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[Anonymous No.20340405]

/wwoym/ The Return

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[Anonymous No.20340425]

Niggers; loathe them.

[Card !jHyPHNoKGY No.20340432]

I'm a real fun guy

[Anonymous No.20340435]

First for being a sad reclusive man between 19 and 35 who was told they were bright as a child but never amounted to anything except having a moderate knowledge of Japanese porn actresses but has kinda fallen off that as his libido has plummeted over the last 6 to 18 months. Also for never having a girlfriend, not getting on with the their family, and occasionally wondering what it would be like if they were dead, not really wanting to kill themselves but just kinda not be alive you know?

[Card !jHyPHNoKGY No.20340441]

>>20340435
lmao, sucks to be you

[Anonymous No.20340442]

>>20340405
still trying to figure out whether denying negative rights is teleogical or deontological

[Anonymous No.20340453]

>>20340435
>was told they were bright as a child
here's a secret: every child is told they are bright. no one goes around telling kid's they're stupid. obviously they aren't actually all bright, as your lack of academic and career achievement can attest.

[Anonymous No.20340460]

>>20340453
it's not a secret, we all know this

[Anonymous No.20340461]

>>20340453
>no one goes around telling kid's they're stupid
that happens more often than you think.

[Anonymous No.20340488]

>>20340442
Huh? Why would it not be deontological?

[Anonymous No.20340491]

>>20340405
That’s the Subaru Telescope in Hawaii
>https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Subaru_Telescope
Thank you for sharing this picture OP.
We often don’t realize it but this board is very internationalist, so many people are provincial and insular, even in the big cities like NYC the so-called cosmopolitans only have a surface level interest in the wider world we live in.
Anons here are genuinely intellectual curious, how many things did you learn about here?
Everything from German philosophy to the Traditionalists and beyond.
Like it or not, 4chan has had positive changes in your life by exposing you to other things that you would otherwise not have found elsewhere.

[Anonymous No.20340497]

I've finally transcended the need for sex.

[Anonymous No.20340512]

Pop-psy is literally just DnD for girls

>DM:You encounter a Dark Empath at your best friend's party
>Player: I roll to establish healthy boundaries and practice self-care.
>DM: You successfully prevent the Dark Empath from exploiting your BPD to become your 'Favourite Person' but your self-care is impeded by intrusive thoughts about a fight on the phone with your narcissistic mother the previous day.


Its really off putting to hear people constantly talk about themselves in pseudo-medical terminology.

[Anonymous No.20340514]

>>20340497
how did you do it?

[Anonymous No.20340518]

>>20340488
so you're saying that something like nanny-state republicanism is duty-oriented on an ethical plane?

[Anonymous No.20340575]

>>20340518
Why would it not be?

[Anonymous No.20340583]

>>20340491
Wow. You’re welcome.

[Anonymous No.20340592]

>>20340575
I dunno maybe the ends are more important, like justice, though I digress, justice is a pretty much abused terminology nowadays.

[Anonymous No.20340604]

Fuck, bros, this shit is wild.

[Anonymous No.20340703]

>>20340592
But how does that matter? They're just different types of moral systems regardless of any value judgements.

[Anonymous No.20340744]

>>20340703
I guess so but maybe I'm coming from an "ends justify the intent" rather "ends justify the means" perspective ultimately.

[Anonymous No.20340778]

>>20340744
>"ends justify the intent"
Do you mean ill intent with good consequences is morally good? Sounds like regular consequantialism.

[Anonymous No.20340782]

I know this makes me sound like some reddit consoomer fag, and fuck maybe I am one, but I feel that the last time I was genuinely happy was when I was binging legend of the galactic heroes. Something about that show just made me forget about everything going on in my life. I haven't found peace since then.

[Anonymous No.20340788]

>>20340782
its ok to have fun dude

[Anonymous No.20340793]

>>20340778
shit, I guess my ethical theory is teleogical after all. thanks for inquiring.
>>20340782
I'm pretty right wing but mostly /pol/tards only care about being into not having fun. I don't see anything wrong with enjoying shit in your free time. hell, I still game quite a bit and i'm pretty old.

[Anonymous No.20340800]

>>20340793
as if habitually shitposting on 4chan is somehow better than playing games

[Anonymous No.20340893]

>>20340800
Eh, I'm not value judgements here

[Anonymous No.20340907]

I cant live like this.

[Anonymous No.20341100]

>>20340893
>Eh
I hate it when people type out "Eh". It's just so annoying. Like you're afraid or unwilling to actually disagree and have to soften your response by saying "Eh".

[Anonymous No.20341101]

How do I fully move on from the fact that I'll never be in a relationship?
I don't let it affect me in day to day life but once in a while I'll wake up from a dream where I have a chance or something similar The prospect of getting into one is so distant to me that's id put it on the same realm that normal people put winning the lottery into. I'm short, have an ugly face, and on top of that even my personality is lame. I already resigned to not expecting anything to happen so why can't I just get over it?

[Anonymous No.20341168]

>>20341101
>I'll never be in a relationship
How do you know that? A miracle might happen.

[Anonymous No.20341200]

>>20341168
I don't think it's healthy to cling to miracles or you end up like the poor people who waste a lot of money in the lottery

[Anonymous No.20341210]

Action eludes me. The conditions in which I live decay every day, the situation becomes more precarious and I find myself passive. For a fleeting moment success was within reach but that gave me pause. I have always felt myself discordant with the world I was constructed in and of, felt the present to be unbearable and the future to hold yet worse reckoning for the wretch I am. To feel joy, in general, would be to go against the prophecy I had written for myself. When I was young, and teachers asked me what I would like to be or where did I see myself in Five Years anything I said was blasphemous. Apocryphal. Because I did not see myself in Five Years. I kept faithful to the secret dream I held that whatever higher power there was would soon find me, excise me as a foreign body from the universe and finally put humanity back on the right track. But that never happened. So I have taken God's work into my own hands. I perform my duty and lo, my duty is to rot, as penance.

[Anonymous No.20341211]

>I was a loser
>Now I am a loser telling other losers to stop being a loser

[Anonymous No.20341215]

>>20341211
Wrong thread
Meant for >>20336025

[Anonymous No.20341318]

>>20341200
Theres no other solution for a weak man like me.

[Anonymous No.20341356]

>>20340512
It makes it very difficult to have a holistic, integrated sense of self

[Anonymous No.20341358]

Have sex

[Anonymous No.20341368]

>>20341358
I deeply desire Taylor but I also feel terrible by how misguided she is

[Anonymous No.20341400]

>>20340512
Such is life in the simulacra.

[Anonymous No.20341402]

>>20340405
I've been to that observatory
They didn't let me inside
It was cold outside observing the observatory
I did get a neat hat.

[Anonymous No.20341408]

>>20341358
Ok but I'm the one who gets said whether its consensual or not. If I get off its consensual, if not then no

[Anonymous No.20341414]

>>20341100
This unironically is Canadaphobic

[Anonymous No.20341416]

>>20340405
It just took me 4 hours to watch a 2 hour movie. I want to throw a tantrum, holy shit.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.20341419]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pYavsK9sPg

[Anonymous No.20341426]

>>20340512
Is philosophy DnD for men?

[Anonymous No.20341441]

>>20340512
I hate women. It's either this histrionic pop-psy with them, or just degenerate promiscuity. Sometimes both.

