>If the pain will never leave and I want to live then by making the pain into the will to live I can survive.
you are alive to feel pain. this is a victory.

[Anonymous No.20764956]

>>20764949
> you are alive to feel pain. this is a victory.
How is that a victory?

[Anonymous No.20764965]

>>20764862
I'm dug in. And I'll never change.

[Anonymous No.20764970]

>>20764862
The predisposition is also their fault, most of all really.
Not my fault the trash didn’t take itself out.

[Anonymous No.20764973]

>>20764537
/lit/ - Literature?

[Anonymous No.20765000]

>>20764973
Little
Inconsequential
Tragedies

[Anonymous No.20765017]

>>20764956
there are no victories in death

[Anonymous No.20765022]

>>20765017
Mishima, Richard Russell

[Anonymous No.20765031]

>>20764862
Precisely 3 months after you realized they failed you

[Anonymous No.20765036]

>>20765022
>Mishima
That was a shitshow of a narcissist to gain more fmae.

[Anonymous No.20765037]

>>20764862
The same day I hear of a single person of a similar background that isn’t doing worse than me.

[Anonymous No.20765040]

>>20765022
ultimately, I disagree. I can understand how poetic what Russell did was - the idea of a lone man commandeering what is objectively one of the greatest collective achievements of mankind, and seeing the world in a way nobody else did. but who is his victory for, himself? he went out happy and on his own terms but to the detriment of everybody around him. a victory for yourself is meaningless if there is nobody to share in it, it's just selfishness.

[Anonymous No.20765103]

>>20765040
The greatest victory may be achieved in the deepest crevasses of a man's breast, in his holy of hearts, never to see light of day until it dies with him and becomes a seed whose shoot may finally grow under the gold sun.

[Anonymous No.20765163]

>>20765040
Everyone dies. If anything it’s selfish to demand everyone live as long as possible and deny the possibility that anyone is allowed to check out at a time they choose. What gives you the right to decide how someone chooses to die? You’ll have to confront death as well will you know any better when you get there?

[Anonymous No.20765171]

>>20764537
Me too so I've been looking for a book lately with a strong male figure I can emulate. My father acts so incredibly childish that it boggles the mind. He's constantly mocking and criticizing people but if you say something to or about him that even slightly resembles criticism he gets upset and takes it super personally. He has very little empathy, zero sense of boundaries, and is so terrified of vulnerability that the only way for him to relate to people is to talk about TV shows or songs he likes and then sticking his phone in your face playing a YouTube video or song at full volume, expecting you to drop what you're doing and watch or listen. I'm now finally realizing that my upbringing was not normal, that it is okay to have my own life that doesn't involve being used as an empty vessel to funnel interests and expectations through, and that I once and for all need to accept who he is and move forward with life independent of what he wants or expects.

[Anonymous No.20765175]

>>20764537
Utterly is a great new word i discovered today, i didn't really know it before browsing /lit/

[Anonymous No.20765192]

>>20765175
How about bigly?

[Anonymous No.20765359]

>>20764743
I am enjoying myself. Get fucked you stupid cuck.

[Anonymous No.20765380]

>>20764568
Maybe it's different in your country, but in the US, the path you're on is for the most part set by the time you're 20.

[Anonymous No.20765390]

>>20764537
Thing is, you could have had way better condition and still have them fuck you up. Objectively my parents were better than most, I was raised in an idyllic setting, had a great education, but that didnt stop me from trying to kill myself purely to spite them. Sometimes people will fuck you up with the best intentions by doing things which to everyone seems appropriate, because they have zero consistency.

[Anonymous No.20765412]

if your parents are shit, suicide is allowed?