>>20569674
No "strong" male figure, not no male figure. Sounds like daddy issues. Anyways op not a book but take up a martial art that hurts, boxing for me but there are others equally valid. Fighting has always been the driving force behind masculinity, a martial art will drive that for you yet again. Fasting also helped me with my discipline and is something I always turn back to when I am becoming lazy in other areas of life. And finally the millenia old tradition of stories about perfect role models, my favorite of which is the Count of Monte Christo.