[Anonymous No.20341453]

>>20341426
DnD is DnD for men

[Anonymous No.20341472]

>>20341419
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fED72sWFjoU
ultimate simp jam

>u told me that u love me but its a lie
>cuz i saw u kissing with a bald head guy
damn

[Anonymous No.20341491]

Last night I fucked a transexual prostitute, bareback, afrer reading Infinite Jest.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.20341528]

>>20341472
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_y8azDtqUmc

[Anonymous No.20341535]

>https://youtu.be/DffqK6j-y1U
comment section is interesting

[Anonymous No.20341569]

Big dicks will rule the world

[Anonymous No.20341577]

>>20341535
AoI is an interesting dude, though I didnt really like this video because he basically says religion is a cope and we should embrace coping. A lot of the comments seemed to reflect that. They all accept a secular, atheist worldview from the outset, but think they can then use religion as a social tool. His audience seems to be very atheistic and ironically, lacking a proper philosophical foundation.

[Anonymous No.20341585]

I’m trying to dedicate more time to it but I don’t get much privacy or alone time lately.

[Anonymous No.20341598]

ok i'm going to read joseph and his brothers this summer and i'm not posting again until i finish. i'm a very slow reader so see u in the fall.

[Anonymous No.20341608]

>>20341577
Why are they so afraid of religion?

[Anonymous No.20341616]

>>20341608
They were the people brought up on New Atheism.

[Anonymous No.20341631]

https://youtu.be/5xCwerpgmJE

[Anonymous No.20341632]

any books to seethe less and cope more

[Anonymous No.20341641]

>>20341616
>New Atheism
Whats that? New Age Atheism?

[Anonymous No.20341707]

>constantly make advances to chicks at my group projects or flirt with female friends at parties
>a lot of people at my uni are starting to believe I'm misogynistic and view women as nothing more than sex objects and hate me for it
>actually I'm just unfathomably horny

[Anonymous No.20341742]

I got more "based" replies lately and I don't think I deserved them.

[Anonymous No.20341758]

>>20341742
This reminds me of the time I first got active on this board. I used to deliberately write posts that would get 'based' replies. Lol

[Anonymous No.20341764]

>>20341742
You earned them (You)s. Too many femoids tranny's and fags on /lit/ these days talking bollocks.

[Anonymous No.20341798]

>>20341632
Houllebecq’s study of Lovecraft. Idr the name. Also his essay To Stay Alive.

[Anonymous No.20341850]

I want to start an esoteric /lit/ youtube channel. Has anyone here thought on doing something similar?

[Anonymous No.20341874]

>>20341850
Go for it. Enjoy the cum tributes.

[Anonymous No.20341895]

>>20341742
Based unearned praise getter

[Anonymous No.20342069]

Im really unhappy and I think about it all the time.

[Anonymous No.20342090]

>>20340405
I've come to the realization that what I want out of life is very different from what I desired maybe 2 years ago. I'm tired. I'm tired and lethargic. My parents are pushing me in the direction of doing doctoral studies but I don't like people and I have no interest in working in academia, healthcare or climbing the corporate ladder. I don't want to live in the city anymore. I want to buy a small house by the sea and raise puppies, chickens, fish, swim, write literature, and play chess. I don't want to get married, I don't want to have anymore affairs with married women. I don't want to live in the city anymore. I just want to be alone and at peace, away from the chaos and madness. Is that really so bad?

[Anonymous No.20342145]

I want to write a screenplay in English but i have to improve my grammar and vocabulary. So i am figuring out how to do that.

[Anonymous No.20342156]

Las Vegas is unapologetically insane; it's everything LA wishes it was.

[Anonymous No.20342180]

Imagine being an islander idiot, oblivious to the world, not caring about anything outside your tiny slice of reality while drinking coconuts from your ancestral plantation

[Anonymous No.20342215]

Why am I so miserable and why am I so incapable of doing any of the things I think would help me cope with my misery?

[Anonymous No.20342221]

>>20342215
Mental illness

[Anonymous No.20342268]

>>20341402
dope

[Anonymous No.20342347]

Throughout different civilizations and groups of humans around the world we can observe the same form of basic archetypal organization, where a small minority of savants have always been in charge of shaping the culture, art, philosophy, science and technology of said civilization. These savants main feature is a creation-type intelligence, display traits such as pattern recognition, high-sensitivity, neuroticism, etc, same that modern psychology associates with introverts, melancholics, asperger and incel types.

Neurotypicals are the majority of the population, their sole purpose being machinery drones in charge of production. They have a memorization-type intelligence and are only able of working within the systems that the savants have created, because they're not able to create anything of their own.

Savants (introverts, aspies and incels) are the real representatives of the human species, while normies are just cattle destined to become obsolete in the future, and soon will be replaced by computers and AI

[Anonymous No.20342356]

>>20340512
Kek

[Anonymous No.20342362]

I think I hate christfags worse than I hate pavement apes

[Anonymous No.20342371]

>>20341707
I flirt with any woman that initiates contact of any time. Something about making a woman laugh and/or smile gives me the most amazing high.

[Anonymous No.20342372]

>>20342362
but do you like silver jews?

[Anonymous No.20342380]

>male professor uses "she" in every single definition and hypothetical

[Anonymous No.20342419]

>>20341608
Because religion being true is unironically scary.

[Anonymous No.20342429]

>>20342372
no.

[Anonymous No.20342451]

>>20342429
sorry for your bad taste!

[Anonymous No.20342476]

>>20342347
Cope
Most people are capable of greatness, but the initial spark is just plain luck

[Anonymous No.20342489]

Twenty minutes into guano and chill and he gives you this look. What do you do?

[Anonymous No.20342562]

Do you reckon it's possible to do a complete 180 switch to STEM after an entire lifetime of shunning math? I was decent at math but not naturally talented - i.e. I had to study a fuckton just to do OK whereas my humanities subjects I topped the class with much less study. Now that I'm 25 I realise humanities are useless and maybe I should swallow my pride and learn to code or whatever.

[Anonymous No.20342577]

>>20340435
Welcome brother. Although I did have one gf

[Anonymous No.20342600]

>>20341100
There's a lot of things I find annoying but I dont make a habit of talking about them constantly

[Anonymous No.20342729]

>>20340435
I totally understand this.

I recall teachers and my mother talking often about how gifted I was, how much further along especially in reading/vocabulary compared to my classmates. I remember skating through school, even most of my university, without ever really working hard. And now I'm 35, working a dead-end job paying me just-over minimum wage. People a lot stupider than me have gone on to get degrees (while I'm still finishing mine) and have families.

Feeling like you failed to live up to your potential and become special sucks.

[Anonymous No.20342741]

>>20340435

[Anonymous No.20342764]

>>20342380
Is he a philosophy lecturer? Every philosophy lecturer I've ever had does this.

[Anonymous No.20342767]

>>20341210
Or you could fix your shit. It's not penance to let everything fall apart.

[https://youtu.be/P9ReBZaWtp4 No.20342771]

If we kill all our enemies... over there... will we finally... be free?

[Anonymous No.20342773]

>>20341414
We should all be Canadaphobic. They're all weak wristed pussies.

[Anonymous No.20342774]

>>20340405
I got VR sickness.
Lockdowns have made me impulsive and unrestrained in speech. Real physical contact allows you to mutually stutter your way into a clear conversation. I have only gotten discouraged burps here and there of excessively formal excessively filtered planned artificial interaction that still feels vague and unsatisfying.
I miss seeing people outside. I miss physical meetings. I hope yall do too.

