why am i like this

[Anonymous No.20080374]

>whenever i'm swamped with work i feel an overwhelming desire to read
>i start planning what books i'll get through when i have free time
>i fawn over the concept of just leaning back and reading a good hearty book without worries

>finally get free time
>don't feel like reading
>brain rejects books
>free time ends and i've either read nothing or none of the grandiose ideas i had

and it's an endless cycle

[Anonymous No.20080399]

>>20080374
Too bad

[Anonymous No.20080427]

>find a book that’s very relevant to my recent ideas
>it’s well received and considered influential in the field
>order a nice expensive hard cover
>oh man this is gonna take me to the next level, can’t wait to read it
>read part of the introduction
>it ends up on my shelf for two years until I take on another obscure interest, onto which I’ll project crackpot theories and never finish more than one book on the subject
I’m ngmi

[Anonymous No.20080779]

>>20080374
Maybe the idea of having read a book is appealing for you, not reading.

Reading isn't an easy thing, you need to be focused and concentrated, which can be hard after being tired from work.

Instead you should be focusing on the activity you are doing, the road is the goal. You get more pleasure from trying to behave like a person you want to be. Not having read x amount of books.

Maybe I'm wrong and you just seek a fullfilling activity, instead of your workand that's why the idea seems appealing at work.y2a2d

[Anonymous No.20080787]

>>20080779
Ignore the thing at the end, I accidently typed the captcha there

[Anonymous No.20080819]

>>20080779

this is genuinely really good advice, thank you anon <3

[Anonymous No.20081227]

>>20080787
I can't do it. It destroyed the entire credibility of the post. Please kill yourself.

[Anonymous No.20081248]

>>20081227
Dude you need to calm down now.

[Anonymous No.20081540]

>>20081248
>Dude you need to calm down now

[Anonymous No.20081580]

>>20081540
Another r*dditor using the chamelion technique.
>yeah bro you're such a true channer holy fug
Cringe.

[Anonymous No.20081849]

>>20081540
Stop spamming threads, faggot.

[N E M O . !!GgBWHLRiayD No.20082970]

>>20080374

1. Reading requires focused effort, and is therefore physically exhausting to a certain degree, especially after relinqushing half of your waking life to superfluous work.

2. Extensity of inertia is directly proportional to intensity of interest, and vice versa.

[Anonymous No.20083039]

>>20080374
Reading takes focus and energy. Work drains all that so that when you finally have time for reading you don't have the focus or energy for it.

[Anonymous No.20083309]

>>20080374
Just read, how hard is that for you?

[Anonymous No.20083324]

Sounds like you‘re using reading as a way of procrastinating work. But i guess you already know that.
Honestly, don‘t worry about it. It happens often to me that i get into a new topic of interest, research all the books then get excited about a few ones that sound promising but then being disappointed in them after the first few pages because i realize that whatever insight they might be able to offer, i already have. So why waste my time going trough all the pages if i already have grasped the most elaborate concepts it has to offer? If i do stumble across a book that truly hits the spot on what i‘m no about at that moment i usually devour it in half a day. Sounds a bit like you‘re not giving yourself the necessary freedom to listen to your intuition and only read if it comes effortlessly and is enjoyable. For me, reading is like a treasure hunt for the next piece of the puzzle. If imm not intensely drawn to a book, chances are it doesn‘t hold that piece for me at that time. Maybe i‘ll come back to it a few years later or so and then it is exactly what i need. Trust your gut and you‘ll be fine.