[Anonymous No.20342785]

Here's a ranking of what I've read this year
>>20340435
This is me except replace Japanese porn with Star Wars and NFL.

[Anonymous No.20342803]

>>20342773
There's a new girl at the office that's a Canadian transplant. I roofied her at an after work drinking session a few nights ago and took her home to violate her ass and cum in her pussy. I hate Canadians so much it's unreal.

[Anonymous No.20342807]

I feel like I'm finally able to put my life on the tracks again. Thanks, Atomic Habits.

[Anonymous No.20342808]

I’ve gotten so many bizarre 3 day bans for “fan fiction” lately when I post on topic. Just got back from a 3 day ban for posting my cock. Go figure

[Anonymous No.20342812]

>>20342215
You're eating like shit, sleeping like shit and treating yourself terribly.

[Anonymous No.20342816]

Manic-depressive hypersomnia

[Anonymous No.20342817]

>>20342803
This is unironically the correct choice. Canadian women are whores so she probably liked it.

[Anonymous No.20342824]

I'm aiming to find a source of income that lets me essentially become a NEET, or at least minimize how much human contact I have to have.
I can't do it anymore. Every time I get close to people I end up being a burden and causing problems. I make things worse just by being around others. I'm tired of trying to get along with people when clearly there's something wrong with me or something that I'm missing that leads me to make retarded decisions, and so now I just want to be left alone. Intimacy just isn't for me.

[Anonymous No.20342842]

>>20342824
Just stop being a burden lmoa

[Anonymous No.20342845]

I wish I had a job that only asked for me to be at a place for a time. Security is kinda like that but I hate having to interact with drunks and scumbags. I just want to write and be alone.

[Anonymous No.20342855]

>>20342845
Get a security job at a warehouse or one of those soul draining office parks. You'll rarely have to interact with anyone.

[Anonymous No.20342861]

>>20342824
in the same boat, practically. I don't like workplaces and them asking for college degrees, having mask mandate (I'm claustrophobic and autistic, not meme autistic, but actual professional diagnosis), proof of vaxx, you get the deal. some good remote work is what I need but my social services administrator is dragging his feet every time I ring him up to see how the search is going.

[Anonymous No.20342865]

>>20342419
be afraid, then
>>20342380
>>20342764
internalized gynocentrism. likely low T levels

[Anonymous No.20342870]

>>20340435
yeah it sucks

[Anonymous No.20342889]

>>20342824
Y-you too

[Anonymous No.20342975]

>>20342764
Yes. I wasn't aware that was a trend, this guy is the first fag who's done it.

[Anonymous No.20342986]

>>20341641
It was an atheist movement in the 2000s

[Anonymous No.20343007]

Any femanon wanna be my gf

[Anonymous No.20343014]

>>20342986
It was the fact there are atheists. There’s nothing new about it.

[Anonymous No.20343031]

>>20340512
>Googles Dark Empath
>it's a real thing

I need to write a D&D campaign with this premise.

[Anonymous No.20343037]

>>20341210
Read Oblomov.

[Anonymous No.20343040]

>>20341441
That's okay. Women hate you, too.

[Anonymous No.20343052]

>>20341441
A lot of these “slutty” women have a lot of partners because their aren’t too many guys stepping up to the plate. They’d rather be with an obnoxious asshole than single.

[Anonymous No.20343053]

>>20342562
I did it. Anthropology major to engineering degree.

Hated every second of it.

[Anonymous No.20343059]

>>20342855
I do security for a chemical plant and it's great. Eight hours of not seeing anyone and doing whatever project I want.

[Anonymous No.20343086]

Fucking feel like a fuck up.
Always making shitty mistakes in life and then paying for them.
Quit my job like 5 months ago and now can't find a new one at all. It's like I've been cursed by the universe or something.

[Anonymous No.20343091]

>>20343053
Where are you at now? Do you think it was better than sticking with anthro even though you hated it? Or you think there was another option entirely that you should have gone down?

[Anonymous No.20343126]

>>20343091
It derailed the first half of my twenties. I was miserable and didn't know what I wanted even though I was doing everything 'right', so I partook in destructive behavior.

It gave me the math and programming skills to do other things. I started working in data instead. I have much more flexibility in where I can work than what I would have had as a professional engineer. The specific type of engineering degree I have fascinates recruiters. I am likely more employable now than I would have been had I stuck with anthro.

I think I would have been much happier studying economics and computer science, and I will likely pursue a grad degree to that effect in the future.

You should choose something that you know you can do well, that offers stable employment, and that you can tolerate. Passion will come with time, like an arranged marriage.

[Anonymous No.20343169]

I order a lot of used books, in the past month I've had twelve delivered, and I'm worried my mail carrier is judging me or tired of stopping at my house. They always drive along their route dropping off packages before walking the route to deliver the rest of the mail, so they've been stopping at my house every few days for a month and I'm worried I'm being an annoyance.

[Anonymous No.20343170]

fuck this shit, I am tired of hangovers, I will quit being an alcoholic

[Anonymous No.20343219]

Did anyone try Howard Berg’s program? He claims he can teach you to read a book in an hour. I find that ridiculous but if I could learn to read just one book a day I might actually finish my backlog before I die. Is he legit or not?

[Anonymous No.20343237]

Every day is spent waiting for something. Even though my days and evenings are spent doing something toward some end goal, I can't help but feel that I'm chasing my own tail. I want it all and I want it now. I want the wife, the kids, the white picket fence, the successful career. I want the adventure, the danger, the nomadic life.

I can't reconcile my desires and I'm frozen in place until I can.

[Anonymous No.20343243]

>>20343086
Damn bro how did you fuck up that bad in the current climate. I dropped out of wageslaving for almost half a year. I called my old boss up Thursday and he was like yeah sure come in on Monday no fuss no muss. Only thing I'm dreading is the fucking commute and being away from my gf.

[Anonymous No.20343251]

>>20343170
Please do. Don't want a fellow anon to suffer through withdrawal. I'm cheering for you.

[Anonymous No.20343262]

>>20343170
Yeah man the hangovers are what made me quit too. Even though my hangovers weren't that bad, it feels so so much better to actually be clear headed throughout the day. You get so much more done and you're just happier. It's worth the change.

[Anonymous No.20343277]

>>20343170
Read recovery by Russell brand

Try learning meditation. For a free online meditation training try unified mindfulness or the brightmind app.

Meditation has been shown to strengthen the part of the brain associated with willpower and quiet the part associated with impulsive urges over time.

It can also be used to directly handle urges.

https://www.shinzen.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/12/art_urges.pdf

[Anonymous No.20343294]

>>20343170
eat a lot of food and sugar

[Anonymous No.20343336]

>>20340514
Learned to stop being hetero and love the cock

[Anonymous No.20343356]

Was gonna respond to that one anon about how Americans socialize and how its "feminine behavior" but with all due respect, continental Europeans suck at banter. They can dish out abuse but then get buttmad when they have to take it. I'm sure they make ungrateful bottoms.

[Anonymous No.20343376]

>>20343356
Yuros are weak when it comes to banter.
I understand the northern yuros with their autism but Meds also get triggered easily which is surprising since their cultures are more laid back.

[Anonymous No.20343391]

Aaaam an Alabama nigger and I wanna be free, hell with n double acp

[Anonymous No.20343394]

>>20340405
The original inspiration for wanting to be a better writer was so that I could post smut on /vt/ and turn on the anime girl streamer I'm in an intense parasocial relationship with. My muse is someone I've never met and she doesn't know my name. If I dwell on this too long I'm tempted to grab the loaded gun off my nightstand and end this miserable charade.

[Anonymous No.20343408]

>>20343356
>>20343376
Blue collar Canadians have some of the best banter in the world.

[Anonymous No.20343412]

>>20343169
They get paid to deliver packages. They don't care what's in them. They probably think you're some chick with an online shopping addiction.

[Anonymous No.20343417]

>>20343408
Fucking lies. Canadians are soft as shit.

[Anonymous No.20343426]

>>20343391
There’s no dues, nigga. You been had.

[Anonymous No.20343509]

>>20343417
haha Amerimutt detected, go prep the bull and kneel for BLM fucking faggot

[Anonymous No.20343557]

>>20342975
I'm a loser with two BAs and so have had a lot of lecturers. It was specific to philosophy lecturers, like they've decided as a field to adopt it

[Anonymous No.20343562]

>>20340435
>virgin "le gifted child meme" anon who
>burns out and ends up on a mongolian basket-weaving forum with his fellow broken men
>realizes he is painfully typical
>copes by endless rumination
>often tells himself the chads and "alpha" males peaked in high school, he was too good for the world
>lives and dies without a trace as a man of thought
>only legacy is anonymous mix of indistinguishable effort/shit posts lost in albatross of internet
vs.
>chad socially savvy midwit who cruises his way through life
>capable of healthy reflection in background of accomplishing chief life goals
>attains a good career, successful social life, family, and well-adjusted lifestyle without being tortured by crippling neuroticism and second-guessing
>passes on, leaving a modest yet respectable reputation among close and loved ones along with future progeny to continue his superior genetic line
we lost the lottery, either it was fate or the cruelty of life, doesn't matter. call it an over-simplification but the outcome is the same. welcome to the club.

[Anonymous No.20343579]

>>20342803
based
>>20342817
how are they worse than American women? I hear Toronto has the worst women and dating scene on the planet and every story I hear proves my suspicion right
sad because my dad said 90's Toronto was the shit and its transition into modern Toronto is the greatest tragedy in the Anglo world, hyperbolic I know. when I ask what changes he says "oh you know, everybody does. you just can't say it" kek. still feel bad for Canada anons

[Anonymous No.20343592]

the reflections of eyes trapped in darkness edged with sharp needles

[Anonymous No.20343608]

>>20343243
Yeah I also called my old boss up to return to my old place and he said sure, we can do that. But now some time has passed and it seems that he was just trying to be nice or some shit

[Anonymous No.20343652]

>>20340405
my inner world has gotten so complex and nuanced that words can't describe it

[Anonymous No.20343714]

>>20340405
i've been known to vomit

[Anonymous No.20343772]

I'm so fucking horny and my gf does not satisfy my lust anymore, I stare at voluptuous women in tight sweaters and pants in the street with high boots and fur jackets thinking sexual thoughts

[Anonymous No.20343788]

Truth should matter, but it doesn't.

[Anonymous No.20343794]

>>20343788
explain

[Anonymous No.20343803]

sometimes I think suicide will solve all my problems

[Anonymous No.20343809]

>>20340405
i'm so high school ex wasn't pregnant those times we had those scares
we agreed to abort it and i even did the math to figure out how to afford it in my state
we did plan b a couple times, maybe we averted that, i don't know how to feel about that, but i'm glad it never came down to it. because if it happened now i'd never consider an abortion for a single second. i'd beg her not to

[Anonymous No.20343847]

>>20343803
Sometimes I think, or get a sense or feeling, that death is what is really real, and that life is like this illusory skin that stretches over the surface of death, perpetually facing outward so we can't see the reality underneath and behind us.

[Anonymous No.20343848]

>>20343809

Its so sad that the default opinion on the matter is just to abort. Teenagers are being lead astray, aren't properly informed, and will then have to deal with the aftermath for the rest of their life.
>i'd beg her not to
And she probably wouldn't have if you were so supportive. Its not natural for girls to want to kill their babies, its just being surrounded by indoctrination from a young age which makes abortion seem like the natural and logical solution. As they get older, they need to persist in the delusion because the truth, that they've killed their own child, is too awful to accept.

[Anonymous No.20343873]

>>20343376
just say anything about their moms and they fly off the handle

[Anonymous No.20343874]

>>20343794
Most people seek the fortification of their bias and beliefs in authority figures capable of projecting a visage of unshakable confidence on a given matter to alleviate the anxiety they feel that they are unable to articulate their own values and beliefs in the face of criticism. A good example is to look at debates, where often it is considered a greater loss for a participant to stutter, or "uhm and aah", when answering a question even if they are correct than to forcefully and with great confidence hold an incorrect position. Because one looks weak and the other projects surety.
When you look around a the world, specifically where power resides, it resides in trust and faith at best, and sophistry most often. Trust that someone knows what is best for you, faith that such expertise is the building block of systemic institutions. And they might, they might not, it isn't important so long as you trust. And if this mask of civility is ever tested there is always the monopoly of force behind it.

Truth matters when the truth of the matter is something a person is directly confronted with, or responsible for. But the less immediate it is the more theater takes over for the vast majority of people.

[Anonymous No.20343883]

>>20343509
>getting this assblasted over a comment over being soft

[Anonymous No.20343887]

why is nepotism such a big deal in hiring practices? what gives?

[Anonymous No.20344004]

>>20343887
Because the globohomo economical system works best when the sense of family or community has been completely torn down, especially regarding business tactics.
You're supposed to hire a combination of the most talented for production purposes or the most colourful for PR purposes.
If NPC's were to just give a helping hand and prop up their own family instead of throwing them to the wolves to make it on their own, it could stifle productivity.
That's why ''nepotism'' is a cardinal sin in the business world.

[Anonymous No.20344044]

>>20340435
I tried to kill myself twice. I failed the first time because I have uncontrolled epilepsy and had an inconvenient seizure. Or a convenient one, depending on your point of view. The second time, I was committed and under quarter-hourly obs, so I was caught. I don't know why I thought I'd succeed, I guess I was just desperate.

[Anonymous No.20344058]

>>20343887
Its always been here.

[Anonymous No.20344253]

I just laughed my ass off at some artist getting his work stolen, because all he did was hang a blue coat with Picasso postcards in the pocket for people to touch and take out, and some old lady thought it was just a forgotten coat, nicked it and even had the sleeves shortened to fit.

[Anonymous No.20344489]

I am too autistic for any face to face sex positions. Smashing pussy and I am still awkward about duration of eye contact, what expression my face should be making.

[Anonymous No.20344508]

>>20344489
Damn anon lol. Maybe you need to get drunk because that shit should be the most natural thing in the world. I understand awkwardness making it difficult to get someone in the sack but once the process has started I feel like everything else just falls into place. I'm sorry that you can't be in the moment.

[Anonymous No.20344658]

>>20343170
what's hangover

[Anonymous No.20344675]

other day someone in the guenon thread said someone they know appears to have magical capabilities
what does that mean and how do you check for that

[Anonymous No.20344903]

>>20344675
They saw that person pull a rabbit out of the hat.

[Anonymous No.20344939]

>>20344004
well because of my poor social skills I can't hired because of that shit

[Anonymous No.20345037]

I hate having such a strong Saturn in my natal chart. It makes me ugly

[Anonymous No.20345101]

>>20343126
I'm an anth major, almost finished. Any advice for me?

[Anonymous No.20345171]

>>20344903
stfu

[Anonymous No.20345188]

>>20345171
Are you saying there is nothing magical in a fuzzy bunny emerging from an item normally used to cover someone's head?

[Anonymous No.20345219]

>>20345171
But that’s the answer. Conjuring is the only “magic”

[Anonymous No.20345231]

>>20345219
Conjure something on video

[Anonymous No.20345263]

>>20343219
Fake but not gay. I tried it. Berg gives an example of speed reading for a test vs skateboarding past the Mona Lisa. It trains your senses to speed read his given passages multiple times and speed read it backwards then crosseyed. Literally tells you to read cross eyes. Absurd right? You come to doubt him and his absurd claims of reading ultra fast for the first time. You will read material you are familiar with faster than material you are not familiar with. You will notice how some words jump out of the page and follow you while other words that you know even if you pedantically roll over them seen to hush into the background. the end of your expectations of speed reading. It's more about cognition and right brain visualization. You will not finish your back log. This is like sparring a boxing match and mindfully executing boxing combos at a slight reflexive familiarity boost. Reading with the Right Brain helped me more and it was written by one of Berg's frustrated students.

Yxx Cxn uxndxrstxnd wxrds lxke lxgxgxrams by filling in blanks seeing the fxrxst for the trees and rarely stop to inspxct individual wxrds.

[Anonymous No.20345289]

would love to see my favorite band live but unfortunately I live in kazakhstan where no bands ever come

[Anonymous No.20345299]

>>20345188
i will conjure a fucking dent on your face with my fist you quirky faggot

[Anonymous No.20345300]

im far smarter than most people and it makes living extremely painful, are there any countries where you can get safe and legal lobotomies?

[Anonymous No.20345319]

>>20345299
You sound like someone underage trying too hard to fit in.

But I have to say, universe is a funny thing, I've already seen a post today ending with 88 get a reply ending with 99.

[Anonymous No.20345326]

>>20345319
if i was trying to fit in i would bemaking gay jokes like you

[Anonymous No.20345340]

How to make lit better? It was never good but it took a sharp nosedive in 2016 and an even sharper dive in the last month or so.

[Anonymous No.20345494]

"When the fog slunk in with that salivary,
close, coyote panting, its hue a very
huelessness, like breath huffed on a glass,
like the void stretched and still stretching past
where we'd thought it could..."

that fog just like me fr

[Anonymous No.20345705]

[Anonymous No.20345775]

I'm being blamed for the death of one of my coworkers because he died in a car crash on his commute back home after he stayed in 2 hours late to cover some mistakes he made that I pointed out to him, I think I'll quit by the end of the week, working in such an environment is taking its toll on me and I feel like I'll probably end up believing they are right if this keeps up.

[Anonymous No.20345800]

>>20345340
Only browse /sffg/, ignore the rest of the board

[Anonymous No.20345809]

>>20340405
>first girlfriend from highschool ten years ago who I lost my virginity to just came out as a trans man
Unironically, does this retroactively make me gay?

[Anonymous No.20345826]

>>20345809
Yes. You're officially a faggot now

[Anonymous No.20345828]

>>20345809
Yes

[Anonymous No.20345852]

>>20345809
Yes

[Anonymous No.20345866]

>>20345809
Yeah bro I would never mention that to anyone irl. Dick game was so weak you pushed her into insanity.

[Anonymous No.20345989]

>>20345809
Makes her a mental case. Save her.

[Anonymous No.20346059]

>>20345289
How do you feel about women?
>>20345037
So is mine but I'm attractive
>>20343809
I had a similar experience. I'm horrified really. I remember sex and abortion being encouraged to me. Kids these days are so led astray. They're deliberately guided into life altering moral dilemmas. It's sick.

[Anonymous No.20346068]

>>20346059
>How do you feel about women?
I like 'em I guess, why ask me that question?

[Anonymous No.20346096]

>>20346068

[Anonymous No.20346120]

>>20346059
>So is mine but I'm attractive
How strong is it?

[Anonymous No.20346133]

my brain has been balkanized

[Anonymous No.20346154]

>>20345289
I wish I was in a great band. I’d tour Kazakhstan.

[Anonymous No.20346162]

>>20346096
I don't understand this meme at all

[Anonymous No.20346266]

>>20346120
Sun, Moon, and Mercury are all in Capricorn

[Anonymous No.20346278]

I feel bad for starting a journal, cause I'm again at the point when I feel my life is too fucking boring, and my thoughts too stupid, and few years from now I would just feel really embarrassed about reading a record of it.

[Anonymous No.20346292]

>>20346266
Thats pretty strong goat. However my Saturn is in 1st house and conjuncting Aquarius Ascendant. He wants me suffer for no reason.

[Anonymous No.20346307]

>>20346292
Just develop abused housewife syndrome and believe you deserve it.

[Anonymous No.20346310]

Oh great. Another pandering deletion. Here then.

>>20346220
I like a variety of women. I’m not afraid of differences in beauty.
>>20346256
Anime are bug like. East Asian women are quite human and lovely.

[Anonymous No.20346358]

>>20340405
>buy book
>wanted to buy this book for so long
>thought about the author and the cover for so long so much
>finally crack it open and read the table of contents
>oh shit Anon you're too busy to go on!
>more time passes by, YEARS, thinking about that table of contents
>ask so many people so many questions about those topics
>visit so many detours and initiate many journeys to rest my thoughts and wrest my questions
>finally sit down to read book with budgeted time to study unimpeded undisturbed
>put it down at the first chapter only to realize I learned far more than this brainlet author and his dead graphs

[Anonymous No.20346465]

Chrome or Firefox?

[Anonymous No.20346498]

>>20340405
I just set up a spotify playlist and holy shit, they're really going out of their way to make the whole thing as unbearable as possible to get people to sign up to premium, aren't they?

[Anonymous No.20346594]

>>20340405
Why the fuck did all the IRL sueyJaks worship Hermoine?

[Anonymous No.20346757]

What about the seas?
(What about us?)
The heavens are falling down
(What about us?)
I can't even breathe
(What about us?)

[Anonymous No.20346774]

>>20346757
>us rhymes with us

[Anonymous No.20346793]

I am getting paid to shitpost on 4chan

[Anonymous No.20346988]

>>20346498
Yes, especially with ads. I get about five ads every song or two. So I don't listen to Spotify any more.

[Anonymous No.20347046]

I’m attending Womens March’s event, “Bans Off Our Bodies in Miami May 14th” – sign up now to join me!

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.20347208]

Karaoke tonight. I will either amaze everyone or embarrass myself horribly.

[Anonymous No.20347216]

>>20347046
I will attend just to rape all those women. In Minecraft.

[Anonymous No.20347237]

[Anonymous No.20347299]

I think years of feeling nothing but hatred and boredom have finally burned away any emotion i might have had.

[Anonymous No.20347391]

im struggling with this. what is the correct way to answer it?

[Anonymous No.20347417]

>>20347391
From top to bottom, I'm giving you the autistic (wrong) answer:
Left
Right
Left
Left
Left

[Anonymous No.20347474]

>>20347417
thanks a lot anon. that really helped.
however, im still having a hard time understanding these comparisons. maybe im just getting filtered though. i really can't tell how im suppose to decide on these.

[Anonymous No.20347505]

>>20347046
women should not have bodily autonomy

[Anonymous No.20347602]

The passing of time is weighing on me. I look at the past 5 years and I struggle to understand where they went. I look at this past year. I did so much to seize the day and live in the moment. Now those days and moments are passed. It's as if they didn't even happen.
I've been hearing this expression a lot lately. "Making memories,"
To me it feels cheap. I want substance. I want reality. I want it tangible. Not some faded impression on the mind I cling on to.
I've been diagnosing myself with regards to these feelings. The apparent unreality of memories seems to me some kind of dissociation. I can recall at a certain point in my youth when everything felt real and that time would last forever. I lost this sense after a period of isolation. I think that had I been more active and social those moments would have been fuller and more fulfilling. I would have felt a contiguity between events and a coherent narrative instead of memories as disparate shades. And now my attempts to seize the day are doomed to fail because they're attempts to catch up and cling to the moment instead of a genuine life in the moment. I wonder if that sense of groundedness and tangible memory can ever be recovered

[Anonymous No.20347621]

I can't force myself to care about Descartes. Spinoza is even worse. I hope Leibniz is better so I can enjoy at least one enlightenment rationalist.

[Anonymous No.20347719]

>>20347602
it sounds like you have been judging your life based on the likes and interests of others. it's like you're trying to be someone you're not to "catch up" be like everyone else. you're suppose to make memories by doing what you love not what everyone else does.
what made you want to be like everyone anyways?

[Anonymous No.20347747]

>>20347719
They look happy.

[Anonymous No.20347768]

>>20347719
>it sounds like you have been judging your life based on the likes and interests of others
I'm not sure why you think this to be the case

[Anonymous No.20347814]

>>20347768
assuming you're the guy i replied to, you said yourself that the moments aren't memorable and that you're trying to catch up and cling to them which you admit isn't natural or genuine compared to actually living in the moment. it's literally disingenuous to yourself to force yourself into something you don't vibe with. more than anything it sounds like you're just hanging out with people you don't really fit with but idk
do you think im wrong?

>>20347747
very true, but so do furries circlejerking over a pizza. you could be like them. they're probably more accommodating.

[Anonymous No.20347848]

>>20347814
Anon... uh...
Why are you looking at furries jerking it over pizza?

[Anonymous No.20347875]

>>20345263
k thanks

[Anonymous No.20347921]

>>20347814
I think you've misunderstood me. I wasnt all that clear about what I was saying.
>moments aren't memorable and that you're trying to catch up and cling to them which you admit isn't natural or genuine compared to actually living in the moment.
I should elaborate. I have this weird relationship with my own memories. They don't feel real. I often get this sense that the past never happened at all. I concluded that this is the case because somehow and someway I am experiencing a kind of dissociation. I am not "present" because my mind is somewhere else. I laid blame on some periods of isolation in which I withdrew from reality. I feel it valid to blame that time because I have some recollection of being "present" prior to those points. When I was a child or a young teen it seemed as if I were in an eternal present while now I am acutely conscious of the passing of time.
I am lately experiencing a deep lonlieness and am desiring intimacy. I make the connection that the lack of contiguity between myself and my memories is born of that isolated I experienced and assume that if I were more actively social and developed strong bonds with others, that past 5 years would not be a void. Worst yet, I have been more active and social the past 6 months, but that passage of time and fuzziness of memory persists. I've been engaging in certain behaviors, like self harm or thrill seeking to try to really be now, but still I feel distant. I had some excitement this past year but those experiences seem unreal in memory. I am concerned that I now live in a kind of permanent dissociation. Or at least a dissociation from which I am recently now just "waking up."

[Anonymous No.20348011]

>>20347848
im not watching it silly. i just know of it. and know you know of it too.

>>20347921
im not at all trying to be critical of you anon, but you sound lost in life. you say you're lonely, yearning for intimacy, trying to live in the moment instead of just living in it, feeling disconnected from your memories, doing frivolous things that lack substance and yet yearning for something substantial. im no psychologist by any means, but to me it seems that you've been depressed for a while and you're trying living a life that doesn't resonate with you to try to fix it.
i dont know the reason for your isolation in the past, but i can admire your efforts in trying to undue the damage that you feel it's done. however it seems like the lifestyle you're trying to live just isn't working for you. thankfully, life has many paths to take and you can choose another one.


anyways, regardless of what i think, would you agree that talking to a good therapist would probably help your circumstance?

[Anonymous No.20348058]

>>20348011
I've been very resistant to therapy for a long time for a variety of reasons. I think I'm about ready to give in though. I'll see if my college offers any worthwhile counseling services. I'm on a shitty state health plan so if I went to a therapist through them they'd just see me 15 minutes once a week and give me a handfull of pills.

[Anonymous No.20348125]

>>20348058
i figure it's likely better than nothing. i imagine some of your resistance to therapy would be how many ineffective therapists are out there, because there are a lot of them, but im sure you'll know when you have a bad therapist. you sound like a smart and resilient guy and i think that whatever you're going through, you'll find your way out of.

[Anonymous No.20348141]

There was a dream that was America. Unfortunately it has became a nightmare.

[Anonymous No.20348299]

Are you guys hopeful about where the state of the world is going? It seems to me life was so much better just 10-15 years ago. If it keeps getting worse at this rate, in one or two decades the world would hardly be livable. I also see no reason for things improving, unless the prophesied Savior returns. So I am pessimistic. It also makes me lose motivation for progressing in life, because what would be the point of progressing if not for starting a family, and what would be the point of that in this age? I am not an anti-natalist but it would be really irresponsible to bring children into this rapidly decaying conditions. It was not at all easy for me to establish a place for myself in conditions we have now, so it would only be cruel to expect it from the next generations. The best option seems to be dropping out and becoming hermit, seeing it all crumble without a care.

[Anonymous No.20348326]

>>20342090
we're almost the same, anon. it's not that bad to retire and enjoy nature.

[Anonymous No.20348344]

>>20348299
it'll get better and also you can just make plans for the future to ensure your kids will have some degree of survivability in a decaying world, that way it's not out of egotism but out of humanism and love for them

[Anonymous No.20348372]

I am so lonely. I have no friends at all.

[Anonymous No.20348379]

>>20348299
The Messiah is always arriving, anon.

[Anonymous No.20348406]

>>20348344
Not the OP you replied to but this is an interesting thought. Since we don't know for sure if the future will get better, let's say it is a 50/50 shot. Is it still humanism to give life to something that may suffer in the not to distant future? If not what is the ratio where it is no longer humanism? 60/40, 70/30? I have a kid, I'm just curious.

[Anonymous No.20348411]

>>20348379
That's the problem, they never actually show up.

[Anonymous No.20348440]

>>20348344
I am not sure if I share your optimism. Sure they might be able to 'survive', but in my view living for the sake of living is no better than death. Call me old fashioned but I would be above all concerned about their spiritual and moral development. It would be very difficult to ensure that if they are supposed to mingle with this decadent society. Have you talked with some zoomers recently? They don't seem to be doing well at all.
>>20348379
He will arrive, but not until the appointed time comes.
>>20348406
It's not even 50/50. We have no reason to think the future will get better, although it certainly looks to be getting worse.

[Anonymous No.20348470]

>>20348440
>He will arrive, but not until the appointed time comes.
Love the magical loopholes. What's next? Blind faith?

[Anonymous No.20348501]

>>20348470
There is neither magic nor loophole here. Next is, God willing, his reappearance—may He hasten it. I understand where you are coming from though, as the situation doesn't look great.

[Anonymous No.20348552]

>>20348501
Looking great or not has nothing to do with it. It's always the same lines to get away from that nasty thing, burden of proof.
>He'll come when the time is right
>have faith
>everything happens for a reason, blah blah blah
Things look bad but they do every generation. Imagine staring down the barrel of a rifle while being apart WWII. That shit would feel way more apocalyptical than what is happening now. The world will get better or it won't and God won't have anything to do with it.

[Anonymous No.20348586]

ive been depressed since i was a teenager and no matter how many positive things happen in my life i remain depressed. i have had several gfs, graduated from a good college and had a fulfilling academic career, worked all kinds of jobs including ones that should be creative and fulfilling on paper and lived in one of the best cities in the US (NYC). also got into crypto and sold an nft for 50k and no longer have to work. have good friends, and on paper a good life. but i remain miserable. my few joys are reading, watching movies, and making things, which gives me a brief respite from the aimlessness i feel the rest of the time. feels like rampant capitalism is finally catching up to the US/rest of the world and we’re in a downward spiral. i have no hope for the future. basically my life is The Comedy. the only thing that has really helped in the past was mushrooms but i can’t be bothered to do them now, maybe that’s my only hope.

[Anonymous No.20348593]

I'm having a moment where after years of trying to convince the world that I'm smart it's finally clicking that I'm just... not

I thought if I had this realization it would kill me since for years I've been marking it down as the only positive aspect of my existence, but honestly I'm not feeling anything. or at least I'm not feeling it consciously. I mean yeah, my eyes are getting a little watery but honestly I'm not panicking, I'm not catastrophizing, I'm not feeling sad or depressed. It's just anticlimactic

[Anonymous No.20348615]

>>20348552
I don't believe everything requires proof. Do you need a proof that the external world is real in order to engage with it? For me God is self-evidently real in the same way. In fact, everything else gets their reality from God, so to prove the truth of God would be to prove the Truth itself. Still, if this was a more suitable time and place, I would have walked you through my philosophical system to show you that the proof is also there.

[Anonymous No.20348626]

>>20345775
it’s not your fault, just an accident of chance

[Anonymous No.20348692]

>>20345775
What a bunch of superstitious rats.
A toxic atmosphere. I wouldn’t blame you for leaving them. Leave behind a note telling them off even.

[Anonymous No.20348694]

There are few transportative experiences than listening to and singing along to this song in a drunken reverie in the darkness of night.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1vrEljMfXYo

[Anonymous No.20348741]

>>20348593
why do you think you're not smart?

[Anonymous No.20348768]

Do I deserve to be with a good person if I let good people slip through my fingers because I was manipulated by an evil person ?

All of those guys I would’ve rather have been with, THAT I SHOULD HAVE BEEN WITH went on to think something is wrong with them and that nice guys finish last and that fucking kills me

[Anonymous No.20348791]

stagnation period for me, everything related to any progress with relationships, jobs, trips is put on hold which makes me pretty anxious frankly.

[Anonymous No.20348846]

>>20348768

you are self-centered and lack personal accountability

[Anonymous No.20348894]

I wish I'd be anyone else but me.

[Anonymous No.20348905]

>>20348440
The Messiah comes like a thief in the night. What sort of thief appoints his time of entry?

[Anonymous No.20348907]

>>20348470
Blind faith? All faith is blind. None of us has seen Christ.

[Anonymous No.20348909]

>>20347602
As a child you were living in the present easily and without thinking about it. Then, as you get older and start thinking about the past and future more, you begin to stop living in the present and begin living in your past or future. This is may be the cause of how you are feeling. Of course the harder you consciously try to experience the present, the less it works. This is why childhood is so good, because you are born in the present and simply take this for granted during your first years. It's a difficult problem but a lot has been written on it. For me, reading Heidegger helped - the understanding that I am the present in a literal sense and that that is all there will ever be.

[Anonymous No.20348911]

>>20348586
Anon, mushrooms aren't your only hope. Think about God.

[Anonymous No.20348918]

>>20348894
https://youtu.be/hjlNzuB-cNQ
Your personal theme song

[Anonymous No.20348927]

>>20348768
>person if I let good people slip through my fingers because I was manipulated by an evil person
excuses

[Anonymous No.20348929]

>>20348586
These posts perplex me the most. I see anons post about bad childhoods, alienation, isolation, trauma and loss and all kinds of suffering. And then every so often I see a post like yours. Sometimes I think unhappiness is just the default for people. That we're just born to be miserable.
Anyway, if it makes you feel better it helps me cope to think that all those things I like to imagine would make me happy would not in fact make me happy. this is liberating.

[Anonymous No.20348934]

Nothing can be more terrifying than seeing your own visage in darkness and shadow. The most existentially terrified I have ever been is when zoning out staring into my own eyes in the mirror.

[Anonymous No.20348935]

>>20348741
I thought I was smart primarily because everyone told me I was in high school. I was good at academics, memorized a lot of random facts, a lot of things came naturally to me and I have a knack for solving puzzles. That said, all I really have are the kind of skills that look good on an IQ test.

Everything else though? I'm oblivious to how everyone around me sees me, I say stupid shit all the fucking time and dig my heels in when someone challenges me. I'm probably the most gullible person I know, and fall for fake outrage headlines all the fucking time. I'm absolutely terrible at assessing the outcomes of just about anything, and despite liking to speculate I don't think I've predicted a plot twist in a tv show or movie in years. Frankly, it took me until I was almost 30 to realize this. I'm pretty sure most people with gifted kid burnout figure it out by the time they leave college

[Anonymous No.20348937]

>had a decent childhood
>parents treat us the same
>brother ends up a decent, adjusted person
>I end up as a complete social outcast and a loser
what gives?

[Anonymous No.20348953]

>>20348937
Same here. I would say some of it is in genes, other in random experiences that we didn't even register as something that could shape us forever.

[Anonymous No.20348955]

>>20348953
>random experiences that we didn't even register as something that could shape us forever.
Can this actually happen? I know big traumas can change a person.

[Anonymous No.20348974]

>>20348955
quite frequently. I can trace a lifetime of crippling mental problems back to two kids I grew up in the same apartment complex as being mean to me

[Anonymous No.20348978]

>>20348955
Big traumas can change a person in major way, small things make small changes that could potentially stack up. Children are like sponges, they pick up everything.

[Anonymous No.20348981]

>>20348935
do you have adhd?

[Anonymous No.20348985]

It's Aristoteles.

[Anonymous No.20349008]

>>20348974
>>20348978
I guess you're right. Some small time event completely set the life course for the worse.

[Anonymous No.20349013]

I'm stuck in a past that I can't fix. I'm so full of regrets and mistakes and I can't move forwards because of it. The worst part is that I'm not even that old. Yet I want to go back in time and just make sure I don't fuck up as bad as I did. Even more mistakes have been made in the time that I have been wishing to go back. It's a slog to get my head out of the days that have gone by - my thoughts are all preoccupied with an idealized past that I've never lived. I don't know how to change my focus to the present so I can avoid making more wrongs that will be righted in my imagination. I could live a joyful life despite my regretful past, and yet I don't. I only turn my regretful present into a regretful past.

[Anonymous No.20349019]

>>20348981
yeah, plus I'm a sperg for the double-whammy

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>>20349013
literally me

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>>20347602
rewatch toradora

[Anonymous No.20349048]

I write short stories using people I meet in my daily life as characters. I can generally write a "90% draft" in less than a day. I do it all the time, mainly for my blog or for friends to enjoy. I spend more time on stories that I'll actually be publishing (mostly doing stuff like tweaking dialogue and applying more show-don't-tell, which can take quite some time. Lots of iteration).

I'm putting the finishing touches on a story right now. This one is more of a "total rewrite," unlike the previous one (which is already out there, and has had over a thousand comments already).

I wrote these stories alone. After this one is out the door, I'll return to the novel I've been working on for a year and a half. These were just "side trips," because I was getting burned out.

Novels are intended to tell narrative stories. If you use a different pattern, then "you're doing it wrong." That is not always bad. I can't actually think of any examples right now, but I'm sure that some of the new methodologies can be effective.

I strongly suspect that some of the new writing styles (I won't name them, because holy wars) were developed specifically to cater no longer to people that spend all their time alone, but rather to people who want to discuss what they read in a fairly large group of casual, uneducated folk.

Might work out. I don't know. That's not how I write. YMMV.

[Anonymous No.20349058]

There is a slavish look in her eyes that I long for but lately I've only gotten her cold, averted profile.

[Anonymous No.20349071]

As a kid I would frequently have dreams about missing the bus to school or from school to home. Later on in life, when I researched the meaning of these dreams, I found that missing a bus can be a symbol for missing an opportunity. In the context of being a kid, that was strange - what opportunity was there to miss?

Here I am now, many years later after I stopped riding the bus to and from school and having those dreams, and now being hit with the realization that the missed opportunities are my biggest regrets - the missed opportunities for teen love, the missed opportunities to build good habits to succeed, the missed opportunities to build good social skills, the missed opportunities to develop skills and hobbies. I've always felt behind in life, but I never knew just how behind everyone else I always was. I don't think I'm ever going to catch up.

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>>20349019
reason i asked is because i think you're just having a hard time focusing and tend to miss out on the tiny details. i dont know you ofc, but i think the reason you can do well on puzzles and tests is because it's in an environment with hardly any distractions, because frankly dumb people dont excel at that stuff.
i think that if you were to work on something you love, your iq would show reveal itself since anything less would capture the same attention. you have to find a way to create harmony with your mind for it to work for you.

[Anonymous No.20349192]

People often deny the importance of beauty by saying that it fades. Are they fools or are they nihilists? Do they not see that everything fades?
I wish I was an artist of some sort so that I could capture beauty and immortalise it.
I suppose I'm too old for that though; wouldn't even know where to begin.

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>>20347602
You aren't the only one who feels this way. For what it's worth I have a borderline suspicion that the flow of time is accelerating. And I don't simply mean that it feels faster because of the pace of modern life but that time, as independent of us, is objectively getting "faster" in some way, for some reason, if that's even possible. I won't go too in depth with this though because this isn't a schizo thread but my theory has to do with a cyclical/non-linear model of time.

[Anonymous No.20349240]

>girl that told me that she had never connected on this level or had never been this attracted to another person before also told her parents, when speaking about me that I was nothing serious

Trying to figure out why over the last 4 months of my life I spent nearly every day with this girl. Is it because I'm poor?

[Anonymous No.20349253]

>>20349240
Anon, women say all kind of things with no relevance to reality.

[Anonymous No.20349258]

>>20349192
Bob Ross was in his late 30s when he first learned the wet-on-wet technique that will mark his life. Until then all he had was frustration because art instructors were obsessed with abstract and wouldn't even teach him how to draw a tree.
The most important is dedication and practice, observe and fill up each page of a sketchbook from top to bottom, don't be afraid of making mistakes and drawing one thing 100 times over until you get the natural feeling for flow of the line.

[Anonymous No.20349261]

>>20349253
This girl has told me about everything in her life and about all the things she'd like for us to do together and then just dropped that bomb on me last night. Never been involved with someone whose words and actions were so incongruent before.

[Anonymous No.20349273]

>>20349258
Thanks for this post. Do you consider writing a form of art?

[Anonymous No.20349292]

>>20349261
>This girl has told me about everything in her life and about all the things she'd like for us to do together
This is exactly the kind of thing that means nothing to a woman. Every guy experiences this at some point where they take a woman's words too seriously. I don't hate women or anything but you have to remember words are mostly meaningless things to be thrown around and discarded for them. The male and female brain are wired to use language differently.
In fact, honour as a whole is a very different thing to women than it is to men.

[Anonymous No.20349295]

What a novel, novella, short story, flash fiction, one sentence story have in common? They must have a common element deeper than that they have O’s in their names.

[Anonymous No.20349296]

>>20349273
Yes, writing is one of the things that can capture beauty and all sorts of deeper emotions into a form that more easily reaches a lot of people.

[Anonymous No.20349308]

>>20349296
How does one learn to write at the level that it becomes art? I strictly mean prose not poetry.
I've been trying for a while but it seems like what comes out on the paper is much cruder than the ideas I have in my head, which are usually in the form of images and intuition. This writing thing is much harder than I expected.

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>>20349308
I'm far from an expert, but I would say you could practice expanding on your descriptions with adjectives, almost as if you are painting, make comparisons, contemplate. Although it won't work on everyone, art is highly subjective experience.

[Anonymous No.20349329]

Literature. Lit-rit-chure. Literature.

[Anonymous No.20349330]

>>20349329
Literachud

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>>20349320
yeah

[Anonymous No.20349406]

>there are plans to increase mortgage rates
sweet... an eternal rentcuck

[Anonymous No.20349442]

>>20348846
BTFO

[Anonymous No.20349446]

I love trying out so-called healthy food for new experience, improving my health, and potentially replacing industrially processed junk, but I've started to ask myself just how healthy all this is. I am not talking about the various oatmeal snacks and whatnot one can find in any store, but rather the items from the bio/vegan section and specialized webshops.
I was thinking of getting spirulina, cause it's so highly praised, and there are by now million articles and recipes on the subject, but out of curiosity I looked up a local forum and it seems a number of people had shocking revelation of spirulina messing up their liver's function. Looking into the issue a little deeper, what no one tells you is that spirulina as an algae can easily end up contaminated with toxic metals and harmful bacteria, so it's really a gamble when you take this stuff, as the quality control doesn't seem to be that great.

[Anonymous No.20349507]

>>20349329
Literature. Literally A Chore.

[Anonymous No.20349575]

My brain is sometimes in such a hurry to write down a word that it makes the hand start from the middle rather than the first letter.

[Anonymous No.20349585]

>>20349575
Same. I used to keep a list of the ways in which I had butchered words I know perfectly well how to spell. Some of them were nigh indecipherable or outright absurd.

[Anonymous No.20349638]

Big dicks will rule it all

[Anonymous No.20349803]

>>20348615
>I don't believe everything requires proof.
Of course you believe that. Hard to have faith in something if you also require proof.
>Do you need a proof that the external world is real in order to engage with it?
This isn't the same logic. The answer is rhetorical. Of course I don't need proof that the world exists to know that I have to breath air. That's not the same thing as requiring proof for the existence of an omnipotent being.
>In fact, everything else gets their reality from God
Not a fact at all. This sentence makes no sense.
>I would have walked you through my philosophical system
Writer it down and link it. Is there ever a coinvent time to prove the existence of God? Seems like another logical loophole to me.
I'm glad that faith in a God brings you comfort, and I mean no offense. But it is little more than a coping skill to deal with the reality of human existence.

>>20348907
Correct see my additional comment here >>20348552

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I want to put my head into my ex-gf's b00bas.

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>>20349873
I want to put my ex-gf's head into shit

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I have sexual relations with a transexual

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>>20349962
Couldn’t you make it properly?

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>>20349240
>is poor
>spends nearly everyday with a girl
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